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I Am Worried About Ellemeza

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    3 1/2 Months Later

    I think we can all assume the worst. I hate to, but how could anyone write this and never come back. I just re-read her blog. I had no idea how bad things were going... are going? I sent her a message just now, but since I haven't heard from anyone here (some of you told me that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 28, 2008

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    3 Weeks Now...

    Has anyone heard anything from her or about her? Doesn't anyone hear have a way of contacting her in the real world? I am really worried. It has been 3 weeks and no one has heard anything.     July 23, 2008 She still hasn't checked in here at EP, at least not under...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 29, 2008

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    I Miss Ellemeza

      I miss her deeply. I still think about her once in a while, and say a prayer for her. She was such an inspiration to me and many others. In my heart I believe she is OK, I do not believe she would harm herself. But I do realize that it is possible...
    mikebob mikebob 46-50, M Oct 31, 2009

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    6 Months

    Anyone have any thoughts, nearly 6 months later? I didn't want to give up, but unless she's in a psych ward, I think she's gone.... really gone. I guess there's a point where I should just give up trying to contact people who have been gone more than three months.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2008

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    Ellemeza?

    Yeah.  Hope she got through it OK, whatever it was.  
    grendelan grendelan 46-50, M Nov 30, 2010

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    Ep Strong One

    Many of you know Ellemeza. She is long time member of EP. She has been a source of strength within this community. Her profliel remains open but she has deleted everything off of it. More concerning to me than that is the blog she wrote talking about suicide. Please keep her...
    ColorMeReal ColorMeReal 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2008

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