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I Am Trying to Find My Way Again

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    Played For A While, Lost It, Now It'S Slowly Coming Back

    I'm writing this to vent. Knowing that people are reading this is therapeutic. I think that's why a lot of us are here. I started playing guitar in high school. Mainly aggressive noise with a lot of distortion. "Noise" being the key word, as I was horrible. Mostly self taught...
    LawlessTranquility LawlessTranquility 26-30, M Feb 26, 2013

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    I'm Losing Interest In My Biggest Passion. Music :(

    I'm afraid I want to fill the void with something that will take up as much time, and something as meaningful as playing music used to mean. It's kinda heartbreaking knowing that I don't play much music anymore. I feel so hollow and am losing enthusiasm for something that used to...
    LawlessTranquility LawlessTranquility 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    May Not Be Much, But It's A Start

    I've been so darn reclusive over the last few years because I've been afraid. I've been hurt in the past and have withdrawn from society for the most part. I've recently been trying to do nice little things that I normally wouldn't do, just because, and I'm not acting upon...
    LawlessTranquility LawlessTranquility 26-30, M Nov 27, 2012

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    My Life Has Become Damaged

    I used to have tons of friends, relationships, and fun. Now, I'm stuck living in my uncle's living room. I don't know what the hell happened. Seems like everyone is fake. No one knows you when you're down. There is a lot more that I should add here, but I won't because I'm tired...
    LawlessTranquility LawlessTranquility 26-30, M Nov 26, 2012

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    Think I Found Him.

    it was kind of a magical night. i actually felt God's presence with me. it may sound crazy but i actually got to talk with him. didn't hear rhis voice but i am pretty sure i knew what he was saying.i still feel his preence when i am out of the house and i look at the beautiful...
    sayonaranow sayonaranow 18-21, F Nov 24, 2012

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    Feeling Like I Am Home Again...

    After the last two years of my life... now I feel like I 'm home again. Even though I've been in a physical way, a part of me was still struggling to feel that way, some parts of me are still missing, hope soon they can find their way to me. A very short engagement...
    watergirl07 watergirl07 41-45, F Dec 14, 2009

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    I'm Trying

    I'm trying,I need to find my way,Life's gone off the rails,Since the quake,That forced me out,Never been the same,Always feelin' lost,I'm sure,I've lost my way.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 27, 2012

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    Feeling Like I Am Home Again...

    After the last two years of my life... now I feel like I 'm home again. Even though I've been in a physical way, a part of me was still struggling to feel that way, some parts of me are still missing, hope soon they can find their way to me. A very short engagement...
    watergirl07 watergirl07 41-45, F Dec 14, 2009

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    Whether They've Been There As Support Or To Make My Life A Living Hell

    I've learned a lot. I've learned that everything does happen for a reason. I've learned that everyone I've met has helped me to grow and learn in some way, whether they've been there as support or to make my life a living hell, it still helped me learn. I've learned to just...
    MissJessicurr MissJessicurr 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Feeling Like I Am Home Again...

    After the last two years of my life... now I feel like I 'm home again. Even though I've been in a physical way, a part of me was still struggling to feel that way, some parts of me are still missing, hope soon they can find their way to me. A very short engagement...
    watergirl07 watergirl07 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2009

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    My Way Again

    Coo-coo-coo-coo ... here I am, passing through the tunnel, slow but surely.  :)
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Dec 4, 2011

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    Finally Trying

    So I am finally trying to get help for my depression and cutting. I finally actually want to get better. Now that I'm trying though I am realizing how difficult it really is. I started feeling depressed and cutting myself about a year ago. Up until about a month ago I didn't care...
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F Jan 13, 2011

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    Not So Easy, Is It

    I have been trying to better myself and find my path for some time now. I have suffered great losses and came back, i have seen terrible things and bounced back again. I am finding that to truly want to be a better person it has to come from deep within. You can't just wake up...
    AsherBlu89 AsherBlu89 22-25, F 1 Response May 19, 2013

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    So its been fcking months since I did this sh!t but few hours ago I cut again. Cut my wrist. Haven't cut since early march. Idk why just life again I think. 1 of those down days...
    OKPunk OKPunk 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    July 31. Letting Go of What We Want. "For those of us who have survived by controlling and surrendering, letting go may not come easily." —Beyond Codependency In recovery, we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 15 hrs ago

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    July 31. Letting Go of What We Want. "For those of us who have survived by controlling and surrendering, letting go may not come easily." —Beyond Codependency In recovery, we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 15 hrs ago

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    Without a doubt, I consider myself a feminist, or at the very least a feminist ally. This lens I apply is not only limited to criticism of my fellow man and woman, but to myself...
    InfluxOfQuestions InfluxOfQuestions 18-21, M 40 mins ago

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    ---WARNING: Venting piece, don't read if you don't want to--- I've realized that after 5 years of depression, I can't do this anymore. I can't. I'm done trying to hold onto a...
    00SecretGarden00 00SecretGarden00 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    4 years ago my heart was ripped out of my chest and left to settle under dust. the void that was left of where my heart used to be was a cold place spiraling with thoughts of...
    tealbeliefs tealbeliefs 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    July 27. Letting Go. Stop trying so hard to control things. It is not our job to control people, outcomes, circumstances, and life. Maybe in the past we couldn't trust and let...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    July 27. Letting Go. Stop trying so hard to control things. It is not our job to control people, outcomes, circumstances, and life. Maybe in the past we couldn't trust and let...
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    July 19. Proving It to Ourselves. "I spent a year trying to prove to my husband how much his drinking was hurting me. When I began to recover, I realized I was the one who needed...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 19

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    July 19. Proving It to Ourselves. "I spent a year trying to prove to my husband how much his drinking was hurting me. When I began to recover, I realized I was the one who needed...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 19

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    July 23. Making It Happen. Stop trying so hard to make it happen. Stop doing so much, if doing so much is wearing you out or not achieving the desired results. Stop thinking so...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 23

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    July 23. Making It Happen. Stop trying so hard to make it happen. Stop doing so much, if doing so much is wearing you out or not achieving the desired results. Stop thinking so...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 23

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    July 8. Going with the Flow. Go with the flow. Let go of fear and your need to control. Relinquish anxiety. Let it slip away, as you dive into the river of the present moment...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    July 8. Going with the Flow. Go with the flow. Let go of fear and your need to control. Relinquish anxiety. Let it slip away, as you dive into the river of the present moment...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 8

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    Well I'm trying to.. Was in an abusive relationship for years, started therapy a few years ago and am finally getting out. I have my days that I think I won't ever find my way but...
    ro01 ro01 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    up till school...everything was fine. i was a dumb kid though...after i went in college...things took a bad way...i was physically teased just because i did not respect the idiot...
    postNIRVANA postNIRVANA 18-21, M Jul 12

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    I thought she was a good woman....... Well that was her statement to me and claim to fame , but then again my last ex's claim to fame was that she was a faithful "never was a bad...
    nevets61 nevets61 51-55 Jul 22

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    I'm one of those people that never usually goes on these forums to pour my heart out as I usually internalise things and try to deal with it myself - this seems to be one of the...
    Liya2004 Liya2004 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    My log, July 9th, 2014 Sometimes i wonder, why am i here, trying to reach out to people...when they rarely ever reach back. I have had luck with one person, not even in EP, but in...
    Alexob13 Alexob13 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Im not ready to let go. These past few weeks have been very hard for me. My mom is very sick and she has been sick since february 2013 that when we found out she had copd she has...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    For the past few weeks, I had been doing a little "me" time thinking things over and being preoccupied with work. It was during my break time at work that I try to log in here just...
    charmee26 charmee26 31-35, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    July 30. Accepting Powerlessness. Since I've been a child, I've been in an antagonistic relationship with an important emotional part of myself: my feelings. I have consistently...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    July 30. Accepting Powerlessness. Since I've been a child, I've been in an antagonistic relationship with an important emotional part of myself: my feelings. I have consistently...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    I explained in my previous stories, along with steps and resources, that my husband and I attend a monthly marriage support group for marriages that have run into trouble. This...
    lillynfriends lillynfriends 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I came to the United States when I was 21 years old. I grew up in Sweden, a country known mainly for its socioeconomic policies and prosperous people. Marijuana is considered a...
    whrskrlo whrskrlo 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Losing weight is hard! I lost a lot weight lost summer and sadly I gained it back this summer. I'm trying again to lose the weight and keep it off. I been finding it hard to keep...
    Idreamtowaketofindthefate Idreamtowaketofindthefate 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 9

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    I know that its probably too early for me to want this, or even think that this is possible, but I can't help wondering. I mean my marriage wasn't always bad. I had what I felt was...
    MelMel68 MelMel68 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    My husband and I have been together for 11 years, married for 9. We have 3 children (elementary school age) and I've been a good wife. No, a GREAT wife. By his own admission. He...
    proulxfam proulxfam 31-35 1 Response Jul 23

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    But I can't! Just recently a woman messaged me on Facebook claiming that my boyfriend or ex-boyfriend I guess have been texting each other/sleeping with each other for about 1-2...
    madusand madusand 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So recently my friend killed himself, and he had a few friends on EP. But everything he has is locked up extremely well. His name was Marshall. (His account name was Marshallman90...
    sh3lf1sh sh3lf1sh 13-15, M 11 hrs ago

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    Usually because the quote means something to me personally. The quote at the moment that echoes in my head like a wonderful sound that you replay over and over again despite it...
    MindvsHeartAJ MindvsHeartAJ 18-21, T Jul 12

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    July 15. Self-care with Family Members. "I was thirty- five years old the first time I spoke up to my mother and refused to buy into her games and manipulation. I was terribly...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 15

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    July 15. Self-care with Family Members. "I was thirty- five years old the first time I spoke up to my mother and refused to buy into her games and manipulation. I was terribly...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I have no self-discipline I find it really hard to stay away from chocolate, sweets, biscuits, ice cream, cake. I have decided to do without those things in the week and eat what...
    jellybean113 jellybean113 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    My ex finally texted me back, but not in the way I wanted. She didn't answer my question about if she misses me. And I got mad cuz this kid keep making fun of me for caring about...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 17