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I Appear to Be Strong But I Am Vulnerable

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    Does Strength Even Exist?

    People will always tell you to be strong. People will always tell you to open up, and talk about your pain if your hurting. Quite honestly I'm tired of the contradicting orders. What does being strong even mean? To me, being strong is how well you hide the pain, how tightly you...
    reemus reemus 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2010

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    Tough As Nails...

    I was a very sensitive child... at my school there was a group of boys a year older than I was who bullied me relentlessly... not really for any reason other than they knew they could make me cry... it didn't take long for me to learn that if you didn't let anyone see what was...
    hippiechick333 hippiechick333 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2012

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    Crumble After The Fact

    I've been through alot of bad ****, but I have 2 younger siblings so I've always been stronger for them. I developed this as a habit and still do it to this day. I stay strong long enough to help my loved ones through whatever it is, then when it's all over I fall to pieces. I...
    mrsundercognito mrsundercognito 22-25, F Jan 4, 2011

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    Soft Inside

    On the outside it looks like I don't let things bother me, but on the inside I'm panicking at every negative (intentional or not) word that is spoken in my direction. I worry constantly. I fear rejection. I fear being misunderstood. A friend of mine says she is amazed at how...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 24, 2010

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    I'm Weak

    I keep it all together with a smile, and a laugh to fool the world, but I can't fool myself, I am weak, and it comes out even when I don't want it to. I am not strong at all, I"m extremely vulnerable, and get hurt easily.... I just can't take it anymore. I try and hide it but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 30, 2010

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    It's All In The Facade.

    I walk into a room full of people -everyone's looking at me and their stares, unnerving. But i brush it off, maintain my smile, my confident stance and walk as if i've never been humiliated in my life..People start gossiping and words that are like knives are all drawn. I, their...
    amDamnTiredOfUrLIES amDamnTiredOfUrLIES 18-21, F Sep 29, 2013

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    Yeah.

    People call me robotic and unemotional, but really, I cringe at every little comment directed toward me. I wish I could be stronger, but I can't. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 15, 2011

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    I Was All Ways the Strong On Ein My Family............

    To my family, I am the strong, oh Shannon will make it, Shannon will pull through, Shannon this and Shannon that. You know, there will come a time; I will not be so strong that my family makes me out to be. I do brake and I do fall apart, I do have feelings. And thats it...
    123ct 123ct 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 14, 2008

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    To Others, I Portray Strength, But Inside I Am Vulnerable

    My friends see me as a pillar of strength. I help them out in their rough time. But me myself, I am scared and vulnerable. My worst times is with doctors being intimate. I was abused and am just plain petrified. Of what, I dont know. I hate it.
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence 18-21, F Jan 12, 2012

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    I always get called a "player"

    but i am so far from it. More of the faithful type but i get hurt so much i kind of gave up.
    YoungHeartedSoul YoungHeartedSoul 41-45, M Oct 19

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    Facing One of My Worst Fears

    im trying to face with the fact that i am vulnerable... and it is very very hard for me to admit it because i start thinking that im weak. im very afraid to be weak as im afraid that people will continually hurt me once they find out about my vulnerability and use any info they...
    aida666 aida666 16-17, F May 15, 2009

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    My Heart.

    It is my vulnerable spot not physically just emotionally. In my heart lie love and strength and I honestly have a heart issue where it will slowly kill me if my heart is broken.
    draganaeros draganaeros 22-25, M Aug 3, 2013

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    Opening Up

    It's so scary opening up on here.. I've only been posting a couple days.. and I don't know if i've said much.. but I'm not used to talking about these things.. it's been such an emotional drain.. and I feel so vulnerable from it.. nobody's noticed, I've still been able to keep up...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F Oct 15, 2013

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    Im Strong On The Inside But Weak Inside

    I have this.. armour on me, and i look strong and confident, and happy. but if you take away my armour you will find someone that has very very bad self esteem and no confidence at all. she isnt happy at all with her life and is scared. these are her true feelings hidden under...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2011

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    Eternal Struggle

    I find it horribly hard to show my fears and vulnerability and I know that is something I am going to have to conquer at some point in life.  Today I feel emotionally exhausted after a few days of quite a mental battle.  When it comes down to it I realize I'm alone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 27, 2009

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    Wobbly : A Poem I Wrote About Being Vulnerable.

    Wobbly by Ivy Orchid Little fingers Little toes Smiles There is something there I knew, I used to know. Hot chocolate in the snow. Kneel Pray Believe Matching dresses dancing in the sun. Sunday shoes, they all hate me. Play nice While they watch us. Sing from the...
    IvyOrchid IvyOrchid 26-30, F Aug 3, 2012

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    Weeping With Sorrow

    i am intelligent, pretty and seemingly successful in life.. i'm married to a european and we have a lil girl who's 2 and a bit.. we r both from developed countries and work in development in developing countries.. i'm a mother.. i (and my 3 siblings) grew up without a mother as...
    sadnessandjoy sadnessandjoy 31-35 Jan 25, 2010

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    Am I Just Weak?

             First off I may be a girl but I am a big girl at that and I don't mean hefty, I mean Tall about 5'10, broud shoulders and a never give up attitude. I am a loner as most would call it, but I just see it as having no friends, which I guess is the same thing...
    XieryaWolf XieryaWolf 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2011

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    This site made me open up to

    who I really am... Normally, I do not cry in front of people because crying is a weakness.. Talking about my sexual orientation is a NO NO because of this fear of being rejected... EP made me realize that somebody else is going through the same experiences as well... It is okay...
    maleficent08 maleficent08 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    Protected Unprotection

    I appeares to be strong. On outside... I try not to let others know something hurts me. But is it good? Is it good to hide it inside? I don't think so. I'm trying to learn how to express that this hurt me without hurting others. When I keep it for myself, I can handle it for...
    bublina bublina 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 11, 2008

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    On the Outside Looking In

    There are many days I have when I will feel alive and motivated in my life to get things done and strive to achieve what I want, although after a short while the motivation begins to fade and depression sinks in once more. This happens especially after I begin partaking...
    bloodpromise bloodpromise 18-21, F Aug 17, 2009

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    I remember feeling like this once... and I eventually did cave... but nobody noticed until years later... what I realized from the whole experience, is that people can be...
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    So maybe i am braver than most.
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    I don't know how many women have ended up with a weak man. I know personally I have. I was with a weak man for 8 damn years in hopes one day he'd step up and grow a pair. To...
    QueenofMortals QueenofMortals 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Hello, ladies. So, I hope you don't mind, but I'm a single, straight guy looking for a real relationship. Please don't go yet. I'm hoping for some advice. I feel deeply like I am...
    Praeteritus Praeteritus 31-35, M 1 hr ago

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    Have I really become stronger? Sometimes I wonder if that was true. I'm a burn survivor. I struggle everyday with the pain of my scars, the indignity of not being able to do the...
    deliciousmochi deliciousmochi 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 6

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    I have a photographic memory. It's really strong. I can see images like a very well done painting. No on in my family knows this. Only my ex boyfriend knows this. I'm posting...
    XxitsmesarahxX XxitsmesarahxX 13-15, F 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I love my mom to death but she has to accept me being trans. I'm so sorry I'm not going to be able to get you grandchildren, I'm so sorry I'm not going to marry the girl you wanted...
    LindavdB LindavdB 16-17, F 20 mins ago

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    I've been told multiple times that I look weak, I look like I couldn't defend myself... Okay.. I've knocked my brother out before.. He was chasing me and he was mad at me, I warned...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 15

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    I put this together. My first speech so please be nice :) Spread the love <3 To my fellow classmates, Mrs. McLoughlin, and to anyone who cares to listen: Focus on my voice...
    CGilmartin CGilmartin 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 24

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    more like exposed I like how i don't feel the obligation to use emoticons here not saying i don't like them, but..you know...yeah :))
    hoailinh hoailinh 13-15, F Oct 28

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    Talking about wanting to die or to kill themselves. I've written a few entries on deviantart, but my sketchbooks, journals, random pieces of paper and whatever else I can write on...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Nov 13

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    A letter to the mother of my unborn twins... Well this certainly sucks big time.. I have totally flipped my life around for you and only you, made enemies out of people I have...
    lerz2000uk lerz2000uk 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    It's for the best.... I'm a beautiful ball of complicated, vulnerable and scared. I did what I felt I needed to do. I have to let him go.
    SpanishRose10 SpanishRose10 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I walk around my college campus wondering what people think of me. I never put any effort into my physical appearance because i know i am ugly and others think so too. Why was i...
    Danae102 Danae102 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 23

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    I'm so scared about dressing up as a hot anime girl from "Attack on Titan" called Hanji Zoe (or something like that :p) for Halloween but scared people will make fun of me for...
    Quackimaducky Quackimaducky 16-17, F 5 Responses Oct 23

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    I think it's awesome when women are the physically stronger ones in a relationship. Strong women are extremely sexy. By that I don't mean women with the body of Arnold...
    Scaroth Scaroth 22-25, M 3 Responses Oct 25

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    I'm always trying me hardest to really get what I need. In gymnastics I try so hard to reach my goal, to achieve a miracle, to understand what 'strong' really means. I shattered my...
    h2ogirl44 h2ogirl44 13-15, F Oct 28

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    I am stronger now than ever before. I have always had a fear of being alone. Now, I am strong enough to get out of a bad relationship with my husband of 15 years and be able to...
    sweetandspicy1 sweetandspicy1 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I'm a survivor of addictions, of rape, sexual abuse, domestic violence.. I lived my life too many sad lonely years seeing myself as a victim.. I've used drugs, alcohol and men to...
    Snnowflake Snnowflake 26-30, F 8 Responses Oct 25

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    I am a very mature and strong woman with my opinions. I can be blunt when I have to. I stand up strong for what I believe in. If you are afraid of the answer then don't ask the...
    maturewifeandmom maturewifeandmom 36-40, F 4 Responses Oct 26

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    Today, Its my first anniversary with My boyfriend but If you have read my previous stories you will know he's in jail. He isn't able to be with me on our first anniversary and its...
    Fkinnon Fkinnon 22-25, F Oct 27

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    "Was mich nicht umbringt, macht mich starker" I have this tattooed on the inside of my forearm as a reminder. It is the original quote by german philosopher fredrich nietzche and...
    emadelemur emadelemur 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    I am strong. You may have made my day a bad one today, you may have told me to drink bleach today. But that's old news, you've told me to do that before. I don't listen to you...
    SlowlyDrifting SlowlyDrifting 13-15, F 7 Responses Nov 3

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    You know what I find odd? How people associate cutters to being a person who's antisocial, wears a lot of black, and just not that fun to be around. Just the other day my best...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    Last month I went to the hospital to give birth to my first baby. He had a strong heartbeat when I got there. The hospital put me on an iv of "Lactated Ringer's" (no clue what...
    Zylana Zylana 31-35, F 7 Responses Nov 10