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I Am Working On Being Truely Alive

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    Alive

    These past 2 years I have felt so dead inside.  I do not know if it is the fear of getting older, what I gave with my family and have nothing in return or just the feeling of being let down, and used. But I have set some goals for myself this week and I am...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 7 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    Life Is .......

    Life is happening, love it.Life is love, feel it.Life is spirit, nurture it.Life is laughter, enjoy it.Life is happiness, strive for it.Life is opportunity, benefit from it.Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it...
    Annikka Annikka 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2012

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    Alive...

    I have been living a dream for the past two years. Doing what ever i could to block out the world. In other peoples eyes i was living, doing things they didn't dare. But truely living is feeling things, anything! I want to wake up and start living properly... I wan't to...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 12, 2010

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    First Step

    Yesterday was just an ordinary day. I did not dread it. It was around 7pm and I got on the bus and went shopping. The sky was filled with dark clouds and pieces of sunset. The air was moist and "beachy". I was calm and content buying groceries. I happen to look in the jewelry...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Sep 14, 2011

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    I'm just always trying to find the meaning in

    things.I have bouts of suicidal depression at time but it's always overcome by just the vivacious mess of being alive the feeling of hope movies and books and tv shows and just people really give me. I have this intense phobia of wasting my life away or looking back and feeling...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 16-17, F Feb 11

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    I Am Working On...

    Finding a reason to smile.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2011

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    My family, for the last few years, has treated me poorly. Sometimes as a child, I would get treated badly, I was obnoxious and loud, then again, what kid isn't at the age of 10? It...
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    A long time ago I went to the doctors complaing of depression and a lack of motivation to live my life, they put me on medical benefits and left me there to rot. After 15years of...
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    im tired of crying . im tired of cutting myself . im tired of being alive . if i ever actually had a conversation with God in person, I'm pretty sure he'd hate me. If I were God...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    The roles of men and women used to be so clear... the woman... would take care of the home and the kids, the man would provide the food and safety. They had respect for one another...
    anAquiredTaste anAquiredTaste 36-40, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    But it has its moments that i am grateful for being alive
    MsMightyMe MsMightyMe 13-15, F Sep 23

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    Being gay is difficult. Being an Asian gay is more difficult. Being an Asian gay with an average income family is even more difficult. Being a well-educated Asian gay adds more to...
    leo1510 leo1510 22-25, M 1 Response 34 mins ago

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    Some-days, I feel that I am the loneliest person in the world. Now, that “in the world” feeling may be a bit of hyper-collegiate over-dramatisme, of latent-teenage psychopathy...
    Newydd Newydd 18-21 Sep 11

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    I love to feel alive and some experiences do that...when am on the road driving and there is no traffic I just feel so alive... Also when I listen to worship music it takes me away...
    CurvyandChic CurvyandChic 22-25, F Sep 18

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    Bare with me please it's a long story but I do need help! Okay so I worked in a photo studio place and as I love photography I figured I'd finally found a job I could stay in for...
    monstahmash monstahmash 22-25, F Sep 15

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    After a breakup, I feel like we all want to better ourselves. We want to show the sucker who broke our heart that we will be fine without them. With that being said, I am working...
    anitamigna anitamigna 18-21, F Sep 23

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    People whom I'm jealous of that pompous guy, vengeful old man and also spammers thank you for all the hatred, the condescending tone of lectures. Thank you, I love it that I can't...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    Recently we were doin fitness testing for my p.E class. We were doing dips and I sprained the bone in my chest( idk what it's called) and Golly did it hurt! It was the pain that...
    NeverLooseYourFlames NeverLooseYourFlames 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 11

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    The rain is coming down heavily. The neighborhood is quiet. It's October and it marks a full 2 years and 2 months of being single. It's been 2 months since I've made any physical...
    SuperGinger41 SuperGinger41 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    HKT1993 HKT1993 18-21, F 9 Responses Sep 7

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    I lose interest in people fast, friendships are pointless especially when they realize they can't get any freebies off you. As I get older, I'm starting to become like my great...
    LadyOutspoken LadyOutspoken 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 13

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    Another wonderful day working from home. The work is okay, being naked as I work is the wonderful part. I have always enjoyed being nude. I wish the world can see the wonder in...
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    It's been just over 24hrs since the anaesthetic wore off, and my stitches are pulling under the heavy bandaging. Theatre surgeons freak me out, I don't know if it's their blue...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2 36-40, F Sep 19

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    Night is my favorite time of the day. When everyone is sleeping, everything still and it's just me, darkness and the stars. I feel so alive. I would usually go write something or...
    anon152 anon152 13-15 Sep 19

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    So one of my best friends recently lied to me. Here's the whole story: when I met him after getting my new job, he was having some legal troubles with a DUI. I thought nothing of...
    chubbystringbean chubbystringbean 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 20

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    You know that question every person with at least half a brain ponders at some time during their life, the ultimate question, the big "why?" Why am I here? Why is anything here...
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    I am living in Northern England, rapidly approaching the age of 35, depressed that I've never been able to have a real social life. The problem is that I'm still living with my...
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    My urges to have sex with men are so strong now. I love my wife but it has become clear to me that I am gay. When I admit my homosexuality to myself I feel so free. When I tell...
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