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I Am Trying So Hard

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    To Keep Positive

    I'm trying so hard to keep positive and keep the love flowing within me but I can't stop crying. I feel utterly alone. The worst part about this is that I am not alone. Just lonely.   My husband didn't even look at me today when he got up, I was on the computer in the...
    aliceslade aliceslade 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    I got a new job that pays 3 dollars per hour

    more Than my old one! While that may not sound like much to you, that's at least a 33% raise for me! Plus I quit smoking which is like another 1 dollar per hour! After a few of these paychecks, I should be doing alright :-p I've decided to study on my own until I can pay for...
    alcool91 alcool91 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 16

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    For the past 3 days im upset.

    . Im trying to regain all my spirit back. Due to this depression im unable to joke, laugh with my friends, make fun, paint or sing.. its so stressful n frustrating. even couldn't reduce my stress by shouting..
    blowurmind1s blowurmind1s 22-25, F Mar 20

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    Wow.. Sorry to rant but I have to get this out.

    . What's wrong me! Like i try so hard to slim down, grow mussels, just get fit. For the most part I did I lost over 76pounds.. and nothing In my life has changed.. Nobody wont's to hang out, and it's depressing. You try so hard just to get something vary little, and it don't...
    ison71 ison71 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    All The Time!

    Every second without knowing from you is torture. I canot help but imagining the worst case scenarios, where you are in pain, and very ill, and I cannot even comfort you with my words, and my long distance kisses. Every second of every day I am trying so hard to survive this...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    Mind Over Matter

    Mind over matter. My mind tries so hard to fight  I'd get these spurts of energy And make the most of it. Then like a bubble that pops Faerie crashes. Mind over matter. The spirit tries to be unfazed. I'd bounce here and there Giggling at a time Then like a glass pane blown by...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    Because....

    I know I am not allowed to give up, so even though life keeps throwing me hit, after hit, after hit....I am doing my best to face it....and to keep on trying, because I know that I have no other choice....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    Off To Fight The Urge

    I'm off to fight against the scale.Off to stand before the shower drain.And I don't know if today I'll be victorious.I don't know if today i'll pull through the night.I stand my ground, but it's difficult.I try to work through the urge, but I fall so weak against it.Some days, I...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    I Don't Get It

    When it isn't her fault, when its not hers either, or his, or theirs but you're broken. Like if you were walking in the middle of a forest and there's a mirror up against a tree, it may have something strong to lean on and be surrounded by beauty but still broken. There is no way...
    MisfitToys MisfitToys 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    Everyone! Please add me on skype :) see you

    there! it's "ayeeyowh" :))
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5

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    Trying to stay decent.

    And breathing. Harder than most it seems. But will evil win. Dont know But my pals deserve me helping. And some even want me to. Lol Lmao. Its a nice feeling. Despite the rest of life hurting me. Hope the number of them dont vanish. Unless jerks...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    Don't you hate it when you're trying

    so hard and people are just putting you down... Telling you your best isn't good enough people wonder why I'm always pushing myself so hard and the fact is if I don't I face so much judgement from my parents that are hardly there. It's Shocking that I still care so much about...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27

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    ALL I Do Is Try

     I spent my whole life working hard, went to an ivy but didn't know who the hell I was or what I wanted so didn't do well. So after graduation I went to China to learn Chinese in hope that I could make up for my bad grades and do something cool and get a cool interesting...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess 26-30, F Oct 1, 2009

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    I am trying to keep it together.

    I am trying so hard not to burst into tears. I am trying not to scream at the top of my lungs that I hate the man you really are. You are not the man you pretend to be. That man that everyone likes and says is such a great guy. That man is a fraud. He is the man you wish you...
    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 31-35, F Jul 25

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    To show her i am better now.

    To show her i am different. New. But nothing can change her mind. Im the embodyment of evil
    Mineman214 Mineman214 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    At Least I Gave My Best Shot

    What the heck.I tried to keep the feelings alive but I cannot do everything for the two of us.At some point, I succumb.Though unwilling at first, I inched painfully away from oblivion.Yet, eventually, pain and anger enveloped my total being.I fought hard, wanting to make it last...
    MyZen MyZen 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    I've been Celibate for almost two years.

    I'm ready to give up because honestly there's not many people wanting to wait until there's at least a commitment. Help!!
    Livelaughlearn76 Livelaughlearn76 36-40, F Apr 5

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    I'm still working on this. She's been inside me my entire life and is one of my best friends. She's more proud of my accomplishments than I am, and gets just as upset (if not more...
    ia16 ia16 36-40, M 10 hrs ago

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    God help me! I am a compulsive liar. I got married to my wife in June after being together for 4 years. We always lived together, since she was my roommate when I attended...
    gotfoundout gotfoundout 31-35, M 19 hrs ago

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    I always wonder why I end up in arguments with the people in my life I love, or how much can I take. Can I get a dose of happiness for once? Can I get the things I really want? Yes...
    strawberry38 strawberry38 36-40, F 28 mins ago

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    It's very hard to prove that I am a hard worker because I have been a full time parent for 25 years. But look at all I have done! I don't hire a handyman, I fix it myself. I...
    debbiedee623 debbiedee623 51-55, F 9 hrs ago

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    Not even trying to figure it out anymore. I just like male and female parts and have had sexual experiences with both XD my family and most of my friends don't know though ._.
    andybiercats andybiercats 13-15, F 17 hrs ago

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    I've been trying to eat better, not so much junkfood less pop...been exercising more and wearing less makeup to try and clear up my skin:) I got so many compliments today for...
    fallout07 fallout07 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    Another fight going on between my mom, and dad right now at the moment. I finally noticed who is really there, but can't show it. My father. He can't show it because he works all...
    OutOfTheOrdinary OutOfTheOrdinary 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I thought i get it all off my chest on here seeing as I was reading lots of emotional abuse and psychical abuse stories on here a few weeks ago that got me moving in my decision to...
    catgirl87 catgirl87 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    its a new day.. today i am trying to pick myself back up. i am trying to crawl up out of the rubble i fell into...looking to find my sunshine...looking in the mirror and trying...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    My friend's diet is atrocious. And I just had a discussion with her last night till 5 in the morning Chicken nuggets Turkey dinosaurs Chips Pizza Spaghetti hoops (mainly for the...
    DorothyWheresOz DorothyWheresOz 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    At the moment I'am confused I'm bisexual. And I'm trying to deal w my emotions but it's gets harder and harder.
    RecklessXO96 RecklessXO96 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 4

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    Well I'm trying to accept the fact that I'm gay and it's getting harder and harder everyday. Sometimes I feel like I'm bisexual and I need to be more with girls but this actually...
    beonstreet beonstreet 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I've finally come to terms with the fact that I am bisexual, but it is really hard to accept myself now that I can't deny it anymore. I've grown up in a Catholic household where my...
    c0nfus3d22 c0nfus3d22 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I found in life you have to push yourself to get what you want cause nothing ever comer to you.......so I have tied my hardest to make everyone happy around me, but sometimes even...
    izzyalmond izzyalmond 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 7

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    Making and keeping friends.....big problem for me. I have trust issues with people, so imagine how difficult it is to give those a chance that seem like they genuinely want to be...
    GirlWithADangerousMind GirlWithADangerousMind 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I'm always trying to settle arguments between my friends/close acquaintances. It's hard, and sometimes hurts- no, make that usually hurts, when I can't help all that much, but at...
    mintycat mintycat 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Wife & I were good. Our relationship was incredible, we fed off of one another without crowding each other out. Then somewhere along the way she got comfortable enough with me to...
    BlandSpaghetti BlandSpaghetti 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 4

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    i was with my sister in christ and we was sitting in living room with a baby between us. we hard somebody trying to get in but couldn t get in. then went walking slow to the other...
    anestia anestia 31-35, F Jul 30

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    My marine is currently deployed. Dealing with trying to get life back in Structured and functional order is really taking a toll on me. I just don't know how to be myself while he...
    angelbaby187 angelbaby187 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    I am secretly in love with another girl but am trying so hard to ignore it because I firmly believe in God and I cannot be like this.
    CityLuvr98 CityLuvr98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    My career well I seem to have a hard time getting the jobs I really want. I really want to stand out and get noticed, I love achieving goals and climbing the ladder to something...
    hartbri12 hartbri12 31-35, F Aug 8

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    I find that I don't have much hope to hold onto for very long. My life is anything but what I want it to be and I do not know how to make it the way I imagined. I am trying to be...
    EyeOfLight EyeOfLight 18-21, F Aug 9

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    It's hard to be stuck in a place in life that you just do not want be in. And look back and beat yourself up for choices that got you there. Well. I've done this for years and...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    I have eczema extremely bad and no matter what I do, I can never make it 100% clear from my skin. So many people have made comments about it and I'm so tired of it. I'm trying so...
    dreaming1942 dreaming1942 16-17, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have spent my life pretending to be someone I never was. Lived a lie of who I am. Did what I was "supposed" to do. Worked hard, got married, had a family. All the things a man...
    sammiejo79 sammiejo79 51-55 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was just told we shouldn't try we just do. Trying sets us up for failure. Well I'm losing weight. It has been an uphill battle.. With all the hills I'm climbing you would think I...
    nsw1967 nsw1967 46-50, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Thank u for the replies: There's more question in my life that I really need an answer or an advice: :Story of my life with japanese partner: He is Japanese, but he born...
    zilvie1972 zilvie1972 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 3

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    Have you ever been here? In this place where you can't quite find your happiness? I have people who love me. I have a son who needs and loves me...I adore this child. I have...
    Whym Whym 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    I grew up a Jehovah's Witness. I was disfellowshipped in 2011. It's been 3 years not having the majority of my family in my life. Both my sister and my brother have gotten married...
    brejack07 brejack07 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 5

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    I've always had a difficult time being myself, like my crazy fun self around others. Especially people I first meet because I'm always trying to make a good impression and I feel...
    everythingwillbealright everythingwillbealright 13-15, F Aug 13

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    Boy, it's been really hard. And the period of about a year, but really more like a month, I have lost the support of almost all of my friends and family. Might I add, for really no...
    CinderellaInWonderland CinderellaInWonderland 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 14

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    It's kind of hard to explain... I'm attracted to boys, yes. But for as long as I can remember, I've always wanted to just cut all my hair off, dress like a boy, and go after girls...
    NatG124 NatG124 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 14