so I filed the sections into characters:
My true self(mediator)
They all play roles and they have alignments. I will give in to one before my death.
A negative force controling me.up in the mourning ready to fight.this will be a shity day out of spite.anger and disposition filled with the grudge.how could someone like that be in the position to judge.climbing the mountain everyday.waiting for death to catch my breath...
I am hard to love I am hard to maintain I am hard as a rock I am hard to explain , I am tired I am wired I am not grounded I am not found I am still lost, I regret I cant kick , I am sick I am torn I am a thorn, I am crying I am dying, I am in I am out, I am where its at I am...
Cognito, ergo sum - I think, therefore I am
Dubito, ergo cognito, ergo sum - I doubt, therefore I think, therefore I am.
So, I am. Definitely.
(Damn this filthy mind. Can't even spell 'sum' =P )
I been seeking this for years, I mean years! A motivation I surely needed. A part of my conscience found something that was missing for so long, it speaks of my life, the trails or paths I've walked and its so on point with every critical moments I've endured. My goals are real...
Finding, beating. Heartless intrusion. Never the answer. Only the begining.my shadow choking, losing. Finding the will. Never before have I seen. The shadow lurking, sneaking. Just behind me. Unanswered question. Find it yourself. The shadow now before me. Hurting, losing. One...
I've encounteredand all the things I have experienced.Inside, I hold the laughter of my friends,the arguments with my parents,the chattering of young children,and the warmth from kind strangers.Inside, there are stitching from cracked hearts,bitter words from heated arguments...
for the connection i hold with my man for it hold more power than i could ever imagine, true beauty and love. A sacred union only we will ever understand. I am grateful that i am needed and that i can be there. I am grateful for my sons and their gifts. I am grateful to wake up...
I am the mother of three adult children, and a grand-mother of nine. I went from a childhood of abuse onto a 17 year relationship, filled to the brim with heartache, betrayal, and domestic violence. Until I got away from my ex-husband, my motto was like so many other...
I am a geek. I am a labor and delivery nurse. I am a woman getting divorced at age 51, because I deserve to be treated with respect and loved. I am a woman who is not afraid to be alone. I am a great shot with a revolver. I am an incredible fishing person. I love to fish and...
I am a human being who makes mistakes much like everyone else. One of the things that separates me from some of the rest of the herd is that I take responsibility for everything I have ever done and stand ready to admit whenever I am wrong. These things about me will never change...
I am here again but one day I will forget. All that has happened and all that will happen. I am forever striving for inner peace, inner love, inner awareness, and I will always care. I could wish a thousand times and sometimes I do. I wish for humanity to be at peace, I wish we...
I am not strong enough to make every step of the way without falling from time to time.
But I am strong enough to get back up again.
I am not courageous enough to face the darkness ahead of me.
But I am courageous enough to close my eyes, sing softly to myself, and push...
but such a whor*
So self-aware, so full of sh*t
So indecisive, so adamant...
So rock 'n' roll, so corporate suit
So damn ugly, so damn cute
So well-trained, so animal
So need your love, so **** you all.
I wish for my simple life where I can sit on the beach, drink beer and watch the sunset.
Where my life didn't revolve around money or someone getting pissed off at me for not understanding me.
I wish for a simpler time
my hair is gone just like the rest,
I stand and look at those around and realise at last I’ve found,
Its not the hairs upon my head that say that I’ve been good, instead
Its is the ones that lay beside the acts I carried out with pride.
night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed...
"What are you", "Who are you". Many do not know the difference.
When the answer is a simple "I AM", they have no idea how to handle that because they are uncomfortable without labels :)
I AM so many things when I need to be them. I AM so many people to so many people.
I am the...
It's MONDAY....These suckers roll around once a week and we have a CHOICE!! We can either *sigh* deeply.......*roll our eyes* and plod thru it, as best we can....OR...we can get busy and grin our way thru!! Goofiness is an AWESOMELY proactive way of accomplishing this......So...
Is the destiny of man to continue to progress and change?
To become a little more heartless and cold every passing day?
I thought I found something special, but all for naught.
Fools gold still shines in the light,
but crumbles in the shadow of doubt.
Can I live and love and...
his car... I'm hoping pizza. He looked a little unsure but I know he loves my weight gain. Why else would he be feeding and fondling me? I think he is intimidated... I hope he takes my jeans that just ripped as a grain of salt. Salt. That is yummy!
i have cerebrel palsy so sometimes i have good days and some i wonder why i'm here on earth i feel alone and seems like things are always my fault i have never had a girlfriend and i don't have anyone to talk to that is in my position. people look at me and think i'm slow or...
My hubby and I are tired of being broke, we were never really well off but we never had problems with bills before..but lately things just seem to get bad for us, We both have jobs..I do not have a college degree (so if people here have master degrees and have money problems...
i am the thought you never had, and that feeling you almost felt so long ago. i am the dream you forgot as soon as you awoke this morning. i am the face you would instantly know, but have never seen before. i am the ghost that haunts the darkest halls and locked rooms of your...
and in my head, that is one big deal.
In a year from now, I will be in college, away from my house, into a life that I have dreamt about since I was a child.
I knew it as a 12 year old what I want to be when I grow up and I have stuck to my word. In a year, I will be living...
and special. Something that can't be described or found online or in a book. Most people don't even know it exists. But my heart does. I've been searching for it, ever since I was a kid. And whenever I started to believe that my search was useless, a feeling of hope would return...
have a needle almost hitting empty on the gauge of whatever this is right now, and probably a little lost. Hp it's not funny any longer.
Yes the cat is snuggled up against me as I lay in bed, though it's not enough. I miss you too much. I just want you home for good.
I enjoy conversation with intelligent people who can be humble and selfless. I enjoy networking and meeting people who share the same values as well as those who can express themselves about their personal concerns. So I am posting this piece information about myself, so that...
who I've never met.
We first saw each other on Omegle. My purpose for being there was to use Omegle as a tool for energy attraction to find a girl who I had been communicating with in meditations for a couple years prior to that. I was looking for her, and I found Shy. She was...
Finally graduated and qualified for the career I've been studying my arse off to get... And here I am eating my kids Halloween candy and flipping through Kijiji free ads.
Don't get me wrong, that's not all I've been doing. I've spent endless days writing cover letter after...
banter with anyone online, nor do I want anyone to propose an in-person meeting for any reason what so ever. I am incredibly sick of receiving messages from people speaking of such to me. There has not been and will not be any reason for anyone to do so upon me. If you do, I...
I am bold
I am independent, yet always part of the whole
I am lonely sometimes, but like to be alone other times
I am a territorial being
I am creative
I am an artist
I am smart
I am a writer
I am shy, sometimes
I am a sister
I am a daughter
I am arachnophobic
I am afraid...
... I am..... what proceeds this? What label or value or idea can we put after this? The more i have thought about this the more i realize this is where my suffering has always stemmed from. There are many I am’s and I am not’s i could imagine or write but what it really...