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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

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    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-18, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 21-25, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 22-25, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 21-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    Hey everyone! I just need to vent and see if anyone else has heard what I was told by my doctor. So in November of 2013 I had an ectopic,,, had no clue I was pregnant, just had...
    Janetgranite Janetgranite 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I used to be a full on bodybuilder who counted carbs, wen to the gym and all that. I used to think fat was such a gross and repulsive thing and that I could never live that way...
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    I've gone through so much in my short 20 years that its insane. My parents weren't around when I was a child. They were always at the bar and my brother and I were always at the...
    beautifullybrokengirl beautifullybrokengirl 18-21, F Mar 21

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    The love of my life abandoned me... I thought he loved me too... but I was just a joke to him...I feel so lost and alone, despite the best efforts of my wonderful friends... many...
    hippiechick333 hippiechick333 46-50, F 7 Responses Apr 4

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 6

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    But really I'm dying from the inside out. I pretend I'm okay so I don't get my feelings hurt. I see happy faces and it kills me because I know I'll never truly be happy with myself...
    goldengirl24 goldengirl24 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 10

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    I am never happy. Yes, I may smile, but deep inside I am just never in a good mood. I stay depressed and sad. I work full time, but I do not make enough to live on my own or pay...
    berlynn20 berlynn20 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I know that sounds a bit shady but I guess what I mean is that when I'm out and about I don't put on a frown for people to have to ask me what's wrong cause I'm not that type of...
    onlytrusthim onlytrusthim 36-40, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I know most of you (probably) won't take me seriously but here it goes: I'm 15 this year and I'm in love with someone 4 years older than me. I know everyone says that you can't...
    SimplyMilkTea SimplyMilkTea 13-15, F Mar 23

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    i'm a hypocrite. people, friends..come to me when they are upset..they want my advice..i cheer them up and say endless things about what they should do to make themselves feel...
    Namkeen Namkeen 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Sometimes I try my best to be happy as I can when I'm at school I can sometimes feel like my life is about to end but sometimes every ounce a week or somehow everyday I can be...
    vivienhuang13 vivienhuang13 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I've been with my bf for almost six months now. I had so much fun with him even when we were not yet in a relationship but just after a month of being in a relationship he was...
    everpink everpink 26-30, F Apr 11

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    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 2

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    So I was so scared of telling the "important" people in my life about my decision to get sleeved. My Mother In Law interrogated me but in the end she was supportive and said she...
    Germanovna Germanovna 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    I have one kidney. One was removed two years ago due to a wreck that shredded it. It's in stage three failure and blood flow is very limited due to a pinched artery. Tomorrow they...
    cartermurrows cartermurrows 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I especially worry about my appearance when I'm dating someone. Why do you think this is? Who else feels the same?
    kmiaz kmiaz 31-35, F a week ago

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    I don't think that it's all about appearances but people think it is. I sometimes feel like boys don't like my looks and it sucks.Hello, I'm a teenager and it's my time to be...
    ketosabe ketosabe 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I know this seems odd but I've done this all my life... When I'm tired or upset and need to escape reality ... I like to just lay on my side or sit curled up and zone out to my...
    AngelinaRosa AngelinaRosa 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    faking a smile everyday. it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 24

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    I am a born again Christian and I am still growing. God has always been there even when I deny him , he doesn't get mad at me but I know that it hurts him . so yeah Just wanted to...
    DaneLaparan DaneLaparan 13-15, F Apr 7

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    I'm so tired, I was so tired all day that I couldn't do any work, and now that I'm in bed, I can't sleep. This is the worst.
    autumnH autumnH 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    "Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now. I feel like I'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile." "When...
    cherishuforever cherishuforever 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I hate dreams sometimes, the ones that seem real... It's become foggy as the day has progressed but it involved me bumping in to my ex at a friends party and him being extremely...
    Shortie82 Shortie82 31-35, F Mar 31

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    I am trying to be a better person - part of that is communicating better and being open and honest; especially with those I really care about. I am slowly managing to accomplish...
    CaptainCalculus CaptainCalculus 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Came to realize a few things but I still feel lost; like I'm living through the motions of life just to live. For so long I've held on to the baggage of my past. Too many times I...
    halfdead25 halfdead25 26-30, F Apr 4

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    I have found myself becoming more and more "Anti-Semitic" the more I am exposed to Jewish people. If you had met me a few years ago, as a bleeding heart multicultural type, you...
    confusedcompassion confusedcompassion 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Looking in her eyes as she says I love you I see a calm that cannot be explained, I see the truth in them. I feel the warmth from the fire burning inside her. I see the passion...
    goodmooddude goodmooddude 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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      I have met my partner 3 years ago. I was 18 back then. I migrated overseas with my family and he was studying overseas. We came from the same country of origin. I met him...
    Loveatfirstsight06 Loveatfirstsight06 22-25 Mar 29

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    Please help im so afraid im 19 and i graduated high school last year. I am a grocery store cashier and I think about killing my self while i check out your grocery's. I haven't...
    lonleyheartsclub lonleyheartsclub 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Good GOD things seem complicated lately. So many people, so many lies! So MUCH! Having trouble sleeping. Having trouble working. Having trouble telling dream from reality. I'm on...
    Sknowflake Sknowflake 70+, F Mar 25

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    Hi everybody! I´m feeling curious ;)
    straightwarm straightwarm 46-50, F 5 Responses Mar 26

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    I'm over here depressed as hell and she's too busy playing video games to even notice..
    XxSaintsEyesxX XxSaintsEyesxX 16-17, M 4 Responses Mar 28

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    Fine ignore me!!I'm gonna be fine.
    narysa narysa 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Like it girls? I'm Sooo horny!
    HorniGirli HorniGirli 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    It's easier then telling people "no, I'm just tired" all day
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I'm fat lul and extremely cynical
    queenoffaggotry queenoffaggotry 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Does anyone want to make me feel like total shut or feel like the best thing on earth? Either way. It doesn't matter. I'm feeling conflicted right about now.
    PandaHaven PandaHaven 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Although I'm broken heart but I am not crazy. LOL
    preawsm preawsm 16-17, F Mar 21

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    I'm in love with too many people! Especially Fictional Characters And just cause I'm bored, I'm gonna see if I can name all of them! 1. My Grade 7 Co-Ordinator 2. David Mason...
    DJasmineHawker DJasmineHawker 13-15, F Mar 23

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    i,m sick of men and i want to have a lesbian friend 45 or older that lives in Taylor Mi or somewhere close to that must be able to meet up talk and maybe more ,white only so if you...
    seekingalady68 seekingalady68 41-45, F Mar 26

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    It's sad I can't see what others see in me. I keep quiet about it because might seem like I'm fishing for compliments. Maybe a little insecurity keeps me from being conceited. What...
    xMissTix xMissTix 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 26