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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    So I go in to get my monthly dosage.

    .. the whole gambit of the cocktail prescribed by this doctor and that. (all with a different set of initials following their name) The pharmacist was rather rude, and it took about 35 seconds of this rudeness to **** me off to the point where I started to get that.... hmmm...
    JesseLeeJames JesseLeeJames 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 10

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Summerandroses Summerandroses 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Im not running anymore,

    and I'm not going to bury my troubles while pretending they don't exist... I am depressed and I suffer from it every single day. I can't do anything without thinking about what depresses me. My life is ruled by the thought of one person that was once apart of my life and I have...
    Suddanlius Suddanlius 22-25, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Yesterday was the most scary

    and traumatizing experience I've ever been through. Due to alarming words I had said to my counselor she had to report me to the hospital and have admitted. And that's the day I realized that Mental Help is NOT help. They make you feel like you've lost your mind and it scars you...
    heyitsalysia heyitsalysia 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    Lately things have really sucked.

    It is getting harder for me to stay positive and be the good person I want to be. I also started to scratch when I get anxious and am covered in scratch marks. Because of this I have started wearing my jacket more to cover up the marks and people are asking questions I don't...
    mickyhoney mickyhoney 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't know what to say,

    tonight before putting my children to bed I thought about calmly putting them to bed climbing into the bathtub and ending my life. I have a letter written to my wife in my head, but that was what stopped me from doing it. Not the words that I would leave my wife reading as she...
    bestofyou bestofyou 26-30, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I love what this picture has to say.

    It's good motivation to help gain positivity in your life.
    Bird488 Bird488 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 3

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    As it's the only subject

    that I'm unable to put words to.. I shall just leave this here..
    JaneBloodyAusten JaneBloodyAusten 31-35, F 11 Responses Sep 1

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses 4 days ago

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    I really wanted to enjoy my day off,

    but it's been a constant struggle. What's ahead and unknown to me at this point is what is causing my mind so much torment. I was actually feeling really good earlier, but that unsettling feeling was in the back of my mind even then. I just want to return to times when I knew...
    pinderal pinderal 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 11

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    the last few days ive been avoiding the dark

    void.... I can feel its energy sucking me in...... im trying so hard not to give in... its so overwhelming the sadness and hurt I feel..... to feel so lost and yet feel so broken...... the insomnia is like torture... yet I am exhausted but my mind wont switch off...... my...
    femmeme femmeme 36-40, F 6 Responses Nov 7

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    I stopped taking my medication.

    ..again. It just doesn't seem to do anything for me. I am on the highest dosage they can put me on and have changed medications twice. I am done having people evaluate me and try and figure out why I am so ****** up. I talked to a counselor and told her that I felt like I was...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21

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    I feel like people think they can walk all over

    me now I have to kids an have tried to change my old ways
    Amanda724 Amanda724 22-25 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    So for the first time in a very very long time

    i felt myself and i felt upbeat about everything my outlook was positive and id come out of my introverted shell but now as its reaching what nearly 11pm as im typing this and my head has done a 180, what motivated me this morning isnt working and ive plummeted into this same...
    Lathor Lathor 22-25, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 22 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I haven't ever said it on here

    but I did try to.. Well... I don't want to say the word. But I tried to die. I took a bunch of my stomach pills and some Tylenol I keep with me for just in case reasons. But anyway, it didn't work. I just slept a lot and got a headache and dizzy. It's been a few weeks since then...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 13

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 5 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Same ****, different day.

    1. Cant get out of bed 2. Cant concentrate at school 3. Cant stop eating 4. Drowsy as **** for no apparent reason 5. Crawl into bed after a failed attempt at writing down my feelings and wish I didnt have to face tomorrow.... Cool lyf
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 29

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    I smoke for my anxiety .

    .........anyone else have any secret remideies camomile ???
    Amanda724 Amanda724 22-25 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Yes been there, fought it

    and still do. I have to be aware and manage myself and my energy. I find it sad that there are so many people out there that have some form or degree of depression and or anxiety. It's really not a very nice thing to have in life and is extremely difficult and excruciatingly...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy.

    I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my depression and anxiety led to a suicide attempt that landed me in the HOSPITAL. After being out of school for so long since I was in the hospital I...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    When lovingly was once the way we were raised

    and With true morals is how we were taught, Where honesty was valued above a summed GPA, And learning life skills is what made us strong. When curiosity did not kill the cat, Nor troubled the ones who not know Where irrelevance did not exist to us, And all that was spoken or...
    CarlyOnline CarlyOnline 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 28

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Depression is when you don’t really care

    about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much and over think everything. Having both is hell.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 4

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11

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    It's so hard to be happy

    when you feeling so down people's words shouldn't make you feel This way but they do and when it happens makes ya mind go around a hundred miles an hour thinking so Many things god it's so hard to be yourself hate the way I'm Feeling just want to be normal
    cinnie67 cinnie67 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    I just had an anxiety attack.

    I feel like I'm falling into this huge pit of darkness, that I can't get out. That I will never get out of. I just don't know how to walk with things anymore. I have too much pressure being put down on me. I'm so depressed, stressed, and I'm being put with too much pressure...
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Well I've read this post back to see

    where I am now and I feel it reads like it wasn't me. However, I did write it. Thankfully, this darkness is now filled with light, fun and laughter. More so with my children especially when they have hysterical laughter from things we do together :-). God it's good to be back...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 2 Responses May 19

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    So even though the big reason

    for my depression has kinda left for some reason i still feel sad. I still feel empty. i still cry myself to sleep at night. There are still days when i feel like nothing matters. That all i want to do is lay down and cry. sometimes i feel like im going to explode. Like i just...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So I am finding it very hard to keep it

    together. I have done counseling of every kind for of the tourching that my life has experienced. I have been out of that hell of a life for over 28 years now. No one raping me, beating me, cutting, burning, or prostituting me out, no drugs forced in me, no starvation...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 11

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    Everyday is a struggle

    for me; a struggle to maintain any sort of happiness I can muster, and then hold onto until I rest at the end of the day. Life is so hard to bare now a days, and its the little things like tea, and the rare moments I share with my friend and family that help keep me going. I don...
    Suddanlius Suddanlius 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 13

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    People think depression is sadness & Emptiness .

    People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black sea .But people are sometime wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, feelings , being numb to smile , being numb to survive . You wake up in the morning just...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 3 Responses May 26

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    My mind is my enemy. It has stolen from me

    and left me less than whole. It has taken joy, love, confidence and clarity; leaving only fear and self doubt. Where I sought out the new and different I now avoid it. Things I once loved and enjoyed sharing with others now only happen when I'm alone. I want those parts that...
    phoenix924 phoenix924 36-40 2 Responses Nov 14

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    it's been a long day

    and I'm just ready to crawl into bed and go to sleep.
    amandapandakins amandapandakins 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13

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    Shoved my fingers down my throat

    and faked being sick today. I just can't imagine walking around school like everything is fine. Just don't have the energy to pretend. I feel like if I'm around too many people I'll panic.
    UnderworldNymph UnderworldNymph 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I used to be very worry-free,

    but recently I think I have problems. I'm worried about my health, I have sleeping problems and my college is at the worst it's ever been (my kind of hell). I cry at night.. I think I'm becoming so miserable. No one cares about my feelings, even my mom.
    ladolce ladolce 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 6

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15

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    Couldn't find it in myself to

    even go to work today!
    Danny030388 Danny030388 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I feel like my heart is shrinking

    and I feel like I have lost hope and confidence in myself. I don't feel happy, and that is what bothers me the most.
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo 18-21 3 days ago

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