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I Attempted Suicide

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    Still Not Over It.

    The first time I was ten.  Trying to kill myself with the hairdryer cable. Until everything got black and I decided not to give up living. Other times followed until today. Once tried cutting my wrists. Once tried to suffocate. But of course that didn't work. There were the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Dec 28, 2006

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    Daddyskinkybaby93 Daddyskinkybaby93 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 6

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    Today the sunrise didn't meet my expectations.

    I'm very disappointed and would rather die than experience something that hideous again. This whole world is a lie and I wish I were dead. No one else could ever compare with my traumatic scenario because you don't know what real pain is. When you think your life is bad, be glad...
    sparklequeen7 sparklequeen7 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    I don't know if anyone actually reads these

    or even cares to read but I just needed to talk about my attempt at suicide. A little background on me is that I've been struggling with depression and anxiety since I was 17; I'm now 24. It all started with my grandma becoming sick, it wasnt over a boyfriend that broke up with...
    JRoseR JRoseR 22-25, F 1 Response May 31

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    not recent but yeah they locked my *** up too.

    I get depressed but not going to attempt suicide. I have ups and downs
    wolfeeegirl wolfeeegirl 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    I haven't been on for a while

    after a failed suicide attempt, hospital kept me for a few days and now I feel ashamed of myself, hurt. I feel so sick of feeling like ... Me. Social anxiety is killing me I can't function I can't take it. BDD is a nightmare, seeing your reflection and feeling simply...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 23

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    Good evening, My name is Cameron Leonard

    and I hope this message finds you well. I have had an extremely rough year, to say the least. Throughout this year I have been in and out of hospitals, placed in a treatment hospital, and attempted suicide. I know, I'm cashews. Well all of these incidences revolved around...
    camalexis camalexis 18-21, F May 6

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    Tylenol Pm

    3 years into my heroin addiction and a broken heart later, I swallowed sixty tylenol pms, and about 40 tussin 45's (prescription cold medicine). I wanted to die desperately but more importantly I wanted attention and so I told my sis that I would not be able to do her hair...
    forgiven forgiven 18-21, F 34 Responses May 2, 2007

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    the Doctor Released Me...said I Didn't Really Intend to Die... (???)

    From the inside of blackness, I gradually became aware of voices.  They were tinny, far-off-sounding voices; like the people using them were at the end of an extremely long and muffled tube.  I couldn’t recognize a single word in this moment; a moment that seemed...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    I've attempted to do this around 5 times.

    Someone also tried to kill me.If wasn't for someone I care and love so much I wouldn't be alive today. I'm also alive today because my child didn't have chance to live.It keeps me going everyday.
    punkglampire punkglampire 22-25 Jul 11

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    My Past

    I went into case management to discuss custody of my children and received a letter in the mail saying I "wasn't very forth coming with negative information"   Lately, I've been reading a lot of stories that make me wanna lift people up off the ground they can't get up from by...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    Very Bad Times...

    When I was 17, things were looking down for me. My last two boyfriends had told me they decided not to be gay anymore after our first time sleeping together... and I was really broken up about it.  I started wondering whether it was MY fault that they were changing their...
    Carazord Carazord 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 31, 2007

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    Two weeks ago I just gave up with trying to be

    happy when really I'm not happy at all!! My mom called for help and they stopped me from killing myself. Tomorrow is when I go get help I'm very scared because I don't trust alot of people! Please pray for me going to bed in tears feeling horrible! Night friends on experience...
    Allstar1993 Allstar1993 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    In class, my Professor told us instead of doing

    a lecture, we were going to have a group discussion. Odd, I thought. What kind of discussion? She took a deep breath and informed us that a student at my school had taken his own life. I knew nothing of this but the whole class did. This was the third week of school and I didn't...
    SinSpitter SinSpitter 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 9

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    It's on my mind again.

    But I know it's just my emotions.. Does anyone else hate emotions? I wish I didn't have them sometimes. I'm bipolar I get too many in one day
    lornalouisa lornalouisa 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 21

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    Health professions were

    so mean to me until I broke down and told them the truth. I am one of those people who was kind of doing two things at the same time when it came to committing suicide. I wanted to be successful but at the same time I considered it a practice run, hoping that it would...
    Tara267 Tara267 51-55, F 3 Responses May 24

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    Not One Of My Better Moments I Attempted

    Suicide. I thought I could make all the hurt go away. I thought it was my only way out. I thought my family would be better off without me. When things start to get too stressful for me I think back to the desperate plea my husband made.....`come back to me I love you...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 7 Responses Jan 6

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    Daddyskinkybaby93 Daddyskinkybaby93 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 1

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    My second attempt was almost 7 years ago,

    in middle school.Since then, I've graduate highschool and soon I'll be out of college. They say not to give up, that things look up, that sometimes it isn't so bad. Its a lie. its bullshit for people like me--if there is anyone like me--who's lives are one bad experience after...
    girlingrey girlingrey 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just stood on that chair.

    I stood there for two hours crying with snot running down my nose and lacking all grace. The feeling of the pulling a my neck was like freedom tugging at my shirt telling me to hurry up and come on. I'm still here though, wondering why, and wishing I'd at least done that one...
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 3 Responses May 5

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    this will be the last time there won't be any

    more attempts no more failures "time to to go just can't seem to fight it anymore
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    Fate? F* That.

    Fate my ***... wish it worked I tried, and I wanted to send my mother a text message apologizing and telling her I loved her..I don't remember exactly the situation or how it happened but instead of the message going to her it got sent to another person, who happened to be in the...
    gdarkcloud gdarkcloud 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    you'd think I'd get the hint

    when it doesn't work, yet again, after the thousandth time
    PiecesOfPeace PiecesOfPeace 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 2

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    I've attempted so many times,

    and have only been close once, it's so frustrating. I've tried a lot of different drugs and cutting but it just never works. Last night i took 56 dramamine and I didn't even get sick, I don't understand how that's possible. I really thought it would be enough this time.
    dmbpal dmbpal 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    I feel all of you my brothers

    and sisters all that pain all the hopelessness Zimbabwe know it very well we will alright one way or another peace be with us he knows us but do here are crying maybe he does. there must be a reason we survived perhaps to try it again. to. live again were not alone
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M Jul 9

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    Almost November 27, 2014 Hello,

    old friend, now tell me why you failed, how you came so close, yet you have yet to see my end. At my throat did your blade set already digging into my flesh you had me, you saw me fold, so why, my Demon, did you fail? Demon, were you weak, afraid? What thoughts raced in your...
    HozierAndMumford HozierAndMumford 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    One Year Ago

    It has been a year since I cut both wrists, my throat and took overdose of pills only to be CPR back to life and spend close to 2 months in the hospital. I could not deal with a lot of things in my life at that point. The loss of my mom to cancer, the loss of a close friend to...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M Jul 13, 2013

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    So, who feels people

    who really want to commit suicide won't talk about it?
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 19

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    I overdosed about 7 months ago.

    of course I'm still alive but I still feel like I shouldn't be. idk. I was hooked up to a lot of machines. I'm lost. part of me wants to be dead the others says I can make it. which is stronger idk.
    jereljf2012 jereljf2012 18-21, T 2 Responses May 24

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    Hey guys, this is my first post,

    i just made this account and i feel really ****** up but need to share this with someone, i cant tell any of my family or they would be worried about me and i dont want that while I was looking through the net for 'easy ways to suicide' etc, this website came up couple...
    Anonnimoose Anonnimoose 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 20

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    been thinking about leaving.

    ...for 2 weeks...ain't easy to live when everyone says "your not worth the breathe"
    nazaret nazaret 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 3

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    A couple times. But I almost succeeded a few

    years ago when I decided to take my dads pills without knowing how they would effect me. I went to the hospital for about 3 days with my family not without knowing if I were going no to make it or not. I could barely walk and I was so shaky. I passed out for 3 days and I woke up...
    ButteryToast ButteryToast 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I was going through a lot

    and as a young teenager I felt lonely and confused. I felt like my life was nothing. It was 8th grade. I was 13. My life up to this point was stressful. My dad and mom arguing everyday. I been abuse by my mom most of my life. My dad doesn't really talk to us. I had friends but...
    SleepingTeddy SleepingTeddy 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 8

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    30 Oxy wasn't enough.

    Woke pissed as hell. I'm still angry. Tired of hearing people tell me **** they can't understand. Tired of people telling me it will get better. Fool, look at the stats, it seldom gets better! So again, you don't know what the **** they're talking about. Taking these...
    onemug onemug 36-40 2 Responses Jun 17

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    I tried to kill myself last night

    for the first time. I chose an old fashioned meathod. I drove 20 miles into the woods and picked up some alcohol on the way. I had the razors already in my car from a job i had recently been fired from (.o i did not steal them). I picked out a field that i figured no one could...
    jlopp6 jlopp6 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    My Turning Point

    I was homeless for about a year and during that time I was a prostitute. I started a relationship with a man and relied on him for housing for about two years, but I cheated on him and ruined that. I was homeless again, and I didn't want to be a ***** again. I manged to get by...
    cephaloscotti cephaloscotti 26-30, F 4 Responses May 7, 2012

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    I overdosed on prescribed medication.

    I can remember it clearly I was with my only good friend, I was laying on her lap crying, and she asked why. I told her it's time for me, and she didn't understand, I told her I overdosed, I was still on her lap and couldn't move. I then slowly closed my eyes, and I never did...
    LacieMarie143 LacieMarie143 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22

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    cheyemarie cheyemarie 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 9

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    This Story Is Not For Me It's For You.

    This is a story that I thought I wouldn't tell but after talking with one user I think I need to tell it. I'm not telling this story for and pity or for someone to comment on it. I'm telling this story for the people that need to hear it so they can understand that suicide is not...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22, 2013

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    I once tried to kill myself

    but failed. It was at that point that I realized that nobody, not even death, wanted me.
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    December 28, 2007

    I'm alive today because my apartment door was unlocked. A friend of mine who hadn't heard from me in a couple days and stopped by.  The rule with my place has always been if the door is unlocked, come on in, if it's locked, don't bother - I'm either not home or I want to be...
    DoctorBastardo DoctorBastardo 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    Overdoses and Thoughts

    i've overdosed 3 times, none were severe and only one ended me up in hospital, but i guess thats cos i didnt tell anyone about the other times, havent spoken about them since i did it until now. i think about it alot, i see a bridge and think, is it high enough, is it worth it if...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F Aug 15, 2007

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    This Is How It Feels By Craig A Miller

    This is How it Feels - a memoir of attempting suicide and finding life It took me three days to recover from my suicide attempt. For three days in the Intensive Care Unit, machines breathed for me, medications balanced my chemistry, and wired electrodes monitored every vital...
    CraigMiller CraigMiller 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    I took about 100 benadryl

    when I was 14. I didn't have the internet then so I just assumed lots of pills=death, like they show in the movies. Benadryl is a hard drug to OD on, apparently. I woke up after taking all the pills and couldn't walk. I remember crawling to the bathroom and that's it. I woke up...
    youdontknowme235 youdontknowme235 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 14

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    About ten years ago, I overdosed on my

    antidepressants. Many factors led to it, but I'm glad my suicide attempt failed. Despite everything I've been through and continue to go through, I enjoy my life. As far as I know, we only get one shot at life. Life is interesting, people are interesting.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 14

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    The Pain Was Too Much

    I love my mom. She wants me to have a good life. She pushes me in the wrong directions-- in the directions SHE would have taken -- which means that a man is the answer to my problems.. I didnt like this man she chose-- she LOVED him with al ehr heart-- she wanted me to love him...
    BurgundyGirl BurgundyGirl 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2007

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