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I Am Trying So Hard

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    I've been Celibate for almost two years.

    I'm ready to give up because honestly there's not many people wanting to wait until there's at least a commitment. Help!!
    Livelaughlearn76 Livelaughlearn76 36-40, F Apr 5

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    All The Time!

    Every second without knowing from you is torture. I canot help but imagining the worst case scenarios, where you are in pain, and very ill, and I cannot even comfort you with my words, and my long distance kisses. Every second of every day I am trying so hard to survive this...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    Because....

    I know I am not allowed to give up, so even though life keeps throwing me hit, after hit, after hit....I am doing my best to face it....and to keep on trying, because I know that I have no other choice....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    To Keep Positive

    I'm trying so hard to keep positive and keep the love flowing within me but I can't stop crying. I feel utterly alone. The worst part about this is that I am not alone. Just lonely.   My husband didn't even look at me today when he got up, I was on the computer in the...
    aliceslade aliceslade 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    To show her i am better now.

    To show her i am different. New. But nothing can change her mind. Im the embodyment of evil
    Mineman214 Mineman214 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    Wow.. Sorry to rant but I have to get this out.

    . What's wrong me! Like i try so hard to slim down, grow mussels, just get fit. For the most part I did I lost over 76pounds.. and nothing In my life has changed.. Nobody wont's to hang out, and it's depressing. You try so hard just to get something vary little, and it don't...
    ison71 ison71 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    I Don't Get It

    When it isn't her fault, when its not hers either, or his, or theirs but you're broken. Like if you were walking in the middle of a forest and there's a mirror up against a tree, it may have something strong to lean on and be surrounded by beauty but still broken. There is no way...
    MisfitToys MisfitToys 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    I am trying to keep it together.

    I am trying so hard not to burst into tears. I am trying not to scream at the top of my lungs that I hate the man you really are. You are not the man you pretend to be. That man that everyone likes and says is such a great guy. That man is a fraud. He is the man you wish you...
    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Everyone! Please add me on skype :) see you

    there! it's "ayeeyowh" :))
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5

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    Mind Over Matter

    Mind over matter. My mind tries so hard to fight  I'd get these spurts of energy And make the most of it. Then like a bubble that pops Faerie crashes. Mind over matter. The spirit tries to be unfazed. I'd bounce here and there Giggling at a time Then like a glass pane blown by...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    I got a new job that pays 3 dollars per hour

    more Than my old one! While that may not sound like much to you, that's at least a 33% raise for me! Plus I quit smoking which is like another 1 dollar per hour! After a few of these paychecks, I should be doing alright :-p I've decided to study on my own until I can pay for...
    alcool91 alcool91 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 16

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    Trying to stay decent.

    And breathing. Harder than most it seems. But will evil win. Dont know But my pals deserve me helping. And some even want me to. Lol Lmao. Its a nice feeling. Despite the rest of life hurting me. Hope the number of them dont vanish. Unless jerks...
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Aug 25

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    Off To Fight The Urge

    I'm off to fight against the scale.Off to stand before the shower drain.And I don't know if today I'll be victorious.I don't know if today i'll pull through the night.I stand my ground, but it's difficult.I try to work through the urge, but I fall so weak against it.Some days, I...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    At Least I Gave My Best Shot

    What the heck.I tried to keep the feelings alive but I cannot do everything for the two of us.At some point, I succumb.Though unwilling at first, I inched painfully away from oblivion.Yet, eventually, pain and anger enveloped my total being.I fought hard, wanting to make it last...
    MyZen MyZen 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    ALL I Do Is Try

     I spent my whole life working hard, went to an ivy but didn't know who the hell I was or what I wanted so didn't do well. So after graduation I went to China to learn Chinese in hope that I could make up for my bad grades and do something cool and get a cool interesting...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess 26-30, F Oct 1, 2009

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    For the past 3 days im upset.

    . Im trying to regain all my spirit back. Due to this depression im unable to joke, laugh with my friends, make fun, paint or sing.. its so stressful n frustrating. even couldn't reduce my stress by shouting..
    blowurmind1s blowurmind1s 22-25, F Mar 20

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    Don't you hate it when you're trying

    so hard and people are just putting you down... Telling you your best isn't good enough people wonder why I'm always pushing myself so hard and the fact is if I don't I face so much judgement from my parents that are hardly there. It's Shocking that I still care so much about...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27

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    184 days is left to my big exam. If I pass that , I will go to university. All of the students started studying so hard about 6 months ago. well, I didn't. But I'm trying so hard...
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    I'm not trying to be negative but it's just hard to accept the fact that I lost all my respect. I've had some many friends and many were loyal. And now I've lost it all. When I had...
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    I am trying very hard to except things that I can't change sometimes it's hard to do when you have sunburn that you truly love that passed away I miss my mom very much I wish that...
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    I am really finding it hard to find myself. I feel like I'm trying to keep my head turned left and right and left at the same time. On one side my music life. I'm a drummer in a...
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    My boyfriend broke up with me at the start of the month, he ruined my birthday as most of the day I was crying my eyes out. I'm trying to be okay with him being gone. It's so hard...
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    I am trying to improve myself. I had a bad reaction to the Barium I had to drink for a CT Scan. I have missed almost two weeks of work. I feel better, but weak. Today I asked my...
    mom4ce mom4ce 51-55, F 1 day ago

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    How come this is so hard ? Why is letting go so god damn HARD? You asked me to return your heart I have .... so why am I still hurting? Maybe it is because you still holding my...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 14

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    I'm trying so hard to change my perspective on viewing things differently. At least move on.
    LRxIce LRxIce 13-15, F Dec 2

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    o had a dream that seemed So real I thought it was. I woke up just to make sure I was really in my own bed And home.. OK hear we go. I had a dream that a bunch of my classmates...
    jojom543 jojom543 36-40, F Dec 3

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    So i finally decided it's time for me to change... to walk a different path in life... you know "renewing thyself". Sigh, it's hard, it really is. The temptations, the urge of...
    BlueFloraKae BlueFloraKae 18-21, F Dec 3

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    Hey so i know actons speek louder than words but ive been trying so hard to change i smile alot more and if im not then im just soo tired i forgot to, ive only been helping people...
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F Dec 8

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    I have been trying my hardest to hold on to everything and keep it, I tried to give up... but couldn't. I can't say bye, I can't lose everything. I don't want to. Everything that...
    imgivingupnow imgivingupnow 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17

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    I've been trying so hard to keep it together but I'm breaking... I'm falling off the edge and I don't know what to do anymore.. Nothing's working and right now I'm at the point...
    painseeker16 painseeker16 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18

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    it sounds like a tv drama, but this is my life. I have two sisters who are trying their hardest to get me in trouble with the law, and other things. They want me locked up, put in...
    Niko864 Niko864 41-45, M Dec 19

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    I am trying very hard to be happy but mrs Scrooge is really bringing me down.
    grinbearit grinbearit 51-55, M Dec 20

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    I'm trying so hard to forget him and it's killing me inside not knowing what's happening with him. I need some input please. Please feel free to share your thoughts. I met this...
    sweetnovember29 sweetnovember29 41-45, F 40 Responses 3 days ago

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    It's hard to accept things I can't change. It makes me feel powerless I always like to think that there is a way to change things, make things better but sometimes there isn't and...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    So I had dated this guy for two years and found a video of a girl taking a shower and my boyfriend complimenting how nice her body parts are. I freaked out was completely thrown...
    Bobby2134 Bobby2134 18-21 Dec 1

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    My boyfriend has been in jail since October 6th. Before he went away we had hit a rough patch in our relationship. I was feeling really distant and didn't really give him any...
    Fkinnon Fkinnon 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 5

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    Im trying to get fit ! :) hope the hard work shows results
    kikasantos kikasantos 13-15, F Dec 13

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    It seems like I can't get over being sick :/ A little bit before thanksgiving, I was sick with a nasty virus and I finally am over it ( took it a lil over 2-3 weeks ), and then my...
    RyRyOfAwesomeness RyRyOfAwesomeness 13-15, M Dec 16

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    It is hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does...
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 19

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    I've always been that way . When I was a kid (12-14) I had some serious fighting issues at school(s). Not proud, it's just something I went through .i think kids in high school...
    beginswithanE beginswithanE 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I let myself go to this boy and now I am struggling to find who I am. I feel myself changing and I want to get back to the independent, happy person I was. I tried to find my...
    murn murn 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    im . well im having a h hard time with food lol. and keeping the habit if excercise. depression plays a big role in it, with no motivation. i eat my feelings. omg i gained 50 or 60...
    Jacqueline779 Jacqueline779 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 1

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    I'm trying, I swear I'm trying but that doesn't seem to matter now a days. My world is collapsing and all I can do is watch it tumble down. I feel like I can't even give the most...
    palomaflys palomaflys 16-17, F Dec 2

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    I come from a big family, so when I was told at a young age I would Never have children I cried for a week. But then I got over it, and decided I would live a full independent life...
    NotFirstNotLast NotFirstNotLast 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 4

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    I know you will probably never come back but I am still struggling because you were my rock I knew I could tell you anything and now you're gone and I don't know if I want to be...
    Madhatter135 Madhatter135 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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