I Battle Bipolar Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 608 People

    My Bipolar Brother

    I am a Professional Counselor with a Bipolar Brother Like so many recent high school graduates, who are thrust into the ocean of life, I wanted to return to my former fishbowl–life. There were so many questions, which suddenly so many people seemed to take a sick pleasure...
    janedode2013 janedode2013
    51-55
    Mar 14, 2013

    I'm slowly on the road to recover

    but I still suffer from horrible mood swings and there are times that I freak out and get paranoid that everyone is lying to me or that everyone secretly hates me and is just "putting up with me". That's why I'm not close to too many people but I really need the ones that I am...
    Playlist98 Playlist98
    18-21, F
    Mar 23, 2015

    I have sever bi-polar

    and anxiety issues. My wife walks all over me. I can't take it anymore.
    bipolarPeter bipolarPeter
    31-35, M
    May 8, 2015

    Weaponizing all my self care

    for a big day .trying to beat back anxiety. I got this PRAY:Family Court Parent Agreement Today STBX refuses to just sit and work out plan for kids. We are using a Mediatir (Canadien ) she wants 109% custody not joint or shared. Meaning she has full control -medical (she signs...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 27, 2015

    Think I'm in a mixed episode.

    Having racing thoughts and feels like my brain is going 100 miles an hour, but still feel like I wanna cry and have no energy to do anything ahhhh!!
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96
    18-21, M
    Jul 2, 2015

    I have bipolar but I was also really pouty

    and selfish and didn't want to grow up and be responsible . Sometimes I let mental illness be my excuse to not grow up. I now know myself better and have been healed up more with God and therapy. I get it, there are days I cannot get out of bed,...but I am more self aware now...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    1 Response Mar 28

    I am literally throwing everything out

    that we don't need... I am sick and tired of this living space ... and since I can't throw "it" away I'm throwing away Evey thing in between ......
    reni888 reni888
    26-30, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    Bipolar disorder is the hardest thing about my

    life. I still don't understand why I feel the way I do, I just pretend to. I can never sleep & it makes me physically ill. The only time I feel normal is when I'm drunk or high.. It would be great to know I'm not the only one battling this horrible disease.
    mciarleglio26 mciarleglio26
    18-21
    2 Responses Oct 5, 2014

    It's exhausting. I get manic in the morning

    and then agitated and angry in the afternoon and depressed at night....everyday. I have abilify to help me sleep cuz without it I would probably be up all night. I have mixed bipolar :/ and if I'm under stress I hear people calling me name and I feel like there are bugs crawling...
    danielle18 danielle18
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

    I was diagnosed last year around September.

    I basically just went crazy, no one in my house knew what was wrong with me. My mom took me to a hospital, then they sent me to a mental hospital in an ambulance. I was there for a few days. When I got out I was doing a lot better, because I started on these two meds. I hate...
    Saphyyyy Saphyyyy
    16-17, F
    Apr 19, 2015

    Sinner And Saint

    I was diagnosed a year ago, but I think I have bipolar more then 5 years. I'm 24. I believe in God, I sing in a church choir and I try to live morally and to do good. But sometimes... things just get out of control. I don't sleep, I go out a lot, I have tons of energy and...
    Winterfell Winterfell
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

    Bipolar 2. Not as bad

    as Bipolar 1, and so I just wanted to say I feel for those who have BP 1...
    immortalspirit immortalspirit
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

    I was diagnosed last year around September.

    I basically just went crazy, no one in my house knew what was wrong with me. My mom took me to a hospital, then they sent me to a mental hospital in an ambulance. I was there for a few days. When I got out I was doing a lot better, because I started on these two meds. I hate...
    Saphyyyy Saphyyyy
    16-17, F
    Apr 19, 2015

    i have not been diagnosed with anything.

    . but sometimes ill be sitting with friends, enjoying life, laughing and having fun... then all of a sudden i feel like someone turned on a switch and i feel angry... i yell, i hit stuff... idk what causes it.. and the entire time there is a little voice in the back of my head...
    lecksierae lecksierae
    16-17, F
    Dec 9, 2014

    Sometimes the toughest battles I have are the

    ones accepting myself. As a person who battle mental health you here a lot of people say, "Oh you are just over thinking things" or "Maybe you are being a little over dramatic?" And that really gets inside your head after a while. I actually have remind myself that seeing world...
    Hexatiler Hexatiler
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 4

    My meds have been steadily increasing.

    I almost feel like a zombie sometimes. Then I start feeling terrible about things I've said and done. Begin to spiral into depression, then self medicate with MJ and feel nearly instantaneously better about my situation. I am tired of everyone not understanding I can't control...
    bipolarPeter bipolarPeter
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jul 22, 2015

    My euphoric cycles turn me into a different

    person who does things I would never do normally. I hate feeling like I have no control. I'm getting better but it can still get the best of me at times
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 18

    All I Know Is I'm In The Air

    Am I flying or falling? Sometimes they look the same, sometimes they are so starkly different, it's like night and day. I have a laundry list of things wrong with me, and I think I do pretty well at sucking it up and hiding it (in my family, if you say, "I'm in pain," that means...
    Kavka Kavka
    18-21, M
    Apr 4, 2012

    I hate that one of my good friends

    and ex is mad at me right now . It's my fault because I finally responded after 3days and then stopped our convo in the middle for 12hours but I'm in a depressed state . I don't wanna talk . He shouldnt feel special . I've been distracted and detached. I'm not feeding into that...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2014

    you know, I've been in a funk this past week.

    and I don't want to be in a funk any longer. so I'm gonna change it. I'm gonna be productive: make art work, exercise, clean the house, start a charity, write. I'm gonna do all the things I said I would at the beginning of the summer. **** you, bipolar disorder.
    peaceinmiles peaceinmiles
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2015

    We my bipolar story has some curves.

    I think my symptoms started in 1999 when I was with a crazy drug *****. I wasn't on drugs but she put me through hell. That's when family doctor put me on anti-depressants. Stayed on them but still had many problems but bipolar was never discussed. I had a very very bad wreck in...
    bmf62275 bmf62275
    41-45, M
    Jan 19

    Dealing with bipolar disorder has its ups

    and downs (literally, lol) the depressive episodes are like hell but manic isn't all bad that is until you realize you haven't slept in 2 weeks and literally have a psychotic break buuuuuuut I figure why not make the best of this disorder I'm stuck with it for life anyways!
    Shannycons Shannycons
    18-21, F
    Sep 28, 2015

    I'm really struggling lately.

    I'm type 2 bipolar and I'm finding it really hard to control my feelings. I keep lashing out at my boyfriend over silly things and everybody irritates me lately. Does anyone have any advice to help me control things a little more?
    Tilly95 Tilly95
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 12, 2014

    I had my second serious manic attack

    for the past few months. I lost friends but I'm happy to say that I gained True Ones. I am rebuilding my life right now because of the damages that the attack had done. I deleted my facebook account which had over 3k friends and started a new one. I'm saying goodbye to my so...
    sakura379 sakura379
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 18, 2015

    I am literally throwing everything out

    that we don't need... I am sick and tired of this living space ... and since I can't throw "it" away I'm throwing away Evey thing in between ......
    reni888 reni888
    26-30, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    The medication I'm taking helps to stabilize it

    so I'm not in extreme highs and lows. It took three tries before my psychiatrist prescribed one that works perfectly.
    LovelyNl LovelyNl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    Support? What is that?

    If you don't know, I had issues with coming to terms with my bipolar disorder. It was hard for me to swallow as I started this mental healing journey of mine. With a smile on my face I can say I won that battle. Being bipolar is not as bad as it sounds, if fact many great...
    Hexatiler Hexatiler
    18-21, M
    Jan 15

    Everything is fine Everything is

    cool Everything is going great This makes me feel like a fool Why? l ask myself. I hear no answer. When? most if my life, truth be known Where? in my brain, the chemicals are imbalanced What? some drugs do hide it, symptoms nit shown The triggers can be many, or none at...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Mar 13

    Bipolar Disorder

    I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in my late 20's. It fit. It made sense. My father is the oldest of nine children. All of them have some sort of mental disorder. We never gave much thought to as kids. My dad has bipolar. Mine is classic Bipolar 1. People just don't...
    lbriteyes lbriteyes
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Mar 7, 2013

    Reflection I Made When I Was 15

    I was always a sad kid. I cried a lot; was sick a lot. I didn't like to go outside much, and I certainly didn't have a lot of friends. I was the kind of kid that had sickly pale skin and big, blue bags under my deep-set eyes. I bruised easily, and was either sleeping far too much...
    maezombiie maezombiie
    18-21, F
    Dec 1, 2013

    I have been on meds for 18 years.

    Was diagnosed with depression at age 16 then at 20 diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have been on practically everything. Some do nothing. Some work for a while then just stop. I've been doing this constant trial and error with different combinations for 18 years now. Almost...
    jks1981 jks1981
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2015

    I battle this disorder quite hard.

    It is like a demon inside, and the fight is always on, but I will not give into it. I was diagnosed ten years ago with this (along with personality disorder) it hit me to hear a label come across me. It made me feel inhuman hearing those words. I played their games of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    It's so confusing....

    some days I think I'm so perfectly happy and energetic, and then maybe just a day or two later I can have a complete mental breakdown over the smallest of things.
    winchester96 winchester96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 21, 2014

    Hello I'm 23 years old.

    I'm from Cornwall. Two years ago I was diagnosed with traits of Bipolar and a boarder line personality disorder and severe anxiety disorder. I've been waiting for my therapy to start for two years now and Ive finally had a letter with an appointment. I still don't really...
    Keepingitalways Keepingitalways
    22-25, M
    May 26, 2014

    Just had an episode. Hate taking meds

    but I have to I guess. Doc told me to go to sleep. Couldn't stop crying. I was crying for no reason. But oh well I guess. Hate being bipolar.
    Saphyyyy Saphyyyy
    16-17, F
    Sep 26, 2015

    Workin' On Recovery

    I was diagnosed in 2001 at the age of 41. Since then it's been quite a journey. I've gone through a few med changes and a lot of mood changes in that time frame. I've had a lot of energy and I've been low on energy; I've loved and left and loved my husband. I thank God he's taken...
    cgoehring78 cgoehring78
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2008

    I was diagnosed last November/December

    and am going thru treatment and am taking aripiprazole or abilify. Still been having deep depressive episodes for months so going to have my medication reviewed and see what they can do. My diagnosis was a blessing to me as it gave me an answer to why I behave the way I do...
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 23, 2015

    Meh 😞 what to do when the one u truly Kare

    for Doesn't get or Understand you just Depressing AF
    smileylove91212 smileylove91212
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 1, 2015

    I'll probably be 63 by the time I pass a class .

    ,... its so hard to focus ... I can never finish out a plan my emotions suck ....
    reni888 reni888
    26-30, F
    Jun 9, 2015

    I Fought The Bipolar And The Bipolar Lost

    Those of us who are bipolar are usually sensitive, introspective and thoughtful. Although these attributes bespeak some degree of intelligence they do not, necessarily, prepare us for the daily grind or help us to establish and maintain successful relationships. Be advised...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2010

    My mind is a jet engine

    that is fired up for take off....wtf ....what kind of energy/fuel is making me want to soar the skies when I should be resting in a hanger ....ugh
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    I'm sick of feeling like people R baby sitting

    me. I feel so trapped in my own life and I just wanna escape. I know they do it because they are worried but I just need some freedom but they have made me so afraid of everything around me and I hate it!
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 9, 2015
    startingover34 startingover34
    31-35, M
    Oct 20, 2015

    I find it exhausting have

    so much going on in my mind, but no words or energy to express. I feel crazy with every thought that passes. I feel judged with every stare, pat or ungodly "It's not that bad!" statement! Why can't people just accept the fact that they DO NOT UNDERSTAND what it's like to battle...
    honestcloud honestcloud
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2015

    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    Having been in a manic state

    for so many months makes this depression feel even worse. Why can I spend 5 or 6 months hypomanic with manic episodes, and turn in to this crying, grouchy, exhausted mess. I was alive. I was so alive, and now it's like I'm dead.
    holamishamigos96 holamishamigos96
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2015

    Have been dealing with awful mood swings.

    The past week the only thing that helps is benzo's ugh so depressed so hard to keep it inside
    final666 final666
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 2, 2015

    Ughhh it's 3am here and I am wide awake .

    ..not sleeping can ramp up my bipolar mood disorder... Regular sleep keeps mind from racing and can get a lil hypomanic ...anxious ... Gonna kill this by sleeping in tomorrow !
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2015
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