I want someone to talk to and I feel like this is eating me alive. BUT I have two issues that is keeping me from seeking help, myself and my parents.
I am afraid to go a therapist because I remember I have had two mini experiences. The first when I was 13 or 14 my family was...
and anxiety for years. It's gotten to a point where my medicine is just a side affect. The doctors suggest that I go to a center but my mom doesn't think it's the right thing. I've thought about suicide too many times to count and almost went through at school but then the...
I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
He wanted examples of why I thought I needed a change in meds, I gave him a couple things, and then said "I know there's other stuff but I can't think of it now." To which he replied "Like focus and concentration?" That was good for a laugh.
So, adding a new med on top of...
in their feed ... I'm not ignoring you. I'm kinda overwhelmed at work and at home. I want to write some long messages but I never feel I have enough time to write them properly, so I don't. I hope you understand.
My mind attacks.
So a book is needed.
Seroquel legally relabelled.
To be given to more people.
Even those not psychotic.
It causes heart attacks too.
And me smokes.
Pill makers help smoke makers.
And both industries...
where I'm not quite sure what I'm doing. I'm not sure where I'm going with my life, or if I even want to go anywhere with it. It's an overwhelming urge to curl up in bed under the covers and never leave. I feel so useless but that's all okay. That's what I'm starting to realise...
1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress.
2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others.
3. Achievements and titles...
I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see'
that life moves forward with or without you
that connections with others are temporary and
abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings.
This kind of truth has implications....
for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
I told my mother. I opened up to her.
"Mom. I open my eyes each day, and there is nothing I look forward to. I just lay in bed, thinking, not anther day... why am I awake?... Mom... I just want to open my eyes every morning and smile first thing, and be glad I'm...
Phone was on youtube.
Finger started video.
On depression rare.
And possibly enlightenment.
But what if depressed are truthful.
Society is fubar.
And the profiteers rule.
They say chemical imbalance.
Saints get wrecked
In a society led wrong.
The wealthy love that.
Because they bought everything.
And made society their soap opera.
Like in the movie gamer.
And the hunger games series.
Policed by peers...
can do it anymore
I'm to afraid to die and to afraid to live
I feel ashamed of myself
I don't know were things went wrong
I don't know if I have the strength to change
I have hung my head since I was a little kid
I am ashamed of the person I have become
I don't know were to go...
Morons thinking computer is ep.
Morons saying get a job.
Morons saying spell better.
Morons saying take meds.
Me sees them as clueless.
But some nights that dont erase pain.
Caused by those pinheaded foks.
I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
I know I can keep with what I said I'd do but.. I guess it is my way of showing respect for the people I love, respect they can make their own decisions, respect they need their own time to do so (without me on top of things monitoring, I sound like a control freak, maybe I am...
for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
Alone. Surrounded by people, but alone. Alone inside my head. Peace, gone. She has forsaken me. Will He forsake me too. My only comfort. No strength to call out to Him, only defening silence. Sprawled out in pain. Black heart on display. Dreanched in tears. The summation of fear...
You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days.
In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
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Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
I don't have any one close to me at all and the few people I made friends with on here disappeared when my app crashed and wouldn't let me long back in. I have since made a new account. But I'm so lost and lonely and crying out for friendship with people. I feel so low and...
Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive.
I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
Can rattle us often
And rob us of motivation
Which leads to homeless
And for the caring
That can cause rage
Even if a mentally gifted minor
What causes this.
We are oppressed.
The wealthy bought...
and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
I feel like I'm so different from everyone and that I'm not right, like there's something completely wrong from me. I don't understand it and I wish the feelings would go away. I just wanna fit in and be normal.
fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...