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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 125 People

    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    I guess I'm exhausted,

    tired, the fire I once had in me is non existent. Every year since 2010 I've been trying to fight these monsters. You try to recover you try, oh you try so hard to have self discipline, you try to silence and fight the thoughts you have on how it won't hurt to just do it 'one...
    MissQueenB MissQueenB 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2015

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 15 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    OK. I need help. I can't stop taking Ibuprofen. I was supoose to take 2 daily but I took 18 yesterday. I want my depression to stop. How do I stop depression?
    sievert sievert 13-15, F 14 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been battling depression for a very long time. Longer than I can ever remember. I never told my parents so I could never get anti-depressants. I almost succumbed to the pain a...
    yuki920 yuki920 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    what more is there to say. since i was a child i questioned the purpose of my existence.
    surfaceme surfaceme 70+ 2 days ago

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    Being ******* depressed and having no one to talk to is the absolute worst. And anyone I try to, they don't get it and all give me the same, generic advice. Depression is not a...
    TheLadyYves TheLadyYves 18-21, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    I think scars are like battle wounds-- beautiful in a way. They show what you've been through and how strong you are for coming out of it.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I feel depressed again. Some days I feel good and energetic, other days I feel down and just don't want to leave my bed. I don't think many people close to me can understand what I...
    lostinbeauty lostinbeauty 31-35, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Part of the reason I have been able to overcome this recent battle with depression is being on here, seeing that I am not alone, resisting the urge to isolate, seeing so many...
    CloudTen420 CloudTen420 70+, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    another rough day.. but it's okay. just had a nice dinner and took a hot shower.. tomorrow is a better day and i will win this battle 🔥
    klasik klasik 26-30, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I feel like depression is slowly becoming a trend in society, where teenagers think it's cool. It's almost like everybody just EXPECTS teens to be depressed, like its normal...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's been so long since I could look at myself, and tell myself that I was sincerely happy. It's been so long since I actually felt alright, since I felt wanted, since I felt...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Isn't it interesting how, eventually, a person can fight this battle so long that they can predict every move the enemy will make? More interesting is that even knowing this, I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 4 Responses Feb 5

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    I battled depression. My best friend, however, battles depression. I'll start at the beginning of the story, when I was 12/13. I met this boy who would turn out to be my best...
    Plouton3600 Plouton3600 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    I really think the exercising is making a huge difference in my mood, and I am finally overcoming my seasonal depression this year! The image above shows a spreadsheet summarizing...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I just started a new job a couple of weeks ago (temporary contract), and I hate it! Most people would like sitting down, doing practically nothing & get paid for it but I am the...
    IX00I IX00I 26-30, F Feb 2

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    Is it a mystery why "I Battle Depression" is like the most popular thing on here? For my fellow Depressees... I hope this can be a light in your dark tunnel... Or maybe this is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1

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    I haven't written anything for a while... recently with stress on my job, my depression has gotten worse... I wake up with tears in my eyes.. I'm not crying but the tears are just...
    SelfishShellfish SelfishShellfish 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    I find in my own depression over time there were roughly three or four distinct stages of depression, and different things worked or did not work depending on which stage I was in...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I would love it if you read this entire thing.... please. For my entire life I just haven't been accepted for who I am. I have anger issues, OCD, ADD, depression, anxiety, etc...
    thechocolatemaniac thechocolatemaniac 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    God bless everyone who is trying to get back into the swing of things after depression hit them hard. There isn't enough recognition for us who know we are going to want to give...
    MissQueenB MissQueenB 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    I have been struggling with depression my whole life. Even as a child I was unhappy, lonely and I hated my life. When I was 16 years old my dad committed suicide and the pain was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 29

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    I look and I see people changing left and right. Some get confident and become themselves and some where already. Some are in deep water but are floating, even if they aren't on...
    RoamingStone RoamingStone 22-25, M Jan 29

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    I thought I'd grow out of it by now, but I've gotten better at controlling it. I can get away through a good movie, relatable music, art, going out, etc. depression is for me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 28

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