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I Battle Bipolar Disorder

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    My Bipolar Brother

    I am a Professional Counselor with a Bipolar Brother Like so many recent high school graduates, who are thrust into the ocean of life, I wanted to return to my former fishbowl–life. There were so many questions, which suddenly so many people seemed to take a sick pleasure...
    janedode2013 janedode2013 46-50 Mar 14, 2013

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    Hello I'm 23 years old.

    I'm from Cornwall. Two years ago I was diagnosed with traits of Bipolar and a boarder line personality disorder and severe anxiety disorder. I've been waiting for my therapy to start for two years now and Ive finally had a letter with an appointment. I still don't really...
    Keepingitalways Keepingitalways 22-25, M May 26, 2014

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    I wrote this song for myself

    and all those who are struggling and also for those who don't understand what we go through. Hold On Intro Manic depressive disorder or so it’s called is it genes or is it my environment. Mood episodes have become your life what you call happy they call manic. What you call...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F Mar 30

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    I battle this disorder quite hard.

    It is like a demon inside, and the fight is always on, but I will not give into it. I was diagnosed ten years ago with this (along with personality disorder) it hit me to hear a label come across me. It made me feel inhuman hearing those words. I played their games of...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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    I hate that one of my good friends

    and ex is mad at me right now . It's my fault because I finally responded after 3days and then stopped our convo in the middle for 12hours but I'm in a depressed state . I don't wanna talk . He shouldnt feel special . I've been distracted and detached. I'm not feeding into that...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I had my second serious manic attack

    for the past few months. I lost friends but I'm happy to say that I gained True Ones. I am rebuilding my life right now because of the damages that the attack had done. I deleted my facebook account which had over 3k friends and started a new one. I'm saying goodbye to my so...
    sakura379 sakura379 18-21, F 1 Response May 18

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    All I Know Is I'm In The Air

    Am I flying or falling? Sometimes they look the same, sometimes they are so starkly different, it's like night and day. I have a laundry list of things wrong with me, and I think I do pretty well at sucking it up and hiding it (in my family, if you say, "I'm in pain," that means...
    Kavka Kavka 18-21, M Apr 4, 2012

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    My 15 Year Battle

    I have been battling depression since I was 15 years old. After many years of ups and downs I finally recieved a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder four years ago. After I lost my grandmother, I hit an all time low and was hospitalized with thoughts of suicide. Daily I ...
    drumstickgrl drumstickgrl 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2009

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    I'm really struggling lately.

    I'm type 2 bipolar and I'm finding it really hard to control my feelings. I keep lashing out at my boyfriend over silly things and everybody irritates me lately. Does anyone have any advice to help me control things a little more?
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2014

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    It is world bipolar day :) never be ashamed of

    anything that makes you you, that includes any mental illness. I am so many things, I have good and bad traits like everyone else but I happen to have bipolar and that is part of who I am! We live, we fight, we are proud :)
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F Mar 30

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    I was diagnosed last year around September.

    I basically just went crazy, no one in my house knew what was wrong with me. My mom took me to a hospital, then they sent me to a mental hospital in an ambulance. I was there for a few days. When I got out I was doing a lot better, because I started on these two meds. I hate...
    Saphyyyy Saphyyyy 16-17, F Apr 19

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    I'm slowly on the road to recover

    but I still suffer from horrible mood swings and there are times that I freak out and get paranoid that everyone is lying to me or that everyone secretly hates me and is just "putting up with me". That's why I'm not close to too many people but I really need the ones that I am...
    Playlist98 Playlist98 16-17, F Mar 23

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    Difficulties

    Nothing comes easy when you have this disorder, maybe that's why I've never met someone who is stupid with this disorder.  We may be addicts, alcoholics, etc but no one has ever come off as stupid that I have met. I pride myself on being one of the "lucky" ones at...
    Tormentedslumber Tormentedslumber 22-25 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    Sinner And Saint

    I was diagnosed a year ago, but I think I have bipolar more then 5 years. I'm 24. I believe in God, I sing in a church choir and I try to live morally and to do good. But sometimes... things just get out of control. I don't sleep, I go out a lot, I have tons of energy and...
    Winterfell Winterfell 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    Anyone heard of episodic mood disorder?

    That's what my dr told me I have that and depression
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 7, 2014

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    i have bipolar and all the kids in my school

    wen i was in public school they would make fun if me for it and my dad dont help with it i mean what kind of dad doesnt make a little effort to call or see me at all and then i only have one true friend to help and i think i trust him with all of the things i tell him bc he...
    bvbarmy4lif33 bvbarmy4lif33 13-15, F Dec 9, 2014

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    Bipolar disorder is the hardest thing about my

    life. I still don't understand why I feel the way I do, I just pretend to. I can never sleep & it makes me physically ill. The only time I feel normal is when I'm drunk or high.. It would be great to know I'm not the only one battling this horrible disease.
    mciarleglio26 mciarleglio26 18-21 2 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Weaponizing all my self care

    for a big day .trying to beat back anxiety. I got this PRAY:Family Court Parent Agreement Today STBX refuses to just sit and work out plan for kids. We are using a Mediatir (Canadien ) she wants 109% custody not joint or shared. Meaning she has full control -medical (she signs...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 6

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    I have no confidence in myself

    and just have a feeling giving a **** most of the time. Makes it hard to date and I feel I'm very unappealing...
    Jonnyguitar877 Jonnyguitar877 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    I have sever bi-polar

    and anxiety issues. My wife walks all over me. I can't take it anymore.
    bipolarPeter bipolarPeter 31-35, M 1 Response May 8

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    I'm afraid that I may have a misdiagnosis .

    I feel like I have rapid cycling and although I'm experiencing hypomania and I'm up and excited and constantly moving, I'm sad . I have nothing to be happy about but I don't wanna stop or I can't . I wanna climb trees but I also wanna jump off when I get to the top . I'm rolling...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    Have been dealing with awful mood swings.

    The past week the only thing that helps is benzo's ugh so depressed so hard to keep it inside
    final666 final666 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    I'll probably be 63 by the time I pass a class .

    ,... its so hard to focus ... I can never finish out a plan my emotions suck ....
    reni888 reni888 26-30, F Jun 9

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 5

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    Workin' On Recovery

    I was diagnosed in 2001 at the age of 41. Since then it's been quite a journey. I've gone through a few med changes and a lot of mood changes in that time frame. I've had a lot of energy and I've been low on energy; I've loved and left and loved my husband. I thank God he's taken...
    cgoehring78 cgoehring78 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    I was diagnosed last year around September.

    I basically just went crazy, no one in my house knew what was wrong with me. My mom took me to a hospital, then they sent me to a mental hospital in an ambulance. I was there for a few days. When I got out I was doing a lot better, because I started on these two meds. I hate...
    Saphyyyy Saphyyyy 16-17, F Apr 19

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    i have not been diagnosed with anything.

    . but sometimes ill be sitting with friends, enjoying life, laughing and having fun... then all of a sudden i feel like someone turned on a switch and i feel angry... i yell, i hit stuff... idk what causes it.. and the entire time there is a little voice in the back of my head...
    lecksierae lecksierae 16-17, F Dec 9, 2014

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    I was diagnosed last November/December

    and am going thru treatment and am taking aripiprazole or abilify. Still been having deep depressive episodes for months so going to have my medication reviewed and see what they can do. My diagnosis was a blessing to me as it gave me an answer to why I behave the way I do...
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 23

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 27

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    Bipolar Disorder

    I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in my late 20's. It fit. It made sense. My father is the oldest of nine children. All of them have some sort of mental disorder. We never gave much thought to as kids. My dad has bipolar. Mine is classic Bipolar 1. People just don't...
    lbriteyes lbriteyes 51-55, F 3 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    This late month has been extremely hard on me.

    I have been on so many different medications and nothing works for me. I just don't really know how I should feel about everything. I'm numb, sad and stressed.
    inloveandeath inloveandeath 22-25, F 5 Responses May 26

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    It's exhausting. I get manic in the morning

    and then agitated and angry in the afternoon and depressed at night....everyday. I have abilify to help me sleep cuz without it I would probably be up all night. I have mixed bipolar :/ and if I'm under stress I hear people calling me name and I feel like there are bugs crawling...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I find it exhausting have

    so much going on in my mind, but no words or energy to express. I feel crazy with every thought that passes. I feel judged with every stare, pat or ungodly "It's not that bad!" statement! Why can't people just accept the fact that they DO NOT UNDERSTAND what it's like to battle...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    I Fought The Bipolar And The Bipolar Lost

    Those of us who are bipolar are usually sensitive, introspective and thoughtful. Although these attributes bespeak some degree of intelligence they do not, necessarily, prepare us for the daily grind or help us to establish and maintain successful relationships. Be advised...
    heavyduty1 heavyduty1 66-70, M 2 Responses Jun 27, 2010

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    Feeling so much better

    so glad I came on here today. Thank you:)
    Trajef Trajef 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Reflection I Made When I Was 15

    I was always a sad kid. I cried a lot; was sick a lot. I didn't like to go outside much, and I certainly didn't have a lot of friends. I was the kind of kid that had sickly pale skin and big, blue bags under my deep-set eyes. I bruised easily, and was either sleeping far too much...
    maezombiie maezombiie 18-21, F Dec 1, 2013

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    This bipolar thing is getting tiring.

    I have been in the hospital a few times, and it's always hard being admitted but sometimes you just have to. I thought about admitting myself again a few days ago, cause I have been feeling down and I just broke my 8 months of being self harm free. I try to live a normal life...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    Bipolar 2. Not as bad

    as Bipolar 1, and so I just wanted to say I feel for those who have BP 1...
    immortalspirit immortalspirit 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    My medication works for the most part,

    but if I even miss a day or two my world has been turning upside down. I ran out of anti depressants and I haven't had them for two days although I've taken my mood stabilizer and anti psychotic but I am a MESS. Had a break down last night, crying so hard I couldn't breathe...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I'm sick of feeling like people R baby sitting

    me. I feel so trapped in my own life and I just wanna escape. I know they do it because they are worried but I just need some freedom but they have made me so afraid of everything around me and I hate it!
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96 18-21, M 2 Responses May 9

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    It's so confusing....

    some days I think I'm so perfectly happy and energetic, and then maybe just a day or two later I can have a complete mental breakdown over the smallest of things.
    winchester96 winchester96 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    I'm blowing everyone off. "I can't stay out late again." "I need to clean my room." "I'm not hungry." "I have stuff to do." "I want to come, but I don't know if I can." Bullshit...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 2 hrs ago

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    I honestly love this person and I have a lot to learn about bipolar disorder.
    iusedtolovemyself iusedtolovemyself 46-50, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    i had/have an eating disorder for about 6yrs, but the worst times were about 4yrs ago. it was a prison. i never went out because i thought i was ugly & that everything made my fat...
    screambloodygore screambloodygore 26-30, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I'm not really sure if I have this particular disorder but I sure as hell become not myself anymore when I'm in certain places I don't feel comfortable to be at or I have issues...
    rarestusernameever rarestusernameever 18-21 13 hrs ago

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