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I Am Trying to Find Myself

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    Inspiration From Ep, I Identified

    This is the dark thick coastal form, from where my waves are trying to come outside with mystical strength and love but it is the hurdle!But I would have tht clear watery being inside me tht is ready to flow with full energy towards skies..I know there are treasures inside but I...
    sunshines333 sunshines333 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    I find my writings stiff

    and rigid. I sense a connection between my uptight writing and a general lack of belief in myself, which translates into restricting my expressions emotions :/ Even this sentence has become much more mechanical that what I would like to. Sigh...
    Naatoor Naatoor 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    I am trying to find myself,

    & men keep getting in the way. I'm to blame just as much as any of them. And some have been nothing but a friend. But I'm only talking to women today. I need some space.
    SaundraMae SaundraMae 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2015

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    I'm finding it quite hard

    and I'm not sure why.
    yennafur yennafur 26-30, F Sep 14, 2014

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    I might be wrong about what I believe today,

    10 years from now. My ideas and conclusions might differ or develop from what is, today. But today, I'll decide on the basis of my present set of knowledge and circumstances. And in this moment, I am right and that is all that matters.
    kasiyat kasiyat 26-30, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    If you follow my posts,

    you'll know that I've been curious about polyamory lately. I love another man besides my husband. I like to flirt. I have my favorite guy on here. But I also have a fairly decent relationship with my husband. I've been thinking today about why? Why do I crave this attention...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 8, 2015

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    EP is a great way to get to know myself.

    In the spirit of anonymity I get to remove my social filters & really be me. I guess we're never too old to surprise ourselves!
    Elayla Elayla 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 19, 2014

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    I don't really understand myself.

    I don't really feel like there is much motivation for me being here, but at the same time I know I'll never off myself. I'm just super confused, and it feels like I'm just endlessly walking through a big pile mud; not necessarily a bad thing, but not very interesting either...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    Well I'm trying to get back to my roots.

    Meaning my old self. Who I use to be. Trying to change things so I might post a lot of personal things here now. Wow reminds me of when I first joined this site again(2015) around this time. Anywho I'm feeling a little motivated. Hyped up, reasons being too personal but it...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 70+, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I am 16. I have had a pretty unstable life Bc

    of family. Due to that I believe I matured a little faster, which could be good and bad. As of right now I'm living with my dad who is rarely home and has a drinking problem. His other two kids r moving in soon. The problem is that my dad already has trouble taking care of me...
    AleaD5 AleaD5 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2015

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    I don't feel I know myself well enough

    and I sometimes question my own mind set. I would like to figure out who I am so I can become more comfortable with myself.
    Mercalyz Mercalyz 18-21, M Oct 13, 2015

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    It's odd but I have found myself

    but it's hard finding ways to express the bits of me left but I'm giving it a shot and to some manner it's working
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 20, 2015

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    Im 22 and confused out of my mind.

    Im scared to make all the desicions that will impact my life. Im terrified about my future and what I want to do, who I want to be. Im stuck and confused with pressure from my family to hurry up and figure it all out. Im just so confused.
    DenSan DenSan 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2014

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    I lost myself while trying to make everyone

    happy now I'm losing everyone while trying to find myself.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 4 Responses Jun 26, 2015

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    Who, What, Where am I

    I look in front of me, behind meand even at my shadow. I am a stranger to myself.  I know others around me better than I now me. I am trying to resolve this mystery about who I am, what I am and where I am. I go to my analytical brain and look at myself in mirror of...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 12, 2012

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    So...yesterday I took my bike

    and went for a "tour" around my home town , a lot of flashbacks come from that place, mostly traumatic ones, I found myself admiring and feeling like an old man thinking " Oh this place is different, I've learned how to play soccer here, made my first friends...wonder where are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 2

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    My college buddy. I think it all started with

    my college buddy... Falling in love with him presented a challenge to my rigid beliefs & reawakened the adventurous spirit in me. The event of him walking into my life again kick-started this journey of trying to figure out who I am, what I believe, & what I need to be happy. I...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2015

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    I am going through a lot right now.

    Trying to figure out who I am, what I believe, how to express myself, how to be comfortable in my own skin, & how to do all that without screwing up my marriage. He's a good guy. I love him a lot. But I need more avenues of self expression. I need more excitement! Of course I...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 25, 2015

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    You can only push yourself

    so hard until everything ends up collapsed. Being pulled back and forth, it's like you have no control. In reality, there's a way out of every problem.
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F Apr 19, 2015

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    It took my mom 2years to finally let me be me.

    I'm changing universities and cites . I'm so excited for my fresh start and in a coastal city far from home. I'm happy :)
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711 18-21, F Mar 8, 2015

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    Call it a mid-life crisis,

    but really I've been going through this for a while. If I could, I would pack a few things and go on an "eat, pray, love" journey to find "me" again. I'm not a religious person, but more spiritual...and I'm a foodie...the love aspect would definitely be interesting as well. I...
    W4W2 W4W2 46-50, F 24 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I am trying to forget things

    which are hurting me..i just can't. Throughout the whole day i've been thinking about the same thing, i wanna forget it all but i failed. And i think falling asleep make this easier to forget these things
    Elaina12 Elaina12 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

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    Wondering why we crave approval,

    love, acceptance and appreciation from others when we can generate all of these within... Soliciting answers... (Why I didn't post it as a question... Because I really don't think it will target appropriate audience.)
    kasiyat kasiyat 26-30, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I am trying to be happy

    but find myself being glum. I want to start going out with friend's, going out on dates, and just live life to it's fullest. Being an introvert that has just broke up with his girlfriend of fifteen years makes me want to crawl in a shell and disappear. I just want to feel normal...
    Encontrados Encontrados 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    Onmymind1976

    I joined this so I could type out my frustrations... but now find myself speechless. lol... i lost myself in my marriage. I was Mom, & wife. But there was no Me left. So now im learning ab out myself again, but still being a mom. THat is difficult, when im struggling to make ends...
    Onmymind1976 Onmymind1976 36-40, F 4 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    Sometimes I Think Who Cares?

    I feel like I've been trying to find myself forever, sometimes I think who cares.  I may never know and I wonder if that's such a bad thing.  I have so much going on in my life that sometimes I just don't have the energy to try and figure it out.
    keyna keyna 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 28, 2008

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    we will never find ourselves,

    only in bits in pieces... and I say this because as we age we gain knowledge and wisdom which helps us find out more about ourselves..
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26, 2015

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    I can't figure myself out.

    I spent months focusing on getting out of a really bad relationship, my mind was constantly thinking of what it would be like to be by myself again, and ways to get away from this terrible person. I broke up with her in September, and now everything is said and done, I'm back in...
    Ag0405 Ag0405 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    AfterFall AfterFall 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 19, 2015

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    I don't think I know

    who I am. I don't love myself like I'm suppose to because I have insecurities about myself. I don't like my size and I wish I was prettier. I wish I looked my age and not younger. I wish I was thicker than I am. but its hard for me to make decisions and I can't figure out where...
    jenniebaez1992 jenniebaez1992 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2015

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    Kimberlee123 Kimberlee123 41-45, F Jan 26, 2015

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    I've succeeded!! I'm a male with a penchant

    for all things feminine. I'm finally at peace with myself. It's a wonderful feeling. It was a long time coming. I've never been happier!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 18, 2015

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    I'm 20 years old, I'm trying to find

    who am I. I'm trying to find my personality. trying to build my own empire.
    ihatepeople2015 ihatepeople2015 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 16, 2015

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    I thought I did, a few times.

    Then another door opens. Then another one closes, and you can never find your way back there again. And those damn trap doors, they get you if you're not careful! But even if you're stuck down there a bit long, there's always something interesting to find down in the cellar...
    Tinboxdoll Tinboxdoll 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Who am I? Why do I belong here?

    Everything I say is weird, When I say something no one knows how to respond to it back and everything I do I am still alone. I feel like a ******* robot sometimes.
    YourSecretAdmire22 YourSecretAdmire22 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 26, 2015

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    mirror mirror on the wall why are you

    so deceptive? you used to show a promising, confident, vibrant young man. why have you morphed your reflection into the monster you reveal me to be? but can one be a monster if one no longer exists? **** it. *breaks mirror, leaves the self behind*
    beaubeau7 beaubeau7 22-25, M Jan 4

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    Don't know why but i've always been attracted

    by weird things to other people. Like Domination / Submission, feet, leather, latex... Very ashamed to talk about it with people i know so i don't do it and it ruins my mental... Don't know what to do about all these stuff that i enjoy secretly...
    ScummyGuy ScummyGuy 22-25, M Apr 19, 2015

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    I find everything confusing.

    My boyfriend cheated, lied and got overly possessive. I finally left him but can't seem to move on with life. I guess I still love him at times and then hate him for what he did to me. He was the only person I was so very attached to. And he came out with colors I never thought...
    HeldonWhite HeldonWhite 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2015

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    I have stepped outside of my comfort zone.

    I left all my friends and family and moved to another country. Now that I am away from all that is familiar to me I realize how much of my life was spent living for them and not for myself. So much so that I don't really know who I am. I am now going through this process of...
    elitetb elitetb 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    Sometimes being me just confuses me

    and at time I dont understand myself.Im trying really hard to find myself who I really am.
    Branty Branty 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2015

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    Im just all over the place right now.

    I recently divorce And now im trying to find my happiness and figure out what will truely make me happy as far as moving to a new state and continuing college or moving on to a new major to study.Im trying to restructure my life and my career goals. Its even more tough trying to...
    consciousQueenRBG consciousQueenRBG 26-30, F Sep 9, 2014

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    Still Lost

    i have a secret that i have been keeping in my entire life and i am looking for some answers to my questions....but still no luck, i am still stuck in the middle and still not moving forward... how should i overcome it????
    maynee maynee 18-21, F 13 Responses Oct 14, 2010

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    Where Has She Gone?

    I have been on a self journey now for about 2 1/2 years. The day I left my ex-husband was the cusp of that journey....but even before I had begun a transformation that was needed and wanted for a long time. I too, like many other men and women in relationships, lost the person I...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM 36-40, F 5 Responses Jun 6, 2009

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    arabella1108 arabella1108 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2014

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    life asked death, "why do people love me

    but hate you?" death responded "because you are a beautiful lie and I am the painful truth.."
    cheyseason cheyseason 13-15, F Mar 19, 2015

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