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I Am Working On Being Truely Alive

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    I'm just always trying to find the meaning in

    things.I have bouts of suicidal depression at time but it's always overcome by just the vivacious mess of being alive the feeling of hope movies and books and tv shows and just people really give me. I have this intense phobia of wasting my life away or looking back and feeling...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 16-17, F Feb 11

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    Alive

    These past 2 years I have felt so dead inside.  I do not know if it is the fear of getting older, what I gave with my family and have nothing in return or just the feeling of being let down, and used. But I have set some goals for myself this week and I am...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 7 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    First Step

    Yesterday was just an ordinary day. I did not dread it. It was around 7pm and I got on the bus and went shopping. The sky was filled with dark clouds and pieces of sunset. The air was moist and "beachy". I was calm and content buying groceries. I happen to look in the jewelry...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Sep 14, 2011

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    Life Is .......

    Life is happening, love it.Life is love, feel it.Life is spirit, nurture it.Life is laughter, enjoy it.Life is happiness, strive for it.Life is opportunity, benefit from it.Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it...
    Annikka Annikka 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2012

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    I Am Working On...

    Finding a reason to smile.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2011

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    Alive...

    I have been living a dream for the past two years. Doing what ever i could to block out the world. In other peoples eyes i was living, doing things they didn't dare. But truely living is feeling things, anything! I want to wake up and start living properly... I wan't to...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 12, 2010

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    Okay, so this me wanting to vent about some stuff. I don't expect anyone to have sympathy for my small problems. I am afraid of having to work. Sue me. I am about to finish my the...
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    Firstly I would like to say that I arrived at these most important principles after what I could term a whirlwind of experiences, mostly negative, that helped to shape these...
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    I'm so happy and thankfull for being alive. I'm so happy that I can hear music and see colors and beautiful peoples and landscapes. And I'm so thankful that I have really good...
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    Active efforts to work on our marriage are "on-hold" to an extent over the holidays at my wife's insistence, though I struggle to believe good things can come from letting serious...
    WishfulGuy WishfulGuy 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 15

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    I think being a real man is very difficult But I think that my father is a real man coz when he was only 6 years old he started working and for small money he did very hard jobs...
    Stevejons Stevejons 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I Being Alone Well, I guess he'll make it official tomorrow. Hubby went berserk because he broke into my laptop and found an email I had sent to an ex boyfriend I ran into here...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey 36-40, F 7 Responses Dec 7

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    I have sealed myself into a safe little box over the years. I am rediscovering myself now and branching out. I have blamed my husband for being controlling, but have realized that...
    NWBiggirl420 NWBiggirl420 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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    What if Ive done everything you're suppose to to feel for filled and its not enough. Volunteering, a job working with elementary kids, college, good grades, being a kind, silly...
    jcbinns jcbinns 18-21, F Dec 5

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    Good morning everyone - working from home today and could do with being distracted in a fun and sexy way.
    Barnesgirl Barnesgirl 31-35 5 Responses Dec 8

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    My wife had an affair just over two years ago, and whilst learning about it then dealing through the issues was hard, our relationship is so much better now! We both learnt a lot...
    MrSuitGuy MrSuitGuy 31-35 1 day ago

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    I hate being poor... I hate it when I have to save my money for my next week allowance... I hate it when we don't have any television or dvd...I hate it when we have no money to...
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    mckennaolsen mckennaolsen 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    So... Today I was walking around to try to clear my head. I have bad depression, and I'm an introvert, and I have been surrounded by loud people non-stop for two weeks. And that...
    oaktheprof oaktheprof 16-17, M Dec 6

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    The sight of Ferguson outrage is a very welcome. It shows that America is still living and not dead. One year back there were the wall-street protests which were a very encouraging...
    aproudwoman aproudwoman 46-50, F Dec 8

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    I think of suicide every day. It might actually be caused by a friend problem but I don't know. I feel that if it wasn't to keep a friend alive I would not be here.
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    Ok I don't want to be alive anymore anyone got any ideas to kill myself?
    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    I'm one of the revolutionary in Bahrain I faced the policemen who tried to kill anyone who Protest in the road to reach his voice to the government and fighting for their FREEDOM...
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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
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    JDanielle7 JDanielle7 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 3

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    i want to start going to the gym to workout and get me back into shape and loses same what but the fear of being judged by others is holding me back. i can see my self going to...
    wolf2020 wolf2020 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 10

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    When I was 6 years old my father wasn't doing well but I didn't feel it Life was simple without any problems But when I became 12 years old I felt like depressed My friend were...
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    ObiOneyouremyonlyhope ObiOneyouremyonlyhope 41-45, F 23 hrs ago

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    Yesterday I took a rest day and totally regretted it. After working out I just feel better and have a much more positive mood. I plan on working out today for sure!
    DrunkGiraffe DrunkGiraffe 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 11

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    I need so much help to end this. I am so weak and I know that hes not treating me like I deserve. Almost 7years and taking me for granted. How are you ending this and what is...
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