I Am Usually Really Sad On My Birthday

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    I Think I'M Insane.

    Insanity; definition; doing something over and over and expecting different results. Every year I tell myself that next year will be better, it never is. There's always someone to ruin it. I tried ignoring it but it becomes so bad that tears fall from frustration. I honestly was...
    D3L13 D3L13
    18-21, F
    Oct 22, 2013

    Every Bday I Fade Away A Little More

    8 days shy of my 32 bday and I'm in no way looking forward to it , cause for years now my bday is just another day , bdays r supposed to be for celebrating ones birth and success of another year , well growing up as a child I loved them cause it was close to or either on...
    juniorjohn juniorjohn
    31-35
    1 Response Oct 1, 2013

    Happens every year and I'm sure it'll happen

    again tomorrow. I guess I set myself up for it. For once I'd like to just really enjoy it, instead of feeling guilty about money or missing my brother incredibly. I miss him constantly but it's always stronger during special events. And my dog :( Doesn't help that my family...
    HannahSavannah HannahSavannah
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 7, 2015

    Usually? No. I am always sad on my birthday.

    And I promise it isn't because I enjoy that.
    Honeywest Honeywest
    70+, F
    1 Response Feb 11, 2015

    so yesterday July 6th was my 20th birthday.

    I am a very sentimental person that tends to go all out on special occasions to make someone happy. isnt it so funny that on my birthdays I NEVER felt special or appreciated?! i cant believe after all i did for my family, no one even bought me a cake! it hurt like hell..i had...
    ALifeInterupted ALifeInterupted
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2014

    Not for why you would think.

    My Twin brother developed paranoid schizophrenia in our 20s and killed him self a decade later.
    DefineItFromNow DefineItFromNow
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Jun 11, 2015

    Lonely...

    For others, when they have a birthday, I'm all happy and giggly! I'm so rah-rah about the whole day for them! It's great! And I feel like celebrating with them, all night long! And I do, if they are relatives, as they live close-by! ;-) But for myself... I always feel...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 21, 2009

    aha my birth day . Let me see like everyday I

    woke up went to the bathroom, sat on a chair and opened ep And started chatting . After a while went to wash the dishes and I started thinking of my past bdays , every single damn bday I have cried cuz of my siblings . But today I cried cuz of my memories so here I am now...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 11, 2014

    I have a birthday coming up.

    I wish people would just forget. I know they don't really care and it is just tradition for them.
    NoBodyKnowsMeLikeIKnowMe NoBodyKnowsMeLikeIKnowMe
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 11, 2015

    It means another year has past

    where I am single and not where I wanted to be in my dreams.
    geminigirl54 geminigirl54
    41-45, F
    1 Response Feb 26

    Wont This Day Pass Already ..

    So Every Year Never Fails My Birthday Is PURE **** ...I cry every year I Hate How I Gotta spend it alone I wish I Had sum friends or sisters ... Ya kno ?? I will Be in My room Watching Tv .. Hey its Just another day I Guess ....
    BeautynBrains4 BeautynBrains4
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2013

    15th birthday has come

    and gone and I spent almost the entirety of it being depressed and crying later that day. Being alone all day every day during the summer is depressing enough, but then when your birthday comes and you have no friends around to be with and you do nothing special to celebrate...
    CrystalViolet7 CrystalViolet7
    16-17, F
    Jul 14, 2015

    Depressed And Sad On My Birthday

    Ok, so its my birthday today and I'm supposed to be happy. But I'm not... I think it has something to do with being stressed, (I'm turning 16 by the way) And I'm having a birthday party with my family and I like that, I love spending time with my family, but still... I'm sad and...
    moretotheeyes moretotheeyes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 16, 2012

    Never Where I Should Be By This Time.

    Typicaly my B-days kinda suck. Atleast when I was living on my own I didn't have to put on a plastic smile and pretend like I was actually happy about how the year went and where I stood. A typical B-day for me would be as goes: Wake up a few times and try to fall back to sleep...
    diamondintherough85 diamondintherough85
    22-25, M
    Mar 25, 2011
    johnny437 johnny437
    13-15, M
    1 Response Feb 7, 2015

    Happy Birthday!

    Happy birthday? Tell call it "Happy" birthday, when you're barely happy.. It's so way better of be alone, it's better to cry.. During these past days, let's call it this year. I just wanted everything to be black and white. I mean it's a color of sadness. I don't want to see...
    Risanlo Risanlo
    16-17, M
    Oct 30, 2013

    Here I am, two hours

    after midnight on my birthday, the stereo on blast , watching my birthday cake in the oven while eating the rest of the batter straight from the bowl. Feeling like I'm ruling this world. I wonder, will the usual sadness kick in sometime later? Maybe while I'm reenacting famous...
    citylights589 citylights589
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 11

    I don't wake up sad but

    as the day progresses..I get very emotional and usually end up with a good cry...dunno why? Weird huh?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Apr 18, 2015

    Birthdays should be a day

    where exciting things happen or at least a day of fun. I find mine get ruined most of the time. I actually get nervous on my birthday and around. I actually ended up crying on my birthday. It happens like that a lot for me. I don't even expect much anymore. And it still got...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 10, 2015

    The Older I Get The Sadder I Get

    I just had a birthday a couple of days ago. You would think I was looking forward to it but U would be wrong. I actually didn't want to think about it..I tried very hard to think it was just a normal day. ..I didn't want to think about how old I am and the many things I haven't...
    AthenaRose AthenaRose
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 29, 2010

    Another Birthday And Another Round Of Disappointment...

    Okay, it seriously feels like all of my birthdays have been lousy since I turned twelve... 12 yrs old: Got to have tons of friends (boys and girls) over for a pool party, but one girl forgot her suit, so all of the girls (including me) had to sit in my room while all the boys...
    BabyRottie BabyRottie
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 15, 2012

    In My Car

    September 28, today is my birthday. I spent last evening sleeping in my car, I slept the evening before that in my car as well. I've been sleeping in my car for a month and a bit now all alone always. Tonight is cold. I went to Safeway and I bought myself a single slice of...
    DrivingAroundConstantly DrivingAroundConstantly
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 28, 2013

    this year I am creating something new.

    my birthday is my day and I am going to have it be a day about me. so I am making plans for me and me alone. you can participate if you like but it is my day to do as I please.
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld
    36-40, M
    1 Response Oct 4, 2015

    I have a habit for being down in situations

    where people would expect the opposite- and birthdays are not an exception. Birthdays remind me of what I haven't accomplished. I don't feel like I'm very successful in terms of the what the average person deems 'successful' at 24. College isn't complete and I can't seem to...
    Earthingxx Earthingxx
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 11, 2015

    Everyone I know either has

    or will forget my birthday. My family included.. Happy 17 to me 🎉🎈🍰
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 13, 2015

    I Dont Even Rember them Now

    I don't know when I stopped celebrating my bdays.. the day i become teen since then till now nothing great ... My bday come on first week of September during these times all the children were busy in mid term exams in my country .. so no friends no celebrations nothing just a day...
    singhkaranks singhkaranks
    26-30
    Oct 19, 2013

    Today'S My Birthday~

    okay so i don't really have anyone to vent to about my problems, but this is the only place that i can. okay so is it normal that i feel really sad today? on a special day, a birthday? i barely got any greetings. no one really remebered, and i feel bc of that no one really cares...
    tbhchar tbhchar
    16-17, M
    1 Response Oct 19, 2013

    ok so this is true to a point.

    I had the best birthdays ever. then I went to a mental hospital. I was just starting to be ok with feeling feelings. my family came to be with me. I was torn, I missed them but didn't know if I could take feeling. it was to much and I am left being sad every year. why do I let...
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld
    36-40, M
    Aug 24, 2015

    It's my birthday today

    and I am feeling a little depressed because I don't have many friends to celebrate with. I used to have many friends when I was younger but for the last three years my birthdays have been pretty depressing. I sometimes wish I didn't have a birthday.
    lonelyman1113 lonelyman1113
    22-25, M
    Nov 13, 2015

    It's My Birthday!!!

    I'm in the 9th hour of my 37th Birthday....I woke up, walked the dog, worked 9-5, bought myself a steak for dinner, walked the dog, fed the cat and dog my steak...had a family bag of chocolates for dinner instead (and a packet of crisps...well 2!)...checked my dating website...no...
    cellis cellis
    36-40
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2011

    I wish birthdays didn't exist.

    There's an expectation that you have to have the best day and that you are at your happiest and maybe you just expect a little bit of effort from everyone. It's always a disappointment. "Are you having a good day?!" Eff no. I hate everything and everyone, I'm not gonna pretend...
    Messytree Messytree
    22-25, F
    Jun 3, 2015

    Happy Birthday, Me!

    Every year I will toast to myself. It's better than nothing. My parents never gave me anything, no one ever bothered to give me anything, most of the time no one says Happy Birthday. Well, I know it's no big deal. I mean, it's just a date, so I don't really blame them. It's...
    SilverTrace SilverTrace
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

    Really what is a Birthday.

    Of course it is special but I am always sad and want to cry. Its starts the whole a week before!!! Every year. I wish every one would just pretend its not my Birthday :(
    maryann40 maryann40
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    Unsweet 16

    The day I turned 16 was incredibly difficult. It was a Saturday and the temperature was fairly cold. I helped a local farmer on weekends to earn extra cash since my family was quite poor. I left that morning and worked my butt off cutting firewood for 10 hours. I got home around...
    imsolonelytoo imsolonelytoo
    41-45
    Feb 27, 2013

    4th of May.. is really special to me being my

    birthday... but for some reason I feel depressed and sad every year on this day. I create a distance between loved ones so no one would wish me. I don't know why is that.. i am a fairly successful person in life. recently divorced but this issue has been there for a long time...
    a3200s a3200s
    31-35, M
    Feb 6, 2015

    for the first 8 years,

    I spent it with my 2 identical brothers (we are triplets) but since my parents's divorce, I have mostly spent it alone, as i was the only birthday boy and I wasn't used to it
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 26

    This is very true. I find

    that on that same day every year I used to make the mistake of believing it will be phenomenal then get depressed when it's not. but this year I had very few expectations. I have some very quality ladies in my life whom I love, and they actually ask me in advance what I am...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 10

    My birthday is right in the middle of the

    anniversaries of five deaths of close family members. I'm disabled. I never married because I was raped by 2 college acquaintances and I felt dirty and blamed myself, so I felt unworthy of a spouse. When I was able-bodied I waitressed, now I could be retiring but I don't have a...
    MarieLAL MarieLAL
    61-65
    1 Response Aug 10, 2015

    This Sucks!

    My only good birthday was when I was turning 6 and I was an adorable little girl. As I grew older, people judged me and ignored me more and more. (still a kid) Age 1: Actual birthday Age 2-3 Don't remember Age 4: Awesome presents in the mail, some food. (cake? not sure) Age 5...
    Inky04 Inky04
    22-25
    Nov 3, 2013
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