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I Am Trying Not to Go Back

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    I Try Not To....

    Look into the past but I keep having flashbacks...and now they're happening more and more often....they just can't be stopped...
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2010

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    Always Stepping Forward

    Before I came here i was very much repressed in what my thoughts were and how to share them.  I do not wish to return there as I have been given a sense of freedom in being a member here.  I do not wish to be that person that wears the variety of masks pending on the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 22, 2008

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    Working My *** Off

    I am trying Extremely hard To Stay Positive. Today was a knocker for me. I can't explain Why exactly. Except when I got Really Sick, I Felt like I did Back When I First Started Getting Headaches. I Felt Bound, Almost Lost. I didn't understand it. So It made me Really upset. Then...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2008

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    Never

    I talk about the past because it's important to keep all those memories alive. Some make me smile and others remind me that I can do better. I refuse to go back though... not so easy to do as it is to say but I'm trying. I've come too far at this point.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2008

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    it's easy to believe if you could go back in time and change the things that went wrong it would fix everything. When you're the one who is being destructive, destroying everything...
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    deepakchopra6192 deepakchopra6192 22-25, M 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    laughingtiger laughingtiger 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    wash02 wash02 31-35, F 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    Lillygirl988 Lillygirl988 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    itsjustvivi21 itsjustvivi21 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    ImTheQueenFYM ImTheQueenFYM 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've always been the happy go lucky person in the group and for the most part it was true. As much as it hurt, I was always smiling and trying to keep the group happy, I never...
    Simone423 Simone423 13-15 5 days ago

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    23/07/2015 12am Being here and writing helped me at some point. I don't regret anything. But now, it just makes me more depressed. Things got so messed up, and the bad thoughts...
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    For my sons sake I am trying to smile, for my sons sake I am trying to laugh. But once he falls to sleep I cry, because I miss his dad
    AryaLouise AryaLouise 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    My doctors appointment is set up, hopefully she'll get me into physical therapy for my back. This physically demanding job has nearly thrown out my back and now I can't stand up...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F a week ago

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    We were friends . then he proposed me and we started dating.. and i fell in love with him ..madly. .he cheated ,left me so many times and came back with excuses and apologies .. i...
    missttie missttie 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Maybe, like me, in your interactions, you seem anything but held back. I am lavish with praise, affection, expression of love and connection. I voice my gratitude for people's...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    And so far it seems hopeless, but I'll keep trying. I'll try to be healthy, happy...Someone I'm proud to be and someone people want to be around. I want to stop being depressed...
    ForeverOnMyGuard ForeverOnMyGuard 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I m the kind of person who likes to avoid conflict unless necessary and will not debate or strongly object something unless there's really strong reason to support. I can usually...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F Jul 15

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    Isn't everyone? I guess to answer this question, you have to know what you're definition of happiness is. For me, I'm not talking about watching a clip and getting a chuckle...
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    My ex who left me 12 days after Marriage is trying to come back into my life. EMAGINE THAT! I am not in Love with him anymore. Here is an Ambiguous term for how I feel about him...
    Only1me4life Only1me4life 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    14th day : 8:23 PM I failed. Suicide thoughts are back. I don't want to do this anymore.
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    I'm trying. I'm trying to love myself. I'm trying to be more open minded and less judgmental. I'm trying to be kinder and gentler. I'm trying to accept my flaws. I'm trying to...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 13

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    I am trying to go in a good direction. I am writing. I am trying to write things that could help me. It is okay to bow when you have finished a musical solo.
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I feel like this a lot about school. I slacked off a lot in the past few years and I just wish Icould go back and do things again. I want to pass all of the classes I failed for...
    madnyss madnyss 16-17, F Jul 13

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    I have been for three years now, and she clearly doesn't feel the same way about me. I have told her several times that I do but she already had dated a guy who she was best...
    ThebigZbi ThebigZbi 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    I really am trying to find happiness but it's probably not the way no one would agree with. Inside I feel more at peace. I feel kind hearted, genuine, free spirited and sometimes...
    toniyl toniyl 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    Fample Fample 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    I can't seem to stop ************. I find myself touching it every time that I am lying back relaxing. I really need to stop. It takes so much of my time.
    PinkSpotlight PinkSpotlight 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 12

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