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I Am Used To Doing Everything Alone

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    No Family

    After the police found out that my father had been hitting me, I was put into foster care. That happened when I was 10. All of my foster parents gave up on me. They all said I was too rebelious and out of control. What did they expect? I was beaten and bullied my whole life. They...
    MayaMitchell MayaMitchell 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2013

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    Did Not Use To Be That Way

    it use to be my GF then wife very young was right beside me help if we were working on the house or cleaning the house we did it with each other if we got in a fight with others kids she was right beside me covering my back i loved her very much she was very much a brat but...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M 1 Response Jan 4, 2012

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    After a while of people not wanting to do

    anything with you unless they need you, you get used to being left out and have to get stuff done on your own. It's alright though it can only making you stronger
    FutureMARSOCMarine FutureMARSOCMarine 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    Only Child

    I am very use to doing most things alone since I am an only child. I had no one to help me when Mum was out & dad was at work.
    rennie23 rennie23 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 25, 2013

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    Whatever...

    As much as I wish my friends would support me more often, I know they have their own problems to deal with.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 3, 2012

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    That Doesn't Mean I Like It

    It just means I'm used to it. I can go to a movie theater by myself. I can eat out at a fancy restaurant or a fast food place alone. I can walk around the mall on my own. That's me the majority of the time. I guess I don't necessarily have to like it all the time. As long...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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