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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    I don't understand how this happened.

    How did I come to hate myself so much? How come no one noticed? Why didn't I notice? I feel alone.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Same ****, different day.

    1. Cant get out of bed 2. Cant concentrate at school 3. Cant stop eating 4. Drowsy as **** for no apparent reason 5. Crawl into bed after a failed attempt at writing down my feelings and wish I didnt have to face tomorrow.... Cool lyf
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    Do you ever just feel hollow?

    Like you are sick of feeling things because they always end up hurting you. Even when you try to be strong they just wither away at you until you are nothing but dust. Im not writing this to get a response or to read your comments, Im writing this because it is all I can do to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 20

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    Depression hit me .My world was gone his soul

    was with the universe now . I Almost died . They pumped the pills out of my stomach .
    skylynnrose skylynnrose 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    Today I broke completely

    and had no one there to tell me it was going to be okay. its good I guess because I should know by now its not After work a family member asked me to dinner. I didn't realize they blew me off until 45 minutes later I was still standing in the rain and cold. and saw pictures on...
    SunshineLaura SunshineLaura 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Tommarow March 1st is self injury awareness day.

    Please support by wearing orange clothing, and orange ribbon and drawing a butterfly on your wrist. Spread the word about it! We need to get people more aware of self injury!
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I get so much anxiety it holds me back from a

    lot and I don't like walking alone anywhere
    skylynnrose skylynnrose 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I have been battling Depression

    for a few years now. It's finally gotten to a point where I had to go to therapy when my mother found out. My anxiety is related to social things such as talking or talking in class. It's hard. But I can't complain. Life's a thing I may not get again :)
    CarizmaPanda CarizmaPanda 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11, 2014

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    I know this sounds attention seeking

    and I don't really want that but can someone please talk to me and help me cope? Please ? I know I'm young and it's probably a teenage thing but I really want someone to talk to...please don't message me if your going to be mean about it and say I'm too "young" to be depressed...
    PrincessOfInsanity PrincessOfInsanity 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel completely hopeless.

    So hopeless that I cant get out of bed. For months and months on end I just lay here. I just sleep as a coping mechanism. I wish my life was where I wanted it to be, but im just feeling like I've accomplished nothing, like I have no purpose at all. I spend so much time just...
    MKxoxo MKxoxo 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Anybody have anything

    that helps them cope? Besides self harm I'm trying to stop that I need help anything that helped you?
    Trappedinsadness Trappedinsadness 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    so I wouldnt feel so crappy

    if I knew how to battle stupid bullies better. I havea few in my life. They **** me off so much. Who do they think they are? buncha idiots. To me they are weak. But I just wish they could suffer . Oh well. sigh.
    amtired amtired 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    It is a constant fight to swim against the

    raging current of my mind...but I will keep trying to swim until I drown.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I am over here drowning

    and you just stand there yelling at me to just learn to swim...
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    😢😭 I try to get them to understand.

    But they never can. How can they, if I can't even understand myself. There's no reason at all to be still hurting. To still be sad and in pain. No reason to still cry every night or scream. I don't understand why I am in so much pain. Don't know why it's still there. I don't...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    I'm really struggling.

    I'm 3 days away from being self harm free for 6 months. I'm not sure if I'm going to make it, though. The depression, anxiety, anger, and body image issues are just taking over my life. My therapists and doctors keep telling me that I'm getting better, so they took me off some...
    lizzie0714 lizzie0714 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    I kicked depressions butt with JESUS !

    After many unsuccessful attempts nothing really worked until I prayed and called Jesus for help then my depression cleared within a week and never came back again! Hallelujah praise Jesus !
    ladyrasta ladyrasta 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    There are days when I really regret ending my

    medication, but by the same token; I don't want to be a zombie, either. I wish I had better choices than not to take it and suffer, or take it but be unable to think or feel. I could take the medication again, but I couldn't function in society. I would just gather dust in a...
    DarkestDespair DarkestDespair 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    This is my story so please listen closely.

    I was born a baby boy and everyone was loving and caring. But soon after is where the happiness ends and the sorrow begins. During my childhood I was out of place I was looked down upon in disgrace. I didn't know why I was treated with so much hatred. Why I was consistently...
    zepplinfan117 zepplinfan117 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    I have had depression

    and anxiety for a while now but it hasn't reared its ugly head for a couple years. However after a few months of crappy things happening to me and my family it has hit me like a ton of bricks this time. I broke up with my fiance, he moved out, money issues, my dad had a heart...
    SarahHelen SarahHelen 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21, 2014

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    Decided to celebrate tonight.

    About a month ago, I lost one of my best friends. He's not dead, but our friendship is. I didn't realize what kind of depression I had sunk into due to a combination of that, my deceased girlfriend's birthday, and my recent musical burnout. However, it just couldn't keep me...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 18

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    it just gets worse and worse,

    i used to be able to hide it but i don't even have the energy to hide it anymore or pretend i'm anything else then depressed.. everytime i wake up i feel so depressed,and everytime i fall asleep i feel depressed because i know i'll just wake up here again. i don't want to commit...
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    i hope i will get the balls to commit suicide

    soon enough , don't know how many chances i've given this life.. it always fails me
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    It's come to the point where

    if I don't have any job security in the future, I'm considering taking my own life. It's drastic, but for the best.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 14 Responses 4 days ago

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    So I have been dealing with severe depression

    since the age of four. I have spent years being told , and eventually believing, that I will beat this and live a long and happy life. For the longest time I truly believed all that bullsh*t. Turns out that I was always teetering on the breaking point. When you love someone and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Last night at a family outing to an Enchanted

    Forest, I had at least three major panic attacks because of the huge crowds of people and loud music. I was told to suck it up. Tip ~ Don't tell someone with anxiety to "just get over it". It makes them feel even worse than they did before & it is ******* helpless. -.-
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2014

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    I've always been alone

    and always will be. Everyone leaves me or forgets me sooner or later. I try to help everyone but nobody gets that I'm dying inside. Nobody cares. I'm not important anyway. I don't matter. I'm useless and worthless like my mom used to say. I should have believed her sooner. I'm...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    LostandFading LostandFading 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    i have overcome. just giving my insight here,

    will it help? fear and anxiety is this: suffocating your heart. only 2 things can give relief. love or hate. do not hate people, or you will hurt others and your own heart. eventually become bitter. try to love, . first connect with people by being open. it is hard but...
    limitles limitles 18-21, M 4 days ago