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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 193 People

    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Listenin

    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    Isn't this toxic! Holding things inside is like sipping poison....Exactly, why would you do this. Well for one maybe it is the fact of the matter that these days it's hard to get...
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    Right now I'm sitting in class, in the back. on my phone. with no one to talk to. I used to sit with my boyfriend.... but we broke up.... and I'm trying to not focus on the sound...
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    I can't take the loneliness anymore.Everytime I see a beautiful girl with her boyfriend it just tears me up inside.Because I know I will never have that.I tried everything I tried...
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    When I'm with my mom, I'm quite myself but don't talk about everything. When I'm with my dad it's like with my mom but I don't really like talking to him so yea... At my school...
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    I feel like my boyfriend wants to break up. I'm terrified.
    unfaiir unfaiir 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    Unfortunately my words often come out in four-letter increments. Especially when I'm working on the car...
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    I try to be likeable, but maybe i'm too quiet and shy, that's why people don't like me.
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    PinksTheNewBlack PinksTheNewBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Yeah! I'm 5'1...Fun size lol
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    no one will accept me into their pack... and it makes me cry. I have no one... no one in real life no one on the internet. no one... I just want someone to call my friend. but no...
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    But it's pretty scary. There's this girl i've been friends with for 2 years now. We talk almost every day, and sometimes i'd make really big efforts just to make time to talk to...
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