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I Attempted Suicide

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    the suicide note I wrote over two years ago.

    It is in the best Latin I could manage. find hope, friends, for I have survived. Suicidum June 27, 2012 Anno Domini Apud Memoriam De Dylan Greenwood. Ultima Verit Eadem Locutio Verbum, In persona eius indicaverit ministraverit fiat servire augebatur. Quia etsi saepe...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 27

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    My Turning Point

    I was homeless for about a year and during that time I was a prostitute. I started a relationship with a man and relied on him for housing for about two years, but I cheated on him and ruined that. I was homeless again, and I didn't want to be a ***** again. I manged to get by...
    cephaloscotti cephaloscotti 26-30, F 3 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Mine was when I was a teenager.

    I have been through lots of stuff since but have not been suicidal since, thank God. I believe he healed me and made me an emotionally tough army tank after that! I look back and I think of my circumstances, my story.... and I think, of course I wanted to kill myself! The...
    SanitySister SanitySister 41-45, F Mar 24

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    I suffer from bi-polar disorder

    and have clinical depression. My first attempt was at age 14,but no one knew. At 15 i ate 45 prescription ibuprofen and was rushed to have my stomach pumped at military hospital. My father had a high ranking position where the family was stationed and covered the facts of the ER...
    jazzguy1977 jazzguy1977 36-40, M 3 Responses May 28

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    My Past

    I went into case management to discuss custody of my children and received a letter in the mail saying I "wasn't very forth coming with negative information"   Lately, I've been reading a lot of stories that make me wanna lift people up off the ground they can't get up from by...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    Tylenol Pm

    3 years into my heroin addiction and a broken heart later, I swallowed sixty tylenol pms, and about 40 tussin 45's (prescription cold medicine). I wanted to die desperately but more importantly I wanted attention and so I told my sis that I would not be able to do her hair...
    forgiven forgiven 21-25, F 31 Responses May 2, 2007

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    NOT Again Dammit

    i can feel it. i don't want to die but i feel the hurt creeping back in to my life. i joke around with people always hiding behind my happy mask but once again this morning i woke up with tears in my eyes. my pain and anger are overwhelming but i can't talk about them. i feel the...
    ihaveanameitsrick ihaveanameitsrick 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 22, 2008

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    I realised why all my previous attempts had

    failed. I relied on my own determination to kill myself. If I wanted to kill myself I would have to put my life in someone else's hands. I went to an ally and saw a group of young thugs who were known for next to all the crime in the area. I said to one of them, "please kill me...
    rosenew rosenew 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    When does one start to feel grateful the

    suicide attempt failed? I woke up in ICU on a vent, and then in and out of psych wards for months after. It's been 10 years and I'm still so sad my attempt failed. I'm still here only to prevent hurting my family again. I've lost my fear of death, in fact I yearn for it to stop...
    dontwanttobeknown dontwanttobeknown 51-55, F Dec 11

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    I swallowed sleeping pills.

    . The rest of the night was a blur... I remember bits and pieces but nothing is clear. It's only been a few nights but it comes back to haunt me in my dreams. Nightmare after nightmare. I'm scared to fall asleep, especially alone...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 17

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    God loves you so much

    that he has filled you with His Holy Spirit. Jesus loves you so much that He loved, blessed, died, and rose from the dead for you. Mary, Holy Mother of God, loves you so much that she manifested herself to bring everyone to Her Holy Son. The Holy Saints of God loved you so...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F Jul 4

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    the Doctor Released Me...said I Didn't Really Intend to Die... (???)

    From the inside of blackness, I gradually became aware of voices.  They were tinny, far-off-sounding voices; like the people using them were at the end of an extremely long and muffled tube.  I couldn’t recognize a single word in this moment; a moment that seemed...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    My Shark, No Love Is Worth Dying For Like This...

    It was mid 1997, I was looking into my Shark's eyes outside on a sunny day. I was happy then. He smelled like tequila and testosterone, a glint in his mischievous bipolar eyes. We had just spent the night on a friend's floor, making out after a great kickboxing bout was just...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 11, 2009

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    Almost November 27, 2014 Hello,

    old friend, now tell me why you failed, how you came so close, yet you have yet to see my end. At my throat did your blade set already digging into my flesh you had me, you saw me fold, so why, my Demon, did you fail? Demon, were you weak, afraid? What thoughts raced in your...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 27

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    Very Bad Times...

    When I was 17, things were looking down for me. My last two boyfriends had told me they decided not to be gay anymore after our first time sleeping together... and I was really broken up about it.  I started wondering whether it was MY fault that they were changing their...
    Carazord Carazord 21-25, M 5 Responses Jul 31, 2007

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    I had two very bad attempts.

    : 1st : I have been suffering from depression since my father started abusing me. The 1st time I have remembered of him abusing me, I was about six years old, it started right after I started going to school. I was in hell. I was also sad, and angry. I felt like it was all my...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    The Weeping Willow-A Poem As I sat under my

    weeping willow tree I cried so very hard, no one to see the great grieve that was in me It was such a beautiful day I tried to pray having such a hard time not knowing what to say hoping God would come my way. The sweet soft air moved the willow with such beautiful gentle...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F Jul 17

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    I've tried to kill myself twice - obviously

    failed both times. How am I supposed to pick up the pieces of my life? It's almost been a year…and not a day goes by that I don't wish I hadn't woken up that fateful day.
    nowherenearnormal nowherenearnormal 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Why? I don't see why death should be a solution.

    Can someone please explain it? **** off to whatever person that has left you. Is life boring or just sad? Take medicines or drugs. Feeling alone? Meet someone. Afraid of socializing? Drugs/alcohol. Made something that you regret? Fix it, change life, be kind. Can't accept...
    AcidBrain AcidBrain 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 4

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    I once tried to kill myself

    but failed. It was at that point that I realized that nobody, not even death, wanted me.
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    I tried to kill myself yesterday by cutting my

    throat three times but I failed again. I have tried killing myself at least once every month this year but of course all the attempts have failed. I should know by now that Every time when I feel happy it doesn't last very long I fall and hit the ground hard and get smashed into...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 30

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    The Reason Behind My Picture

    I was really depressed lately much more than I let on so I decided to end my life last night I got a hose put it in my mouth the other side I put in my muffler rolled down my car window and floored it while in park the only reason I am alive is because apparently my sister paid...
    Applelovergod Applelovergod 22-25 8 Responses Oct 11, 2013

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    I just wanna say something right now.

    .. For all those who attempted suicide..... Life's hard I know but PLEASE don't take your own life. I KNOW what pain feels like. And I think about it sometimes every day when I'm really down but life is BEAUTIFUL. You just have to crawl up out that space enough see the light...
    pinkkcotton pinkkcotton 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    Overdoses and Thoughts

    i've overdosed 3 times, none were severe and only one ended me up in hospital, but i guess thats cos i didnt tell anyone about the other times, havent spoken about them since i did it until now. i think about it alot, i see a bridge and think, is it high enough, is it worth it if...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F Aug 15, 2007

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    Not My Proudest Moment

    It was around nine years ago.  I attempted a few times within the one year - it was a time I was undergoing a great deal of depression without diagnosis due to a variety of things emerging I had successfully suppressed, emerging under the disguise of exam stress.  I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 22, 2008

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    Anoxic Injury From Hanging

    My son Tyler Archibald attempted to take his life at age 15. His suicide attempt by hanging left him with anoxic brain injury from lack of oxygen to the brain. You can read about his story at www.tylerarchibald.com on his page "about life". He is now 23 yrs old and needs 24...
    judiarchibald judiarchibald 51-55 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    I just took a lot of pills.

    It dawned on me afterwards that I might die, And considering I can't make myself throw up, I'm pretty much screwed. I wrote a note just incase I die and now I'm eating pizza. I'm kinda not very concerned about myself but I'm worried about my friends and family, they don't need...
    hannahisnot hannahisnot 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 25

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    I Wanted to Die.

     tried to kill my self several times. The first was when I was in high school and I tried taking one bottle of sleeping pills and another of no-doz. My thinking was the pills would cause my heart to beat so fast it would stop...needless to say it didn't work. I was sick as a...
    rescueangel rescueangel 26-30, F 11 Responses Feb 12, 2007

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    motherhathor motherhathor 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    This Is How It Feels By Craig A Miller

    This is How it Feels - a memoir of attempting suicide and finding life It took me three days to recover from my suicide attempt. For three days in the Intensive Care Unit, machines breathed for me, medications balanced my chemistry, and wired electrodes monitored every vital...
    CraigMiller CraigMiller 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    Still Not Over It.

    The first time I was ten.  Trying to kill myself with the hairdryer cable. Until everything got black and I decided not to give up living. Other times followed until today. Once tried cutting my wrists. Once tried to suffocate. But of course that didn't work. There were the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Dec 28, 2006

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    I have had three, now four.

    I have bandages on my arms now. I just don't see any point of living
    rosenew rosenew 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 7

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    December 28, 2007

    I'm alive today because my apartment door was unlocked. A friend of mine who hadn't heard from me in a couple days and stopped by.  The rule with my place has always been if the door is unlocked, come on in, if it's locked, don't bother - I'm either not home or I want to be...
    DoctorBastardo DoctorBastardo 31-35, M 6 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    I have a knife in my hand I'm sick of being

    treated this way and struggling to find a reason to carry on
    ash18bmth ash18bmth 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 9

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    I attempted suicide after years of suicidal

    thoughts and a 11 year spiraling drug habbit. Like others on here I hide behind a mask of a seemingly normal happy 23 year old. No one understands me and I don't really understand my self most of the time. Confusion took hold and my various addictions were spiraling into new...
    JackTheLad91 JackTheLad91 22-25 Jun 19

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    The first time I tried to commit suicide was in

    year 7 i was bullied for 3 years before I attempted it first I tried using a skipping rope and the bullying continue until I left school over those 4 years I tried all sorts like slitting my wrist my parents have never found out I think I did it just to feel something I slit my...
    ash18bmth ash18bmth 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    I slit both of my wrists,

    but I didn't cut the vane so I sat there with a bloody pocket knife wondering why my wrists aren't gushing out blood. Yet I am going to try something else later...
    thefallensoldier thefallensoldier 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 8

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    Fate? F* That.

    Fate my ***... wish it worked I tried, and I wanted to send my mother a text message apologizing and telling her I loved her..I don't remember exactly the situation or how it happened but instead of the message going to her it got sent to another person, who happened to be in the...
    gdarkcloud gdarkcloud 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

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    Not One Of My Better Moments

    I Attempted Suicide. I thought I could make all the hurt go away. I thought it was my only way out. I thought my family would be better off without me. When things start to get too stressful for me I think back to the desperate plea my husband made.....`come back to me I love you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    does anyone know the best way out

    as I f dont want to fail my next attempt and want a painless way? not to cause harm to anybody else in process does carbon monoxide poisoning work ???
    chrismac3113 chrismac3113 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 24

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    Please call the suicide hotlines

    if you are thinking this:
    divinegimp divinegimp 22-25 2 Responses Dec 10

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    Mental Illness and Suicide

    This is my suicide attempt story. I eventually wrote it up in this format for a Creative Non-Fiction Class. It is written fiction style for that reason of course. It is long, too... sorry about that =P. I am sitting in the waiting room at 2 o’clock on a Wednesday...
    CallipygianVenus CallipygianVenus 21-25, F 7 Responses Feb 11, 2008

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    Two Attempts And An Accident

    My first attempt was when I was 14. I had had enough of my mother's abuse, enough confusion trying to fit in with the "normal" kids and enough of life in general. I chose a night that my mother was out with her "friend", my sisters were staying the night with their friends and...
    FordPrefect42 FordPrefect42 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    This Story Is Not For Me It's For You.

    This is a story that I thought I wouldn't tell but after talking with one user I think I need to tell it. I'm not telling this story for and pity or for someone to comment on it. I'm telling this story for the people that need to hear it so they can understand that suicide is not...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22, 2013

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    Guess What? Look at the stars above Guess

    who put them up there? God that does Love you! You! Look at the sky and the clouds God did that just for you, You! He thought about you when He made the Sun, Moon, and Stars, Ya You! Just for You He made all those beautiful forests and oceans Just for You! Ya You! He was...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    I wish I was never born.

    ... I'm angry that I didn't come out successful.... I could've been dead... And I wouldn't have to feel like this anymore...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Nov 22

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    Almost Worked

    It was my 2nd try,March 9 1997.I was very depressed,for two months.I didnt know why i felt this way and never felt so sad before.I finally decided i couldnt take it any more.I tried cutting my wrists but that did nt work,A few days/weeks later i went out to some woods by my...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M 9 Responses Jun 17, 2010

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    i wish it had worked

    and im going to try it again
    drugsaregoodmkay drugsaregoodmkay 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 18

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    One Year Ago

    It has been a year since I cut both wrists, my throat and took overdose of pills only to be CPR back to life and spend close to 2 months in the hospital. I could not deal with a lot of things in my life at that point. The loss of my mom to cancer, the loss of a close friend to...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M Jul 13, 2013

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    The Pain Was Too Much

    I love my mom. She wants me to have a good life. She pushes me in the wrong directions-- in the directions SHE would have taken -- which means that a man is the answer to my problems.. I didnt like this man she chose-- she LOVED him with al ehr heart-- she wanted me to love him...
    BurgundyGirl BurgundyGirl 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 9, 2007

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    Eariler this year, I was at the worst

    and most painful of my 3-year long stint of depression, coinciding with a 5-year diagnosis of atypical anorexia. It was getting harder and harder to control my emotions; I was cutting, starving and binging, skipping class, making risky decisions. On February 12th, I decided to...
    MichelleMLM MichelleMLM 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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