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I Am Wondering What the Point In Living Is

you know , the two comedians that I thought were hilarious both committed suicide. Isn't that weird. 3,884 People

    I've tricked myself into thinking I could be

    something more. Something more than a miserable monster. Something more than a weak and pathetic person who deserves to die. For 11 years my dreams were all about death. Then I got better and I had dreams and goals of getting an engineering degree. Of having a family. Of...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 13

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    I'm just so scared.. I'm freaking out

    and slowly going mental. I am a functionally insane person. Yet, I can somewhat control myself... I really don't care about death, I think about killing myself everyday. It's nothing new, I don't attempt it, but I think about it. I keep writing everything down when I have these...
    chaotickisses chaotickisses 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    Well not much really.

    I've decide that should I fail my college course and find no other way to obtain happiness, I'll probably give up. I won't even try any more. I'll quit dreaming I have dreams since I really don't have any. I'll stop living right then.
    Sourminds Sourminds 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wish we just skipped to the afterlife.

    I wish we were never created. I hate this world. I feel stuck inside this body. I believe in God but sometimes I question his reasons for depression. Why he created it. Idk but all these words are coming out of my head. I would never let people know what I'm thinking. Only EP...
    kjonesr kjonesr 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am so suicidal and no one

    even cares anymore. They wouldn't notice if I just left. I don't want to be forgotten. I feel so empty and upset
    lllie lllie 18-21, F 50 Responses Mar 27

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    Meaningless

    Well, life hits me again like a baseball bat in the jaw. No, I didn't lose a family member or my dog, it's just that in the end of the day, when I have nothing more to do, I start thinking about stuff. Thinking about what happened to me today, what could've been the day if I...
    Darkz0n3 Darkz0n3 22-25, M 16 Responses Apr 19, 2010

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    Over time I my view of the world,

    of life and everything has changed, I guess just to a more realistic viewpoint. It's such an interesting experience to feel able to look at people, really look at them, feeling as if you're seeing right through them. Being able to analyze it, and see it for what it is...
    Axelerator3000 Axelerator3000 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 13

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    Life is so dull 99% of the time.

    It's no wonder humans (and other animals) like getting high. Or creating fantasy worlds in the form of books, films and games. Or even just zoning out and listening to music. It seems everyone to some extent wants to escape reality and the dull monotony of life. How sad. It's a...
    Dontcare8 Dontcare8 26-30, F 19 Responses 6 days ago

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    Your skin isn't paper,

    don't cut it. Your face isn't a mask, don't cover it. Your size isn't a book, don't judge it. Your life isn't a film, don't end it. You are beautiful and you don't need to do this to yourself.
    RadiateLove RadiateLove 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 4

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I have moments when I'm happy but then I get home and I'm so down and nothing helps take it away. I've started cutting again. I can't sleep. Death just sounds so good. To never have to face everyday crap again. But killing myself seems like giving up so I just cut or starve...
    DarkLumo27 DarkLumo27 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 14

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    People are so dumb! I mean,

    i think they are blind or somewhat. Once i thought my family was different, i thought they had a better understanding in life and were not chained by these social matters (vanity, money, job, social prestige, and all this crap). But as times passed by i realized they're just...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 16

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    I honestly don't know what to do anymore It's

    hard to continue acting happy :( when inside I'm breaking each day I just want the pain to end I want everything to end I give up
    SavedByBands SavedByBands 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 14

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    Will You

    As I search through my desperationsWill you,Guide me away from my pastSpeak for me till I find my voiceFight for me till I find my armorWill you..
    anathema09 anathema09 22-25, M 5 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    I think about it Quite often lately Not

    as a first choice but as a back up My life seems to have gone on for 32yrs with no point No meaningful achievements Can't find a place to work that doesn't make me want to kill myself I've been fired from most jobs worked like a dog and always unhappy with all of them Always...
    MNI1982 MNI1982 26-30, F 13 hrs ago

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    I want to die.... i'm an idiot,

    i'm a moron, i'm naive, i failed 2 universities, i am not doing my job, i'm lying to my parents, i'm lonely, i don't know what to do with my life, i don't know in who to trust and who to not, i don't even trust in myself, i'm dying inside, i'm lying to myself, i don't know how...
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 45 Responses Aug 8

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    The neck or the wrist?

    My neck or my wrist? An oath of blood or a promise of death? The neck or the wrist? My neck or my wrist?
    Faelanthewulf Faelanthewulf 16-17, M 3 Responses Sep 14

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    Besides a few friends I have no reason to live.

    I've lost my sports, my social life due to getting homeschooled, I suffer from social anxiety so I don't even go anywhere. I'm depressed nonstop. My family is all torn apart. Please God take me away so I don't have to do it myself, I'm so unhappy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    One More Sunset

    Nothing ever seems to make me feel better than seeing a vibrantly colorful sunset. I watched one yesterday and it was amazing, I cried. I keep on telling myself one more sunset, to try to convince myself to fight the dark thoughts and this damn disease. Being sick sucks...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 15, 2013

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    This is weird: everyone seems to write stuff

    about how they want to kill themselves or about other people who want to kill themselves in this topic. And I just want the answer to this question :). Although, I too have a light form of depression (damn I fall under the stereotype!). So, mainly I want to know things worthy...
    SekaiNoSoul SekaiNoSoul 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 15

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    The difficult part of deciding on suicide is

    what once you do you're not coming back. You have to prepare for it. Settle things before you do it so no one has a trace or motive for why you did. The last thing has to be becoming content with not coming back. I would think little time is spent thinking of people around you.
    Thomasjcox Thomasjcox 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 21

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    What Is The Point Of Not Living?

    When you need support it seems you are on your own. But here is the deal you say you hate yourself that you had enough but did you ever stop to realize that despite how you feel that you are truly unique? Did you realize that outside that life's twist and turns can make you want...
    deleted deleted 26-30 40 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    I mean. You are really insignificant.

    You just spend time preparing yourself for a boring life and school, and just bs your way through most of it. Ultimately, you are just preparing yourself to die.
    stormyskies12 stormyskies12 13-15, M 16 Responses Sep 16

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    The Freedom Of Not Having A Point

    Maybe there just isn't a point to life at all. Humans have decided that LIFE had to have a point. So all of these human things-your career, relationships, material posessions (sp.?), all of that ****, but does it really matter all that much? We are all going to die. This is not...
    mistressmonique mistressmonique 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    Today I sat down on the ground.

    Stared at a door and just thought about slitting my wrists. I just sat there for an hour staring arms spread out like I actually cut them. I started wondering if this was why I wanted to see my veins so badly. Wondering what my purpose was. Why I ate the things I ate, drank...
    heylookineededanameok heylookineededanameok 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 11

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    I have these feelings every couple of days

    where I just can't see my life changing in the next couple of years. When I was 14 I never would have imagined to be living Iike I am now. When I was 15 my best friend moved to Canada and that's pretty much when everything went downhill. I stopped going out, lost interest in the...
    Kampion Kampion 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 12

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    The night comes...the day ends.

    .time to reflect..time to think over and over...and ask yourself...what's there more to life? Seems like time passes by...you try hard..you live..you suffer...and it all repeats again...then deep inside you find a void and wonder if it will ever get filled
    genesis99 genesis99 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I've never done self harm,

    but I've thought about it, I've also thought about suicide and I've even made a plan about how I would do it. I am so alone and I barely even know what's stopping me from becoming nothing anymore.
    ozziegirl88 ozziegirl88 13-15 2 Responses Sep 18

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    This is the last thing

    that I am posting on here. I will leave my account up because my family will probably look on this or something. They know I have this account and they look on it regularly. Maybe they will post something on here but I don't know. Good look to the future everyone and please don...
    ZoeAmilia ZoeAmilia 16-17, F 8 Responses Jun 2

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    First Time For Everything

    I've been depressed as of lately. Very very depressed, but I always hide it so well in front of the face of others. I start to cut people off, the people that I love the most. I stopped playing roleplaying games, even though I am being forced into playing one tomorrow with our...
    catboydale catboydale 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    This is my sisters account.

    She tried to commit suicide last night, before she did, she put her phone on my bedside table when I was asleep. I unlocked it when I woke up, and this website came up when I did. I thought it was odd that her phone was there, and I began to read through the messages she had on...
    BethMP BethMP 16-17, F 3 Responses May 3

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    I'm not sure how to start off,

    I'm not the best when it comes to communications, but I want give this a try. I'm not sure how this will come across, but I want to give this a try. This is for anyone who is depressed, feeling like a failure, who has losing hope, or has just given up hope. You are probably...
    BudBorden88 BudBorden88 26-30, M 4 Responses Jun 7

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    A well known speaker started off his seminar by

    holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked. "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you - but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the 20 dollar note up. He then asked. "Who still wants it...
    Selanis Selanis 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 15

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    Living Out Of Obligation

    I just got out of class. We had to do a quick project/conversation in pairs(language class). being that there was an odd number of students in class today, I just sort of stood there. I tried speaking to someone but was ignored and everyone around me spoke as If I wasn't even...
    collegeboy19 collegeboy19 18-21 2 Responses May 10, 2013

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    Evening Walk

    Clinging to your index finger We went for an evening walk, To the lake side The returning sun tweaking our cheeks Flowers smiling at us Cattle herds giving us way The cool sea breeze relaxing us Went past the lively evening church Full of people and full of life We stayed a...
    anathema09 anathema09 22-25, M 4 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    Right and wrong. We are taught to differentiate

    the moment we are cognitive and able to reason. One goes through life having a grasp of what brings happiness and what brings sadness. So why do I make the decisions i make? At this point i should be riding the wave of exploration ready and looking for a place to call my own. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Every Story Has An Ending,

    Bad Or Good When is it? When is it that you know your lost? When your broken into a million pieces and you can't find a single one? When your heart beats but you are no more alive then the ones you envy buried below? I don't know what it is. Or why it is. Why that single moment...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 5

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    BrokenIndividual BrokenIndividual 26-30, F 3 Responses May 15

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    Seriously. We simply die.

    Why live in the first place? Especially if you aren't enjoying life. It doesn't make any sense whatsoever, someone please enlighten me! :/
    stupidfears stupidfears 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm pregnant. And I hate my life.

    Help. I'm scared and hopeless.
    NataliPurtyEyes NataliPurtyEyes 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12

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    I literally at breaking point right

    now it hurts to be alive
    ElizaChloe ElizaChloe 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 3

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    Whenever I think about the future,

    I mainly get sad. I don't want to be a part of society. I don't want to wake up every morning, go to work, come home, sleep and repeat it. I don't want to have to work to earn money to pay for the things I need...to be able to work. I don't want to slave over textbooks and pay...
    Tixol Tixol 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 6

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    I don't want to exist anymore.

    My life is fine, everything is good. Good family, nice house, great friends, I do well in school, I have no major problems in my life. Except for the way I feel inside, it's like I feel the weight of the worlds sadness 100 fold. I feel happiness too, frequently. But I constantly...
    Roseandrea Roseandrea 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 27

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    Why do I continue to suffer day in

    and day out? Everyone I know has abandoned me. What will be left of me when I'm dead? There was nothing when I lived. People assume it's never too late to change but for me it is. Abused at childhood, raped in my teens, isolated in adult years. I've rotted while my rapist...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 13

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    I'm beginning to wonder.

    I have lost everything in life now. The only person who cared for me. What's left for me if I recover.
    iamsodead iamsodead 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 18

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    Why suffer? What is the world benefiting from

    my pain? I'm tired, bruised, and beaten. I'm beaten. You hear me, God? Let me go.
    Owlmaid Owlmaid 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 31

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    I want to kill myself.

    Whenever someone asks what I want to do with my life I say that I want to be a veterinarian. I get excited because ideally, it's what I would like to do. But I can't see myself actually doing that. I can't see myself doing anything. Ill be in my car, or at home, and I can only...
    Thehorrid Thehorrid 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    mandyxxx83 mandyxxx83 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 16

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    my boyfriend who I love with all my heart left

    me today an has the girl I hate over and I'm going to Kill myself
    depressedfuck29 depressedfuck29 13-15, F 47 Responses Jul 5

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 21

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    MarienaMorello MarienaMorello 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I've always been one to live by hope

    and looking forward to things. Now I feel as though my future is bleak as I'll never be able to break my crippling shyness with no-one here to help me. I always make terrible decisions that I regret and ruin everything; now I have very little wish to wake up in the morning. I...
    Nexile90 Nexile90 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 10

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    Today, I got really depressed,

    wanted to crash my car, but didn't, becuase I don't want to commit suicide, becuase that will hurt my family. Life is so pointless, I struggle everyday, especially for the last 10 year, and got nothig to show for it. I'm tired of being awkward, lonely and misunderstood. I'm...
    4EverBlissful 4EverBlissful 26-30, F 7 Responses May 27

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