I Am Terrified That My Illness Will Take Him From Me

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    Too Late...

    It was only a matter of time before it ended. He lied. He wasn't capable of loving a damaged soul. No amount of convincing would make me believe otherwise.
    lntel lntel
    22-25
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

    I Just Wanna Be Normal.is That Too Much To Ask?

    I am in a very serious relationship with a man i truly adore and respect.He makes the sun come out when my day looks grey and dark.He has tried his hardest to repair the damage that my last relationship inflicted on me (My ex was a alcoholic,abusive,often put me down and beat me...
    bpdgirljoanne bpdgirljoanne
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 3, 2011

    How Many Times Can I Stand It?

    I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and it basically controls my life. I get sharp and incessant muscle and joint pain, bad stomachs aches and headaches, severe brain fog, a bad memory, physical fatigue, insomnia, uveitis, pots syndrome and a terrible immune system. Obviously...
    Invisibleninja12 Invisibleninja12
    18-21, F
    Oct 28, 2013

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