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I Am Working On Being Truely Alive

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    I Am Working On...

    Finding a reason to smile.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2011

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    Alive...

    I have been living a dream for the past two years. Doing what ever i could to block out the world. In other peoples eyes i was living, doing things they didn't dare. But truely living is feeling things, anything! I want to wake up and start living properly... I wan't to...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 12, 2010

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    First Step

    Yesterday was just an ordinary day. I did not dread it. It was around 7pm and I got on the bus and went shopping. The sky was filled with dark clouds and pieces of sunset. The air was moist and "beachy". I was calm and content buying groceries. I happen to look in the jewelry...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Sep 14, 2011

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    Alive

    These past 2 years I have felt so dead inside.  I do not know if it is the fear of getting older, what I gave with my family and have nothing in return or just the feeling of being let down, and used. But I have set some goals for myself this week and I am...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 7 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    I'm just always trying to find the meaning in

    things.I have bouts of suicidal depression at time but it's always overcome by just the vivacious mess of being alive the feeling of hope movies and books and tv shows and just people really give me. I have this intense phobia of wasting my life away or looking back and feeling...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 16-17, F Feb 11

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    Life Is .......

    Life is happening, love it.Life is love, feel it.Life is spirit, nurture it.Life is laughter, enjoy it.Life is happiness, strive for it.Life is opportunity, benefit from it.Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it...
    Annikka Annikka 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2012

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    I'm trying to raise money to help dig out from under Student Loans http://www.gofundme.com/bgi2nw
    mre88 mre88 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I have my own gym in the garage and love working out naked then jumping in my pool to cool off. Spent all day naked with my GF yesterday in the garden. We just love being naked lol...
    Dazzer2K Dazzer2K 26-30, M 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I am incredibly lucky to be alive I was born premature 2 months before I was supposes to be born I was born 19 days after my parents got married on November 1st 1997 So I was born...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    What happens to me is that I'll feel weird being alive at all. I'll feel "weird" being a human being. I'll feel hyper-aware of my existence, and I'll feel like I'm in a vast...
    59Ballons 59Ballons 13-15 Jun 29

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    I feel it in my existence. As a human and for being on this planet and even living or existing. Endless pain. Nothing make sense and everything makes me unhappy, I could never even...
    DrowninginFear DrowninginFear 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I used to go to church when I was little and that was when my life was small and I was ignorant to the horrible things around me. I used to be happy and grateful for my life, but...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    Well I could go on and on for days about my work situations, all the jobs I've been at and left. Some that I was fired from, etc. Some days I love making money but dread the people...
    bettygingham bettygingham 22-25, F Jun 28

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    I'm tired and so sick of being alive I want to end up this sadness ****.
    jumanachan jumanachan 16-17, F Jul 12

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    Ever since I can remember (which was when I was able to walk according to my parents), I've always loved to be naked. So much so, that one of my sisters (who has since passed away...
    BLACKTIGER75 BLACKTIGER75 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Since I hate latching onto friends when I get in the state I'm in at the moment, I will do the alternative: share my experience with complete strangers in hope of some sage counsel...
    HansFizzlebeef HansFizzlebeef 18-21, M Jun 26

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    Phew it's killing me today, surprised I am still alive πŸ˜¬πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜„
    saxappeal saxappeal 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Everyone should experience working out in HARD-MORE, its what we are ment to do genetically, historically and BIOLOGICALLY. We were hunter gatherers, in the wild, chasing down our...
    slipdasystem slipdasystem 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I am a mother of 5 kids. 3 boys and 2 girls. I'm a working mom and the provider of my family. Three of my children finished their college studies. I have 3 feathers in my cap...
    lemongrass09 lemongrass09 46-50, F 17 Responses Jun 25

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    My Savior, Pain Too numb to care, far too broken inside, bring on the pain. Just let me know I'm alive. The pain made me numb, now let it bring me back. Let it undo this torture...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    2 years ago I tried to commit suicide and failed... I am still alive yet after all this time... I really only regret staying alive. That's it really, I regret not dying all that...
    SinisterShadow SinisterShadow 18-21, M Jun 30

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    Scratch the crust – blood, Pick your nose – blood, Brush your teeth – blood, Sew the sock – blood, Every 28 days – blood, Are we alive? Since rubbing rusty iron makes the...
    NchK NchK 31-35, F Jul 12

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    I really thought I was facing the real possibility of death with this one, but thank you God I'm alive! 😁 Going to be healing for a long time and it hurts like crazy to laugh...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 13

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    I am alive and that's enough for me! Air giving me oxygen for living! When I am lonely, my heart speak with me! I started my own story, so I want to complete it! I want to die...
    Jms04 Jms04 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am very comfortable being nude alone and around my family and friends. I love my body as well and the compliments made by my family and friends. I have been a nudist since my...
    femalenakedathome femalenakedathome 41-45, F 6 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I fking hate being misunderstood. It makes my blood boil, and makes me want to cry. I'm a good person, I take the time to figure out what someone is trying to say. I hear them out...
    dat1kiid dat1kiid 16-17 27 mins ago

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    It's just dawned on me what one of my abilities are. I've always known that I have a deeper wanting to always help and assist people. Especially those who are broken and need...
    Destinyyy Destinyyy 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    I'm working on being positive and happy loving others, life and myself ❀❀ Be positive!! Nothing is worth it! Time is precious Much love and peace ❀❀
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Because I hate people obviously, it's like everyone's telling me to grow up or else cut her some slacks. God, working while having negative thoughts and afraid people hearing what...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    Sometimes the pain outweighs my desire to live. The depression is so strong. I think "Why did God even make me?" I'll cry for hours in sheer despair. I feel it in the core of my...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    There was a period of my career when I came in from working my morning job. I would have about 3 to 4 hours free to shower and kick back until I had to go on duty at my other job...
    freddyshirley freddyshirley 51-55, F Jun 28

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    What has caused me to be a victim of bullying? What traits do I possess that make me reluctant to be a victim? Some may see them as flaws but I'm not sure that is the truth. Just...
    betweenlustandlove betweenlustandlove 22-25, F Jul 2

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    Ever since I was 12 years of age, I've lived with my father. My mother left me with my dad. I have three other siblings that were also hurt by my mothers actions. I've been...
    jcindp jcindp 16-17, F Jul 10

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    But The Adults Were the Worst. When kids bully other kids, although that's bad enough, it's not unusual. Kids could be mean. It is almost expected that most children will...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    This will sort of be a stream of consciousness vent. I don't feel totally comfortable writing this here. Putting out my problems on the internet like this for strangers to read but...
    fibrodoodle fibrodoodle 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    One of our most overlooked superpowers in life is the unbelievable power of our beliefs. A quick note: This is not for the faint of heart. It is going to go deeper than possibly...
    NeoJesusOfTheMatrix NeoJesusOfTheMatrix 70+ 4 Responses a week ago

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    Still alive and kicking and now roaming around EP to let all people know how crazy and AWESOME I am! You doubting? Don't care! :P (haters gonna hate!) giggles* JK ;) I'm AWESOME...
    akirayuuki akirayuuki 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    I've been walking through a fog for too long. I can't remember the last time I felt this alive. Quiet 7am Sunday morning, cold fresh air, bright sun poking its head over the...
    Diabo1ique Diabo1ique 70+ Jul 5

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    I can feel your smile rest upon my face And I can feel the warmth and gentleness of your embrace I can hear your laughter it’s music to my ears And your voice still whispers to...
    Susana1985 Susana1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I know this sounds stupid, and I am not ever going to commit suicide so dont think that, but I got to thinking the other day, why are we alive? Why are we here? Whats the purpose...
    emmy63637 emmy63637 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I've made a lot of great strides this past two to two and a half years or so, but I'm still super single. I still have yet to meet someone that I can talk to and click with and can...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F Jul 7

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    Drifting into Numbness I'm so tired of drifting through life. dragging my feet, not knowing or caring which way I'm heading. The world turns around me and I'm left behind. I just...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    I work with the elderly and everyday after listening to their stories I am more grateful to be alive and well. I strive to utilize my time wisely to maximize my existence.
    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Do not read until I disappear :) I am scared I won't make it to 18. I am scared that if I manage to ignore my hearts screams, that my biological mother will kill me. Not get mad...
    SaphiraJane SaphiraJane 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    If I say β€œit’s a great day to be alive,” it’s because those are literally my only plans.
    PinkP0werRanger PinkP0werRanger 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Even though my life is in shambles I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful for those moments that cause you to stop and think "wow, this is amazing!" I am grateful for the...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Looking in the mirror I always had a huge scar on my right side of my face. I never knew a day when I didn't see it and I can't imagine my face without it. I got it in a car...
    rukesh3 rukesh3 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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