I Am Vulnerable

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 279 People

    I have never felt so vulnerable in my life.

    I don't know what to do anymore.
    Hannaahhboo Hannaahhboo
    18-21
    Apr 3, 2015

    I've made mistakes. My deepest regrets go to

    James my first boyfriend who I abandoned. And Alvin who I might as well have abandoned. I stung them both so badly. I am so remorseful.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 15, 2015

    Its Not Cool At All!!

    I am, I always too weak to refuse anythin that am not suppose 2b take, am oftenly do wrong action 2 cover another mistake, am not physically weak, but in mind I knew am very vulnarable, am easy 2 b controll, I knew and can't do nothin bout that!! It isn't cool its ****** fool..
    staticonveyor staticonveyor
    22-25, M
    May 18, 2011

    I almost think that sometimes people

    intentionally play with my heart just to spite me. They'll treat me so well and be so supportive only to later ignore me. The insecurities creep out after that. And the rest is history.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    Mar 18, 2015

    He says my vulnerability is what makes his

    desire & need for control stronger, he knows I need it and I know he needs it too. We are perfect for each other!
    DaddysLittleLiarna DaddysLittleLiarna
    22-25, F
    Aug 10, 2014

    I'm just thinking that

    if you're not gonna be a lil crazy and open with your heart, why fall in love at all, you know?
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    May 24, 2015

    Broken Window

    I HAVE NOT BEEN REPAIRED.I HAVE HAD THE GLASS REPLACED BUT IT WAS BROKE AGAIN.EVEN AS A BABY I WAS A TARGET.I CAN NOT PLAY THE COLD HEARTED GAME OF THE WORLD I AM ME.I AM LOVE,CARE,SHARING,MEEK,GOOD,GENTLE,BUT VERY HURT AND ALONE. I TRY TO BE STRONG BUT I AM ONLY HUMAN. NICE...
    thelambsink thelambsink
    41-45, M
    Nov 16, 2010

    Still Healing

    I was told that I was still very vulnerable and not ready for any type of "relationship" after having been seperated for just over 6 months from my wife of 13 years. I knew that those words were true, that my emotional foundation had still been very weak, but never realized at...
    Falcran Falcran
    41-45, M
    1 Response Nov 17, 2011

    Despite my fascination

    and attraction to dark and disturbing things, my innards can turn to mush. I am tough, but not impermeable. When I hurt I imagine my skin has sloughed off my body and I am a walking wound, raw and grotesque. I want to be carried away by the sea and its burning salt until I feel...
    patternine patternine
    70+, F
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    Open

    After being closed so long, I finally opened myself up, only to get hurt. So now I'm left vulnerable without my usual armor, my soft underbelly exposed to be masacred by anyone who feels like it. I am defenseless, looking, groping helplessly, like a newborn kitten, to find...
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    Jun 3, 2011

    It's All An Act, Isn't It?

    Everyone thinks I'm the strong one, able to handle anything.. I guess I can.. and I can't... i don't share when I can't, i deal with it with a smile on my face, not letting anyone know that anything can get to me.. but it does. Outwardly I guess i do put on a strong front.. but...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 14, 2013
    Sen22 Sen22
    22-25, F
    Oct 27, 2015

    Emotionally Vulnerable!!

    i am emotionally vulnerable!! im a really sensitive guy, and i always try to treat people in a way as not to hurt them, but other people can easily hurt me emotionally, but i just dont show it!!! and a lot of times when i do get hurt emotionally, i dont see it coming, whereas...
    cowshed123 cowshed123
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Apr 10, 2010

    Im Vulnerable

    i just want to curl up into bed and cry, and other times i just want to feel something more, instead of this sluggish feeling.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 5, 2010
    att13 att13
    22-25, M
    Jun 22, 2014

    Sometimes You Have To Embrace Being Vulnerable.

    I want you to realise that I'm going to accept you no matter what. I want you to believe you're worthy of love and happiness. We are imperfect and we are hard wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging. You are enough. I want you to let yourself be vulnerable to...
    chewyconor chewyconor
    22-25, M
    Jan 14, 2011

    Torn. Lost. Confused.

    The will to live becomes less and less desirable. I'm vulnerable. Scared. And very broken.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    1 Response Sep 26, 2015

    Being Vulnerable Is Worth The Risk And Adventure

    In spite of moments of fear, I allow myself to feel vulnerable often. I am afraid, and yet not, to open up my heart and expose who and what I am to others. Many have taken advantage of my vulnerabilities, and yet I continue to remain open to the world. I do struggle, though...
    Lucidblue Lucidblue
    36-40, F
    Feb 20, 2011

    Vulnerable to Women

    The subject pretty much explains what I want to say.  Throughout my life I fall for a girl about every 6 months or so and I fall hard.  Sometimes the feelings are returned, most of the time however I overthink the situation and manage to screw it up somehow.  The...
    bjs5060 bjs5060
    22-25
    1 Response Jun 25, 2009

    So don't mess with me :) .

    .. It's actually pretty cool cause I can be completely honest! I want to scream at the top of my lungs!!! AhHhHHhHhHhhH!
    JustMeWuuuut JustMeWuuuut
    26-30, M
    Nov 15, 2014

    I always wonder if anxious people are capable

    of of truly loving people without any sort of fear. I over analyze every moment, every interaction. Unfortunately, I'm right most of the time and people do tend to leave once they have no use for you. Or when they simply forget you. Still, I wonder if anxious people like...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    2 Responses Jul 10, 2015

    I don't know if I'm capable of fully trusting

    anyone. I wear my heart on my sleeve and find myself always so exposed and torn apart. And yet, I don't expect anyone to stick around. There's always a likelihood they could hurt me. People I've trusted and loved have been in and out of my life. I think the expectation that...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    May 30, 2015

    I find myself in the same dark corner,

    fighting the same demons. I'm scared, because my wounds are open and they don't seem to heal. "I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And our scars remind us that the past is real, I tear my heart open just to feel" -Papa Roach
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    5 Responses Jan 12, 2015

    I Am Emotionally Vulnerable And Someone Exploited It!

    I have no idea how to express my feelings now. I am a vulnerable person. It's because I always feel like being loved by someone. It happened that someone I met in EP is not real. All I need is true love...why I can't find someone for that. I don't want to live like this.
    Cabesl Cabesl
    26-30, M
    2 Responses May 12, 2011

    Something that I've found about being overweight

    and trying to gain some self esteem is that it's nearly impossible. It's hard to love yourself when the world associates a number to who you are, you know? And yeah, you can reject that number, you can embrace it, etc but you can't deny it, because by western society's standards...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2015

    Loving and being loved in return can be

    similar, but often are so SEPARATE. So intertwined and yet so different from one another, no?
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    Apr 29, 2015

    You've broken down my walls.

    You've penetrated my defenses. You've opened me up to a whole new world full of love and hope. You opened up my mind to things I didn't think possible. You opened up my heart and made yourself at home. I am completely and utterly defenseless, yet i've never felt safer. Take me...
    HerTrueKing HerTrueKing
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 15

    So Frightened...

    I have long lost count of how many relationships I could have had because of how frightened of rejection I am. I put absolutely everything I have, emotionally, into just asking someone for something as simple as a cup of coffee it is unbearable. To say nothing of how things are...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 18, 2011

    I don't like to admit it

    but I am very vulnerable
    Anonymouscoast Anonymouscoast
    22-25
    1 Response Dec 31, 2015

    And Gullible

    I feel like someone just punched me and I can't breathe. I keep making the same mistake over and over again. What is it about me that allows me to do this and become hurt once more. I have said that I am finished with love, and yet I have such a need to be loved that I am...
    Carissimi Carissimi
    56-60, F
    5 Responses Dec 28, 2011

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