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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    I have been struggling with Bulimia

    and Depression for many years now. The bulimia comes and goes, but its always in the back of my head, its something I really struggle with, however the depression never really goes away. I mean, I have good days, hell I even have great days, but it never goes away for long...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F Dec 5, 2013

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 18

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2013

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    I Have no peace people have hurts so much and I've been carrying that weight of depression and hurt ever since I was a kid. I'm Just So Tired
    ShesRoyal94 ShesRoyal94 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 12

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 12

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    Does depression tire you so much? So much that you become less capable? That you don't remember smallest things? So much that everything seems to only tire you no matter how much...
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 13

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    If anyone needs someone to vent and not be judged please come into contact with me! I'll be that person you can talk to about absolutely anything. Went through depression myself...
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F a week ago

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    I need to speak to a male who suffers from depression! Please msg me! :(
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Wish there was someone who needs a friend, cause I need a friend. I would be there for them not matter what And wish they could do the same Everyone needs a friend I just want a...
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    Am I just exhausted, or am I heading for another crash! I'm so low and I've not spotted it coming at all. I thought. Was getting better, attending the courses, putting the right...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 12

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    I have experienced 4 baby loses through miscarraige and a ectopic pregnancy. I also have had abnormal cells for bout 3 years and can't get rid of hpv I'm so scannerd every time it...
    willowknight willowknight 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 12

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    I have reached my limit i have had all i can take i lie in bed and sleep all the time unless i have to do something that day i self harm and think about it every waking moment i...
    SophieeJordan SophieeJordan 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    I'm starting to see a pattern in my battle with depression over the last years. When feeling down I don't see a lot of people, don't have the energy to exercise and let...
    Uncertain153 Uncertain153 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 2

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    So I was officially diagnosed with insomnia today. Add that to the ever growing list of things ****** up in my head. Let's see what we've got here so far... -Major Depression...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 12

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    One of my Tools: Creative visualization. Da pimpin bipolar poet has returned. Thats right he's back, he fell down In a hole and slipped into a role. He once had to shoot down...
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M 1 hr ago

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    Hello, gods and goddesses..... I have struggled with bulimia for over 6 years: daily binging and purging, alcohol abuse, stealing, anxiety, and depression. Before that, it was a...
    ElementYogi ElementYogi 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 18

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    Depression. We feed our minds that we can not do things, that there is no solution for the problem. We think that we are not worth the effort, not worthy of anything. Our...
    TheChosenOne32 TheChosenOne32 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 11

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    I actually have gotten a lot better than I was, so this is more of "I Battled Depression". Incidentally, why do they say "Battling depression"? Can you really battle something you...
    SuspendYourDisbelief SuspendYourDisbelief 13-15 Sep 12

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    It can be so exhausting. Sometimes I wonder if it is harder to date someone with depression than it is to actually have depression. I have to battle it too. I have a choice to...
    hopeful1995 hopeful1995 18-21 Sep 18

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    So it began at age 3 when my parents separated . I felt all alone in the world at that time , remembering the fights my mum and dad use to have constantly. I had been sent to my...
    stephenrko stephenrko 31-35, M Sep 20

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    I've wrote quite a few posts about this but i have battled depression from when i was a very young kid (not sure what exact age but i was under 10), my mums trying to make my life...
    ymasxatl ymasxatl 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    Not that I know for a fact, I battle such thing. I'm just curious on the feel of it. A lot of the time, I'm questioning myself. Am I just unhappy or depressed? I took a quiz and I...
    InnerEgo InnerEgo 16-17, T 2 Responses Sep 7

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    For majorities it's like you know, "My girlfriend left me" or "Parents hate me." For me, It's literary a sickness. I have been diagnose with depression since I was around 12-13. I...
    DestreyTheUndead DestreyTheUndead 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I have battled depression almost my entire life, 52 years. In 2000 I was put on the first anti-depressant that actually worked and it changed my life. I still have some really bad...
    littlestbell littlestbell 51-55, F 6 Responses Sep 13

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    My interests and hobbies have been a curse more than enjoyable. They got me bullied at school, and still do, as well as my physical appearance. Over 4 years of just sitting and...
    TTAMTWASOOC TTAMTWASOOC 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 14

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    Hi all. I'll condense my first experience post to a reasonable length by stating that I have suffered from depression and anxiety for the majority of my short life. I am in my...
    ResilientBeing ResilientBeing 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    It's really hard for me as I battled with my depression since I was a kid . I can go from dancing and laughing into deep dark mood where I cry for hours , sometimes I don't even...
    MyLifeMojaStvar MyLifeMojaStvar 36-40, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    You know, talking from my own experience, I have realised that we win over depression when we WANT to see a brighter day!! Yes, friends, family or random people are of big help...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Looking back, there was great intelligence in my 20+ years of depression. There was actually grace inherent in life bringing me to my knees. (Sometimes life brings you to your...
    Shanti00 Shanti00 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    So. I'm sitting here. I'm reading over peoples depression statements. Asides the trolls thinking this is a joke. Depression that is. Others. Mixing other feelings in with...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I had a rocky childhood. My parents are pretty abusive, my step dad molests me and my parents had a nasty divorce. I was diagnosed depressed at 8, anxiety at 11, bipolar at 13 and...
    QuinnMac12 QuinnMac12 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hello Friends, New and Old. It's been a long, LONG while. It's probably because..can you believe it? I don't battle depression anymore. Depressing thoughts once in a while, but...
    transienthope transienthope 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 1