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I Am the Child of An Alcoholic

For people whose parents drink or drank in the past. 3,346 People

    Dearest Father.

    I know I've said this once before (Remember that time you slammed me against the wall with your hands around my throat and then when you finally let me fall to the floor- sobbing and begging you to leave me alone- you laid the boot in?) but I ******* HATE YOU!I have tried so god...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 9 Responses Aug 3, 2011

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    From my perspective, about 95% of everyone on

    my mom's side of the family is an alcoholic, and about 25% on my dad's side. My parents included.
    DaveCthulhu DaveCthulhu 51-55, M Dec 1, 2015

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    It took me years to realize

    that this was something that affected my emotional health. Now at 19 years old, visiting home and listening to my mother complain about the same events as she did yesterday after downing her 6th glass of wine I've realized that this is the last summer that I'll be able to come...
    ThrivingOdds ThrivingOdds 18-21, F Aug 26, 2015

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    Just Another Stranded Soul

    My father was a high-function alcoholic. He never lost his job, never was incapable, would just drink himself insensible after work. He was an ugly drunk with a bad temper - never hit anyone, but his tongue and his anger were terrifying to all his children. Many of my most vivid...
    firefall firefall 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2011

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    My mom was an alcoholic.

    She died when she ran into a metal telephone pole. She was drunk. B*tch deserved it. Kinda hate the fact that I had to call her my mother. My dad didn't even know she had a problem. No one did, besides me. But, then again, who's going to listen to an eleven-year old?
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 26, 2015

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    My father is an alcoholic

    who will steal money and alcohol from anyone. He is visiting and I do not feel comfortable around him. I wish he would get the help he needs so he can live a better life before it is too late. I understand people that abuse drugs or alcohol will not get help until they are ready...
    MisunderstoodGal30 MisunderstoodGal30 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2015

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    My grandparents had nine children,

    two females and seven males. All the males were alcoholic's and the female's never drank. One auntbant one uncle remain alive. My dad was a highly ranked military Commander that drank like a fish.
    Champ4Life007 Champ4Life007 56-60, M Jan 13

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    My mother is a great person

    when she's sober. She'd do anything for nothing, just to see someone smile. When I was young, probably three years old, when my father was still with us, she used to take pictures of us together all the time. She even made a scrapbook out of them with cute little stickers...
    poliad poliad 16-17, M 4 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    My dad is an alcoholic. My mother won't leave so I did.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    Relationships

    As an adult child of an alcoholic what are the main problems you have faced in your relationships? I think it is trust for me, that and believing that I do not deserve someone that treats me right. It used to be that I believed I could save people. I was always trying to save...
    21again45 21again45 36-40 1 Response Oct 12, 2013

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    My father is an alcoholic.

    We tried reasoning, cajoling, understanding and other possible methods to make him accept that he should stop drinking for 22 years. My mom and my siblings already gave up. I already gave up. We are in a trance that "let him be". But, seeing him slowly kills himself makes it...
    sehunscott sehunscott 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 16, 2015

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    My Mom Drank Herself to Death

    I am 29 and my mom died on Thanksgiving 2005 of cirrhosis of the liver. Slowly, her liver, kidneys, and lungs failed. She was 44. There is so much I am going through as a person because of her alcoholism and it makes me so angry that I have so many problems because of it. I don't...
    aka746 aka746 26-30, F 82 Responses Feb 21, 2007

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    My Story

    I`m going to do a bit of venting here. I`ve had a lot on my mind lately and I need to just unload it somewhere, I guess. Right now, my family is struggling economically, I`m unemployed and desperately searching for a job, and I`m depressed and angry about it all. My family has...
    JesusKravitz JesusKravitz 18-21, M 2 Responses May 20, 2013

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    My dad's an alcoholic

    and my mom is in California at the moment so it's just me and him. My mom hates when he drinks so now that she's gone for the weekend he took his chance. I always write letters to him begging him to stop and it works sometimes but he always goes back. He's drunk right now and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 13, 2015

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    My dad is back drinking

    and doing drugs again More than he ever has before I don't know how to feel
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 26, 2015

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    Death of My Father May,

    2001 It’s a very quiet morning. My husband left to go visit his mother and father who live right down the road from us. I feel as if I have been cheated sometimes because in order to see my family I have to travel across half the country. I chose that though, so there is no...
    secretme1970 secretme1970 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 3, 2015

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    I've been waiting SO damn long to turn 18.

    I am a high school senior, employed with part time work, and am getting another job as a licensed nursing assistant (yay!) I am completely self-sufficient now. As the child of an alcoholic mother, I grew independent very, very quickly. My friends refer to me as the mom of the...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Because Of My Dad, I'll Never Touch Beer.

    I literally don't want anything to do with alcohol after dealing with an alcoholic father my entire life. He has a lot of problems, but his most irritating one has got to be his alcoholism. One recurring theme is him sitting around drinking beer and complaining about how badly...
    tjlkitty tjlkitty 22-25, M 4 Responses May 18, 2012

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    Well this is not an easy subject

    for me to speak off but I felt the need to write a few words... My father was an alcoholic, I had to live with that every day of my life, it was not a good childhood... the sleepless nights, the worrying, the fear, the pain, the sadness... the anger and hate... oh the hate...
    silvershadow2099 silvershadow2099 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 22, 2014

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    Learning Tolerance

    A few alcoholics, actually. Yes, a few. My biological mother is an alcoholic, although you tell her that and her response is, "I only have one or two glasses of wine a day!" But ask her if she could live without those two glasses and she would scoff. I even challenged her to do...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    And for this reason,I will never go near

    alcohol myself.I'd be stupid to considering I've probably inherited an addictive personality and am therefore more liable to fall into alcoholism myself. Plus I've absolutely no desire to touch the stuff because I know how damaging and poisonous it can be! I was just wondering...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2015

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    I'm so young. I have three sisters.

    I'm the third. I've always have been secretive of my feelings. My mom would emotionally and physically abuse me when nobody was around. She would be drinking every day. Gallon a night. She doesn't remember hitting me. She has had several boyfriends since the divorce five years...
    winkesternommon winkesternommon 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2015

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    hello world, i cant go to sleep,

    so i will spend time writing my thoughts here. my mother is an alcoholic. she does not admit to it nor wants to seek help. it is only getting worse and i am afraid of losing her. my dad was and never want to be in a picture, so my mom is the only parent i have, but yet honestly i...
    stophomophobia stophomophobia 22-25, F Aug 11, 2015

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    I grew up in a home with an alcoholic father who

    when he drank would put me down with words like fatty and hurtful things. Although i really dont remember my much of my childhood i do remember how my father was when he drank. How when we were at family functions away from home he would drive us home drunk and i was so scared...
    Melb1985 Melb1985 26-30, F Dec 17, 2015

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    Both My Parents Were Alcoholics

    The title kind of says it, really. Both my late parents were alcoholics, though not at the same time. My father was a very shy man, who felt awkward around people, and clearly drink made him feel more confident, though he would still not really talk to people, but just get...
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 21 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    Who Needs College When You Had An Alcoholic Parent, Right?

    I learned so much from having an alcoholic father. Like... -A "40" costs about $2.50 and it's almost always drank with the brown paper bag still around it - the entire time. -Don't leave change or money hanging around anywhere unless your starting a "Brew for Dad Foundation...
    Elaine19 Elaine19 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22, 2012

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    So I haven't been on here

    for a while now, I actually starting thinking my dad had changed. I had been accepted into school away from home, and thought I could leave and not worry about him drinking... needless to say that dream ended less than a week in. I called home to check in, see how things were...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    My mom always drank. We never had food in the

    house. She would be up all night. She used to punish me by locking me in my bedroom, aways called me mean names. I'd find the alcohol bottels all over the house. She go to jail, when she got out it was like nothing ever happened. I told her that when I was in middle school that...
    kemokitty kemokitty 31-35 2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Started drinking when I was 9,

    over poker! That was a family event, Now, 20 years later I am kick *** at poker, and will drink you under the table! Thanks mom, for the survival skills. Too bad your life sucked so bad, you couldn't see or love me. Turned it into hate! No worries now though, I got this! 😘
    whispernred whispernred 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Part I: Being raised into a family of

    dysfunction and high tension, verbal and physical abuse, self-destructive and addictive behavior, you begin to familiarize yourself with chaos. The feelings and experiences involved with being a child, partner, or whomever to an alcoholic loved one is almost indescribable until...
    sierrlcoll sierrlcoll 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    So Where Do I Begin...

    First of all, I've never shared anything on any online forum, let alone anything like this, so I hope I'm doing this right. So where do I begin... I guess I'll start by just coming out and saying it, my father was an alcoholic. For the longest time, my dad was someone who just...
    LookingForALifeline LookingForALifeline 22-25, M 5 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    Whilst you're sitting there drinking I'm

    sitting here stuck thinking. I can't get you out my darn head, I have no motivation to get out of this bed. Why do this to me? To us? I need you in my life dad, the thought of waking up not having you breaks me in two. My head goes crazy, the thought of you all alone breaks me...
    aimsdisneyox aimsdisneyox 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    I feel like a broken record,

    and that all my posts are the same. Same theme, same content, all the same.My dad is drinking again no shocker there. Im making arrangements to leave, leave him, leave my mom, leave this whole mess behind me and start fresh. Its going to take some time but I really want to get...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F Oct 1, 2015

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    Daddy Wake Up...please Dont Do This

    Born way 2 early had 2 fight 2 all along. nothings ever come easy! Moms always busy and dads always stoned. NO foorsteps to follow No compass to guide me. I wish i could make you see how hard it is to become the 2 people i never wanted to be. My lifes laid out in front of me...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 12 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    Ol' Buddy Little girl watching tv Sliding

    door slams open She jumps in fear Her dad stumbles in Profanities under his breath with twelve pack in hand Sliding door slams shut She jumps again and looks away One hand with booze, the other grasping the wall He shuts his door and let's his can of Ol' Buddy breathe...
    XxLoveInTheDarkxX XxLoveInTheDarkxX 18-21 3 Responses Aug 15, 2015

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    My mom had a problem with alcoholism

    for most of my life but she's been doing a lot better over the past year. Last night (Christmas Eve) however, she got so drunk she could barely keep her head up. I know she's an adult and she rarely ever drinks anymore but I can't stand to see her like that anymore. She put my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 25, 2015

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    A Long Line of Alcoholics

    My family history, more than anything, convinces me that genetics has a strong influence on what we do in life. It doesn't preordain our path, but it may make it much harder to choose a different path. My father's father and grandparents were alcoholics. My father started...
    WittyOne WittyOne 46-50, F 31 Responses May 24, 2007

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    The past is in the past now,

    but I can't help but still feel incredible anger as to why my dad(or any other responsible people in my family) left me alone with my mentally ill, neglectful, extremely physically ill, alcoholic mother up until I was 15. Why would you leave a child in a situation you know they...
    Exoduss Exoduss 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    Today in therapy, my therapist called attention

    to the way I'm still mad at my mother (non-alcoholic parent) for so many things that happened in my childhood, whereas the things my dad (alcoholic parent) did kind of get a free pass. I know she's right on some level. The best thing I could think of at the time was that most...
    greensapphire greensapphire 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2015

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    My mom was always a heavy drinker

    for as long as I can remember. In my earliest memories she was always drinking, with my fathers enabling things just got worse and worse, dui's, passing out, etc. When I was 11 my mom passed away leaving my sister and I to be raised by my father. We never really knew how to...
    trissy25 trissy25 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    I have the best dad in this world.

    so innocent,loving and caring.but he got addicted to alcohol some years back.me and mom tried our level best.but nothing worked out.now he is in hospital battling liver cirrhosis.it pains me immensely and I can't imagine a world without him.i wish world leaders put a ban on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 16, 2015

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    They thought my mother was dead.

    I havent spoken to her in 4 months and the other day I am at work and my dad calls me to tell me my mother was found face down in a ditch with a few boxes of wine walking home to her apartment from the grocery store on a busy highway. Someone reported saying there was a body in...
    kstake12 kstake12 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2015

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    Growing Up With An Alcoholic

    From the ages of 9 years old until I was a senior in High School my mom was married to an alcoholic. Life was very difficult. My mother was physically and mentally abused as well as my older brother and myself. Things were so bad at home that my brother quit school and left home...
    cmost cmost 36-40, F 41 Responses Feb 3, 2007

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    Actually, I am probably the child of two

    alcoholics, and a sibling to one. One parent is a drunk for certain, but the other never "crashed" during his lifetime, and he was probably the worse for that. My mother hit bottom in 1981, when I was about 10, detoxed, divorced, but then began to drink again on the sly. I knew...
    nostromo77 nostromo77 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 14, 2014

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    Today, New Year's Eve,

    everyone is out drinking with friends. For the first time in my life, I'm away from my alcoholic mother and I don't have to keep an eye on her, I don't have to be in arguments between drunk adults, take care of them when they've gotten into a fight or fallen asleep in the couch...
    EverythingAndAnything EverythingAndAnything 18-21, F Dec 31, 2015

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