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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    I have been struggling with Bulimia

    and Depression for many years now. The bulimia comes and goes, but its always in the back of my head, its something I really struggle with, however the depression never really goes away. I mean, I have good days, hell I even have great days, but it never goes away for long...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F Dec 5, 2013

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F Nov 30, 2009

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 18

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2013

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    The hardest thing I did was tell my mum I didn't want to live any more. I took an overdose a few years ago and even wrote a note to my GF at the time. Depression is an illness that...
    Dazzer2K Dazzer2K 26-30, M Aug 19

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    I Have no peace people have hurts so much and I've been carrying that weight of depression and hurt ever since I was a kid. I'm Just So Tired
    ShesRoyal94 ShesRoyal94 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Does depression tire you so much? So much that you become less capable? That you don't remember smallest things? So much that everything seems to only tire you no matter how much...
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I know I'm sick, but I can't help but think about falling back into my habits. I've tried to get better and am doing much better than I was but I miss it. I miss feeling like I had...
    byal186 byal186 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    Today I had a bad anxiety attack at work. I was shaking and sweating, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it and I was crying, I was clenching my fists so hard my knuckles...
    InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    There is a very well known norwegian song writer who wrote this song in norwegian, and I tried to translate it as good as I could. The song has a special meaning to me and it...
    Themil Themil 18-21, M Aug 23

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    Well I'll try help anyway. Message me if your feeling down and I'll do my best to help. :)
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    I just really need someone to talk too right now.
    dillonwatson dillonwatson 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 31

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    Wish there was someone who needs a friend, cause I need a friend. I would be there for them not matter what And wish they could do the same Everyone needs a friend I just want a...
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    Although i smile everyday, although i stay productive, although i try to communicate with other people, it will always be the same bullshit...you can ignore the pain for only so...
    staystrongsu staystrongsu 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Am I just exhausted, or am I heading for another crash! I'm so low and I've not spotted it coming at all. I thought. Was getting better, attending the courses, putting the right...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have experienced 4 baby loses through miscarraige and a ectopic pregnancy. I also have had abnormal cells for bout 3 years and can't get rid of hpv I'm so scannerd every time it...
    willowknight willowknight 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Lesson #1: It is NOT your fault So many posting here with such palpable emotional pain. I can relate to this from painful personal experience over many decades. I've gained...
    gwyon gwyon 51-55 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Personal Lesson #2: "Ultimately, it is up to me to scratch and climb and claw my way out of this hole." (These are lessons I've learned that have helped me through. I'm not a...
    gwyon gwyon 51-55 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Post-Medicated battles with depression. I have totally given up on using pharmaceuticals to fight my recurring depression. I use St John's Wort, Norwegian Salmon Oil and a lot...
    NeedingToVent NeedingToVent 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 22

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    I'm starting to see a pattern in my battle with depression over the last years. When feeling down I don't see a lot of people, don't have the energy to exercise and let...
    Uncertain153 Uncertain153 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I am finding the more I speak out about my battle w/depression the more it is diminishing. PRAISE THE LORD!!! Again I say, PRAISE THE LORD!!! I am also finding that the...
    RhodeIslandLady RhodeIslandLady 56-60, F 4 Responses Aug 24

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    I am hoping to connect with someone and make a friend or two. I am completely miserable right now, and like at this moment I just randomly break down. I'm not strong at all and am...
    sweetgoddess92 sweetgoddess92 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 17

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    I am 18 years old and I have had bulimia for over 2 years now. It all started at the end of grade 10 when i decided i wanted to lose weight (i was 150-155 pounds). I will go...
    becky632 becky632 18-21, F Aug 29

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    So I was officially diagnosed with insomnia today. Add that to the ever growing list of things ****** up in my head. Let's see what we've got here so far... -Major Depression...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    This isn't my story, this is a "rant" you could say. There have been alot of stories about what "real depression" is and what it is not. Teenagers without any "real problems" that...
    JustBreathe4J JustBreathe4J 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 29

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    Depression. We feed our minds that we can not do things, that there is no solution for the problem. We think that we are not worth the effort, not worthy of anything. Our...
    TheChosenOne32 TheChosenOne32 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    i can remember the day i first experienced severe depression very clearly . i was 10 years old . being mixed race , i did not belong with any group (im latina and filipina) . noone...
    Chulazon Chulazon 31-35, F Aug 20

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    I actually have gotten a lot better than I was, so this is more of "I Battled Depression". Incidentally, why do they say "Battling depression"? Can you really battle something you...
    SuspendYourDisbelief SuspendYourDisbelief 13-15 4 days ago

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    Do you know why I battle depression? Because I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. Nothing ******* happened. Quit along why I'm depressed. You're dog died and now you're sad...
    nudgette nudgette 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 30

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    To Medicate - or Not. I hope my story & experience can help someone else that is struggling with Anxiety and Depression and is worried about taking medication. I think I have...
    ALynn007 ALynn007 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Depression is not something to mess with. Some people have to take meds and have to face the harsh part of life first to reach the happy side of life. Laughing at this is not...
    HayellsDorion HayellsDorion 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 23

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    I battle depression but an old friend struggled with it worse than me. She was abandoned as a baby at a gas station. Her parents left her while her Grandmother found her and took...
    RogueStrikerSXA RogueStrikerSXA 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 28

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