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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 121 People

    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 15 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I've always had depression and anxiety. I'm pregnant and just started a new position at my job. Things are changing so fast and its hard to do it and not be able to take any...
    reynanv reynanv 26-30, F 1 Response 23 mins ago

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    I think my own cure for depression is having a best friend. Someone who is there for me, and enjoys similar things. I felt depressed and alone for so long, it was normal. While I...
    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    The I just want to die feeling hasn't gone away for a week now. I'm fighting so hard to be normal. I fight myself on weather or not I should be alive. It's a never ending...
    Haixiu Haixiu 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    It's an ongoing thing. Today has been one of my good days. . So, l decided to try and think logically, about it all.. True..whatever the source is that's causing the depression...
    MistyGoddess MistyGoddess 41-45, F 10 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Last week was horrible for me. I was very depressed so I started drinking again which made me feel even more depressed. I finally started feeling better the past two days, but I...
    homesweethell homesweethell 31-35, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Was walking to truck. Phone was on youtube. Hands full. Finger started video. On depression rare. And possibly enlightenment. But what if depressed are truthful...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 18 hrs ago

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    Ever since I was younger I have battled with depression and anxiety. It's honestly nothing that can just "go away" from a few pills prescribed from my doctor. Depression sucks. It...
    Amberrjade27 Amberrjade27 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I have had depression for a while now, at first I didn;t understand what was going on - I had a battle with myself day in and day out.I did a lot of soul searching and did a lot of...
    Gangstress Gangstress 31-35, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    A total depersonalization of existence itself is a common daily battle in my life. The essence of who I am is in conflict with its own existence... rotating the wheel as a...
    SoulCoffee SoulCoffee 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    i battle depression and cry everyday bc im nearly 5'9 and a girl :( i also am depressed bc of school
    izzzy098 izzzy098 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    ive been suicidal and depressed for many years, i have done methods of self harm ect. ect. (im sorry for saying it, i dont want attention i just want to say how this is affecting...
    aquaticNerd aquaticNerd 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i battle depression because of being rapt, molested ,and beaten from the ages of two tell i was nineteen i have constant relapse days were i don't wont to even get out of bed and...
    ecook19 ecook19 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm not blaming anybody but myself for where I am and the circumstances I have to face in my life. It's not my parent's fault, nor is it my friend's fault. It's my fault. I own it...
    Noregrets5 Noregrets5 41-45, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've had a few times in my adult life that I've had battles with depression- and I know it sounds strange- but I almost welcome it. When I'm depressed, I don't feel like doing much...
    trying2hard trying2hard 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Well, I'm out of the school but the bullying kinda got worse... It's kinda hard to explain and everyone thinks I'm crazy except my boyfriend and one of my friends.... But the scary...
    Raytheshapeshifter Raytheshapeshifter 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I dislike when people say "your too pretty to be depressed" .... Depression does not discriminate. Everybody is struggling , everybody is fighting a battle. We all are human. My...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    My parents don't know that I battle depression. I want to take the pain and hurt away. I hurt myself or I drink or get high so I don't feel it. I think my dad is the cause of this...
    garcia9 garcia9 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    (Sorry this is so long) I'm a freak who can't dress right, my hair is too short, I'm way too fat, I have social anxiety, I'm dying inside but for all these years all I can do is...
    purplepumpkin17 purplepumpkin17 16-17, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    i have severe depression and it kills me every second and every minute and every hour....i battle it so deep every day...i just dont know how to be happy...im a lost cause and...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    As someone who has battled with this hindrance for as far as I can remember...I wanted to give everyone kudos for opening up and asking questions. For the longest time I never...
    Electricgasmic Electricgasmic 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Ugh. I wish the depression and anxiety would go away. Recently, we found out that we are going to move out to the country side on an 80 acre horse ranch! Lots of horses, arenas...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F Jul 20

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    I haven't experienced anorexia or I don't think I have yet. But I have suffered bulimia. If you need someone to talk to I'm here...
    Sleepdeprived4 Sleepdeprived4 16-17 Jul 20

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    The anti depressants have finally left my system and I feel completely hopeless and sad for no reason all the time, besides being extremely tired. It's been a really, really bad...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I have never found self pity to be a helpful friend, and it won't be for you.. .I call you to manhood, to embrace the hard things in life for they are how God trains us to be...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 19

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