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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    Listenin

    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-18, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 21-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 21-25, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    Stories2Tell14 Stories2Tell14 13-15, M Aug 5

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    People ask if I'm ok. I respond ya I'm fine. But HELLO! I'm dieing inside. Fine NEVER means fine
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    I'm really really super shy but once I'm comfortable around you I'm pretty quirky
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    CuddlesNSnuggles CuddlesNSnuggles 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 2

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    I feel like I'm always the therapist and no one ever listens to my problems or struggles. I'm always the one to ask "Are you ok?" no one ever asks me. When I talk about something...
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    Every since i was a baby everyone i meet calls me a girl, when every i'm with my sister people ask if we're sisters. But i dont look that female a have a beiber cut hair style a...
    snow911 snow911 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 7

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    The past few night i haven't been able to sleep and sometimes i see weird flashes of lights or hears whispering or breathing and im always terrified i feel like I'm in danger.
    squjiggly squjiggly 16-17, F Aug 11

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    Is this legit? Does it make sense? There's only 2 people in this group! Does no one know how to understand it? I'm a girl who likes boys but I wish I were a boy 😯 I think people...
    RexxTheDinosawr RexxTheDinosawr 18-21, F 6 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    So I just have to tell this to someone so please be understanding that all of this is not for sure, but is quite likely. So when I was really little something happened ( I don't...
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    Yeah, my online friends always tell me that i'm sweet and funny but i don't know why i always feel like a dead person from inside.
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M Aug 16

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    i don't think i'm all that attractive, and it upsets me cause i want to be, but alas my appearance does not match Americas standards of beauty in any regard
    Superwholockian Superwholockian 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Here goes. Thought it would give me some confort putting it out here. I’m a 20-year-old from China, and I go to college in Canada. In March 2014, I got to the point where I gave...
    ASalami ASalami 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 14

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    I sometimes hold my breathe when I feel like I'm about to explode and let go once I feel the heavy feeling in my heart sides.
    killingallparamedics killingallparamedics 16-17, F Aug 20

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    Im a 16 year old girl who pretends to be someone else in my mind. I started doing this when I was like 12 or 13. I pretend to be this really beautiful girl named Lily who has...
    ABB98 ABB98 13-15, F 14 hrs ago

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    Gonna name it Alli (It's not my dog, I'm pregnant I swear)
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    Idk I just like dancing. Plus I love edm any type dance music, glow sticks, glow-in-the-dark, black light, and just partying. I think that grounds for being a raver. I never really...
    123peppy 123peppy 16-17, F Aug 8

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    I wish I never was to come to this. When I was younger I was afraid of this happening, now I see what I was so afraid of. I've let the wrong people into my life and I wish I could...
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I always say I feel like I'm married to someone I hate because I don't particularly like myself and I can't escape myself. It's really hard to be in this position and I hate the...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 21

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    I am so great at pushing people away. I don't even know if I consider my two best friends as 'best friends'. I don't feel as if I can tell them everything (not much at all) though...
    mintycat mintycat 13-15, F 13 hrs ago

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    I am a 32 year old woman. I have been single for 7 years. I have only had one "serious" boyfriend and since then all I have experienced is heartbreak. Disastrous dates, flings, no...
    firecracker1 firecracker1 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 20

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    Some people see me as tall for some reason , others as average . I'm 5'3 😒
    ThePrettyOnee ThePrettyOnee 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I'm a christian! And i'm not ashamed about it
    Autisticboy Autisticboy 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    Why not, I'm curious and please be 100% honest! Thz guys 😘😘
    Fashionlover03 Fashionlover03 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 29

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    At least out loud, I won't say I'm in love ;)
    panda05 panda05 18-21, F Jul 30

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    😕😕😕😔😔unmmmm bruah I m ****** dunno wt 2 do
    DarshanShelat DarshanShelat 18-21, M Jul 30

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    People tend to know if they are attractive or not, but I'm always skeptical about it and never really been rated by someone
    johnnyelves johnnyelves 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 30

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    Just be honest bc honestly I think I'm not.
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 30

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    I'm literally laughing cause I am stupid
    trrrrrrouble trrrrrrouble 18-21, F Jul 31

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    I'm bisexual ;)......so yeah. Or at least bicurious.
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I think I'm to ugly for any guy to love me.
    countrybabe16 countrybabe16 16-17, F 27 Responses Aug 6

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    I'm single as a pringle. Let's get to know eachother and start mingling.
    rickyfoo rickyfoo 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 7

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    This is experience project, it gets annoying when 75 to 90 percent of the EP posts are "do you think I'm attractive lol"
    smadathehut smadathehut 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I'm always alone. Surrounded by people and yet all by myself. Someone says they're there and they'll never leave but they always do. It's like no one can see the pain in my eyes
    Katiepoohmm Katiepoohmm 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    Little Lies Won't Hurt Anymore. "I'm Fine..."
    KaliKween KaliKween 16-17, F Aug 12

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    Well I'm definitely not fat at all however I absolutely love eating like sh1t once in a long while versus eating healthy all the time.. Pizza.. Burgers.. Doughnuts.. Etc Mmmmm...
    musicvideographer musicvideographer 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I'm really kicking it these days, life is great, all of u hope u do, and if you don't, remember Africa is affected with Ebola, arsehole are everywhere, Gaza is torn apart- u and I...
    Arkhana Arkhana 31-35, M Aug 14

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    I'm obsessing again. I need to let go.
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14

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