Felt that way for about a year now. My soul is tired. I feel like a butler to my wife, my career, and pretty much everything except myself. My personal growth feels completely retarded. My personality feels shriveled.
I just want time to explore myself again. I'm tired of...
for being shy
I'm sorry that I don't say hi to people I know are gonna take it the wrong way
I'm sorry that I don't have a lot of friends cause I a tried of being let down and disappointed
Really dad I'm sorry.
And at site since Friday where the wake up times are 430 and don't get back to camp till about 6. Needless to say I'm tired, irritable sometimes, emotional sometimes. Bear with me!! Be a little understanding! Cause I have 3 sleeps to go :/
for everything and still falling short. I worked hard for my education and still can't seem to get the job I want. Everyone else seems to get a job right out of college or just before they graduate, I'm still temping. Now I'm moving and where I'm going I have to go through the...
and wake up with 100 million dollars in my account and realize I was adopted by some British potheads who have kept my film collection growing and have a 1000 inch screen with lots of speakers around a leather recliner that massages in a completely silent way.....:)
more kind, more loving. I know that I am married to a good man. I know that I am lucky that he does the grocery shopping, washes the dishes, and does all the laundry.
I am grateful. I really, really am. I am grateful that I can have a career because he is so helpful at...
. . . and start thinking about a bunch of stuff.
Like how I want:
for someone to let me pet their baby bat.
a ride to the park at 6 AM to make dew angels in the grass.
to understand why I should care about economies and summations when all I want to do is think about cats.
I want to just be all by myself with my thoughts ragging, cursing, regretting and even crying and smiling all at once.
I just want be alone, I love this peace and quiet. When I am ready to face the world I will gladly return but for now let me be
I used to love going on EP. However, now I realized that almost every post that has a response it is plagued with that "msg me" comment. A lot of people aren't here to help others or to gain from the experiences here or share, they're just here to pick up others who are in need...
while complaining how life is hard and whatever and how shes soo tired and is in pain while watching tv and yelling every 2 seconds , even the house chores are all on me , my little brother and sister are all over the place and she doesnt even care . im getting really tired of...
why am I the one who has lazy eye and that one way to correct droopy uneven eyelids is through surgery.
That one disfigured part literally killed my confidence and self esteem so many times over the years. I'm female and obviously as I grew I wanted to be beautiful (first...
Random1: You'd date someone if they had self harm scars but what if they still self harmed?"
Random2: then I wouldn't date them. It's my own preference
Random1: oh my god you're sick. Don't you love them?-
OKAY LETS STOP THERE.
One, when you date someone you don't love them...
and I shall bid you all good night! I leave you with this request...
If you see a wrong, make it right. Make someone smile every day. And leave the place a little better than you found it.
I love you all!
I am not making any promises to thyself anymore. Nor my list of to do and do not's. Wow, must I really be tested like this. Hmn life. As I age, it still gets more amusing. I was trying to find ways to have it in me (again) the will and the power to roll with the punches. Hmn...
that you are so tired. Have u thought about why I go on these sites when you are not here. I know you still talking to dude but I aint worried about it. So you shouldn't get made when I do my thing. Im just saying.
because we were finishing a presentation to the VP of our company. We got it almost done by 2am.
Then, I had to wake up early cause we needed to finish the report by 1pm. It was quite stressful since the numbers kept changing every hour and we had to revise and revise and revise...
2-4 hours restless sleep per night
Usually up at 3am. Go for a walk.
Problem is I feel dazed all day long.
I've done the research. Dark cool quiet room. No caffeine after 3pm. Exercise. Eat healthy.
Doc suggested sleep study. Already had 3. Waste of time and $.
My mind is...
And saying sorry all the fwaking time but bish u know what sorry not sorry
And being told I have a attitude well hey guess what I'm a lil bitchy get over it yea I went there don't love me for who i am *opens the door * see ur way out douche
I got that cute face and...
so tired after dinner. I feel I seem to collapse completely and can't do any work needing even a little bit of brain. I really hate this. Originally eating food is to give the body energy but after eating, I feel my body is totally energy-drained and can't do the work I planned...
nice cozy blanket and take a nap. I didn't think working out before bedtime would be a problem.. well apparently it was. I was literally bouncing at 12:20ish am and my husband had to sing me to sleep. 0.o
And some kid had the nerve to wake me up by yelling in my ear! My dreams were definitely more interesting than algebra. Maybe I should sleep more, nah the internet was created to prevent people from sleeping, I swear.