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I Am Too Afraid To Show Someone Everything I Am

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    I think I should be alone.

    I was with someone. Now when I see him. I don't really feel anything. I don't know why. He hugged me goodbye and it was awkward. We just broke up. After picking up my stuff from his place I felt kinda sad and weird. I think I'm just sad because I know I should be sadder. I...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Mar 8

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    There's a lot of things I have inside

    that I don't want anyone to see. I can't tell what is appropriate or not. Something I think is normal weirds people out and sometimes the weird stuff is totally normal. One thing I hate as a mentally ill person is people saying "it's not that bad." This is what people think is...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I think I love my boyfriend

    or at least I care a lot. Is it though strange that sometimes I want someone a little more passionate? I know I'm a greY Asexual person. But sometimes he treats me like his pet, like a house cat. I'm not a damn house cat! I'm a person and sometimes I get bored He only gets...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Nov 27, 2013

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    I just feel it's too complex

    and varied to even attempt to explain.. so many contradictions living in harmony.. I wouldn't even know how to begin.
    Panther6345 Panther6345 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 8

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    Sometimes it scares me to be just me.

    It scares me to think that people might not understand me. It scares me to show the things I think I can do because I'm afraid i would become a failure. It scares me to think that maybe, in just one snap everything that I have would become everything that I had. It scares me...
    officialwanderer officialwanderer 16-17, F 1 Response May 31

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    Will You Leave Me?

    I fear abandonment, and the chance to return to who I one was, alone and despise. I learned from a erly age that I am always wrong, and it is better not to speak at all. I am afraid that if I express my self I will lose all that I gained.
    outofwonderland outofwonderland 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2012

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    I'm alone again, single.

    Bad communication. I didn't think he appreciated me and he didn't think I appreciated him. So sad. Wish I told him how I cared. I'm just so bad with words. I tried to show him but no one thinks I have feelings probably because I'm autistic. Sometimes I think he didn't want to...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Aug 5

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    Yes. I realized that I am a bit closed off.

    I'm afraid to reveal everything. I don't think anyone will fully understand me. So I will have that bit of loneliness left even if I we're disclose all of my secrets to one person. I don't see how anyone could like everything that is inside me and I don't know if I could like...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F May 31

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