I Am The Girl Before The Mirror

My first two years of college~ loved it, fed off every crumb dropped from every table. .My Senior year? Complete disconnect.I could come up with an array of theories, explanations, rationalizations, and justifications as to why...

When the soft cashmere lies crumpled   and the gentle silk is cast aside  When the satin slinks down to the floor  and the last strip of lace lies idly by....  Then only I remain, uncompromised  Authentic and natural, open and...

There comes a time. .
when a person just can't possibly hurt anymore
and to do so simply just keeps hurting more
There comes a time
when a person must sink
or swim
sigh.
I don't feel like swimming
but
I have to buck up and do it anyway...

I walk to lifes mirror and what do I see I see just me looking back at me Gone are the fancy wrappings that I hide in so well Gone are the smiles and laughter that draws a veil I look into the windows of my soul and see The raw...

03.28.13They say, you know~ those people that say things ;) When the student is ready the teacher appears. .That every Moment is the Teacher. .I seem to have 5 Teachersthat have risen to the surface of my awareness like the glistening...

My days are filled with stomaching, sampling, distillations, pouring, plating, quantifying, recording, ing, ing, ing. .a xxxx ton of memorization attempting to justify my $xx,xxx.xx investment in "learning" (plus interest) of xxxx I've...

 I (my 19 year young self) sit crosslegged in the gravel, looking up at the stars hanging in midnight. .the football field to my right, the city lights disrupting my view like a mosquito buzzing in my ear. I've got my signature combat...

took a long hot shower
made sure to get all the pink parts ;)
shaved, I suppose out of some Zen like principle
that random heated Moment
just might
one day occur 
you know
where preparation
meets opportunity
and ya both get lucky...

I notice, for the first time, my face is gaunt. After so many years of having a baby face, always a bit chubby no matter what I weighed, this is a new development. My face is now more like the letter V; prominent cheekbones that look...

My Dad used to take me to the local diner of the very small country town I grew up in every Saturday, so when Saturday came, I would wake up as early as possible and run as fast as my little bare feet could carry me into my parents...

Gurrrrlthere is nowayyou have boobsthatbigbeingthatskinnyQuit Playin'.Is that muscle definition or emaciation?Don't smile.We'll know you're(hush)*aging*.

04.14 ~ 04.19.13"What!? Are you *14*!?!?!," my lab partner exclaims laughing at my complete lack of game or any sort of social normalcy."This is the part where you're supposed to tell me it wasn't that bad, & everything will be alright...

Forget it. Forget me.
Don’t tease me with your praise
Politeness is not welcome
Don’t hesitate to say
that we’re finished. “It’s over.”
you’ve hung us out to dry
when you know there is a sandstorm
and we’ll shape...

I want to apologize to You.
I cluttered the Collective Conciousness Bowl yesterday with a completely juvenille trantrum.  It was completely selfish, and served absolutely no common good.  (Deep breath, deep sigh. .)  
I apologize...

Children are the continuation and renewal of the human race.  The role of the parent or guardian is to maintain, guide, strengthen, and protect the innocence (not to be mistaken for nievity), purity, and originality of that child so...

". .we fall in mutual weirdness with each other, and call it love." ~ Dr. Suess
Perhaps the reason I so cherish a sincere compliment, is because I know exactly how rare sincerity and generosity are; hence when genuine, I store such...

Expressing beneath the fog and the mistLamenting to a vision yesterday kissedImage in neither dream or memory Flares of light in a haunting story. Echoes of a mystery waiting in silenceReverberating sounds of a bruising...

Today is a Special Day for me.It is the Day that I looked around me, felt inside me, and decided that although I was completely broken and visionless I knew for certain I did not want to die the death of the walking dead. A series of I...