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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 11 Responses Jan 18

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    I have been struggling with Bulimia

    and Depression for many years now. The bulimia comes and goes, but its always in the back of my head, its something I really struggle with, however the depression never really goes away. I mean, I have good days, hell I even have great days, but it never goes away for long...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F Dec 5, 2013

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Please check out the YouTube channel Douglas Bloch if you are facing depression. Please it will help
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    Nothing happens until you take action. Please checkout the YouTube channel Douglas Bloch for depression. there is a way out.
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    If you're going through depression please checkout the youtube channel douglas bloch it will save your life man
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    I was feeling so up for a couple weeks there, but now I've just plummeted right back down. Why is this so difficult? I'm getting so frustrated with myself because I can't even...
    spiffyoctopus spiffyoctopus 18-21, F Nov 20

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    I've done some research on the benefits of Choline so I started taking 2000mg a day. It has definitely improved my mental state! of course.. I still have troubles sometimes. my...
    trmhippygirl7 trmhippygirl7 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    I feel like i was mistake being born in the world I've done so much ****** up **** but my past is pretty ****** him itself nobody knows how it makes me feel . I was laying on my...
    miz0217 miz0217 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 29

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    People always say you should love yourself before you can love someone else but it's hard to love myself when I feel so empty. I have no real friends, people tell me I'm a great...
    tagmepurple tagmepurple 18-21, M Oct 30

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    Redo: People say you should love yourself to be happy but I can't seem to find love left in my heart. Only emptiness and loneliness filling my whole body and the only reason I...
    tagmepurple tagmepurple 18-21, M Oct 30

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    I want more than most people, I am entirely unfulfilled by existence. Almost depressed by it. Useless existence to me is not any better than no existence at all. If someone can't...
    Em518 Em518 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I really need help. I don't know what to do about my bi polar iv tried everything and just wanna give up,
    kpweant1 kpweant1 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    This is going to kill me if I don't get help.
    trinoctal trinoctal 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    Please check out the YouTube channel douglas bloch please it will save you and give you hope
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M Nov 14

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    Except when sleeping. Or pleasing.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Nov 15

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    Please checkout the youtube channel douglas bloch it will save you please
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's hitting me hard tonight. My dads in the hospital with congestive heart failure and I'm hurting deep. I must be strong though for my sisters. Hes not my biological dad but has...
    riddlesmile riddlesmile 31-35, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Everyday in my mind is an endless battle. think of it as the 300 spartans, they never gave up but in the end they didnt win the battle. I'm slowly losing my battle with depression...
    Palavo88 Palavo88 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 20

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    Well throughout my life, mainly when I was in middle school onward, I have always thought of myself differently than others. I honestly hate everything about myself, especially my...
    thinkingflawless thinkingflawless 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I no longer battle depression. It used to be that I was depressed, and I thought I was not good enough, and I battled myself. That was not very good because as long as I was my...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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    Am I...starting to feel NORMAL? Okay for those who don't know, I battle depression since childhood and got medical help because I had a chemical imbalance in my head. So they gave...
    RandomDudeFriend RandomDudeFriend 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 1

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    I was thinking a bit more about the optimal times to use one's mind to counteract depression. In my experience the absolutely best time to do that is before one is depressed as a...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    It's a weird thing being bulimic. I eat a regular normal amount of food and this overwhelming feeling oh being full hits. I feel like if I don't purge then then..it's unexplainable...
    helizb helizb 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    I feel sometimes as if I'm forgotten. I struggle with depression a lot and occasionally I get social thoughts. Im struggling with an abusive past and dealing with those nightmares...
    iwuvmusic iwuvmusic 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    THIS IS HOPEFULLY THE LAST POST IM MAKING ON "I BATTLE DEPRESSION" I gave my biggest battle. I knew something was missing, and I had to find it. I have had experiences with LSD...
    TroubledIndividual TroubledIndividual 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 4

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have struggled with major depression, as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 23 Responses Nov 18

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    I've been wanting to post about this for a while because it really worries me and I desperately want to reach out to others with the same problem as my friend. I will NOT be...
    daintyduck daintyduck 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    you know yeah I have depression! yeah there I said it... is it full blow no... I still think you need to keep moving on there is a light blue sky around the bend. Don't give up I...
    dailyguyboyjr dailyguyboyjr 22-25, M Nov 10