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I Am the Child of An Alcoholic

For people whose parents drink or drank in the past. 3,261 People

    My father is a recovering alcoholic.

    He has been sober for 4 years, however it still affects me today. I always push people away, never trusting them because I feel as if everyone lies to me and no one ever protected me. I grew up way too fast. At the age of 12, I was cooking dinner and doing homework with my 9...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jun 1

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    Learning Tolerance

    A few alcoholics, actually. Yes, a few. My biological mother is an alcoholic, although you tell her that and her response is, "I only have one or two glasses of wine a day!" But ask her if she could live without those two glasses and she would scoff. I even challenged her to do...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    So less than a week ago my dad got arrested

    for drunk driving and landed himself in jail. I ended up bailing him out that night, stupid mistake on my part. Yesterday and today he's been drinking. We found some type of alcohol in an apple juice bottle and he claimed it was apple juice, and insisted it was even after i kept...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    Daddy Wake Up...please Dont Do This

    Born way 2 early had 2 fight 2 all along. nothings ever come easy! Moms always busy and dads always stoned. NO foorsteps to follow No compass to guide me. I wish i could make you see how hard it is to become the 2 people i never wanted to be. My lifes laid out in front of me...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 12 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    My Story

    I`m going to do a bit of venting here. I`ve had a lot on my mind lately and I need to just unload it somewhere, I guess. Right now, my family is struggling economically, I`m unemployed and desperately searching for a job, and I`m depressed and angry about it all. My family has...
    JesusKravitz JesusKravitz 18-21, M 2 Responses May 20, 2013

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    5 O'clock At My House

    Everyday at five o'clock, my dad would come home from work and be greeted by mother with a kiss and a glass of whiskey and soda.  She would make one for herself.  It was the cocktail hour for both of them.   They drank all through dinner and well into the...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 36 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    I honestly think that my dad gets worse

    and worse as the days go by. He will never change and I don't get why I'm trying so hard to help him when all he does is disrespect me. Im sick of it, just when I feel like I'm getting through to him, I find another bottle, under the bed or wedged in a corner of our house. I...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I cannot stand living at my parents house.

    Yes, the fact that I have no bills to pay is pretty awesome, but other than that it's a living hell. My mom drives around drunk, and my sisters and I have to go pick her up. Thankfully she has not hurt anybody from doing it yet (I don't know how she hasn't) but she has wrecked...
    courtneylightsupthesky courtneylightsupthesky 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    Im sick of my life at the moment.

    Ive been on this stupid roller coaster for about 3 years now….sober dad, drunk dad, sober dad , drunk dad. It never seems to end. I resent my parents, mostly my mom now. I mean my dad will never change and I've accepted that but my mom is the one who is ruining both our lives...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3

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    Just got off the phone with my dad.

    He's as drunk as a skunk right now. I'm here in university 5hours from home. He doesn't live with mom anymore. I hate when he calls me drunk because it always reminds me of childhood. He was never physically abusive but verbally at times. My brother would get so mad because he...
    XxLionHeartxX XxLionHeartxX 18-21 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Well this is not an easy subject

    for me to speak off but I felt the need to write a few words... My father was an alcoholic, I had to live with that every day of my life, it was not a good childhood... the sleepless nights, the worrying, the fear, the pain, the sadness... the anger and hate... oh the hate...
    silvershadow2099 silvershadow2099 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 22, 2014

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    Because Of My Dad, I'll Never Touch Beer.

    I literally don't want anything to do with alcohol after dealing with an alcoholic father my entire life. He has a lot of problems, but his most irritating one has got to be his alcoholism. One recurring theme is him sitting around drinking beer and complaining about how badly...
    tjlkitty tjlkitty 22-25, M 4 Responses May 18, 2012

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    Actually, I am probably the child of two

    alcoholics, and a sibling to one. One parent is a drunk for certain, but the other never "crashed" during his lifetime, and he was probably the worse for that. My mother hit bottom in 1981, when I was about 10, detoxed, divorced, but then began to drink again on the sly. I knew...
    nostromo77 nostromo77 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 14, 2014

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    Who Needs College When You Had An Alcoholic Parent, Right?

    I learned so much from having an alcoholic father. Like... -A "40" costs about $2.50 and it's almost always drank with the brown paper bag still around it - the entire time. -Don't leave change or money hanging around anywhere unless your starting a "Brew for Dad Foundation...
    Elaine19 Elaine19 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22, 2012

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    My mom always drank. We never had food in the

    house. She would be up all night. She used to punish me by locking me in my bedroom, aways called me mean names. I'd find the alcohol bottels all over the house. She go to jail, when she got out it was like nothing ever happened. I told her that when I was in middle school that...
    kemokitty kemokitty 31-35 2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    My Mom Drank Herself to Death

    I am 29 and my mom died on Thanksgiving 2005 of cirrhosis of the liver. Slowly, her liver, kidneys, and lungs failed. She was 44. There is so much I am going through as a person because of her alcoholism and it makes me so angry that I have so many problems because of it. I don't...
    aka746 aka746 26-30, F 81 Responses Feb 21, 2007

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    Hi my name is Alp, I am 18 years old.

    I am afraid my father is going to drink himself to death. He is really violent physically and verbally to everyone. My grandfather past away recently and he was an amazing man. He was my hero my inspiration and will continue to be. My father lived with my grandparents after my...
    Alp1995 Alp1995 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    Alcoholic Dementia

    My mom has been an alcoholic my whole life, I am 24 years old. It wasn't until the past ten years when it took a hold of her. It was right after my little sister was born when things took a turn for the worse and I was in 6th grade. My step-dad made enough money where my mom didn...
    ohhitsami ohhitsami 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2011

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    Do you think being a child of alcoholic may be

    the cause of being frustrated at people who fail to live up to their own plans?
    AlricVirgil AlricVirgil 26-30, M 2 Responses May 5

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    Hi, I'm a mom of 2 kids,

    married for 22 yrs, have everything I could ever want. But my mom, my best friend for life, passed away 2 weeks ago due to alcoholism. She was only 69 years old. Her liver failed. She has a few generations of alcoholics, but MY BROTHER AND I BROKE THE CYCLE! I had been in...
    anothersadlady anothersadlady 41-45, F 1 Response May 19

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    A Long Line of Alcoholics

    My family history, more than anything, convinces me that genetics has a strong influence on what we do in life. It doesn't preordain our path, but it may make it much harder to choose a different path. My father's father and grandparents were alcoholics. My father started...
    WittyOne WittyOne 46-50, F 31 Responses May 24, 2007

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    Yea it's tough . My dads been an aloclic

    since I was 11-13 , but I remember when he was just such an amazing guy . He's been in rehab twice and the insurance cuts us off so he goes right back into drinking . He messes up jobs and everything and I don't want turn out like him. He's always just drinking and it makes me...
    kiaraaak kiaraaak 18-21, F Nov 23, 2014

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    I do this thing where I go back

    and forth with my dad. When he's sober its great and I actually like doing things for him but then he abuses my trust and faith in him and starts drinking and I end up thinking why do I waste so much time and effort on this guy? I seriously don't know what to do anymore. This is...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 13

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    The past is in the past now,

    but I can't help but still feel incredible anger as to why my dad(or any other responsible people in my family) left me alone with my mentally ill, neglectful, extremely physically ill, alcoholic mother up until I was 15. Why would you leave a child in a situation you know they...
    Exoduss Exoduss 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    Just Been Thinking Lately

    I'm flying out to see my dad for spring break in about a week, and its just making me think about things lately. I didn't have it bad like some other people who have parents with the same disease, but i think i have my mom to thank for that. I used to be so angry at him for all...
    PaperTowns PaperTowns 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    Untitled

    My dad is an alcoholic. My mother won't leave so I did.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    Dearest Father.

    I know I've said this once before (Remember that time you slammed me against the wall with your hands around my throat and then when you finally let me fall to the floor- sobbing and begging you to leave me alone- you laid the boot in?) but I ******* HATE YOU!I have tried so god...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 9 Responses Aug 3, 2011

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    my mother passed away at the age of 51 on April

    1st, 2007. She was an alcoholic for 10 years. She died in her sleep ( cardiac arrest) I am writing this with tears in my eyes. I miss her greatly even though I hated her as an alcoholic. I'm 34 years old soon turning 35 next week. I'm married and a mother if two beautiful girls...
    berrybeeyou berrybeeyou 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    These past three months have literally been

    amazing. My dad was sober, working and most importantly changing, or so I thought. But I guess good things only last for a moment or two….and he's back to the bottle. Swearing, yelling, angry, lying…his daily routine. Things don't change, he won't change. I hope this time my...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses May 22

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    Just Another Stranded Soul

    My father was a high-function alcoholic. He never lost his job, never was incapable, would just drink himself insensible after work. He was an ugly drunk with a bad temper - never hit anyone, but his tongue and his anger were terrifying to all his children. Many of my most vivid...
    firefall firefall 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2011

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    My father is to blame

    for my depression, BPD and distrust in people. Alcoholism is not a disease to me, it is a selfish lifestyle choice. I will never sympathize for parents who are alcoholics. Give your child away to someone who will give him or her love and protect them.
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    The Effects of Parental Alcoholism On Children

     Until  recently, the impact of alcoholism was measured by its effect on the alcoholic, by days lost from work and highway fatalities. New research has tended to concentrate on the impact of alcoholism on the family, especially the children of alcoholics. Studies have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    So Where Do I Begin...

    First of all, I've never shared anything on any online forum, let alone anything like this, so I hope I'm doing this right. So where do I begin... I guess I'll start by just coming out and saying it, my father was an alcoholic. For the longest time, my dad was someone who just...
    LookingForALifeline LookingForALifeline 22-25, M 5 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    Today was fathers day,

    and for the first time ever i got sad that my father was anything but a father. The amount of suffering and tears he's given me is unmeasurable. I was away from my house for three days and I completely forgot how bad my life was. I was truly happy, I smiled all weekend. First...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F Jun 22

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    It's been almost 2 years

    since my mom's extensive drug-use and drinking finally got the best of her. We had been estranged for a long time, largely due to her alcoholism and the problems it caused. I never got a chance to resolve things between us. I never got to tell her that I forgave her for...
    HeartlessSinner HeartlessSinner 22-25, F Nov 28, 2014

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    My mother is a great person

    when she's sober. She'd do anything for nothing, just to see someone smile. When I was young, probably three years old, when my father was still with us, she used to take pictures of us together all the time. She even made a scrapbook out of them with cute little stickers...
    poliad poliad 16-17, M 4 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    Somedays

    Somedays I stare at a wall thinking of the cells the cells she locks herself in the cells this demon has killed I think to myself why would someone someone so smart pour it away it gets harder each day to remember my childhood I was the baby without a bottle it lives in...
    deciBle deciBle 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    Death of My Father May,

    2001 It’s a very quiet morning. My husband left to go visit his mother and father who live right down the road from us. I feel as if I have been cheated sometimes because in order to see my family I have to travel across half the country. I chose that though, so there is no...
    secretme1970 secretme1970 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    So my dad today got arrested

    for drunk driving today….some people never change
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2014

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    Growing Up With An Alcoholic

    From the ages of 9 years old until I was a senior in High School my mom was married to an alcoholic. Life was very difficult. My mother was physically and mentally abused as well as my older brother and myself. Things were so bad at home that my brother quit school and left home...
    cmost cmost 36-40, F 41 Responses Feb 3, 2007

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    my mum dropped dead in December.

    she never admitted it but died of kidney and liver failure. I'm an only child. I feel like nobody gets it as we had a turbulent relationship. she was still my mum though.
    Sashakl Sashakl 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    This is a long and stressful story.

    I grew up with the men in my family as alcoholics', my father passed away from heart failure(alcohol related). At the same time three years ago I met my boyfriend and his father took me in, so I see him as a father to me. Good His dad always got off work with a case of beer...
    Worleybirdie Worleybirdie 22-25, F 1 Response May 28

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    After a brutal 8 hour shift watching people get

    drunk and disorderly at a wedding, I come home to my drunk father. He was wandering in our neighbourhood until finally someone called the paramedics and of course at 3 am i get a call to pick him up. Now he's wandering about in the house, not letting anyone sleep. Im exhausted...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24

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    Both My Parents Were Alcoholics

    The title kind of says it, really. Both my late parents were alcoholics, though not at the same time. My father was a very shy man, who felt awkward around people, and clearly drink made him feel more confident, though he would still not really talk to people, but just get...
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 21 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    Relationships

    As an adult child of an alcoholic what are the main problems you have faced in your relationships? I think it is trust for me, that and believing that I do not deserve someone that treats me right. It used to be that I believed I could save people. I was always trying to save...
    21again45 21again45 31-35 1 Response Oct 12, 2013

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