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I Am Trying So Hard

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    For the past 3 days im upset.

    . Im trying to regain all my spirit back. Due to this depression im unable to joke, laugh with my friends, make fun, paint or sing.. its so stressful n frustrating. even couldn't reduce my stress by shouting..
    blowurmind1s blowurmind1s 22-25, F Mar 20, 2014

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    At Least I Gave My Best Shot

    What the heck.I tried to keep the feelings alive but I cannot do everything for the two of us.At some point, I succumb.Though unwilling at first, I inched painfully away from oblivion.Yet, eventually, pain and anger enveloped my total being.I fought hard, wanting to make it last...
    MyZen MyZen 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    To show her i am better now.

    To show her i am different. New. But nothing can change her mind. Im the embodyment of evil
    Mineman214 Mineman214 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    I've been Celibate for almost two years.

    I'm ready to give up because honestly there's not many people wanting to wait until there's at least a commitment. Help!!
    Livelaughlearn76 Livelaughlearn76 36-40, F Apr 5, 2014

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    I am trying to keep it together.

    I am trying so hard not to burst into tears. I am trying not to scream at the top of my lungs that I hate the man you really are. You are not the man you pretend to be. That man that everyone likes and says is such a great guy. That man is a fraud. He is the man you wish you...
    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2014

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    Wow.. Sorry to rant but I have to get this out.

    . What's wrong me! Like i try so hard to slim down, grow mussels, just get fit. For the most part I did I lost over 76pounds.. and nothing In my life has changed.. Nobody wont's to hang out, and it's depressing. You try so hard just to get something vary little, and it don't...
    ison71 ison71 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 7, 2014

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    Off To Fight The Urge

    I'm off to fight against the scale.Off to stand before the shower drain.And I don't know if today I'll be victorious.I don't know if today i'll pull through the night.I stand my ground, but it's difficult.I try to work through the urge, but I fall so weak against it.Some days, I...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    To Keep Positive

    I'm trying so hard to keep positive and keep the love flowing within me but I can't stop crying. I feel utterly alone. The worst part about this is that I am not alone. Just lonely.   My husband didn't even look at me today when he got up, I was on the computer in the...
    aliceslade aliceslade 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    I got a new job that pays 3 dollars per hour

    more Than my old one! While that may not sound like much to you, that's at least a 33% raise for me! Plus I quit smoking which is like another 1 dollar per hour! After a few of these paychecks, I should be doing alright :-p I've decided to study on my own until I can pay for...
    alcool91 alcool91 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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    Because....

    I know I am not allowed to give up, so even though life keeps throwing me hit, after hit, after hit....I am doing my best to face it....and to keep on trying, because I know that I have no other choice....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    Don't you hate it when you're trying

    so hard and people are just putting you down... Telling you your best isn't good enough people wonder why I'm always pushing myself so hard and the fact is if I don't I face so much judgement from my parents that are hardly there. It's Shocking that I still care so much about...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Mind Over Matter

    Mind over matter. My mind tries so hard to fight  I'd get these spurts of energy And make the most of it. Then like a bubble that pops Faerie crashes. Mind over matter. The spirit tries to be unfazed. I'd bounce here and there Giggling at a time Then like a glass pane blown by...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    Everyone! Please add me on skype :) see you

    there! it's "ayeeyowh" :))
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5, 2014

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    All The Time!

    Every second without knowing from you is torture. I canot help but imagining the worst case scenarios, where you are in pain, and very ill, and I cannot even comfort you with my words, and my long distance kisses. Every second of every day I am trying so hard to survive this...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    ALL I Do Is Try

     I spent my whole life working hard, went to an ivy but didn't know who the hell I was or what I wanted so didn't do well. So after graduation I went to China to learn Chinese in hope that I could make up for my bad grades and do something cool and get a cool interesting...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess 26-30, F Oct 1, 2009

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    I Don't Get It

    When it isn't her fault, when its not hers either, or his, or theirs but you're broken. Like if you were walking in the middle of a forest and there's a mirror up against a tree, it may have something strong to lean on and be surrounded by beauty but still broken. There is no way...
    MisfitToys MisfitToys 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    I don't know how to move on. Everyone keeps telling me to. Its hard when everything I do and see reminds me of him. I can't find any other man attractive. I've been trying to talk...
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    I'm trying really hard to let go of my ex. I told myself that I would be able to get him back, tell myself that life has its ups and downs but I will not give up even when it...
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    I am trying to improve myself. I had a bad reaction to the Barium I had to drink for a CT Scan. I have missed almost two weeks of work. I feel better, but weak. Today I asked my...
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    I've been trying to talk to other guys. It helps a little bit, but still all I can think about is my ex. I still cry. He doesn't care about me. He wants to come pick up the rest of...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    How come this is so hard ? Why is letting go so god damn HARD? You asked me to return your heart I have .... so why am I still hurting? Maybe it is because you still holding my...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I can't remember the six first years of my life but they were the happiest years i've had for sure.I lived my life thinking that i had everything,that i was the luckiest person on...
    Rockzanne Rockzanne 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    I used to think I couldn’t go a day without your smile. Without telling you things and hearing your voice back. Then, that day arrived and it was so damn hard but the next was...
    WeLiveAndDieInTheseTowns WeLiveAndDieInTheseTowns 31-35, M Dec 30, 2014

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    It's hard to look in the mirror everyday and not wish so many things about you were different no matter how many people tell you otherwise. It's hard to accept all the little...
    MjetaMJ MjetaMJ 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I'm trying so hard to forget him and it's killing me inside not knowing what's happening with him. I need some input please. Please feel free to share your thoughts. I met this...
    sweetnovember29 sweetnovember29 41-45, F 38 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Seeing someone depressed & sad makes me want to cry . Im trying so hard to help!
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    obstacles. ...barriers... dark thoughts and old wounds. trying to get past them but its tough. a roll of the eyes or an exasperated sneer set it back. why does this happen? have...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    I am an awesome pediatric home care nurse and feel like my skills are being wasted without a job.. I keep having to decline jobs because of my kids schedule and not having a...
    smile4today smile4today 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    This one has been hard for me lately. I have started a new job and it is very chaotic and discombobulated. I am really trying to stay focused on the task at hand and do one task...
    cynthiajo52 cynthiajo52 51-55, F Jan 15

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    Had this down on my list for a while, but I'm actually trying to do it some days now.I've set myself 3 litres a day. That's 5.3 pints (or confusingly 6.3 pints if you're in the US...
    WineTilTheGoldenEvening WineTilTheGoldenEvening 51-55, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Since I moved up to college (for one short semester) I gained 30 lbs. I need to lose weight like yesterday! I've lost tons of weight before but I'm now back at square one, and it...
    melmal95 melmal95 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I found out my husband cheated on me 18 years ago. The woman contacted him to let him know he has a 17 year old daughter, who is two months younger then our oldest son. As hard...
    FinalyBroken FinalyBroken 41-45, F 2 days ago

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    I have lived the most part of my life waiting for happiness to ...find me. But as you can guess, it didn't find me. In fact, it didn't even bother to look for me...lol For some...
    andy7rs andy7rs 31-35, M 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm hurt. How can it possibly be that hard to write down two very simple, small words? Well, as anyone that may be reading this and can empathize with being "the other woman" knows...
    latenightthinker latenightthinker 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    Why? I always try this hard to make my family happy but Why I always end up being rejected by them 😒 I'm hurting 💔 Is it just because I am adopted or they can't just take it...
    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I've had found out I had genital herpes for a few months now. It's hard to think about but sometimes I'm fine with it and other times I feel depressed and devastated. I wish there...
    ajpr ajpr 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I try and try so hard to make it work
    kayheart kayheart 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    Man. When does the random crying cause you're children hurt stop. When I get upset about my divorce it's only due to the kids heartache never mine. I hate the ***** actually. I'd...
    Jennerrous Jennerrous 36-40, F 5 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    It's hard to do especially since I'm a caffeine junkie. But I'm going to try for the sake of my health.
    YouDaOne23 YouDaOne23 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Indeed. I am being captured by a moment that can not return. I have been wondering around the empty streets , like some short of ghost that can't let go of past. My life is a joke...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F Jan 1

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    It's a lot harder than people think.
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    The father of my child and I are not together. I called myself moving on with someone new,and I let him know so now he's supposedly moved on but I have a hard time accepting that...
    wjade wjade 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 2

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    The disability I am born with I can't really change that I'm stuck with it forever its so hard to accept that I can't change that because I really want to but can't
    Wolfy14 Wolfy14 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 2

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    ...but I don't know where to look. Everything's up in the air, I don't have any solid ground to tread on. Looking at all that's going on around me, long lost friends finding...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 3

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