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I Am Trying to Become Happy Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 317 People

    And It's Not Working For Me

    I KNOW I'm in a downward cycle, I'm sinking into a depression again. I'm trying to fight it. But I cannot win. I did things to try to make me feel better. I did things to try to improve my life. But nothing seems to be working. I can't fight it. I just have to...
    IndigoPeachblossom IndigoPeachblossom 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 28, 2009

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    Joining EP was a good start.

    I felt a real connection with someone. I know prematurely but we seem to have a lot in common. I felt better than I have in a long time just chatting. Here's to becoming happy again.
    sweetp1257 sweetp1257 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 8

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    I'm Tryin' to Find Myself

    in my whole life i've never told anybody how i feel about anything but now my problems are getting bigger and i don't know how to deal with them because idon't even know myself so how can i solve my problems and makes my life worse is above all this problems i have always to...
    zkara zkara 16-18, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2007

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    Happy

    Why is it so hard to be happy.  I do try, everyday I get up and say to myself that I am going to be happy today.  But a dark cloud comes over me slowly and by the afternoon I feel so sad inside, so unmotivated, and then I end up being depressed again. ...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 1 Response Jun 4, 2009

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    I am trying my best today.

    Someone please tell me something worth being happy about. I'd appreciate it.
    eccentricpython eccentricpython 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I've been feeling very sad

    and down lately, and now I'm sick of it. The occasional sadness that happens once in a while that is okay, everyone has times where they're sad for a few days but that fades. I'm fine with that. But not with feeling this way for 2 month's, only brining myself down further. It...
    CactusHugger CactusHugger 18-21, F Apr 17

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    I Cant Open Up To People

    most of my life since a younger age I have never being able to expess my true feeling and speak allowed everytime I did, i would just get knocked down by someone. so I just feel helpless like everything i do i will fail so i just dont see the point in trying anymore, i want to...
    misterygurl misterygurl 13-15, F May 2, 2011

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    Never Been Happy

    All my life I tried to be happy, to feel happy, to be contented. To be honest, I don't even know what happiness means, literally. I never felt happy, I tried but at the end of the day, I still feel the sadness in me. I may look like I'm having fun, like I'm very happy and...
    sunsetglow sunsetglow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 7, 2010

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    It's funny how looking through old photos can

    really put your life into perspective....how clearly you can see your life in chapters. I'm in a weird chapter of my life right now, but I just keep trying to remind myself that it's just a chapter. This isn't the end of my story. There are a lot of chapters left to be written...
    SupernovaxGirl SupernovaxGirl 26-30 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I Have The Right To Be Happy Again!

    Sometimes i have to stop loving the most important person in my life! It's not because the spark is gone but because that person is unintentionally making me feel WORTHLESS. Yes, i have eyes but i played blind & i have feelings but i played dead. But for my heart, it needs also...
    ascelous21XXX ascelous21XXX 18-21, M Nov 30, 2012

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    Happy "again"?

    I can't remember being happy. It sounds horrible saying it, but I'm going on 20+ years of MDD, and I don't remember what "happy" is, or content, calm, relaxed, joyous. I never feel any of these, though I know I must have as a child. Yes, I would love to "become happy again". How...
    Aniratak Aniratak 31-35, F Dec 10, 2012

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    Pulled Back

    Lately, I've been feeling a little sad. I don't know if it's because I've been doing absolutely nothing the past couple of days but I all can say is that 3 days seem like 3 months, as it once did before. I hate it that it's come down to this. My friends are busy, that's fine I...
    Athru Athru 26-30, M Aug 8, 2012

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    All It Took

    Last year I met a man that was absolutely wonderful!  A year later, he's cost me everything I've worked my whole life for:  2 very good careers, a beautiful home, a man that loved me regardless, thousands of dollars and if much longer, my ...
    hmariec hmariec 26-30 1 Response Mar 28, 2009

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    Happy Again

    Happy again,That's my aim,Why not?Once was,Let's repeat,I'll be,Happy again.
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 1 Response Jun 13, 2012

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    I'm not sure how to start off,

    I'm not the best when it comes to communications, but I want give this a try. I'm not sure how this will come across, but I want to give this a try. This is for anyone who is depressed, feeling like a failure, who has losing hope, or has just given up hope. You are probably...
    BudBorden88 BudBorden88 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 7

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    I'm Getting There

    I thought I would never be happy again. Depression does that to you. I felt helpless and alone and I was extremely negative. I was waiting for someone to rescue me from myself, but no one ever really did. Somewhere along the line, I realized that I COULD be in control of my life...
    TheQuietGirl TheQuietGirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8, 2012

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    Again

    You know, things work out really well when you are happy. i used to be very happy, I think i made the world better. i had a spark that made me make friends easy. I was the life of the party a lot of times. i was confident and got any guy I liked. but some how i lost all of that...
    smileyfaces84 smileyfaces84 26-30, F Dec 12, 2011

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    Healing Slowly

    A lot of "stuff" happened in my life over the past few years - well, actually probably since I was born.  I know, that's life right?   I'm trying to get myself back to happy - the kind of happy I used to be.  Despite everything that was "wrong", when I was younger...
    Opalgem Opalgem 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2010

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    I Feel Like No One Will Ever Understand Me

    Every day when I wake up, I feel as if none of the things I experienced from yesterday existed, but it did. I hide myself from the world sometimes just to get away from all the horrible things that are happening. In school, I'm quiet and shy, but when I'm with my friends, they...
    a7xlover34 a7xlover34 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2012

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    Tight Rope

    I feel like I'm walking on a tight rope with no net beneath me, and at one end of the rope is a path to a beautiful stream with a mellow waterfall, soft green grass, beautiful flowers and trees, cute and friendly forest animals, sweet soothing winds, bright sunny days and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 11, 2011

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    Paper Smiles

    How do I smile? Let me feel happiness, even just for a while. I don't want to be sad, I want to be happy, smile and be glad. Can I be normal like everyone else? Antidepressants are good, but do they really help. I don't like hiding behind paper smiles, Drawn by hand, in ink with...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2011

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    This poem is something I recite to myself a lot

    when I'm feeling really down; Everyone wants happiness, No one wants pain, But you can't make a rainbow, Without a little rain. Hope this helps people feel a bit better about themselves and their lives :)
    TheOneAndOnlyZella TheOneAndOnlyZella 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Quiet Time To Bliss

    It's been a while since I'v been happy. Things in my lfe are not ging great.  So, I've dug my feet in and decided to turn it around  Giving it 30 days starting on tommorrow.  Im clinging to My God for support and looking in the future cause the past is full of disillusion...
    whykeeper whykeeper 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 18, 2011

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    go forward in a life with a twinkle in your eyes and a smile in your face but with a great and strong purpose in your heart XD AJA! fight fight fight!!!
    LoveHadassah LoveHadassah 18-21, F Oct 2

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    I thought he actually wanted to be with me he actually wanted to be those relationships that last for a very long time and that get married have children... but I guess I was wrong...
    heeeeey heeeeey 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Well that's done. He didn't get it at first and probably still dn't get it but I refuse to befriend gossipy ppl. :D I feel better!
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F Oct 16

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    Am I nuts or what? I'm back after a short separation and its not like I came back on my own....the moron I dedicated my life and heart to for too many years led me to believe,once...
    UnbreakableMe2112 UnbreakableMe2112 51-55, F Oct 5

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    I really want to be happy. I have been on and off suicidal for years and not felt happiness in a true manor for all of that time except for half a year. Then there was those 2...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 16

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    Even though my husband does not support me very much, is unhappy with my decision, I have come to the realization...He no longer has CONTROL OF ME. I decided to just do what...
    AbnormalNormal AbnormalNormal 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I just wrote a story in another place about "happiness." Yes I have been trying to find that elusive thing they call happiness for quite some time now...just when I think I have...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    Everyone always says to do what will make you happy. But I don't really know how to be happy. I guess to understand why I'm not happy I would first need to understand happiness...
    SlothQueen SlothQueen 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    hi, upon reading some of the experiences for days here in EP i decided to share a bit of my life.. I met this man on-line, i decided to find someone on-line because there are lots...
    ShadesofWhite67 ShadesofWhite67 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    This world is quickly going to the dogs...and I am not sure whether they will even want it when we are through with it. We have worldwide poverty because of corruption within the...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 18

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    Trying to heal my scars from within... Praying daily for strength. I hope I become successful after all the wrong I've done. People think I'm crazy but I think my mind is beautiful...
    Toocrazy4u Toocrazy4u 18-21 Oct 11

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    Happy Halloween! And goodnight. Enjoy this sexy skeleton
    ZeroDigits ZeroDigits 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    So for the last 12 years or so, I've always thought that my family showed signs of favoritism for my brother. Whenever I'd want something as a kid, I'd always have to ask him to...
    tesser4ct tesser4ct 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    I should be happy that my husband stays home instead of going out with his "friends". I should be happy that instead of getting wasted, my husband plays video games all night. I...
    Mystery08 Mystery08 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 17

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    Life sucks to its fullest. I want to experience happiness. May I? I come from a huge family with 11 siblings. I am the youngest. Never been happy in my childhood days. Always...
    depress55 depress55 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 24

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    My parents think I hate them because I always get so irritated and 'have an attitude' with them. They always screamed at me about it but I never blamed them for being upset with me...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Being happy is not one of my aims in life. I think trying to be happy can get endless, and investing all your resources on another person can be dangerous because you can lose it...
    loveslikeclockwork loveslikeclockwork 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I used to be the topper of my class but now my marks have fallen down due to severe anxiety disorder I suffer.I can't concentrate on my studies now.I am depressed.I wish I could...
    genuineangel genuineangel 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 18

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    Still trying to understand how one day you love me and then the next you don't... How is it you go off and act like there was never an us? I guess I should be happy that it was...
    stillhavehope3 stillhavehope3 41-45, F Oct 21

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    I'm using the depression as a shield. And although it has made me not want to be here You don't need to fear me trying to take my life away Because there is no point I will fail...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Oct 24

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    Something I wrote to him, although I didn't send it. Thank you. I have a lot of things to thank you for. Thank you for showing me how to love and supposedly be "loved". Thank...
    weightingforhappiness weightingforhappiness 18-21, F Oct 2

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    Who in the hell am I is my question? I don't know why I always think that someone else can tell me or to figure it out for me. I was a people pleaser when I was a kid...well into...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F Oct 10

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    Happy endorphins are released even if you force a smile for the first 30sec. Ok? So this is all about choosing to be happy....If you become responsible for your own happiness...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 13

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    So I met this guy named Dalton and... WOW. We had only met once when we were at Applebee's with a friend group, I was there with another guy who at the time I had ig a little...
    brooklyn18 brooklyn18 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    You get those grumpy drunks, fighting drunks, sad drunks and happy drunks, thankfully I'm the happy one. I might become annoying and talk way more than I should or flirt more than...
    jolley2k jolley2k 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 16

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    Today I saw someone I've been waiting to see in concert forever. Then I finally did I was almost in front ROW!! I almost died.... like I literally almost died.... because the...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F