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I Am Working On Being Truely Alive

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    I Am Working On...

    Finding a reason to smile.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 1 Response Jan 5, 2011

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    Alive

    These past 2 years I have felt so dead inside.  I do not know if it is the fear of getting older, what I gave with my family and have nothing in return or just the feeling of being let down, and used. But I have set some goals for myself this week and I am...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 7 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    Alive...

    I have been living a dream for the past two years. Doing what ever i could to block out the world. In other peoples eyes i was living, doing things they didn't dare. But truely living is feeling things, anything! I want to wake up and start living properly... I wan't to...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 12, 2010

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    I'm just always trying to find the meaning in

    things.I have bouts of suicidal depression at time but it's always overcome by just the vivacious mess of being alive the feeling of hope movies and books and tv shows and just people really give me. I have this intense phobia of wasting my life away or looking back and feeling...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 18-21, F Feb 11, 2014

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    Life Is .......

    Life is happening, love it.Life is love, feel it.Life is spirit, nurture it.Life is laughter, enjoy it.Life is happiness, strive for it.Life is opportunity, benefit from it.Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it...
    Annikka Annikka 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2012

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    First Step

    Yesterday was just an ordinary day. I did not dread it. It was around 7pm and I got on the bus and went shopping. The sky was filled with dark clouds and pieces of sunset. The air was moist and "beachy". I was calm and content buying groceries. I happen to look in the jewelry...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Sep 14, 2011

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    imdaddydom imdaddydom 26-30, M 3 hrs ago

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    House to myself last Thursday evening/night, so after watching some naughty Vids on the web to get me excited I had a few hours sleep until 2am. Then dressed only in some light...
    Oldmikeuk Oldmikeuk 51-55, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    This is my life goal is to return to the internal state before dying inside. To return to the days when I dreamed and the sun shined bright where it was a joy to awaken not a...
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

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    It has been awhile since I've had some fun and felt really alive. I've been working hard, and spending a lot of time on the road commuting. I am overdue for some excitement. But...
    Danielle1011 Danielle1011 51-55, F 21 hrs ago

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    This is true I hate being judged by people who don't know me unless there in my shoes yes I am lazy I have been all my life true but there are other factors one 1 I am immature 2 I...
    jon200547 jon200547 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    What is Depression? I was asked today what depression is like to me... And it really took me by surprise, because usually, no one cares to ask, because no one cares. See...
    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Taking my leap towards my calling. I'm tired of nay sayers I'm tired of being drained of all motivational energies. I'm afraid and I'm stressed of the unknown however I feel...
    mariowong85 mariowong85 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So, seriously, I am working on myself in every way imaginable. I have recently started TG therapy to go on hormone therapy with the end result being a complete sex change. I was...
    AbbieOMalley AbbieOMalley 46-50, T 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Wife And I Were Married In 2005 After Being Together For 4 Years. We Were Married Almost 6 Years When I Found Out She Was Cheating On Me. She Had Used Her Cell Phone Along With...
    jeepman2381 jeepman2381 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    How am I lucky you might ask, well when I was 3 me and my dad where coming home from dropping off our family pet at the sitter. As we pull to go off to are normal drive a drunk...
    afterlife12 afterlife12 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Mozilla Firefox stopped working. It gave me an error message: Proxy server blah blah blah. But for whatever reason Mozilla stops working, there is a simple remedy. In your...
    hartinar hartinar 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    I was doing very well in jan 11 2011. I was working in okla. City, by trade I'm a completion Engineer in the oil and gas bus.i lived 75 miles south of okc. On my way home I had a...
    gknapp62 gknapp62 51-55, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am a newly wed, and my husband has three kids (11yrs, 2 yrs, 11 months) with two other women. I have a 2 yr old from a previous relationship (whose "real" dad has never been...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    My story isn't quite like everyone else.. we live about 300 miles away so we only get the "princess" during the summer but that is a few months of my house being taken over and...
    EvilStepMom33 EvilStepMom33 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My eyes, pools of dark water, have blossomed into iridescent lotuses, for I am surrounded by so many wonderful, beautiful people. Even without my sweet mother, I am feeling loved...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am truly working on the becoming the best me as possible. I am the type of person that has put others before myself and I am aware I do this, so, I have to find a happy medium...
    AwakenEdge AwakenEdge 41-45, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hi I would like to vent a little bit.I Hate getting treated like I am stupid in front of my spouse friends and in laws.They treat me like I am garbage or treat me like I am stupid...
    Fruitypunch15 Fruitypunch15 31-35 Jun 27

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    I just got a denial letter for food stamps. I am pregnant, both my husband and I work full time jobs and we already have one child in the home. We have no money left after paying...
    chibinovachan chibinovachan 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    SS16 is so mouthy! He had been in our bathroom using my body lotion. He has done this before & was told by me & his dad to stay out of my personal things! I gave bottle of lotion...
    rrthompson rrthompson 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Fathers day was such an awkward moment and hurtful time for me. His seated right there, as people go all "to all fathers" and i fake puke in my head. Dude hasn't done **** for us...
    suziewuzie suziewuzie 22-25, F Jun 26

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    New Orleans My dad is from rural Louisiana, so this past father's day I treated him to a proper Louisiana feast including my first attempt at cooking gumbo. I wanted to get...
    lovingone lovingone 36-40, F Jun 25

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    I went to my first DBT group therapy session today. It was weird to say the least, and VERY expensive. There was only three other members and two of them were in a relationship, a...
    shoxic shoxic 22-25, F Jun 25

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    I love spending time in the woods. Shadows of the trees, singing birds, the smell of wet wood and fresh herby air make me feel alive again. Sometimes when I go for a walk alone I...
    OpenlyHonestly OpenlyHonestly 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. We all are made from the same thing. We all originated from a mother. When...
    realsweetbaby realsweetbaby 18-21, F Jun 24

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    The older I get, the less happy I am with myself. The last good year was when I was ten. Ever since...it's been a lifetime of longing to go back while knowing I can't. I keep...
    Emeryael Emeryael 26-30, F Jun 23

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    I just went to a store and tried on clothes. didn't lock the door. unfortunately nobody walked in. but I did walk around with my fly open without any boxers on. there was a girl...
    opendad05 opendad05 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 23

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    Do not worry.. I am still alive... I still feel some breathing difficulties...but I am still alive.. Just days eat my hours.. Who knows where I would be after an hour or a day or...
    KAREEM77 KAREEM77 36-40, M Jun 23

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    Greetings, Its been quite some time since my last post. Well, I've deleted it, but still. I had a nervous breakdown. I couldn't sleep, study basically i couldn't do anything for...
    BlakeUndefined BlakeUndefined 18-21, M Jun 23

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    I think once you have been married for 20+ years, you expect that the relationship is going to make it, even if it isn't perfect. I met my ex when I was 20 in FL, we were both...
    RJWLAW48 RJWLAW48 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 22

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    I go for gyming for 1 hour and then after a 3 hours gap, i would go for my MMA training . I like working out, because it keeps me Alive and active to perform daily chores. What...
    Gladtobehere55 Gladtobehere55 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I had an accident last year in the month of September and i had almost gave up on myself as my eyes were completely damaged and i was in depression that whether i'am may be able to...
    Gladtobehere55 Gladtobehere55 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    so new to being a Sub and on EP. but thta is ok, with my working hours I`m not here often. the dom I wanted did ot want me and it is fine now. yes, it did hurt at first, and I did...
    cuteclarissa1 cuteclarissa1 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 22

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    I don't know if this is the right place to search for answers, but I'm at a loss of where to turn. About a year ago I was working in a remote camp environment where you're living...
    dpower1131 dpower1131 26-30, F Jun 20

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    I can't help but miss the days when I had dreams and aspirations...I let them go and live empty and tortured in limbo. I see that picture of me with my jest skateboard and weep...
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Jun 20

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    Being the type of person (I'm laid back, easy to please , and never complains) isn't easy. Nice people finish last in life and thats just the way it is. Whether it come to...
    Lynn1119 Lynn1119 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 19