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I Am Trying Not to Go Back

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    I talk about the past because it's important to keep all those memories alive. Some make me smile and others remind me that I can do better. I refuse to go back though... not so easy to do as it is to say but I'm trying. I've come too far at this point.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2008

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    I Try Not To....

    Look into the past but I keep having flashbacks...and now they're happening more and more often....they just can't be stopped...
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2010

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    Always Stepping Forward

    Before I came here i was very much repressed in what my thoughts were and how to share them.  I do not wish to return there as I have been given a sense of freedom in being a member here.  I do not wish to be that person that wears the variety of masks pending on the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 22, 2008

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    Working My *** Off

    I am trying Extremely hard To Stay Positive. Today was a knocker for me. I can't explain Why exactly. Except when I got Really Sick, I Felt like I did Back When I First Started Getting Headaches. I Felt Bound, Almost Lost. I didn't understand it. So It made me Really upset. Then...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2008

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    ---WARNING: Venting piece, don't read if you don't want to--- I've realized that after 5 years of depression, I can't do this anymore. I can't. I'm done trying to hold onto a...
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    rainee12 rainee12 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    i was with my sister in christ and we was sitting in living room with a baby between us. we hard somebody trying to get in but couldn t get in. then went walking slow to the other...
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    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    scottishbigguy scottishbigguy 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    iknowmykingdomawaits iknowmykingdomawaits 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't know what it wants from me but its been testing me for a long long time now.Where do I start?My childhood ..screwed up..wasn't allowed to act like a child , lots of...
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    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Last year I was a junior in high school. There was this boy, that always looked at me in the halls. I thought it was creepy and ignored it. But as time flew by he found me on...
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I started to notice the hair in the bad places at around 13 years of age. Prior to that, I just had hair on my arms and legs probably because of the Italian in me. I guess...
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    MaskedRascal MaskedRascal 36-40, M Jul 13

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    lovelylady20 lovelylady20 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    She was my first gf in my whole 20 years of life. I fell for her so damn hard. I trusted her, i gave her my everything. I just really really wanted to be with her, no matter what...
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    It has been hard...almost drained and feeling I dont give the best of myself I had been tempted to enclose myself at home again..."the cave".But everytime I am a bit down or...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I'm so frustrated. Why do I keep eating bad and not working out when I am tired of the way that I look? I often cry about it and don't know what it is going to take to get me to...
    Dspence12 Dspence12 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 17

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    Want to just leave. Run away to New York with a bag of clothes and make a go at it for a year. A giant step back???
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    hemantscorpion hemantscorpion 31-35, M Jul 20

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    Been quite for a while ...bored of trying being A good girl ..WELL i think its time for me to get laid..
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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M Jul 22

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
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    christinababy23 christinababy23 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    PokerPete PokerPete 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    StoneWall77 StoneWall77 36-40, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I definitely know I'm bisexual, but I hate when I get these phases, it's soooo annoying! I haven't done much with a girl, but I really would like to so I'd definitely know how I...
    Emily97x Emily97x 16-17, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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