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I Appear to Be a Rock But Inside I'm Terrified

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 194 People

    No One Ever Noticed

    I am really quite easily frightened. I just honed a knife edge fright THEN fight reflex. I know it's supposed to be fright and flight. But was never allowed to run away. In times of stress, it seems like everyone turns to me. My family, friends, people I barely know. I...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    Listenin

    i hav bad family life, etc... i dnt like 2 talk bout it bt i luv listnin nd hav helpd lota peepz gt thru problems... MSN if u wana add is: funkinpunk@hotmail.co.uk my MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/funkinpunk777 my BEBO: http://funkinpunk.bebo.com
    samspamtheman samspamtheman 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 9, 2007

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    Something Is Missing....

    Do you ever feel like you are there to hold up the people around you??  I am the "strong" one in almost all of my relationships, and I am feeling that if one more person leans on me I am going to fall over.  I am a strong person, no doubt, but inside I...
    BeautifulSoul BeautifulSoul 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2007

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    For Your Academy Award Consideration...

    I should be an actor, forget Sean Connery, Ben Kingsly etc... I'm the best there ever was. My role of a strong, successful, intelligent man has been ongoing for almost twenty years, and couldn't be farther from the truth. I force this sh*t all day to everyone I come in contact...
    RusttoRust RusttoRust 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    Usually, I Do.  I Have Li...

    Usually, I do.  I have lied to everyone 'cuz they think I am strong.  I don't ask much help to anyone even to my family.  I hate that I am too proud of myself and it scares the hell out of me.
    WandaFull27 WandaFull27 26-30, F Jan 19, 2007

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    What I've Been Told...

    Co-workers, friends, family. None of them really know. I receive feedback like: "You're so sophisticated" "Classy" "Have it all together". My brother once told me. "Sarah, your whole world could crash down around you, and nobody would ever know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2008

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    It's Mostly Just Faking It!

    I recall having a conversation with my youngest daughter about this very topic.  She was just about to begin a new job and asked me how I always managed to become proficient at any job I did.  My answer?  Just fake it!  She was extremely displeased with this response!  Which...
    ItsWindy ItsWindy 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    I Act As My True Self. ...

    I act as my true self. I don't like fake people and I am definitely not one of them.
    gumbygirl gumbygirl 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    So today I went to the doctor

    for some pain and something hard I could feel on the outside of my stomach, and they told me I could probably get an ultrasound to help see what it is, but most likely wont need it. After they felt of it, not only did they insist I definitly get the ultra sound, but also...
    peoplerun4mme peoplerun4mme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I'm Pretty Much a Marbled ...

    I'm pretty much a marbled mixture of terrified and rock on both the inside and the outside.
    oceantheorem oceantheorem 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18, 2007

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    Putting On a Good Show

    I cry myself to sleep every night, every day is a constant struggle for me not to break down and show how weak I perceive myself to be. I "put on a good show" for everyone--appearing to be happy and in control, it's a hard power struggle but somewhat worth it for me...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    I always have this pissed off look on my face when somethings wrong it shows to the point other people will be like.. Why are you so angry? I'm like I didn't know I was angry
    blessedwoman745 blessedwoman745 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    I'm one of those girls who appears sweet and innocent. Shy and polite, for the most part I am but I can be straight up evil sometimes especially if you mess with me I will be...
    Josimms23 Josimms23 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    this was a real eye opener for me. But in my office a long time ago somebody left me a San Carlos Chih. mug its been here for years its tiny and I was trying to clean up and it...
    kimbriaaa kimbriaaa 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    I've been in a relationship with my bf for about 1.5-2 years now. I had a long term relationship with my ex for 6 years before that. That relationship ended and I started a new one...
    willgethru willgethru 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    And when I'm hopped up on painkillers. I breathe deeper through my nose, and it gets kinda noisey. I watch my thumbs as I text, as if they are going to do something entirely...
    iamrae22 iamrae22 22-25, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    The thing about living is that their will be some form of human interaction. A forced small talk to be polite and the inevitable question, "How are you" followed by an even more...
    macabre00 macabre00 26-30, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    well.. I haven't posted in a while... I've changed... I guess pain changes ppl but it also makes them stronger... but I guess it puts a wall between light... this is what I'm...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    i have had meaningless sex with guys I don't know before, but I'm ok with that. I honestly feel that most people have done that. What I feel bad about is yesterday I took it to a...
    Carxxxgirl Carxxxgirl 18-21, F 10 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Even makeup can't help me. I'm basically ******.
    Gill1998 Gill1998 16-17, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Today is a PRIME example!! The guy I was seeing went AWOL several weeks back and I just assumed he was done with us and nothing more would come of it. I missed him terribly...
    ctstranger ctstranger 41-45, F 5 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I'm okay. No really I am okay. Not planning my suicide or anything
    abernesskraek abernesskraek 16-17, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    To me, the worst feeling in the world is the feeling of being trapped. I have felt this way for as long as I can remember. However, in one sense, I must accept that everyone is...
    DepressedDemigod DepressedDemigod 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    My energy is just....gone. I'm finding it harder and harder to feel emotion, and more often than not I get lost in my own little world, thinking about the emotionless, heartless...
    marshababy33 marshababy33 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I try and hide my emotion, even if I am hurting deeply inside. I will stay stuff like 'I'm ok, don't worry' as I just want to be left alone, to deal with what's going on.
    jaimeedl jaimeedl 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't show atleast I try not to but just thinking about going back in 48hours how these 2 months changed everything and still at night I get these nightmares that are breaking me...
    milind3012 milind3012 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I'm just sitting here on days off smoking weed to make the pain and sadness go away... Day 3 in a row. Here we go.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Meg Myers is getting me through this. (currently 'Poison') It's weird to be happy and upset at the same time. When you have an inner battle raging inside it's like having...
    cherryxblossom cherryxblossom 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Yes pls. I'm an introvert but now I'm stuck at home because I twisted my ankle. So come on strangers! Let's talk and love life.
    GreyMattertome GreyMattertome 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    A little curiosity never hurts. Even if I'm not horny I keep my hand inside and play with myself. It's just so soft and fun to touch.
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses a week ago

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    I'm back tho😌 What's been going on
    PrettyFknDope PrettyFknDope 26-30, F a week ago

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    Why is it that everytime I drink I think of my EX but when I'm sober I'm like wtf why did i do that
    sioma17 sioma17 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    The pain of just living, this pain grew immensely in the last 3 years for me. But now I'm at my limit, I want my end to come soon. Why am I even enduring a life of loneliness and...
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M Jul 18

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    I don't even know where to start. I walk around every day like nothing is wrong but inside I'm falling apart. My marriage is over but I don't have the money to leave him yet. My...
    Jhbea098 Jhbea098 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 17

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    Have you ever been cheated on? That is the feeling that will never leave my chest, no matter how much I try and fill my heart with happiness, there will always be a dull pain there...
    RNgirl23 RNgirl23 22-25, F Jul 16

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    Why do people mistake being shy with being stuck up? I'm actually a very easy person to get a long with. ^-^
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 12

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    I got bored, so I wrote something. I haven't read back through it. I did it all in one sitting just now after a five mile run. I call it the Birth of the Phoenix. Somehow I lost...
    manchild81 manchild81 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I'm not usually okay. Or ever okay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I'm 13 text me at 210-718-7541
    celestialbeing5683 celestialbeing5683 13-15, F Jul 9

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    I'm jealous of one of my close friends , she has it all , the looks and the money...
    secret687 secret687 13-15, F Jul 9

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    I'm bored any guys want to talk nothing sexual Just a good plain and simple conversation
    notheonlyone notheonlyone 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 9

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