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I Am Very Deeply Depressed In My Heart

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    Heartache

    I have this aching pain in my heart that just wont go away. My heart aches because it yearns for love. 
    nitid nitid 16-17, F Dec 20, 2010

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    Giving it until Christmas break is over

    for a miracle to happen. For him to stop hating me. He won't have sex with me. If he does it's for his own satisfaction. I love him so ******* much but a person can only be pushed so far and he's already driven me off the cliff. I want him back, I want dad of the year and super...
    lua009 lua009 26-30 Dec 19, 2013

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    Disappointment

    I have no life! I want to do something but I dont have a lot of friends, and the friends I do have don't wanna hang. I dislike sports cause im overweight. I just want to make things better but I always make it worse. Someone please help!
    Asteroidfeild Asteroidfeild 16-17 Aug 12, 2012

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    Bad Marriage

          I am a 42 year old mother of a teenage daughter. I have been married to an extremely abusive man for a little over 20 years. This was an arranged marriage which is very common in my culture. I am highly  educated and I come from a very well...
    milasmom milasmom 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 15, 2009

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    My ex wife divorced me, after four years of separation she told me she could do better without me and that she basically wanted better material objects such as cars and a nicer...
    WonByOne WonByOne 36-40, M 3 Responses Aug 30

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    Don't even know why i am doing this, but here it goes. I am 22 year old guy, who had his share of sorrow trough most of my life. My first memories as child are of my grandfather...
    TheLostSoulTravaler TheLostSoulTravaler 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 10

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    Hello, About 2 weeks ago I was diagnosed with depression, though I would say I have been depressed for a few months it has really got me to a point where I need to write this...
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    Heart in her hands, My heart in her hands. I don't know why I did that. I don't know why I even loved her so. And it deeply hurt my soul, that I put my heart in her hands. Its out...
    keyshawn15 keyshawn15 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    Take me Away GingerSlim (Chorus) God please take me I can't do it anymore I need a call to say that I'm good Because I just can't take much more Vs1 I feel like Ive caused so...
    GingerSlimSTL GingerSlimSTL 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    I don't know what happiness is. Some say that love is what makes you happy, but I've never been loved. Some say that money, but I don't have any money. Some say that God, but I...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 20

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    August 23. Self Care. "When will we become lovable? When will we feel safe? When will we get all the protection, nurturing, and love we so richly deserve? We will get it when we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Aug 23

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    New years eve the day of the last, Nothing to lose but the past. The broken soul sobs deeply, As everyone else drinks freely. He silently suffers knowing its the end, As he puts...
    Tornapart64 Tornapart64 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    It’s been a week. I’ve decided to write down how I feel. I am not really sure why, but I thought it would provide some relief. When she went home, things felt better. I was...
    smileofdespair smileofdespair 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    August 25. Willing to Make Amends. The Eighth Step is talking about a change of heart, a healing change. This attitude can begin a great chain of repair and healing in our...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Aug 25

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    I thought you really loved me but I was so stupid enough to believe your lies. I was young, dumb, and in love. I thought you actually cared about me, but then again if you really...
    Zozolove Zozolove 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I haven't been taking my heart medication on time from morning to night or sometimes I don't even take em. My heart ha been feeling weird for the last couple weeks I'm getting...
    MrDysfunctional MrDysfunctional 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I don't know what else to do. Well, I should start at the beginning. Back in January my Mom got really sick. She had double pneumonia in both of her lungs. She came close to...
    JepMasta JepMasta 31-35, M Aug 20

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    I am a 32 year old woman. I have been single for 7 years. I have only had one "serious" boyfriend and since then all I have experienced is heartbreak. Disastrous dates, flings, no...
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    I'm Chris. (Sorry to those who've been told I was Jake. That was my Cousin.) Anyways the first time I had my heart broken was 6th grade. I was dating this girl. But, every time I...
    Gre3nBoytt Gre3nBoytt 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    Hello, I am a girl and I am a dreamer i have always believed firmly on every dream I had and am ready to give everything for them. I have seen my dreams die last year when my 4...
    Blackangel4u Blackangel4u 22-25, F Aug 27

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    I am a girl of violence. Who cuts her wrist, punch the wall, cry in her sleep, punch myself, make myself suffer, Stop my breath, drown my face in the water, choke myself, laugh...
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    First of all I would like to thank those who take the time to read this. It took me all of my willpower to go seek out help for this is an experience I have a hard time talking...
    paschall1993 paschall1993 18-21, M Aug 19

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    I vow to the heaven and earth that I shall not fall for anyone in my life again. When I was 14, puerile and callow, I fell in love with someone I should not be. From states away...
    Driftingminds Driftingminds 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I have never loved someone like this before, known someone so well it's like they are part of me and my day to day life....we are almost like twins, know what the other persons...
    OtakuGirl911 OtakuGirl911 16-17, F Aug 21

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    August 22. Responsibility for Family Members. "I can still remember my mother clutching her heart, threatening to have a heart attack and die, and blaming it on me...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Aug 22

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    Tonight is the night.... Tonight is the night I can't deal with myself or what we call life. I can deal with being stuck between a future and a past. I can't deal with crying for...
    IcedOverHeart IcedOverHeart 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    Dear Replacement, There are a few things I think you should know, as you are now the object of his affection. Don’t let it surprise you, how quickly you fall for him, and don...
    kmart52492 kmart52492 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 2

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    He sits still as the beat of his heart goes, thump thump … thump thump … thump thump. Gaze focused forward staring at his monitor, facing the reality he lives in, the internet...
    Dyemare Dyemare 18-21, M Sep 2

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    she has said 'goodbye' . We meet when she sent Me a message here on EP, asking if I would be her Daddy. D/s . I agreed and we began talking often getting to know each other. she...
    sanmac sanmac 61-65, M Sep 3

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    I don't think I'm ever going to get over it. I woke up and kissed my pillow this morning thinking it was a person, but it wasn't. I'm alone. I miss him, but I could never take him...
    Anonimaninja Anonimaninja 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 6

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    I find it amusing hearing everyone ***** and complain about life on here, I sympathize with them, but I also want to tell them to suck it up and quit their wining. I want to post a...
    colorstone colorstone 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 7

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    I'm finding it so hard to move on. He was at a mutual friends showing her all the women he's being look at from his online dating account. I know it's not a reflection of me but...
    Bluesrain Bluesrain 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    It's apparent that I must have lost my talent to write the poetry I was once known for, so this piece will have to do. I shouldn't have clicked on her profile and viewed her...
    TheHogwartzJanitor TheHogwartzJanitor 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    so i just feel like ranting. Been sick for about 5 years now with ME and feel like total **** every day too exhausted to do anything super depressed it just feels like its never...
    imtiredwastaken imtiredwastaken 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 26

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    I am 38 year old single i am feeling depressed since my childhood. Now everyday of my is more depressed and i am looking as end of life. Each night i am taking sleeping pills and...
    amarindersingh amarindersingh 36-40, M 4 Responses Sep 10

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    I hear people tell me I'm pretty on this website but not in my real life. I get called ugly, fat, a looser and so much more. Even if I actually was pretty(I'm not) it wouldn't...
    bellsmarrie bellsmarrie 18-21, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I try to tell my friends what it's like to be depressed but unless they have been themselves they don't understand. It's just so hard to explain unless you've been there. I think...
    crookedteethteen crookedteethteen 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I always thought that I am an unemotional person who doesn't get too sad or depressed with whatever happens. But, recently all this changed with an incident where I hurt a person...
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    ladymaverick31 ladymaverick31 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Just came back home all cute dresses up, to maybe get into a fight with hubby then make up and start over. I didn't find him, he didn't reply to my text and when I called he said I...
    Gemma3sahara Gemma3sahara 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Confronted hubby last night Me: you forgot that you have a wife H: ofcourse not Me: Do you know why I don't love you as much anymore? H:why? Me: So that I'll be contented with just...
    iamtootired iamtootired 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 24

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    I am 49 years old I am in the middle of my second failed marriage I have been disabled since I was 38 years old but did manage to hold my head above water until recently I have 3...
    smitttyd smitttyd 46-50, M Aug 29

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    Many people lie down and stare at the ceiling for hours in the dark, and wonder how they got there. Love, family, friends and all other things seem so distantly unapproachable. I...
    erixAL1 erixAL1 26-30, M Aug 30

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    September 1. Patience. Sometimes we get what we want right away. At other times, we wonder if our desires will ever be fulfilled. We will be fulfilled in the best way possible...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Sep 1

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    I'm in a transition stage in my life in all areas including personal, not being a college student anymore, just getting a good job, being away from family and friends, heart break...
    fairytale24 fairytale24 22-25, F Sep 4

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