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I Am Violent

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    And I regret so much

    after a very bad relationship when my bf hit me and humiliate me I feel I am becoming him and my new bf is paying for..I feel so bad, he was upsetting me lately and i feel i was holding so much myself till I snap, and I hit him, bite him through him things. It hurts me so much...
    veny1919 veny1919 26-30, F Feb 18

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    Sense of Loss

    i'm strange when it comes to my anger. instead of it gradually coming about it hits me all at once. its a terrible and scary feeling. then i feel like i lost all control of things. i've taken classes and am in therapy for a load of issues, but this one i cant seem to overcome...
    peace1117 peace1117 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    I Try Not To Be

    Growing up people always messed with me. I tell a teacher and they would join in. Well i learned somethin, if you are violent, then people wont mess with u as much. for example, Someone calls me a ******. If i just walk away they will feel that they can keep messing with me...
    Krie Krie 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Im the kind of violent

    that you wouldn't expect. I seem chill and like I wouldn't hurt a fly. People walk over me because they think I'm weak, I'm sneaky I will get you when you least expect it, and I will really really get you. Hehehe 😊
    Zezebabe Zezebabe 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 17

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    Moments...

    I've never been violent with anyone in my life so why have I just randomly started being violent in a relationship now? i'm in a same sex relationship and it hasn't all been plain sailing but why does that lead me to violence? I hate the way that I act with her sometimes, its not...
    rawrrr91 rawrrr91 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2010

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    I Wish I Could Be Different.

    I have always been violent in my nature. Why? idk, I'm angry with everyone who has hurt me, my dad beat my mum and my brother beat meet....maybe thats why but who knows for sure. I was bullied for a short while at school, and I couldn't handle it, I was bullied day in and day out...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 8 Responses Sep 19, 2007

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    Hi,i Like You...

    I'm not gonna break your heart.I'm more likely to rip out your heart,bite out a chunk,then throw it back at you.:) hehe
    KindaCrazy KindaCrazy 18-21, F May 31, 2011

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    Truth Behind Being A Violent Person

    i am a very violent person and this thing of violence came in me from few years i tried to figure it out why its because the pain inside becomes so much that its intolerable we try to tell others to people we might think friends, loved ones, or family etc., but inside pain is so...
    evilkilllingme evilkilllingme 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    It'S Kinda Random

    When I was standing in line for lunch I had a strong need to hurt someone. It continued on after lunch when we were back in class and the teacher was outside the door. I put my left hand against the board and tapped my right fist on it. I thought about what it would feel like to...
    KuraiLight KuraiLight 16-17, F May 2, 2013

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    At Times..

    I'm not violent with everyone... Ugh... The only people I've ever been violent with, I guess, are my parents. I really wish I wasn't... I know it's wrong and 'violence is never the answer'.. And, I know I can't give excuses about why I am...
    Debunkifyme Debunkifyme 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2009

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    I Am A Terrible Person....

    t I have never been violent in the least. For the past 2 or so years I have been through a very bad break-up and my "rebound" ended up me being the "reboudeee" (in other words, I was lied to and used-and I see this person almost daily). I am also dealing with on-again-off-again...
    RK123 RK123 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I have never done anything violent.

    But I love violence. I love horror movies. When I don't like someone. I'll discuss with close friends how I would kill them in great detail. It's all just a joke really. I can't even go hunting and instead of squishing bugs in my apartment, I catch them and let them go. But I...
    sweetbee33 sweetbee33 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I like to be nice. I don't hurting people,

    physically or emotionally. I love being gentle, but there's always some dumbass getting on my bad side. The violent nature in me can't sit still. I fight, not argue. I try not to but end up embracing my mothers side of the family. Gets me in trouble more than I need to.
    Kaychani7 Kaychani7 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2013

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    I am very violent but i would give almost

    anything to not be the way i am but then agin " trying to be someone else is a waste of who you really are " i just wish 'the person i really am' wasn't so violent .. There isnt really anything i can do about it ...... Oh well, my loss
    YouAreAllPesants YouAreAllPesants 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I'm violent sometimes.

    I know I'm not right in the head. I know it's not okay to flirt with a man, let him bite me on the neck and bite his lip and punch him in the right nut. This isn't flirting... not for most people; but I am not most people... especially when I admit that I was somewhat...
    BrokenBeauty301 BrokenBeauty301 31-35, F Feb 26

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    When Will The Anger Stop?

    I was such a happy child, than at the age of 11 I was molested by my brothers friend. I told my mum but she Didnt do anything so it continued, I feel let down and so angry about it all, but I'm taking my anger out on my fiancé and it gets rather violent! I punch kick bite pull...
    jazzycherrie jazzycherrie 26-30 1 Response Dec 1, 2012

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    I Am Violent

    I grew up with violence my mom used to hit me really bad and my dad too even my older sister, and i didnt like it. But now when i see somebody that does something wrong that i hate i hit them and go overboard. I cant control this i feel really bad afterwards, i've told my...
    realidade14 realidade14 18-21 3 Responses Jan 29, 2009

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    I hate being violent,

    but it's hard for me to find a different option, I drive people away not because I am physically violent, but words can be nasty, and boy can I dish it out...
    Idkanything Idkanything 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I Try Not To Be.

    you couldnt really tell, unless youre the one who pissed me off. then, you see, im hell to deal with. mostly, im damaging to myself, but if someone ****** me off enough, its on.
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Jun 13, 2012

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    I want to kill people

    who get on my nerves I feel an anger building and I am able to hold it back but if I was ever pushed too far I snap
    overit36 overit36 16-17, M Jul 7

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    I only have violent thoughts

    but are sometimes concerned that I may act on them. I'm not sure how much anger/rage is normal and what a person should worry about
    whoknewyouknew whoknewyouknew 16-17, F Sep 25

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    Violence Ahh

    I am a wierd person. I enjoy violence but yet I do not. I know I have a very violent nature my only checks being my wife and two kids but I hate that violent nature. At the same time I love to fight with friends. Not literaly fight but set rules and just go a few rounds till we...
    Karalas Karalas 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2007

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    I Enjoy Being Violent.

    I'm now 69 years old, I am currently on Parole, I have been for 10 days now. Ever since I was a youngster in the School Yard I have been violent towards people who upset me or who I think pose a threat to my reputation. When I was 8 years old a boy insulted me because I couldn...
    PhilipLane1944 PhilipLane1944 66-70, M 3 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    I'm Just So Angry And Don't Know What To Do...my Husband Is Fed Up

    I am a 24 year old woman who grew up with occasional thoughts of hopelessness and not wanting to live anymore, not necessarily suicide, just not wanting to exist. The thoughts stopped for a while. I recently got married and those thoughts have been coming to me again. Also, I...
    angrrr angrrr 22-25 Oct 5, 2010

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    So stay on my good side.

    ......................................OR SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M Apr 1

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    I see no wrong with being a generally violent

    person.... I all happened cos a friend challenged me to lose all of my fear... Goes like this... A friend of mine who was a counsellor noticed that I was full of fear.. I was afraid of everything.... so I did NOTHING with my life... and was a waste it all was. So she...
    Hhaawke Hhaawke 36-40, F Dec 30, 2013

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    ...

    I am just so angry all the time and I don't even know why. I'm not strong and I can't really hurt anyone but I consider myself violent none the less. This has been going on since childhood and I feel like something is wrong with me. I just want to feel normal and I want to stop...
    bridgett237 bridgett237 18-21 Oct 23, 2010

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    My Hatred

    I am only 17 years old and I am very scary towards my brother. Whenever he doesn't listen to me I someone bring hatred burning to the surface and I can't stand him so much that i want to explode. I yell, cuss, and when it is really bad I hit him. Not only do I yell I yell things...
    Verveen Verveen 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2010

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    Ah Yes

    I don't need to be caressed and petted. I'm not fragile. I take orders and I don't submit. I want an angry lover who can drag me to the bed and scratch my neck. And if they scratch deep enough, I'd hopefully bleed. Bleed that sweet red of my body so they can painfully lick the...
    queer4clockwork queer4clockwork 18-21 4 Responses Nov 17, 2011

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    More Than Usual

    I didn't used to be particularly angry or violent. I used to be able to hold in my anger for a very long time, and it would either go away or I'd rant for an hour after a few months and be fine. Now it's more like I'm furious at least once a week. Little things make me want to...
    Starcrossed Starcrossed 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2008

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