I Ask When, How and Why Did You Have Depression

Depression 47 People

    Crave.

    I'm not really sure at what age but it still gets me now days. For the past three days I've been feeling **** and seriously cutting to make myself feel better but it makes me feel sick. Not sick for the cutting but for myself and that I've stooped so low. Ive been constantly...
    Icanthelpet Icanthelpet
    18-21, F
    Dec 12, 2011

    The Darkest Hour

    11 years ago my depression came out in a way they caused me to harm myself. And in doing that I hurt my family. Before the depression came out I kept it to myself for 5 years because my husband traveled and I am a strong person as far as my children went. I never wanted them to...
    ben33156 ben33156
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Jan 20, 2010

    This Shoud Answer That Question

    and my wife was one that never came home, i almost came home in a bag
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Oct 2, 2011

    In The Grips Of Major Depressive Dissorder

    I have often asked myself, what causes my depression; Not from a medical perspective but from my perspective. Two white tablets every morning is that what my life has become; Some days I am completely paralyzed, I cannot function, those are the worse days and I stay in bed the...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

    Many Factors

    ***Warning:  Potentially Triggering Entry***         Much as I love my dad, he can be a jerk.  I spent most of my childhood in a terror, wondering what I'd do next to set him off.  Once, when I was about 6 he ripped the leg off one of my...
    Geode Geode
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 14, 2009

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