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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    “You just do it. You force yourself to get up.

    You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and God damn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way.” ― Elizabeth Taylor
    LipstickShield LipstickShield 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    When you are letting yourself feel trapped by

    your current situations, you really are putting your self at risk to an even more dangerous predictement. Your never trapped, that is merely just an illusion in your mind. It was a hard lesson for me to learn myself. I was in a relationship with my ex boyfriend for over 3...
    justkeepswimming89 justkeepswimming89 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 23

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 4 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 6

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    Why is it when things are looking to be going

    up it goes straight back ******* down the way
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 23

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    I feel my life has no meaning.

    I feel lonely and want to die. I find no support from my wife and I'm loosing my kids
    sad67 sad67 41-45 7 Responses a week ago

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    Mini Life Story: A Little Depressing Perhaps Since I Missed Out The Nice Parts But Share Your Experiences And Advice?

    When I was 11 my mother died to suicide and apparently it was due to schizophrenia, I had a hard time as kid coping with it because no one told me what it was and what was going on with my mum. I knew it had been happening but she had medications to deal with it and so while I...
    WishingonashootingStar WishingonashootingStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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    I'm going through depression like many others

    and I wanna recover, but I don't wanna visit the psychiatrist. Does anyone here who has been through it know what the treatment is like?
    KaiWong KaiWong 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses May 8

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    Yes been there, fought it

    and still do. I have to be aware and manage myself and my energy. I find it sad that there are so many people out there that have some form or degree of depression and or anxiety. It's really not a very nice thing to have in life and is extremely difficult and excruciatingly...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    This is the first time

    that I have ever posted anything on EP. I get anxious sharing my feelings, and very rarely open up to people, which is why I like to read the posts on here, but never actually write my own. But now I have to share my feelings with someone because I don't know what to do with...
    freyy freyy 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 11

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 18

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 4

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    Depression is like a war.

    You either win, or die trying.
    calliejacobs97 calliejacobs97 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Had a good weekend even

    though I experienced a few anxiety attacks. Maybe things are looking up.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I got fired again (3rd time in 5 years) this

    past June. So many of the jobs open in my field (librarian) are at places I've already applied. I am trying to look into what else I can do, but right now I'm feeling the rejection all over again. I thought I was over what happened in June and I'd come to terms with it. But...
    greensapphire greensapphire 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    I created a MOOD BOOSTER!

    For £5 you can PDF of 10 interesting ways to boost your mood in under 3 mins each! With 3 BONUS Meditations! www.personaldevelopmentguru.weebly.com/my-toolkit (if you are a fan of law of attraction I use this to aid LOA) Much love :)
    LOAcoach LOAcoach 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Looking at the coffin Of my dead great

    uncle Wishing I was the one in there Because of all the selfish reasons of my wanting to die I couldn't even mourn you I'm sorry and I loved you I was too selfish thinking about my own self hatred Now you are gone and I have lost another chance To know how much one person can...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Aug 24

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    Depression is slowly,

    silently crushing me.
    poeticesoteric poeticesoteric 46-50, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    First day in my Sophomore year of college.

    Of course, it being the first day, we all have to introduce ourselves and give a 'fun' fact about us. In my mind I'm like "oh nooo, please not this again". I don't know anyone in class and it's a community college ergo small classes, I should be feeling comfortable but I...
    yourpetmuzzie yourpetmuzzie 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm depressed and suicidal

    and no one knows
    thefeels21 thefeels21 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm tired of sayin I'm good

    when I'm not. Smiling when im hurting. An involuntary pain. I can't work because I'm afraid I'm going to have an episode again and lose it. I'm always socially withdrawn and when I do come around folks, I automatically wanna isolate. This disorder is hell. It makes you think the...
    troubledflight troubledflight 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Snake Kiss.

    Here I am all alone I'm tired of waiting I'm tired of hoping So now I play with the rattlesnake. I twirl him around until he's mad Then he sinks his fangs deep into my veins That's when you come When its too late And I'm too far gone I hear your soft cries As I slowly die I...
    TwistedOak TwistedOak 13-15, F 1 Response May 23, 2013

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    "Why?" He asks me... And I curl up on the bed

    trying to contain all the pain I feel inside. I reply, "No reason... I'm just tired..." Because why is a question I don't have an answer to. I feel so alone right now because nobody around me understands. No more questions please, just let me lay here as my tears soak the pillow...
    Calsi704 Calsi704 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I try not to think of my anxiety's

    and illness as an enemy or something I need to defeat. I see a tar black cloud shimmering of gray inside just there stirring up chaos and pain. And I'm like will it ever pass? This storm makes me feel like me and everything is worthless. It diminishes all of my life.
    troubledflight troubledflight 22-25, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    People think depression is sadness & Emptiness .

    People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black sea .But people are sometime wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, feelings , being numb to smile , being numb to survive . You wake up in the morning just...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 3 Responses May 26

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    Dazzer2K Dazzer2K 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have been to the hospital multiple times

    for suicide attempts, I have self harmed, and I have anxiety/panic attacks a lot, mostly when I'm in big groups of people ._.
    andybiercats andybiercats 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Depression is when you don’t really care

    about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much and over think everything. Having both is hell.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    It gets so frustrating being on

    such a constant roller coaster. I feel like I spend a lot of time wondering when the next thing will hit and send me careening off of this cliff that I've just barely managed to climb on to in the first place. They don't understand and they can't because they don't feel it. I...
    cartmanlover cartmanlover 18-21 Jun 10

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    I am calm and apathetic.

    I don't get angry very often. I'm mostly just sad and understanding. Otherwise I am tired and irritated. Then, I have random spikes of anxiety and paranoia once a month. I'm like the maniacally depressed robot from "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy", but I don't talk about...
    Apirne Apirne 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    muerterotica muerterotica 18-21, F a week ago

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    Patience - April 6

    How sick and tired we may become of people telling us to be patient or to learn patience. How frustrating it can be to want to finally have something, or to move forward, and then not have that happen. How irritating to have someone tell us to wait while our needs have not been...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    Why can't i just get it together.

    I am sick of being broken. But i feel like i am stuck. I can't seem to go forwards and i am scared to go backwards. i Should be stronger than this. why can't i be stronger than this?
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I have suffered with depression an anxiety

    for the better part of my life. I grew up with a mentally ill mother. I know what it's like to be suicidal, to have a plan to end it all. To gather what I needed to carry out that plan. I gave my life to Jesus over 20 years ago, but I have still struggled at times. I go to...
    married1987 married1987 41-45, F a week ago

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    Last year I went down hill fast with my

    depression and relied a lot on alcohol and didn't tell anyone how I felt. I made stupid choices while I drank and after suppressing all that for over a year it hurts more than ever and I have to find ways to deal with it. I'm happy to say I can stay sober now but the anxiety...
    Marie240 Marie240 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I've noticed signs that my depression is

    getting worse again. I did counseling last year then stopped because I thought I got better. Now I tried anti-depressants and I still have meltdowns and very painful anxiety sometimes, I've been wanting to go back to counseling for weeks but can't get the courage to do it, I...
    Marie240 Marie240 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I hate it when people think

    that I'm joking or not being serious when I say something like this, or say that I'm just doing it for attention or anything like that. **** them! Everything I do isn't for attention, I don't hurt myself for attention I do it to take my mind off worse things in my life...
    lexigreen lexigreen 18-21, F 12 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I was only diagnosed 2 months ago.

    I am seeing a new psychologist tomorrow. I am so nervous. It was hard enough to admit the first time. I know i need help. But i feel like i should of been better. i keep hating myself for being weak. I read all your stories. I have seen what others have gone through. I come from...
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My family had a a lil kickback today it was

    very pleasant other than fact now I'm always feeling more pain than joy. Mental illness takes away everything. You have no choice but to feel so numb and disclosed I hate it so much. I want my feelings back, I'm so numb. I used to be eccentric and social. Now I'm a hermit...
    troubledflight troubledflight 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 20 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I Decided To Get Help...

    Well, everything was just getting to me too much. I have been a mess with marital problems, money problems and concern over my future and my children's future. I totally feel like my life is out of my hands and I have no say. These I believe are all valid reasons to be depressed...
    blissfulmiss blissfulmiss 36-40, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2012

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    Well I've read this post back to see

    where I am now and I feel it reads like it wasn't me. However, I did write it. Thankfully, this darkness is now filled with light, fun and laughter. More so with my children especially when they have hysterical laughter from things we do together :-). God it's good to be back...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 2 Responses May 19

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    I Won't Give Up This Battle!

    I agree with 'Don't give up Hope' because it may take awhile before finding the right doctor and/or medication of even lifestyle/diet change.  Vitamins help quite often, and exercise if you are able to talk yourself into moving. Ha.  I was on serotonin type meds for...
    amethyst amethyst 46-50, F 14 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    I'm not having a good day.

    So much is wrong in my life. I was supposed to go today to fill out the paperwork to start collection of back child support I'm owed. My truck is broke down and I don't have the money to get it fixed. I was going to borrow my Mother's car. Well it won't start. So now none of us...
    cinch cinch 46-50, F 6 days ago

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    IT´S BACK

    There was a blues festival in my town this week. My daughter posted all the dates for the concerts on our refrigerator door just to make sure we wouldn´t miss any of the shows. She is 12.  She loves blues, jazz and classical music.  Of course, she loves pop and modern songs...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 1, 2011

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