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I Battle Bipolar Disorder

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    Bipolar Facebook Group Looking For More Members!!

    Looking for Bipolar people that use Facebook. I am part of a great group called Bipolar Maniacs and its an amazing group! Please send a message to me on Facebook if you want to join us and check us out! Search for me, Marisa Love-Shamp and ask for an invite! or email...
    MarisaLove MarisaLove 31-35, F Mar 3, 2013

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    Never knowing how the next day will be,

    when it'll turn and how I'm going to put up with it. None of my friends get it, my family supports me but they don't get me either. How is it okay being down but not acceptable being high? All I got is lithium, all I want is happiness and the ability to follow things through, is...
    Ennah Ennah 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    My mom is taking me to a healing mass today

    so I can get cured. I believe in God, I have my faith and there is a possibility I can outgrow it but it doesn't mean it'll happen. I have control over it and I've accepted it but it doesn't mean it hurts less when my mom wants to cure me.
    Ninja20 Ninja20 18-21, F May 29

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    Getting My Life Together (again)

    The hardest part about being bipolar is when you're at rock bottom and you lose track of your life. I can't even explain this to my parents. They'll just think I'm making up excuses for screwing up. So I won't even try. I'm gonna skip that step and jump straight to getting back...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2012

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    I've battled bi-polar disorder

    for several years and now I'm better. I can even have a drink on a Friday night or smoke a joint on a Saturday and I'm ready to go on Monday. It's all thanks to the med's that I've taken over the past 3+ years and it's all thanks to the lifestyle I've been living. It took many...
    chaoticallycosmosme chaoticallycosmosme 26-30, M 1 Response May 11

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    Trying To Accept

     I am 22 years old and a year ago I found out that I have had bipolar disorder probably for my entire life. Being undiagnosed for so long has made my condition so much harder to treat. My life has always been derailed for as long as I can remember and I really have never...
    drovetochicago drovetochicago 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    I'm a bipolar sufferer.

    It can be extremely difficult at times, especially at school when I'm around so many people at once. It has affected many aspects of my life and I'm sure many more to come. Firstly, bipolar has made me very shy and 'quiet'; now that's something I thoroughly hate being called. I...
    SoKLe SoKLe 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Supposed To Be Working

    I'm supposed to be working right now, but I can't really find my writing hook at the moment. What sucks about being bipolar and being a writer is that my mind is always bouncing around between ideas. I must have started thirty projects this year and I can't seem to get any of...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F Nov 27, 2012

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    Constant Struggle

    I was diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder type II when I was 19 years old. I had a delusion that someone was out to kill me and during this time I slept maybe 5 or 6 hours in a week. I would stay awake at night and watch the windows and the doors for shadows and movement and...
    SashaSJ SashaSJ 31-35, F Jun 1, 2012

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    I Can't Battle Alone

    I am a 16 year old girl and I struggle with Bipolar disorder. For the last two years I have lived in Residential Treatment Centers and Therapeutic Boarding Schools to get help with my life. It is very hard for me, because most people do not believe I truly have bipolar. I was...
    sunflowerbri sunflowerbri 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    I Am Bipolar And Lonely

    I was happily married with lovely 10 months daughter, I have bipolar disorder which is sever mood change from being energetic and full of life to severely depressed, I been on medication since I was diagnosed with it since I was 17, during those long years I didn't experience...
    ahmedanan102 ahmedanan102 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    I Fight Every Day

     I am 34 years old now and for years I had no idea what was wrong with me. Even thinking back when I was in grade school, I would wake up some mornings and be more argumentative than normal just because I didn't understand how I was feeling. It was like a pressure had built...
    crazysoutherngrl74 crazysoutherngrl74 31-35, F 7 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    Workin' On Recovery

    I was diagnosed in 2001 at the age of 41. Since then it's been quite a journey. I've gone through a few med changes and a lot of mood changes in that time frame. I've had a lot of energy and I've been low on energy; I've loved and left and loved my husband. I thank God he's taken...
    cgoehring78 cgoehring78 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    Bi Polar - An Ongoing Battle

    I'm so entirely sick of being Bipolar. It's hurting me so very much. I miss being on the meds that work but they are not affordable without medicaid. Over $700 a month!! I went a year + without medications. I started on Lithium a couple weeks ago. I hate it. I feel like when I...
    Maddz311 Maddz311 18-21 5 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find one, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M Jul 13

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    So i got a really bad panic atract today.

    . Had lots of things to do and i just wanted to run away from it all.. The reason i post this is because, ive been battling with this for a while and 1- i want people to know that this is a real problem, and is a really hard thing to deal with and control it 2- i seem to have...
    Marypossa Marypossa 26-30, F Jun 16

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    I'M Bipolar.

    I've pushed away everyone in some way or another. I take so many "meds" it's insane. Sometimes I feel hopeless, like there's no way out. When I feel that way, I'm very very close to ending my life. Other times I look outside and see the sun shining and thank God I'm alive. Other...
    KaylaNicole9311 KaylaNicole9311 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 22, 2013

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    Life Left In Ruins

    Battling childhood bipolar I was always told my behaviour was because I was a Gemini, I wish that was why. At 25 I was first diagnosed bipolar but I was also pregnant and after pregnancy moods were not as bad so the diagnosis went by the way side, 2 years later I was pregnant...
    Jqspirit Jqspirit 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Bipolar Disorder

    I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in my late 20's. It fit. It made sense. My father is the oldest of nine children. All of them have some sort of mental disorder. We never gave much thought to as kids. My dad has bipolar. Mine is classic Bipolar 1. People just don't...
    lbriteyes lbriteyes 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2013

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    Is It Valid? Need Feedback~~

    H ey guys, I am a grad student who is trying to create a public campaign to make people understand bipolar syndrome and people who have it better in order to eliminate/fight with the stigma. I just revised my storyboard and in the stage of needing feedback from who ever...
    Niplus777 Niplus777 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 17, 2008

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    I battle this disorder quite hard.

    It is like a demon inside, and the fight is always on, but I will not give into it. I was diagnosed ten years ago with this (along with personality disorder) it hit me to hear a label come across me. It made me feel inhuman hearing those words. I played their games of...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Difficulties

    Nothing comes easy when you have this disorder, maybe that's why I've never met someone who is stupid with this disorder.  We may be addicts, alcoholics, etc but no one has ever come off as stupid that I have met. I pride myself on being one of the "lucky" ones at...
    Tormentedslumber Tormentedslumber 22-25 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    It took me 10 years to get diagnosed with

    Bipolar II Disorder because the hypomania episodes were so short and subtle; from the time I was a teenager into young adulthood I tried every SSRI and SNRI antidepressant except Wellbutrin and nothing worked or the side effects were too unpleasant. As I got older and had a lot...
    NurseAmanda NurseAmanda 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I Fought The Bipolar And The Bipolar Lost

    Those of us who are bipolar are usually sensitive, introspective and thoughtful. Although these attributes bespeak some degree of intelligence they do not, necessarily, prepare us for the daily grind or help us to establish and maintain successful relationships. Be advised...
    heavyduty1 heavyduty1 66-70, M 2 Responses Jun 27, 2010

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    My 15 Year Battle

    I have been battling depression since I was 15 years old. After many years of ups and downs I finally recieved a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder four years ago. After I lost my grandmother, I hit an all time low and was hospitalized with thoughts of suicide. Daily I ...
    drumstickgrl drumstickgrl 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2009

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    Sinner And Saint

    I was diagnosed a year ago, but I think I have bipolar more then 5 years. I'm 24. I believe in God, I sing in a church choir and I try to live morally and to do good. But sometimes... things just get out of control. I don't sleep, I go out a lot, I have tons of energy and...
    Winterfell Winterfell 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    I stoped taking my meds.

    Thought I wa feeling better with out them. But they were helping me. Im feeling like crap now. And everything going on in my family isnt helping none. Plus right now my older brother is trying to boss me around. Im 43. I wish my family would back off. When I get real mad I take...
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F Feb 17

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    All I Know Is I'm In The Air

    Am I flying or falling? Sometimes they look the same, sometimes they are so starkly different, it's like night and day. I have a laundry list of things wrong with me, and I think I do pretty well at sucking it up and hiding it (in my family, if you say, "I'm in pain," that means...
    Kavka Kavka 18-21, M Apr 4, 2012

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    Lamictal ! Just had a great meeting with my

    Doc. Was only diagnosed about 2 months ago with bipolar 2 and put on lamictal 50mg.. And she upped it to 100mgs. Hopeful and Prayerful for better results Anybody else on lamictal ??? Love to hear your experiences
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 18 hrs ago

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    I Am Bipolar...Here Are My Meds.

    I have been a mess of emotions ever since I was very little. Mood swings have controlled my life for a very long time and now it just seems like any other day. When I was growing up I was told I was a drama queen and to be honest, I was. I would be launched into all day fits...
    Ontheborderlineofbipolar Ontheborderlineofbipolar 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    I'm Over This

    I hate the constant mood swings and how it's never just a little sad or a little annoyed, it's complete depression or complete irrational anger. Yeah, the mania is great, but sometimes I wonder if it's worth it. It's tearing me and my girlfriend apart. I never know what emotion...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    God Help Me This Is Hard...

    So my doctor is having a hellacious time getting my meds straight. Im not angry with her just the situation. Shes wonderful-talks to me like a person not just a file on her desk. Anyway a few things have happened in recent weeks:I had to switch meds due to horrific orthostatic...
    LdsGirl LdsGirl 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 27, 2012

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    Struggling With Myself

    I am 19 years old and I hav very sever modd swings to the point that I am two different people. I started suffereing from these symptoms while I was a teenager, but my parents just thought I was another angst-ridden teen. I knew there was something much more bigger than the usual...
    blackdahlia blackdahlia 18-21 2 Responses Sep 13, 2008

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    Heyo

    Well, I am 26, nearly 27 and I was first diagnosed with BP at 18... had it all my life though... it's bloody horrible but I couldnt live without it... I wouldnt know how... right now I am feeling depressed as heck and my pdoc is forever changing meds on me and I dont know argh...
    GiantPurpleHippo GiantPurpleHippo 26-30 3 Responses Dec 27, 2008

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    I hate being this way.

    . I just wanna sit in dark all day hiding from the outside world. I don't wanna talk to anyone. I just wanna go somewhere where no one is around.
    AtsukoJun AtsukoJun 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    It's so confusing....

    some days I think I'm so perfectly happy and energetic, and then maybe just a day or two later I can have a complete mental breakdown over the smallest of things.
    winchester96 winchester96 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    Unusually Happy, Not Fighting It :-)

    I hate being bipolar. Everyone does. But it does have its perks. Like those days when you're on-top-of-the-world happy and nothing can bring you down. And the universe did try. But no matter what happened, it didn't bring me down. Dance: I'm working on a really hard turn that I...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F Nov 5, 2012

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    Reflection I Made When I Was 15

    I was always a sad kid. I cried a lot; was sick a lot. I didn't like to go outside much, and I certainly didn't have a lot of friends. I was the kind of kid that had sickly pale skin and big, blue bags under my deep-set eyes. I bruised easily, and was either sleeping far too much...
    maezombiie maezombiie 18-21, F Dec 1, 2013

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    I just googled compulsive sexual behavior!

    And ive never been that kind of person that just googles random stuff and feels like i have that but this time i think i might be suffering from this... I went to see a friend and he said some interesting things. Above all is true, that i tried dating him and he said he does...
    Marypossa Marypossa 26-30, F Jun 27

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    I'm unsure and would like someone to let me

    know. When I was diagnosed with traits of bipolar and personality disorder, that they wouldn't want me to be put on meds. Because it could make me full bipolar. I'm in love with my partner of 5 nearly 6 years and I've had urges to sleep with other people through out our...
    imstilllearning imstilllearning 22-25, M 2 Responses May 27

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    I Have Been Diagnosed With Bipolar Disorder

    So I have been talking with a psychologist for a while now and he says that he is sure that I have a bipolar disorder. What I don't understand is what exactly is bipolar disorder? I get so confused when I try to read on stuff. And I couldn't really understand what he was trying...
    plainweirdoJayne plainweirdoJayne 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 25, 2010

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    Hello I'm 23 years old.

    I'm from Cornwall. Two years ago I was diagnosed with traits of Bipolar and a boarder line personality disorder and severe anxiety disorder. I've been waiting for my therapy to start for two years now and Ive finally had a letter with an appointment. I still don't really...
    imstilllearning imstilllearning 22-25, M May 26

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    I am standing on the edge of my own darkness.

    Anxiety and anger fills me to even I can not out run this time. Society looks at me confused as if I can just change into a happy place, take a few breaths and move on. My mind is yelling and wont shut off, my nerve endings twitch beyond my control to my own eyes I look and feel...
    wickedone72 wickedone72 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    My Bipolar Brother

    I am a Professional Counselor with a Bipolar Brother Like so many recent high school graduates, who are thrust into the ocean of life, I wanted to return to my former fishbowl–life. There were so many questions, which suddenly so many people seemed to take a sick pleasure...
    janedode2013 janedode2013 46-50 Mar 14, 2013

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    I Love Somebody Who Has Bipolar Disorder Nineteen years ago - at about this time of the year - my brother made a suicide attempt. Thank all the gods, he had second thoughts and...
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    Lifebugzme Lifebugzme 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I have bipolar disorder 1 & adult ADHD combined type. I'm 27, married 7 year son& 6 year stepdaughter. My life seems normal.... On the outside. On the inside it's turmoil...
    mrojas27 mrojas27 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    4 months ago I began spending time with a boy who changed the way I look at everything. 3 months ago we officially started dating and I've never been happier. We both fell in love...
    eternalfrisson89 eternalfrisson89 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    Why can't I have feelings? I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder with bipolar I tendencies (before it was bipolar I 14 years ago). I now realize what I can and...
    gstanlove1 gstanlove1 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    My boyfriend is 17 and is bipolar ( and has hypopituitarism we both have just found out ) but didn't tell me at the time what type of bipolar he is etc he kept saying how it's his...
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    My boyfriend is 17 and is bipolar ( and has hypopituitarism we both have just found out ) but didn't tell me at the time what type of bipolar he is etc he kept saying how it's his...
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F Jul 10

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