I Am Trying to Be Strong

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    I feel like committing suicide right now.

    ..people say it's not worth it but I can't take this bullshit anymore my own family hates me and ignores me so do people at school they bully me and I have no one to help me I've got no friends nothing I can't deal with this **** anymore:'( I'm broken and try and tell myself it's...
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2014

    Step by step, heart to heart,

    left right left, we all fall down, like toy soldiers. Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win, but the battle rages on, for toy soldiers
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    I feel so badly for everyone.

    .. especially lately. Not that my life is great, but my goodness, it's been awfully difficult for a few of my relatives. My Dad has has at 2 brain surgeries in as many months. It's because of bleeding, which is exacerbated by his diabetes, and also by a lack of platelets...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    Dec 6, 2015

    I have been trying to fix my life.

    I noticed awhile ago that I am not very good at fixing it alone, I just sleep and feel depressed. I have gotten a couple roommates over the past couple months, the second in the last week; and I'm using them to help pay rent and bills; which is super helpful. I also want to...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    1 Response Oct 7, 2015

    I lived a very exciting youth.

    I took tons of drugs, sold even more, and traveled around partying and being wild. I was very careful (read: lucky) and so I never seriously overdosed or got in serious legal trouble. I did party hard enough that I did both get in legal trouble, and I have overdosed on...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 24, 2015

    I need to leave this house.

    It's becoming suffocating. It has been a long while since I have really come back onto this site/app. But I can't lie to myself. Reading the messages from before, my past experiences, I can't help the tears that are now falling. My optimism, my fighting spirit, they're fading...
    RealisticSmile RealisticSmile
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 22

    I drift in and out sometimes in

    and out of depression in and out of happiness its... I don't know why that happens sometimes my mind just gets so fogged up and then all the negative thought start feeding on themselves. it's a really self destructive habit, but deep down inside I seriously know, I know what's...
    isgd isgd
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 26, 2015

    Being strong is all I've ever known I'm in a

    wheelchair I was born like it I just got sick loooong story but anyway I got my first wheelchair when I turned 4 I even took the driving test and past the first try I struggle with a lot emotionally and physically I break down so many times but somehow I pick myself up dust...
    Hollybird17 Hollybird17
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    Trying not to completely break down at work

    right now. I asked my boss if I could leave work early tomorrow to spend time with my sick father and she said no, because we "might be busy". I shouldn't even have to ask permission to visit a sick parent, but I was trying to work with her instead of just calling out. This is...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jan 16

    ...but I'm no longer.

    I need friends. I need to know I'm lovable. That I'm an ok friend. So much has happened and its so hard to keep moving forward. I wish some days God would call me Home. Have I given up already? Is this it? Does anybody understand? Cuz I sure dont.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2015

    This is not a life I'm living.

    I don't know what it is.
    fav777 fav777
    18-21
    1 Response Nov 29, 2014

    Complete life change in 2 weeks?

    No problem! It's completely set in stone now. I am selling or giving away everything I own that doesn't fit in my car, along with me and my dog (and still have room to sleep in the back seat - room for my dog, Stella, too - she will help keep me warm!) I'm driving across the...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 8

    Things have been tough.

    I can't lie to myself anymore. Aside from my mother in law offering her two cents where it's definitely not needed... I've decided that getting married may not be the best thing for Aaron and I. At least not right now. He is an amazing person and he loves his daughters...
    thejoneses thejoneses
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 2, 2015

    So - I don't exactly feel very GOOD at life.

    I have a pretty good brain inside my head, but for some reason it didn't lead me to choose the correct decisions. I even KNEW the right decisions, and I actively made the wrong ones. It's insane in retrospect. But - So I began life, like everyone else - very young. I...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 25

    One day, I want to be a good,

    reliable and caring boyfriend to someone.
    grrizzli grrizzli
    18-21, M
    Dec 30, 2015

    I am trying to be strong,

    really I am, but every time I remember or see pictures of the past, I start to give in, seeing pictures of the future or of the present hurts....with each picture I feel like I am starting to lose....I feel like I am slowly losing, and won't be strong anymore....
    MericaMan MericaMan
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 9, 2015

    I visited my Psychiatrist this afternoon

    and I got a good feedback from him. He said that I am already doing well. Lately, this evening. I was starting to get anxious again without any reason. So, I just stayed quiet and pretended that everything is just fine even though my heart started beating fast.
    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon
    18-21, F
    Nov 19, 2014

    Life has ups and downs.

    ..I went from having a beautiful home to looking for a home. My car took a crap. I switched jobs. I'm a single mother and a good one. I have two adult children and three young children. I currently work 60 hrs a week. ( nights) I'm strong. I smile, I encourage everyone to be...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 11, 2015

    You know when something eats you alive ,

    and it starts to almost feel like it's killing you? You just want it to all go away because it's just too hard to deal with. It's always something that either makes you sad, mad, hurt, abandoned , or anything that makes you feel in general.. In a bad way.. It's starts to make...
    Escapeyourthoughts32 Escapeyourthoughts32
    18-21
    Aug 28, 2015

    Well, I thought I was maybe going to start

    trying to hit on this girl - and start that portion of life again... Maybe - BUUUUTTTT it looks like life has changed my plans. I have to move. I live in Denver, Colorado; currently, and I will be driving across the country to the fair state of Vermont soon. My father is sick...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    1 Response Oct 12, 2015

    There is someone in my life

    who needs to go. We have known each other since I was 18 and he was 20. All through the years, we have kept in touch, lost touch, and then found each other again. He always has come looking for me; I never sought him out. He told me that he's always loved me and always would...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2015

    I want to move on from this feeling,

    consumed in darkness I can't help but feel empty alone. I need to be strong because one day...I will be able to get out of this place. One day soon.
    ComposerOfVitality ComposerOfVitality
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2015

    I am trying to be strong,

    i am trying to keep going on, but ive been doing this for to long, how can i go on...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 7, 2015

    My dad has been sick my entire life.

    He's been in and out of hospitals and has had multiple surgeries, including major surgery last summer. After his recent surgery, he actually started to feel a lot better. He was recovering quickly, had gotten back into his daily routine and actually felt better than he ever did...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 11

    i have so many things

    that i kept inside of me. i kept inside my heart. no one will ever know. not even myself bcos i feel confused with what i really feel or want. its too complicated. im just trying to be strong and i want to be stronger than before.
    vousmevoyez vousmevoyez
    16-17, F
    Aug 17, 2015

    Failing Miserably

    I don't know how much more I can actually take. There have been situations in my life that are a lot more painful but I have managed to walk away. My mother was and still is emotionally abusive. I left home when I was 16 to escape the pain of it and at the time I felt that I had...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Dec 29, 2011
    Hollybird17 Hollybird17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2015

    It is a really hard time of the year

    for my sons and I with Father's Day tomorrow. We miss my late husband so bad and it feels like it's never ending. We dance around the void most days but today it is really hard to keep it together. I have to b strong for my boys but some times it is so hard. I feel horrible...
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th
    41-45, F
    12 Responses Jun 20, 2015

    This is actually a very hard thing to do,

    especially when you don't have friends by your side. I have two main friends. Lets call the first one "jamie" and the second one "jessica". I have alwas been closer to jamie than jessica, but for jessica if it wasn't her way, then it wouldn't work out. Jessica is making it seem...
    maria67108 maria67108
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2015

    Hes in a mood again. Has trouble at his other

    job. Shares some of the story but. ...Taking it out on me as usual instead of turning to me as his wife for help. Hes a dummy. If he knew how to respect me he would know he could and should get love and advice from me. But nope. Look who his examples are for "husbands...
    DesireHappy DesireHappy
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jun 5, 2015

    OK LIFE - let's make a deal.

    .. I'll forget ALL of the prior unfairness that I feel I have endured; and you'll forget too. Let's move forward with positivity and good thoughts, hopes, and expectations of each other! I have been VERY lucky lately. I am doing my best to retain the positivity of these...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Mar 19

    I'm trying my best not to lose my mind.

    I'm under so much stress right now, I worry it's only a matter of time before I completely lose it. I just want some peace and quiet. I just want a break from everything, but I can't take a break. I have to keep going, but it's becoming unbearable.
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Feb 6

    Inner Strength

    I have always thought of myself as a strong woman.  Emotional strength seems to run through the blood of all the women in my family.  But, I'm having a hard time right now finding that inner strength.  I know it's still there, but I find myself having to work...
    CuriosityKitten CuriosityKitten
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Feb 7, 2009

    Every day I think about the accident

    that changed my life I think about it all the time and knowing I lost my career job as a police officer kills me and as I struggle to get by with my injured that never just gets better makes me feel like I have no place and feeling lost with no ambition is scarier then being...
    chris0478 chris0478
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 25, 2015

    I've managed to not cut

    for about a month. It's really hard but I'm getting through it. I use to cut every day but not anymore.
    EmmaTheMusicFreak EmmaTheMusicFreak
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jul 2, 2015

    I try not to, but I feel alone.

    I'm 34, single, professional...and got unexpectedly pregnant by my coworker. Right now I'm 7.5 months along. I don't love the father (for many legitimate reasons) so though he desperately wants to be with me we will not be the nuclear family he wants. He's hostile and terribly...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2015

    Everyone seems to be genuinely happy

    but me. I'm trying to find happiness, but I fear I'm not looking in the right places. Or I'm not pushing hard enough for it. I don't know.
    Devilscar Devilscar
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2015

    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense,

    and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some thought. Two years ago I tried to take my life. I was in my last year of high school and I was severely depressed (clinically diagnosed). I was never...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious
    18-21, F
    Nov 12, 2014

    Hello people I don't know!

    This is my phone now not my little sisters. Me against my little sister! Message me please!!
    AbiDove AbiDove
    18-21, F
    Aug 21, 2015

    For my Kids. Even though all I want to do right

    now is cry and scream this pain all out. My husband doesn't love me and isn't willing to work on himself to see why things are so messed up. He just want to be loved without earning my trust back. So that some how makes it my shortcoming. I can't just trust someone who...
    sp7799 sp7799
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Feb 23, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    I pretend and try that I am stronger

    than I really am. I dont know if tje new us will work. it hurts so bad when he leaves to go to work... not knowing how long it will be til he gets back and when he leavea ita like a part of me is missing... i feel so dang lost...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 20
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