I Am Usually Depressed, But You Cant Tell

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    Just Dealing With It...

    I don't know that I am always depressed...but I do know that I get that way pretty often.  And I'm not one to share about it...with anyone really.... My husband doens't really understand depression, or me for that matter so ~ there is no sense in talking to him about it...
    lostinthewind lostinthewind
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2008


    Everyone sees me as very quite content person but what they dont see is that i want to just end my life. Im getting bad grades, people arent talking to me as they used to, people bully me but no, i just go with it and put on a happy face... I might not even be at my school...
    Steelbeak Steelbeak
    13-15, M
    Dec 12, 2011

    I Need Help

    I don't know what is wrong with me. I own a house, have 2 amazing kids, the best wife anyone could ask for...and a job that pays well. I am depressed. I just want to break down and cry, I hate being away from my family and every 4 days I am. When I am with them i am often tired...
    Iwantosmile Iwantosmile
    Sep 9, 2012

    "pretty Much Alone....and Angry................."...........

    "Why" do I feel so alone and angry. For sometime I have been feeling alone and angry with myself for unknown reasons.I never want to be outside or with friends and family. I don't ever want to do anything fun, All I do is sit in my room because of doing nothing I have be come...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Aug 14, 2011

    I'm Usually Depressed, ...

    I'm usually depressed, but have dealt with depression for so long that by now I am pretty good at hiding it.  I'm good at smiling and laughing, even when I don't want to, I do it for my friends and family so that they don't worry so much about me.
    keyna keyna
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jul 1, 2008

    Except On Here...

    here i whine more than a little kid about my life, but in real life you rarely see my depression, until it gets really bad. no one at uni knew until an ambluance turned up at our flat because id cut too deep. i tried to tell them to meet me down the road but they didnt. im...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    Sep 2, 2008

    I Guess U Can't

    A few years ago, my husband was talking with someone and he told this person, my wife is a little depressed.  That person said; (I was there), she may be suffering but it doesn't show.  This person stated; s/he know's a few who suffers and it does show and with your wife, we...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Sep 5, 2011

    Perfect For A Lifetime Movie....

    I'm an orphan. Both my parents were abusive when they were alive. So, having them gone isnt the worst thing in the world. My father would beat me, and tried to kill me on several occasions. My mother thought her children were rivals, and sought to destroy them without any thought...
    SullenDreamer SullenDreamer
    1 Response Sep 5, 2011


    I don’t know how good I am at hiding it anymore. I was just told that I look like I’m ‘beside myself’. I usually am but this is the first time ever that anyone has ever noticed. And I don’t even know this person very well.   My...
    Ziva Ziva
    36-40, F
    Sep 5, 2008


    I'd say Im depressed most of them time. Although, I do act pretty optimistic. I smile all ze time when Im around people and crumble when I'm by myself. Im constantly unhappy with the way my life is going. I dont want to live where I am anymore and I cant stand being in...
    abstractjunkie abstractjunkie
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 18, 2009

    Getting Harder to Hide

    At this point, I'm wondering what the best way to ask my parents for anitdepressants is. I'm pretty sure I'm "clinically depressed" but I have not been diagnosed or anything. I'm afraid my parents won't take me seriously, or will take me too seriously. But today...
    googleit googleit
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Dec 25, 2008

    Happy Face, Broken Heart...

    We all have our own problems.  When somebody asks me, "how are you?", unless they are close to me, they don't really want to know how I am doing.  If I were to honestly tell people how I am feeling, I would be considered a very depressing person to talk to so...
    Valentine Valentine
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 11, 2008

    Can't Let It Out.

    I'm a depresses stay at home mom.  I can't let it out cause my kids are all young.  It seems to be getting worse especially with the decision I have to make soon.  My husband doesn't understand the illness or how bad it can get.  He pretty much...
    nhough1013 nhough1013
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2008

    That Sad Story.

    I'm always labled. Emo, Goth, Scence. It's not fair, it never was. I feel like the person in the sky has done this to me. I try to do everything right, but I just get everything wrong. I hope someone can help me. But I doubt it.
    iWiShYoUWoUlDcArE iWiShYoUWoUlDcArE
    2 Responses Jan 21, 2009

    I Am Usually Depressed, But You Cant Tell

    Its not much of a story... I just don't like to 'air my dirty laundry' in public. I don't feel comfortable sharing these things. I mean who wants to know I feel horrible, how long can u stand to listen to someone like that? To me that seems like a slow but steady push to living...
    gofukcyourself gofukcyourself
    1 Response Sep 15, 2011

    Sometimes I Have Good Times..

    And I do really weird/good things. I often am uncontrolled or whatever you'd like to call it when I'm at a cafe or something at around 11PM. I start laughing uncontrolled haha. Just a weird thing I noticed.
    deleted deleted
    Nov 25, 2007

    The Great Pretender!!!!

    Hello, I am person who is a great pretender, I suffer from depression, panic attacks, and bipolar disorder. I been suffering from depression etc for 2 years or more. I have learn to pretend like everything is ok. I put on a fake smile and I know how to act. But inside I am a...
    sun23shine sun23shine
    41-45, F
    Oct 31, 2012

    Aside From My Family Who Un...

    Aside from my family who unfortunately receives the wrath of Stina, I happen to be very 'up and chipper' to the rest of the world.  My jokes may be more on the sarcastic side, and I may be a pain to deal with if I am being served at a restaurant (yes sadly, I just may be one...
    stina51 stina51
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 1, 2008

    " I Have Major Trust Issues"....................

    I am having major trust issues. Everything..............I read says to talk with someone You trust..I don't trust anyone.  How does one overcome this?
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Aug 14, 2011

    "is There Anything Wrong If I Am Talking To Myself"?.................

    I have been talking to myself since I can remember, I usually create a story in my mind and finish it to death. It is kind of unusual 'but' I have never actually cared about it. I believe it will evntually go after I get involved in life and my mind gets busy. "Well...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Aug 14, 2011

    definitely. ...

    definitely. i'm usually very BLAHHH on the inside, but on the outside you can't tell because i put on a mask for people because i hate it when people are always depressed and sad and icky, so i don't want to be the same way.
    thedreamisover thedreamisover
    18-21, F
    Jul 1, 2008

    Finally Lost It

    i finally lost it this morning at work. i work night shift pretty much all the time. last night was hard with the boss on my case and an uncooperative coworker. then this morning near the end of my shift i get a blast because my boss slept in and i did not call to wake them up. i...
    noonesman noonesman
    2 Responses Jun 26, 2008

    You Only See the Facade

    I'm almost always down, for some reason.. Sad, lost in thought, sometimes suicidal, but I never let people see.. I'm always the happiest one out of the bunch around them, helping people with their problems whilst tucking mine inside where they won't be seen.. I can't remember a...
    kittenoftheblade kittenoftheblade
    18-21, F
    Sep 27, 2008

    Life Has Lost Meaning to Me

    I am 54, single - never married, although I am still considered attractive and my friends say I look years younger. I've had several relationships, but none have worked out, I think, mainly because I am jealous and demanding - I cannot help it, though. I love children and I...
    sunny197 sunny197
    51-55, F
    1 Response Jan 29, 2009


    I am usually depressed and anxious, but people who see me on a daily basis don't really know that. I don't open up easily to people I'm not comfortable with. I just put on a happy face, pretend everything is ok, then confess my fears and freak-outs on EP later. lol
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    Sep 27, 2011
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