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I Am Trying to Find Myself Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 155 People

    Life Is Short and I Don't Want to Be a Loser

    I am trying to find myself after years of taking care of everyone else. I have no hobbies, interests, activities or close friends. I have been a wife and a mother for the past 20 years. I have worked during that time, but never found time to nurture my friendships or when I did...
    losermomwife losermomwife 41-45 4 Responses Nov 13, 2008

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    Me???

    I have lost me. I don't know where and I'm not sure when. I'm not the same happy go lucky person I once was. I can't take the slings and arrows of life like I once did. Hell lately I don't know who I am. I'm not the fun-loving, flirty, upbeat person that I was not so...
    lonesomeloser66 lonesomeloser66 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 25, 2009

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    Reflective Glass

    I did find myself. I was right where I left me. So, without giving it too much thought, I went to run some errands. You know, it is just like me to do things. While I was on my way out the door, I distinctly remember seeing myself in the bathroom last. Knowing that when...
    EricS EricS 31-35, M 21 Responses Dec 29, 2008

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    I Am Learning How to Be "Me" Without "Him."

    Last October, I broke up with my high school sweetheart. We had been together for two years - always together, even though my mother disapproved of the relationship and forbade me from seeing him. I lost a lot because of him. I was in love. I foolishly tied my...
    Chassant Chassant 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2009

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    Working Everyday (Somewhat)

    I have dreams secrets and goals I am trying to work on all of them everyday I cant get the thoughts out of my head of how or will I accomplish my goals but I just cant get motivated to do them I plan and say I'm going to work today but it doesn't work out. Tomorrow it will work...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

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    Living With Depression

    Child abuse and being molested ( @ 6 years old) has caused major depression in my life (now 60) I am trying to find myself again as well I spent about 2 million dollars helping people to try and make friends and to pull myself out of my pity party This didn't work after 30 years...
    whatswrongwith whatswrongwith 56-60 1 Response Jun 17, 2013

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    I'm Trying

    I'm trying,Yes to find myself,Lost again,If I don't turn up,Please,Send a search party!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 28, 2012

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    I Hate This Man

    Almost 3 years ago, I decided to give myself a chance in a relationship. I had suffered a terrible heartbreak from the man I loved with all my heart. I fell in lust with a beautiful man that listened to me encouraged me and made me feel like the beautiful woman that I am. ...
    BrownEyes727 BrownEyes727 22-25 1 Response Feb 22, 2009

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    I remind myself I was never lost in the first place. Like that song. Didnt know I was lost... When do we lose ourselves? Do we really? or just learning and wanting more means we...
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    I don't know if he loves me. Could be some. I know it's not enough. Not enough to care if he hurts me, alienates me, drives me away. I think it's sad. I'm confused by the person he...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F Feb 17

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    It's so weird to feel so sure of your way, yet so lost at the same time. I am pretty young, yet I know exactly what I want to do and where I want to go in the future. I've planned...
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    Not trying hard enough.. I lost my resilience when I lost myself.
    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F Feb 13

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    My house was wrecked, the storm was over... I hated myself from allowing it to happen.  It was too much that I can bear, I went catatonic.Yet, I managed to walk past the...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 15

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    Ah, it's quiet. All ready for bed but not quite yet. Needed to sit in the quiet and let the thoughts roam some first. Bundled up in my I-apparently-live-in-the-arctic jammies...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    We rent out a couple of rooms in our house to make a little extra money, yesterday I thought I had the place to myself so I was wearing a bra and panties and just a dressing gown...
    LibbyLee LibbyLee 56-60, T 13 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm a compulsive liar and this I do very well and have been one from a very young age. I'm now 24 and this has cost me a lot, my relationship of 3 years my close friends, my job...
    Mohau Mohau 22-25, M 21 hrs ago

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    I tried writing this experience once but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    It's a complicated thing, trying to find yourself. Unsure of what you need to do to figure it all out, trying to separate yourself from everything and really decide what you need...
    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    I wish I could look in the mirror and love what I see. To be able to shop without getting depressed. To feel worth something and beautiful. But as much as I want that I find myself...
    Starvin9Artist1 Starvin9Artist1 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 8

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    Odd situation I find myself in. Focus on your happiness, I say. And so I have. It is rich and true and I feel grounded in the realest sense once more. Like I could never be...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F Feb 8

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    SpencerUK SpencerUK 16-17, M 5 Responses Feb 9

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    I've never had much in life, just the temporary company of a few valuable friends that slowly drifted away within time and well, my small family. I hardly, rarely find myself truly...
    WarriorLEHP WarriorLEHP 18-21, F Feb 11

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    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 25

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    My boyfriend cheated. We have been together now for 2 years and 2 months, however last year In May, he cheated on me. I was absolutely heartbroken, but this is what happened. So...
    DAHSIENEK DAHSIENEK 22-25, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    My brother and I just had an argument. He sucks at arguing because of how he drags the focus of the argument to other things. Things like me. He constantly insults me for being...
    DrowningInRed DrowningInRed 13-15, F 6 Responses Feb 13

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    I honestly find myself very ugly. I am not at my idea weight. I feel like I break out to much. yet this school year 5 people have told me they find me attractive. two of my guy...
    iwouldntmind iwouldntmind 16-17, F Feb 15

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    I had to start over nearly 3 years ago after leaving my marriage of 23 years. I've managed to get the material things I need like House, Job etc, but I can't help but feel I have...
    T1ggy67 T1ggy67 46-50, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think it started with my home life. My sister called me a **** for wanting to wear a skirt to school. My dad called me a pig at age 5 because I left a plate on the table. My mom...
    semirelatableteen semirelatableteen 13-15, F Feb 10

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    Thinking its time to turn my life around, not going to lie I struggle everyday, and I know at this point the only thing that will change the path Im on is, turning to God, Im not...
    Shananigins Shananigins 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    I was told I need to prove myself. I admit at this stage in my life I again have hit bottom and filled myself with depression as BPD has raised its ugly head again but in my life...
    wickedone72 wickedone72 41-45, F 7 hrs ago

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    Again and again I just stare. I look past the glare. I look pass the superficial beauty. deep into my heart, and my duty? I am just as ugly and rotten as my heart. I try to find...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Its true, I've always had a bit of a self esteem issue....and can be quite critical of myself, with the last serious relationship I had....my ex boyfriend said I was the ideal...
    sexygirl39 sexygirl39 41-45, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    yesterday my band teacher, fagner, was trying to get us to pit more emotion into our music. ive gotten to where i don't show anything anymore. he then went on to say that bad...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 6 hrs ago

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    yesterday my band teacher, fagner, was trying to get us to pit more emotion into our music. ive gotten to where i don't show anything anymore. he then went on to say that bad...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 6 hrs ago

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