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I Battle a Mood Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 98 People

    Sometimes I Feel So Old

    I've been living with a mood disorder for 25 years. I'm 39 as I write this, and sometimes I feel like I'm 139. I've been depressed. I've been manic. I've been delusional. I've had panic attacks. I've dissociated. I've been through a lot. I still suffer.
    iscreamforicecream iscreamforicecream 36-40, M 4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    "Hey Bartender, I'll Have Another One of Those 'moodswing Supremes'...

    Alcohol, non-prescriptive drugs, some kind of bi-polar mood disorder condition that I never remember I have until it's all over me;-then more alcohol and it's subsequent withdrawl and where does one symptom stop and the other begin and then good ol chaos of the mind and paranoia...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 15, 2009

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    Schizophrenia And Depressive Disorder. Not Schizoaffective Disorder.

    I have paranoid schizophrenia (surprise surprise) I have depressive disorder (I have mentioned depression) I have ADD/ADHD I have dissociative disorder amnesia type. I have post traumatic stress disorder I do not have schizoaffective disorder schizophrenia symptoms I have...
    thefallleaves thefallleaves 16-17, F Oct 9, 2013

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    Middle Child Syndrome

    Since I was 7 years old, I suffered from moods swings, depression, fears, etc.  Just about everything I guess.  I am the middlle child of 5 children and some thoughts that I have had are not OK for a child to feel.  I was always...
    Rocky7 Rocky7 46-50 1 Response Jul 10, 2009

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    "everything You Say Can/will Be Held Against You..."

    Without sounding too philosophical, there are things you just KNOW about yourself. In my case, I knew from the time I was a child that becoming a mother was not in my best interest. I never thought much of it because I never had any real desire to be one. But through a series of...
    AshDash89 AshDash89 22-25, F May 21, 2012

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    New Here!

    thought I would say hello and let you all know a bit more about me. I have two mental disorders. I have bi-polar and schizophrenia. I am also starting to show signs of DID. I am here for anyone who needs encouragement and prayer. Do not be afraid to ask me questions about any of...
    mstenorsaxplayer mstenorsaxplayer 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2013

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    Down

    long day. work, then class. i am tired. it hurts.  
    iscreamforicecream iscreamforicecream 36-40, M Jul 9, 2009

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    Influence of the Environment On the Individual

    Mood Disorders are caused by environment and the heredity (persons susceptability to the disorder because of his biology). Often the influence of the environment on the individual is random, but there are special cases where the Mood Disorders are explicitly forced on the...
    vijaykarthic vijaykarthic 26-30 1 Response Jul 8, 2009

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    Blah

    I've gotten one diagnosis: bipolar type II.  I have no idea how accurate this is.  Sometimes I wonder if it's actually borderline personality disorder.  My mood changes are insane.  I may be happy the first half of the day and then a few hours later on...
    eromreven eromreven 26-30 8 Responses Oct 24, 2008

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    Every Morning I Wake Up

    Hello, I am here today to tell you my story about battling a mood disoder because I need to connected with people that know the way I feel today. When I was 13 years old I started acting up in school my mom didn't know why because I never use to do it I was a very good student...
    lily2421 lily2421 18-21 Apr 12, 2012

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    Bipolar Depressive

    I have always had mood swings and was a moody kid but it wasn't until having kids that I required medicine. I often wonder if my husband was more supportive would it be as bad as it is. Not having a support system and co-parent has made it difficult for me. Well at least it feels...
    mzgreeneyes mzgreeneyes 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2007

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    A New Life And Treatment For A Mood Disorder

     Well where do I start.It's a scary place when your world is turned upside down. It's happened a number of times in my life, but I have to say this time it's a little better than the last. I guess experience helps for when the next time comes around.My whole life has not felt...
    bringonthesunshine bringonthesunshine 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    Schizophrenia And Depressive Disorder. Not Schizoaffective Disorder.

    I have paranoid schizophrenia (surprise surprise) I have depressive disorder (I have mentioned depression) I have ADD/ADHD I have dissociative disorder amnesia type. I have post traumatic stress disorder I do not have schizoaffective disorder schizophrenia symptoms I have...
    thefallleaves thefallleaves 16-17, F Oct 9, 2013

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    Major Depression

    Have been dealing with major depressive disorder for about 5 years. My most recent flair up began jan 2012 and a year later I am still struggling with it. I just wish it would go away.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 21, 2013

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    Bipolar I

    my symptoms started early  when i was about 14 ..  i went into a severe depression and started cutting and tried to kill myself .  my parents found out and told me i was stupid  and instead of getting help for me they gave me everything i wanted .. i am living...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 23, 2007

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    Related Experiences

    Does anyone know what episodic mood disorder is or ever heard of it?
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 5

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    I find it exhausting have so much going on in my mind, but no words or energy to express. I feel crazy with every thought that passes. I feel judged with every stare, pat or...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Ever since I was born I've battled with depression my doctors don't know how to stop it when I was younger they tried putting me on so many meds and nothing has worked and I still...
    Scarsdontfade Scarsdontfade 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    So fed up with feeling of tightness in my throat
    xshilx xshilx 41-45, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Feeling so much better so glad I came on here today. Thank you:)
    Trajef Trajef 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    It's ****** -_- and it basically makes my life hellish
    cicizzle cicizzle 13-15, F Jan 3

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    I have no confidence in myself and just have a feeling giving a **** most of the time. Makes it hard to date and I feel I'm very unappealing...
    Jonnyguitar877 Jonnyguitar877 26-30, M Jan 10

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    It has been so incredibly horrible throughout my whole life, it started when I was very young with my dad and progressed to every inch of my life. I've just gotten used to it I don...
    Couldhelp Couldhelp 18-21, M Jan 11

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    I'm afraid that I may have a misdiagnosis . I feel like I have rapid cycling and although I'm experiencing hypomania and I'm up and excited and constantly moving, I'm sad . I have...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F Jan 19

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    There are days when I simply can't get out of bed and I am so depressed I just want to get myself drown. They last forever. Usually, on holidays. I can't even read. I just want to...
    sweetheartss sweetheartss 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    my depression is on and of. I was fine today. I was actually extremely random and happy, I was posting random questions on EP and I was fine. now all of a sudden im depressed and...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Right now. Stop isolating. Being alone with your negative distorted thoughts is excruciatingly painful for your soul. Find someone and get someone to be with you in this so it can...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've battled depression most of my life, but it was never so bad that I would try killing myself. Well, until my grandpa died in 2006, he and I were really close, since then I've...
    ShadowCatt ShadowCatt 18-21, M 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I used to battle ana with mia tendencies. I'm still not all there, and harbor plenty of resentments with my body but I've gotten far better and come a long way
    tabixatmeow tabixatmeow 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    I just can't cope at the moment. I'm having counselling and "personality" has been mentioned, and, now I really think about it, perhaps my having a personality disorder would "fit...
    Chaleureuse Chaleureuse 26-30, F Jan 10

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    I haven't figure out if this is bipolar or depression. It's so hard to figure out because I was raised in a depressed, negative, abusive environment, and I was bullied a lot -- so...
    ChellyRocker ChellyRocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    And I think I might be bipolar. "When you're dealing with the symptoms of bipolar depression, it's easy to feel like you're consumed by the condition or simply fading into the...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 5 Responses Jan 18

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    So I was watching some battles and decided to compile a few of the battle rap bars I really liked during 2014. Here they are: "My machete disloyal, let me tell you people why...
    skidzchannel13 skidzchannel13 13-15, M 9 hrs ago

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    Dear friend I want to share with you my experience with the mental health services in the uk I'm a dark skinned woman of Asian appearance .people often assume that I'm an Indian...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Dear friend I want to share with you my experience with the mental health services in the uk I'm a dark skinned woman of Asian appearance .people often assume that I'm an Indian...
    newyear15 newyear15 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    I have been diagnosed with seasonal affective disorder, I experience feelings of sadness, wanting to cry/actually crying. My worst months are from November-March. In the months of...
    findingfae findingfae 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    At my boyfriends for his birthday. And I don't feel like he wants me here. I don't want to leave his room cause I'm in a **** mood and it's because I think he doesn't want me here...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    im out of the hopital but im feeling realy un healthy and ill insid ei dont undestand whats going on i feel like i have apersonality that needs to flip i am so depressed and cant...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I wish I could tell anybody that has harmed them selves in any way whether it's self harming, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, an eating disorder.. You CAN get through it but only YOU...
    buttonsandbowsx buttonsandbowsx 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    so it's New Years and everyone's excited and happy.... but not me. I hate that I can feel it in myself that I want to be miserable and complain and probably make a bad night of it...
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    Ever since I was a young child I have battled social anxiety disorder. Social situations always made me anxious and at times panicky. When I was a teen I came to realize that I was...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Depression has been a part of my life since I was 11 years old, when I was diagnosed as Manic Depressive and prescribed Sertraline (Zoloft) to help manage it. Since then, it has...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F Jan 18

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    It is my belief that poor & improper nutrition in our modern day diets have had a huge negative impact on our brain health and mental well-being. In fact, it has been...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 18 Responses Jan 7

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    Depression is such an isolating mental illness. No one else can really understand what you are feeling inside. And it is a struggle trying to explain what it feels like in a way...
    Neondaze Neondaze 51-55, M Jan 14

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    lately I've been getting worse, saying things I don't truly mean to avoid a situation, feeling hate to ppl that I really love, being physically aggressive, depressed, and with such...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I've had both since I was really young, about 5 or 6. I have always been fearful of change and meeting new people. I had my first panic attack when I was 6, I remember it as clear...
    classAteam classAteam 16-17, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I feel like people like me don't deserve to be alive. My boyfriend got sick with the flu and all I did is start a fight and feel unwanted... I'm so tired of being selfish, mood...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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