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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 119 People

    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I have been struggling with Bulimia

    and Depression for many years now. The bulimia comes and goes, but its always in the back of my head, its something I really struggle with, however the depression never really goes away. I mean, I have good days, hell I even have great days, but it never goes away for long...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 26-30, F Dec 5, 2013

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 15 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I've had depression for years, since I was 7. Bullies and family are the cause of it. It's such a horrible thing to experience and I'm here for anyone who is battling depression...
    anonymousgirl1906 anonymousgirl1906 13-15, F 1 Response May 17

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    I think something so important to remember about depression is that it's not necessarily the same for everyone. I am so sick of being told that I can't be depressed because...
    L382 L382 22-25, T 1 Response May 19

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    I used to go to the toilet in between classes just to get myself together over and over again everyday by taking deep breaths while holding tightly against the wall. And then I'll...
    CloeSmile CloeSmile 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    Even though it was several years ago, every time I've had a bad day, It reminds me of the time I felt depressed nearly everyday. My energy was always low, always felt tired...
    pappa94 pappa94 18-21, M May 3

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    dipping in and out of these existential (ego) attacks for the last 3 years. I just recently read on here that pisces have an strong desire for understanding, and are constantly...
    jaywabz jaywabz 22-25, M May 17

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    all I want to do is sleep. I know this vicious cycle too well. but I can't seem to break it. I've packed on 15 pounds. I don't want to DIE I just don't want to do anything. Gawd...
    losee44 losee44 36-40, F 2 Responses May 18

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    I suffered depression for about 2 years, which according to my doctor was about normal. I still battle anxiety on the whole but I think it will get easier. My battle with...
    MayaKing MayaKing 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    I battle with depression everyday and used to self harm (also had an eating disorder at one point) it was not until I decided I needed help that I chose to talk to someone. At...
    Imjusthereforadvice Imjusthereforadvice 16-17, F May 20

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    I have an unwilling battle with depression from time to time. Life seems so unbeatable and hopeless just because of the stress which accumulates. At the same time being alone and...
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 26-30, M May 17

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    let's have a bottle of beer to battle this depression :) let's drink to that!
    PipayR PipayR 22-25, F 3 Responses May 21

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    I've battled depression for years. I'm ok now. But I'm here if anyone needs help
    tomh11 tomh11 31-35, M 1 Response 50 mins ago

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    I'm feeling too exhausted to explain with my own words how I feel today so, this quote sums up the thoughts that run in my mind: “I don't want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom...
    aloysia aloysia 26-30, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Right now, I'm going through depression. It's very hard to bear. Especially as a kid of 15 who is supposed to be playing, studying all day. I guess I have depression coz of my mom...
    bigsmile2000 bigsmile2000 13-15, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I have clinical depression / anxiety was diagnosed April of 2015 I'm 5"3 and gained 37 pounds in now 230 .. I was admitted to the hospital in the beginning of April due to a...
    shirldb131 shirldb131 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    How can i win this depression?
    scrilly81 scrilly81 31-35, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I have lived with a man for 11 years and only now do I see he was suffering from mild depression and anxiety for a good portion of it. He has always been a very stoic person who...
    marydd marydd 31-35, F 1 Response May 2

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    I know I'm not alone. Many people I know do too. I have good days but some pretty rotten days where I need to hide from the world. The good days are awesome and I smile as much as...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 4 Responses May 13

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    It's hard to battle depression when my support system fell apart. I have no one in my life that understands what I go through each day. My husband doesn't help as he is the biggest...
    LookWhosAwesome LookWhosAwesome 26-30, F 2 Responses May 19

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    I have a lot I'm dealing with right now. I know I have anxiety and now I figured out I have depression. I know people say "You don't have depression. Your too young for that...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F May 12

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    Hello everyone i usually dont do these things but i feel like i cant talk to anyone in my life anymore, about what is going on with me. I am 21 years old and ive been fighting...
    sanchezjessica sanchezjessica 18-21 2 Responses May 17

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    Thank you. Each and every one of you ******** out there who give people crap about mental illnesses and those of you who think you have depression and not even know what depression...
    mystiere13 mystiere13 16-17, F 3 Responses May 20

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    I'm not one to get angry or annoyed but to be quite freaking honest, people on here are ******* me off. Too many people over use the word depression and use it to describe every...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 9 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've delt with depression since I was in 7th grade. For years I have practiced hiding my depression. When I couldn't take it anymore I became suicidal. My mom found out and took me...
    ygandulla ygandulla 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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