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I Am the Child of An Alcoholic

For people whose parents drink or drank in the past. 3,295 People

    Who Needs College When You Had An Alcoholic Parent, Right?

    I learned so much from having an alcoholic father. Like... -A "40" costs about $2.50 and it's almost always drank with the brown paper bag still around it - the entire time. -Don't leave change or money hanging around anywhere unless your starting a "Brew for Dad Foundation...
    Elaine19 Elaine19 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22, 2012

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    Today was fathers day,

    and for the first time ever i got sad that my father was anything but a father. The amount of suffering and tears he's given me is unmeasurable. I was away from my house for three days and I completely forgot how bad my life was. I was truly happy, I smiled all weekend. First...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    Hi my name is Alp, I am 18 years old.

    I am afraid my father is going to drink himself to death. He is really violent physically and verbally to everyone. My grandfather past away recently and he was an amazing man. He was my hero my inspiration and will continue to be. My father lived with my grandparents after my...
    Alp1995 Alp1995 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    hello world, i cant go to sleep,

    so i will spend time writing my thoughts here. my mother is an alcoholic. she does not admit to it nor wants to seek help. it is only getting worse and i am afraid of losing her. my dad was and never want to be in a picture, so my mom is the only parent i have, but yet honestly i...
    stophomophobia stophomophobia 22-25, F Aug 11

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    Hi, I'm a mom of 2 kids,

    married for 22 yrs, have everything I could ever want. But my mom, my best friend for life, passed away 2 weeks ago due to alcoholism. She was only 69 years old. Her liver failed. She has a few generations of alcoholics, but MY BROTHER AND I BROKE THE CYCLE! I had been in...
    anothersadlady anothersadlady 41-45, F 1 Response May 19

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    The Effects of Parental Alcoholism On Children

     Until  recently, the impact of alcoholism was measured by its effect on the alcoholic, by days lost from work and highway fatalities. New research has tended to concentrate on the impact of alcoholism on the family, especially the children of alcoholics. Studies have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    I've been waiting SO damn long to turn 18.

    I am a high school senior, employed with part time work, and am getting another job as a licensed nursing assistant (yay!) I am completely self-sufficient now. As the child of an alcoholic mother, I grew independent very, very quickly. My friends refer to me as the mom of the...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    My real father is an alcoholic,

    he drinks every day. It's hard growing up with a dad who is always drunk, who is always spending the grocery money on beer. I'm just glad he is a happy drunk. He never hit us, or anything like that. If course it didn't help that he was also schizophrenic.
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 18-21, T Mar 31

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    My mother is a great person

    when she's sober. She'd do anything for nothing, just to see someone smile. When I was young, probably three years old, when my father was still with us, she used to take pictures of us together all the time. She even made a scrapbook out of them with cute little stickers...
    poliad poliad 16-17, M 4 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    Because Of My Dad, I'll Never Touch Beer.

    I literally don't want anything to do with alcohol after dealing with an alcoholic father my entire life. He has a lot of problems, but his most irritating one has got to be his alcoholism. One recurring theme is him sitting around drinking beer and complaining about how badly...
    tjlkitty tjlkitty 22-25, M 4 Responses May 18, 2012

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    5 O'clock At My House

    Everyday at five o'clock, my dad would come home from work and be greeted by mother with a kiss and a glass of whiskey and soda.  She would make one for herself.  It was the cocktail hour for both of them.   They drank all through dinner and well into the...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 36 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    Do you think being a child of alcoholic may be

    the cause of being frustrated at people who fail to live up to their own plans?
    AlricVirgil AlricVirgil 26-30, M 2 Responses May 5

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    These past three months have literally been

    amazing. My dad was sober, working and most importantly changing, or so I thought. But I guess good things only last for a moment or two….and he's back to the bottle. Swearing, yelling, angry, lying…his daily routine. Things don't change, he won't change. I hope this time my...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses May 22

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    My father is to blame

    for my depression, BPD and distrust in people. Alcoholism is not a disease to me, it is a selfish lifestyle choice. I will never sympathize for parents who are alcoholics. Give your child away to someone who will give him or her love and protect them.
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    It took me years to realize

    that this was something that affected my emotional health. Now at 19 years old, visiting home and listening to my mother complain about the same events as she did yesterday after downing her 6th glass of wine I've realized that this is the last summer that I'll be able to come...
    ThrivingOdds ThrivingOdds 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    My mother was drunk when she came to get me

    and she was saying the dumbest ****. She's not an alcoholic, The categories on EP are so limited.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 22

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    howsitgoing12 howsitgoing12 16-17, F Mar 18

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    As a kid well I mean I'm still a kid life was

    always up and down u never really knew who was really there for u my mom would drink and I would have nothing I could do to help me or her alcohol has got my family into some pretty sticky situations and even when there sober ur dealing with the thoughts and depression that...
    marz2020 marz2020 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    I cannot stand living at my parents house.

    Yes, the fact that I have no bills to pay is pretty awesome, but other than that it's a living hell. My mom drives around drunk, and my sisters and I have to go pick her up. Thankfully she has not hurt anybody from doing it yet (I don't know how she hasn't) but she has wrecked...
    courtneylightsupthesky courtneylightsupthesky 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    It was always gradual,

    her progression to becoming more and more intoxicated as the night dragged on, that is. My mother would come home from a long day at work, and in that plastic bag she always brought would be one or sometimes even two bottles of wine. Having to see my mother drown herself in...
    light108 light108 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My dad is an alcoholic. My mother won't leave so I did.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    My father is a recovering alcoholic.

    He has been sober for 4 years, however it still affects me today. I always push people away, never trusting them because I feel as if everyone lies to me and no one ever protected me. I grew up way too fast. At the age of 12, I was cooking dinner and doing homework with my 9...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jun 1

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    My mom always drank. We never had food in the

    house. She would be up all night. She used to punish me by locking me in my bedroom, aways called me mean names. I'd find the alcohol bottels all over the house. She go to jail, when she got out it was like nothing ever happened. I told her that when I was in middle school that...
    kemokitty kemokitty 31-35 2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    After a brutal 8 hour shift watching people get

    drunk and disorderly at a wedding, I come home to my drunk father. He was wandering in our neighbourhood until finally someone called the paramedics and of course at 3 am i get a call to pick him up. Now he's wandering about in the house, not letting anyone sleep. Im exhausted...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24

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    To all those who drink

    and smoke , I'd say stop b4 it's too late , I'm paying the price n the road to recovery is rough :/
    theusunghero3 theusunghero3 26-30, M Apr 24

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    Im sick of my life at the moment.

    Ive been on this stupid roller coaster for about 3 years now….sober dad, drunk dad, sober dad , drunk dad. It never seems to end. I resent my parents, mostly my mom now. I mean my dad will never change and I've accepted that but my mom is the one who is ruining both our lives...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3

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    My mom was an alcoholic.

    She died when she ran into a metal telephone pole. She was drunk. B*tch deserved it. Kinda hate the fact that I had to call her my mother. My dad didn't even know she had a problem. No one did, besides me. But, then again, who's going to listen to an eleven-year old?
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 26

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    my mother passed away at the age of 51 on April

    1st, 2007. She was an alcoholic for 10 years. She died in her sleep ( cardiac arrest) I am writing this with tears in my eyes. I miss her greatly even though I hated her as an alcoholic. I'm 34 years old soon turning 35 next week. I'm married and a mother if two beautiful girls...
    berrybeeyou berrybeeyou 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    This is a long and stressful story.

    I grew up with the men in my family as alcoholics', my father passed away from heart failure(alcohol related). At the same time three years ago I met my boyfriend and his father took me in, so I see him as a father to me. Good His dad always got off work with a case of beer...
    Worleybirdie Worleybirdie 22-25, F 1 Response May 28

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    A Long Line of Alcoholics

    My family history, more than anything, convinces me that genetics has a strong influence on what we do in life. It doesn't preordain our path, but it may make it much harder to choose a different path. My father's father and grandparents were alcoholics. My father started...
    WittyOne WittyOne 46-50, F 31 Responses May 24, 2007

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    I honestly think that my dad gets worse

    and worse as the days go by. He will never change and I don't get why I'm trying so hard to help him when all he does is disrespect me. Im sick of it, just when I feel like I'm getting through to him, I find another bottle, under the bed or wedged in a corner of our house. I...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    Daddy Wake Up...please Dont Do This

    Born way 2 early had 2 fight 2 all along. nothings ever come easy! Moms always busy and dads always stoned. NO foorsteps to follow No compass to guide me. I wish i could make you see how hard it is to become the 2 people i never wanted to be. My lifes laid out in front of me...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 12 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    The realisation that you can't control him/her

    is really hard as you know vehemently that everyone would be happier if alcohol wasn't in the equation. I'm conflicted in that I'm really angry at my parent for the destruction the alcohol has caused but yet I'm really upset as I know how much pain they must be feeling to have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 24

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    Well this is not an easy subject

    for me to speak off but I felt the need to write a few words... My father was an alcoholic, I had to live with that every day of my life, it was not a good childhood... the sleepless nights, the worrying, the fear, the pain, the sadness... the anger and hate... oh the hate...
    silvershadow2099 silvershadow2099 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 22, 2014

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    Just got off the phone with my dad.

    He's as drunk as a skunk right now. I'm here in university 5hours from home. He doesn't live with mom anymore. I hate when he calls me drunk because it always reminds me of childhood. He was never physically abusive but verbally at times. My brother would get so mad because he...
    XxLionHeartxX XxLionHeartxX 18-21 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Alcoholic Dementia

    My mom has been an alcoholic my whole life, I am 24 years old. It wasn't until the past ten years when it took a hold of her. It was right after my little sister was born when things took a turn for the worse and I was in 6th grade. My step-dad made enough money where my mom didn...
    ohhitsami ohhitsami 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2011

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    Somedays

    Somedays I stare at a wall thinking of the cells the cells she locks herself in the cells this demon has killed I think to myself why would someone someone so smart pour it away it gets harder each day to remember my childhood I was the baby without a bottle it lives in...
    deciBle deciBle 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    Hi All my dad passed away last year of liver

    cirrhosis. My mother is now drinking heavily (they had been separated for 23 years) I noticed last year when I entvti visit my dad in hospital that my mum looked older haggard in general like a boozer. I am from the U.K. but live in Australia. Hence noticing the change in mum...
    Isabella0209 Isabella0209 36-40, F Jul 11

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    The past is in the past now,

    but I can't help but still feel incredible anger as to why my dad(or any other responsible people in my family) left me alone with my mentally ill, neglectful, extremely physically ill, alcoholic mother up until I was 15. Why would you leave a child in a situation you know they...
    Exoduss Exoduss 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    Just Another Stranded Soul

    My father was a high-function alcoholic. He never lost his job, never was incapable, would just drink himself insensible after work. He was an ugly drunk with a bad temper - never hit anyone, but his tongue and his anger were terrifying to all his children. Many of my most vivid...
    firefall firefall 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2011

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    Dearest Father.

    I know I've said this once before (Remember that time you slammed me against the wall with your hands around my throat and then when you finally let me fall to the floor- sobbing and begging you to leave me alone- you laid the boot in?) but I ******* HATE YOU!I have tried so god...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 9 Responses Aug 3, 2011

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    I need someone to talk to.

    My dad is an alcoholic and is now in the hospital. My mom says after he goes to rehab and gets out she is done taking care of him. He no longer has the mental capacity to care for himself. Which means he may be turned over to the state and placed in a shelter. I feel so many...
    MisunderstoodGal30 MisunderstoodGal30 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    Relationships

    As an adult child of an alcoholic what are the main problems you have faced in your relationships? I think it is trust for me, that and believing that I do not deserve someone that treats me right. It used to be that I believed I could save people. I was always trying to save...
    21again45 21again45 31-35 1 Response Oct 12, 2013

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    My father is an alcoholic.

    We tried reasoning, cajoling, understanding and other possible methods to make him accept that he should stop drinking for 22 years. My mom and my siblings already gave up. I already gave up. We are in a trance that "let him be". But, seeing him slowly kills himself makes it...
    jalybry423 jalybry423 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    Ol' Buddy Little girl watching tv Sliding

    door slams open She jumps in fear Her dad stumbles in Profanities under his breath with twelve pack in hand Sliding door slams shut She jumps again and looks away One hand with booze, the other grasping the wall He shuts his door and let's his can of Ol' Buddy breathe...
    XxLionHeartxX XxLionHeartxX 18-21 3 Responses Aug 15

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    My Mom Drank Herself to Death

    I am 29 and my mom died on Thanksgiving 2005 of cirrhosis of the liver. Slowly, her liver, kidneys, and lungs failed. She was 44. There is so much I am going through as a person because of her alcoholism and it makes me so angry that I have so many problems because of it. I don't...
    aka746 aka746 26-30, F 82 Responses