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I Attempted Suicide

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    My Past

    I went into case management to discuss custody of my children and received a letter in the mail saying I "wasn't very forth coming with negative information"   Lately, I've been reading a lot of stories that make me wanna lift people up off the ground they can't get up from by...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    kathrynwren kathrynwren 31-35, F Aug 22

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    Health professions were

    so mean to me until I broke down and told them the truth. I am one of those people who was kind of doing two things at the same time when it came to committing suicide. I wanted to be successful but at the same time I considered it a practice run, hoping that it would...
    Tara267 Tara267 51-55, F 3 Responses May 24

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    The Pain Was Too Much

    I love my mom. She wants me to have a good life. She pushes me in the wrong directions-- in the directions SHE would have taken -- which means that a man is the answer to my problems.. I didnt like this man she chose-- she LOVED him with al ehr heart-- she wanted me to love him...
    BurgundyGirl BurgundyGirl 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2007

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    I tried to kill myself last night

    for the first time. I chose an old fashioned meathod. I drove 20 miles into the woods and picked up some alcohol on the way. I had the razors already in my car from a job i had recently been fired from (.o i did not steal them). I picked out a field that i figured no one could...
    jlopp6 jlopp6 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    not recent but yeah they locked my *** up too.

    I get depressed but not going to attempt suicide. I have ups and downs
    wolfeeegirl wolfeeegirl 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    I'm in my 40s and o attempted suicide 4 years

    ago. Since then I've had 3 surgeries, spent 6 months vomiting and unable to eat due to migraines, and continue to deal with relentless chronic pain. On top of that, my previously amazing husband is becoming abusive and our marriage is unraveling. I wish I had succeeded four...
    GardensWetWithRain GardensWetWithRain 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    A took over 3 grams of pure ketamine & swolled

    27 tablets am seriously shocked & surprised proper shocked & surprised & am absofukinlutely shocked & surprised that l me & myself are still a live a just want to move on in to the spirit world swear down a do cause the spirit world is well better than this no good **** evil...
    NoFearAtAll NoFearAtAll 26-30, M Aug 2

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    When I was 5 months pregnant.

    At the time thinking that was the only way, me and my baby could get away from my abuser. He abused me while I was pregnant. I loved my baby more than anything in the world. And when you're being abused, you don't think clearly. It's true what they say, that abusers have a way...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Still Not Over It.

    The first time I was ten.  Trying to kill myself with the hairdryer cable. Until everything got black and I decided not to give up living. Other times followed until today. Once tried cutting my wrists. Once tried to suffocate. But of course that didn't work. There were the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Dec 28, 2006

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    This Story Is Not For Me It's For You.

    This is a story that I thought I wouldn't tell but after talking with one user I think I need to tell it. I'm not telling this story for and pity or for someone to comment on it. I'm telling this story for the people that need to hear it so they can understand that suicide is not...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22, 2013

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    ilovejesus777 ilovejesus777 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 10

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    Hey guys, this is my first post,

    i just made this account and i feel really ****** up but need to share this with someone, i cant tell any of my family or they would be worried about me and i dont want that while I was looking through the net for 'easy ways to suicide' etc, this website came up couple...
    Anonnimoose Anonnimoose 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20

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    I attempted twice. Both times failed,

    obviously. I couldn't attempt anymore as I am afraid of failure again. I do not have the guts or the courage to attempt again. Both times I attempted were with drug overdose. Once I took 8 times the lethal dose and it ****** me up for few dies but I did not die. The other time...
    SoulCoffee SoulCoffee 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 6

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    About ten years ago, I overdosed on my

    antidepressants. Many factors led to it, but I'm glad my suicide attempt failed. Despite everything I've been through and continue to go through, I enjoy my life. As far as I know, we only get one shot at life. Life is interesting, people are interesting.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I was going through a lot

    and as a young teenager I felt lonely and confused. I felt like my life was nothing. It was 8th grade. I was 13. My life up to this point was stressful. My dad and mom arguing everyday. I been abuse by my mom most of my life. My dad doesn't really talk to us. I had friends but...
    SleepingTeddy SleepingTeddy 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 8

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    this will be the last time there won't be any

    more attempts no more failures "time to to go just can't seem to fight it anymore
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M 3 Responses Jul 13

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    cheyemarie cheyemarie 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 9

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    In class, my Professor told us instead of doing

    a lecture, we were going to have a group discussion. Odd, I thought. What kind of discussion? She took a deep breath and informed us that a student at my school had taken his own life. I knew nothing of this but the whole class did. This was the third week of school and I didn't...
    SinSpitter SinSpitter 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 9

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    Very Bad Times...

    When I was 17, things were looking down for me. My last two boyfriends had told me they decided not to be gay anymore after our first time sleeping together... and I was really broken up about it.  I started wondering whether it was MY fault that they were changing their...
    Carazord Carazord 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 31, 2007

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    ......I don't know how I feel I tried to kill

    myself I though I wouldn't wake up But here I am......
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I slit my wrists when I was 16 (5 years ago)

    and every day it gets harder and harder not to do it again
    silverxrose silverxrose 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    My Shark, No Love Is Worth Dying For Like This...

    It was mid 1997, I was looking into my Shark's eyes outside on a sunny day. I was happy then. He smelled like tequila and testosterone, a glint in his mischievous bipolar eyes. We had just spent the night on a friend's floor, making out after a great kickboxing bout was just...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 11, 2009

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    Almost November 27, 2014 Hello,

    old friend, now tell me why you failed, how you came so close, yet you have yet to see my end. At my throat did your blade set already digging into my flesh you had me, you saw me fold, so why, my Demon, did you fail? Demon, were you weak, afraid? What thoughts raced in your...
    HozierAndMumford HozierAndMumford 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    not Zimbabwe I don't where

    that came from? ?I know it very well
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M Jul 9

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    My Turning Point

    I was homeless for about a year and during that time I was a prostitute. I started a relationship with a man and relied on him for housing for about two years, but I cheated on him and ruined that. I was homeless again, and I didn't want to be a ***** again. I manged to get by...
    cephaloscotti cephaloscotti 26-30, F 4 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Tylenol Pm

    3 years into my heroin addiction and a broken heart later, I swallowed sixty tylenol pms, and about 40 tussin 45's (prescription cold medicine). I wanted to die desperately but more importantly I wanted attention and so I told my sis that I would not be able to do her hair...
    forgiven forgiven 18-21, F 34 Responses May 2, 2007

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    the Doctor Released Me...said I Didn't Really Intend to Die... (???)

    From the inside of blackness, I gradually became aware of voices.  They were tinny, far-off-sounding voices; like the people using them were at the end of an extremely long and muffled tube.  I couldn’t recognize a single word in this moment; a moment that seemed...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    I was admitted to the hospital twice last year

    for attempting suicide. Nobody visited me. My divorce lawyer dropped me as a client. I lost my job after I got out of the hospital. Outlook is still not good. I feel trapped, while I was only admitted twice, I attempted suicide five times last year. I'm so bad at life I can't...
    plainjane22 plainjane22 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 11

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    four times so far. I turned 30 this year.

    I slit my wrists a few years ago. I shot myself in the head 9 months ago. I drove my car 85mph into an interstate railing 3 weeks ago. Depression got worse last year and I finally started drugs for the first time. I was a heavy user until December when I finally decided to...
    decrapinated decrapinated 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My second attempt was almost 7 years ago,

    in middle school.Since then, I've graduate highschool and soon I'll be out of college. They say not to give up, that things look up, that sometimes it isn't so bad. Its a lie. its bullshit for people like me--if there is anyone like me--who's lives are one bad experience after...
    girlingrey girlingrey 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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    December 28, 2007

    I'm alive today because my apartment door was unlocked. A friend of mine who hadn't heard from me in a couple days and stopped by.  The rule with my place has always been if the door is unlocked, come on in, if it's locked, don't bother - I'm either not home or I want to be...
    DoctorBastardo DoctorBastardo 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    The Reason Behind My Picture

    I was really depressed lately much more than I let on so I decided to end my life last night I got a hose put it in my mouth the other side I put in my muffler rolled down my car window and floored it while in park the only reason I am alive is because apparently my sister paid...
    Applelovergod Applelovergod 22-25 8 Responses Oct 11, 2013

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    Fate? F* That.

    Fate my ***... wish it worked I tried, and I wanted to send my mother a text message apologizing and telling her I loved her..I don't remember exactly the situation or how it happened but instead of the message going to her it got sent to another person, who happened to be in the...
    gdarkcloud gdarkcloud 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    It's on my mind again.

    But I know it's just my emotions.. Does anyone else hate emotions? I wish I didn't have them sometimes. I'm bipolar I get too many in one day
    lornalouisa lornalouisa 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 21

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    This Is How It Feels By Craig A Miller

    This is How it Feels - a memoir of attempting suicide and finding life It took me three days to recover from my suicide attempt. For three days in the Intensive Care Unit, machines breathed for me, medications balanced my chemistry, and wired electrodes monitored every vital...
    CraigMiller CraigMiller 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    I've attempted to do this around 5 times.

    Someone also tried to kill me.If wasn't for someone I care and love so much I wouldn't be alive today. I'm also alive today because my child didn't have chance to live.It keeps me going everyday.
    punkglampire punkglampire 22-25 Jul 11

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    One Year Ago

    It has been a year since I cut both wrists, my throat and took overdose of pills only to be CPR back to life and spend close to 2 months in the hospital. I could not deal with a lot of things in my life at that point. The loss of my mom to cancer, the loss of a close friend to...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M Jul 13, 2013

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    So many people think of suicide

    as a joke, when will people take this issue seriously? I've attempted many times, once the other week where I drank loads of alcohol and had a load of painkillers. A friend found out and made me go to hospital. They were crap and didn't even keep me in. ?? don't feel listened...
    nicmar21 nicmar21 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 6

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    Not One Of My Better Moments I Attempted

    Suicide. I thought I could make all the hurt go away. I thought it was my only way out. I thought my family would be better off without me. When things start to get too stressful for me I think back to the desperate plea my husband made.....`come back to me I love you...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 7 Responses Jan 6

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    A couple times. But I almost succeeded a few

    years ago when I decided to take my dads pills without knowing how they would effect me. I went to the hospital for about 3 days with my family not without knowing if I were going no to make it or not. I could barely walk and I was so shaky. I passed out for 3 days and I woke up...
    ButteryToast ButteryToast 18-21, F Jul 17

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    Overdoses and Thoughts

    i've overdosed 3 times, none were severe and only one ended me up in hospital, but i guess thats cos i didnt tell anyone about the other times, havent spoken about them since i did it until now. i think about it alot, i see a bridge and think, is it high enough, is it worth it if...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F Aug 15, 2007

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    I feel all of you my brothers

    and sisters all that pain all the hopelessness Zimbabwe know it very well we will alright one way or another peace be with us he knows us but do here are crying maybe he does. there must be a reason we survived perhaps to try it again. to. live again were not alone
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M Jul 9

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    30 Oxy wasn't enough.

    Woke pissed as hell. I'm still angry. Tired of hearing people tell me **** they can't understand. Tired of people telling me it will get better. Fool, look at the stats, it seldom gets better! So again, you don't know what the **** they're talking about. Taking these...
    onemug onemug 36-40 3 Responses Jun 17

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    Two Attempts And An Accident

    My first attempt was when I was 14. I had had enough of my mother's abuse, enough confusion trying to fit in with the "normal" kids and enough of life in general. I chose a night that my mother was out with her "friend", my sisters were staying the night with their friends and...
    FordPrefect42 FordPrefect42 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    I took about 100 benadryl

    when I was 14. I didn't have the internet then so I just assumed lots of pills=death, like they show in the movies. Benadryl is a hard drug to OD on, apparently. I woke up after taking all the pills and couldn't walk. I remember crawling to the bathroom and that's it. I woke up...
    youdontknowme235 youdontknowme235 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 14