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I Am Trying to Find Happiness

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    She has never felt so far away

    and I have never felt more alone, than tonight. I wish that I could find hope in something else, but I never have been able to. The loneliness is a weight that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I know there are others who have struggled parallel to this and even further...
    InsaneDane InsaneDane 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 12

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    i cut myself last night,

    i couldnt handle all the pressure, i broke.
    lollipoponastick lollipoponastick 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Hello guys. Since childhood,

    I have been a person that is easy to be made fun off. I have always been that isolated kid sitting on the last bench without really talking to anyone. I have always been good in academics. I scored cgpa 9.8 in class 10 and 82 % in class 12. Every now and then, I had a couple of...
    akhilnsec akhilnsec 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 17

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    Fear Of The Unknown ?

    Don't you ever get sick of being miserable ? Don't you ever get bored of being quiet , and blaming in your thoughs the injustice around you ...don't you ever get tired to hide your feelings between some words ? Does the light bothers you eyes yet ? It seems we never learn our...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 28, 2013

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    To Be Happy Is My Dream....

    Till now i was never been happy in my life because of my sensitive character. i never depend on external happiness... i want to be happy from internal, i just dont want a artificial smile on my face, i want a smile which comes from my heart.... am struggling to find my internal...
    vachya vachya 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    Skittleshite Skittleshite 70+, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Let's take a minute to talk about hope.

    There is no flawless "hope is" definition, in the chaos of lingual perceptions and the occasional religious involvement. Though I love the word hope, it is my second favourite word. (Second to pomegranate ^^,) I often drift on the concept of hope when I'm feeling down, and it...
    InsaneDane InsaneDane 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 1

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    Denial Helps Growth!

    Tis no good for all our wishes to be filled, Through sickness,  we recognize the value of health, Through evil the value of good. Through exertion, the value of rest.. Through wrongs, ours and others.. The value of forgiveness. author unk  ....... Blessed are...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M 1 Response May 15, 2007

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    Is Happiness That Elusive?

    Let me give this a try and see where it goes.  Life has been a bit of a downer for me lately.  Marriage on it's last legs.  Finances in a bad way due to an injury last November and no work since then.  I am a self employed artist so no worker's comp. ...
    dartist dartist 56-60, F 14 Responses Jun 13, 2008

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    I once found someone

    who made me so happy. until one day, he just kinda stopped talking to me and I was too scared to approach him because I belived he hated me.
    leahsindone leahsindone 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    If happiness was a choice,

    then i must have made the wrong one. I honestly do not remember what it feels like to be happy, what does happy look like? I don't know if there's something missing or if I have it all but it's actually not what I need in my life therefore making me unhappy and I just don't see...
    mystiquebeauty mystiquebeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 16, 2014

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    You Make Me Happy

    When I talk to you everything makes sense .  I  share, I am dying, I am reborn again.    It feels so good. It is better then sex. It always makes me happy even if I am left down below in the end. Maybe I am right or maybe I am wrong but I was able to say in my own special...
    Bolek Bolek 41-45, M May 12, 2012

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    What Is The Happiness??

    Im just and ordinary people, i come from the poor family, i know there is no reason why i was born at this family,,, cause there is a God will.. but why its me??? i try to found the answer for long time, until i meet someone, he is become from the rich family,, and i try to ask...
    kudaws kudaws 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    ...but I don't know where to look.

    Everything's up in the air, I don't have any solid ground to tread on. Looking at all that's going on around me, long lost friends finding happiness, getting hitched, leading successful careers; in the past I arrogantly thought I'd always trump them, that I would always come...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    aka10 aka10 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    The gun is loaded but it's not in my hand I'm

    trembling and shaking too much to hold it This monotony has nearly drained me You are in my heart but I am still lonely This need is all consuming hungry and gnawing I want to heat you up to boiling I want to shoot you up inject you into me I want you running through my...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    My Ep Pals And The Happiness They Bring Into My Life...

    I want to make a thread where I and others can come in and post those treasured moments when you read something and  decide you totally adore the person who wrote it.  I want to go through my whole Friends list and add a  bit of what makes each one so special to me.  I'd love...
    sierra33 sierra33 31-35, F 26 Responses May 11, 2011

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    Struggling with having no friends.

    I try to do things alone but I would love to have someone always there a bestfriend maybe. Someone to laugh with and have nights out, and even to just talk or text regularly. And I always try to hide that I'm a loner. But it's really depressing. Grew up in foster care and got...
    ximperfectangel ximperfectangel 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 13

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    When I was 5 years old,

    my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life....
    mariacutte mariacutte 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    I dont have many friends

    and none of them ever contact me. I'm trying to find more friends and happiness. My cat makes me smile he is always waiting at the door when i come home. I have joined a horticulture class one night a week. Its very interesting and I really enjoy it. I have started studying so...
    wawow wawow 26-30, F 5 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Even If I Never Will

    Things crumble to dust in front of my eyes, and I no longer care. My marriage which has pretty much been over for more than a year is in the end stages. All that is left is to see to my wife's health and my daughter's best interests.My wife has been suicadal and abusive. Lashing...
    TheHiker TheHiker 41-45, M 6 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    Is any one with me on finding true happiness

    feeling loved and cared for I cry my self to sleep every night having my love one next to me who has no idea how lonely I sad I feel
    Ivonna Ivonna 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    I dont remember the last time I was truly happy.

    I always have a smile on my face but 99.9% of the time it is a fake smile.
    cheybear96 cheybear96 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    Alitia Alitia 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    My most recent plan? Dust off the old Pema

    books and remind myself to stay present and not get spinning and spiraling out of control being afraid of the future. And at the end of the day, I want to lie back in bed and know i was kind, thoughtful, and present. And when I **** up, I want to be forgiving of myself. Sure...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M Jan 16

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    And someday, I will hope

    that my sadness will be replaced by something beautiful :)
    bR0k3nWings bR0k3nWings 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22, 2014

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    Don't Try To Find Happiness, Build It.

    I have found that you don't FIND happiness, you actually have to make it. Get rid of things that block happiness and surround yourself with lots of good things. Those things can be friends, hobbies, lifestyle, the way you occupy your time and mind and many other things. Getting...
    TomWPB TomWPB 41-45, M 11 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    is it too much too ask.

    ... For a nice talk, a friend, a company, a people who know and understand my condition?
    IszRichardson IszRichardson 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I have lived the most part of my life waiting

    for happiness to ...find me. But as you can guess, it didn't find me. In fact, it didn't even bother to look for me...lol For some years now, I have decided to make a change in my life. Got back in college to finish my degree, worked hard to reconcile with my wife, bought a...
    andy7rs andy7rs 31-35, M 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    My parents tell me I'm ugly

    because I'm fat. They say I won't ever get married because of that. Marriage is a big deal in my community and society, and I'm a disgrace to them. I have always loved myself despite the way I look; I have loved myself despite the mistakes I've made; I have loved myself despite...
    RH17 RH17 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    My dad shattered my happiness the day he made

    me feel like I was nothing when he was still my everything...
    desxo desxo 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    RESIST THE TEMPTATION OF TAKING ACTION OR

    MAKING A DECISION WHILST ANGRY... BECAUSE MOST OFTEN THAN NOT, THE ACTION/DECISION WOULD NOT ONLY BE WRONG, YOU ALSO MIGHT NEVER GET THE SECOND CHANCE TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
    HananAquarius HananAquarius 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    Happiness Always Ends With Sadness

    i am a simple guy who have simple dreams ..only think missing in my life is love..yeah u would say u will find one when the time come but i fall in love with wrong people who wlways hurt me and broke me apart.... i was quite happy 2 days back.. but my life dont like me too...
    hasank hasank 22-25, M 5 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    Moving On From Personal Traumas

    my husband and i have had a very hard time the past couple years...physical injury, fire, surgery, death, all happened within a few months...it has been two years today since his sister passed away while visiting us in our home. She went to sleep on our couch, and did not wake up...
    NotHisBabydoll NotHisBabydoll 41-45, F 32 Responses Jan 10, 2012

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    Two days ago, on my way to stock up my "life

    sustenance", I helped an old man who just had knee surgery, having a hard time crossing the street to his house. It was cold, snowing, bad neighborhood. He was holding his cane in one hand, two heavy bags in the other. Course I hesitated, girl + bad neighborhood = well, bad. I...
    Darnguyen Darnguyen 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 20

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    Just like every other human being I'm seeking

    Happiness, but for no apparent reason at all I'm actually Happy today, been laughing seen this morning like genuinely =). I didn't know it will be this good just like being a kid again, I just wish this is a good sign 1st day of the year. Wish I can share a bit of my Happiness...
    alx99 alx99 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2014

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    I realized yesterday

    that my relationship just cannot last, but I do I feel that I am stuck. My boyfriend and I met 2 years ago, at a club on my 19th birthday (legal age where I live). Prior to this night, I had never gone to night clubs, and had never been in a relationship, nor gone on a date...
    Realitymeetsbliss Realitymeetsbliss 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 7

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    You will NEVER gonna find happiness.

    Happiness is not a destination, it's a way if travel! So enjoy what you have, and work for what you want.
    Godom Godom 18-21, F Feb 19, 2014

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    Guys I think I've found happiness.

    Do you think it's harder to find happiness or keep happiness?
    naynay3306 naynay3306 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    Don't fight with a person

    who doesn't even deserve the honor of being your adversary.
    AlphaLion AlphaLion 22-25, M Feb 10

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    i ********** and take baths.

    that always makes me happy. 💙
    dammitjanit dammitjanit 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    lets be honest. we are not perfect.

    most of us is terrible. all we can do is just do things to fix ourself. but all have i learn the best you can do is just be kind and support each other.
    KevinAng KevinAng 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 10

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    I used to be 52 days clean of cutting.

    But last night I broke that. I can't seem to go very long without self harming. I can't be happy.
    letsrunawayyy letsrunawayyy 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    When someone walks out of your life,

    let them. They are just making more room for someone better to walk in!
    mssst mssst 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 9, 2014

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    The sheer stupidity of psychobabble

    and useless mind games that people work up to try to explain how to have peace of mind, happiness, or self worth. I still see it daily online. It led me into profound dismay and confusion. Shame on them all, and all the ridiculous books on positive thinking as well. I avoid it...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    This wonderful person came into my life making

    it the happiest it has ever been. I have never felt so much happiness before. It felt so real and special. But then something tragic happened causing everything to just crumble around me. I felt emptier and quieter inside. I would have to fake a smile and pretend I'm alright...
    AndyL567 AndyL567 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    i'm not sure if im depressed.

    I mean, I'm not sad. but im not exactly happy either. I can laugh and joke and smile during the day, but sometimes when im alone at night I forget how to feel.
    archerqueen archerqueen 26-30, F 1 Response