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I Am Trying Not to Go Back

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    Always Stepping Forward

    Before I came here i was very much repressed in what my thoughts were and how to share them.  I do not wish to return there as I have been given a sense of freedom in being a member here.  I do not wish to be that person that wears the variety of masks pending on the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 22, 2008

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    Never

    I talk about the past because it's important to keep all those memories alive. Some make me smile and others remind me that I can do better. I refuse to go back though... not so easy to do as it is to say but I'm trying. I've come too far at this point.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2008

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    I Try Not To....

    Look into the past but I keep having flashbacks...and now they're happening more and more often....they just can't be stopped...
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2010

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    Working My *** Off

    I am trying Extremely hard To Stay Positive. Today was a knocker for me. I can't explain Why exactly. Except when I got Really Sick, I Felt like I did Back When I First Started Getting Headaches. I Felt Bound, Almost Lost. I didn't understand it. So It made me Really upset. Then...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2008

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    From the first day I saw her I knew she was the one for me!Times has tested that faith on many levels due to the fact she was still married ..I still took her as my girl .I never...
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    I'm one of those people that never usually goes on these forums to pour my heart out as I usually internalise things and try to deal with it myself - this seems to be one of the...
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    I got fired from a desk job at a nurse call center in February. I had the job for 6 years. It was right after my last back surgery. The doctor said I had to leave floor nursing b/c...
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    Betrayed wives, I have been posting stories and resources under "I am trying to save my marriage" and a few other places. An EP pal, Uht2014, has some really good info on her...
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    I wish I hadn't done certain things in the past, but I can't change that now. I've hurt so many people in the past, and a lot of it is just blending together. I've been through so...
    dyingalittleinside97 dyingalittleinside97 16-17, F 6 Responses Jun 23

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    My brain ****** me up good u_u omfg it's gonna take a ******* while to get back to where I was
    sealare sealare 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    I'm SOOO tired of people treating me bad. I try to brush it off but things build & the one day u respond back to them ur suddenly a horrible person.
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    I haven’t posted in a while. It hurts too much to write sometimes. My MM and I broke up over two months ago. The last time we talked was April 29. We both love each other deeply...
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    MaskedRascal MaskedRascal 36-40, M Jul 13

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    I'm trying to forgive an ex whom is not sorry and could care less that he treated me like **** or that he turned my world upside and stomped all over my heart. I'm trying to...
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    well, I'm certainly not an expert on relationships and its consequences.I've been trying to get help online for a while but I need advice from real people.My friend is trying to...
    monoxcide monoxcide 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 1 day ago