. Physically and mentally, but mentally even more..I am not sick (i think) and I am also not depressed or suffering of a mental disorder (I think), I just need to be charged with love, just like how you charge a phone and then it starts working perfectly again, I just need some...
but its quite a relaxing tired, quite a 'satisfied' tired.
I am back at work after a good couple weeks with the family, I live and work away from them so Was quite emotional but a tremendously fun time My family and I had together.
So I lay here in bed and it feels like...
school is such a good idea. Especially when I'm trying to break my procrastination habit with homework.
I just feel a little stressed when I have to go to school then work all day. I do want money, but not that bad. I think I would be better off without a job during school, but...
whenever I feel down but well he has his life and can't always be there for me.
Besides that, I am juz tired of trying to talk to ppl who I don even enjoy talking to. I am afraid to cut him off and regret it later. But sometimes cutting ppl off is exactly the one thing I need...
and I shall bid you all good night! I leave you with this request...
If you see a wrong, make it right. Make someone smile every day. And leave the place a little better than you found it.
I love you all!
I want to read something but my brain just can't function due to over tiredness.
After eating, I am often this way. It's probably because I don't sleep in correct times. Or probably because I lack social interaction to bring energy to me.
I really hate the perception of the...
And at site since Friday where the wake up times are 430 and don't get back to camp till about 6. Needless to say I'm tired, irritable sometimes, emotional sometimes. Bear with me!! Be a little understanding! Cause I have 3 sleeps to go :/
I'm an apprentice and I get 40 hours there. The other job I get 20 hours there. Last night I had to do a 13 maybe 14 hour shift. I'm so tired. And here I go to my apprentice job :) wish me luck not to fall asleep
lately. No trouble falling asleep but would always wake up after I've got about 4 hours of sleep. I'd try getting back to sleep but would only be able to get about an hour more before getting up for work. This has been going on for a week now and I feel like a zombie. So tired.
more kind, more loving. I know that I am married to a good man. I know that I am lucky that he does the grocery shopping, washes the dishes, and does all the laundry.
I am grateful. I really, really am. I am grateful that I can have a career because he is so helpful at...
. . . and start thinking about a bunch of stuff.
Like how I want:
for someone to let me pet their baby bat.
a ride to the park at 6 AM to make dew angels in the grass.
to understand why I should care about economies and summations when all I want to do is think about cats.
for being shy
I'm sorry that I don't say hi to people I know are gonna take it the wrong way
I'm sorry that I don't have a lot of friends cause I a tried of being let down and disappointed
Really dad I'm sorry.
And some kid had the nerve to wake me up by yelling in my ear! My dreams were definitely more interesting than algebra. Maybe I should sleep more, nah the internet was created to prevent people from sleeping, I swear.
despair is as addictive as heroin and more popular than sex, for the single reason that when one is unhappy one gets to pay a lot of attention to oneself. Misery becomes a kind of emotional ************.”
― Tom Robbins, Wild Ducks Flying Backward
Felt that way for about a year now. My soul is tired. I feel like a butler to my wife, my career, and pretty much everything except myself. My personal growth feels completely retarded. My personality feels shriveled.
I just want time to explore myself again. I'm tired of...
I'm tired of being in pain. Tired of being sick. Tired of hating myself and never feeling like I'm good enough. And I'm tired of constantly thinking about self harm and suicide. I just want to sleep forever, but I'm even tired in my dreams.
of watching people.
of seeing it crumble
of seeing them break.
of being the one to do nothing.
of being told the world can be saved.
I am tired of this day to day misery.
I am tired of watching excuse after excuse.
I am tired of feeling everyone elses suffering.
I am tired of...
for the things I haven't done
Being called stupid
Being called useless
Being wrong all the time
Being pushed around
Crossing bridges for people whose not even willing to cross puddles for me
I'm tired of my life... They say things will get better...but I'm still...
I am not making any promises to thyself anymore. Nor my list of to do and do not's. Wow, must I really be tested like this. Hmn life. As I age, it still gets more amusing. I was trying to find ways to have it in me (again) the will and the power to roll with the punches. Hmn...
because two people didn't show for group B. Group A was going to meet on Thursday, and the seminar is on Friday, so I didn't need to do the readings just yet, but I got an email yesterday, I believe, asking if I wouldn't mind switching groups. Group B, for some reason, wants to...