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I Am Trying to Find Happiness

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    She has never felt so far away

    and I have never felt more alone, than tonight. I wish that I could find hope in something else, but I never have been able to. The loneliness is a weight that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I know there are others who have struggled parallel to this and even further...
    InsaneDane InsaneDane 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 12

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    I realized yesterday

    that my relationship just cannot last, but I do I feel that I am stuck. My boyfriend and I met 2 years ago, at a club on my 19th birthday (legal age where I live). Prior to this night, I had never gone to night clubs, and had never been in a relationship, nor gone on a date...
    Realitymeetsbliss Realitymeetsbliss 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 7

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    I dont have many friends

    and none of them ever contact me. I'm trying to find more friends and happiness. My cat makes me smile he is always waiting at the door when i come home. I have joined a horticulture class one night a week. Its very interesting and I really enjoy it. I have started studying so...
    wawow wawow 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I tried and tried and tried

    but it seems I will spend the rest of my life without it :(
    girlyboy83 girlyboy83 31-35, T 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I have been having problems with myself.

    And that has led to other problems. I grew up in such a terrible home. I grew up to be a contradicting person that is under developed and is now seeing the memories of my childhood with involved violence to myself and by others, and I grew up with abuse, drugs, alcohol and other...
    xxRaindrop xxRaindrop 18-21, M Apr 7

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 4

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    Alitia Alitia 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    The gun is loaded but it's not in my hand I'm

    trembling and shaking too much to hold it This monotony has nearly drained me You are in my heart but I am still lonely This need is all consuming hungry and gnawing I want to heat you up to boiling I want to shoot you up inject you into me I want you running through my...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    Is Happiness That Elusive?

    Let me give this a try and see where it goes.  Life has been a bit of a downer for me lately.  Marriage on it's last legs.  Finances in a bad way due to an injury last November and no work since then.  I am a self employed artist so no worker's comp. ...
    dartist dartist 56-60, F 14 Responses Jun 13, 2008

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    My Ep Pals And The Happiness They Bring Into My Life...

    I want to make a thread where I and others can come in and post those treasured moments when you read something and  decide you totally adore the person who wrote it.  I want to go through my whole Friends list and add a  bit of what makes each one so special to me.  I'd love...
    sierra33 sierra33 31-35, F 26 Responses May 11, 2011

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    Everything is f*cking with my head,

    I'm an emotional wreck. I can still see Ethan laying in his casket, I still see the smile his family gave me. I can't see my niece, I pretty much raised her till she is 9 months and since she was taken from my sister, now they won't tell me where she is. People tell me stay...
    SupermansLoisLane SupermansLoisLane 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    hey im gay but not obvious pls no hate.

    i think im a lost soul trying to find my better half, i havent been in a romantic relationship for 21 years, yeah im single since birth. i dont know whats wrong. its scares me that i will grow old without someone beside me. currently im making my life progressive by working my...
    BuenRoed BuenRoed 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    To Be Happy Is My Dream....

    Till now i was never been happy in my life because of my sensitive character. i never depend on external happiness... i want to be happy from internal, i just dont want a artificial smile on my face, i want a smile which comes from my heart.... am struggling to find my internal...
    vachya vachya 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    When someone walks out of your life,

    let them. They are just making more room for someone better to walk in!
    mssst mssst 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 9, 2014

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    Denial Helps Growth!

    Tis no good for all our wishes to be filled, Through sickness,  we recognize the value of health, Through evil the value of good. Through exertion, the value of rest.. Through wrongs, ours and others.. The value of forgiveness. author unk  ....... Blessed are...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M 1 Response May 15, 2007

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    I had a beautiful bird named Delilah,

    she was a 5 month old conure and i bought her at 3 months, she was my everything , we whould sleep eat and watch are tv shows together she went with me to work at pet co and everything, while I was working u a costumer tyres to pet her and she flew behind me because I was her...
    nadya12345 nadya12345 18-21, F Mar 26

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    today was such a great day.

    just because of the weather. it was dark cloudy and rainy. then like struggling happiness in the middle of a depressed storm the day brightens up and the bliss is absolute as the darkness creeps in slowly and the calm remains
    ember23 ember23 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    RESIST THE TEMPTATION OF TAKING ACTION OR

    MAKING A DECISION WHILST ANGRY... BECAUSE MOST OFTEN THAN NOT, THE ACTION/DECISION WOULD NOT ONLY BE WRONG, YOU ALSO MIGHT NEVER GET THE SECOND CHANCE TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
    HananAquarius HananAquarius 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    Struggling with having no friends.

    I try to do things alone but I would love to have someone always there a bestfriend maybe. Someone to laugh with and have nights out, and even to just talk or text regularly. And I always try to hide that I'm a loner. But it's really depressing. Grew up in foster care and got...
    ximperfectangel ximperfectangel 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 13

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    Even If I Never Will

    Things crumble to dust in front of my eyes, and I no longer care. My marriage which has pretty much been over for more than a year is in the end stages. All that is left is to see to my wife's health and my daughter's best interests.My wife has been suicadal and abusive. Lashing...
    TheHiker TheHiker 41-45, M 6 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    This may be long but oh well.

    I am an 18 year old boy, diagnosed with depression, anxiety and OCD. Over the coming years I evaluated myself and my life, my father and mother, brother and friends. Thinking through it all, I attempt to genuinely smile for what I am, how far I've come. I've attempted suicide a...
    xxRaindrop xxRaindrop 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 1

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    aka10 aka10 31-35, M Mar 27

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    I dont remember the last time I was truly happy.

    I always have a smile on my face but 99.9% of the time it is a fake smile.
    cheybear96 cheybear96 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    i'm not sure if im depressed.

    I mean, I'm not sad. but im not exactly happy either. I can laugh and joke and smile during the day, but sometimes when im alone at night I forget how to feel.
    archerqueen archerqueen 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I once found someone

    who made me so happy. until one day, he just kinda stopped talking to me and I was too scared to approach him because I belived he hated me.
    leahsindone leahsindone 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    Try to ask yourself what is really important

    and then have the courage to build your life around your answer.
    cat20079 cat20079 36-40, M 6 Responses Feb 16

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    So me checks everywhere.

    http://youtu.be/UtBsl3j0YRQ
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 7

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 6

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    I'm still looking in the wrong places.

    He just always seems to say the wrong things, whether it's an accident or purposefully, I just don't know anymore. I do all I can, and it never seems to be enough. I'm tired of feeling so dejected. The stretches of good times feel like a few days where he suppresses the need...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Recently (well, 2 months ago) my ex left me

    for some unknown reason. At first I was extremely cheesed off (trying to keep this for all ages :P ), she wouldn't tell me why, wouldn't listen to anything I or anyone else said to her. All my efforts were for nothing. I lost my temper a bit (not physically, don't worry), But...
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Moving On From Personal Traumas

    my husband and i have had a very hard time the past couple years...physical injury, fire, surgery, death, all happened within a few months...it has been two years today since his sister passed away while visiting us in our home. She went to sleep on our couch, and did not wake up...
    NotHisBabydoll NotHisBabydoll 41-45, F 31 Responses Jan 10, 2012

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    I Don'T Know.......

    Yes, am trying to find happiness in my life. Who doesn't? But, i don't Know how to be happy in life. I can't remember when i laugh for the last time. Although i always laugh with my friends. I am the girl who can keep smiling although i was sad inside. A real smile is that when...
    Fallofwinter Fallofwinter 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 24, 2013

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    What Is The Happiness??

    Im just and ordinary people, i come from the poor family, i know there is no reason why i was born at this family,,, cause there is a God will.. but why its me??? i try to found the answer for long time, until i meet someone, he is become from the rich family,, and i try to ask...
    kudaws kudaws 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    i cut myself last night,

    i couldnt handle all the pressure, i broke.
    lollipoponastick lollipoponastick 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Maybe "Find" Is the Wrong Word

    I forget the actual origin of my belief, but I remember being taught at some point that happiness is not something you can obtain. It's not a commodity that can be bought or bartered. It's not something you can win in a contest. It's not some kind of prize. Rather, it is...
    victorious victorious 26-30, M 1 Response May 10, 2007

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    Don't Try To Find Happiness, Build It.

    I have found that you don't FIND happiness, you actually have to make it. Get rid of things that block happiness and surround yourself with lots of good things. Those things can be friends, hobbies, lifestyle, the way you occupy your time and mind and many other things. Getting...
    TomWPB TomWPB 41-45, M 11 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    Hello guys. Since childhood,

    I have been a person that is easy to be made fun off. I have always been that isolated kid sitting on the last bench without really talking to anyone. I have always been good in academics. I scored cgpa 9.8 in class 10 and 82 % in class 12. Every now and then, I had a couple of...
    akhilnsec akhilnsec 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 17

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    Never thought I'd actually consider it

    but maybe I will try a career in modeling. Maybe I'll find happiness along the way...
    TokioDoll TokioDoll 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I'm 26with two kids trying to find happiness

    other then my kids..Idk I guess looking for my soulmate.. but its hard to find someone that doesn't mind me having 2 kids..my friends tell me there's a guy out there for u while there hugged up on there man..and I'm thinking thanks and still feeling like the odd man out -_-
    swann89 swann89 26-30, F 11 Responses Apr 13

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    Happiness Always Ends With Sadness

    i am a simple guy who have simple dreams ..only think missing in my life is love..yeah u would say u will find one when the time come but i fall in love with wrong people who wlways hurt me and broke me apart.... i was quite happy 2 days back.. but my life dont like me too...
    hasank hasank 22-25, M 5 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    Fear Of The Unknown ?

    Don't you ever get sick of being miserable ? Don't you ever get bored of being quiet , and blaming in your thoughs the injustice around you ...don't you ever get tired to hide your feelings between some words ? Does the light bothers you eyes yet ? It seems we never learn our...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    This wonderful person came into my life making

    it the happiest it has ever been. I have never felt so much happiness before. It felt so real and special. But then something tragic happened causing everything to just crumble around me. I felt emptier and quieter inside. I would have to fake a smile and pretend I'm alright...
    AndyL567 AndyL567 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    Is any one with me on finding true happiness

    feeling loved and cared for I cry my self to sleep every night having my love one next to me who has no idea how lonely I sad I feel
    Ivonna Ivonna 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    My parents tell me I'm ugly

    because I'm fat. They say I won't ever get married because of that. Marriage is a big deal in my community and society, and I'm a disgrace to them. I have always loved myself despite the way I look; I have loved myself despite the mistakes I've made; I have loved myself despite...
    RH17 RH17 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    shortfry3 shortfry3 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    My dad shattered my happiness the day he made

    me feel like I was nothing when he was still my everything...
    desxo desxo 16-17, F 1 Response