Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Battle Depression and Anxiety

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 21,555 People

    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I suffered depression

    for about 2 years, which according to my doctor was about normal. I still battle anxiety on the whole but I think it will get easier. My battle with depression lead me to an odd realization. It's something I think I have always known on some level, but never appreciated. What I...
    MayaKing MayaKing 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Solutions vary. Some get old.

    Or we get stupid and stop them. Or we want better like moronic abusers. But. Sad to happy path. http://youtu.be/UtBsl3j0YRQ Try busy. EP Link Antisad. http://youtu.be/5cysPPnZEhM Good enough EP Link Coping skill. http://youtu.be/l50L4GYhpLc
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ok. I stopped cutting in fifth grade.

    I'm in seventh grade now and everything should feel better. I stopped because I got yelled at by my parents. And I don't have the urge to anymore. I'm just lonely... I don't have a best friend. I have three friends and I can't talk to them about "this stuff". And I had a best...
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My parents always say "when she's on the

    internet she is in her own little world". A good world, a happy world, a better world. I have no real friends. As soon as I step away from that keyboard I'm... nobody.
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I hate this ****. I'm too depressed to be happy,

    I'm too scared to leave my house. Medicine won't help. And... My mom is thinking of moving. The problem is, we're moving to what used to be my dream house and dream property. But I don't want to go. I just want to stay here in this house forever without having to deal with...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

    Your Response

    Cancel

    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Laying here crying, trying not to wake him.

    **** this, I'm so over this ****. I wanna scream at the top of my lungs! "Why, God? Why do I feel this way? Why is it hard work for me just to appear to be 'normal'??" 😥😩😫 It's getting too exhausting and I'm past my breaking point, yet I'm still here. Next week I start...
    Hope1198 Hope1198 26-30, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I really don't wanna go to work today.

    . It's gonna be packed n I'm depressed as ****.. Sigh.. Broke up with cheating scumbag this morning and everything just sucks.. I'll try to smile n make jokes, as I do, to try n cover up my torment but I jus wanna win the lottery n move to iceland...
    N1n74 N1n74 22-25, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 14

    Your Response

    Cancel

    No loving. No sanctuary.

    No societal cures for the poor. No cures at all. Wealth owns all. And wont care. Because that shrinks wealth. They act caring to deny not caring. But then amp up the torment. Why breathe. Hope that they change. And helping peers cope. To change society...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Advice on rebuilding.

    Love you first to locate love. EP Link The barriers. EP Link Carlin knew. http://youtu.be/rsL6mKxtOlQ Societys flaw. EP Link Dont believe those who bark unless they teach better. EP Link Try for living happy. EP Link Smile to try happy. http...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The only way I can clear my mind besides

    telling someone everything and getting well thought out advice is to ride. As weird as it sounds, I do everything within that helmet of mine. Everything from singing to even shedding a tear when my mind is so phucked that I can't think straight.
    camcam1144 camcam1144 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Guys... Any advice? I don't

    even know where to start, I guess it's like most people, feeling worthless... Stupid... I get ups and downs but I have a constant pathetic fear of my boyfriend falling in love with someone else and I just feel ****. I was never like this before in any relationship. I don't...
    KoalaMars KoalaMars 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him. We're comfortable with each other. Dare I say we're friends? He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something, he is there, whispering in my ear. He...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 27

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    You asked, what is the scariest part?

    I answered' the scariest part is not the feeling if loneliness, or the darkness that fills you, despite the looming pain of emptiness. The scariest part is the realization that you have lost yourself completely sinking in as you lay awake at 2am because you lost the ability to...
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I got my depression from sexual assault

    and from being bullied most of my childhood. I wish i could take beta blockers
    IntrovertLyssa IntrovertLyssa 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel

    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    We can be useful and locate happy.

    Take photos. Post photos. Lol. Research healing. Volunteer to help poor. Check neighbors who need yard help. Check animal shelters. Check senior centers. Check churches. Get gloves and collect trash. Do art. Photograph art. Post that. Lol...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 23

    Your Response

    Cancel

    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    How. Many ways. Love you first to locate

    love. EP Link The barriers. EP Link Carlin knew. http://youtu.be/rsL6mKxtOlQ Societys flaw. EP Link Dont believe those who bark unless they teach better. EP Link Try for living happy. EP Link Smile to try happy. http://youtu.be/5cysPPnZEhM Never...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I kicked depressions butt with JESUS !

    After many unsuccessful attempts nothing really worked until I prayed and called Jesus for help then my depression cleared within a week and never came back again! Hallelujah praise Jesus !
    ladyrasta ladyrasta 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 25

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I thought I should let you guys know

    that I'm taking a stand for all of us that suffer from severe anxiety and depression and all other mental health issues that make life debilitating. HAVING THIS IS A DISEASE AND ITS ******* AWFUL AND LIKE CANCER IT TAKES LIVES TOO. PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT HOW BAD...
    alaskamxriee alaskamxriee 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sleepless nights. Dreary days.

    Another voice who controls my ways. Hopeless shouts. Helpless tears. SHE who gives me crazy fears. Arguments in my head. Between me and HER So much is said. Too much fighting. And Not enough strength. SHE is gaining power. I'm losing my faith. SHE wants me me do things...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F Apr 24

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I think so. Just shared it here on my blog

    energymustmove.wordpress.com
    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Honestly, my depression

    and anxiety are both trying to kill me, even while on meds. Its like, it gets better, then i go to school and I'm back to being a mess. Social anxiety much?
    dusk1234546 dusk1234546 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I take things way too hard.

    Every time that I embarrass myself or do something wrong I freak out and reach for my drawer.(where I have several razor blades hidden) I have to hold one against my skin for me to feel better. I used to take a large mixture of my dad's pills to make myself feel better...
    mayanaise mayanaise 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Self sabotaging is all I do.

    And once again, my mother feels ready to kick me out. I've been down this road so many times. I just don't know what to do.
    MadNocturnes MadNocturnes 18-21, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel