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I Am Working On Being Truely Alive

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    I'm just always trying to find the meaning in

    things.I have bouts of suicidal depression at time but it's always overcome by just the vivacious mess of being alive the feeling of hope movies and books and tv shows and just people really give me. I have this intense phobia of wasting my life away or looking back and feeling...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 16-17, F Feb 11

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    Alive...

    I have been living a dream for the past two years. Doing what ever i could to block out the world. In other peoples eyes i was living, doing things they didn't dare. But truely living is feeling things, anything! I want to wake up and start living properly... I wan't to...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 12, 2010

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    I Am Working On...

    Finding a reason to smile.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2011

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    Alive

    These past 2 years I have felt so dead inside.  I do not know if it is the fear of getting older, what I gave with my family and have nothing in return or just the feeling of being let down, and used. But I have set some goals for myself this week and I am...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 7 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    First Step

    Yesterday was just an ordinary day. I did not dread it. It was around 7pm and I got on the bus and went shopping. The sky was filled with dark clouds and pieces of sunset. The air was moist and "beachy". I was calm and content buying groceries. I happen to look in the jewelry...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Sep 14, 2011

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    Life Is .......

    Life is happening, love it.Life is love, feel it.Life is spirit, nurture it.Life is laughter, enjoy it.Life is happiness, strive for it.Life is opportunity, benefit from it.Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it...
    Annikka Annikka 51-55, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2012

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    Well I say this because of several events that have happened. Firstly, I've always had this irrational fear of a certain room in my house. It was my bedroom but I never slept in it...
    44617jonathan 44617jonathan 18-21, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My parents are pretty much the epitome of the American Dream, but ascension into the middle-class has made them pretty ****** people. They both grew up really poor and had to raise...
    HipHipJorge HipHipJorge 26-30 1 Response 24 mins ago

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    I've always been alone, starting in grade school. I had a few friends once in a while, but they left me too. It was like that until college. Nobody seemed to like me. And when...
    churchworker churchworker 46-50, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Ever feel as if you keep dying? And for every "death", each time you have awoken from what felt like a death, you're never the same- who said you ever changed? You pull yourself...
    WaterSpiritt WaterSpiritt 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Ive been single for 4everyears and its annoying. Plus I truely miss that sweet feeling...
    SweetAlone13 SweetAlone13 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Whats the point of me being alive if all i so is get screamed at for nothing be called a worthless piece of **** get stuck serving my mean *** mother the rest of my life and cant...
    timeladynat timeladynat 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Last Saint Patrick's Day I went out with some girl friends from cosmetology school. I hadn't really binge drank since I left college so I was excited for a real "night out" college...
    victoriaxbx victoriaxbx 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I'm a 16 year old girl. My whole life I have been trying to make my parents proud, but I've never been able to socialize properly with kids my age, I was always numb or upset...
    AGirlSearchingForAnswers AGirlSearchingForAnswers 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Sorry, for not being pretty. Sorry, for not having money. Sorry, for being a loner. Sorry for everything I have done and for not being good enough
    violetangel violetangel 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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    It is so obvious that many Young People cannot stand being borend and just being with themselves. So they go andd ask for others to entertain them, or they Chat.... truth is they...
    Dreammmer Dreammmer 46-50, M 4 hrs ago

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    Being a Father of 6 is not easy! but I love being with my kids! Working from home has been great! being able to surprise them at school is great I love it! I always wanted more...
    mcateamgold mcateamgold 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    4 months ago I found myself missing someone, someone who once meant so much to me had become a stranger. I felt like I couldn't let that happen, I didn't care if I came off as...
    MyThoughtsInWords MyThoughtsInWords 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I wake up and do the same thing over and over again. Patterns patterns, obligations. Details of life pass me by as I indulge in societal humors. Nature, friends, adventure, living...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    ***Post of the Day*** Find out more at: www.facebook.com/FavorUponYou I am a new Muslim woman from Richmond, VA. I had never even met Muslims before last year, and had no idea...
    FavorUponYou FavorUponYou 22-25, M Apr 8

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    I'm tired from crying from cutting from being lonley from fake friends from lies from all the dramas from the pain from wishing to die from breathing from blinking from smiling and...
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Working out in so many forms- the gym, challenging or recreational physical activity, yoga or Pilates, make me feel proud of my body. It helps me de-stress and I enjoy doing it...
    ateamgirl ateamgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I really do. I dont know if its being a woman, but i hate working to look pretty. I hate the idea of putting two iron plates heated up to about 350 degrees and putting it to my...
    TheVampireQueen92 TheVampireQueen92 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    my mom married 3 times. each guy treated her worse than the one before. the last one was my dad who abused her, his kids, her kids by previous marriages, and anyone else within...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    met a 40ish looking lady in the gym; started chatting thinking she is my age, wow she said she is 67 being working out 15 yrs; she doesn't even look 40! she asked what I am...
    mindwithawhy mindwithawhy 41-45, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I started working out at the gym this. I want to lose about 20 lbs and gain definition. I'm a 38 year old woman and I've never done weights before. This week, after being very...
    lee1898 lee1898 36-40, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    ***Post of the Day*** Find out more at: www.facebook.com/FavorUponYou Peace be unto you. I became Muslim almost three years ago, right after Ramadan in between the two Eids. My...
    FavorUponYou FavorUponYou 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    Oh god how I hate lies and fake complements , being honest isn't a crime !
    nero1991 nero1991 22-25, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I love being with young men and enjoy their company. I do enjoy travelling with older men too, and enjoy wonderful holidays
    PinkyPinks PinkyPinks 31-35, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I was seeing this guy and he kept meeting up with him and having sex then I realised that he was using me, he only used to message me when he wanted to meet up and have sex now his...
    anikaxo anikaxo 18-21, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I've been a nudist all my life so I've been perfectly okay being nude around boys and girls. My gf is also a nudist and we go to the same school and have the same classes and also...
    TheGrandPoobah TheGrandPoobah 13-15, M 6 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Why do people judge you easily when they don't even know you at all? Just because they didn't like my question, they reacted like as if I degrade people based on their orientation...
    MissPurple912 MissPurple912 18-21, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I'm tired of being blamed for everything. Always having my flaws and mistakes pointed out. Getting told I'm not good enough. I'm sorry, but last I checked I'm a human too.
    Thatbrokengirl1 Thatbrokengirl1 16-17, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    So this is kinda hard to talk about. But my friends are leaving for two weeks because of easter break. They are all at places they don't have Internet (or they are not online...
    2wrp 2wrp 13-15, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Literally feels like I am only alive because of my boyfriend.. Can't wait to be engaged. It feels like he is my hero. He's changed me so much and made me such a better person.
    pampsy pampsy 18-21, F Mar 19

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    AgeMeet.com is the #1 Age Gap Dating Site for younger women older men dating . It is Free to post & browse 550,000+ active members. We have been in the online dating business for...
    fionacc11 fionacc11 26-30, F Mar 21

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    AgeMeet.com is the #1 Age Gap Dating Site for younger women older men dating . It is Free to post & browse 550,000+ active members. We have been in the online dating business for...
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    The woods are such a beautiful and relaxing place to be in. It can be loud or quiet. Appear dead or alive. There's a certain energy that thickens the atmosphere and I never want to...
    FangsAndFurs13 FangsAndFurs13 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    WHY AM I ALIVE?! It's the question that hunts every single day. What's my use? It's sooo bloody frustratin' Anybody got some answers??? Anyone???
    AwkwardChameleon7 AwkwardChameleon7 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    just to let you all know, im alive!
    Jessica483 Jessica483 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I do appreciate my life and all, but if I cold change my amount of liveable years with a dying person, I would. I'm not selfish enough to commit suicide and I just couldn't. I have...
    apatheticcoldheart apatheticcoldheart 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I need to love and be loved! I need to like and be liked! I need to smile and be smiled at! I need to speak and be spoken to! I need to be held and to hold! I need to kiss and be...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    You was In my dreams again last night, We Touched lips, You Held me tight, I Woke up feeling you in my heart, In that one moment I felt so alive. X
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F Apr 4

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    There were days that i feel so locked up.. too lazy to take a bath, brush my teeth, shut off my phone line... just googling all day stuffs about boredom, sadness, life... am i...
    hollyhelly hollyhelly 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    Some days I don't feel alive. At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Because we depend on other people for our happiness. I used to believe my ex made me so feel so alive. So what? He's gone now and I'm dead again? Nah. I make myself happy now. So...
    CindyLovely CindyLovely 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    The choices I have made in life were suppose to lead me to a more fulfilling life. It's like I was tricked into thinking these choices were the right ones. I have come to find that...
    sparked22 sparked22 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I use the time to recollect my thoughts and reflect upon my day. I like to use my time to get things done or procrastinate. I love being around my family and friends just not all...
    fgarci04 fgarci04 18-21, F Mar 27

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    Well I started working out again and this is my second week of working out non stop everyday except the weekends. And I've been eating healthy, 5 meals a day and I feel great!
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years now and we love each other to bits but last June his visa ran out and he had to go back to his country I told him I would wait and that some...
    xbubblesxboo xbubblesxboo 22-25, F Apr 4

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    Yes I am a working man. I like working on cars and on houses.
    Chase1997 Chase1997 16-17, M Apr 5