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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 191 People

    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Listenin

    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    I didn't leave it, leave it. I took a break of no activity but i'm down to be active on here again. Any and all hmu with questions, chats, anything. i don't judge (at least try my...
    Curseoftheblade Curseoftheblade 18-21, M a week ago

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    I put trust into my last marriage and i don't think I could ever trust again .I really do think I am just meant to be alone I started talking to Tim and I started to trust again...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 9 Responses Mar 31

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    gotta check it out. BYE!!!
    BCBoomer58 BCBoomer58 56-60, F Apr 10

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    I often wonder why I do this. Today for instance, I had to bring my mother to the ER due to dehydration. When we arrived her body was beginning to go into shock. They admitted her...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 13 Responses Mar 31

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    I'm seriously losing it over here. I really really really want to leave this life, but I'm terrified of breaking my parents' hearts. I just can't do this. Life hurts so much. I don...
    Emilyyyyy Emilyyyyy 18-21 1 Response Apr 5

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    I saw the UFO, it was as clear as day right over me. I wouldn't lie about something like that, but everyone I told thinks I'm crazy. I never said I thought it was aliens or...
    theindigoboy theindigoboy 18-21, M 18 Responses Apr 5

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    I have dreams, nothing big, only good life, but now I'm poor, sometimes is difficult but I want belive in me, in the future.
    VenusVoice VenusVoice 31-35, F Apr 9

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    when I'm home I want to be with you and when I'm with you I want to be at home. when I'm in my home town I wish I was in a city like this, but when I'm here all I want is to be...
    thebigtimedreamer thebigtimedreamer 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I keep giving and listening, giving and listening, but now I'm tired. I'm emptied out. I KNOW I should go the extra mile, love my neighbor, turn the other cheek. I KNOW I shouldn't...
    curledup curledup 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Recently I started feeling more and more like moving forward with the things that make me happy and excites me such as piercing my ears or buying some new stilettos. But The truth...
    Danairis Danairis 46-50, T 3 Responses Mar 22

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    I hate my job and hate myself. Everyday I contemplate ending this. Just running. I have been bullied. I have felt this thread of fear running through my entire life. I have not had...
    individualfreedom individualfreedom 26-30 Mar 29

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    I'm haunted by the past, dissapointed with the present, and afraid of the future. Day in, and day out, I have vivid flashbacks of my youth, of the fun I had, memories I relish...
    Eclipse993 Eclipse993 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 27

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    a lot of the time, I can forget the reasons why. I'm depressed, sure, whatever. I ignore it, force my way past it, don't look at it, don't examine it. But then something happens...
    anata1 anata1 22-25, F Apr 4

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    This is less about dressing, but anyway. I really want to buy a highly feminine shampoo.. but I feel embarrassed whenever I go to the shops to buy one. Any tips? I want to buy it...
    hairy96 hairy96 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 31

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    I've seen people do these bullet-point style lists about themselves, their lives and their odd habits, and it's always a challenge for me, always feels like there's something...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    Top ten questions about relationships with psychopaths/narcissists. I took this from the site psychopathfree.com. I found it to be very helpful. 1. Is he / she really a psychopath...
    totallytea totallytea 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I'm going to SMILE like nothing's wrong, PRETEND like everything's all right, ACT like its all perfect, even though inside it really hurts!!!It really hurts when you expected so...
    syedanazia syedanazia 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    When I say I like it loud, I mean it! If I can hear myself singing, it's not loud enough. I've heard me sing, it needs to be covered up.......... I hate what I call "Dumb...
    Extant1 Extant1 51-55, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    So I'm this 46 yr old guy , a bad *** Mr fix it ..hard to believe I started out as a stupid young wanna be lawn mover mechanic at 18 ...was swinging wrenches on Chevy Monte Carlo...
    joophomme joophomme 46-50, M Apr 5

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    It was hard back in the beginning. I was poor, I didn't smell good, and I lost everything but my pet rock. but since coming to ep I am am now rich!
    badazzbasicbich badazzbasicbich 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Everyday I am screaming on the inside, I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of being invisible. I'm tired of lying to myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 3

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    I feel like i'm someone else. Like i'm watching this other person and she's screaming for serenity and she never gets it. She's begging on her knee's for anything that might save...
    rawr0 rawr0 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I hate saying im Okay when I'm not. I feel like I'm dying inside.. But if people want me to be happy so be it ..
    Happyness7 Happyness7 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    In my dream, I left from the balcony. The door was locked, so I have to go through the balcony. I tried to get to the balcony from the stairs and fell on the roof of a room two or...
    johannesc4 johannesc4 13-15, M 1 Response 39 mins ago

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     I'm 16 years old, 1,70cm tall and 96 kilos of lard and fat (211lbs and a half). I will post some picks soon!
    chubbyfat chubbyfat 16-17, M 3 hrs ago

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    My friend just told me that Andy and Juliet got back together and i'm so mad. Like, she's not even pretty. she's like a 2.5 out of 10 on the pretty and talented scale.
    xXxWildOnexXx xXxWildOnexXx 13-15, F Mar 19

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    I'm 16 and 5'3......... WHAT THE ****.
    Micahbreeart Micahbreeart 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 22

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    Be gentle haha I'm a good person
    JarrydW JarrydW 18-21, M Mar 22

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    I'm always able to correct people to use my preferred pronouns. And I'm not ashamed for being trans*.
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T Mar 24

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    She is a great person but I'm so bored of our routine.
    delvoy delvoy 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 24

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    This week hit me like a train. I'm so emotional and a little teary eyed. Who can relate?
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25

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