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I Am Trying 2 Find Myself

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    feels like my life has been fast forwarded

    and then paused. i feel stuck in my life. i feel lost and i want to find myself. its weird. i dont even understand my own self. :(
    justalittlehuman justalittlehuman 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    Tryin to Find Myself

    I'm talking to friends and asking them how i act and there opinion of me and they all say about the same thing,"Your a trusting person, not very open, can be a mean person but really nice, and very self-Conscious ." they also say that I'm so shy to the point that its...
    retia retia 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    Who The Hell Am I?

    I'm hoping if nothing else, that living alone cuz of this whole NYU thing will allow me the opportunity to find myselfMaybe i'll be able to train myself to work out regularly and pray consistently.Maybe this is a chance for me to better who I am, and figure out what makes me tick...
    CrazyHappySad CrazyHappySad 26-30, F Jun 7, 2012

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    Finally Looking For Myselffindingm

    My whole life I have let other's dictate what I do, what my opinions are, what I like and dislike, but I'm finally starting on my way to  finding myself. What was my wake up call? Well I had gotten into a relationship where at first it was great the guy was sweet and...
    InLoveWithAFeeling InLoveWithAFeeling 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2009

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    Crazy From Birth!?!? Is It Possible

    first thoughts of suicide in 1st or second grade. wondering how i could just turn everything off like the tv. living for crazy moments and risk taking adventures with serious consequences was the cool thing. i have anearly always been to myself. so no one has been there to share...
    sht4brns sht4brns 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 6, 2009

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    Every Day

    Every day I find something new about me.
    winniebree winniebree 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 9, 2009

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    This Is Me.

    I'VE ALWAYS Always always .. been seen different in comparison to the population and never considered normal so i do accept that, i do know my strengths and weaknesses flaws and certain things that just add up to me. Lately i do question my confidence and what have you times well...
    liveitupGravityX liveitupGravityX 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2009

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