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I Attempted Suicide

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    Tylenol Pm

    3 years into my heroin addiction and a broken heart later, I swallowed sixty tylenol pms, and about 40 tussin 45's (prescription cold medicine). I wanted to die desperately but more importantly I wanted attention and so I told my sis that I would not be able to do her hair...
    forgiven forgiven 18-21, F 34 Responses May 2, 2007

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    I am looking to kill myself I don't care

    anymore I just want to go out of this them world I not telling any one to join me but if they feel like I do they no what I am taking about so much pain in my heart I don't want to no any thing any more **** it all I don't want to keep doing this were people try to make sure I...
    monkeygun monkeygun 26-30, M Sep 1, 2015

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    I've attempted so many times,

    and have only been close once, it's so frustrating. I've tried a lot of different drugs and cutting but it just never works. Last night i took 56 dramamine and I didn't even get sick, I don't understand how that's possible. I really thought it would be enough this time.
    dmbpal dmbpal 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2015

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    I tried today. took a bunch of pills

    and then realizing what I did I made myself throw them right back up. I thought I was handing the depression, guess I was wrong
    somebodyiusedtoknow1 somebodyiusedtoknow1 51-55, M Oct 16, 2015

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    I have been attempting suicide countless times

    due to my severe depression. Trying to jump of high buildings, hanging , cut waist , sniffing gas & car exhaust. ..you name it..but either I didn't have the determination or courage to do it , i have always fail to go ! I wonder what would happen next...
    cosplay72 cosplay72 41-45, M Oct 13, 2015

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    ILoveYou07 ILoveYou07 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 21, 2015

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    the Doctor Released Me...said I Didn't Really Intend to Die... (???)

    From the inside of blackness, I gradually became aware of voices.  They were tinny, far-off-sounding voices; like the people using them were at the end of an extremely long and muffled tube.  I couldn’t recognize a single word in this moment; a moment that seemed...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 6, 2006

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    The reason why I am committing suicide I really

    don't care anymore about the world anymore same to me if I live or not all I want is to sleep I am really tired of getting up and putting up with people all my life that didn't understand why I did things or y I didn't show a lot and this world people would never understand I...
    monkeygun monkeygun 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 2, 2015

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    Not One Of My Better Moments I Attempted

    Suicide. I thought I could make all the hurt go away. I thought it was my only way out. I thought my family would be better off without me. When things start to get too stressful for me I think back to the desperate plea my husband made.....`come back to me I love you...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 7 Responses Jan 6, 2015

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    I Don'T Want To Live Anymore

    I have attempted suicide before, the only reason I'm alive is because of my family, I know how much I mean to them because we are so close, ina selfless decision I choose to live because of them, life has brought me so much hurt through abuse from family members, boyfriends and...
    Phoenixxx84 Phoenixxx84 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    I slit my wrists when I was 16 (5 years ago)

    and every day it gets harder and harder not to do it again
    silverxrose silverxrose 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2015

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    I don't what to go on no more this i stupid

    and coral there's nothing really for me to gone before or what to live for
    monkeygun monkeygun 26-30, M Sep 1, 2015

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    Almost November 27, 2014 Hello,

    old friend, now tell me why you failed, how you came so close, yet you have yet to see my end. At my throat did your blade set already digging into my flesh you had me, you saw me fold, so why, my Demon, did you fail? Demon, were you weak, afraid? What thoughts raced in your...
    HozierAndMumford HozierAndMumford 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 27, 2015

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    June, 2001. Over 14 years ago,

    i took my own life by my own hand. No bullshit. Life hit me hard, and i hit life hard back. It was a dark time, a time before i truly became enveloped and constrained with the darker necessities of life. Typical razor fashion, done the *right* way, so much so i was pronounced...
    UndyingWraith UndyingWraith 31-35, M Sep 30, 2015

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    i attempted suicide on october 31,

    2014 and i attempted it again on july 5, 2015. i feel like doing it again. i'm just tired of my life, i can't deal with it anymore.
    holygoth holygoth 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 20, 2015

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    Today the sunrise didn't meet my expectations.

    I'm very disappointed and would rather die than experience something that hideous again. This whole world is a lie and I wish I were dead. No one else could ever compare with my traumatic scenario because you don't know what real pain is. When you think your life is bad, be glad...
    sparklequeen7 sparklequeen7 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17, 2015

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    I'm Afraid of the Spiritual Consequences

    I want to die.  I want to die so badly.  I suffer from schizophrenia and have had suicidal ideation since 4th grade.  I am 26 now and not a day goes by where I dont think about suicide.  I have never attempted it because if I did I would guarantee lethal...
    energyoftheuniverse energyoftheuniverse 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 16, 2007

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    One Year Ago

    It has been a year since I cut both wrists, my throat and took overdose of pills only to be CPR back to life and spend close to 2 months in the hospital. I could not deal with a lot of things in my life at that point. The loss of my mom to cancer, the loss of a close friend to...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M Jul 13, 2013

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    four times so far. I turned 30 this year.

    I slit my wrists a few years ago. I shot myself in the head 9 months ago. I drove my car 85mph into an interstate railing 3 weeks ago. Depression got worse last year and I finally started drugs for the first time. I was a heavy user until December when I finally decided to...
    decrapinated decrapinated 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 28, 2015

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    I attempted suicide at age 14 by hanging.

    It should have killed me, it did, for all I know. I don't remember anything of it, just waking up in a hospital bed with oxygen tubes in my nose. I still have nightmares about it, reliving it..
    mariahtaylor00 mariahtaylor00 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 17, 2015

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    you'd think I'd get the hint

    when it doesn't work, yet again, after the thousandth time
    PiecesOfPeace PiecesOfPeace 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2015

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    Hey guys, this is my first post,

    i just made this account and i feel really ****** up but need to share this with someone, i cant tell any of my family or they would be worried about me and i dont want that while I was looking through the net for 'easy ways to suicide' etc, this website came up couple...
    Anonnimoose Anonnimoose 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2015

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    The Reason Behind My Picture

    I was really depressed lately much more than I let on so I decided to end my life last night I got a hose put it in my mouth the other side I put in my muffler rolled down my car window and floored it while in park the only reason I am alive is because apparently my sister paid...
    Applelovergod Applelovergod 22-25 8 Responses Oct 11, 2013

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    My Shark, No Love Is Worth Dying For Like This...

    It was mid 1997, I was looking into my Shark's eyes outside on a sunny day. I was happy then. He smelled like tequila and testosterone, a glint in his mischievous bipolar eyes. We had just spent the night on a friend's floor, making out after a great kickboxing bout was just...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 11, 2009

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    I have always suffered from depression.

    It's one of the few things in my life that has always been a constant. Recently someone whom I looked up to committed suicide and I started thinking about the times when my depression was really bad and i was suicidal and attempted it many times. It made me remember the first...
    idontwantaname4 idontwantaname4 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    I drove myself into a pole

    after downing half a dozen beers and finally working up the courage to do it. Only to wake up in hospital 3 days later thinking **** I can't even do that right. Do I honestly have to just sit here and wait for time to take me away every day is a constant battle and is nothing...
    Tawhirimatea Tawhirimatea 22-25, M Sep 14, 2015

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    In class, my Professor told us instead of doing

    a lecture, we were going to have a group discussion. Odd, I thought. What kind of discussion? She took a deep breath and informed us that a student at my school had taken his own life. I knew nothing of this but the whole class did. This was the third week of school and I didn't...
    SinSpitter SinSpitter 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 9, 2015

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    Whats Left Of Me?

    Lets just say that this has been going on for a long time, at least to me. Its been about three years now- since the end of 8th grade. Im a junior in high school this year, 16 years old. I was 13 or 14 when this started. So anyways, at the end of 8th grade, I was dating a boy I...
    zydeko zydeko 18-21 1 Response Jul 30, 2013

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    30 Oxy wasn't enough.

    Woke pissed as hell. I'm still angry. Tired of hearing people tell me **** they can't understand. Tired of people telling me it will get better. Fool, look at the stats, it seldom gets better! So again, you don't know what the **** they're talking about. Taking these...
    onemug onemug 36-40 3 Responses Jun 17, 2015

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    This maybe the second

    and hopefuly the last time. I wish there was like a magic spell that will make all my love ones forget about the situation and not suffer so much.
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2015

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    I'm in my 40s and o attempted suicide 4 years

    ago. Since then I've had 3 surgeries, spent 6 months vomiting and unable to eat due to migraines, and continue to deal with relentless chronic pain. On top of that, my previously amazing husband is becoming abusive and our marriage is unraveling. I wish I had succeeded four...
    GardensWetWithRain GardensWetWithRain 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 13, 2015

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    I am going to kill myself soon I just need to

    decide when I have a plan I'm too far gone I can't be helped or saved
    lucas1299 lucas1299 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 11, 2015

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    Health professions were

    so mean to me until I broke down and told them the truth. I am one of those people who was kind of doing two things at the same time when it came to committing suicide. I wanted to be successful but at the same time I considered it a practice run, hoping that it would...
    Tara267 Tara267 51-55, F 3 Responses May 24, 2015

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    I tried to kill myself last night

    for the first time. I chose an old fashioned meathod. I drove 20 miles into the woods and picked up some alcohol on the way. I had the razors already in my car from a job i had recently been fired from (.o i did not steal them). I picked out a field that i figured no one could...
    jlopp6 jlopp6 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    Numerous of times when I was too young to

    figure out if the pills I took would actually do anything.
    ButteryToast ButteryToast 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    When I was 5 months pregnant.

    At the time thinking that was the only way, me and my baby could get away from my abuser. He abused me while I was pregnant. I loved my baby more than anything in the world. And when you're being abused, you don't think clearly. It's true what they say, that abusers have a way...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2015

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    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2015

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    I just got a notice from EP informing me

    that a story that I posted to a bipolar group was taken down for advocating self harm because I mentioned that I attempted suicide. Say what? It is just a fact, not an endorsement. Isn't this excessive?
    emperornorton47 emperornorton47 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 9, 2015

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    I attempted twice. Both times failed,

    obviously. I couldn't attempt anymore as I am afraid of failure again. I do not have the guts or the courage to attempt again. Both times I attempted were with drug overdose. Once I took 8 times the lethal dose and it ****** me up for few dies but I did not die. The other time...
    SoulCoffee SoulCoffee 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 6, 2015

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    So many people think of suicide

    as a joke, when will people take this issue seriously? I've attempted many times, once the other week where I drank loads of alcohol and had a load of painkillers. A friend found out and made me go to hospital. They were crap and didn't even keep me in. ?? don't feel listened...
    nicmar21 nicmar21 22-25, F 7 Responses Aug 6, 2015

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    This Story Is Not For Me It's For You.

    This is a story that I thought I wouldn't tell but after talking with one user I think I need to tell it. I'm not telling this story for and pity or for someone to comment on it. I'm telling this story for the people that need to hear it so they can understand that suicide is not...
    ran20 ran20 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22, 2013

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    yesterday and today have been bad,

    I almost got fired and I think I'm losing my girlfriend. the worst part is that it's all because of my mental illness. I'm doing this to myself and I can't stop. dialectical thinking means two things can be right at the same time, does this mean it would be wrong to commit...
    plainjane22 plainjane22 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2015

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    I took about 100 benadryl

    when I was 14. I didn't have the internet then so I just assumed lots of pills=death, like they show in the movies. Benadryl is a hard drug to OD on, apparently. I woke up after taking all the pills and couldn't walk. I remember crawling to the bathroom and that's it. I woke up...
    youdontknowme235 youdontknowme235 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 14, 2015

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    :( ;( :( :( when you get lying in your face

    where's feel when you're depressed makes a big impact on you all you think is to end it all
    monkeygun monkeygun 26-30, M Sep 2, 2015

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