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I Appear to Be Strong But I Am Vulnerable

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    I always get called a "player"

    but i am so far from it. More of the faithful type but i get hurt so much i kind of gave up.
    YoungHeartedSoul YoungHeartedSoul 41-45, M Oct 19, 2014

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    Soft Inside

    On the outside it looks like I don't let things bother me, but on the inside I'm panicking at every negative (intentional or not) word that is spoken in my direction. I worry constantly. I fear rejection. I fear being misunderstood. A friend of mine says she is amazed at how...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 24, 2010

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    Protected Unprotection

    I appeares to be strong. On outside... I try not to let others know something hurts me. But is it good? Is it good to hide it inside? I don't think so. I'm trying to learn how to express that this hurt me without hurting others. When I keep it for myself, I can handle it for...
    bublina bublina 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 11, 2008

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    Most of my friendships are love/hate banter,

    which i'll admit is really fun at some times. However as a result, I'm left with friends who abandon me when I need them most and can't see when I'm really hurting. I just want someone who can balance that banter with genuine love.
    CathyMorgan CathyMorgan 13-15, F Dec 12, 2014

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    This site made me open up to

    who I really am... Normally, I do not cry in front of people because crying is a weakness.. Talking about my sexual orientation is a NO NO because of this fear of being rejected... EP made me realize that somebody else is going through the same experiences as well... It is okay...
    maleficent08 maleficent08 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 17, 2014

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    Yeah.

    People call me robotic and unemotional, but really, I cringe at every little comment directed toward me. I wish I could be stronger, but I can't. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 15, 2011

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    Have you ever been in love?

    Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up....
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I Was All Ways the Strong On Ein My Family............

    To my family, I am the strong, oh Shannon will make it, Shannon will pull through, Shannon this and Shannon that. You know, there will come a time; I will not be so strong that my family makes me out to be. I do brake and I do fall apart, I do have feelings. And thats it...
    123ct 123ct 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 14, 2008

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    Am I Just Weak?

             First off I may be a girl but I am a big girl at that and I don't mean hefty, I mean Tall about 5'10, broud shoulders and a never give up attitude. I am a loner as most would call it, but I just see it as having no friends, which I guess is the same thing...
    XieryaWolf XieryaWolf 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2011

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    I'm Weak

    I keep it all together with a smile, and a laugh to fool the world, but I can't fool myself, I am weak, and it comes out even when I don't want it to. I am not strong at all, I"m extremely vulnerable, and get hurt easily.... I just can't take it anymore. I try and hide it but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 30, 2010

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    Eternal Struggle

    I find it horribly hard to show my fears and vulnerability and I know that is something I am going to have to conquer at some point in life.  Today I feel emotionally exhausted after a few days of quite a mental battle.  When it comes down to it I realize I'm alone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 27, 2009

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    Does Strength Even Exist?

    People will always tell you to be strong. People will always tell you to open up, and talk about your pain if your hurting. Quite honestly I'm tired of the contradicting orders. What does being strong even mean? To me, being strong is how well you hide the pain, how tightly you...
    reemus reemus 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2010

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    Opening Up

    It's so scary opening up on here.. I've only been posting a couple days.. and I don't know if i've said much.. but I'm not used to talking about these things.. it's been such an emotional drain.. and I feel so vulnerable from it.. nobody's noticed, I've still been able to keep up...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F Oct 15, 2013

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    Weeping With Sorrow

    i am intelligent, pretty and seemingly successful in life.. i'm married to a european and we have a lil girl who's 2 and a bit.. we r both from developed countries and work in development in developing countries.. i'm a mother.. i (and my 3 siblings) grew up without a mother as...
    sadnessandjoy sadnessandjoy 31-35 Jan 25, 2010

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    It's All In The Facade.

    I walk into a room full of people -everyone's looking at me and their stares, unnerving. But i brush it off, maintain my smile, my confident stance and walk as if i've never been humiliated in my life..People start gossiping and words that are like knives are all drawn. I, their...
    amDamnTiredOfUrLIES amDamnTiredOfUrLIES 18-21, F Sep 29, 2013

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    On the Outside Looking In

    There are many days I have when I will feel alive and motivated in my life to get things done and strive to achieve what I want, although after a short while the motivation begins to fade and depression sinks in once more. This happens especially after I begin partaking...
    bloodpromise bloodpromise 18-21, F Aug 17, 2009

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    Facing One of My Worst Fears

    im trying to face with the fact that i am vulnerable... and it is very very hard for me to admit it because i start thinking that im weak. im very afraid to be weak as im afraid that people will continually hurt me once they find out about my vulnerability and use any info they...
    aida666 aida666 16-17, F May 15, 2009

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    Im Strong On The Inside But Weak Inside

    I have this.. armour on me, and i look strong and confident, and happy. but if you take away my armour you will find someone that has very very bad self esteem and no confidence at all. she isnt happy at all with her life and is scared. these are her true feelings hidden under...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2011

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    Crumble After The Fact

    I've been through alot of bad ****, but I have 2 younger siblings so I've always been stronger for them. I developed this as a habit and still do it to this day. I stay strong long enough to help my loved ones through whatever it is, then when it's all over I fall to pieces. I...
    mrsundercognito mrsundercognito 22-25, F Jan 4, 2011

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    Wobbly : A Poem I Wrote About Being Vulnerable.

    Wobbly by Ivy Orchid Little fingers Little toes Smiles There is something there I knew, I used to know. Hot chocolate in the snow. Kneel Pray Believe Matching dresses dancing in the sun. Sunday shoes, they all hate me. Play nice While they watch us. Sing from the...
    IvyOrchid IvyOrchid 26-30, F Aug 3, 2012

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    Tough As Nails...

    I was a very sensitive child... at my school there was a group of boys a year older than I was who bullied me relentlessly... not really for any reason other than they knew they could make me cry... it didn't take long for me to learn that if you didn't let anyone see what was...
    hippiechick333 hippiechick333 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2012

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    By far one of the worst feelings

    for me... However, something about the feeling is euphoric.
    lonestallion153 lonestallion153 31-35, M 1 Response May 13

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    My Heart.

    It is my vulnerable spot not physically just emotionally. In my heart lie love and strength and I honestly have a heart issue where it will slowly kill me if my heart is broken.
    draganaeros draganaeros 22-25, M Aug 3, 2013

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    To Others, I Portray Strength, But Inside I Am Vulnerable

    My friends see me as a pillar of strength. I help them out in their rough time. But me myself, I am scared and vulnerable. My worst times is with doctors being intimate. I was abused and am just plain petrified. Of what, I dont know. I hate it.
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence 18-21, F Jan 12, 2012

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    I like him but idk whether he like me or not.b4 this i can't even talk to u la G but recently we start to be friend.before this I just smile at u n u smile back n me and vice versa...
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