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I Am Violent

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    When Will The Anger Stop?

    I was such a happy child, than at the age of 11 I was molested by my brothers friend. I told my mum but she Didnt do anything so it continued, I feel let down and so angry about it all, but I'm taking my anger out on my fiancé and it gets rather violent! I punch kick bite pull...
    jazzycherrie jazzycherrie 26-30 1 Response Dec 1, 2012

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    I'm Just So Angry And Don't Know What To Do...my Husband Is Fed Up

    I am a 24 year old woman who grew up with occasional thoughts of hopelessness and not wanting to live anymore, not necessarily suicide, just not wanting to exist. The thoughts stopped for a while. I recently got married and those thoughts have been coming to me again. Also, I...
    angrrr angrrr 22-25 Oct 5, 2010

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    My Hatred

    I am only 17 years old and I am very scary towards my brother. Whenever he doesn't listen to me I someone bring hatred burning to the surface and I can't stand him so much that i want to explode. I yell, cuss, and when it is really bad I hit him. Not only do I yell I yell things...
    Verveen Verveen 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2010

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    Sense of Loss

    i'm strange when it comes to my anger. instead of it gradually coming about it hits me all at once. its a terrible and scary feeling. then i feel like i lost all control of things. i've taken classes and am in therapy for a load of issues, but this one i cant seem to overcome...
    peace1117 peace1117 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    I hate being violent,

    but it's hard for me to find a different option, I drive people away not because I am physically violent, but words can be nasty, and boy can I dish it out...
    Idkanything Idkanything 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I like to be nice. I don't hurting people,

    physically or emotionally. I love being gentle, but there's always some dumbass getting on my bad side. The violent nature in me can't sit still. I fight, not argue. I try not to but end up embracing my mothers side of the family. Gets me in trouble more than I need to.
    Kaychani7 Kaychani7 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2013

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    I Try Not To Be.

    you couldnt really tell, unless youre the one who pissed me off. then, you see, im hell to deal with. mostly, im damaging to myself, but if someone ****** me off enough, its on.
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 16-17, F Jun 13, 2012

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    I Am A Terrible Person....

    t I have never been violent in the least. For the past 2 or so years I have been through a very bad break-up and my "rebound" ended up me being the "reboudeee" (in other words, I was lied to and used-and I see this person almost daily). I am also dealing with on-again-off-again...
    RK123 RK123 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I Try Not To Be

    Growing up people always messed with me. I tell a teacher and they would join in. Well i learned somethin, if you are violent, then people wont mess with u as much. for example, Someone calls me a ******. If i just walk away they will feel that they can keep messing with me...
    Krie Krie 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    And I regret so much

    after a very bad relationship when my bf hit me and humiliate me I feel I am becoming him and my new bf is paying for..I feel so bad, he was upsetting me lately and i feel i was holding so much myself till I snap, and I hit him, bite him through him things. It hurts me so much...
    veny1919 veny1919 26-30, F Feb 18

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    I'm violent sometimes.

    I know I'm not right in the head. I know it's not okay to flirt with a man, let him bite me on the neck and bite his lip and punch him in the right nut. This isn't flirting... not for most people; but I am not most people... especially when I admit that I was somewhat...
    BrokenBeauty301 BrokenBeauty301 31-35, F Feb 26

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    ...

    I am just so angry all the time and I don't even know why. I'm not strong and I can't really hurt anyone but I consider myself violent none the less. This has been going on since childhood and I feel like something is wrong with me. I just want to feel normal and I want to stop...
    bridgett237 bridgett237 18-21 Oct 23, 2010

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    Violence Ahh

    I am a wierd person. I enjoy violence but yet I do not. I know I have a very violent nature my only checks being my wife and two kids but I hate that violent nature. At the same time I love to fight with friends. Not literaly fight but set rules and just go a few rounds till we...
    Karalas Karalas 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2007

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    Truth Behind Being A Violent Person

    i am a very violent person and this thing of violence came in me from few years i tried to figure it out why its because the pain inside becomes so much that its intolerable we try to tell others to people we might think friends, loved ones, or family etc., but inside pain is so...
    evilkilllingme evilkilllingme 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    I am very violent but i would give almost

    anything to not be the way i am but then agin " trying to be someone else is a waste of who you really are " i just wish 'the person i really am' wasn't so violent .. There isnt really anything i can do about it ...... Oh well, my loss
    YouAreAllPesants YouAreAllPesants 16-17, F Apr 24

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    Ah Yes

    I don't need to be caressed and petted. I'm not fragile. I take orders and I don't submit. I want an angry lover who can drag me to the bed and scratch my neck. And if they scratch deep enough, I'd hopefully bleed. Bleed that sweet red of my body so they can painfully lick the...
    queer4clockwork queer4clockwork 18-21 4 Responses Nov 17, 2011

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    More Than Usual

    I didn't used to be particularly angry or violent. I used to be able to hold in my anger for a very long time, and it would either go away or I'd rant for an hour after a few months and be fine. Now it's more like I'm furious at least once a week. Little things make me want to...
    Starcrossed Starcrossed 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2008

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    It'S Kinda Random

    When I was standing in line for lunch I had a strong need to hurt someone. It continued on after lunch when we were back in class and the teacher was outside the door. I put my left hand against the board and tapped my right fist on it. I thought about what it would feel like to...
    KuraiLight KuraiLight 13-15, F May 2, 2013

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    Hi,i Like You...

    I'm not gonna break your heart.I'm more likely to rip out your heart,bite out a chunk,then throw it back at you.:) hehe
    KindaCrazy KindaCrazy 18-21, F May 31, 2011

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    I see no wrong with being a generally violent

    person.... I all happened cos a friend challenged me to lose all of my fear... Goes like this... A friend of mine who was a counsellor noticed that I was full of fear.. I was afraid of everything.... so I did NOTHING with my life... and was a waste it all was. So she...
    Hhaawke Hhaawke 36-40, F Dec 30, 2013

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    So stay on my good side.

    ......................................OR SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M Apr 1

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    I Enjoy Being Violent.

    I'm now 69 years old, I am currently on Parole, I have been for 10 days now. Ever since I was a youngster in the School Yard I have been violent towards people who upset me or who I think pose a threat to my reputation. When I was 8 years old a boy insulted me because I couldn...
    PhilipLane1944 PhilipLane1944 66-70, M 3 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    I want to kill people

    who get on my nerves I feel an anger building and I am able to hold it back but if I was ever pushed too far I snap
    overit36 overit36 16-17, M Jul 7

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    I Wish I Could Be Different.

    I have always been violent in my nature. Why? idk, I'm angry with everyone who has hurt me, my dad beat my mum and my brother beat meet....maybe thats why but who knows for sure. I was bullied for a short while at school, and I couldn't handle it, I was bullied day in and day out...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 8 Responses Sep 19, 2007

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    Moments...

    I've never been violent with anyone in my life so why have I just randomly started being violent in a relationship now? i'm in a same sex relationship and it hasn't all been plain sailing but why does that lead me to violence? I hate the way that I act with her sometimes, its not...
    rawrrr91 rawrrr91 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2010

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    I Am Violent

    I grew up with violence my mom used to hit me really bad and my dad too even my older sister, and i didnt like it. But now when i see somebody that does something wrong that i hate i hit them and go overboard. I cant control this i feel really bad afterwards, i've told my...
    realidade14 realidade14 18-21 3 Responses Jan 29, 2009

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    At Times..

    I'm not violent with everyone... Ugh... The only people I've ever been violent with, I guess, are my parents. I really wish I wasn't... I know it's wrong and 'violence is never the answer'.. And, I know I can't give excuses about why I am...
    Debunkifyme Debunkifyme 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    It is a strong fear. Too many times I hear it, I have lived it my self. Being in a violent relationship with someone who really does not care about "you" robs so much from you...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Sometimes I question the whole "violence doesn't solve anything" saying, because one time a couple of guys kept on teasing me, even after asking them to stop and making it clear I...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Jul 8

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    Last night I dreamt that I was beating my husband for just being there. This is the first time I have ever had a dream like that and I don't know why.
    Bettyjb Bettyjb 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    with people like jackbarnes who would want their child here??? jack loves to seek out kids on e/p ... groom them!then when he is confronted, he asks well, what's wrong with...
    Asianblue Asianblue 41-45, F Jul 20

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    I ponder of something great, My lungs will fill and then deflate, They fill with fire and exhale desire, I know it's dire my time today. I have these thoughts so often a ought...
    darkhorsek darkhorsek 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    "Nevada began the first decade of this century with high expectations. Gov. Kenny Guinn’s administration was taking aim at some of the quality of life indicators that often make...
    grayday104 grayday104 26-30, M Jul 4

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    One Winged Angel IN LATIN Estuans interius Ira vehementi (x2) Sephiroth! Sephiroth! Estuans interius Ira vehementi (x2) Sephiroth! Sephiroth! Sors - immanis Et inanis...
    mjp3898 mjp3898 16-17, M Jul 13

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    I admit, I have violent tendencies. I have had urges to kick ******* on the teeth and ***** slap the eyes to back of their heads. I have had dreams of murdering people. (I'd never...
    XxVivaLaBellaxX XxVivaLaBellaxX 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 17

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    (Sorry for any bad spelling/grammar) I thought I would share an experience that happened to me a few months ago regarding the paranormal. I use to have a small wooden mannequin...
    ArsonistsWing ArsonistsWing 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I can't speak and write english very well, because I am from Czech Republic, but I want to tell you about my father. My father and mom had marriage more than 20 years ago. My mom...
    Loretten Loretten 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    He only signed his name three times. And each time he spelled his last name differently. So we'll never know if it's Shakspere, Shakespeare, or Shaxpere. Ah, well. Violent delights...
    AlonaTherian AlonaTherian 13-15, F Jul 2

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    These violent delights have violent ends and in their triumph die , like fire and powder...
    mReee mReee 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Have you ever experienced it? You know....that feeling.......when something which is bracketed as 'wrong' and you do the thing feeling confident that its 'right'? Well after all...
    swashochi swashochi 36-40, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have had many a dream - quite different to the normal dreams I experience - which have come true. The problem is, these 'dreams' are very violent. I have started to document...
    ckbkss06 ckbkss06 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    First of all I am not condoning the use of this drug as i have heard many "bad trip" stories from other people , to know you can have a terrible and frightening experience, but...
    Paulchanning Paulchanning 41-45, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My husband has been diagnosed with PTSD (twice, the first time he refused to believe it). He is a very intelligent, very emotional and creative man. A good father and, at heart...
    madam99 madam99 36-40, F 23 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I feel empty, like I just want to sit/lay around and stare into space, alone and isolated. Sometimes, more so lately, I get violently angry, harshly angry. It scares me...
    jess1994 jess1994 18-21, F Jun 30

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    I want to tell you, dear Father, that I hate your guts. I hate your manipulative character that makes me think you're always going to be there for me, only for that belief to be a...
    AriGALAXY AriGALAXY 13-15, M Jun 30

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    Hello my name is Daniel and I am 13-years-old and attend middle school. Ever since 1st grade kids bullied me by avoiding me and calling me names. The bullying got more violent each...
    GentlemanGhost101 GentlemanGhost101 13-15, M Jun 30

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    Awake at night you focus on everyone who's hurt you. Then write a list of targets. Your violent lack of virtue. Leave us alone! You're right, you're wrong! Rock on! We are...
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    At the moment I only have one person I trust, but I can't express how I really feel. Like if I'm sad, which is all the time. Depression. I just tell him that I don't feel good, to...
    stef17 stef17 16-17, F Jun 30

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    So yesterday was a very rough day for me and my family. My baby brother whos 2 years younger than me but still the baby of the family, felt into a crisis and as heart breaking as...
    Marypossa Marypossa 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I just have a violent mother , it's crazy and sometimes beat me. Why people are so bad why ?
    RoseGirl90 RoseGirl90 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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