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I Attempted Suicide

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    I just took a lot of pills.

    It dawned on me afterwards that I might die, And considering I can't make myself throw up, I'm pretty much screwed. I wrote a note just incase I die and now I'm eating pizza. I'm kinda not very concerned about myself but I'm worried about my friends and family, they don't need...
    hannahisnot hannahisnot 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    This Story Is Not For Me It's For You.

    This is a story that I thought I wouldn't tell but after talking with one user I think I need to tell it. I'm not telling this story for and pity or for someone to comment on it. I'm telling this story for the people that need to hear it so they can understand that suicide is not...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22, 2013

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    My Shark, No Love Is Worth Dying For Like This...

    It was mid 1997, I was looking into my Shark's eyes outside on a sunny day. I was happy then. He smelled like tequila and testosterone, a glint in his mischievous bipolar eyes. We had just spent the night on a friend's floor, making out after a great kickboxing bout was just...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 11, 2009

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    I once tried to kill myself

    but failed. It was at that point that I realized that nobody, not even death, wanted me.
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    December 28, 2007

    I'm alive today because my apartment door was unlocked. A friend of mine who hadn't heard from me in a couple days and stopped by.  The rule with my place has always been if the door is unlocked, come on in, if it's locked, don't bother - I'm either not home or I want to be...
    DoctorBastardo DoctorBastardo 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    How sad it is to get to

    that point in your life where you feel like you have no other option. Sad and selfish. The suicide was my sad and desperate attempt to gain freedom. To gain peace and the ability to breathe. Like everything else, I failed. Should have took more pills. Should have locked the door...
    SummerOf22 SummerOf22 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I Wanted to Die.

     tried to kill my self several times. The first was when I was in high school and I tried taking one bottle of sleeping pills and another of no-doz. My thinking was the pills would cause my heart to beat so fast it would stop...needless to say it didn't work. I was sick as a...
    rescueangel rescueangel 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 12, 2007

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    Guys I don't know what to do.

    Last week my best friend attempted suicide and a few days ago my brother tried. Thankfully neither of them were successful but still. And on top of that it's the 20 year anniversary of my dads death this week. I just don't want to be here anymore.
    irongirl135 irongirl135 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    I attempted suicide 2 years ago.

    I almost jumped off my towns 8th street bridge. But in the end I wasn't strong enough. Since then I've been through counsellors and varieties of meds but nothing has worked. Now I'm back where I started. I'm trying to figure out how to kill myself where once I've begun, there's...
    painseeker16 painseeker16 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    This wasn't the first time.

    But the most recent. After a very bad couple of weeks, I went on a massive binge. I honestly don't remember much, but I ended up sitting on a rail line, scratching myself to pieces on barbed wire and then sitting on the railings on a motorway bridge. If someone hadnt already...
    gt989 gt989 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 23

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    Almost attempted again tonight.

    ... Please put me out of my misery... I hurt everyone around me... Including myself... Let me ******* die
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I've tried to kill myself twice - obviously

    failed both times. How am I supposed to pick up the pieces of my life? It's almost been a year…and not a day goes by that I don't wish I hadn't woken up that fateful day.
    nowherenearnormal nowherenearnormal 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I attempted it. After a long history of self

    mutilation. I used to be in a shock rock band. The guitarist knew of my self harm and used it to his advantage. We shared an apartment together. He isolated me from the world and encouraged me to hurt myself. It helped our band's "evil" image. On Thanksgiving 2014, I would be...
    Darknessisgrowing Darknessisgrowing 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 12

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    I realised why all my previous attempts had

    failed. I relied on my own determination to kill myself. If I wanted to kill myself I would have to put my life in someone else's hands. I went to an ally and saw a group of young thugs who were known for next to all the crime in the area. I said to one of them, "please kill me...
    rosenew rosenew 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I had two very bad attempts.

    : 1st : I have been suffering from depression since my father started abusing me. The 1st time I have remembered of him abusing me, I was about six years old, it started right after I started going to school. I was in hell. I was also sad, and angry. I felt like it was all my...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Ive attempted suicide twice.

    Overdose and hanging. The first time was a few months back, I overdosed on a mixture of pills and alcohol but all that happened was me waking up the next morning vomiting up fluids, I was taken to hospital and put on a drip for a few hours. The second time was earlier today. I...
    CharPhoenix CharPhoenix 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 13

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    In 2007 I committed suicide

    but was resuscitated. It was a long road back to recovery physically and mentally. Today I am glad I made it. Don't give up hope. Always remember this: you will not always feel the way you do now. Things get better!
    pencil88 pencil88 18-21 1 Response Mar 10

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    One Year Ago

    It has been a year since I cut both wrists, my throat and took overdose of pills only to be CPR back to life and spend close to 2 months in the hospital. I could not deal with a lot of things in my life at that point. The loss of my mom to cancer, the loss of a close friend to...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M Jul 13, 2013

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    the Doctor Released Me...said I Didn't Really Intend to Die... (???)

    From the inside of blackness, I gradually became aware of voices.  They were tinny, far-off-sounding voices; like the people using them were at the end of an extremely long and muffled tube.  I couldn’t recognize a single word in this moment; a moment that seemed...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    I've overdosed twice

    and been hospitalized 5 times. I cringe every time I hear sirens because it brings back the memory. I'm still thinking about it. I don't really know what to do. I'm bipolar and on meds and smoking weed and I think it's making me worse.
    hippiesugar hippiesugar 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 17

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    we take the pills to not feel our brains are on

    overload and we know that we'll implode if we don't take this one small pill docs look at us like we just want drugs tell us that we're really just fine think we can never get enough if only they knew the monster dwelling in our mind maybe they'd really see us and think god...
    irongirl135 irongirl135 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I overdosed on prescribed medication.

    I can remember it clearly I was with my only good friend, I was laying on her lap crying, and she asked why. I told her it's time for me, and she didn't understand, I told her I overdosed, I was still on her lap and couldn't move. I then slowly closed my eyes, and I never did...
    LacieMarie143 LacieMarie143 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    Overdoses and Thoughts

    i've overdosed 3 times, none were severe and only one ended me up in hospital, but i guess thats cos i didnt tell anyone about the other times, havent spoken about them since i did it until now. i think about it alot, i see a bridge and think, is it high enough, is it worth it if...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F Aug 15, 2007

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    unknownGirlwithabrokenheart unknownGirlwithabrokenheart 18-21, F Mar 9

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    I couldn't pull the trigger on my handgun.

    .. it's really hard to pull... tears running down your face, thinking about everyone who your leaving behind hating that no one will listen to you, no one will spend time with you... it sucks being so depressed I'm almost out of this hole... today i smiled
    Jessechasee Jessechasee 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    Not One Of My Better Moments I Attempted

    Suicide. I thought I could make all the hurt go away. I thought it was my only way out. I thought my family would be better off without me. When things start to get too stressful for me I think back to the desperate plea my husband made.....`come back to me I love you...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 7 Responses Jan 6

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    Just last Sunday. I was released from the

    hospital yesterday, but I still wish I would have died. Depression is hard, especially when no one in your family has gone through it. I want to talk to someone who actually understands what I am going through. The worst thing to say to someone with severe depression is "Cant...
    katied12 katied12 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    This Is How It Feels By Craig A Miller

    This is How it Feels - a memoir of attempting suicide and finding life It took me three days to recover from my suicide attempt. For three days in the Intensive Care Unit, machines breathed for me, medications balanced my chemistry, and wired electrodes monitored every vital...
    CraigMiller CraigMiller 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    My Past

    I went into case management to discuss custody of my children and received a letter in the mail saying I "wasn't very forth coming with negative information"   Lately, I've been reading a lot of stories that make me wanna lift people up off the ground they can't get up from by...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    The Pain Was Too Much

    I love my mom. She wants me to have a good life. She pushes me in the wrong directions-- in the directions SHE would have taken -- which means that a man is the answer to my problems.. I didnt like this man she chose-- she LOVED him with al ehr heart-- she wanted me to love him...
    BurgundyGirl BurgundyGirl 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2007

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    I overdosed about 7 months ago.

    of course I'm still alive but I still feel like I shouldn't be. idk. I was hooked up to a lot of machines. I'm lost. part of me wants to be dead the others says I can make it. which is stronger idk.
    jereljf2012 jereljf2012 18-21, T 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Mental Illness and Suicide

    This is my suicide attempt story. I eventually wrote it up in this format for a Creative Non-Fiction Class. It is written fiction style for that reason of course. It is long, too... sorry about that =P. I am sitting in the waiting room at 2 o’clock on a Wednesday...
    CallipygianVenus CallipygianVenus 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 11, 2008

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    Not One Of My Better Moments

    I Attempted Suicide. I thought I could make all the hurt go away. I thought it was my only way out. I thought my family would be better off without me. When things start to get too stressful for me I think back to the desperate plea my husband made.....`come back to me I love you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    I have had three, now four.

    I have bandages on my arms now. I just don't see any point of living
    rosenew rosenew 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    Very Bad Times...

    When I was 17, things were looking down for me. My last two boyfriends had told me they decided not to be gay anymore after our first time sleeping together... and I was really broken up about it.  I started wondering whether it was MY fault that they were changing their...
    Carazord Carazord 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 31, 2007

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    I am happy to say that

    since I have been on Venlafaxine I haven't had any suicidal thoughts that lingered for more than a mere moment. Woah, I just realized I said something; I said I'm happy. And I genuinely am. I'm not having panic attacks anymore, my depression has been curbed. Is it still there...
    irongirl135 irongirl135 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    Yeah. Was in the hospital

    for a few days. They put me on meds that won't work for a month so I have to try not to want to kill myself for that long. And I am already slipping.
    Paperboyc Paperboyc 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 13

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    Please call the suicide hotlines

    if you are thinking this:
    divinegimp divinegimp 22-25 2 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    So, who feels people

    who really want to commit suicide won't talk about it?
    Breaker91 Breaker91 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I attempted Feb. 2014.

    Not a day goes by that I don't feel extreme grief about my attempt. I have held a job (in administration in a hospital) and have seemingly "got my life together". But, I feel like I am stuttering, standing in place with no real forward momentum in my depression. I go through...
    dmtm1973 dmtm1973 41-45, F Apr 14

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    My Turning Point

    I was homeless for about a year and during that time I was a prostitute. I started a relationship with a man and relied on him for housing for about two years, but I cheated on him and ruined that. I was homeless again, and I didn't want to be a ***** again. I manged to get by...
    cephaloscotti cephaloscotti 26-30, F 3 Responses May 7, 2012

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    kellieray kellieray 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    Still Not Over It.

    The first time I was ten.  Trying to kill myself with the hairdryer cable. Until everything got black and I decided not to give up living. Other times followed until today. Once tried cutting my wrists. Once tried to suffocate. But of course that didn't work. There were the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Dec 28, 2006

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    I haven't been on for a while

    after a failed suicide attempt, hospital kept me for a few days and now I feel ashamed of myself, hurt. I feel so sick of feeling like ... Me. Social anxiety is killing me I can't function I can't take it. BDD is a nightmare, seeing your reflection and feeling simply...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 23

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    Almost November 27, 2014 Hello,

    old friend, now tell me why you failed, how you came so close, yet you have yet to see my end. At my throat did your blade set already digging into my flesh you had me, you saw me fold, so why, my Demon, did you fail? Demon, were you weak, afraid? What thoughts raced in your...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    When does one start to feel grateful the

    suicide attempt failed? I woke up in ICU on a vent, and then in and out of psych wards for months after. It's been 10 years and I'm still so sad my attempt failed. I'm still here only to prevent hurting my family again. I've lost my fear of death, in fact I yearn for it to stop...
    dontwanttobeknown dontwanttobeknown 51-55, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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