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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 21-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    Listenin

    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-18, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 21-25, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    A lot of people perceive me as a really shy, quiet girl, who perhaps struggles to fit in or make friends with other people. Nobody realises just how far they are from the truth. It...
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