I Am Trying to Find Myself

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    Im just all over the place right now.

    I recently divorce And now im trying to find my happiness and figure out what will truely make me happy as far as moving to a new state and continuing college or moving on to a new major to study.Im trying to restructure my life and my career goals. Its even more tough trying to...
    consciousQueenRBG consciousQueenRBG
    26-30, F
    Sep 9, 2014

    I am 16. I have had a pretty unstable life Bc

    of family. Due to that I believe I matured a little faster, which could be good and bad. As of right now I'm living with my dad who is rarely home and has a drinking problem. His other two kids r moving in soon. The problem is that my dad already has trouble taking care of me...
    AleaD5 AleaD5
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2015

    Don't know why but i've always been attracted

    by weird things to other people. Like Domination / Submission, feet, leather, latex... Very ashamed to talk about it with people i know so i don't do it and it ruins my mental... Don't know what to do about all these stuff that i enjoy secretly...
    ScummyGuy ScummyGuy
    22-25, M
    Apr 19, 2015

    It took my mom 2years to finally let me be me.

    I'm changing universities and cites . I'm so excited for my fresh start and in a coastal city far from home. I'm happy :)
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711
    18-21, F
    Mar 8, 2015

    I am trying to find myself,

    & men keep getting in the way. I'm to blame just as much as any of them. And some have been nothing but a friend. But I'm only talking to women today. I need some space.
    SaundraMae SaundraMae
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 26, 2015

    You can only push yourself

    so hard until everything ends up collapsed. Being pulled back and forth, it's like you have no control. In reality, there's a way out of every problem.
    Kkgunny Kkgunny
    18-21, F
    Apr 19, 2015
    iloste iloste
    18-21, M
    Apr 20, 2015

    Call it a mid-life crisis,

    but really I've been going through this for a while. If I could, I would pack a few things and go on an "eat, pray, love" journey to find "me" again. I'm not a religious person, but more spiritual...and I'm a foodie...the love aspect would definitely be interesting as well. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    21 Responses May 30, 2014

    The Mask We Wear

    Every one I know wears a mask from time to time. Perhaps it's human nature not to expose ourselves to people around us. My mask comes with me every place I go. Not many know the real me. I don't even want anyone to know the mixed-up crazy me. Yesterday, I went to church and wore...
    keeva keeva
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 17, 2012

    I lost myself while trying to make everyone

    happy now I'm losing everyone while trying to find myself.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Jun 26, 2015

    I find everything confusing.

    My boyfriend cheated, lied and got overly possessive. I finally left him but can't seem to move on with life. I guess I still love him at times and then hate him for what he did to me. He was the only person I was so very attached to. And he came out with colors I never thought...
    HeldonWhite HeldonWhite
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2015

    It's odd but I have found myself

    but it's hard finding ways to express the bits of me left but I'm giving it a shot and to some manner it's working
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 20, 2015

    I think we are mistaken in trying to find

    ourselves, by ourselves. I have been feeling adrift. I was drowning in darkness. I had thoughts that horrified myself. I have been isolating myself from others for the past few days, just trying to find my way. Day by day, I felt even more lost than before. I felt even more...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 1

    Sometimes being me just confuses me

    and at time I dont understand myself.Im trying really hard to find myself who I really am.
    Branty Branty
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 5, 2015

    We entangle ourselves in knots of our own making

    and struggle, lonely and confused.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 17, 2015

    Who, What, Where am I

    I look in front of me, behind meand even at my shadow. I am a stranger to myself.  I know others around me better than I now me. I am trying to resolve this mystery about who I am, what I am and where I am. I go to my analytical brain and look at myself in mirror of...
    keeva keeva
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2012

    Still Lost

    i have a secret that i have been keeping in my entire life and i am looking for some answers to my questions....but still no luck, i am still stuck in the middle and still not moving forward... how should i overcome it????
    maynee maynee
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Oct 14, 2010
    arabella1108 arabella1108
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2014

    It happens bit by bit.

    I get excited when I rediscover old passions and hobbies and get that old contented feeling. I get even more excited when I discover something new to do, or even a variation on a theme. I suppose a bucket list helps moderate this. I could die today and be ok with it, I mean, I...
    ZigNamaste ZigNamaste
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Dec 2, 2014

    I'm finding it quite hard

    and I'm not sure why.
    yennafur yennafur
    26-30, F
    Sep 14, 2014

    Honestly, I'm finding it difficult to be myself

    right now. Trying to find myself is a battle that I'm tired of fighting. Where is that person who could always find a sliver of positivity even at my lowest point? I find myself not even bothering to try nowadays. It's just too tiring. I am just going to stay lost for a while...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 20

    mirror mirror on the wall why are you

    so deceptive? you used to show a promising, confident, vibrant young man. why have you morphed your reflection into the monster you reveal me to be? but can one be a monster if one no longer exists? **** it. *breaks mirror, leaves the self behind*
    beaubeau7 beaubeau7
    22-25, M
    Jan 4

    Who am I? Why do I belong here?

    Everything I say is weird, When I say something no one knows how to respond to it back and everything I do I am still alone. I feel like a ******* robot sometimes.
    YourSecretAdmire22 YourSecretAdmire22
    22-25, M
    Jun 26, 2015

    I've succeeded!! I'm a male with a penchant

    for all things feminine. I'm finally at peace with myself. It's a wonderful feeling. It was a long time coming. I've never been happier!!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 18, 2015

    EP is a great way to get to know myself.

    In the spirit of anonymity I get to remove my social filters & really be me. I guess we're never too old to surprise ourselves!
    Elayla Elayla
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2014

    Onmymind1976

    I joined this so I could type out my frustrations... but now find myself speechless. lol... i lost myself in my marriage. I was Mom, & wife. But there was no Me left. So now im learning ab out myself again, but still being a mom. THat is difficult, when im struggling to make ends...
    Onmymind1976 Onmymind1976
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Nov 1, 2012

    I don't think I know

    who I am. I don't love myself like I'm suppose to because I have insecurities about myself. I don't like my size and I wish I was prettier. I wish I looked my age and not younger. I wish I was thicker than I am. but its hard for me to make decisions and I can't figure out where...
    jenniebaez1992 jenniebaez1992
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2015

    life asked death, "why do people love me

    but hate you?" death responded "because you are a beautiful lie and I am the painful truth.."
    cheyseason cheyseason
    13-15, F
    Mar 19, 2015
    AfterFall AfterFall
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2015

    Im 22 and confused out of my mind.

    Im scared to make all the desicions that will impact my life. Im terrified about my future and what I want to do, who I want to be. Im stuck and confused with pressure from my family to hurry up and figure it all out. Im just so confused.
    DenSan DenSan
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2014

    I don't think there was a point in my life

    that I was satisfied with what I was or who I was. So I am constantly trying to find myself.
    bekagath bekagath
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 11

    I am trying to be happy

    but find myself being glum. I want to start going out with friend's, going out on dates, and just live life to it's fullest. Being an introvert that has just broke up with his girlfriend of fifteen years makes me want to crawl in a shell and disappear. I just want to feel normal...
    Encontrados Encontrados
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jun 12, 2014

    Sometimes I Think Who Cares?

    I feel like I've been trying to find myself forever, sometimes I think who cares.  I may never know and I wonder if that's such a bad thing.  I have so much going on in my life that sometimes I just don't have the energy to try and figure it out.
    keyna keyna
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Mar 28, 2008

    I can't figure myself out.

    I spent months focusing on getting out of a really bad relationship, my mind was constantly thinking of what it would be like to be by myself again, and ways to get away from this terrible person. I broke up with her in September, and now everything is said and done, I'm back in...
    Ag0405 Ag0405
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 2, 2014

    I'm 20 years old, I'm trying to find

    who am I. I'm trying to find my personality. trying to build my own empire.
    ihatepeople2015 ihatepeople2015
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2015

    Hello EP, In the past I have had some pretty

    grim posts and my mental health/circumstances didn't help. For the past couple of years It has been tough from homelessness to bedbugs to homelessness again. Now I'm here and I am taking it day by day. My real turning point was when my significant other who is still a member...
    ChocolateSauce ChocolateSauce
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Feb 28

    Dont know when it started.

    I had become an emotional nightmare over the last year or so. I know it started when I just started to cry over all kinds of family deaths. Not when they died but just in the last year. For most of my life I was never to cry, beat into me as a kid that real men dont cry. But one...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 8

    we will never find ourselves,

    only in bits in pieces... and I say this because as we age we gain knowledge and wisdom which helps us find out more about ourselves..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    I am going through a lot right now.

    Trying to figure out who I am, what I believe, how to express myself, how to be comfortable in my own skin, & how to do all that without screwing up my marriage. He's a good guy. I love him a lot. But I need more avenues of self expression. I need more excitement! Of course I...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Apr 25, 2015

    I am trying to forget things

    which are hurting me..i just can't. Throughout the whole day i've been thinking about the same thing, i wanna forget it all but i failed. And i think falling asleep make this easier to forget these things
    Elaina12 Elaina12
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

    Well I'm trying to get back to my roots.

    Meaning my old self. Who I use to be. Trying to change things so I might post a lot of personal things here now. Wow reminds me of when I first joined this site again(2015) around this time. Anywho I'm feeling a little motivated. Hyped up, reasons being too personal but it...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    Jan 16

    So...yesterday I took my bike

    and went for a "tour" around my home town , a lot of flashbacks come from that place, mostly traumatic ones, I found myself admiring and feeling like an old man thinking " Oh this place is different, I've learned how to play soccer here, made my first friends...wonder where are...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 2

    I don't really understand myself.

    I don't really feel like there is much motivation for me being here, but at the same time I know I'll never off myself. I'm just super confused, and it feels like I'm just endlessly walking through a big pile mud; not necessarily a bad thing, but not very interesting either...
    dabram71 dabram71
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

    My college buddy. I think it all started with

    my college buddy... Falling in love with him presented a challenge to my rigid beliefs & reawakened the adventurous spirit in me. The event of him walking into my life again kick-started this journey of trying to figure out who I am, what I believe, & what I need to be happy. I...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 5, 2015

    If you follow my posts,

    you'll know that I've been curious about polyamory lately. I love another man besides my husband. I like to flirt. I have my favorite guy on here. But I also have a fairly decent relationship with my husband. I've been thinking today about why? Why do I crave this attention...
    SaundraMae SaundraMae
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jun 8, 2015

    Where Has She Gone?

    I have been on a self journey now for about 2 1/2 years. The day I left my ex-husband was the cusp of that journey....but even before I had begun a transformation that was needed and wanted for a long time. I too, like many other men and women in relationships, lost the person I...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Jun 6, 2009

    I have stepped outside of my comfort zone.

    I left all my friends and family and moved to another country. Now that I am away from all that is familiar to me I realize how much of my life was spent living for them and not for myself. So much so that I don't really know who I am. I am now going through this process of...
    elitetb elitetb
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2014
    Kimberlee123 Kimberlee123
    41-45, F
    Jan 26, 2015

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