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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    I have been struggling with Bulimia

    and Depression for many years now. The bulimia comes and goes, but its always in the back of my head, its something I really struggle with, however the depression never really goes away. I mean, I have good days, hell I even have great days, but it never goes away for long...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 26-30, F Dec 5, 2013

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 15 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    I am finally losing the battle with depression. I don't fear death anymore. and if someone were to hold a gun to my head I would probably just laugh and tell them to pull the...
    lostguy19892014 lostguy19892014 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 5

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    The crippling feeling & constant battle with depression where sleep is my only salvation 😔 quietly whispering to my mind, "let me be at peace".
    TheHeartOfALovingSoul TheHeartOfALovingSoul 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    It's a battle one that I must conquer. I'm improving daily yet sometimes it hits me in the face like a nice hard slap. It's okay sometimes I just need a bad day and than reboot...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Feb 16

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    I'm 31 years old and have battled with depression for as long as I can remember. I have thought about suicide almost every day although never actually tried. I expected my life to...
    xxangeleyes81xx xxangeleyes81xx 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm really fighting depression lately. I don't want to get out of bed. My meds don't seem to be helping. I know I'm just frustrating my husband. I'm not getting anything done. He's...
    suisquirrel suisquirrel 41-45, F 30 mins ago

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    A couple day's have past since my first post about my struggle with bulimia. I am now down to 111 lb at 5'3 and am still very unsatisfied. Why is it I felt like I was thinner when...
    Rachael1774 Rachael1774 18-21, F Feb 17

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    Good morning , I am sorry but I have not been feeling like writing lately or much of anything else here. I am cold (like 25 degree's)and depressed about being a failure in this...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response Feb 19

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    Today is a good day. I don't write this to brag, boast, or to make anyone suffering feel worse. I write this because I want you to know that there WILL be a day for you that is a...
    pollyprozac pollyprozac 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    Depression is something I battle everyday, it feels like the whole world is against you and you just want to die. Depression has led me to self-harm and suicide thoughts. Sometimes...
    cassiedafuq cassiedafuq 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I had a great realization today. It has been longer since the last time I made myself sick (6 years) then I actually struggled with bulimia. This realization was soothing, almost a...
    Josh5656 Josh5656 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 5

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    I battle depression today, yesterday and tomorrow. I will battle it for the rest of my days. But it is a battle I refuse to lose. Right now I feel like I'm tip toeing along the...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Yes, I battle depression, it's not easy and some days it's rather consuming. But depression is a title and just because I have it and I'm battling it doesn't mean depression has me...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    Some days I can't breathe. Some days I am screaming inside, hoping that someone can hear me, no one does. Some days I think of the past, ruminating as to why things had to pan out...
    butterflyxhope butterflyxhope 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am 44 and have battled depression and anxiety since the age of 12 my father new I had problems but never got me help, I did not see a doctor until I was in my 20's. I started...
    Thumpkins Thumpkins 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    Im not always depressed, matter of fact im mostly fine or even laughing, no matter how stupid a joke is id probably laugh it a bit or even chuckle.. Yet sometime i get severe...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 21

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    It's 3:38am - I'm sitting here thinking why do I bother anymore. Why should I actually try? I'll only fail anyway But now I'm thinking. Why? I think back and I realise, no one was...
    jakusbakus jakusbakus 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
    annexthecelt annexthecelt 22-25, F Feb 9

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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
    annexthecelt annexthecelt 22-25, F Feb 9

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    sigh........................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is really very hard for me to talk about that , but i would like to do , when i was a child i missed...
    umayyad umayyad 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 13

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    The worst depression of my life calumniated in late January, 2014 - I used to think it was lat February but I have been keeping a key word diary starting in February 2014, and I...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    **** anyone who thinks depression is romantic. Depression is f*****g hell. Depression is not having the energy to get out of bed for 3 days. Depression is losing focus whenever you...
    0hSheanBreeze012 0hSheanBreeze012 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    My birthday will come in about 2 hours. Sitting alone in the dark now, just about ready to sleep this day away, id like to make just one wish before i go to sleep. i wish that all...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 10