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I Attempted Suicide

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    One Year Ago

    It has been a year since I cut both wrists, my throat and took overdose of pills only to be CPR back to life and spend close to 2 months in the hospital. I could not deal with a lot of things in my life at that point. The loss of my mom to cancer, the loss of a close friend to...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M Jul 13, 2013

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    Two Attempts And An Accident

    My first attempt was when I was 14. I had had enough of my mother's abuse, enough confusion trying to fit in with the "normal" kids and enough of life in general. I chose a night that my mother was out with her "friend", my sisters were staying the night with their friends and...
    FordPrefect42 FordPrefect42 36-40, M 7 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    Death By Hibachi

    I kept hearing about all these people dying by locking themselves into enclosed spaces and burning charcoal. I drank a half a bottle of wine, took some sleeping pills and antianxiety meds, fired up the grill and bundled up on my bathroom floor. I woke up the next morning...
    humdrum101 humdrum101 26-30 2 Responses May 2, 2010

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    Not One Of My Better Moments

    I Attempted Suicide. I thought I could make all the hurt go away. I thought it was my only way out. I thought my family would be better off without me. When things start to get too stressful for me I think back to the desperate plea my husband made.....`come back to me I love you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    NOT Again Dammit

    i can feel it. i don't want to die but i feel the hurt creeping back in to my life. i joke around with people always hiding behind my happy mask but once again this morning i woke up with tears in my eyes. my pain and anger are overwhelming but i can't talk about them. i feel the...
    ihaveanameitsrick ihaveanameitsrick 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 22, 2008

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    Whats Left Of Me?

    Lets just say that this has been going on for a long time, at least to me. Its been about three years now- since the end of 8th grade. Im a junior in high school this year, 16 years old. I was 13 or 14 when this started. So anyways, at the end of 8th grade, I was dating a boy I...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 1 Response Jul 30, 2013

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    The Reason Behind My Picture

    I was really depressed lately much more than I let on so I decided to end my life last night I got a hose put it in my mouth the other side I put in my muffler rolled down my car window and floored it while in park the only reason I am alive is because apparently my sister paid...
    Applelovergod Applelovergod 22-25 11 Responses Oct 11, 2013

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    This Is How It Feels By Craig A Miller

    This is How it Feels - a memoir of attempting suicide and finding life It took me three days to recover from my suicide attempt. For three days in the Intensive Care Unit, machines breathed for me, medications balanced my chemistry, and wired electrodes monitored every vital...
    CraigMiller CraigMiller 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    December 28, 2007

    I'm alive today because my apartment door was unlocked. A friend of mine who hadn't heard from me in a couple days and stopped by.  The rule with my place has always been if the door is unlocked, come on in, if it's locked, don't bother - I'm either not home or I want to be...
    DoctorBastardo DoctorBastardo 31-35, M 6 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    I suffer from bi-polar disorder

    and have clinical depression. My first attempt was at age 14,but no one knew. At 15 i ate 45 prescription ibuprofen and was rushed to have my stomach pumped at military hospital. My father had a high ranking position where the family was stationed and covered the facts of the ER...
    jazzguy1977 jazzguy1977 36-40, M May 28

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    My Turning Point

    I was homeless for about a year and during that time I was a prostitute. I started a relationship with a man and relied on him for housing for about two years, but I cheated on him and ruined that. I was homeless again, and I didn't want to be a ***** again. I manged to get by...
    cephaloscotti cephaloscotti 26-30, F 3 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Mine was when I was a teenager.

    I have been through lots of stuff since but have not been suicidal since, thank God. I believe he healed me and made me an emotionally tough army tank after that! I look back and I think of my circumstances, my story.... and I think, of course I wanted to kill myself! The...
    SanitySister SanitySister 41-45, F Mar 24

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    An Experience That Changed the Way I Saw Life

    I tried to kill myself when I was just barely 20 years old. I swallowed fistfuls of whatever pills I could find and downed them with a bottle of wine. Obviously I survived; a friend of mine called my mom, who took me to the emergency room. I spent a week in a "recovery"...
    brokenxtooxoften brokenxtooxoften 21-25, F May 18, 2007

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    My Shark, No Love Is Worth Dying For Like This...

    It was mid 1997, I was looking into my Shark's eyes outside on a sunny day. I was happy then. He smelled like tequila and testosterone, a glint in his mischievous bipolar eyes. We had just spent the night on a friend's floor, making out after a great kickboxing bout was just...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 11, 2009

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    Guess What? Look at the stars above Guess

    who put them up there? God that does Love you! You! Look at the sky and the clouds God did that just for you, You! He thought about you when He made the Sun, Moon, and Stars, Ya You! Just for You He made all those beautiful forests and oceans Just for You! Ya You! He was...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F Apr 13

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    Tylenol Pm

    3 years into my heroin addiction and a broken heart later, I swallowed sixty tylenol pms, and about 40 tussin 45's (prescription cold medicine). I wanted to die desperately but more importantly I wanted attention and so I told my sis that I would not be able to do her hair...
    forgiven forgiven 21-25, F 29 Responses May 2, 2007

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    This Story Is Not For Me It's For You.

    This is a story that I thought I wouldn't tell but after talking with one user I think I need to tell it. I'm not telling this story for and pity or for someone to comment on it. I'm telling this story for the people that need to hear it so they can understand that suicide is not...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 22, 2013

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    God loves you so much

    that he has filled you with His Holy Spirit. Jesus loves you so much that He loved, blessed, died, and rose from the dead for you. Mary, Holy Mother of God, loves you so much that she manifested herself to bring everyone to Her Holy Son. The Holy Saints of God loved you so...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F Jul 4

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    The Weeping Willow-A Poem As I sat under my

    weeping willow tree I cried so very hard, no one to see the great grieve that was in me It was such a beautiful day I tried to pray having such a hard time not knowing what to say hoping God would come my way. The sweet soft air moved the willow with such beautiful gentle...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F Jul 17

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    Fate? F* That.

    Fate my ***... wish it worked I tried, and I wanted to send my mother a text message apologizing and telling her I loved her..I don't remember exactly the situation or how it happened but instead of the message going to her it got sent to another person, who happened to be in the...
    gdarkcloud gdarkcloud 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    Three Times, Never Again.

    I've tried suicide three times in my life, first by hanging, second by cutting and third by overdose. I knew I was hurting more than myself, I was hurting those I loved, I could see that, but I was convinced the world would be better off without me, I just wanted to die so badly...
    Bowengirl Bowengirl 18-21, F Jun 21, 2011

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    Not My Proudest Moment

    It was around nine years ago.  I attempted a few times within the one year - it was a time I was undergoing a great deal of depression without diagnosis due to a variety of things emerging I had successfully suppressed, emerging under the disguise of exam stress.  I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 22, 2008

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    Something I thought I would post up

    until now. I did try to commit suicide many times. It's really hard to go through with it. I tried jumping off a roof, cutting myself, and a few times put a gun to my head. Somehow, I manage to stop myself from going through with it. Whenever I tried there is this silence...
    Inasda Inasda 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    The Pain Was Too Much

    I love my mom. She wants me to have a good life. She pushes me in the wrong directions-- in the directions SHE would have taken -- which means that a man is the answer to my problems.. I didnt like this man she chose-- she LOVED him with al ehr heart-- she wanted me to love him...
    BurgundyGirl BurgundyGirl 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2007

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    the Doctor Released Me...said I Didn't Really Intend to Die... (???)

    From the inside of blackness, I gradually became aware of voices.  They were tinny, far-off-sounding voices; like the people using them were at the end of an extremely long and muffled tube.  I couldn’t recognize a single word in this moment; a moment that seemed...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    Very Bad Times...

    When I was 17, things were looking down for me. My last two boyfriends had told me they decided not to be gay anymore after our first time sleeping together... and I was really broken up about it.  I started wondering whether it was MY fault that they were changing their...
    Carazord Carazord 21-25, M 5 Responses Jul 31, 2007

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    Eariler this year, I was at the worst

    and most painful of my 3-year long stint of depression, coinciding with a 5-year diagnosis of atypical anorexia. It was getting harder and harder to control my emotions; I was cutting, starving and binging, skipping class, making risky decisions. On February 12th, I decided to...
    MichelleMLM MichelleMLM 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    The first time I tried to commit suicide was in

    year 7 i was bullied for 3 years before I attempted it first I tried using a skipping rope and the bullying continue until I left school over those 4 years I tried all sorts like slitting my wrist my parents have never found out I think I did it just to feel something I slit my...
    ash18bmth ash18bmth 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    I've tried to kill myself twice - obviously

    failed both times. How am I supposed to pick up the pieces of my life? It's almost been a year…and not a day goes by that I don't wish I hadn't woken up that fateful day.
    nowherenearnormal nowherenearnormal 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Not Being Loved Hurts More Than Getting Hurt By A Loved One

    I've never had a someone to love me everyone that did at one point broke me and now I expect everyone to leave. Last week I cried so much cause I liked a girl I was gonna tell her. But to find out she likes my bestfriend I thought we had something going but I had to destroy my...
    annon195 annon195 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2013

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    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    Five years this November 27 I took 145 Elavil.

    I was DOA and life flighted. I was in a coma for over a week. I was planning for years and was finally in a happy relationship so I wanted it to end that way. Well, after 2 months of dating he stuck with me and first saved my life then taught me how to live. We've been...
    kbarbaro kbarbaro 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I accidentally fell off a moving train in 2009,

    and got away with just a scratch. I contemplated suicide occasionally since I was 10 (16 years ago) .Tried it twice this month, two days apart. Both the times, the method was asphyxiation. I don't really know what to make of my experience. I am confused about whether I am happy...
    MaryWShelley MaryWShelley 26-30 Jan 24

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    Still Not Over It.

    The first time I was ten.  Trying to kill myself with the hairdryer cable. Until everything got black and I decided not to give up living. Other times followed until today. Once tried cutting my wrists. Once tried to suffocate. But of course that didn't work. There were the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 28, 2006

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    i wish it had worked

    and im going to try it again
    drugsaregoodmkay drugsaregoodmkay 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    My Past

    I went into case management to discuss custody of my children and received a letter in the mail saying I "wasn't very forth coming with negative information"   Lately, I've been reading a lot of stories that make me wanna lift people up off the ground they can't get up from by...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    I Don'T Want To Live Anymore

    I have attempted suicide before, the only reason I'm alive is because of my family, I know how much I mean to them because we are so close, ina selfless decision I choose to live because of them, life has brought me so much hurt through abuse from family members, boyfriends and...
    Phoenixxx84 Phoenixxx84 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Anoxic Injury From Hanging

    My son Tyler Archibald attempted to take his life at age 15. His suicide attempt by hanging left him with anoxic brain injury from lack of oxygen to the brain. You can read about his story at www.tylerarchibald.com on his page "about life". He is now 23 yrs old and needs 24...
    judiarchibald judiarchibald 51-55 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    I tried to kill myself yesterday by cutting my

    throat three times but I failed again. I have tried killing myself at least once every month this year but of course all the attempts have failed. I should know by now that Every time when I feel happy it doesn't last very long I fall and hit the ground hard and get smashed into...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response May 30

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    Sympathy For The Ill But Not The Ill Of Mind? Wtf

    "SUICIDE IS A PERMANT SOLUTION FOR A TEMPORARY PROBLEM" Go **** off!! who in the f!ck says this sh!t is temporary?  Let me clue those in who are lucky enough to "not understand" why one would like to banish one self from this vile world: I can only equate this feeling...
    pleaseletmego pleaseletmego 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2010

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    I was 18 at the time.

    I had thoughts about it when I was much younger, perhaps 12 or 13. I grew up in an environment where physical discipline was considered normal, even if somewhat extreme at times, and was almost always told about how worthless I was and was always going to be. I tried that night...
    PieSeemsLikeaGoodIdea PieSeemsLikeaGoodIdea 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 24

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    I have had depression

    for more than 20 years. It began with a disfiguring accident I suffered as a teen. I was a good looking kid but after I looked like Frankenstein. 37 stitches in my face.a broken nose and the loss of a front tooth those whom I thought were my friends called me hurtful names and...
    TheBrooklynKid TheBrooklynKid 46-50, M 3 Responses Mar 15

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    I just failed my exam

    and my relationship everybody make me feels vry bad am just fed up with my life but now I love my life
    jonny1989 jonny1989 22-25, M Mar 18

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    I just wanna say something right now.

    .. For all those who attempted suicide..... Life's hard I know but PLEASE don't take your own life. I KNOW what pain feels like. And I think about it sometimes every day when I'm really down but life is BEAUTIFUL. You just have to crawl up out that space enough see the light...
    pinkkcotton pinkkcotton 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I once tried to kill myself

    but failed. It was at that point that I realized that nobody, not even death, wanted me.
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    more than once. First time was on a motorcycle.

    I had been planning it for years. I actually had targets, trees picked out that I would be able to crash into and die. When the time came I could not force myself into the trees. I don't think it was because I didn't want to die. I think it was because I wasn't sure I was...
    qball4070 qball4070 66-70, M Feb 25

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    I'm Afraid of the Spiritual Consequences

    I want to die.  I want to die so badly.  I suffer from schizophrenia and have had suicidal ideation since 4th grade.  I am 26 now and not a day goes by where I dont think about suicide.  I have never attempted it because if I did I would guarantee lethal...
    energyoftheuniverse energyoftheuniverse 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 16, 2007

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    Everyone, even the ones

    who seem so happy now, has hit a point in their lives where they see the uselessness of living. People are always shocked that someone like me would have ever even thought about it. My home life was, the least to say, psychologically torturous. Without going into details, it...
    sunnyshellkitty sunnyshellkitty 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 12

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    One night, I was sitting on my bed,

    after getting into a huge argument with my brother and afterwards, my best friend. Going into my bathroom, I pulled out two containers of pills. Acetaminophen and ibuprofen. Somehow, I ended up with a bottle of aperitif in my hand, and I drowned the pills with the alcohol. In...
    madigracie madigracie 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    Guess What? Look at the stars above Guess

    who put them up there? God that does Love you! You! Look at the sky and the clouds God did that just for you, You! He thought about you when He made the Sun, Moon, and Stars, Ya You! Just for You He made all those beautiful forests and oceans Just for You! Ya You! He was...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    It was last year, I was in an extremely dark

    place. Things with my ex were really bad, I was having issues at work, and we were facing having to sell mom's house, just to make ends meet. My phone was cut off, and I really had no interactions with anyone. One weekend, after just too much drinking, and over-thinking about...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F Mar 11

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    Overdoses and Thoughts

    i've overdosed 3 times, none were severe and only one ended me up in hospital, but i guess thats cos i didnt tell anyone about the other times, havent spoken about them since i did it until now. i think about it alot, i see a bridge and think, is it high enough, is it worth it if...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F Aug 15, 2007

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    I had two very bad attempts.

    : 1st : I have been suffering from depression since my father started abusing me. The 1st time I have remembered of him abusing me, I was about six years old, it started right after I started going to school. I was in hell. I was also sad, and angry. I felt like it was all my...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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