I Am the Child of An Alcoholic - Forum & Chat Board | books and stuff

I was wondering if there were any books that people have read that have been helpful for them.  I have read Perfect Daughters and could relate well to the daughters of alcoholic fathers section, but would like to read more.







I have also read some information saying that it can be helpful to make a scrapbook to deal with grief.  Its kind of a way to memorialize a person.  Is is crazy to do that with your childhood?  My dad didn't really start drinking until I was around six or so.  You can tell such a difference in the pictures before and after that time.  I just look at those pictures where I look so happy and carefree and just want to cry.  I feel like I am grieving that little girl.  Would making a scrapbook of that help me through the grieving process or is it just a cheezy idea?  .







I feel like I have to do something to get my life under control.  My anxiety level has been through the roof. I feel like I'll never be happy, then I beat myself up for that, just thinking I'm too whiny and  need to just get over it.  My self esteem is shot.   I am finally starting to really address my feelings about my childhood, even though I have been in therapy for years.  My moods are all over the place.  I feel so stressed. I'm working on this stuff in therapy and I am dealing with a breakup with an addicted individual (imagine that!) I was with this guy for several years and it was a crazy up and down relationship.  I had broken up with him, but then for stupid reasons, we started talking to each other again.  He stirs so much up for me and he is so much like my dad.  My anger with my dad and him gets all confused up and I start feeling like a kid again.  Then I do stupid immature things and feel like an ***. Then I start beating up on myself and it starts a whole cycle over again. I stopped contact with him but am still dealing with the emotional aftermath. I am trying so hard to stay away from him. Just when I think I am getting over some of this stuff I end up getting set back.  Its so frustrating.







I guess I just needed to vent that.