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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 192 People

    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    Listenin

    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    Everyone sees me as this carefree go lucky person full of ***** laughter high-strung hyperness but deep down inside I'm dying of a broken heart I'm dying of a broken heart because...
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    when I see him with another girl and my friends ask me are u ok sure I say but inside I just died a little
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    I'm one of those shy girls (until you get to know me) and everyone thinks I'm all innocent and wouldn't hurt a fly. If you **** me off enough, you better watch it! But really, I...
    beautifulblessedchild beautifulblessedchild 18-21, F May 23

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    I'm starting to have some feels for my best friend I'm a girl and i always fell in love with boys But now i'm kinda confused about it... Who wants to talk with me about this?
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    I started a experiment that i'm only going to tell people i trust but basically i'm going to see what happens when you continue to give many people someone curiosity. But leave...
    DriftingLeaf DriftingLeaf 18-21 a week ago

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    Okay, get this off my chest: I am 27 years old. I am almost 30 and I still don't really know what I want to do with my life... that is specialize in something. I do but I don't...
    OrchidLilacChrys OrchidLilacChrys 26-30, F 2 Responses May 7

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    I just came across this page. I don't really get it, do people post on here to get compliments? is it generally out of curiosity? I'm a bit confused XD haha but I guess it is a...
    livelaughlove0987 livelaughlove0987 18-21, F 3 Responses May 18

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    If I tell you what I hold inside would you believe, would you accept the way that I feel? Would you listen to my heart and allow me to share with you every little thing that I...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 May 18

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    15 Latino loves anime and don't care for body appearance I'm a nerd too I just want someone with a good personality
    wolf216 wolf216 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    So I went to my cousin's birthday party. Me and my family decided to come. When we arrived to my cousin's place, My parents went and talked to other older people. I looked around...
    doge5263 doge5263 18-21, M May 15

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    Does anyone else out there need to be told that they are sexy in order to feel sexy? I know I do. I put in a lot of work on my appearance, and, in the past, it's paid off. But...
    quirkygirl520 quirkygirl520 22-25, F May 18

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    i feel like a freak on a leash, i took my pills ( my anti depression pills) i just feel so lost. the reason why am i here bcoz i have 7yo son. my husband have my son and im alone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10

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    Hi everyone. I doubt anyone really gives a **** but I am 22 years old with nothing to show for and have hit rock-bottom in life. I have always been spoiled by my mom and my fathers...
    divinit3 divinit3 22-25, M 1 Response May 18

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    I am playing soccer, I steal the ball from a girl. I hope she doesn't start something .. again. she turns with fury in her eyes why is she so mad we r just playing a game. I don't...
    nellybear214 nellybear214 13-15, F 2 Responses May 20

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    I remember having a friend once, we first met when my best friend introduced me to her. She was older than me, maybe four years apart or more(it's been so long that it's hard to...
    AB2WUS AB2WUS 22-25 2 days ago

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    I used to be happy, and good. I used to be so compassionate, children are so pure and carefree. But now who am I? I feel like Ive changed a lot. But j want to be that quiet, shy...
    Broken146 Broken146 13-15 May 9

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    I'm like everyone else here then.. All started with an online game (ourWorld)and fb i just randomly create a dude account for fun.. Then girls started to talk to mi and love the...
    Rekawa Rekawa 18-21, F 1 Response May 9

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    My so called ex used me, betrayed me, abused me again, and again after 3 years together on and off. I realised that he wasn't making real effort to stop, so I just broke our...
    Sorasai Sorasai 22-25, F 1 Response May 9

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    Evanescence- my immortal: http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5anLPw0Efmo I use to listen to this band a lot when I was really depressed. Now I just listen to them when I'm angry, or...
    THISarcane THISarcane 18-21, F 3 Responses May 11

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    I can be fine one minute, and the next I flip into a monster with so much anger inside not knowing why, and then I can start crying for no reason. is either I'm bipolar or I'm just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11

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    I have been hurt so many times in relationships that I seem like the most non-approachable person to date because I'm so angry and don't like to let my guard down. So I act sort of...
    SANITYASSASSIN4 SANITYASSASSIN4 22-25, F May 15

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    I can't do this anymore. I can't just keep acting like I'm OK. I'm not ok. I think about suicide every minute of every day. I wonder why people don't care anymore. I know I push...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 Response May 18

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    A month I was a virgin until me and my boyfriend tried to have sex. It was painful and didn't go on for very long. He barely could get inside me, I guess you can say "he only put...
    Kyliecarter Kyliecarter 18-21, F May 25

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    I love putting my hand in side my jeans specially when I'm wearing something silky it feels so good to have my hands inside my pants touching my satin underwear and I don't care if...
    satinbitch58 satinbitch58 56-60, M a week ago

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    I was the girl, for a good time call, Worked well for me, until I began to fall I fell from grace and out of place didn't matter, I was the rabbit in this race I was always the...
    HarleyQuinn251 HarleyQuinn251 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    no one understands how dead inside I am I smile put on a show and act fine when I get home I cry and cry until my daughter is home from day care even though she is just a baby and...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 4 Responses May 4

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    I have noticed there are so many girls out there who like girls. I am creating this post to bring awareness that there are gurls like me who also very much like girls and have no...
    silkydrawers silkydrawers 46-50 5 Responses May 9

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    So I met, let's call her "Rachel"… last summer we're both girls, we had a mutual friend and we would always chill and smoke together. Well that mutual friend which was my best...
    Iridiana Iridiana 18-21, F May 10

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    its hurts and heavy but its for me and for people around me, every time i express my feelings someone got here, even though i only express it if i want them to know that it...
    mynameisnotavailablesad mynameisnotavailablesad 22-25, F 4 Responses a week ago

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