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I Battle Bulimia and Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 119 People

    What's Wrong With Me?

    I have been battling bulimia, anorexia and depression for over 10 years. I moved to a new city 300 miles away from my family and friends 2 years ago. It's so hard. Sometimes, I feel alright. Other times I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Today, I just started...
    cassie416 cassie416 31-35 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    HURTING Inside....

     Hey You guys, Funny to see how everybody HURTS INSIDE but smile outside.I'm 21 and started my "B"when i was 17. In a month and a half I lost an extreme amount of weight. Years went by and the ghost is always haunting me.Even if I promise myself, people around me...
    lanig lanig 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    When Will It End...???

    I am am 29. I have been bulimic since I was 14. Anorexic from 15-19. A meth head from 20-24. I have f*cked myself up completely. But I am still bulimic. How can I stop? I've tried psychotherapy hypnothyerapy, counselling, CBT been bullied by friends (that care), antidepressants...
    Jaspa Jaspa 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    Lost!

    I am a mother of 2 beautiful children and a wife of a wonderful husband, but I am an unhappy person.They say you can't make people happy unless you are happy yourself. I am 27 and I have been battling Bulimia for the last 15 years. It started when my family members started...
    asainville asainville 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    Bulimia, Depression, Sadness

    i need help. im so lost everyday. i stare at my body everyday and i hate it! i have a daughter so i cant give up or anything. but i feel like makingmyself throw up helps me through the day. i always feel better. it feels better to throw up than it will ever feel to eat and if i...
    Blairlost Blairlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Slowly Drowning

     I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 15. I routinely starved myself in highschool, and went on long runs in the middle of the night. I started binging and purging my freshman year of college. I had begun dating a guy who wanted me to lose weight, so I began...
    lunhseapyralis lunhseapyralis 22-25 2 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Lost Lost Lost

    5 more lbs..... :) or :( FML
    AlyceOverTheRainbow AlyceOverTheRainbow 26-30, F May 31, 2011

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    My first time.... I was 10

    and is was summer time. I had just ate some pizza and I was so full....the thought of making mysef sick to relieve the fullness couldn't get out of my head. So I did it, and it was easy. And I haven't stopped yet...sure I can go long periods of time without doing it but it...
    Sheone Sheone 18-21, F 15 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    It's The Only Thing I Can Control In My Life

    My life from the outside was literally, picture perfect for a 17 yr old girl. All girls private school, popular group, hot boyfriend, good grades, happy out going personality - everything I ever wanted. About a year ago it crashed. I lost my friends, boyfriend, I dropped out of...
    anniebean anniebean 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2009

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    I'm Ready To Give Up Now.

    I have tried, I'm not lying, I've really tried. I have told my family, I have been seeing someone, I have cut my ex out of my life (he really doesn't help me feel any less worthless), I have tried doing things I enjoy, I have tried getting out of the house instead of lying in bed...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2012

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    Hanging In There

    I forgot entirely about all the stories I submitted on here, the latest one being in September, until someone posted a comment a few days ago. And I read through all my posts again and realised that I still have a long way to go, but I havent given up yet and thats the important...
    slh544 slh544 18-21, F Mar 9, 2013

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    I Can'T Be Getting it.....Right?

    I have battled depression for a while now and my body image has never been something I liked. I have always had this dislike, this frustration when it comes to my body. I have harmed myself but never done this. This is the third time I've forced myself to throw up in a month...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I Uderatand

    Since I was 16 I have been swinging between, anorexia, bulimia and acohol addiction. It is so scary but I only feel good nwhen at least one of these demons is in playI find it really bad but comforting to function more easily as a bulimic than  to admit that I ...
    lookingglassal lookingglassal 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2008

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    I Feel Like Such A Fraud

    anyone looking from the outside would think my life is pretty good right now. maybe because ive become so good at hiding whats really going on in my life. ive just graduated from uni, got a job, etc etc and i have no reason to be depressed. but i am. im  so miserable. i...
    allybally49 allybally49 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2009

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    Does The Psychiatrist Help?

    i recently told my mother about how i make my self throw up in order to make myself feel better about myself and how i cant stray away from this sadness that now consumes my life. my doctor has directed me towards a nutritionist and psychiatrist. does this help? has anyone gone...
    6688lrs 6688lrs 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    I have been struggling with Bulimia

    and Depression for many years now. The bulimia comes and goes, but its always in the back of my head, its something I really struggle with, however the depression never really goes away. I mean, I have good days, hell I even have great days, but it never goes away for long...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 26-30, F Dec 5, 2013

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    Betray!

    huh....m so deppressed.....i mean what's my fault just 2 fell in love.......ugh..i dn knw....whr did i go wrong......ma best frnd is showning me attitiude....she ditched me like she dn knw me when i seriouxly needed her.......i dn knw 2 trust whom and whom not.......m left wid no...
    sadnesslovesme sadnesslovesme 16-17, F Nov 18, 2011

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    I won't eat anything

    until next year ^^ So i dun hv to purging anymore I want to end this year happily and Start good new year
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Sick And Tired

    My personal experience started in my teenage years when i was told continuously that i was fat by a boyfriend at the time and started to believe it; fast forward 30 years and i still believe it now, although that boyfriend is long gone. I don't know now whether it was that...
    barbarab barbarab 41-45 May 30, 2011

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    Hello I'm New

     Hi everyone, My name is Alex(andra) but I go by Alex. I am 23 and have been a bulimic for six years now. Everyday I wonder what it is that triggered me into becoming a bulimic. It was my first year of university that I started and I guess it's just a coping mechanism for...
    Alex1986 Alex1986 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    Hey if you're suffering with depression please watch this https://youtu.be/4Gp0QIXG4Aw just give it a shot
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M Apr 5

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    I'm feeling so lonely like if I had no one to turn into when I am feeling like this ...I've been battling with depression and anxiety for many years.i have taken many medications...
    irahc irahc 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    It stings in the shower..... And the sad part is you know exactly what I'm talking about (M.r.)
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    All my life I have felt like no one wanted me.. When I was younger than 6, my dad would kick my mom and I out of the house and let us back in and kick us out again all the time...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 8 Responses Mar 31

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    I'm about to go to a dark place. I hate having to think for myself and make decisions. especially when the person who always told me what to do is opposed to my newly found...
    wowstylist wowstylist 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I no longer believe in love, and I realize now that that has been foundational for me for my entire life- and now I feel like a false-storefront, everything looks quite alright...
    nighthouse66 nighthouse66 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    I wonder when I die will I live that care free soul of life or will I be sent to hell Will I be happy when I'm dead
    TheDominantAsian TheDominantAsian 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    .My life threatening battle is Depression. How do I fight depression? Day after day struggling and fighting against something I know nothing about. Every day failing and the...
    NamelessWife NamelessWife 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    my battle against depression is already won . Guess who won. I can say that the battle is lost for me
    AttitudeJulie AttitudeJulie 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    When I was happily married , my depression didn't affect me.........but now that I'm unhappily married my depression has returned.
    jspiscean jspiscean 46-50, M 2 hrs ago

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    I wish I could go back to how things were....times when I could put on that mask; The guy that made people laugh and do what he could to help the people he knew out. That's how I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I've lost everything...i have nothing in this world anymore everyday just gets worse as they come by, my depression is getting bad every day it never leaves and I've got no one to...
    Brokenhearted109 Brokenhearted109 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    With out pain in my life where would I be? As we get older and the pain gets worst, sometimes we may feel that dying would be a better choice. I have found if one just sits around...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 5 hrs ago

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    I'm a very happy person but try to find the passion in things. I know that anxiety and depression is a chemical and hereditary, it can also be controlled by exercise, but my family...
    Porter40 Porter40 41-45, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I have a question for all the people who are depressed "why are the people we know and love and even people we don't tell us all the time it is so easy to defeat this disease, it...
    bonbypop bonbypop 41-45, F 1 hr ago

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    I do not know if anyone reads this, but here are the facts. I walk around every day with so much anger, anxiety and depression. And the facts are that no one cares. As long as you...
    AttitudeJulie AttitudeJulie 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 17

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    Depression is real. Depression attacks our spirit and steals our joy in life. Just getting up or getting dressed in the morning is drudgery. We sleep to avoid the pain of living...
    Jdsuriano Jdsuriano 31-35 1 Response Apr 14

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    Update: I've been taking meds and so far things are going substantially better than they were before (i.e. a few months ago). I can still feel the bad thoughts bubbling beneath...
    Mittons Mittons 18-21 3 Responses Mar 30

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    Ive had it for a year now, and a lot has happened during that time, my weight has been at its lowest as well as its highest, my stomach has stopped digesting food and ive lost so...
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F Mar 30

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    My depression has come and gone multiple times. Mostly I manage to keep myself grounded knowing that I have 4 of the greatest friends I could have ever asked for. Sometimes I just...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M Mar 29

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