I Am Too Afraid To Show Someone Everything I Am

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    I'm alone again, single.

    Bad communication. I didn't think he appreciated me and he didn't think I appreciated him. So sad. Wish I told him how I cared. I'm just so bad with words. I tried to show him but no one thinks I have feelings probably because I'm autistic. Sometimes I think he didn't want to...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Aug 5, 2014

    I think I should be alone.

    I was with someone. Now when I see him. I don't really feel anything. I don't know why. He hugged me goodbye and it was awkward. We just broke up. After picking up my stuff from his place I felt kinda sad and weird. I think I'm just sad because I know I should be sadder. I...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Mar 8, 2014

    My best friend and I have known each other

    forever. We tell each other everything, and we always back each other up. But she can also be your worst enemy if you get on her bad side, and she's really bad at secret keeping. I want to show her my scars and tell her that I'm not okay, but I'm not sure if I can trust her. She...
    EmereyTragedy EmereyTragedy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

    I'm afraid to show my piercing to my new

    girlfriend. it's a Prince Albert.
    stucknrut stucknrut
    41-45
    Dec 30, 2014

    I think I love my boyfriend

    or at least I care a lot. Is it though strange that sometimes I want someone a little more passionate? I know I'm a greY Asexual person. But sometimes he treats me like his pet, like a house cat. I'm not a damn house cat! I'm a person and sometimes I get bored He only gets...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Nov 27, 2013

    Sometimes it scares me to be just me.

    It scares me to think that people might not understand me. It scares me to show the things I think I can do because I'm afraid i would become a failure. It scares me to think that maybe, in just one snap everything that I have would become everything that I had. It scares me...
    officialwanderer officialwanderer
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 31, 2014

    I am too afraid to show everything I a m

    because if I give them everything, then if they break my heart, I will have nothing. And I will be even more sad. Please help...
    tthecheshirecatt tthecheshirecatt
    16-17, F
    Oct 13, 2015

    I have tried showing maybe half of

    who I am before, and the consequences were horrendous. I want to believe that my "Mr. Right" will be the one to change this, but in reality I suspect this is just another dream.
    MsBree01 MsBree01
    22-25, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    Yes. I realized that I am a bit closed off.

    I'm afraid to reveal everything. I don't think anyone will fully understand me. So I will have that bit of loneliness left even if I we're disclose all of my secrets to one person. I don't see how anyone could like everything that is inside me and I don't know if I could like...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    May 31, 2014

    This really just hit mine

    for me, when I talk to someone I only show them ONE side of me ......but never have I ever shown anyone All of me and I guess it really is something you do to someone you trust , kind of hurts my heart </3 And I seriously hope I can share myself with someone someday...
    CurvyFrance CurvyFrance
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2014
    stucknrut stucknrut
    41-45
    Dec 29, 2014

    There's a lot of things I have inside

    that I don't want anyone to see. I can't tell what is appropriate or not. Something I think is normal weirds people out and sometimes the weird stuff is totally normal. One thing I hate as a mentally ill person is people saying "it's not that bad." This is what people think is...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Aug 7, 2014

    everything..? i mean thats a whole not.

    ..im not sure if one person could handle all sides of me
    classylips classylips
    16-17, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    Will You Leave Me?

    I fear abandonment, and the chance to return to who I one was, alone and despise. I learned from a erly age that I am always wrong, and it is better not to speak at all. I am afraid that if I express my self I will lose all that I gained.
    outofwonderland outofwonderland
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2012

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