I Am Trying to Find Myself Again

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    when you're fighting

    for something and then suddenly u begin to realize that ur fighting for nothing and then everything becomes meaningless lifeless dull and u start to drift back into that dark void , sucking life out of your system like a black hole -JL
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 12, 2015

    Living With Depression

    Child abuse and being molested ( @ 6 years old) has caused major depression in my life (now 60) I am trying to find myself again as well I spent about 2 million dollars helping people to try and make friends and to pull myself out of my pity party This didn't work after 30 years...
    whatswrongwith whatswrongwith
    61-65
    1 Response Jun 17, 2013

    Reflective Glass

    I did find myself. I was right where I left me. So, without giving it too much thought, I went to run some errands. You know, it is just like me to do things. While I was on my way out the door, I distinctly remember seeing myself in the bathroom last. Knowing that when...
    EricS EricS
    31-35, M
    21 Responses Dec 29, 2008

    Working Everyday (Somewhat)

    I have dreams secrets and goals I am trying to work on all of them everyday I cant get the thoughts out of my head of how or will I accomplish my goals but I just cant get motivated to do them I plan and say I'm going to work today but it doesn't work out. Tomorrow it will work...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

    I'm Trying

    I'm trying,Yes to find myself,Lost again,If I don't turn up,Please,Send a search party!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 28, 2012

    Me???

    I have lost me. I don't know where and I'm not sure when. I'm not the same happy go lucky person I once was. I can't take the slings and arrows of life like I once did. Hell lately I don't know who I am. I'm not the fun-loving, flirty, upbeat person that I was not so...
    lonesomeloser66 lonesomeloser66
    41-45, M
    5 Responses Dec 25, 2009

    I Am Learning How to Be "Me" Without "Him."

    Last October, I broke up with my high school sweetheart. We had been together for two years - always together, even though my mother disapproved of the relationship and forbade me from seeing him. I lost a lot because of him. I was in love. I foolishly tied my...
    Chassant Chassant
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 18, 2009

    Life Is Short and I Don't Want to Be a Loser

    I am trying to find myself after years of taking care of everyone else. I have no hobbies, interests, activities or close friends. I have been a wife and a mother for the past 20 years. I have worked during that time, but never found time to nurture my friendships or when I did...
    losermomwife losermomwife
    41-45
    4 Responses Nov 13, 2008

    I Hate This Man

    Almost 3 years ago, I decided to give myself a chance in a relationship. I had suffered a terrible heartbreak from the man I loved with all my heart. I fell in lust with a beautiful man that listened to me encouraged me and made me feel like the beautiful woman that I am. ...
    BrownEyes727 BrownEyes727
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    1 Response Feb 22, 2009

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