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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

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    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    Listenin

    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-18, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 21-25, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 21-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    I'm really really super shy but once I'm comfortable around you I'm pretty quirky
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    When you ramble on about anything and everything as much as I do, there is bound to be a lapse in the clarity of communication somewhere, and my tendency towards flippancy and...
    puck61 puck61 51-55, M 2 Responses Sep 4

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    Please forgive me if this post is extraordinarily long. I'm well aware that anyone out there shouldn't be asked to sit through this, but I would really appreciate it if someone did...
    jojo2450 jojo2450 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 4

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    Today I had the need to write and get a lot of pain and hurt off my chest, The way my son died was so dam tragic , I just can't STILL believe there is that kind of a people out...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Sep 5

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    The best and the worst feelings in the world is when you're staring at your best friend's eyes and getting lost in it. Because all you see in there is the person that you can't...
    alifia alifia 18-21, F a week ago

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    I'm scared of becoming an adult, even though I've been waiting for this for so long. I have no idea why.
    Juri17 Juri17 16-17, F Sep 7

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    I'm not gonna judge anyone of you, you have your reasons. I talked for a girl (or he/she/it) for a whole year before I found out that this person was fake. Found her on a gay site...
    Revelations90 Revelations90 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    i don't think i'm all that attractive, and it upsets me cause i want to be, but alas my appearance does not match Americas standards of beauty in any regard
    Superwholockian Superwholockian 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Just let you know this may be a long story ( cos I keep locked a way and some the stuff I going to say the girl don't know about and the pic you see is her ) I try keep as short as...
    scottishbigguy scottishbigguy 22-25, M Sep 6

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    Not drunk right now. Gonna go rock climbing for while soon. Run around a lake or walk my dog. Got too many fun things to do to be drankin. Maybeh lata doe. So watch out. I'm pretty...
    Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    "The Woman In Me (Needs The Man In You)" Shania Twain I'm not always strong And sometimes I'm even wrong But I win when I choose And I can't stand to lose But I can't always be...
    Blanche08 Blanche08 31-35, F Aug 29

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    My God I feel so broken, I feel like my insides are being turned inside out, sounds like what my son experienced , every day now i die and the relive over and over again and again...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Sep 5

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    I want to give the **** up already. I'm only going so I don't let my family down or disappoint them. I don't know what to do anymore I'm dead on the inside. I hope things get...
    Longlostfella Longlostfella 18-21, M 20 hrs ago

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    Laughter is all around me, coming from me, and I can see the faces of my friends. It's a good night. We're all at dinner together, debating the stupidest of subjects like world...
    Skollon Skollon 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    I sometimes hold my breathe when I feel like I'm about to explode and let go once I feel the heavy feeling in my heart sides.
    killingallparamedics killingallparamedics 16-17, F Aug 20

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    Im a 16 year old girl who pretends to be someone else in my mind. I started doing this when I was like 12 or 13. I pretend to be this really beautiful girl named Lily who has...
    ABB98 ABB98 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 28

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    I feel so nasty, so harsh, so bitter. I'm disgusted with myself, I'm fed up with my life the way it is, where I live, my surroundings, everything. I feel like I'm about to explode...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 30

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    Don't even know why i am doing this, but here it goes. I am 22 year old guy, who had his share of sorrow trough most of my life. My first memories as child are of my grandfather...
    TheLostSoulTravaler TheLostSoulTravaler 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 10

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    I wish I never was to come to this. When I was younger I was afraid of this happening, now I see what I was so afraid of. I've let the wrong people into my life and I wish I could...
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I always say I feel like I'm married to someone I hate because I don't particularly like myself and I can't escape myself. It's really hard to be in this position and I hate the...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 21

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    I am so great at pushing people away. I don't even know if I consider my two best friends as 'best friends'. I don't feel as if I can tell them everything (not much at all) though...
    mintycat mintycat 13-15, F Aug 28

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    18 years ago, I left everything; work, family, friends, home, and moved accross the world to be with the man I thought was the one. From the very begining things were not right...
    AlmaV AlmaV 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    Living in SD for over 2 years now I'm not sure what I'm doing, I have blocked myself so much out of the world that I don't know how to make friends, I don't like to be social, and...
    blackskys blackskys 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 3

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    My coworker Tim and I became very close in the past month. When he first started working at my store, the security guard and I had a lot of fun at his expense because we thought he...
    iridescenteyes iridescenteyes 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm a little bit selfish but not harmfull.In fact I always enjoyed helping te ones I love but I never put anyone of them first because I am too busy with building my life.I will...
    TheVase TheVase 18-21 5 days ago

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    I am a 32 year old woman. I have been single for 7 years. I have only had one "serious" boyfriend and since then all I have experienced is heartbreak. Disastrous dates, flings, no...
    firecracker1 firecracker1 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 20

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    So I'm really self conscious and i was wondering if you can rate me you know like 0-10? Thanks! Thats me from tonight..
    BriGags BriGags 16-17, F 7 Responses Aug 18

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    Anyone? Girls preferably, and message me too if you want, I'm really bored
    NoPedosPlz NoPedosPlz 13-15, M Aug 18

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    I already know I'm not.. .-.
    CalderReed CalderReed 13-15, M 15 Responses Aug 18

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    I'm actually not too shy at all.. Message me for my Skype... I'm hard and horny and headed for the shower... So don't wait;)
    sexhibit74 sexhibit74 36-40, M Aug 18

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    I,m looking a female friend, i,m honest,kind,loving,hlpeing guy from gurgaon. looking smart,beautiful female friend for long type friendship. if you are looking who love you...
    rajanchaudhry25 rajanchaudhry25 41-45, M Aug 19

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    Now you see what I mean, ,Ma I'm still here
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 19

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    Couldn't sleep after thinking about how tomorrow's my last day with my boyfriend before he leaves for college. We're going to schools that are only two hours or so apart and I'm so...
    jycdartmniac jycdartmniac 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    "I'm okay, doesn't always mean I'm okay." -unknown
    Zoewithoutthei Zoewithoutthei 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    Just goofing around. You can tell I'm really bored
    Sexyandfun1977 Sexyandfun1977 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    plz talk to me guys plz.i m facing struck life
    ladona ladona 18-21 Aug 22