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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    I have been struggling with Bulimia

    and Depression for many years now. The bulimia comes and goes, but its always in the back of my head, its something I really struggle with, however the depression never really goes away. I mean, I have good days, hell I even have great days, but it never goes away for long...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F Dec 5, 2013

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 18

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2013

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F Nov 30, 2009

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    May seem like nothing but this is the first time this week that I've had the mental strength to wake up an get dressed! And put makeup on an do my hair so to me this is quiet a...
    fashionanxiety fashionanxiety 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    The longer I sit here alone and realize how many people are around me to just benefit them selfs and how many people who were true friends are now dead the worse it gets. The gun...
    dillonwatson dillonwatson 18-21, M Jul 8

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    All day today i felt like going in my garage, getting a cord, wrapping it around my neck, and hanging myself. Life is hardly worth living anymore and I have come to realize that...
    TheGuy147 TheGuy147 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    Hey everyone. I want to just put this message out there. Many of us, including myself, have been helped by this site and some of the wonderful people who are a part of it. But...
    cyndercrys cyndercrys 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hello. I am really depressed and although my problem may seem trivial, it has caused me so much stress that I now have neuralgia which is nerve damage :( if anyone will be kind...
    Alovingheart7437 Alovingheart7437 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It all started with a disaster in my childhood that left me forever scarred. Ever sense then my whole life was determined do to the whole disaster. I can't kiss a boy much less hug...
    theundecidedthought theundecidedthought 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I do battle with depression but I'm taking it day by day. Some days are better that others but I'm making it c: you just have to focus on what you have really.
    kath12321 kath12321 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I have and still do battle chronic depression but it has made me more understanding and empathetic to others pain and life experiences.....and led me on my spiritual journey.
    suziel suziel 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    I haven't been on experience project in a while. I really miss it and the people I have met who have talked to me when I needed it and I'd like to thank each and every one of them...
    Jrivs Jrivs 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    The only reason Im still alive after an 9 year battle with depression/anxiety/suicidal thoughts is because I don't want to put my loved ones through my loss. Unlike a lot of...
    missmichigan21 missmichigan21 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 16

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    I don't have any friends and barely any family. Maybe coming on this site was a sign that maybe i want to try and take some steps forward with myself. As much as i battle with...
    theblacktiger theblacktiger 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 16

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    The past 6 years have been a constant battle of depression, loneliness, paranoia Etcetc. I'm in that time of my life where I either want to give up completely or work hard to get...
    Exoduss Exoduss 16-17, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F Jul 15

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger...
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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger...
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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F Jul 15

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    I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F Jul 15

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    I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was...
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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    In runs in my family they say. Depression anxiety runs in my family. So it's my destiny to be depressed. To live a broken life. To have my soul tortured. To fall part daily. To...
    bubbles1085 bubbles1085 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    ~*~ I battled this for YEARS - as in most of my adolescent/adult life. This is how I got a handle on it and got my life back. *I'm taking the time to write this out - hoping that...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    most people don't believe depression is a big issue. Let me tell the people who thinks that "it's not a big deal" something. Imagine waking up every morning and wishing you didn...
    morgan18365 morgan18365 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 6

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    On a scale of one to ten, ten being the highest, my anxiety will always remain a 3 or 4. I have chosen to not allow depression and anxiety to take one more day. So I let it come...
    sunny3875 sunny3875 36-40, F Jul 5

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    I'm 28, but since I was young, I've always had some sort of anxiety - mostly social - as well as depression. Being a kid, I thought I was just sad all the time. I always felt weird...
    BrittanyErin BrittanyErin 26-30, F 17 Responses Jul 6

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    I have a major issue, basically, I want to rid myself of my emotions. I've battled depression for a two year long uphill battle, and, I'm actually winning, but, that's not my...
    Nix0 Nix0 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I've been battling depression for years now - a losing battle. I was on meds for a long time, but it got to a point where the side effects weren't worth it. Back then, I didn't...
    vlrjspn vlrjspn 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 5

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    I battle depression every day of my life. Sometimes I can't even get out of bed; I just wanna hide under the covers and cry, never to be seen again. I feel so alone, so lost in...
    TheOneAndOnlyZella TheOneAndOnlyZella 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    So theres a long story of mine.. i dont think u guys will read it.. its pretty long.. Yea I battle depression, I fake, I hide, I don't really tell my problem to other ppl, all they...
    BunnyCoral BunnyCoral 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 22

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