I Am Tired Of Getting Back Up Just To Fall Down Again

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    Now she’s just fighting

    for herself. She’s fighting to keep herself. She’s fighting with what she has left. It’s not a lot, but it’s all she has. She needs a little help every now and then, but she’s fought this long, so she can make it a little while longer. She fights to keep who she is...
    tryingtogetthroughitall tryingtogetthroughitall
    22-25
    Feb 16, 2014

    Second Best!!!!! Again

    I met him December 2012 today he ended it. October he left his wife to build a life with me. To me he said that to others he was "exploring" a relationship with me......*red flag #1 He spent all of eight times with my kids and started to back peddle *red flag #2 He said he...
    lady1979 lady1979
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