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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I use to do ballet. The teacher was not nice

    but when I did ballet I felt free from life situations. I was able to express my self threw my classical ballet . it was a way of easing my depression.
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I'm so fed up with feeling like this.

    I just want everything to be over.
    fruitb4t fruitb4t 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i keep getting "stuck" physically,

    moving from room to room. A suffocating energy is taking over my body and mind. My chest is clinching up and i cant breathe. Im stuck in the past now with no direction forward.
    jaywabz jaywabz 22-25, M 2 Responses May 20

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 4 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Sometimes i wish i could run away somewhere

    beautiful and start all over.
    TasiaMedina TasiaMedina 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I just found out I got an F on my midterm

    and I'm feeling completely hopeless right now. I don't know who to talk to because I can't even tell my parents even though I tell them almost everything. I feel like I committed a sin and I don't know if I'll be forgiven.
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo 18-21 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Haven't spoken to my parents

    since Feb... It does kill me everyday and I hate that I'm not talking to them because I'm usually clung on... But I got so tired of them hurting me and bottling it up that it's all just there sitting in my mind that whenever I want to talk to them I just get angry. I feel...
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    what always helps me

    whether i'm deeply depressed or crazily anxious is looking at fish (and i think there's a scientific reason behind it?). if you can, keep an aquarium! if you can't, there are plenty of websites and apps that let you look at fish! (my fave is aquarium live hd for ios!) it really...
    kinkystapler kinkystapler 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I feel like everyone wants something from me.

    I try really hard to give it. Whatever I think they want. I'm pretty positive most of the time. Nobody that knows me would think depressed .. But sometimes i get overwhelmed or im just tired or whatever I feel like I have nothing to give, instead of telling some one I shut down...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 4 Responses May 14

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I love being at home in my Room

    where I safe. Just me by myself all safe and ****
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Depression is when you can't feel anything at

    all. Anxiety is when you feel too much. Having both means there's a constant war within me. Having both means I'll never win.
    amw121112 amw121112 26-30, F 2 Responses May 16

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    How can you tell your parents you need mental

    help without them laughing at you?
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    So I finally got a new job!

    ! After two years and settling for only a part time position for the past 8 months, I finally got a full time position! My anxiety has been horrible for two years due to the financial strain and I was unfortunate to get a boss in my part time position that took people for granted...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 6 Responses May 19

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    I hate trying to describe what depression

    and anxiety "feels" like to people who've never experienced it. No words could do it justice. The closest description I've ever heard was that "It's like drowning. Except you can see everyone around you breathing."
    nobody62442 nobody62442 22-25, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I've been stuck in the same rut

    for over 3 years now. Every day there's another weight added to my shoulders, another anxiety to add to a never ending list. More recently, I've been struggling to remember anything. I've begun switching off completely and just going through the days routine. I'm regularly asked...
    dodgethebullet dodgethebullet 18-21, F 4 Responses May 18

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    I've always had a bad body image,

    I suppose it's what comes with watching your overweight mother get called a cow frequently throughout your childhood. It's time to for me to grow out of it. It's time for me to look at myself honestly. Really, all of my posts are to myself. Every one of my replies to your...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I woke up with anxiety again.

    I am getting so tried of it. sometimes I feel like giving up. I just feel sad today, I am tried of waking up with anxiety or my bipolar acting up. Today is not a good day.
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 1 Response May 19

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    I tell everyone to be strong,

    knowing I am the weakest person in the world.
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 14 hrs ago

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    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    So much hurt. So much agony.

    But I'm laughing really of my foolishness. He lied. He lied to me. Well perhaps he never told me the whole truth. And here I am.... Feeling bad for being angry with him. Why? I deserve to be angry right? He hid things from me.... But I'm the one who feels bad for getting angry...
    TheWestlifer TheWestlifer 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I honestly feel really crappy.

    My depression and anxiety is acting up and just I feel like ultimate ****.
    xfallingstarx xfallingstarx 13-15, F 1 Response May 15

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    My days get no better,

    Feels like they get worse and worse And the more I fake a smile the more I fake happy The more this urge of wanting to die eats away at me inside I'm ready to go I know it's my time I have no purpose And that is fine Suicidal and destructive ~Blasian Alien
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 1 Response May 13

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    Those days where you wish the world would just

    disappear. Is five minutes of happiness and the ability to relax too much to ask for?
    shyguy38 shyguy38 18-21, M 1 Response May 15

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    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Someone please tell me how to be happy again.

    Please :( I'm so tired of trying and getting nowhere.
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 5 Responses May 18

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