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I Am Wondering What the Point In Living Is

you know , the two comedians that I thought were hilarious both committed suicide. Isn't that weird. 4,417 People

    Everyday, all I feel the urge to do is end it

    all. My depression isn't easing up. Still have no meaning. No purpose. Friends are nowhere to be found. Parents will only judge me. Boyfriend wants to be around everyone but me. This is the true definition of loneliness and it is all too consuming. How can I believe in a...
    Tee0812 Tee0812 18-21, F May 2

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    There's no point now.

    Just need a method which will work in one attempt. I'm done. it's final. I don't want this not. I'm done.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 7

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    What is the point of living?

    I'm alone, completely. I have $6 in change in my purse, my bank account is overdrawn by $700, and I owe more than $10,000 in regular loans, and $30,000 in student loans. I'm unemployed and over-qualified for anyone who's hiring - they won't even look at me. If I don't get a job...
    chumiloons chumiloons 46-50, F 6 Responses Oct 20, 2014

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    I wonder what do I have to live for.

    ..I feel like I want to cut again and I feel like I'll never do anything productive.
    Logix22 Logix22 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Right and wrong. We are taught to differentiate

    the moment we are cognitive and able to reason. One goes through life having a grasp of what brings happiness and what brings sadness. So why do I make the decisions i make? At this point i should be riding the wave of exploration ready and looking for a place to call my own. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Life is so dull 99% of the time.

    It's no wonder humans (and other animals) like getting high. Or creating fantasy worlds in the form of books, films and games. Or even just zoning out and listening to music. It seems everyone to some extent wants to escape reality and the dull monotony of life. How sad. It's a...
    Dontcare8 Dontcare8 26-30, F 14 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    mandyxxx83 mandyxxx83 31-35, F 7 Responses Aug 16, 2014

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    my family dont believe me bout s-abuse they are

    talking to the guy that did it it feels like betrayal im gonna die because i cant deal with life i cant stop talking to me mum and sis there all the family i have i just want them to love me be better if i wasnt here
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 1 Response May 5

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    my boyfriend who I love with all my heart left

    me today an has the girl I hate over and I'm going to Kill myself
    depressedfuck29 depressedfuck29 13-15, F 44 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    i need help please...

    . I can't hurt my girlfriend but I need to go... please safe me before I go;/....
    PerfectMask PerfectMask 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    Death. Why is it such a heart breaking

    conversation and thought to have? Why fear death when that's all we're living for. Why judge when someone's wanting to die early on their own circumstances when your going to die unknowingly. People always say "If you could know when and how your going to die, would you want...
    Madison677 Madison677 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 20

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    Here's the thing that screws with my head.

    Afterlife. What if there is actually an afterlife, and it's just as bad as the current life? What if I escape the pain of this life only to land somewhere worse? When I imagine death, it's liberation, a release from pain. But my family is Catholic, big believers in hell, and...
    repeat36 repeat36 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 20

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    I can assure every single one of us

    that there is a point in living. We have so many opportunities to touch the lives of people around us. Never lose faith that things will get better.
    robbie1280 robbie1280 18-21, T 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    Its a question im asking myself right now

    and I still dont know why I am alive. People always tell me that I should live but if they knew everything, they would understand why I want to die. I am not able to go on and I just cant hold on for nothing. I only went to religion at first because i was scared of death and i...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I want to die.... i'm an idiot,

    i'm a moron, i'm naive, i failed 2 universities, i am not doing my job, i'm lying to my parents, i'm lonely, i don't know what to do with my life, i don't know in who to trust and who to not, i don't even trust in myself, i'm dying inside, i'm lying to myself, i don't know how...
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 47 Responses Aug 8, 2014

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    Today, I got really depressed,

    wanted to crash my car, but didn't, becuase I don't want to commit suicide, becuase that will hurt my family. Life is so pointless, I struggle everyday, especially for the last 10 year, and got nothig to show for it. I'm tired of being awkward, lonely and misunderstood. I'm...
    4EverBlissful 4EverBlissful 26-30, F 7 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I literally at breaking point right

    now it hurts to be alive
    ElizaChloe ElizaChloe 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2014

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    Every Story Has An Ending,

    Bad Or Good When is it? When is it that you know your lost? When your broken into a million pieces and you can't find a single one? When your heart beats but you are no more alive then the ones you envy buried below? I don't know what it is. Or why it is. Why that single moment...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    my depression is at an all time low.

    the days that I'm not working and I decide to get out of bed, I sit on the couch and cut. I feel like I could take one "wrong" cut and no one would find me until the landlord comes knocking for rent. I know this sounds morbid and pathetic but it's how I feel. I was told how...
    mb2688 mb2688 26-30, M Apr 23

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    Sometimes a purpose to keep going is just a

    fantasy, that may be stupid for most but it works for this pisces girl.
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    Multi perterriti cogitandi mortis.

    Cumque elevasset faciem , atque dixerunt: "Non sum . Mori volo ".Hi suprema vox fuit.Hoc mortuo aut ultimo actu
    TheDefaultIllusion TheDefaultIllusion 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Living Out Of Obligation

    I just got out of class. We had to do a quick project/conversation in pairs(language class). being that there was an odd number of students in class today, I just sort of stood there. I tried speaking to someone but was ignored and everyone around me spoke as If I wasn't even...
    collegeboy19 collegeboy19 18-21 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    BrokenIndividual BrokenIndividual 26-30, F 3 Responses May 15, 2014

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    First Time For Everything

    I've been depressed as of lately. Very very depressed, but I always hide it so well in front of the face of others. I start to cut people off, the people that I love the most. I stopped playing roleplaying games, even though I am being forced into playing one tomorrow with our...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    There's no hope of a future that's anything

    but sad and lonely. Every day I think about ending it but the only thing sustaining me is the joy I'll feel when my grandfather dies.
    hreinn hreinn 18-21, M 1 Response May 4

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    I'm still trying to figure this out everyday,

    every minute. My thoughts are just everywhere and it takes forever to calm them down. Whenever I've calmed a certain thought, others pop up. I can never clear my head and think about what's the root of the problem. There's just too many obstacles to go through and I am...
    nirvsemp nirvsemp 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    Wondering, but not finding it,

    life just seems so meaningless when it is impossible for something to value itself. I don't want my life to be summed up by how you people think of me when you people don't like me anyways haha
    surfdas surfdas 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    This is the last thing

    that I am posting on here. I will leave my account up because my family will probably look on this or something. They know I have this account and they look on it regularly. Maybe they will post something on here but I don't know. Good look to the future everyone and please don...
    ZoeAmilia ZoeAmilia 16-17, F 8 Responses Jun 2, 2014

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    Lately I got this deep depressions.

    .. I don't know if I should fight it anymore. Too exhausted to go on when there is nobody to fight for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 26

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    I want to be shred into wings of a butterfly.

    My blood is a velvet coat, covering my last reminiscence of shame. I walk into a hall, the wooden pathway growing thinner, darker. Many doors, though no windows. Maybe, just maybe, I'll fall to the hands of a door trap, knocking the life out of my body.
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    FriendlyBeverage FriendlyBeverage 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 14

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    I started cutting again.

    There's this hole inside of me that never goes away. I feel disgusting, I feel ashamed, I feel tortured, I feel ugly-- and underneath all that I just feel alone. I'm sad. I'm so ******* sad.
    crookedteethteen crookedteethteen 13-15, F Apr 10

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    Please help me tonight has all gone bad,

    depression and anxiety has taken over I now give up
    tracycox tracycox 26-30 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    what is the point if im not

    even living im just surviving
    emptyispure emptyispure 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I am so suicidal and no one

    even cares anymore. They wouldn't notice if I just left. I don't want to be forgotten. I feel so empty and upset
    lllie lllie 18-21, F 49 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    This is my sisters account.

    She tried to commit suicide last night, before she did, she put her phone on my bedside table when I was asleep. I unlocked it when I woke up, and this website came up when I did. I thought it was odd that her phone was there, and I began to read through the messages she had on...
    BethMP BethMP 16-17, F 3 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Why suffer? What is the world benefiting from

    my pain? I'm tired, bruised, and beaten. I'm beaten. You hear me, God? Let me go.
    Owlmaid Owlmaid 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 31, 2014

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    Dad is dying from cancer,

    exams coming up in a week and I'm not 100% prepared, lost most of my friends too. Can it get any more worse?
    Jinyung Jinyung 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 27

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    What Is The Point Of Not Living?

    When you need support it seems you are on your own. But here is the deal you say you hate yourself that you had enough but did you ever stop to realize that despite how you feel that you are truly unique? Did you realize that outside that life's twist and turns can make you want...
    deleted deleted 26-30 40 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    Seriously, what is the point.

    i have no desire to do anything. i don't want money, or fame, or a house, or a car, or nice things. they all just seem so...petty. I just want someone to share my life with, but no one wants a man who's only ambition in life is to love and be loved. So i just sit here, existing...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 13

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    The Freedom Of Not Having A Point

    Maybe there just isn't a point to life at all. Humans have decided that LIFE had to have a point. So all of these human things-your career, relationships, material posessions (sp.?), all of that ****, but does it really matter all that much? We are all going to die. This is not...
    mistressmonique mistressmonique 46-50, F 7 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    Instead Of Fleeing The Absurd Meaninglessness Of Life, We Should Embrace Life Passionately....(Camus)

    NOTE: FOR MENTAL...NOT CHEMICAL DEPRESSION (while they do somewhat dance together)  Sartre commented on one of Camus stories: "The absurd man will not commit suicide; he wants to live, without relinquishing any of his certainty, without a future, without hope, without illusions...
    1NewWorldToronto 1NewWorldToronto 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    I see absolutely No point anymore.

    .. it's not an attention post. I'm just tired. tired of everything. I don't try to be like I am all the time,but I try .finally hit me today though. bye.
    HenryYamada HenryYamada 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    There really isn't a point to life.

    In the end, every single human will die and the Earth will decay. Everything we do in life is just there to act as a distraction from that harsh truth. The only reason I haven't ended my life yet is because I could never hurt my loved ones like that.
    uncle9583 uncle9583 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    it's getting worse. after a fight with my

    family tonight I'm doing really bad
    ThatOneNerdGirl ThatOneNerdGirl 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've been thinking way too much lately

    and not at all about anything that'll get me anywhere. As much as I want to I can't even try to give a damn about my future, whether it's 5 days or 5 years from now.
    TheDefaultIllusion TheDefaultIllusion 22-25, M May 10

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