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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 119 People

    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 15 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    ATTENTION! Since finishing university or college for those from the states i have battled with constant depression. Apart from travelling, floating from job to job and failing...
    Socialtrepreneur Socialtrepreneur 22-25, M 5 hrs ago

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    This is going to sound rude but it's not intended to be. Okay, if you do not have depression or have never experienced depression, you can't really help people who have it. I feel...
    suicidalbieber suicidalbieber 16-17, F 6 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I posted in this group before I think, but now it is different. Before I was depressed for very specific reasons, and it seemed like everything was better after that passed. But...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    I battle bipolar depression. It sucks but my life's been turning around for the better. I feel more in control of my emotions more than ever. I still have struggled but I've been...
    KittenGoesRawr KittenGoesRawr 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Since the age of 8 or 9, I had depression. I found out that by myself from always thinking of killing myself. I never told anyone because I didn't want to be view as attention...
    FelinaTheDevil FelinaTheDevil 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    That's the one thing I want to make clear about depression: It's got nothing at all to do with life. In the course of life, there is sadness and pain and sorrow, all of which, in...
    VioletMerryweather VioletMerryweather 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've never posted anything on here before but this would have to be the main thing about me I've battled depression for the longest time, honestly I can't remember a year I wasn't...
    nightskyvampire nightskyvampire 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Depression is feeling like you don’t want to feel anything anymore. Depression is when you know you shouldn’t feel things that they all judge and deplore. Depression is having...
    IBattleDepressionPleaseHelp IBattleDepressionPleaseHelp 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Weekend... Please just move on faster.. I need to go back to work.. I need to keep myself busy and tired.. That's how I battle my current state of depression..
    logen88 logen88 26-30 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    i just realized something .. i'm not the only one who is depressed. but also every single member of my family and every one of my friends i think i just attract people that are...
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    So yesterday night, i finished my very first track.. Which is a huge accomplishment for me and my best friend back then said that as soon as i do we would celebrate it and name the...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I know I battle depression everyday. I have been for some the now. It all slowly started when we found out my son had autism, I was about six month pregnant with our daughter. that...
    sexygirl81 sexygirl81 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    People here are so stupid sometimes.. This guy just said that I should kill myself. I battle depression it's been 3 years (since my grandpa died) , and I just have my mom. This...
    IBattleDepressionPleaseHelp IBattleDepressionPleaseHelp 18-21, F 18 Responses 5 days ago

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    I think I always felt like I know how I'm going to die. One day I'll lose my battle with depression and commit suicide. I think this all the time but am too scared to tell friends...
    LfeSzdBarbie LfeSzdBarbie 26-30, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I thought I had won the battle finally. I was placed on Cymbalta..they increased it and besides being tired all the time....my mood was good. they increased it again a couple of...
    mandy6b mandy6b 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    Everyday of my life... i battle depression. Ive beaten it once but only a few know that it has been with me passed that. Its a struggle to stay happy but with my mind that is never...
    InfiniteZero InfiniteZero 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 29

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    The thing about depression is everyone confuses it with being sad, or unhappy. But I'm not unhappy. There's just so much emotional and physical pain inside me that nobody can see...
    Calsi704 Calsi704 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    I battle depression. I’m not crazy. I’m not dumb. I don’t want to die, but I often feel like I want to take my own life. I am not dangerous to anyone but myself. I don’t...
    mrsabri mrsabri 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 29

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    I'm so tired of people treating depression like it is some made up thing for attention. Depression is a real thing people struggle with and no one would make up something like this...
    steph0807 steph0807 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 28

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    I haven't told no one ! Not my sisters my mom my best friends .... :( my doctor knows I battle depression an she prescribed me pills but I hate pills I don't believe in them ... I...
    ev23 ev23 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 28

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    I have always been told I'm skinny or to put on some weight and I stillam told, and am not anorexic or bulimic, but some days ago my grandmother said "your are so skinny" but then...
    Fenriis Fenriis 18-21, T 1 Response Jun 28

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    No one gets what it's like to be me. What it's like inside my head. Things that might not seem like a big deal but are huge to me. Being snubbed and disrespected by my son, and...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean 41-45, F 5 Responses Jun 27

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    G'day all.....Im curious... Would love to hear how others manage their depression?? What steps do you take to improve life and living with depression???? The word depression...
    Redridinghood69 Redridinghood69 51-55, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    I battled depression so horribly for a long time so I am always here for anyone who is currently going through it so if anyone ever wants to talk don't go through it alone like I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jun 27