I Am Wasting My Life Away

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    Finally Took The First Step To Freedom!

    It's been a whole week now that I have been on my own with my little boy. I cannot believe that I finally found the courage to break free from a very toxic and dysfunctional relationship. I know it's going to be hard, I have no one here but I feel like I have my guardian angels...
    Wiltingflower Wiltingflower
    46-50, F
    6 Responses Feb 7, 2011

    Existing is all I do.

    And I'm terrible at it.
    SpacePirate SpacePirate
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jan 12, 2014

    I am addicted to dramas

    and making dramas in my life And it is eventually making me myself suffers
    cdecii cdecii
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2016
    fav777 fav777
    2 Responses Nov 3, 2014

    Same stuff everyday I dread waking up.

    I love when sleep grows upon me.
    benchwork12 benchwork12
    26-30, F
    Jun 7, 2014

    People always tell me to join clubs/groups.

    .. and whatever. The problem there is that the things that are local to me, I am not interested in. I'm only 14.. If I do find something that I'm interested in that's not local, I never have time for it or I just cannot go on long journeys just for it. It really frustrates me...
    Adereth Adereth
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2016
    eZmeraldO eZmeraldO
    Aug 25, 2015
    anestacia anestacia
    18-21, F
    Dec 12, 2015

    I will be graduating soon with a two year degree

    that was a total waste. I don't plan on using it very long, maybe not at all. I definitely want to go to a four year next year but I'm not sure what exactly I should major in. I am also a little worried. I make little to no money and I don't know how I would manage away from my...
    WhoAreWeIsTheQuestion WhoAreWeIsTheQuestion
    22-25, F
    Aug 7, 2015

    After busy long time I followed my old routine .

    ..i.e. sitting with my old friend and classmate. Every things was uncomfortable and for me speechless. I dint know what to talk. How to react. Only I did smile. I realized my communication skill become weak. I don’t know what to do?
    puchkub puchkub
    18-21, F
    Mar 31, 2016

    I Really Am Wasting My Life : (

    I am a 21 year old girl who still lives at home, working a good paying job that I hate. Not going to school. Have a fiance who went to prison who i am now thinking he has borderline personality disorder and our relationship has almost totally fallen apart due to being apart and...
    vegasgirl123 vegasgirl123
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jan 11, 2012

    I don't feel like I'm supposed to be here at

    times, which is only reinforced by the fact that I ultimately don't want to be here. The things I would give and do just to escape this god awful reality for a few moments. Either I was born into the wrong time period, or I just don't belong in this particular world at all...
    FabledTacoOfDoom FabledTacoOfDoom
    22-25, M
    2 Responses May 9, 2015
    maiomeN maiomeN
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2014

    Think about this. Life is a dream,

    and a test. Constantly having to choose between right and wrong, being put with a temporary family, while you live, learning to love and forget, it's just one giant lucid dream. And soon enough, the dream will be over and you'll wake up somewhere better.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Nov 3, 2014

    I've gotten to the point in life

    where I honestly don't give a **** about anything. I don't see myself being alive for very long, and everyone ****** me off.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    I am wasting it. period.

    I give up too easily That's why I never gain the experience. I only live with regrets :(
    cdecii cdecii
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2016

    i am so shy its unbelievable i am 43 i am still

    single and male i could never chat up women when i was younger i am technically still a virgin, i had sexual confusion for about 13 years i am a hermit all my friends have settled down and i am a loner i have only just left my mother and am im so lonely eleven years ago when i...
    defoekeane defoekeane
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2014

    I Wish I Was Someone Else

    im a 28 and my life is going nowhere. i have an attitude problem. im depressed, im antisocial. i hate my family like you wouldnt believe. i wish im not me. i wish i was somene else.
    lonelyann14 lonelyann14
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Sep 9, 2013

    I feel like everything I do is wrong.

    My boyfriend broke up with me because we fight a lot. My mom blames me for everything. My dad is quick to get physically hostile with me. He hates me. I'm surprised I'm still alive considering his hate for me. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I don't have a job, no...
    ccarol9073 ccarol9073
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    With My Eating Disorder....Need Advice

    I haven't written a story in quite sometime and I've missed EP quite a bit lol. I just need advice right now. Basically I've been bulimic for like a year and a half and it has affected my relationships, health, school performance, and overall happiness :/ also I've had drama...
    thesuitelife285 thesuitelife285
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Feb 19, 2013

    I'm So Annoyed With Myself

    As mentioned before, I've been married for 18 years and now realise that the best years of my life are now behind me. I've always been, by nature a 'good guy', and I can see that this is my flaw. When my wife got pregnant, I had the choice to stay or go. I stayed because it was...
    markp1973 markp1973
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Nov 24, 2013

    I am 21. I am mentally unstable.

    I have spent my 21 years lying to myself. I am now in this rut of self destruction that I am finding impossible to escape. I am an addict. I was prescribed pain killers and cannot cope without them. They rule my life. The two serious relationships in my life have both resulted...
    stphnrd stphnrd
    22-25, F
    Oct 2, 2015

    Disappointment, Part Of Life

    In every part of life there are disappointments. Some maybe not as big as the others, but the fact is that it’s still disappointment. Guess what, cheer up and enjoy life to the hilt, because you’re not the only one being disappointed. See the bright side of it, for every...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2012

    I'm breathing and watching

    as life goes by and everyone in my life is moving on. But with every step that I try to take forward I loose a piece of myself. I can't move I'm stuck and life is chasing after me asking for all my happiness. How can I run from my own fate?
    Lesle38 Lesle38
    13-15, F
    Mar 15, 2016

    Tired of living like this.

    Everyday is the same wishing I wasn't here and pretending things are going to get better I've lost so much these last three years.
    amador01 amador01
    46-50, F
    2 Responses May 27, 2015

    The Anxiety Is Killing Me...

    I am a 19 year old girl who panics at the mere thought of talking with a stranger on the telephone. I run from anything that raises my anxiety and because of this I haven't been able to accomplish much in my 19 years of living. I live on my own because I cant live with my parents...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jun 6, 2012

    Just sitting in my room all day watching tv

    shows playing my computer and listening to music.
    anestacia anestacia
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2015

    I heard my mom tell my grandmother,

    over the phone, that I went AWOL in school... ****, I didn't know that. I thought my dad processed my Leave of Absence. I feel horrible again.
    metaphornographic metaphornographic
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2015

    Sitting around just waiting

    for an adventure like how it happens in the movie, a guy or girl appears out of nowhere and is just like. "This is your Destiny!" AHaha well I can always dream.
    Typingkeyboard Typingkeyboard
    22-25, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    You ever wonder what's real?

    Like your angry or if your sad or happy. What's the real you. Whats real I'm so confused cuz everything is cricked so I think all day of my life and people and how corrupting this all is. My hope. Nah don't begin
    sloaned sloaned
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 29, 2014

    Life'S Suffering.

    Not being able to understand our suffering is the worst kind of suffering there is. It is far worse than physical pain.And the reason why we don't understand our suffering, is often because we don't know what we are living for in the first place.
    traveller139 traveller139
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Mar 26, 2013

    I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel,

    darkness is all I see. I'm stuck in this place, I can not move, I'm paralyzed by fear, by change, by failure. And I can't seem to break these chains that are binding me, I let so much and so many people hold me down. It's a never ending cycle I don't even know where to begin. I...
    justaninvisiblegirl justaninvisiblegirl
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 1, 2014

    I had better write this down

    before the thought leaves me. There is something horribly wrong with the way I'm living my life. It's horribly wrong because I never do anything wrong. I've always been a hard worker, respectful of others, got good grades and respected people who didn't even deserve my time...
    Mirabal19 Mirabal19
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    I don't do anything..

    I graduated, I broke my knee and lost my great job.. I don't look for a better life, all I do is play video games and drums.. All day long go around seeing how life passes by in front of my eyes and I'm still here.. Same as a year ago, same as 4 years ago.. I have nothing
    Cheesyboy Cheesyboy
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2013

    Sometimes, I Feel Like A Waste...

    After I graduated from high school, I wasn't so sure about going to college...I was undecided on what I wanted to go for. So, I made up my mind and chose to study on being an x ray technician. I didn't really want to go for that, but I just wanted to do something...I ended up...
    PunizhedZoul PunizhedZoul
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Oct 26, 2011

    45 Years Of What? How Many More To Go And What Will I Do With Them

    I am 45 years old and have seemingly done nothing with my life. I have never married but have a long trail of failed relationships behind me.. I do not have children. I do not own a house or condo or even have a car. I am a business professional though currently unemployed. Yet...
    PogoStick99 PogoStick99
    46-50, F
    12 Responses May 8, 2011

    I feel like I have wasted

    so much of my life. I worried so much about getting friends and having relationships. In school I tried so hard to get in cool groups. And all that led to nothing but low self esteem. I gave people too much priority in my life. I have always loved coding, leaning new things and...
    webb286 webb286
    18-21, M
    Mar 12, 2016

    Am almost 23 years old.

    And this is my last year in college but i dont know if i made the right choice about my major and i dont know what to do with my life once i finish this year.
    theorgasmicnumber theorgasmicnumber
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 28, 2015

    I Can't Get Grounded, I Have No Gratification Delay

    So this is how my day goes. i wake up in kind of state of anxiety, and then i eat too much to relieve that anxiety. and then i get on the computer as if i'm going to be productive and who knows if i am or not. then i'll feel so bad about being unproductive i'll send out like a...
    emilystrange105 emilystrange105
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Jan 2, 2012
    Akeytoyou Akeytoyou
    18-21, M
    May 27, 2015

    i dont know what to do with my life

    and in so scared of the unknown and possibly making bad decisions thats going to haunt me
    wildflwr wildflwr
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 1, 2014

    Is This The End

    I've been married for 12 yrs. We've had our ups & dwns like every couple, but here lately my husband doesn't talk to me unless he wants sumthing. He doesn't appericate anything I do for him or our family. I pretend everyday I'm happy, so my kids don't see how unhappy I am or how...
    lilbit36 lilbit36
    3 Responses Jun 9, 2013

    I hate here,block websites

    and make citizen foolish! I can't use any foreign website and I will lose contact all of you guys one day! So ridiculous!! I do not know what can I do,but I hate my life!!! I do not wanna work ! I will study !! I hope there will be a road that I can survive ..Make some money in...
    NoneEver NoneEver
    26-30, F
    Nov 19, 2014

    Coming To Terms

    This single thought has plagued my mind for so many years now.And to it I say: so what.I am tired of all the expectations, of what I "should have been", or what I might have been. It's depressing and keeping me in a steel cage of sadness.I am here and now. I live and breathe...
    Mirvanna Mirvanna
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jun 5, 2011

    Never reaching my potential.

    Going to the same job doing the same work everyday. Making enough money to be able to go back the next day and do it again.
    nocturnalhound nocturnalhound
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    I wonder if clouds ever look down at us

    and say "wow look, that ones shaped like an idiot!"
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 5, 2014
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2014

    I get very envious sometimes

    as I see others move on in any way... Whether it's starting a family or going to college or doing something. I feel like I have so much excuses and fear ruling my life and I just can't get out and do something. At the zenith point in everybody's life I'm just wasting away... At...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

    I don't know what to ******* do with my life

    and I'm tired of it already I just want to be done with all this and die already I don't see the damn point in even trying
    carazami carazami
    Apr 6, 2016

    Right now my depression

    and anxiety have gotten worse.. I'm 16, I shouldn't have to deal with this... I have no friends at all, a couple people at my job hate me, I feel sad ALL the time, I haven't had a boyfriend since 7th grade, my relationship with my dad has been pretty bad since a couple of weeks...
    vicky1312 vicky1312
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 6, 2015

    What life is that exactly?

    This isn't a life, it's a mere existence that I seem to crawl through day after day... I never thought that I'd be this unhappy at the age of 27.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 17, 2016

    I learned a lot of skills

    and crafts but I don't have a family. I have no children to teach anything I've learned. Everything that I have done will be a total waste of effort when I die. There won't be any point to it at all. None of the fiddle tunes I learned will be passed on. None of the gardening...
    Mossonarock Mossonarock
    46-50, M
    Feb 23, 2016
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