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I Am Working On Being Truely Alive

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    Alive...

    I have been living a dream for the past two years. Doing what ever i could to block out the world. In other peoples eyes i was living, doing things they didn't dare. But truely living is feeling things, anything! I want to wake up and start living properly... I wan't to...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 12, 2010

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    I'm just always trying to find the meaning in

    things.I have bouts of suicidal depression at time but it's always overcome by just the vivacious mess of being alive the feeling of hope movies and books and tv shows and just people really give me. I have this intense phobia of wasting my life away or looking back and feeling...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 16-17, F Feb 11, 2014

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    First Step

    Yesterday was just an ordinary day. I did not dread it. It was around 7pm and I got on the bus and went shopping. The sky was filled with dark clouds and pieces of sunset. The air was moist and "beachy". I was calm and content buying groceries. I happen to look in the jewelry...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Sep 14, 2011

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    Alive

    These past 2 years I have felt so dead inside.  I do not know if it is the fear of getting older, what I gave with my family and have nothing in return or just the feeling of being let down, and used. But I have set some goals for myself this week and I am...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 7 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    Life Is .......

    Life is happening, love it.Life is love, feel it.Life is spirit, nurture it.Life is laughter, enjoy it.Life is happiness, strive for it.Life is opportunity, benefit from it.Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it...
    Annikka Annikka 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2012

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    I Am Working On...

    Finding a reason to smile.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2011

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