I Am the Child of An Alcoholic

For people whose parents drink or drank in the past. 3,323 People

    My father is to blame

    for my depression, BPD and distrust in people. Alcoholism is not a disease to me, it is a selfish lifestyle choice. I will never sympathize for parents who are alcoholics. Give your child away to someone who will give him or her love and protect them.
    kbeary kbeary
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 14, 2014

    Because Of My Dad, I'll Never Touch Beer.

    I literally don't want anything to do with alcohol after dealing with an alcoholic father my entire life. He has a lot of problems, but his most irritating one has got to be his alcoholism. One recurring theme is him sitting around drinking beer and complaining about how badly...
    tjlkitty tjlkitty
    22-25, M
    4 Responses May 18, 2012

    From my perspective, about 95% of everyone on

    my mom's side of the family is an alcoholic, and about 25% on my dad's side. My parents included.
    DaveCthulhu DaveCthulhu
    51-55, M
    Dec 1, 2015

    A Long Line of Alcoholics

    My family history, more than anything, convinces me that genetics has a strong influence on what we do in life. It doesn't preordain our path, but it may make it much harder to choose a different path. My father's father and grandparents were alcoholics. My father started...
    WittyOne WittyOne
    46-50, F
    31 Responses May 24, 2007

    My dad is back drinking

    and doing drugs again More than he ever has before I don't know how to feel
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    My father is a recovering alcoholic.

    He has been sober for 4 years, however it still affects me today. I always push people away, never trusting them because I feel as if everyone lies to me and no one ever protected me. I grew up way too fast. At the age of 12, I was cooking dinner and doing homework with my 9...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 1, 2015

    my story begins when I was little about 6-7 my

    dad came home drunk with my mom she left him there for me to watch him. I was terrified I thought he was going to die so i stayed up on a school night watching my father. I still went to school the next morning. It got worse as the years went on my father went to jail multiple...
    DestinyC098 DestinyC098
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 9

    Daddy Wake Up...please Dont Do This

    Born way 2 early had 2 fight 2 all along. nothings ever come easy! Moms always busy and dads always stoned. NO foorsteps to follow No compass to guide me. I wish i could make you see how hard it is to become the 2 people i never wanted to be. My lifes laid out in front of me...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease
    26-30, F
    12 Responses Apr 27, 2010

    They thought my mother was dead.

    I havent spoken to her in 4 months and the other day I am at work and my dad calls me to tell me my mother was found face down in a ditch with a few boxes of wine walking home to her apartment from the grocery store on a busy highway. Someone reported saying there was a body in...
    kstake12 kstake12
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 13, 2015

    Actually, I am probably the child of two

    alcoholics, and a sibling to one. One parent is a drunk for certain, but the other never "crashed" during his lifetime, and he was probably the worse for that. My mother hit bottom in 1981, when I was about 10, detoxed, divorced, but then began to drink again on the sly. I knew...
    nostromo77 nostromo77
    46-50, M
    1 Response Sep 14, 2014

    My mom was always a heavy drinker

    for as long as I can remember. In my earliest memories she was always drinking, with my fathers enabling things just got worse and worse, dui's, passing out, etc. When I was 11 my mom passed away leaving my sister and I to be raised by my father. We never really knew how to...
    trissy25 trissy25
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 28, 2015

    Just Another Stranded Soul

    My father was a high-function alcoholic. He never lost his job, never was incapable, would just drink himself insensible after work. He was an ugly drunk with a bad temper - never hit anyone, but his tongue and his anger were terrifying to all his children. Many of my most vivid...
    firefall firefall
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Oct 19, 2011

    My mom always drank. We never had food in the

    house. She would be up all night. She used to punish me by locking me in my bedroom, aways called me mean names. I'd find the alcohol bottels all over the house. She go to jail, when she got out it was like nothing ever happened. I told her that when I was in middle school that...
    kemokitty kemokitty
    31-35
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2014

    I grew up in a home with an alcoholic father who

    when he drank would put me down with words like fatty and hurtful things. Although i really dont remember my much of my childhood i do remember how my father was when he drank. How when we were at family functions away from home he would drive us home drunk and i was so scared...
    Melb1985 Melb1985
    31-35, F
    Dec 17, 2015

    Started drinking when I was 9,

    over poker! That was a family event, Now, 20 years later I am kick *** at poker, and will drink you under the table! Thanks mom, for the survival skills. Too bad your life sucked so bad, you couldn't see or love me. Turned it into hate! No worries now though, I got this! 😘
    whispernred whispernred
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 15

    The past is in the past now,

    but I can't help but still feel incredible anger as to why my dad(or any other responsible people in my family) left me alone with my mentally ill, neglectful, extremely physically ill, alcoholic mother up until I was 15. Why would you leave a child in a situation you know they...
    Exoduss Exoduss
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 24, 2014

    The Effects of Parental Alcoholism On Children

     Until  recently, the impact of alcoholism was measured by its effect on the alcoholic, by days lost from work and highway fatalities. New research has tended to concentrate on the impact of alcoholism on the family, especially the children of alcoholics. Studies have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Jun 15, 2009

    I've been waiting SO damn long to turn 18.

    I am a high school senior, employed with part time work, and am getting another job as a licensed nursing assistant (yay!) I am completely self-sufficient now. As the child of an alcoholic mother, I grew independent very, very quickly. My friends refer to me as the mom of the...
    Sarah196 Sarah196
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2013

    Alcoholic Dementia

    My mom has been an alcoholic my whole life, I am 24 years old. It wasn't until the past ten years when it took a hold of her. It was right after my little sister was born when things took a turn for the worse and I was in 6th grade. My step-dad made enough money where my mom didn...
    ohhitsami ohhitsami
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Dec 27, 2011

    Dearest Father.

    I know I've said this once before (Remember that time you slammed me against the wall with your hands around my throat and then when you finally let me fall to the floor- sobbing and begging you to leave me alone- you laid the boot in?) but I ******* HATE YOU!I have tried so god...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Aug 3, 2011

    My mom had a problem with alcoholism

    for most of my life but she's been doing a lot better over the past year. Last night (Christmas Eve) however, she got so drunk she could barely keep her head up. I know she's an adult and she rarely ever drinks anymore but I can't stand to see her like that anymore. She put my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 25, 2015

    Whilst you're sitting there drinking I'm

    sitting here stuck thinking. I can't get you out my darn head, I have no motivation to get out of this bed. Why do this to me? To us? I need you in my life dad, the thought of waking up not having you breaks me in two. My head goes crazy, the thought of you all alone breaks me...
    aimsdisneyox aimsdisneyox
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 5

    My parents ruined my life.

    My mother with her enabling and my father with his drinking....
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    Sep 21, 2015

    Relationships

    As an adult child of an alcoholic what are the main problems you have faced in your relationships? I think it is trust for me, that and believing that I do not deserve someone that treats me right. It used to be that I believed I could save people. I was always trying to save...
    21again45 21again45
    36-40
    1 Response Oct 12, 2013

    My Story

    I`m going to do a bit of venting here. I`ve had a lot on my mind lately and I need to just unload it somewhere, I guess. Right now, my family is struggling economically, I`m unemployed and desperately searching for a job, and I`m depressed and angry about it all. My family has...
    JesusKravitz JesusKravitz
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 20, 2013

    My father is an alcoholic

    who will steal money and alcohol from anyone. He is visiting and I do not feel comfortable around him. I wish he would get the help he needs so he can live a better life before it is too late. I understand people that abuse drugs or alcohol will not get help until they are ready...
    MisunderstoodGal30 MisunderstoodGal30
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2015

    Learning Tolerance

    A few alcoholics, actually. Yes, a few. My biological mother is an alcoholic, although you tell her that and her response is, "I only have one or two glasses of wine a day!" But ask her if she could live without those two glasses and she would scoff. I even challenged her to do...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Oct 31, 2013

    Growing Up With An Alcoholic

    From the ages of 9 years old until I was a senior in High School my mom was married to an alcoholic. Life was very difficult. My mother was physically and mentally abused as well as my older brother and myself. Things were so bad at home that my brother quit school and left home...
    cmost cmost
    36-40, F
    41 Responses Feb 3, 2007

    Well this is not an easy subject

    for me to speak off but I felt the need to write a few words... My father was an alcoholic, I had to live with that every day of my life, it was not a good childhood... the sleepless nights, the worrying, the fear, the pain, the sadness... the anger and hate... oh the hate...
    silvershadow2099 silvershadow2099
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Jan 22, 2014

    Somedays

    Somedays I stare at a wall thinking of the cells the cells she locks herself in the cells this demon has killed I think to myself why would someone someone so smart pour it away it gets harder each day to remember my childhood I was the baby without a bottle it lives in...
    deciBle deciBle
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 7, 2012

    I do this thing where I go back

    and forth with my dad. When he's sober its great and I actually like doing things for him but then he abuses my trust and faith in him and starts drinking and I end up thinking why do I waste so much time and effort on this guy? I seriously don't know what to do anymore. This is...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 13, 2015

    Ol' Buddy Little girl watching tv Sliding

    door slams open She jumps in fear Her dad stumbles in Profanities under his breath with twelve pack in hand Sliding door slams shut She jumps again and looks away One hand with booze, the other grasping the wall He shuts his door and let's his can of Ol' Buddy breathe...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 15, 2015

    Alcoholism takes a child's childhood away.

    They don't get to experience life and all it has to offer. The child is more concerned about how their parent is going to behave. A child doesn't hear praises or feel unconditional love or support. They have to try to understand why a parent is nice one minute and a raging...
    rottenrobi rottenrobi
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Oct 8, 2015

    Today in therapy, my therapist called attention

    to the way I'm still mad at my mother (non-alcoholic parent) for so many things that happened in my childhood, whereas the things my dad (alcoholic parent) did kind of get a free pass. I know she's right on some level. The best thing I could think of at the time was that most...
    greensapphire greensapphire
    31-35, F
    Aug 28, 2015

    Part I: Being raised into a family of

    dysfunction and high tension, verbal and physical abuse, self-destructive and addictive behavior, you begin to familiarize yourself with chaos. The feelings and experiences involved with being a child, partner, or whomever to an alcoholic loved one is almost indescribable until...
    sierrlcoll sierrlcoll
    18-21, F
    Feb 7

    My parents have been drinking

    since I can remember. before though, they just partied on the weekends. They still were active in mine and my brothers lives. They still made sure we ate and took us where we needed to go. The past 4 years have been torture. My mother's brother died and she picked up smoking...
    alexamichelle94 alexamichelle94
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 1

    Untitled

    My dad is an alcoholic. My mother won't leave so I did.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 24, 2013

    I feel like a broken record,

    and that all my posts are the same. Same theme, same content, all the same.My dad is drinking again no shocker there. Im making arrangements to leave, leave him, leave my mom, leave this whole mess behind me and start fresh. Its going to take some time but I really want to get...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    Oct 1, 2015

    So Where Do I Begin...

    First of all, I've never shared anything on any online forum, let alone anything like this, so I hope I'm doing this right. So where do I begin... I guess I'll start by just coming out and saying it, my father was an alcoholic. For the longest time, my dad was someone who just...
    LookingForALifeline LookingForALifeline
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Nov 27, 2012

    Just Been Thinking Lately

    I'm flying out to see my dad for spring break in about a week, and its just making me think about things lately. I didn't have it bad like some other people who have parents with the same disease, but i think i have my mom to thank for that. I used to be so angry at him for all...
    PaperTowns PaperTowns
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Mar 15, 2010

    during my years of being 15 i just got out of

    juvie and my parents still drink my mom is an angry drunk and my dad is a cooperative drunk. one night my mother came home wasted she was especially angry and violent this night she told me she wasn't going to drink before she left so i let the kids stay up till she got home...
    DestinyC098 DestinyC098
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 9

    I'm so young. I have three sisters.

    I'm the third. I've always have been secretive of my feelings. My mom would emotionally and physically abuse me when nobody was around. She would be drinking every day. Gallon a night. She doesn't remember hitting me. She has had several boyfriends since the divorce five years...
    winkesternommon winkesternommon
    16-17, F
    Dec 30, 2015

    I'm absolutely sick and tired of my alcoholic

    parents and there dumb decisions to get insanely drunk on the weekends. They care more about there personal high than they care about me and my siblings feelings.
    lifesastruggle100 lifesastruggle100
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 6

    My mother is a great person

    when she's sober. She'd do anything for nothing, just to see someone smile. When I was young, probably three years old, when my father was still with us, she used to take pictures of us together all the time. She even made a scrapbook out of them with cute little stickers...
    poliad poliad
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jul 2, 2014

    Two weeks ago my dad fell down the stairs

    and ended up breaking his hip, he's underwent surgery and now he's in a a facility for physical therapy. Its amazing the amount of crap he's endured and he still chooses to drink. I got accepted into grad school and I've made up my mind that he's not going to ruin this for me...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 19

    I have the best dad in this world.

    so innocent,loving and caring.but he got addicted to alcohol some years back.me and mom tried our level best.but nothing worked out.now he is in hospital battling liver cirrhosis.it pains me immensely and I can't imagine a world without him.i wish world leaders put a ban on...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 16, 2015

    I can't believe my mom!

    She is an alcoholic and has lost her 2 jobs from being in and out of the hospital. She doesn't even have a place to live! I have told her numerous times that she can live with me and I can take care of her but she always declines. I sent her a text the other day telling her she...
    palmtree87 palmtree87
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Nov 20, 2015

    And for this reason,I will never go near

    alcohol myself.I'd be stupid to considering I've probably inherited an addictive personality and am therefore more liable to fall into alcoholism myself. Plus I've absolutely no desire to touch the stuff because I know how damaging and poisonous it can be! I was just wondering...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2015

    My Mom Drank Herself to Death

    I am 29 and my mom died on Thanksgiving 2005 of cirrhosis of the liver. Slowly, her liver, kidneys, and lungs failed. She was 44. There is so much I am going through as a person because of her alcoholism and it makes me so angry that I have so many problems because of it. I don't...
    aka746 aka746
    26-30, F
    82 Responses Feb 21, 2007

    what's up guys, so here's a quick story of me

    meeting my biological father for the first time. First time meeting him I thought to myself "damn he is tall" 6 feet and all that, why couldn't I gotten that from him. After that I stayed at his house for about a week, he came home really drunk one night. He said "Son i lobe you...
    justanothermouse justanothermouse
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 8, 2015

    My mom's an alcoholic

    and has been since last year. She's not drinking every day of the week at the moment but she has been and the amount of days per week increases and decreases all the time. I feel guilty for not being home more with my siblings. My older sister takes care of her all by her self...
    leswede leswede
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 21

    My parents both decided to quit drinking at the

    start of the year. Not even three days have gone by and what do I find? A quarter empty bottle of vodka. I am told time and time again you people would quit but once again you have lied to me. Why should I even bother when time and time again you do this.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 17

    Both My Parents Were Alcoholics

    The title kind of says it, really. Both my late parents were alcoholics, though not at the same time. My father was a very shy man, who felt awkward around people, and clearly drink made him feel more confident, though he would still not really talk to people, but just get...
    mizzen123 mizzen123
    46-50, M
    21 Responses Apr 26, 2009

    I feel like this year is just going to be

    horrible. Usually my dads cycle of being sober and then hitting the bottle again seems to last a few months. He'll be sober for atleast 3-4 months and then drunk for 1-3 weeks, depending on his resources. Lately he just doesn't seem to be sober for more than a few days. Its all...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 21

    Today, New Year's Eve,

    everyone is out drinking with friends. For the first time in my life, I'm away from my alcoholic mother and I don't have to keep an eye on her, I don't have to be in arguments between drunk adults, take care of them when they've gotten into a fight or fallen asleep in the couch...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 31, 2015

    So I haven't been on here

    for a while now, I actually starting thinking my dad had changed. I had been accepted into school away from home, and thought I could leave and not worry about him drinking... needless to say that dream ended less than a week in. I called home to check in, see how things were...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 1

    Who Needs College When You Had An Alcoholic Parent, Right?

    I learned so much from having an alcoholic father. Like... -A "40" costs about $2.50 and it's almost always drank with the brown paper bag still around it - the entire time. -Don't leave change or money hanging around anywhere unless your starting a "Brew for Dad Foundation...
    Elaine19 Elaine19
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2012

    My dad's an alcoholic

    and my mom is in California at the moment so it's just me and him. My mom hates when he drinks so now that she's gone for the weekend he took his chance. I always write letters to him begging him to stop and it works sometimes but he always goes back. He's drunk right now and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015

    5 O'clock At My House

    Everyday at five o'clock, my dad would come home from work and be greeted by mother with a kiss and a glass of whiskey and soda.  She would make one for herself.  It was the cocktail hour for both of them.   They drank all through dinner and well into the...
    vampireheart vampireheart
    31-35, T
    37 Responses Aug 13, 2008
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