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I Am Trying So Hard

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    To show her i am better now.

    To show her i am different. New. But nothing can change her mind. Im the embodyment of evil
    Mineman214 Mineman214 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    Don't you hate it when you're trying

    so hard and people are just putting you down... Telling you your best isn't good enough people wonder why I'm always pushing myself so hard and the fact is if I don't I face so much judgement from my parents that are hardly there. It's Shocking that I still care so much about...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27

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    Everyone! Please add me on skype :) see you

    there! it's "ayeeyowh" :))
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5

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    ALL I Do Is Try

     I spent my whole life working hard, went to an ivy but didn't know who the hell I was or what I wanted so didn't do well. So after graduation I went to China to learn Chinese in hope that I could make up for my bad grades and do something cool and get a cool interesting...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess 26-30, F Oct 1, 2009

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    Mind Over Matter

    Mind over matter. My mind tries so hard to fight  I'd get these spurts of energy And make the most of it. Then like a bubble that pops Faerie crashes. Mind over matter. The spirit tries to be unfazed. I'd bounce here and there Giggling at a time Then like a glass pane blown by...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    Because....

    I know I am not allowed to give up, so even though life keeps throwing me hit, after hit, after hit....I am doing my best to face it....and to keep on trying, because I know that I have no other choice....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    At Least I Gave My Best Shot

    What the heck.I tried to keep the feelings alive but I cannot do everything for the two of us.At some point, I succumb.Though unwilling at first, I inched painfully away from oblivion.Yet, eventually, pain and anger enveloped my total being.I fought hard, wanting to make it last...
    MyZen MyZen 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    For the past 3 days im upset.

    . Im trying to regain all my spirit back. Due to this depression im unable to joke, laugh with my friends, make fun, paint or sing.. its so stressful n frustrating. even couldn't reduce my stress by shouting..
    blowurmind1s blowurmind1s 22-25, F Mar 20

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    I've been Celibate for almost two years.

    I'm ready to give up because honestly there's not many people wanting to wait until there's at least a commitment. Help!!
    Livelaughlearn76 Livelaughlearn76 36-40, F Apr 5

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    Trying to stay decent.

    And breathing. Harder than most it seems. But will evil win. Dont know But my pals deserve me helping. And some even want me to. Lol Lmao. Its a nice feeling. Despite the rest of life hurting me. Hope the number of them dont vanish. Unless jerks...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Aug 25

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    I am trying to keep it together.

    I am trying so hard not to burst into tears. I am trying not to scream at the top of my lungs that I hate the man you really are. You are not the man you pretend to be. That man that everyone likes and says is such a great guy. That man is a fraud. He is the man you wish you...
    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I got a new job that pays 3 dollars per hour

    more Than my old one! While that may not sound like much to you, that's at least a 33% raise for me! Plus I quit smoking which is like another 1 dollar per hour! After a few of these paychecks, I should be doing alright :-p I've decided to study on my own until I can pay for...
    alcool91 alcool91 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 16

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    To Keep Positive

    I'm trying so hard to keep positive and keep the love flowing within me but I can't stop crying. I feel utterly alone. The worst part about this is that I am not alone. Just lonely.   My husband didn't even look at me today when he got up, I was on the computer in the...
    aliceslade aliceslade 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    All The Time!

    Every second without knowing from you is torture. I canot help but imagining the worst case scenarios, where you are in pain, and very ill, and I cannot even comfort you with my words, and my long distance kisses. Every second of every day I am trying so hard to survive this...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    Off To Fight The Urge

    I'm off to fight against the scale.Off to stand before the shower drain.And I don't know if today I'll be victorious.I don't know if today i'll pull through the night.I stand my ground, but it's difficult.I try to work through the urge, but I fall so weak against it.Some days, I...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    I Don't Get It

    When it isn't her fault, when its not hers either, or his, or theirs but you're broken. Like if you were walking in the middle of a forest and there's a mirror up against a tree, it may have something strong to lean on and be surrounded by beauty but still broken. There is no way...
    MisfitToys MisfitToys 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    Wow.. Sorry to rant but I have to get this out.

    . What's wrong me! Like i try so hard to slim down, grow mussels, just get fit. For the most part I did I lost over 76pounds.. and nothing In my life has changed.. Nobody wont's to hang out, and it's depressing. You try so hard just to get something vary little, and it don't...
    ison71 ison71 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    I am trying to accept that even after we choose each other it didn't work out. After all we have been through. It is such a hard pill to swallow. I feel so lost through these days...
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    This is my 4 day without smoking. I have tried in the past to stop smoking but this time it is FOREAL>>>>> :0 My goal is to not smoke weed for the next 3 months. I quit my job...
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    After 5 years, my husband is moving out. In July he told me he thought he was gay. It's October now, and the movers are coming this week or next. I don't want to be here during...
    joujoubee joujoubee 46-50, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    soo i've been trying really hard not to get depressed, or anxious.. i was doing good until a couple of days ago. but im still trying even tho sometimes i just lose it. i try really...
    aliv12 aliv12 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Life is a TRIP sometimes. I am trying to accept the fact: I will trip countless times. Like an awkward penguin sliding down the slope of an iceberg, you've got to accept your...
    theAnonMouse theAnonMouse 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 22

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    Trying trying trying...it's not working
    Indeciciveme Indeciciveme 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I think I have been trying to lose weight since I was born. No seriously though...I have been overweight since I was in the 3rd grade. I don't know why it was then that I started...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 7 Responses Oct 10

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    I am trying to accept that what ever i do my family will never apreciate me!!! Even i do work hard they will just say i just playing around! Even i am tired and stress they dont...
    meowandarf meowandarf 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just wrote a story in another place about "happiness." Yes I have been trying to find that elusive thing they call happiness for quite some time now...just when I think I have...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    Once I heard that on a Radio FM that a woman crying about why she was not able to loose weight and finally she did.. It may sound silly but some of it I found it true.. the reasons...
    foryoureyesonly1983 foryoureyesonly1983 18-21, F a week ago

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    Hello everyone, it's my first post here....and here it is: Few years ago I had stroke. Strong one, followed by NDE. I recovered completely....they said I am OK now. While still on...
    XanaxBabe XanaxBabe 26-30, F Sep 30

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    Everyone is guilty of comparison to others. After a little lesson I learned in youth group and a good fasting I realized three things 1) I compared myself more than I thought in...
    directorskittish directorskittish 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm trying to diet to lose a few pounds but i find myself eating everything i cook for family. I feel every time i say I'm going on a diet, my father buys a bunch of meat for me to...
    Storyboard0241 Storyboard0241 22-25, M Sep 22

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    I met a man. He lives over 3000 miles away from me. He was wonderful. We got along so well. But it was impossible to deal with the distance, the time change. We both have lives to...
    lovemyweepaddy lovemyweepaddy 36-40, F 9 Responses 5 days ago

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    Tired of trying to make friends Tired of trying to be the nice guy Tired of trying to stay a virgin Tired of trying to fit in Tired of trying to find the right girl Time to...
    EBestest EBestest 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 4

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    I would like to say I am some sort of great caring teacher .... and it comes naturally. For me ... that would be far from the truth. I was busy today ... phone in one hand...
    MaskedRascal MaskedRascal 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 22

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    I am working really hard on becoming a better person. I need to accept my many flaws. I have led a wonderful life but I believe my current life is not compatible with my spirit...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 7 Responses Sep 23

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    The hardest thing is not talking to someone you used to talk to everyday.
    paupaw paupaw 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    It sucks feeling alone and taken for granite. Why is it that hard to do something nice for your wife?
    justamom7 justamom7 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 23

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    I was severely sexually abused when I was young (ages 6-8). Some days I am ok. But today I am not. Crashing hard. Flashback dreams last night that woke me up numerous times. I...
    denali789 denali789 31-35, F 8 Responses Sep 25

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    It's hard to know that you have no one to care for you To know that no one loves you. You sit there. Crying... Bleeding... You can't move. Can't seem to think straight. Pain has...
    Jazzy6060 Jazzy6060 16-17, F Sep 25

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    .. not at all. I cant stand not talking to him at all. Im too available for him. Yes i know i am. But i really like the person. Everytime he sends text messages i cant help but...
    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    The pieces of my life have started to fall into place: I have my degrees. I'm in a stable, healthy, and loving relationship. I have a job that I love, working for an organization...
    snappingzero snappingzero 22-25, F Sep 29

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    I'm so fu***** angry ! With myself . I let you destroy me with your words . Accepting my past mistakes and forgiving myself has been the hardest thing I've had to do . Even through...
    boriquanaty boriquanaty 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 30

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    Can some one help me I can't let go of anything and it's so hard to change please help me! :(
    cwebb1221 cwebb1221 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 30

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    I am very excited today. In November of 2013 I weighed 335lbs. As of October of 2014 I now weigh 213lbs. So in less than a year I have lost 122lbs. Its been a lot of hard work but...
    zooloothe1st zooloothe1st 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 2

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    I spent the last few days being depressed. Last night I dreamed that I killed myself by jumping off a cliff. First, falling is one of the ways I am terrified of dying. Second, I'm...
    Christinamarie3095 Christinamarie3095 41-45, T 1 Response Oct 2

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    Okay so as a child I was physically and emotionally abused on a pretty fairly regular basis. My father left our family and never looked back when I was at the age 4 or 5. Even...
    NellieNike NellieNike 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 7

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    Let's start out I live with my boyfriend about 45 mins away from my grandparents, both my parents moved out of state. I don't have friends here nor even want to get to no my...
    LizD126 LizD126 18-21, F Oct 8

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    This month is the anniversary of my nephews suicide. It still is hard to deal with. We have had five in my family. Sometimes I am jealous he got to leave. The devastation our...
    pinefire pinefire 46-50 4 Responses Oct 13

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