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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I've been getting an hour a night of really

    light sleep for almost a year I'm at wits end I don't know what to do anymore I'm so sleep deprived. I work construction as a welder it's such hard work as it is and without any sleep it's not good guys at work are clowning on me because I'm acting really weird but it's not...
    arthuralferez arthuralferez 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I've lost it. A weird thing happened to my body

    due to medication and I freaked out. Then, I forgot to take my meds and got pulled into a long intensive dream session. It felt so real and nogalistic, I can't stop feeling sad. Not only do I feel like I've lost it, I feel like I've lost something as well.
    MadNocturnes MadNocturnes 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Honestly, it's a lot better then it was,

    normally, people tell me "you're such a happy person" or "you seem so happy, Grace." But I'm really not, it's all an act, to just avoid the typical questions people have to ask, like "why?" Or "what's so wrong with your life?" When really, I don't even know the answers. I've...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21, 2014

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 16 Responses Mar 19

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M Mar 21

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I feel empty, like no one quite understands

    what I am going through. I continuously find myself strapped for words in situations where others take so lightly, but all I think about are the worries, the things that hurt, the opinions of others. Why do I even care what they think? My concentration level has gone out the...
    lostpixie lostpixie 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    You know that point where you slip back into

    that same mindset?You take your medication, you try the techniques they teach you. But then just one thing just resets it back to the core. It's like no one else understand, they do not see the gravity of it all. They do not see how such a 'simple' thing could completely relapse...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    "I know that I'm unlovable.

    You don't have to tell me." The only person who's seen the extent of my pain has run away. And now I'm alone again. With all the demons. My question is can anybody love someone who's been raped and as a result can't function in everyday society. Can anybody love that girl...
    Smithsfan Smithsfan 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I originally posted this

    as a question but decided to share it as a story since it is such a big part of my life. I went to my doctor twice this month for a stabbing pain lower left back and thought had a kidney stone, and I waited several weeks before going to a doctor because I don't like going...
    Ifyouaskme Ifyouaskme 31-35 a week ago

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    I just had a panic attack at two in the morning.

    god i hate this. i don't know what brings this on i was almost asleep than all of a sudden I'm freaking out over nothing and i mean nothing at all. i just started to panic like something was wrong. it makes me think i did something wrong and i just don't know what.
    bw32 bw32 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11, 2014

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    I'm trying my best to move past this.

    I hate myself for making my ma so sad. No matter what whenever she asks me "Baby, is there anything I can do?" I have to tell her no and I see the hurt in her eyes bc all she wants is for me to be okay and happy. I'm neither. I want to be for her but I can't if it's not what I...
    aunaturaleee aunaturaleee 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I feel like I'm fighting something I can't see.

    . My anxiety is through the roof, I'm spiralling down try to stop myself falling - I so need help!
    johnjw johnjw 41-45, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    Scoodaloop Scoodaloop 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    start therapy again today.

    new psychologist. feeling nervous :s
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    With words And facts.

    And hopes. And fears. And worries. And codependancy. And rage. And exercise. And sugar.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I feel so uncomfortable

    and unsteady right now. I have no one to vent too and I'm panicking. A few months before I made this big move my guy put me on with his old friend named "J" ... We clicked right away... and she's really cool and she ended up telling me that her and my guy messed around long ago...
    wannaberain wannaberain 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I thought I was getting better

    after getting off medication but the depression is coming back. I been in therapy and on meds since i was a teen. The medication started Making me Physically sick so i decided to get off of them. At the beginning i felt ok for a couple of months but the it started going down...
    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    why do I feel depressed

    when I'm outside with many people and friends? I feel lonely and like everyone doesn't matter I can only feel the shagness and just get really depressed....
    miumiux miumiux 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Every thought is a battle,

    every breathe is a war, and I don't think I'm winning anymore.
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I lack motivation and energy

    and life is getting ahead of me. I'm out of clothes because I haven't done laundry, I'm out of money because I've called off work so much, and I'm out of time because my homework is due soon and I haven't touched it. I'm so sad and tired all the time, I barely have the energy...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Do not confuse my bad day

    as a sign of weakness because they are the days i am fighting my hardest.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    I forgot to take my medicine this morning.

    It's always surprising how quickly I slip back into depression.
    dartfrogged dartfrogged 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I was very recently diagnosed with anxiety.

    I probably always had it but I really look notice of it last year when I started having panic attacks. I'm on medication now and feel a lot better but it's hard to have to deal with a problem I'm not used to. My depression also flares up from time to time and I know I should see...
    Catherdra Catherdra 22-25, F 1 Response