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I Am Trying So Hard

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    Mind Over Matter

    Mind over matter. My mind tries so hard to fight  I'd get these spurts of energy And make the most of it. Then like a bubble that pops Faerie crashes. Mind over matter. The spirit tries to be unfazed. I'd bounce here and there Giggling at a time Then like a glass pane blown by...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 9 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    I Don't Get It

    When it isn't her fault, when its not hers either, or his, or theirs but you're broken. Like if you were walking in the middle of a forest and there's a mirror up against a tree, it may have something strong to lean on and be surrounded by beauty but still broken. There is no way...
    reddaisies reddaisies 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    Off To Fight The Urge

    I'm off to fight against the scale.Off to stand before the shower drain.And I don't know if today I'll be victorious.I don't know if today i'll pull through the night.I stand my ground, but it's difficult.I try to work through the urge, but I fall so weak against it.Some days, I...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    I've been Celibate for almost two years.

    I'm ready to give up because honestly there's not many people wanting to wait until there's at least a commitment. Help!!
    Livelaughlearn76 Livelaughlearn76 36-40, F Apr 5

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    Because....

    I know I am not allowed to give up, so even though life keeps throwing me hit, after hit, after hit....I am doing my best to face it....and to keep on trying, because I know that I have no other choice....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    ALL I Do Is Try

     I spent my whole life working hard, went to an ivy but didn't know who the hell I was or what I wanted so didn't do well. So after graduation I went to China to learn Chinese in hope that I could make up for my bad grades and do something cool and get a cool interesting...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess 26-30, F Oct 1, 2009

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    Everyone! Please add me on skype :) see you

    there! it's "ayeeyowh" :))
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5

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    At Least I Gave My Best Shot

    What the heck.I tried to keep the feelings alive but I cannot do everything for the two of us.At some point, I succumb.Though unwilling at first, I inched painfully away from oblivion.Yet, eventually, pain and anger enveloped my total being.I fought hard, wanting to make it last...
    MyZen MyZen 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    To Keep Positive

    I'm trying so hard to keep positive and keep the love flowing within me but I can't stop crying. I feel utterly alone. The worst part about this is that I am not alone. Just lonely.   My husband didn't even look at me today when he got up, I was on the computer in the...
    aliceslade aliceslade 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    All The Time!

    Every second without knowing from you is torture. I canot help but imagining the worst case scenarios, where you are in pain, and very ill, and I cannot even comfort you with my words, and my long distance kisses. Every second of every day I am trying so hard to survive this...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    For the past 3 days im upset.

    . Im trying to regain all my spirit back. Due to this depression im unable to joke, laugh with my friends, make fun, paint or sing.. its so stressful n frustrating. even couldn't reduce my stress by shouting..
    blowurmind1s blowurmind1s 22-25, F Mar 20

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 8

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 7

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 7

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 8

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    For a little over a year I have been trying to explain the reasons and motivations behind the way I have lived my life since I married my husband. I have never been able to explain...
    isis55 isis55 56-60, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    Sure i've had a couple boyfriends, but we've never gotten past that first kiss, you know? My last boyfriend emotionally abused me back into depression and i attempted suicide. My...
    PseudoWriter PseudoWriter 16-17, T Apr 7

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    i am trying to come to terms that i cant become a mum yet due to my health and i am finding it hard to cope with cause i am have wanted to be a mum since i was 18 now i am 23 and i...
    westlife213 westlife213 22-25, F Apr 2

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    Stay positive. I want to fall in love and know that it can be with whomever I choose because I chose them. Stay positive. I want to kiss my girlfriend without having to look around...
    inonon inonon 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    I am still trying to figure out life. I swear the harder I try the harder it gets.
    StayLyn StayLyn 41-45, F 6 Responses Apr 5

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    Anonymous asked: What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go. answered: You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and...
    lllie lllie 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    Anyone who looks at my page can see that I have been through some hard things. I battle depression; I am a cutter; I've had a suicide attempt; I loved someone that didn't love me...
    Imhurtingtoo Imhurtingtoo 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    It had been over four years since I’d stepped out on that branch him. I remember it well - I thought my footing was sure. I placed one foot there – it felt secure enough...
    LadyBronte LadyBronte 46-50, F 7 Responses Apr 7

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    I'm so sad and broken hearted. :( The one I loved just Broken up with me a couple days ago I was crying my hearts out when I called him. He said that our relationship was just a...
    ashleyloveca16 ashleyloveca16 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    So there is another teacher that works at my school her class is right next to mine she is pregnant and is starting to really show. She always comes into my room and talks to me...
    wifey2be wifey2be 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    It's hard for me not to hold grudges and talk badly about people but I am trying. I am so driven by anger but I'd like to know the peace of letting go and forgiving others, even...
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F Apr 7

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    My husbands suddenly gone from healthy to not healthy at all. He is scheduled for open heart surgery next week and I'm just shocked. We have been struggling with bills since he was...
    crystalkat crystalkat 51-55, F 6 days ago

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    So I'm just going to go on a little rant here (it's a bit long)...there are just some things I need to get out and I don't really have anyone to talk to that would understand..any...
    ashh7 ashh7 18-21, F Mar 23

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    I hate this life. I have been married to a cop for almost 15 years. Ten of that he was military and he now been a police officer for 7 years. I have taken so much in this...
    julesbug julesbug 36-40, F Mar 27

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    i am so fed up of people telling me to cheer up! no one understands how i feel within myself and i constantly put myself down. i am trying my hardest to see things through and...
    lllie lllie 18-21, F Mar 31

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    Well hi! I'm 17, a girl, and I am bisexual. My attraction to males/females has never been equal; I've been through stages where I've fancied guys more, and currently I fancy girls...
    TheBratPrince TheBratPrince 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I had breakfast today instead of just coffee. I went to the gym. I completed my assignment for a course I'm doing. I sent in two job applications. I am reading the book "Why we get...
    Arcavala Arcavala 31-35, F Apr 8

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    I've been feeling very sad and down lately, and now I'm sick of it. The occasional sadness that happens once in a while that is okay, everyone has times where they're sad for a few...
    CactusHugger CactusHugger 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    It's so hard to do!! Not fun.
    kaye23e kaye23e 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I just want to know that I am not the only one out there that feels this way. I am almost 30. I am a single mom of a wonderful 4 year old son. I want to be able to give him...
    HollySch13 HollySch13 26-30, F Mar 23

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    I was abused and molested by my father for 8 years. My mother never realized it because she was so stuck on her failing marriage. At school I was bullied. Made to be a freak...
    dacraww dacraww 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    Tonight is the first night in a looong time that i feel completely hopeless. I don't know that I want what i have chosen out of life. i want to change my mind. and all of the...
    curveycupcake curveycupcake 18-21, F Mar 25

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    When I was failing my Algebra 2 class back in Sophomore year I never told anyone I was doing bad in the class. Whenever other teachers and my parents/friends asked me how I was...
    Sigint8 Sigint8 18-21, M Mar 25

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    Its not all the time, though. Sometimes I can get in the zone, focus at the task at hand as if my life was dependent on it. I love when I have those days because those days are...
    Aldmeri Aldmeri 70+, M Mar 25

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    I am finding it hard to stay positive about life in general. as time goes on I am beginning to see the negatives and the darker sides to life and I don't like it
    poppycorner poppycorner 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    It's not helping me and I don't need them anymore. I need to find a better outlet for stress, but the only problem is I am super edgy now. I am going crazy and it has only been 72...
    imryll imryll 18-21, F Mar 28

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    I find myself attracted sexually and romantically to women, but I also find myself sexually attracted to guys, but I can't see myself in a relationship with a guy. Am I the only...
    Bennysspecial Bennysspecial 22-25, M 5 Responses Mar 30

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    It's getting hard.. My moms suspicious, that's for sure! She keeps taking about going swimming, that means bathing suit. That means my legs showing. That means people seeing scars...
    musicallife998 musicallife998 13-15, F Mar 31

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    In Oct. of 2013 my boyfriend and I went to an animal shelter just to see the sweet dogs and cats. As we looked around we just happen to stumble across this adorable older dog, who...
    whoevausayiam whoevausayiam 26-30, F Mar 31

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    Ok Soo.Something's just clicked tonight, I have so much I want to do and achieve and to do that and to keep focused I thought the best idea were to cut everyone off that were...
    sarajayne55555 sarajayne55555 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I am still trying to get over certain experiences in my life that now has affected me as a adult
    Hmonopoli Hmonopoli 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    i am a single mom of two girls yet i find it hard to make time to meet men.
    blanchard26692 blanchard26692 31-35 1 Response Apr 10

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    It's always hard. It's weird not being one or the other... constantly questioning yourself. I like guys and enjoy dating guys but I would be happy to be in a relationship with a...
    philobee philobee 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I've been married 15 years and now I'm getting turned on by other men. I haven't cheated but it's getting really hard ( no pun intended lol) not to give into urges. Also I'm 35
    JRBWT JRBWT 31-35, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    there are a couple of things in my life that aren't working out but i dont know how to change them, if i can at all. for one, im having a bad time at school because i have a lot...
    moonpuppy2 moonpuppy2 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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