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I Am Trying Not to Go Back

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    Always Stepping Forward

    Before I came here i was very much repressed in what my thoughts were and how to share them.  I do not wish to return there as I have been given a sense of freedom in being a member here.  I do not wish to be that person that wears the variety of masks pending on the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 22, 2008

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    Working My *** Off

    I am trying Extremely hard To Stay Positive. Today was a knocker for me. I can't explain Why exactly. Except when I got Really Sick, I Felt like I did Back When I First Started Getting Headaches. I Felt Bound, Almost Lost. I didn't understand it. So It made me Really upset. Then...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2008

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    Never

    I talk about the past because it's important to keep all those memories alive. Some make me smile and others remind me that I can do better. I refuse to go back though... not so easy to do as it is to say but I'm trying. I've come too far at this point.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2008

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