I Am Traumatized

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 145 People

    i cant take it anymore.

    i dont know how you feel inside.. i wish i knew what is going on in your mind, so i could even begin to understand. im hurt, i really am. im lost without you, i need you. but what was i suppose to do.. i was backed into a wall with so many things going through my mind at once...
    Ebolaa Ebolaa
    16-17, M
    1 Response Dec 19, 2014

    Lawsuit At 10

    Now, I've submitted many things to EP regarding my personal problems, and sometimes I feel the point of life is to always improve oneself by getting to the source of his/her problems. So, here's my entry on that. In elementary school I was bullied. Now, it didn't bother me much...
    jayjangle jayjangle
    May 12, 2013

    It's been about a year

    and some months now but it still lingers in the back of my head. [back story] in my culture, after a woman gives birth to a baby, the baby's fathers side of the family does a ritual and animal sacrifice for the child's soul to come home. So after everything, it was time to eat...
    TheeLinda TheeLinda
    18-21, F
    Jul 8, 2015

    The Past Can Come And Go , A Abusive Realationship Is A Huge No No.

    It all started with my parents , I was small when this happened.I am 16 now . when i was exactly at the age of 2 & 3 i saw everything that went on with my parents. My real dad who started to drink acohol used to be a kind man . He became addicted to it and it changed his ways...
    naturelove11 naturelove11
    Aug 6, 2013

    It Developed My OCD Behaviour

    This happened back when I was in Elementary. My mum and I was heading to the mall; she was on the driving seat. It was in broad daylight. We went through many interesections, and at one point, we had to stop at the traffic light. While we were stopping, my mom suddenly became...
    ChibiFuu ChibiFuu
    26-30, F
    Aug 10, 2012

    i was 7 and a gay girl kissed me

    so i ran crying for my mum and was traumatised up until now. i know its not a big deal and i know that a lot of people have bigger problems. but please answer this one question. how can you forget somethinf traumatising thank u :)? im actually 17 i mistyped the dates!
    himynameisanna22 himynameisanna22
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2014

    We Dont Talk About It

    i dont even let myself know about it. some of us push it down underground and try not to look at it again. i can see the shape of it, the edges of it, but i never look into that center.
    kittten kittten
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2007

    So I was on my way downstairs going to take a

    quick pee. I started hearing faint moaning sounds from my parents bedroom. ...You guessed it. My parents were having sex. Now, I'm 18 years old and never in my whole life have I heard them having sex. EVER. I am extremely traumatized right now and I cannot seem to hold in my...
    NyleveJT NyleveJT
    2 Responses May 25, 2015

    Yesterday I spent the day with my boyfriend,

    mom, aunt, and my moms friend and her daughter. My boyfriend just touched my hand and I jumped. I felt so terrified. He knows I was raped multiple times in my life. I know the last time I was raped was almost 2 years ago, but I'm still traumatized.
    HaleyJG HaleyJG
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 3, 2015

    Will I Ever Get Over This?

    Last night, on the way home, we were involved in an accident and a young girl of no more than 13 or so was killed. All I recall is hearing a thud and the front windscreen was smashed. We weren't sure if a rock had been thrown at our car, which is commonplace here as a hijacking...
    titfortattoo titfortattoo
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Jan 16, 2008

    I Almost Killed Someone

    This isn't easy so please bear with me. Years ago I was pushing a dear friend from school across a mall when we needed to stop to chat with the rest of the group. Suddenly I went to reach over to her wheelchair and all of a sudden it starting tumbling down the concrete steps...
    CarolineBelinda CarolineBelinda
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 18, 2009

    I did it. I took a ride on the dmt express baby!

    God what an incredible journey. I was taken to another world and shown things that were meant for me to see. Things that had a profound affect upon my life. I got the message loud and clear. I was confronted. I was dominated and I submitted. I was there. And we will all be there...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 5

    Count the Asterisks

    My goodness i was just made to listen to blink 182 , Uhm ....I Wanna **** a dog in the ***!  Truly unusal this band , this mom needs a Vallium now.
    redheadsrule redheadsrule
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2007

    Oh my gosh i saw a man in the bus ************

    and he was sitting right beside me i was so shocked i didnt know what to and worst of all i could move because i was sitting in the corner...so i pretended that i didnt see and i hate the fact that i didnt make an out brust i feel so bad... how im i gonna recover from this...
    BlueFloraKae BlueFloraKae
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 3, 2015

    I'm traumatised from being rejected by my

    family at Christmas. We're dysfunctional anyway but I didn't deserve it. I'm starting to get over it all it's took a lot of hard work to feel ok... Not cry everyday because of the emotional damage. they have a habit of putting me down and then justifying why hey put me down by...
    lovemydoggy lovemydoggy
    31-35, F
    Jan 20, 2015

    I am sick to death of my older sister.

    Call me overreacting, but she has made me feel even more despicable. Anyway, a few days ago, my mum was on the phone to her and she told my sister about my art project. She phones my mum after a few days and says, I don't think the kids are safe around her(meaning me) all...
    Claricalle10 Claricalle10
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 30

    i cant take it anymore.

    i dont know how you feel inside.. i wish i knew what is going on in your mind, so i could even begin to understand. im hurt, i really am. im lost without you, i need you. but what was i suppose to do.. i was backed into a wall with so many things going through my mind at once...
    Ebolaa Ebolaa
    16-17, M
    Dec 19, 2014

    So honestly I'm still afraid of my basement

    and today I had to go down there to get something and I turned of the light and I heard a weird warblely noise. It sounded like a drunk dying monkey laughing and I turned around and saw a big distorted clown face. Turns out it was one if those puzzles that make noise when u put...
    thefallenones thefallenones
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2014


    Previously, my trauma used to act up being instigated or influenced by something of resemblance to the original set of events. Things that would remind me of those days. But for a few days, ive been noticing that now it does not need any reason at all. one moment im perfectly...
    kragoth135 kragoth135
    22-25, M
    Nov 30, 2013

    Demanding reprimanding I just want to sing

    Is it such a sin that I cannot Just fit in?!! I knew it would be from the very beginning tell me that I'm not good enough for your cause Im leaving You're the one at loss Nonmoper This grie we've faught over So its over Become sober Not my game I Break away my...
    Hey4yu Hey4yu
    22-25, F
    Jul 21, 2015

    I Saw Not One But 2 Fights For The First Time In My Life

    Last night i went out with my friends and saw 2 fights but the first one was more trauatmic then the second one...the first one had to deal with gang memebers and i ran and hid in the car and am for some terrified now.....am i crazy???
    anonymity21 anonymity21
    1 Response Mar 6, 2011

    Is self soothing exercises the only way?

    When it gets real bad I don't find they really help at all.... And I only remember stuff sometimes :P Why is it that the worst ones come when you're feeling down or had a bad day? Everytime I ask someone how to best cope~ All they can give me is self soothing exercises~ I wish...
    ElaineLovesSmiles ElaineLovesSmiles
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 22, 2014

    Loved, Hoped, Believed, Got Traumatized, Cant Do Anything Anymore. Literally

    First time writing stuff like this, as you can see from the quality of the title. i dont even know what to write. Its just that i am so tired of everything , i guess sharing stuff anonymously where i cant be affected directly is kind of the only way to get stuff of my chest. I...
    kragoth135 kragoth135
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 29, 2013

    The Beginning Of The End

    It was a weekend like any other in the life of an ordinary 14 year old girl. I was at the local mall with my best friend Jessica, excitedly chattering and giggling about the latest school scandal, the newest fashion trends, the footbal player i had a hopeless crush on... A day...
    SweetGG SweetGG
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 31, 2013

    Will It Ever End

    I have finally realized I am more ill than originally thought. I have done my best to hook up with councillors and a trauma program, participated at a learning hospital in the study of post traumatic stress disorder. Read all I can on the subject and the key to this disorder is...
    brackenreedfro brackenreedfro
    41-45, F
    10 Responses Aug 31, 2008

    I was preparing for major jaw surgery to

    correct a severe jaw deformity. As u know, all throughout my life I was psychologically and emotionally hurt and damaged because of my own self esteem and bullying i endured. When it was time to get surgery, it provided me a chance to renew myself mentally and emotionally...
    fenixleo fenixleo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2015

    Stalked At 8

    When I was 8 years old my friend and her brother came home with me after school. I walked in the door and everything in my house was broken. I had been robbed. When the police caught the people who robbed my house they told the cops that they have stalked my family and I for 9...
    crewlover crewlover
    Apr 1, 2013

    i am straight definetely i like boys of course!

    and not girls. i was 6 and this lesbian which was like 12 pecked me on the lips. and i was shocked and ran to my mum and cried! ive had crushes on boys not girls ps. what does that mean. she sais that it was a bday gift. im really upset because i dont want like a lesbian...
    mimijona678 mimijona678
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 15, 2014

    I grew up in a small house with my mother

    so we shared a bedroom and bed. She'd watch **** and ********** even when I was there and awake sometimes she would wake me up because she isnt still. I'll never recover from such. I'm glad I'm child free
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2015

    Exhausted . Okay, i can't take it anymore.

    No i don't mean the " i can't take it anymore " you see from girls who say "i'm moving on " or guys who say " stay strong ". I mean i literally "cannot take it ". Trying but ran out of energy The stupid shock thingy is now more or less permanent. Doesn't need a reason to even...
    kragoth135 kragoth135
    22-25, M
    Dec 13, 2013

    I'm Still Traumatized

    This happened four years ago. I was engaged at the time. I went out to buy a sandwich for lunch one day; it was my first time there. I saw only one person, who turned out to be the owner. He was Indian (from country India), so he had all of those exotic, dark features, not to...
    ChibiFuu ChibiFuu
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 7, 2012

    how can you forget something traumatizing.

    so when i was 6 a lesbian kissed me randomly and i cried. i couldnt sleep or eat properly. how cna i forget about it. i really feel guilty and i hate her for doing that. up until now i feel so sad and upset and i didnt feel normal. because i know no other girls got kissed by...
    bellaatyoservice9 bellaatyoservice9
    16-17, F
    Feb 14, 2014

    I had a talk with my therapist about sex.

    I can't seem to have an ****** and it's possibly bc of my trauma. I can feel good having sex but there comes a point to where I'm like please stop.....
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678
    22-25, F
    Apr 30, 2015

    My Mom Almost Died

    When I was 10, and my 4 year old sister and I were having a tea party downstairs, I ran upstairs to check on a weird thumping sound and found my mom having a seizure. I called 999 - cuz we were in England - and they didn't believe me at first! But they finally sent an ambulance...
    rainbowchristmaslights rainbowchristmaslights
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2008
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