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I Am Trying So Hard

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5

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    For the past 3 days im upset.

    . Im trying to regain all my spirit back. Due to this depression im unable to joke, laugh with my friends, make fun, paint or sing.. its so stressful n frustrating. even couldn't reduce my stress by shouting..
    blowurmind1s blowurmind1s 22-25, F Mar 20

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    I Don't Get It

    When it isn't her fault, when its not hers either, or his, or theirs but you're broken. Like if you were walking in the middle of a forest and there's a mirror up against a tree, it may have something strong to lean on and be surrounded by beauty but still broken. There is no way...
    MisfitToys MisfitToys 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    To Keep Positive

    I'm trying so hard to keep positive and keep the love flowing within me but I can't stop crying. I feel utterly alone. The worst part about this is that I am not alone. Just lonely.   My husband didn't even look at me today when he got up, I was on the computer in the...
    aliceslade aliceslade 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    At Least I Gave My Best Shot

    What the heck.I tried to keep the feelings alive but I cannot do everything for the two of us.At some point, I succumb.Though unwilling at first, I inched painfully away from oblivion.Yet, eventually, pain and anger enveloped my total being.I fought hard, wanting to make it last...
    MyZen MyZen 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    Because....

    I know I am not allowed to give up, so even though life keeps throwing me hit, after hit, after hit....I am doing my best to face it....and to keep on trying, because I know that I have no other choice....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    ALL I Do Is Try

     I spent my whole life working hard, went to an ivy but didn't know who the hell I was or what I wanted so didn't do well. So after graduation I went to China to learn Chinese in hope that I could make up for my bad grades and do something cool and get a cool interesting...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess 26-30, F Oct 1, 2009

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    Don't you hate it when you're trying

    so hard and people are just putting you down... Telling you your best isn't good enough people wonder why I'm always pushing myself so hard and the fact is if I don't I face so much judgement from my parents that are hardly there. It's Shocking that I still care so much about...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27

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    Mind Over Matter

    Mind over matter. My mind tries so hard to fight  I'd get these spurts of energy And make the most of it. Then like a bubble that pops Faerie crashes. Mind over matter. The spirit tries to be unfazed. I'd bounce here and there Giggling at a time Then like a glass pane blown by...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    All The Time!

    Every second without knowing from you is torture. I canot help but imagining the worst case scenarios, where you are in pain, and very ill, and I cannot even comfort you with my words, and my long distance kisses. Every second of every day I am trying so hard to survive this...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    Off To Fight The Urge

    I'm off to fight against the scale.Off to stand before the shower drain.And I don't know if today I'll be victorious.I don't know if today i'll pull through the night.I stand my ground, but it's difficult.I try to work through the urge, but I fall so weak against it.Some days, I...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    I am trying to keep it together.

    I am trying so hard not to burst into tears. I am trying not to scream at the top of my lungs that I hate the man you really are. You are not the man you pretend to be. That man that everyone likes and says is such a great guy. That man is a fraud. He is the man you wish you...
    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 31-35, F a week ago

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    I got a new job that pays 3 dollars per hour

    more Than my old one! While that may not sound like much to you, that's at least a 33% raise for me! Plus I quit smoking which is like another 1 dollar per hour! After a few of these paychecks, I should be doing alright :-p I've decided to study on my own until I can pay for...
    alcool91 alcool91 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    I've been Celibate for almost two years.

    I'm ready to give up because honestly there's not many people wanting to wait until there's at least a commitment. Help!!
    Livelaughlearn76 Livelaughlearn76 36-40, F Apr 5

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    Wow.. Sorry to rant but I have to get this out.

    . What's wrong me! Like i try so hard to slim down, grow mussels, just get fit. For the most part I did I lost over 76pounds.. and nothing In my life has changed.. Nobody wont's to hang out, and it's depressing. You try so hard just to get something vary little, and it don't...
    ison71 ison71 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    I'm trying to forgive an ex whom is not sorry and could care less that he treated me like **** or that he turned my world upside and stomped all over my heart. I'm trying to...
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    Losing weight is hard! I lost a lot weight lost summer and sadly I gained it back this summer. I'm trying again to lose the weight and keep it off. I been finding it hard to keep...
    Idreamtowaketofindthefate Idreamtowaketofindthefate 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 9

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    i'm trying to lose weight but it's really hard. I keep working out and i'm a landscaper too. but I look in the mirror and I look like i'm still the same. so I tried Hydroxycut...
    favi4et favi4et 18-21, M 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    I try my best to fit in with my family but nothing seems 2 work :'(........ at school its the same i changed my whole image just 4 people 2 like me so one day i went as myself and...
    christinababy23 christinababy23 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    Really, the title says it all. I can accept compliments about my intelligence, my ability with words, and my ability at my job. I can accept hearing that I'm a sweet and caring...
    fivetailedfox89 fivetailedfox89 22-25, F Jul 5

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    I do. And it's really hard. God it's really hard. When small bad things happen I swear a lot like it's the end of the world. I wanna replace it with "mothamuffincupcake" but the...
    CaseyIsCasey CaseyIsCasey 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I hate it when some guys just think all girls are easy to get or think just by using their looks or charm can get anyone they want. It doesn't always work like that buddy. Plus I...
    SimplyAmazingx SimplyAmazingx 16-17, F Jul 18

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    This is the hard time for me.. I need to be strong... I am trying to find myself after breaking up with my gf who i love to death
    AnnaKhit AnnaKhit 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I'm trying to accept the fact I'm forever alone. Like today I went to work and there's a girl that comes in to my job all the time. She's my age 17 and I asked her out she laughed...
    superabe11 superabe11 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 4

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    You do not understand. You try, but you do not. Despite it being so confusing trying to translate what is inside to make sense to the outside, this is made so much harder when...
    macabrEnigma macabrEnigma 18-21, T Jul 9

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    For sohhh lonnnggg now. Started at 20. Am now 47. Tried sohhh hard. Had heart attacks trying. But they multiply. Those who are heard improve nothing. Tried...
    AlmostDiscarded AlmostDiscarded 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I really am! But she makes it so hard for me with her sarcasms and somehow she doesn't believe that I can do my job properly. And sometimes she's so nice to me and then I feel bad...
    SomeCorporateChick SomeCorporateChick 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Its so hard when your mom notices and is being all sarcastic saying, "what? Youre actually trying to make friends now?"
    MeeeKazz MeeeKazz 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I'm trying to learn the C++ coding language. It is really hard to keep at it, but I just want to learn how to program. Right now I am capable of creating a simple, one-operation...
    DarksBane DarksBane 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 19

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    So my ex and i were separated 7 months ago , cuz he wasn't ready for a serious relationship , but he got into a relationship with some girl from the different country on the...
    Myf95 Myf95 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 21

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    i was with my sister in christ and we was sitting in living room with a baby between us. we hard somebody trying to get in but couldn t get in. then went walking slow to the other...
    anestia anestia 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    My marine is currently deployed. Dealing with trying to get life back in Structured and functional order is really taking a toll on me. I just don't know how to be myself while he...
    angelbaby187 angelbaby187 22-25, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I am secretly in love with another girl but am trying so hard to ignore it because I firmly believe in God and I cannot be like this.
    JulieRuiz JulieRuiz 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    The worst telemarketer in the history of the world! I gave one telemarketer a hard time. All I did was ask him to tell me in plain English what his company was selling. I run my...
    TheDrunkDuck TheDrunkDuck 36-40, M Jul 10

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    She was my first gf in my whole 20 years of life. I fell for her so damn hard. I trusted her, i gave her my everything. I just really really wanted to be with her, no matter what...
    lauracassie92 lauracassie92 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    SO HARD. I LOVE FOOD. ugh. Weight Watchers works though. Hard work + dedication = success!
    milkynine milkynine 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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    I absolutely LOVE food. I especially love baking/cooking, watching any tv shows involving food, reading magazine with pictures of pretty decorated fancy food, I think of food 24/7...
    TazoC TazoC 18-21, F Jul 24

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    My boyfriend is currently in boot camp for the Marine Corps, and I want to shed some pounds before I see him again! BUT, this isn’t very easy for me. Let’s just say I did...
    alecsgirl18 alecsgirl18 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I do not answer all the messages I get here on EP. It is too hard to keep up. I like my circle small and if you say something clever. I might reply but in general. There isn't...
    NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I started to notice the hair in the bad places at around 13 years of age. Prior to that, I just had hair on my arms and legs probably because of the Italian in me. I guess...
    sunflowerjade sunflowerjade 22-25, F Jul 13

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    Today barely makes the Top 10 list, but did have a notable occurrence. My Texas Longhorn shirt is completely soaked with a tint of orange clay for ambiance ... but that is really...
    MaskedRascal MaskedRascal 36-40, M Jul 13

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    I have no self-discipline I find it really hard to stay away from chocolate, sweets, biscuits, ice cream, cake. I have decided to do without those things in the week and eat what...
    jellybean113 jellybean113 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    It has been hard...almost drained and feeling I dont give the best of myself I had been tempted to enclose myself at home again..."the cave".But everytime I am a bit down or...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I want to loose weight but I need motivation!!!! I need to stop making excuses for evrything :( it's so hard though!! :,( ugh..