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I Battle Bi-polar Disorder

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    I'm so sick of not being able to stay in

    control. Some days I'm fine others not so much. I'm dealing with it though. I just wish I could be normal. I make so many irrational decisions while being in a overly joyous mood. Or in a manic mood. I can hardly stand myself most of the times. It is taking over every aspect of...
    MiMiMaNiAc MiMiMaNiAc 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    "Outing" Yourself

    When is the time to tell someone you're dating that you are bi-polar?
    GoodPixie GoodPixie 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    Living With Bipolar Disorder

    I was diagnosed a year ago, my boyfriend and I broke up and my mom was worried about me since I lost a lot of weight and would always be sleeping and never ate. So she took me to the doctor and first it was just depression then after more exams I was diagnosed with bipolar...
    Ninja20 Ninja20 18-21, F 10 Responses Dec 3, 2012

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    Can't Wait Until I Get An MRI

    I got accepted into an imaging study for bipolar patients. They are going to take an MRI of my brain. I always feel, because of my pride, that I should be able to deal with it. They're just moods. The way I feel shouldn't be able to affect the way I think, act, or behave. But...
    dfordragonfly dfordragonfly 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 11, 2013

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    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5

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    A Brief Introduction Of Myself For The Group

    I spent years of neglect in regards to my mental health. I was incapable of attending to myself because I lacked maturity and capacity. It would of been nice to have someone there for me. Even now, it would be nice to have someone here for me. I have been struggling to find the...
    nobrand nobrand 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 14, 2013

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    Bipolar disorder type 2.

    I enjoy up in all sorts of binds because I am constantly "doing" according to mood. I spend too much money, buy too many things I think I need, drink 2 or 3 nights a week, meet up with guys at the bar. Do dumb stuff. Cheat. Then go to work and do my best. My mind is crazy and...
    reallymee reallymee 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    And I hate adjusting to new medications.

    ..Especially anti depressants... Mostly because not only does it give you physical symptoms like nausea, fatigue, decreased appetite, headache, cold sweats, and tremors but it also makes you feel light headed, gives you blurry eyesight, makes it hard to balance when you walk, and...
    HarborLove HarborLove 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    He Doesn't Want to Understand

    I'm married to someone who doesn't understand what it's like to have a mental illness.  And that's great for him because I wouldn't wish it upon anyone, but it's terrible for me because I am alone when he is sitting right next to me.  He doesn't even want or try to...
    eromreven eromreven 26-30 10 Responses Nov 19, 2007

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    Chrysalis, Or Sarcophagus? You Can Fly

    My Bi-polar has been particularly brutal these past months. I still made it through the semester with a 4.0 gpa. I still managed to lose 20 pounds. But I am still a huge mess of emo. I have been having horrible nightmares the past 2 weeks. Up and down consistently. I know that...
    beautifullytwisted beautifullytwisted 22-25, F 2 Responses May 25, 2013

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    I was diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder in 2010

    during a 2 week hospitalization. I was diagnosed with mixed episodes and rapid cycling episodes as well.
    MrsJen MrsJen 26-30, F May 28

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    It can scare me so much.

    ..I am frightened by the way my mood changes and my different reactions. One second I'll be all happy and cheery,then I'll become angry for no reason,then I'll start crying and become extremely sensitive,and at the end I'll just be all laughs and pretends it doesn't happen. My...
    justcallmelove justcallmelove 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    Epilogue

    In everyone's life, there is struggles. We have hardships and rough times. We feel like it's the worst day of our lives, and yet here we are three weeks later, feeling the same thing. There's always a worse day. There's another day in the future when everything will seem to go...
    Spyderz Spyderz 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 15, 2008

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    Thought I Had It Figured Out

    I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 months ago after a manic episode got out of hand. Before this I had moved to Florida for a new job and thought I had everything figured out for once. I was finally content and happy. I think I may have been hypo-manic at times up to a few months...
    lukethatfitz lukethatfitz 22-25 Oct 16, 2013

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    Coming Out of the Crazy Closet

    For years I refused to allow myself to consider the possibility that I was a manic-depressive (I knew no other term then). The thought of being as mentally unbalanced as my mother was almost paralyzing, even my daughter was diagnosed before me. When my doctor suggested I see...
    FairyWitch FairyWitch 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 1, 2008

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    Me....

    Oh baby, oh baby...Then it fell apart, it fell apart. Oh baby, oh baby...Then it fell apart, it fell apart. Excerpt from "Extreme Ways" by Moby
    OneDamnMegis OneDamnMegis 31-35, M Nov 25, 2013

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    Want You To Be Happy Always

    i am not a spirutual teller. i just want to help you out . i am medical student,so i just wana help you out, i have magic thought which will make you happier for whole of your life. 1) belief is the mother all the consequence which you face in your life, if u belief that u r not...
    chokien chokien 22-25 Oct 2, 2013

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    As Long As It Has Nothing to Do With My Vagina

    In the psychiatric ward, they take your shoelaces.  They took mine anyway.  They took my black winter coat, my cell phone, my charger, my purple college back sack and they took my shoelaces.  In a small and drafty off-white examination room I took off my shirt, my...
    brujis brujis 19-21, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2007

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    On another high after a low yesterday.

    Weee.... ğŸŽ¢ XD Now if i can just channel that energy into my responsibilities without breaking anything today!
    Stufy Stufy 46-50 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Never Ending?

    I feel like everythin is closin in on me, I feel like every corner I turn its there and won't leave me alone. I do my best to control it and get a handle on my life and all people tell me is "I let everything ruin my day" and "why am I so serious?" And "why can't you just relax...
    Ninja20 Ninja20 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2012

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    I just researched the disorder

    and everything matches me perfect. I'm going to go to a specialist about it to make sure I actually have that. But I'm pretty sure it's what it have. And it would make sense if I did cause it does answer alot of questions and matches me
    Brewedtea Brewedtea 16-17, M Apr 30

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    This year makes 20 years

    that I have been medicated continually for bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed in 1994. Got it kind of early. I have type 1, rapid-cycling, w/ mixed episodes. I'm not setting the world on fire, but I'm still alive.
    NCG475 NCG475 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 1

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    I Have Schizoaffective Disorder

    That's both schizophrenia and bipolar together. I wasn't diagnosed with this until late 2003 or 2004. I was in my mid 30's and going through a bad marriage. When I was told of this, I couldn't understand how this could be! Recently I had a medication change and an increase doses...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Jul 15, 2012

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    Multiple Disorders...

    So far, I have been officially diagnosed with Bi-Polar, OCD, Auditory Processing Disorder, Tourettes, ADHD and a self diagnosed Schizophrenic. I have, somewhat, been bullied in school and have had learning problems detrimental to my life. I had a heavy "case" of Tourettes until...
    Johnknu Johnknu 18-21 2 Responses Jun 25, 2013

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    My Name Is Ashley, And This Is My Story.

    Hello, my name is Ashley, I am nearly 16 years old (in December) and I am currently in grade 11 (: I am the type that loves school. In my last months of grade 9 I found out I was pregnant. I had no idea what to do or what to think, and where to start first or who to tell.. My...
    ModifiedMamaofTwo ModifiedMamaofTwo 16-17, F Sep 19, 2012

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    I have not received an actual diagnosis (and frankly I feel completely unmotivated to), but from personal perspective I'm quite certain that I have cyclothymia, with my rapid mood changes with are usually random and can range from hypomania to intense depressive anxiety.  I...
    MrBackwards MrBackwards 16-18, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2007

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    I Ride The Waves Of Bipolar Disorder.

    I know I have this disorder. Bipolar disorder for me is more than my moods. It's in my head and body. When I went manic about 10 years ago I could feel it and hear it in my head. My ears were ringing, I couldn't sleep, I leaped out of bed in the morning, lost weight easily...
    littlemonkeydoodle littlemonkeydoodle 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 24, 2012

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    I Love My Darkside

    i love my darkside, yeah it comes and goes but she's awesome and very very wild. one minute im sweet and loveable next im all sneaky and bad, if im in the club im her and if your a man in the club that night and to my liking well aren't you just lucky :-) so i love to embrace my...
    juicylipz juicylipz 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 26, 2013

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    My Daily Struggle

    I'm 35 years old and ever since I can remember I have always felt "different". Growing up I was a good kid and I had a loving, stable home life. As I entered my adolescent & teen years I became quite rebellious. I enjoyed breaking the rules and taking risks. I kinda liked the...
    allie1977 allie1977 31-35, F 4 Responses Feb 1, 2013

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    Daily. Rapid cycle.

    Meds and heart attacks made it worse. My life challenge. Aside from jerks triggering it.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Aug 25

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    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder

    and depression since 2007. I can't even begin to name all of the medication I've been on. Most of my days are pretty normal, but I do fall into deep states of depression sometimes. It starts with getting upset and getting the urge to cut. So I do, then I end up laughing about it...
    e39grl e39grl 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Success-triggered Mania

    8/14/13 I am grateful for the research work conducted by Dr. Sheri Johnson on success-triggered mania. I am much more complex than any diagnosis or label, and prefer descriptions instead. Johnson's work describes what I go go through: new successes of any size trigger an overly...
    LYDN LYDN 56-60 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    My Battle

    Ever since I was young, I always battled with disturbing mood swings. I have a family who doesn't believe much in medication, or psychological disorders, but once I was old enough to realize my mood swings and thoughts were not normal, I saw a psychiatrist and psychologist...
    re4409 re4409 18-21 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    Someone Please Help Please

    I think I have bi-polar . . . I said it to my mum and my counsellor both on separate occasions and they both seem to agree and both been thinking it for a while. I am not going to lie I am scared. I am going to the doctors in 2 hours and feeling very distressed :(
    Loopylee123 Loopylee123 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2013

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    I am bipolar and many guys don't date me

    or are interested in me because of this ._. Sorry I'm not perfect
    SalilaKhan SalilaKhan 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    The Quiet Desperation Of Depression

    This is about depression. Depression as it affects me, It could be in a different group I suppose - maybe in a group about depression, but depression is part of mine and many's experience with Bi-polar Disorder (Manic Depression). The highs I have might stick out like a sore...
    frankiegee frankiegee 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 10, 2013

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    ..

    Descriptions today are in bed. The roof is too cold and my head aches so. The notes are far from factual in sense that could be proven, if you could ride off so gently emotion not being factual, or influencing. The emotions are my own. Almost, I am an experiment to my own...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 3, 2008

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    I Need Help

    My medication isn't working lately, and I can't stop thinking about suicide. I don't want to do it so I suppress the thoughts as best I can but the thoughts come back to haunt me. The voice in my head tell me I'm not good enough to live and I'm a disappointment to everyone I know...
    Cutie53146 Cutie53146 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    They Thought I Was Crazy.

    I have suffered from depression my whole life (what I can remember of it lol). After weeks of not being able to get out of bed my family sent me to talk to a psychiatrist, this lady was a joke...she had me draw a picture of my family (I was 17 years old at the time!) and when it...
    BellaDonna2007 BellaDonna2007 31-35, F 2 Responses May 15, 2007

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    A Day In The Life Of A Bipolar Teen

    Im loss within myself though theres no place to hide Emotions twisty and curvy like im on some sort of ride Am i happy or am i sad im so confused theres days were my life seems worthless and i have nothing to loose For weeks im hypers jumping around it feels the best Days later...
    toriaann98 toriaann98 16-17, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    Every Day Is A Struggle

    I'm bipolar and have been stable for years. But being stable doesn't mean I don't have to battle the symptoms each and every day. It ticks me off to no end when I get irritated by something and someone asks me if im having a bipolar moment! I feel like screaming at them "No! I'm...
    Flashtwo Flashtwo 41-45, F 8 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    My First Brawl

    Last night, believe it or not, after at least 6 years of developing manic-depressive phases, I got into my first physical fight. A neighbor of mine has been attempting to buy my house for about three months now. The homeowner, my father and grandmother were finally considering...
    motherofzeno motherofzeno 18-21, F Feb 2, 2012

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    I think I have bipolar I'm not

    that sure? But how do i find our professionally? I can't just say to my doctor I think I have bipolar she won't really say much, I used to take Prozac and now I take Zoloft for my anxiety disorder and my OCD and depressive disorder but I really can't figure it out :(
    Cloclo1234 Cloclo1234 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    So I go in to get my monthly dosage.

    .. the whole gambit of the cocktail prescribed by this doctor and that. (all with a different set of initials following their name) The pharmacist was rather rude, and it took about 35 seconds of this rudeness to **** me off to the point where I started to get that.... hmmm...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 1

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    I Thought...

    a year ago I was diagnosed with depression. I went 6 months, and I only got worse. Finally the picture started to make sense I my psychiatrist. I was then diagnosed and am being treated for bi-polar. I am now on 200 mg of lamarthrogine per days. Compared to where I was...
    cloudjay cloudjay 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    I'm struggling with this.

    I have many different sides to me. One minute I can be so sweet to you, lovey dovey, the next I won't even want to talk. I get in that state where I want to be left the **** alone. The next I'll be emotional and cry a lot and just be wicked sensitive, and last I will be the...
    HeartBigBeatsQuiet HeartBigBeatsQuiet 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    Unmedicated Bipolar Disorder

    Growing up, I was a very depressed or anxious kid, depending on my immediate mood. By age 18, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder 2 following a long-term episode of intense depression, followed by a shorter episode of mania in which I managed to charge $400 to a credit card in...
    jayjangle jayjangle 22-25 1 Response Jul 23, 2013

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    I'M An Empath But No One Believes Me.

    I recently discovered I'm an emapth, but whenever I try to tell my loved ones about it they just laugh and make fun of me. It makes me sad. I'm not so much angry because I know they can't understand, but I really wish they could. They just call me crazy and a "hippie" and brush...
    lonelymoon75 lonelymoon75 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 14, 2013

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    Experiences With Bipolar 1 Mania And Psychosis

    In December 2012 I came to the conclusion that I was Abraham Lincoln, Jesse James, Elvis Presley, King Tutankhamen and A.A. Allen (Revivalist) reincarnated. I even experienced heart ache at the thoughts of dying as the listed people that I thought I used to be and claimed to have...
    thebutcher606 thebutcher606 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    It's really hard when no one around you is

    ready to support you through troubled times and labels your manic and depressive phases as 'passing teenage mood swings'. It's just awful. You're feeling happy, just euphoric, like you're on the top of the world, take on too much because you know you will be able to pull...
    EvanescentIridescent EvanescentIridescent 16-17, F 1 Response May 17

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    Bipolar And Beyond

    It was 1957 when I was born to my Polish mother and Irish German father in Washington D.C. All our relatives lived on the east coast. In 1959 my mother Catherine, and father Francis drove me and my older sister, Catherine Joann or Jann for short, across country to California...
    iamanartist iamanartist 51-55, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2013

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