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I Am Trying to Find Happiness

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    I dont remember the last time I was truly happy.

    I always have a smile on my face but 99.9% of the time it is a fake smile.
    cheybear96 cheybear96 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    Good evening, My name is Cameron Leonard

    and I hope this message finds you well. I have had an extremely rough year, to say the least. Throughout this year I have been in and out of hospitals, placed in a treatment hospital, and attempted suicide. I know, I'm cashews. Well all of these incidences revolved around...
    camalexis camalexis 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    I know right now this is all a phase,

    at least I'm really hoping. I've always told myself happiness will find me...but I'm really giving up on that right now. Maybe I need to search for it, but how?
    queenatsixteen queenatsixteen 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    shortfry3 shortfry3 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    My parents tell me I'm ugly

    because I'm fat. They say I won't ever get married because of that. Marriage is a big deal in my community and society, and I'm a disgrace to them. I have always loved myself despite the way I look; I have loved myself despite the mistakes I've made; I have loved myself despite...
    RH17 RH17 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    Does anybody ever feel like they were meant

    for something more? Something greater? Like, where they are currently isn't where they're supposed to be. Not just where they are personally, professionally, romantically or anything like that. But as though you weren't meant for greater things, meant to do something great, to...
    raf408 raf408 31-35, M 8 Responses a week ago

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    Nearly 2 years ago I caught my step father

    filming me in the shower. Until now I can not comprehend why is my mother still with this man. I have moved out but happiness never found me ever since then. I told noone but a few of my close friends and my boyfriend. It sucks trying to keep a straight face when people casually...
    rosepetalmarmalade rosepetalmarmalade 26-30, F 6 Responses May 8

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    I'm trying... remember that.

    . I'll get it. one of these days. it's on my to do list.
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M May 14

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    Happiness Always Ends With Sadness

    i am a simple guy who have simple dreams ..only think missing in my life is love..yeah u would say u will find one when the time come but i fall in love with wrong people who wlways hurt me and broke me apart.... i was quite happy 2 days back.. but my life dont like me too...
    hasank hasank 22-25, M 5 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    best line I've heard in a while.

    ............ "I don't care how fat you think you are, you are beautiful to me"... awwww
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 26

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    prashuk1996 prashuk1996 18-21, M May 4

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    RESIST THE TEMPTATION OF TAKING ACTION OR

    MAKING A DECISION WHILST ANGRY... BECAUSE MOST OFTEN THAN NOT, THE ACTION/DECISION WOULD NOT ONLY BE WRONG, YOU ALSO MIGHT NEVER GET THE SECOND CHANCE TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
    HananAquarius HananAquarius 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    Blazie69 Blazie69 18-21, F 13 Responses 1 day ago

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    ThatOneN3rd ThatOneN3rd 16-17, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I had an relationship with "mamas boy" I wasn't

    sure about myself and I kept attracting guys like these and I still do attract the wrong people in my life but this time I know more and I'm thankful for this experience,it made me who I am today and I think about this as an book that I have already read and don't want to open...
    Nightowlbadmorning Nightowlbadmorning 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Struggling with having no friends.

    I try to do things alone but I would love to have someone always there a bestfriend maybe. Someone to laugh with and have nights out, and even to just talk or text regularly. And I always try to hide that I'm a loner. But it's really depressing. Grew up in foster care and got...
    ximperfectangel ximperfectangel 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 13

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    To Be Happy Is My Dream....

    Till now i was never been happy in my life because of my sensitive character. i never depend on external happiness... i want to be happy from internal, i just dont want a artificial smile on my face, i want a smile which comes from my heart.... am struggling to find my internal...
    vachya vachya 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    im wondering if there is

    such a thing behind rejection, ignorance, meaningless friendship.
    Gina1993 Gina1993 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I'm 26with two kids trying to find happiness

    other then my kids..Idk I guess looking for my soulmate.. but its hard to find someone that doesn't mind me having 2 kids..my friends tell me there's a guy out there for u while there hugged up on there man..and I'm thinking thanks and still feeling like the odd man out -_-
    swann89 swann89 26-30, F 10 Responses Apr 13

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    i ********** and take baths.

    that always makes me happy. 💙
    dammitjanit dammitjanit 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    today was such a great day.

    just because of the weather. it was dark cloudy and rainy. then like struggling happiness in the middle of a depressed storm the day brightens up and the bliss is absolute as the darkness creeps in slowly and the calm remains
    ember23 ember23 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Is Happiness That Elusive?

    Let me give this a try and see where it goes.  Life has been a bit of a downer for me lately.  Marriage on it's last legs.  Finances in a bad way due to an injury last November and no work since then.  I am a self employed artist so no worker's comp. ...
    dartist dartist 56-60, F 14 Responses Jun 13, 2008

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    Recently (well, 2 months ago) my ex left me

    for some unknown reason. At first I was extremely cheesed off (trying to keep this for all ages :P ), she wouldn't tell me why, wouldn't listen to anything I or anyone else said to her. All my efforts were for nothing. I lost my temper a bit (not physically, don't worry), But...
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 21

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    She has never felt so far away

    and I have never felt more alone, than tonight. I wish that I could find hope in something else, but I never have been able to. The loneliness is a weight that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I know there are others who have struggled parallel to this and even further...
    InsaneDane InsaneDane 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 12

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    I try to look happy and stuff

    but It's not working out. I feel like I'll never really be happy. I just gotta get out of this place .
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Try to ask yourself what is really important

    and then have the courage to build your life around your answer.
    cat20079 cat20079 36-40, M 6 Responses Feb 16

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    And I'm trying, which is actually going good.

    I'm trying to think as positive as I can and think as less as I can about negative things. It's been helping me cause I see that I barely feel depressed anymore and that I'm feeling good like almost all the time. Which I'm happy about cause I want to get rid of my depression...
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 16-17, F 1 Response May 23

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    Moreso within myself then maybe i can

    appreciate my on and off partner's love. Some say having children changes you but i feel like that will make a complex situation worse. Being happy within myself will be a really good start. I will find you happiness. I hope It doesnt take abother 30years
    Lolitta2014 Lolitta2014 26-30, F Apr 26

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    I put that I'm feeling happy in my status.

    I'm not. I feel strange. I don't know how I feel. When I try to explain my emotions, I can't find the right words. So I write stories about me and what my love could be like, my life. I don't know what to think anymore. I wish there was a mood for this. I feel.... different...
    edenwritesyoutube edenwritesyoutube 22-25, F 3 Responses May 7

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    When you low key fall super hard

    for someone... I met Emma about a month ago and we started taking, flirting, and hanging out.We both agreed that we didn't want a relationship at that point, because we had both recently gotten out of another relationship. Tuesday she told me that she didn't want to continue...
    leotaylor leotaylor 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I feel so hopeless trying to be happy.

    I know it's me. it's all in my head and i should be stronger. im not right now.
    bonmay2 bonmay2 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13

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    I have lived the most part of my life waiting

    for happiness to ...find me. But as you can guess, it didn't find me. In fact, it didn't even bother to look for me...lol For some years now, I have decided to make a change in my life. Got back in college to finish my degree, worked hard to reconcile with my wife, bought a...
    andy7rs andy7rs 31-35, M 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    hey im gay but not obvious pls no hate.

    i think im a lost soul trying to find my better half, i havent been in a romantic relationship for 21 years, yeah im single since birth. i dont know whats wrong. its scares me that i will grow old without someone beside me. currently im making my life progressive by working my...
    BuenRoed BuenRoed 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 25

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    "Must've been a place

    so dark, you couldn't feel the light reaching for you through that stormy cloud. Now here we are gathered in our little home town. This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd Why? That's what I keep askin'. Was there anything I could've said or done I had no clue you were...
    Jurnee16 Jurnee16 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I'm still looking in the wrong places.

    He just always seems to say the wrong things, whether it's an accident or purposefully, I just don't know anymore. I do all I can, and it never seems to be enough. I'm tired of feeling so dejected. The stretches of good times feel like a few days where he suppresses the need...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Hello guys. Since childhood,

    I have been a person that is easy to be made fun off. I have always been that isolated kid sitting on the last bench without really talking to anyone. I have always been good in academics. I scored cgpa 9.8 in class 10 and 82 % in class 12. Every now and then, I had a couple of...
    akhilnsec akhilnsec 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 17

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    My Ep Pals And The Happiness They Bring Into My Life...

    I want to make a thread where I and others can come in and post those treasured moments when you read something and  decide you totally adore the person who wrote it.  I want to go through my whole Friends list and add a  bit of what makes each one so special to me.  I'd love...
    sierra33 sierra33 31-35, F 26 Responses May 11, 2011

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    StevieOakley14 StevieOakley14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    its something i struggle on tbh ive been

    searching it for a very long time...I cant remember the last day where i was just happy for the sake of it...its been years of no natural happiness...just depressed all the time inside of me and i put on a fake happy when required around people and thats it
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate fakes.I have had women try to catfiish

    me,but i outsmarted them.Why cant people be real.
    dafalcon dafalcon 46-50, M 6 Responses May 11

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    Don't Try To Find Happiness, Build It.

    I have found that you don't FIND happiness, you actually have to make it. Get rid of things that block happiness and surround yourself with lots of good things. Those things can be friends, hobbies, lifestyle, the way you occupy your time and mind and many other things. Getting...
    TomWPB TomWPB 41-45, M 11 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    This wonderful person came into my life making

    it the happiest it has ever been. I have never felt so much happiness before. It felt so real and special. But then something tragic happened causing everything to just crumble around me. I felt emptier and quieter inside. I would have to fake a smile and pretend I'm alright...
    AndyL567 AndyL567 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    Just like every other human being I'm seeking

    Happiness, but for no apparent reason at all I'm actually Happy today, been laughing seen this morning like genuinely =). I didn't know it will be this good just like being a kid again, I just wish this is a good sign 1st day of the year. Wish I can share a bit of my Happiness...
    alx99 alx99 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2014

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    Blazie69 Blazie69 18-21, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Moving On From Personal Traumas

    my husband and i have had a very hard time the past couple years...physical injury, fire, surgery, death, all happened within a few months...it has been two years today since his sister passed away while visiting us in our home. She went to sleep on our couch, and did not wake up...
    NotHisBabydoll NotHisBabydoll 41-45, F 31 Responses Jan 10, 2012

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    Maybe "Find" Is the Wrong Word

    I forget the actual origin of my belief, but I remember being taught at some point that happiness is not something you can obtain. It's not a commodity that can be bought or bartered. It's not something you can win in a contest. It's not some kind of prize. Rather, it is...
    victorious victorious 26-30, M 1 Response May 10, 2007

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