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I Am Working On Being Truely Alive

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    I Am Working On...

    Finding a reason to smile.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2011

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    Alive

    These past 2 years I have felt so dead inside.  I do not know if it is the fear of getting older, what I gave with my family and have nothing in return or just the feeling of being let down, and used. But I have set some goals for myself this week and I am...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 7 Responses Mar 29, 2009

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    First Step

    Yesterday was just an ordinary day. I did not dread it. It was around 7pm and I got on the bus and went shopping. The sky was filled with dark clouds and pieces of sunset. The air was moist and "beachy". I was calm and content buying groceries. I happen to look in the jewelry...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Sep 14, 2011

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    I'm just always trying to find the meaning in

    things.I have bouts of suicidal depression at time but it's always overcome by just the vivacious mess of being alive the feeling of hope movies and books and tv shows and just people really give me. I have this intense phobia of wasting my life away or looking back and feeling...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 16-17, F Feb 11

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    Life Is .......

    Life is happening, love it.Life is love, feel it.Life is spirit, nurture it.Life is laughter, enjoy it.Life is happiness, strive for it.Life is opportunity, benefit from it.Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it...
    Annikka Annikka 51-55, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2012

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    Alive...

    I have been living a dream for the past two years. Doing what ever i could to block out the world. In other peoples eyes i was living, doing things they didn't dare. But truely living is feeling things, anything! I want to wake up and start living properly... I wan't to...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 12, 2010

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    Ive been single for 4everyears and its annoying. Plus I truely miss that sweet feeling...
    SweetAlone13 SweetAlone13 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Whats the point of me being alive if all i so is get screamed at for nothing be called a worthless piece of **** get stuck serving my mean *** mother the rest of my life and cant...
    timeladynat timeladynat 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Last Saint Patrick's Day I went out with some girl friends from cosmetology school. I hadn't really binge drank since I left college so I was excited for a real "night out" college...
    victoriaxbx victoriaxbx 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I'm a 16 year old girl. My whole life I have been trying to make my parents proud, but I've never been able to socialize properly with kids my age, I was always numb or upset...
    AGirlSearchingForAnswers AGirlSearchingForAnswers 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I don't have any reason not to be happy being alive. I enjoy my life so far and I don't have any complains. Life is what you make it!
    KawaiiBoy KawaiiBoy 18-21, M 21 hrs ago

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    Being a Father of 6 is not easy! but I love being with my kids! Working from home has been great! being able to surprise them at school is great I love it! I always wanted more...
    mcateamgold mcateamgold 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    4 months ago I found myself missing someone, someone who once meant so much to me had become a stranger. I felt like I couldn't let that happen, I didn't care if I came off as...
    MyThoughtsInWords MyThoughtsInWords 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I wake up and do the same thing over and over again. Patterns patterns, obligations. Details of life pass me by as I indulge in societal humors. Nature, friends, adventure, living...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    ***Post of the Day*** Find out more at: www.facebook.com/FavorUponYou I am a new Muslim woman from Richmond, VA. I had never even met Muslims before last year, and had no idea...
    FavorUponYou FavorUponYou 22-25, M Apr 8

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    I hate being black sometimes. I get sick of racism in the south where i live I get sick of SOME black men (not all) disrespect/hate for their own women I get sick of the black...
    kottonkandiexo kottonkandiexo 18-21, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I can handle being alone. But having a majority of my friends in relationships is making me feel super lonely. I see how happy they are and I want the same. I want to be happy. I...
    kiara95 kiara95 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I really do. I dont know if its being a woman, but i hate working to look pretty. I hate the idea of putting two iron plates heated up to about 350 degrees and putting it to my...
    TheVampireQueen92 TheVampireQueen92 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    my mom married 3 times. each guy treated her worse than the one before. the last one was my dad who abused her, his kids, her kids by previous marriages, and anyone else within...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 6

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    met a 40ish looking lady in the gym; started chatting thinking she is my age, wow she said she is 67 being working out 15 yrs; she doesn't even look 40! she asked what I am...
    mindwithawhy mindwithawhy 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    I started working out at the gym this. I want to lose about 20 lbs and gain definition. I'm a 38 year old woman and I've never done weights before. This week, after being very...
    lee1898 lee1898 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    Well I say this because of several events that have happened. Firstly, I've always had this irrational fear of a certain room in my house. It was my bedroom but I never slept in it...
    44617jonathan 44617jonathan 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    This is one of my fav me moments... Such a reminder of who I am... People see this pic and they go: that's so you... Remember to laugh often & to cherish the zany moments. Risk...
    SagSunshine2014 SagSunshine2014 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    ***Post of the Day*** Find out more at: www.facebook.com/FavorUponYou Peace be unto you. I became Muslim almost three years ago, right after Ramadan in between the two Eids. My...
    FavorUponYou FavorUponYou 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    You know I love those people who try to talk to u for a while but then in the end they will never talk to u back there's a reason why I hate being ignored
    skrillex8888 skrillex8888 13-15, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    You don't have to tell me I'm ugly. Tell me something I don't know. It's hard getting a date being this ugly.
    socalsissi socalsissi 36-40, T 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    The woods are such a beautiful and relaxing place to be in. It can be loud or quiet. Appear dead or alive. There's a certain energy that thickens the atmosphere and I never want to...
    FangsAndFurs13 FangsAndFurs13 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    WHY AM I ALIVE?! It's the question that hunts every single day. What's my use? It's sooo bloody frustratin' Anybody got some answers??? Anyone???
    AwkwardChameleon7 AwkwardChameleon7 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    just to let you all know, im alive!
    Jessica483 Jessica483 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I do appreciate my life and all, but if I cold change my amount of liveable years with a dying person, I would. I'm not selfish enough to commit suicide and I just couldn't. I have...
    apatheticcoldheart apatheticcoldheart 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I need to love and be loved! I need to like and be liked! I need to smile and be smiled at! I need to speak and be spoken to! I need to be held and to hold! I need to kiss and be...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    You was In my dreams again last night, We Touched lips, You Held me tight, I Woke up feeling you in my heart, In that one moment I felt so alive. X
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F Apr 4

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    There were days that i feel so locked up.. too lazy to take a bath, brush my teeth, shut off my phone line... just googling all day stuffs about boredom, sadness, life... am i...
    hollyhelly hollyhelly 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    Some days I don't feel alive. At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Because we depend on other people for our happiness. I used to believe my ex made me so feel so alive. So what? He's gone now and I'm dead again? Nah. I make myself happy now. So...
    CindyLovely CindyLovely 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    The choices I have made in life were suppose to lead me to a more fulfilling life. It's like I was tricked into thinking these choices were the right ones. I have come to find that...
    sparked22 sparked22 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My parents are pretty much the epitome of the American Dream, but ascension into the middle-class has made them pretty ****** people. They both grew up really poor and had to raise...
    HipHipJorge HipHipJorge 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

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    i am alive because i know myself and i am free and that is why i can give love endlessly... if pain comes it is my lesson, if love comes it is my lesson, if anything comes it is my...
    Nichalas Nichalas 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I use the time to recollect my thoughts and reflect upon my day. I like to use my time to get things done or procrastinate. I love being around my family and friends just not all...
    fgarci04 fgarci04 18-21, F Mar 27

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    Well I started working out again and this is my second week of working out non stop everyday except the weekends. And I've been eating healthy, 5 meals a day and I feel great!
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years now and we love each other to bits but last June his visa ran out and he had to go back to his country I told him I would wait and that some...
    xbubblesxboo xbubblesxboo 22-25, F Apr 4

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    Yes I am a working man. I like working on cars and on houses.
    Chase1997 Chase1997 16-17, M Apr 5

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    Me and my boyfriend were going through a rough patch and I missed him a lot. Most people say young people cant be in love and most of the time I agree but I love this guy to bits...
    courtneytaylor courtneytaylor 13-15, F Apr 5

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    Thank goodness I thought I was the only one! I dated my fiancé for a year when we were 19 flash forward 10 years later and we got reconnected but during that time he had 3 kids...
    Walkedinblind Walkedinblind 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I was married to a cop for two years. We had a beautiful son together and I wouldn't trade him for the world. But to be honest my life with my husband was hell. He was cold...
    kbg1992 kbg1992 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    She was in the hospital for 4 months in a rehabilitation unit to help her learn to walk and heal enough to return back to her family. I was hired to help her transition back to...
    NannyDee NannyDee 51-55, F 19 hrs ago

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    I look down on the lower middle and working classes. They clearly have not tried hard enough. So in a nutshell; I look down on the poor.
    projectgwyn101 projectgwyn101 16-17, M 5 Responses Apr 2

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    I have been fired from both of my jobs my first job was at chick-fil-a I loved that job it was fun I love eating there and made friends I worked with I got the job in 7th grade and...
    Sheslikethewind Sheslikethewind 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I've been working out for 2 years now and I still don't see the different. I'm giving up hope and my confidence is 0% so the train track looks pretty nice
    JustarandomDutchguy JustarandomDutchguy 18-21, M Apr 8

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    I'm trying to be strong, but really it's not that easy.. Yeah maybe I vent on here "too much" but if you even knew the half of what was going on with my physically & emotionally...
    laneyrn laneyrn 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9