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I Am Trying So Hard

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    For the past 3 days im upset.

    . Im trying to regain all my spirit back. Due to this depression im unable to joke, laugh with my friends, make fun, paint or sing.. its so stressful n frustrating. even couldn't reduce my stress by shouting..
    blowurmind1s blowurmind1s 22-25, F Mar 20, 2014

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    I am trying as hard as I possibly can to get an

    education but you know sometimes it is impossible to attend 100%. It is a human right to be mentally stable and healthy. But apparently that doesn't matter to my school. I strive to be a child psychologist one day but the Australian educational system barely lets me have a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2015

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    to keep moving forward,

    to hold onto this hope, to fuel positive thoughts, to stop beating myself up, to carve out a new life, to get healthier each day
    goodwitchofthenorth goodwitchofthenorth 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2015

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    Wow.. Sorry to rant but I have to get this out.

    . What's wrong me! Like i try so hard to slim down, grow mussels, just get fit. For the most part I did I lost over 76pounds.. and nothing In my life has changed.. Nobody wont's to hang out, and it's depressing. You try so hard just to get something vary little, and it don't...
    ison71 ison71 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 7, 2014

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    rizalyn rizalyn 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 15, 2015

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    Off To Fight The Urge

    I'm off to fight against the scale.Off to stand before the shower drain.And I don't know if today I'll be victorious.I don't know if today i'll pull through the night.I stand my ground, but it's difficult.I try to work through the urge, but I fall so weak against it.Some days, I...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    To keep this smile on my face

    even if I'm not happy.
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 2 Responses Oct 13, 2015

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    I try really hard to make the ones around me

    happy and feel wanted, but it seems it's never enough. What else can I do when everything I try is wrong? Or makes them feel bad or that I don't love them? I have never been good at expressing my emotions in any way, and they take this as I don't have emotions or feelings. In...
    Jeebitjeebs Jeebitjeebs 26-30, M Dec 2, 2015

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    I try to forget the fights between my wife

    and I. I really try. But she finds a way to be a bi**h even when I think we have a truce.
    cbcs cbcs 31-35, M Nov 26, 2015

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    Don't you hate it when you're trying

    so hard and people are just putting you down... Telling you your best isn't good enough people wonder why I'm always pushing myself so hard and the fact is if I don't I face so much judgement from my parents that are hardly there. It's Shocking that I still care so much about...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I Don't Get It

    When it isn't her fault, when its not hers either, or his, or theirs but you're broken. Like if you were walking in the middle of a forest and there's a mirror up against a tree, it may have something strong to lean on and be surrounded by beauty but still broken. There is no way...
    MisfitToys MisfitToys 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    Because....

    I know I am not allowed to give up, so even though life keeps throwing me hit, after hit, after hit....I am doing my best to face it....and to keep on trying, because I know that I have no other choice....
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 20, 2010

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    I got a new job that pays 3 dollars per hour

    more Than my old one! While that may not sound like much to you, that's at least a 33% raise for me! Plus I quit smoking which is like another 1 dollar per hour! After a few of these paychecks, I should be doing alright :-p I've decided to study on my own until I can pay for...
    alcool91 alcool91 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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    To show her i am better now.

    To show her i am different. New. But nothing can change her mind. Im the embodyment of evil
    Mineman214 Mineman214 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    ALL I Do Is Try

     I spent my whole life working hard, went to an ivy but didn't know who the hell I was or what I wanted so didn't do well. So after graduation I went to China to learn Chinese in hope that I could make up for my bad grades and do something cool and get a cool interesting...
    Alwaysahotmess Alwaysahotmess 26-30, F Oct 1, 2009

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    At Least I Gave My Best Shot

    What the heck.I tried to keep the feelings alive but I cannot do everything for the two of us.At some point, I succumb.Though unwilling at first, I inched painfully away from oblivion.Yet, eventually, pain and anger enveloped my total being.I fought hard, wanting to make it last...
    MyZen MyZen 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    to find a job i wont any mistakes on the job

    again. just a job in my field. but i refuse to be depressed over it any longer.
    awesomeguy3125 awesomeguy3125 26-30, M Aug 10, 2015

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    I am trying to keep it together.

    I am trying so hard not to burst into tears. I am trying not to scream at the top of my lungs that I hate the man you really are. You are not the man you pretend to be. That man that everyone likes and says is such a great guy. That man is a fraud. He is the man you wish you...
    classynsassy34 classynsassy34 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2014

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    Everyone! Please add me on skype :) see you

    there! it's "ayeeyowh" :))
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5, 2014

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    To Keep Positive

    I'm trying so hard to keep positive and keep the love flowing within me but I can't stop crying. I feel utterly alone. The worst part about this is that I am not alone. Just lonely.   My husband didn't even look at me today when he got up, I was on the computer in the...
    aliceslade aliceslade 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 4, 2010

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    I've been Celibate for almost two years.

    I'm ready to give up because honestly there's not many people wanting to wait until there's at least a commitment. Help!!
    Livelaughlearn76 Livelaughlearn76 36-40, F Apr 5, 2014

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    Mind Over Matter

    Mind over matter. My mind tries so hard to fight  I'd get these spurts of energy And make the most of it. Then like a bubble that pops Faerie crashes. Mind over matter. The spirit tries to be unfazed. I'd bounce here and there Giggling at a time Then like a glass pane blown by...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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