I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see'
that life moves forward with or without you
that connections with others are temporary and
abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings.
This kind of truth has implications....
I have no idea how to move on or what to do anymore. I have to try to hide my feelings because my oldest daughter is taking the loss so hard, and is blaming herself for it. She was self harming till recently, and is now seeing a therapist. My other daughter is trying to stay...
and anxiety "feels" like to people who've never experienced it. No words could do it justice. The closest description I've ever heard was that "It's like drowning. Except you can see everyone around you breathing."
I woke up feeling a little less tired and beaten. I don't think I cried once all day nor thought about suicide. Better. Still I'm struggling. But feeling like I have a little more fight in me. But women. I don't know. I want them, and hate myself for wanting. "I don't deserve it...
How to locate cures.
By more than one boo hoo bear.
So to clarify.
What causes sad or happy.
Feeling good enough.
So how to get there comes.
Society is a greedy...
You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
So that we work
The whole time helping a few
Buy and control everything
Without curing anything.
It makes me mad
Because it makes no sense.
Why is that life.
How is that admirable
By has beens.
And a huge club.
With wealth backing it.
Fight looked good.
Ded by kop.
But then my inner sage spoke.
How will that affect pals.
And unknown peers
Who fit like pals.
It would wreck us all...
for depression and we had a few sessions together. They went okay for the most part. He would mostly ask questions about my family rather than me. I do not know if that was normal. He eventually told me to stop coming because he felt that "I was fine".... I'm not fine. I still...
Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days.
In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
One that I find kind of amusing and sobering all at the same time is this.
When I'm having a conversation with someone- mostly noticed this with my brother and boyfriend, if there is a pause in the conversation, can literally just be for a few seconds I will...
Loneliness. That's the life I'm living.
Abandoned. Cold. Empty. Crying.
That's how I'm feeling.
Alone at 13. Used and abused.
Taken in. Told I'm loved. Then left again.
Not once but twice.
Left again to be used, abused &
forgotten by all.
No family. No friends. No one...
a bad situation. Depression/mental illness in general is like being trapped in a elevator lined with mirrors. You can only see yourself and your situation. It seems there is no way out. Yet, there is a way, through medication and therapy. It's up to the person to get help, you...
For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
Traditions that have created crime.
But a view like mine gets sedated.
Because if we cared more about unity.
Would lose power.
And they wont permit that.
Without bombing way...
I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
He says he is there for me but I can't talk to him about the one thing that feels like it's burying me alive. My depression and GAD. I also have lupus which comes with a host of its own bs and physical conditions. I talk to no one around me about any of that. My best friend...
or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
it with being sad, or unhappy. But I'm not unhappy. There's just so much emotional and physical pain inside me that nobody can see. Most days it's bearable, but sometimes it's more than I can take. Anyone who's ever felt any kind of pain knows its power. Pain can consume you...
who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
Listing pains on ep that faded.
Making net pals.
Eye candy at stores.
and I'm not going to worry about people judging me in the way I overcome obstacles. I know that I can do anything I set my mind to and it's not going to kill me to be stronger. Besides, I'm like, the silliest person on earth.
for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
in their feed ... I'm not ignoring you. I'm kinda overwhelmed at work and at home. I want to write some long messages but I never feel I have enough time to write them properly, so I don't. I hope you understand.
that I feel so hopeless. Just sitting there existing aggravates me. Everything irritates me. I'm angry at day. I'm crying at night. The only time I forgot is when I'm at the park swinging on the swings while listening to music. Drugs, Alcohol, Self-Harm, and Sex. There tempting...
for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive.
I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know… I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time. I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
Went to meet case manager early.
To calm fears.
A rehab worker came.
To say my worker was at lunch.
The rehab biped went frosty on me.
But me tolerated what me could.
And went back later.
To meet my worker.
Who seemed truly...