I Am Tired of Pretending I'm Ok

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    I Never Want To Wake Up

    If I could get out of my wheelchair I would never be seen again. People onnly want what they can get from me. No good deed go unpunished. I don't want to eat. There is only one person that cares about me and she is nine. I cant talk to her. My adult son only cares about his...
    graciesjourney graciesjourney
    Aug 9, 2012

    I'm tired of being alone.

    I have a difficult time making connections, and keeping them once the connection is made. I long for someone I can confide my fears and doubts in. I make do with my pets (love them to bits) but having someone to talk to would be better. I'm just so tired of the same small talk...
    mislisa mislisa
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2016

    How Do You Face People Who Dislike You?

    What the problem is.. You meet them everyday in the school and the worst is they "were" your best friends. But now, they regard you as a stranger. They didn't care about your existence. They even insulted you. You know, how I acted like nothing happened and fake a smile, it's...
    morellocheryy morellocheryy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2013
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    1 Response Jul 2, 2015

    I am definitely not a writer

    and my English sucks. I always wanted to write. I want to keep a diary. I've tried many times in the past in doing that. But every each time after I wrote my first diary story, I will tear it off. You know why ? I just simply hate the way I write as my English is not that good...
    candicedxj candicedxj
    18-21, F
    Jul 3, 2014

    I know this might seem petty,

    but i hate my mother. Yes she does so much great things for me and i know there are so many people out there that pray to have a mother that loves them, but as much as she claims she does we are just too incompatible. When i was ten she told me that she sometimes pretends im...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 14, 2016

    There's nothing even wrong with me,

    I'm just fed up of always being the funny one or the one who always tells jokes. I want to just scream at everyone, leave me alone. My friends don't care, nobody cares. I'm not sad or depressed, just fed up really
    andybarete andybarete
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2014

    I'm really sick and tired of pretending I'm ok

    cause I'm not. I feel like know body is there for me, I feel like a outcast, and some how feel lonely even though when I'm surrounded by all of my best friends. I'm not ok. I go to school every day with a smile on my face but it's fake. When I'm on the bus I'm usually listening...
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 3, 2016

    I have to be strong because there's no space

    for weakness but I'm tired of it I can't just keep it to myself a lot of people don't like seeing me down and get annoyed with it so I started covering it up and pretending for as long as I can remember but I'm starting to rott away under this cover I have on, yet no one knows...
    cloverxx cloverxx
    18-21, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    Im trying to be strong

    for you but it hurts so bad.
    Mysticalix Mysticalix
    18-21, F
    Jun 28, 2015

    i hate having to pretend to be this happy crazy

    person. but it's all i ever can be because the second i take that costume off everyone starts leaving.
    vertigoingvertigone vertigoingvertigone
    18-21, F
    Jun 6, 2015

    Everyone in my life is

    either in crisis or otherwise needing something from me. There isn't any one of them that I can tell that I am lonely, depressed, and anxious. I spend all day putting on a happy face for my husband, children, acquaintances...sometimes I cry myself to sleep because it's the only...
    queenofcaffeine76 queenofcaffeine76
    41-45, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2014

    I'm not ok. I haven't been

    for a while. I have no real friends I can talk to, and there are some things I just can't talk to my parents about. The only thing keeping me going at this point are my pets. I want someone I can really talk to, who will just hold me and let me feel that I'm not alone. I hide...
    mislisa mislisa
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2015
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