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I Am the Child of An Alcoholic

For people whose parents drink or drank in the past. 3,058 People

    My Mom Drank Herself to Death

    I am 29 and my mom died on Thanksgiving 2005 of cirrhosis of the liver. Slowly, her liver, kidneys, and lungs failed. She was 44. There is so much I am going through as a person because of her alcoholism and it makes me so angry that I have so many problems because of it. I don't...
    aka746 aka746 26-30, F 77 Responses Feb 21, 2007

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    My dad became and alcoholic

    when my mom told him she was pregnant with me so I feel like I'm the reason he drinks. Could it be true?😫😫😫😫😫😫🍺🍺🍺🍺🍺🍺🍺
    Jackie1456 Jackie1456 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    My father was an abusive alcoholic.

    Verbally and physically. My parents divorced just after I turned 6 and my brother was 2 almost 3. My current step dad is an obnoxious alcoholic. He's also abusive verbally and mentally. I think my mom's to scared to leave him because they share twin 2 year olds. My mom's an...
    MaydayLife MaydayLife 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    My mother is an alcoholic.

    And when she would drink she would flip flop between loving(ish) and raging mad. It's funny because I feel guilty for all the problems I am learning her drinking caused in my life. I always new it had an effect on me but her and everyone else in the world told me not to blame...
    neskan4 neskan4 26-30, F Jan 26

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    Because Of My Dad, I'll Never Touch Beer.

    I literally don't want anything to do with alcohol after dealing with an alcoholic father my entire life. He has a lot of problems, but his most irritating one has got to be his alcoholism. One recurring theme is him sitting around drinking beer and complaining about how badly...
    tjlkitty tjlkitty 18-21, M 4 Responses May 18, 2012

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    Walked in the house tonight only to see my mom

    passed out on the floor drunk... My heart felt like it stopped. She couldn't even stand on her own. Had to carry her to bed... So sick of this **** can't stop thinking im gonna come home and find her dead one day. Maybe I'm not a good enough daughter maybe that's why she is how...
    respect78 respect78 16-17, F 4 Responses May 25

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    My Mother

    My mothers best friend died when I was young.. I don't remember the year I was but I remember I was in the 5th grade. I came home and she was on the floor with a bottle of vodka sobbing. Ever since shes been drinking and its been terrible. When I was in middle school I remember...
    CallMeHope CallMeHope 19-21, F 30 Responses Jul 15, 2007

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    My Story

    I`m going to do a bit of venting here. I`ve had a lot on my mind lately and I need to just unload it somewhere, I guess. Right now, my family is struggling economically, I`m unemployed and desperately searching for a job, and I`m depressed and angry about it all. My family has...
    JesusKravitz JesusKravitz 18-21, M 2 Responses May 20, 2013

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    My mum is an alcoholic.

    Being the middle child (and the only girl I might add) I feel like its my job to look after my younger brother using the advice my older brother gave me. I try to tell him that it's only the alcohol talking. But I know that isn't true. The alcohol gives her the ability to talk...
    Frantastic96 Frantastic96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I've been waiting SO damn long to turn 18.

    I am a high school senior, employed with part time work, and am getting another job as a licensed nursing assistant (yay!) I am completely self-sufficient now. As the child of an alcoholic mother, I grew independent very, very quickly. My friends refer to me as the mom of the...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Dear Daddy

    Dear Daddy, Tell me again how much u care how you'll love me forever how you'll always be there remember with me the stories of past memories of happy times that will always last dream with me daddy of castles and knights of rose covered fields and...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 12 Responses Jun 16, 2007

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    Both My Parents Were Alcoholics

    The title kind of says it, really. Both my late parents were alcoholics, though not at the same time. My father was a very shy man, who felt awkward around people, and clearly drink made him feel more confident, though he would still not really talk to people, but just get...
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 21 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    My father broke my heart way

    before any boy had the chance too.
    PinkDolphins PinkDolphins 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Being the oldest of my siblings has its

    advantages and disadvantages. My childhood was a very dark place, coated with the scent of cigarettes & booze. I remember everything, but my brothers aren't old enough to remember. My dad would drink every day. It gradually got worse, causing my parents to fight all the time...
    queeeenb queeeenb 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    My father is to blame

    for my depression, BPD and distrust in people. Alcoholism is not a disease to me, it is a selfish lifestyle choice. I will never sympathize for parents who are alcoholics. Give your child away to someone who will give him or her love and protect them.
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 14

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    My dad has been an acholic all my life

    and my mom has been for about 11 years. They divorced when I was two so now my mom is married to another alcoholic who verbally abuses me when he is drunk which is mostly always. I am tired of living with them because I feel like they don't care about me and they're always...
    jazzyrose jazzyrose 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    Im so sick of my life,

    with everything thats happened with my dad i feel so alone. I have no one to turn to, no one i can talk to. Months ago i sent my dad to jail because of his drinking and his behaviour, he came back and started to turn his life around and now its gone back to the way it was. I...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 30

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    So i haven't written here in a while.

    Four months ago i sent my dad to jail, and got an order against him. He was away for about three months, and then he started to change so we brought him back home. That was a mistake because he's at it again. Its mothers day today and instead of spending time with her we both...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I haven't seen my dad in a year.

    He lives only two hours away. The last time my sister (who is only 15) tried to visit him , he called me to yell over the phone calling her awful names and saying we were ungrateful. I called my mother panicing and she went to get her. He finally texted me about a week ago ,,but...
    ktd23 ktd23 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    My mom has bipolar borderline disorder,

    which means she was severely unstable. Growing up she would always drink. Sometimes she would drunkenly storm after me and only on one occasion did she hit me. Eventually her drinking landed her in the ICU with brain hemorrhaging and had a 50/50 chance of living. Then she got...
    dbuckley96 dbuckley96 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    My dad broke me with his word,

    actions, and broken battles.
    Wishingtobegone Wishingtobegone 16-17, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Untitled

    My dad is an alcoholic. My mother won't leave so I did.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    Relationships

    As an adult child of an alcoholic what are the main problems you have faced in your relationships? I think it is trust for me, that and believing that I do not deserve someone that treats me right. It used to be that I believed I could save people. I was always trying to save...
    21again45 21again45 31-35 1 Response Oct 12, 2013

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    5 O'clock At My House

    Everyday at five o'clock, my dad would come home from work and be greeted by mother with a kiss and a glass of whiskey and soda.  She would make one for herself.  It was the cocktail hour for both of them.   They drank all through dinner and well into the...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 36 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    So Where Do I Begin...

    First of all, I've never shared anything on any online forum, let alone anything like this, so I hope I'm doing this right. So where do I begin... I guess I'll start by just coming out and saying it, my father was an alcoholic. For the longest time, my dad was someone who just...
    LookingForALifeline LookingForALifeline 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    Sad. Broken. Loving.

    Needy. Codependant. Intolerant. 5150. A good pal. A spooky lover. Why. A mind is a terrible thing to waste. A commercial said that once. My dad wasted mine. By the time i noticed it was too late. He traded rental help after an accident for me...
    converted converted 46-50, M 3 Responses May 22

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    My Mom Drinks All The Time

    My mom has been an alcoholic all my life. I found out about it when I was 7. I am now 17, and in a few months I will be 18. She has said many horrible things when she was drunk. It makes me mad because people always say "drunken words are sober thoughts." It makes me sick to...
    xoxally xoxally 16-17, F 12 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Who Needs College When You Had An Alcoholic Parent, Right?

    I learned so much from having an alcoholic father. Like... -A "40" costs about $2.50 and it's almost always drank with the brown paper bag still around it - the entire time. -Don't leave change or money hanging around anywhere unless your starting a "Brew for Dad Foundation...
    Elaine19 Elaine19 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22, 2012

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    My mother was an alcoholic

    for over twenty years. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll end up like her. I'm already much like her now. I see my anxiety and self consciousness through her and i feel myself slipping into that black hole of negativity I've seen her in all my life. My long term goal is to not be like...
    nikkiisluv nikkiisluv 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    Dearest Father.

    I know I've said this once before (Remember that time you slammed me against the wall with your hands around my throat and then when you finally let me fall to the floor- sobbing and begging you to leave me alone- you laid the boot in?) but I ******* HATE YOU!I have tried so god...
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 9 Responses Aug 3, 2011

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    My name is Brigid i'm 19 years old

    and my father was an alcoholic, weather or not he is still one i have no clue. I chose to cut ties with him because he was very manipulative. Growing up my parents argued a lot but i had no idea it was because of his alcohol use. He was disabled (cerebral palsy) my mother had it...
    flowerchildbri flowerchildbri 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 11

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    Growing Up With An Alcoholic

    From the ages of 9 years old until I was a senior in High School my mom was married to an alcoholic. Life was very difficult. My mother was physically and mentally abused as well as my older brother and myself. Things were so bad at home that my brother quit school and left home...
    cmost cmost 36-40, F 42 Responses Feb 3, 2007

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    My father died aged 70 in 2010.

    The official cause of death was Bronco pneumonia with Supperative Pluresy. He was sober when he died but his body was weakened from the years of alcoholism
    RomanyTryphena RomanyTryphena 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    My mother died of alcohol cirrhosis last week.

    She was only in hospital for 2 weeks. I can't count the number of times I begged her to stop drinking and tried up get her help over the last 12 years. Now I am devastated and wracked with guilt what ifs, sadness, grief, relief and emptiness. She was only 56. Does anyone have...
    deedeece deedeece 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    Somedays

    Somedays I stare at a wall thinking of the cells the cells she locks herself in the cells this demon has killed I think to myself why would someone someone so smart pour it away it gets harder each day to remember my childhood I was the baby without a bottle it lives in...
    deciBle deciBle 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    I know everyone has their story,

    I've read a few on here already, so here is mine. My dad was the "bread winner" working a good job that would lead to a great job and life for his family until he got sick, was diagnosed with a blood clotting disorder, and had to quit working. My mom at the time was a stay at...
    SgtArmyWife SgtArmyWife 22-25, F 2 Responses May 15

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    It's really hard to deal with sometimes.

    My dad drinks nearly every single night and I hate the drunk him. Is all I want his him to go to rehab but no one In my family will freakkng listen to me. Ughh.
    ally5101999 ally5101999 13-15, F Apr 9

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    Just Been Thinking Lately

    I'm flying out to see my dad for spring break in about a week, and its just making me think about things lately. I didn't have it bad like some other people who have parents with the same disease, but i think i have my mom to thank for that. I used to be so angry at him for all...
    PaperTowns PaperTowns 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    A Long Line of Alcoholics

    My family history, more than anything, convinces me that genetics has a strong influence on what we do in life. It doesn't preordain our path, but it may make it much harder to choose a different path. My father's father and grandparents were alcoholics. My father started...
    WittyOne WittyOne 46-50, F 31 Responses May 24, 2007

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    My dad is an alcoholic

    and a couple of weeks ago he was ill. My younger sister informed me and my first thought was he didn't take in alcohol. Anyways the next afternoon as he was finishing work I called him and as I expected he was sitting at a bar drinking beer (or as he calls it medicine). He just...
    Kaksy Kaksy 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    I use this blog to rant,

    rant about my life and whats happening in it because honestly speaking i don't have anyone in my life i can tell this stuff too…i used to tell my best friend and cousin…but eventually they ran out of things to say, and i just saw sympathy and pity in them. People tell me...
    sadgirl233 sadgirl233 22-25, F 3 Responses May 20

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    My mother is a great person

    when she's sober. She'd do anything for nothing, just to see someone smile. When I was young, probably three years old, when my father was still with us, she used to take pictures of us together all the time. She even made a scrapbook out of them with cute little stickers...
    poliad poliad 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 2

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    Just Another Stranded Soul

    My father was a high-function alcoholic. He never lost his job, never was incapable, would just drink himself insensible after work. He was an ugly drunk with a bad temper - never hit anyone, but his tongue and his anger were terrifying to all his children. Many of my most vivid...
    firefall firefall 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2011

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    My mom always drank. We never had food in the

    house. She would be up all night. She used to punish me by locking me in my bedroom, aways called me mean names. I'd find the alcohol bottels all over the house. She go to jail, when she got out it was like nothing ever happened. I told her that when I was in middle school that...
    kemokitty kemokitty 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Pilsner Or Moonshine

    My father's drink of choice was always Pilsner, well, that was until he started making his own moonshine. I remember schlepping bags and bags of potatoes/ fruits & sugar up to the small bedroom where he made the eye-watering, nose-curling clear liquid. Once a batch was ready...
    wickedties wickedties 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2009

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    I'm utilizing this space

    because I have no where to express my emotions anymore. I repress everything and it just fuels into anger. My mom, is an alcoholic. She drinks the minute she comes home from work, I go to dance, and when I come home there she is on the coach, passed out or slurring words and...
    brookeed13 brookeed13 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    The Effects of Parental Alcoholism On Children

     Until  recently, the impact of alcoholism was measured by its effect on the alcoholic, by days lost from work and highway fatalities. New research has tended to concentrate on the impact of alcoholism on the family, especially the children of alcoholics. Studies have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Alcoholic Father

    The tagline really says it all. I am the child of an alcoholic and have been living with him for 18 years of my life. If I could describe the experience in its entirety , I feel like I am living with two different fathers. When he is sober, he is a completely different person...
    justbefree justbefree 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    For the first time I got drunk last night

    and I regret it. It just shows that I'm a piece of ****. I am just as stupid as he is. Not only did I drink I got shitfaced. I think I'm an alcoholic just like him. I can't handle being like him. I want to cut but I can't risk my boyfriend seeing it. I feel on some rocks earlier...
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 2 Responses May 30

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    Well this is not an easy subject

    for me to speak off but I felt the need to write a few words... My father was an alcoholic, I had to live with that every day of my life, it was not a good childhood... the sleepless nights, the worrying, the fear, the pain, the sadness... the anger and hate... oh the hate...
    silvershadow2099 silvershadow2099 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Alcoholic Dementia

    My mom has been an alcoholic my whole life, I am 24 years old. It wasn't until the past ten years when it took a hold of her. It was right after my little sister was born when things took a turn for the worse and I was in 6th grade. My step-dad made enough money where my mom didn...
    ohhitsami ohhitsami 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2011

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    Daddy Wake Up...please Dont Do This

    Born way 2 early had 2 fight 2 all along. nothings ever come easy! Moms always busy and dads always stoned. NO foorsteps to follow No compass to guide me. I wish i could make you see how hard it is to become the 2 people i never wanted to be. My lifes laid out in front of...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 12 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    My Father

    On September. 21. 2000 My father died drinking and driving.  It was the beginning of school I had worked all summer to by new clothes, and fix a car I was given by my Grandpa. I thought it was going to be the best year ever I actually had friends that I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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