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I Am the Child of An Alcoholic

For people whose parents drink or drank in the past. 2,985 People

    As the expression goes,

    "damned if ya do, damned if ya don't". My father is an alcoholic. I have shared on here before. I was hoping things would get better again, which I now feel stupid for. I always believe he will change, and what for? I live on false hopes. I'm laying in my bed crying as I write...
    ktd23 ktd23 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 1

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    My father broke my heart way

    before any boy had the chance too.
    PinkDolphins PinkDolphins 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    My mom says a lot of stuff she doesn't mean

    when she's drunk but I can't shake the thought that its what she really thinks, I've confronted her and she promised to stop drinking but has yet to stop
    MrPerry MrPerry 16-17, M 4 Responses Jan 12

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    My father was an abusive alcoholic.

    Verbally and physically. My parents divorced just after I turned 6 and my brother was 2 almost 3. My current step dad is an obnoxious alcoholic. He's also abusive verbally and mentally. I think my mom's to scared to leave him because they share twin 2 year olds. My mom's an...
    MaydayLife MaydayLife 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    God do I fear becoming an alcoholic someday.

    No one plans to become one. I know people stumble upon it completely by accident. I don't know what I would do if alcoholism creeped up on me the way it has for my loved ones.
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 22

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    Untitled

    My dad is an alcoholic. My mother won't leave so I did.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    Just Another Stranded Soul

    My father was a high-function alcoholic. He never lost his job, never was incapable, would just drink himself insensible after work. He was an ugly drunk with a bad temper - never hit anyone, but his tongue and his anger were terrifying to all his children. Many of my most vivid...
    firefall firefall 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2011

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    My mother was an alcoholic

    for over twenty years. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll end up like her. I'm already much like her now. I see my anxiety and self consciousness through her and i feel myself slipping into that black hole of negativity I've seen her in all my life. My long term goal is to not be like...
    nikkiisluv nikkiisluv 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    My Father

    On September. 21. 2000 My father died drinking and driving.  It was the beginning of school I had worked all summer to by new clothes, and fix a car I was given by my Grandpa. I thought it was going to be the best year ever I actually had friends that I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Both My Parents Were Alcoholics

    The title kind of says it, really. Both my late parents were alcoholics, though not at the same time. My father was a very shy man, who felt awkward around people, and clearly drink made him feel more confident, though he would still not really talk to people, but just get...
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 21 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    I am 22 And am currently living with my

    alcoholic mother. I honestly have no idea where to begin with this because it truly has gone on for as long as I can remember . I remember very little before being 6 years old apart from the horrible flash backs I get of her lying passed out on the floor or her and my dad having...
    Jayne1991 Jayne1991 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    Somedays

    Somedays I stare at a wall thinking of the cells the cells she locks herself in the cells this demon has killed I think to myself why would someone someone so smart pour it away it gets harder each day to remember my childhood I was the baby without a bottle it lives in...
    deciBle deciBle 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    Alcoholic Dementia

    My mom has been an alcoholic my whole life, I am 24 years old. It wasn't until the past ten years when it took a hold of her. It was right after my little sister was born when things took a turn for the worse and I was in 6th grade. My step-dad made enough money where my mom didn...
    ohhitsami ohhitsami 22-25, F 11 Responses Dec 27, 2011

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    Who Needs College When You Had An Alcoholic Parent, Right?

    I learned so much from having an alcoholic father. Like... -A "40" costs about $2.50 and it's almost always drank with the brown paper bag still around it - the entire time. -Don't leave change or money hanging around anywhere unless your starting a "Brew for Dad Foundation...
    Elaine19 Elaine19 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22, 2012

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    My name is Brigid i'm 19 years old

    and my father was an alcoholic, weather or not he is still one i have no clue. I chose to cut ties with him because he was very manipulative. Growing up my parents argued a lot but i had no idea it was because of his alcohol use. He was disabled (cerebral palsy) my mother had it...
    flowerchildbri flowerchildbri 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 11

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    Alcoholic Father

    The tagline really says it all. I am the child of an alcoholic and have been living with him for 18 years of my life. If I could describe the experience in its entirety , I feel like I am living with two different fathers. When he is sober, he is a completely different person...
    justbefree justbefree 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    My father died aged 70 in 2010.

    The official cause of death was Bronco pneumonia with Supperative Pluresy. He was sober when he died but his body was weakened from the years of alcoholism
    RomanyTryphena RomanyTryphena 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    I haven't seen my dad in a year.

    He lives only two hours away. The last time my sister (who is only 15) tried to visit him , he called me to yell over the phone calling her awful names and saying we were ungrateful. I called my mother panicing and she went to get her. He finally texted me about a week ago ,,but...
    ktd23 ktd23 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    My mother is an alcoholic.

    And when she would drink she would flip flop between loving(ish) and raging mad. It's funny because I feel guilty for all the problems I am learning her drinking caused in my life. I always new it had an effect on me but her and everyone else in the world told me not to blame...
    neskan4 neskan4 26-30, F Jan 26

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    5 O'clock At My House

    Everyday at five o'clock, my dad would come home from work and be greeted by mother with a kiss and a glass of whiskey and soda.  She would make one for herself.  It was the cocktail hour for both of them.   They drank all through dinner and well into the...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 36 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    Because Of My Dad, I'll Never Touch Beer.

    I literally don't want anything to do with alcohol after dealing with an alcoholic father my entire life. He has a lot of problems, but his most irritating one has got to be his alcoholism. One recurring theme is him sitting around drinking beer and complaining about how badly...
    tjlkitty tjlkitty 18-21, M 4 Responses May 18, 2012

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    So finals are coming up

    and my dad is still the same way....he's supposed to go into rehab. The only thing that sucks...he goes after im done finals. I dont know how im supposed to focus on school. Ive been so stressed out lately, i need to ace my finals this year and i keep telling myself, just focus...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    So Where Do I Begin...

    First of all, I've never shared anything on any online forum, let alone anything like this, so I hope I'm doing this right. So where do I begin... I guess I'll start by just coming out and saying it, my father was an alcoholic. For the longest time, my dad was someone who just...
    LookingForALifeline LookingForALifeline 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    Dear Daddy

    Dear Daddy, Tell me again how much u care how you'll love me forever how you'll always be there remember with me the stories of past memories of happy times that will always last dream with me daddy of castles and knights of rose covered fields and...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 12 Responses Jun 16, 2007

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    Dearest Father.

    I know I've said this once before (Remember that time you slammed me against the wall with your hands around my throat and then when you finally let me fall to the floor- sobbing and begging you to leave me alone- you laid the boot in?) but I ******* HATE YOU!I have tried so god...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 10 Responses Aug 3, 2011

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    My dad has been an acholic all my life

    and my mom has been for about 11 years. They divorced when I was two so now my mom is married to another alcoholic who verbally abuses me when he is drunk which is mostly always. I am tired of living with them because I feel like they don't care about me and they're always...
    jazzyrose jazzyrose 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I am incapable I am incapable of touch

    Incapable of taste Incapable of hearing Incapable of feeling I am no longer human I stumble over fermented water and my words collide and lay with nothing. All my worries have dissolved in diluted alcohol and fills my brain with no coherent thought. I lay in the dim...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    Pain From Childhood And Heartache

    Right were do I start? I am unsure of why I am here.. but I feel its not best to keep things bottled up inside forever. My mother has been an alcoholic for most of my life, I have memories of her being drunk all the time from when I was about 10 years old. She is now still...
    ABoing ABoing 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    Just Been Thinking Lately

    I'm flying out to see my dad for spring break in about a week, and its just making me think about things lately. I didn't have it bad like some other people who have parents with the same disease, but i think i have my mom to thank for that. I used to be so angry at him for all...
    PaperTowns PaperTowns 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    It seems that I can't find anyone

    who understands what this is like. It's as if there is a never ending wall that I constantly break down to try and escape this.
    rickychavezzz rickychavezzz 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    Relationships

    As an adult child of an alcoholic what are the main problems you have faced in your relationships? I think it is trust for me, that and believing that I do not deserve someone that treats me right. It used to be that I believed I could save people. I was always trying to save...
    21again45 21again45 31-35 1 Response Oct 12, 2013

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    It's really hard to deal with sometimes.

    My dad drinks nearly every single night and I hate the drunk him. Is all I want his him to go to rehab but no one In my family will freakkng listen to me. Ughh.
    ally5101999 ally5101999 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Daddy Wake Up...please Dont Do This

    Born way 2 early had 2 fight 2 all along. nothings ever come easy! Moms always busy and dads always stoned. NO foorsteps to follow No compass to guide me. I wish i could make you see how hard it is to become the 2 people i never wanted to be. My lifes laid out in front of...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 22-25, F 12 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    The Effects of Parental Alcoholism On Children

     Until  recently, the impact of alcoholism was measured by its effect on the alcoholic, by days lost from work and highway fatalities. New research has tended to concentrate on the impact of alcoholism on the family, especially the children of alcoholics. Studies have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    I'm utilizing this space

    because I have no where to express my emotions anymore. I repress everything and it just fuels into anger. My mom, is an alcoholic. She drinks the minute she comes home from work, I go to dance, and when I come home there she is on the coach, passed out or slurring words and...
    brookeed13 brookeed13 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I thought my mom stopped,

    she just fought and hit my step dad and ran out after 2 bottles of wine, I'm just trying to protect her from doing something rash and she hates me for it
    MrPerry MrPerry 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 30

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    Pilsner Or Moonshine

    My father's drink of choice was always Pilsner, well, that was until he started making his own moonshine. I remember schlepping bags and bags of potatoes/ fruits & sugar up to the small bedroom where he made the eye-watering, nose-curling clear liquid. Once a batch was ready...
    wickedties wickedties 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2009

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    My Mom Drinks All The Time

    My mom has been an alcoholic all my life. I found out about it when I was 7. I am now 17, and in a few months I will be 18. She has said many horrible things when she was drunk. It makes me mad because people always say "drunken words are sober thoughts." It makes me sick to...
    xoxally xoxally 16-17, F 11 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Brighter Horizons

    It wasn't until very recently - within the last day or so - that I discovered there exists a wealth of research and literature centered around the aftermath of being raised by an alcoholic. Sure, I knew that I didn't experience a normal childhood, and I also understood that...
    atomicmango atomicmango 22-25, F Oct 22, 2013

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    Growing up, not only was my dad an alcoholic

    but he was also a drug addict. My mom neglected me. My dad was in and out of jail constantly beating up his girlfriend when he was drunk off his ***
    babykaykez babykaykez 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    Being the oldest of my siblings has its

    advantages and disadvantages. My childhood was a very dark place, coated with the scent of cigarettes & booze. I remember everything, but my brothers aren't old enough to remember. My dad would drink every day. It gradually got worse, causing my parents to fight all the time...
    queeeenb queeeenb 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    My mum is an alcoholic.

    Being the middle child (and the only girl I might add) I feel like its my job to look after my younger brother using the advice my older brother gave me. I try to tell him that it's only the alcohol talking. But I know that isn't true. The alcohol gives her the ability to talk...
    Frantastic96 Frantastic96 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    My Story

    I`m going to do a bit of venting here. I`ve had a lot on my mind lately and I need to just unload it somewhere, I guess. Right now, my family is struggling economically, I`m unemployed and desperately searching for a job, and I`m depressed and angry about it all. My family has...
    JesusKravitz JesusKravitz 18-21, M 2 Responses May 20, 2013

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    My dad is an alcoholic

    and a couple of weeks ago he was ill. My younger sister informed me and my first thought was he didn't take in alcohol. Anyways the next afternoon as he was finishing work I called him and as I expected he was sitting at a bar drinking beer (or as he calls it medicine). He just...
    Kaksy Kaksy 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 31

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    My Mother

    My mothers best friend died when I was young.. I don't remember the year I was but I remember I was in the 5th grade. I came home and she was on the floor with a bottle of vodka sobbing. Ever since shes been drinking and its been terrible. When I was in middle school I remember...
    CallMeHope CallMeHope 19-21, F 29 Responses Jul 15, 2007

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    A Long Line of Alcoholics

    My family history, more than anything, convinces me that genetics has a strong influence on what we do in life. It doesn't preordain our path, but it may make it much harder to choose a different path. My father's father and grandparents were alcoholics. My father started...
    WittyOne WittyOne 46-50, F 31 Responses May 24, 2007

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    My Mom Drank Herself to Death

    I am 29 and my mom died on Thanksgiving 2005 of cirrhosis of the liver. Slowly, her liver, kidneys, and lungs failed. She was 44. There is so much I am going through as a person because of her alcoholism and it makes me so angry that I have so many problems because of it. I don't...
    aka746 aka746 26-30, F 75 Responses Feb 21, 2007

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    Growing Up With An Alcoholic

    From the ages of 9 years old until I was a senior in High School my mom was married to an alcoholic. Life was very difficult. My mother was physically and mentally abused as well as my older brother and myself. Things were so bad at home that my brother quit school and left home...
    cmost cmost 36-40, F 42 Responses Feb 3, 2007

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    My mother died of alcohol cirrhosis last week.

    She was only in hospital for 2 weeks. I can't count the number of times I begged her to stop drinking and tried up get her help over the last 12 years. Now I am devastated and wracked with guilt what ifs, sadness, grief, relief and emptiness. She was only 56. Does anyone have...
    deedeece deedeece 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    Learning Tolerance

    A few alcoholics, actually. Yes, a few. My biological mother is an alcoholic, although you tell her that and her response is, "I only have one or two glasses of wine a day!" But ask her if she could live without those two glasses and she would scoff. I even challenged her to do...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 31, 2013

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    Well this is not an easy subject

    for me to speak off but I felt the need to write a few words... My father was an alcoholic, I had to live with that every day of my life, it was not a good childhood... the sleepless nights, the worrying, the fear, the pain, the sadness... the anger and hate... oh the hate...
    silvershadow2099 silvershadow2099 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Miss You Mommy

    As far back as I can remember I worshiped my mom, she was my best friend as well as a parent. She had her issues though and drank frequently. when this happened as a small child i recall going the short distance to my nans where i'd have a 'mini holiday', staying with her until...
    se1992 se1992 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    My dad became and alcoholic

    when my mom told him she was pregnant with me so I feel like I'm the reason he drinks. Could it be true?😫😫😫😫😫😫🍺🍺🍺🍺🍺🍺🍺
    Jackie1456 Jackie1456 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I am 14 years old and my moms been an alcoholic

    since I was 4 years old. My dads in the army and has been since I was a baby. Since my dads in the army he's gone a lot, so I have practically been taking care of me and my 12 year old brother since I was 4. My moms always drinking she's once pushed me into a dresser and was so...
    Kait7754 Kait7754 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I've been waiting SO damn long to turn 18.

    I am a high school senior, employed with part time work, and am getting another job as a licensed nursing assistant (yay!) I am completely self-sufficient now. As the child of an alcoholic mother, I grew independent very, very quickly. My friends refer to me as the mom of the...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    How do you get over it? I knew going into my marriage and my attempts to have children that there was a good chance I wouldn't be able to conceive. The doctor told me when I was...
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    Hi my name is sara and im an alcoholic. "I got my first taste of alcohol when I was a tot – my mum used to give me whisky or scotch in warm milk to help me sleep when i was in...
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