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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I feel like I am going crazy.

    I don't have any one close to me at all and the few people I made friends with on here disappeared when my app crashed and wouldn't let me long back in. I have since made a new account. But I'm so lost and lonely and crying out for friendship with people. I feel so low and...
    Issima Issima 31-35, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Why do people assume we are ok.

    Morons thinking computer is ep. Morons saying get a job. Morons saying spell better. Morons saying take meds. Me sees them as clueless. But some nights that dont erase pain. Caused by those pinheaded foks.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I hate meds so I avoid

    when I can, doctors can't really do anything for my depression, they can cover it up here and there, but it is like putting a bandage on when someone has been disemboweled. my anxiety is part of my ADHD, and I've already tried meds for that, they didn't help. so I live one day...
    Azureal Azureal 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Why is so f* difficult sometimes?

    I know I can keep with what I said I'd do but.. I guess it is my way of showing respect for the people I love, respect they can make their own decisions, respect they need their own time to do so (without me on top of things monitoring, I sound like a control freak, maybe I am...
    valeMar valeMar 41-45 5 days ago

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    I suffer from depression

    and anxiety. Living day to day can be a struggle and yes, I'm taking my psych. meds and going to counselling on a regular basis. The thing that bothers and saddens me is other people's stigma towards me and my disorders. I have lost many family and friends because of things I...
    FunkyFerdman FunkyFerdman 51-55, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I can't tell if I just want attention

    or if I'm really suffering. I hate myself and my brain and I just want these thoughts to stop.
    saaadcutiex3 saaadcutiex3 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    Thanks seroquel. From non psychotic to

    ranting. From sad to lethal. Fokurz. Why legally relabel it. Oh right. You fokurz need wealth.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    I bet you're the prettiest at 12 AM,

    When you're scared And sad, And you just need someone, This is when you're prettiest, Because it's when you're the most honest.
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    I think I'm done pretending I'm okay.

    I'm not. Every night I cry myself to sleep. Every morning I have to push to get up. Just to go through my day doing the minimal work. I'm not okay. My depression is ruining me from the inside out.
    wtfdaysi wtfdaysi 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 29

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I feel like I'm so different from everyone and that I'm not right, like there's something completely wrong from me. I don't understand it and I wish the feelings would go away. I just wanna fit in and be normal.
    steal11 steal11 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 4 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Homeless bites. Bullied bites.

    Wrecked by meds bites. Medical tests not matching bites. Barked at for advising on ep bites. Barked at for replying to posts bites. Luckily i helped people. My whole fokyn life. And some helped back. Or just helped Like pink Who says done looking for...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 19 hrs ago

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I really want to see a therapist.

    I want someone to talk to and I feel like this is eating me alive. BUT I have two issues that is keeping me from seeking help, myself and my parents. I am afraid to go a therapist because I remember I have had two mini experiences. The first when I was 13 or 14 my family was...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    When i log off of ep.

    My mind attacks. So a book is needed. Or writing. Or xannax. Why. Seroquel legally relabelled. To be given to more people. Even those not psychotic. It causes heart attacks too. And me smokes. So. Pill makers help smoke makers. And both industries...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    So recently this guy admitted his feelings

    towards me, and I did too. I told him that I really liked him and thought of him more then a friend. The next day, however, I say hey and he tells me he can't remember me. I ask him if he lost him memory, does he remember anything... Etc. He then says he doesn't know. After that...
    Littlewolf1562 Littlewolf1562 13-15, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I think im depressed

    and I'm afraid to tell anyone because of what might happen.
    QuietChick96 QuietChick96 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm only 14 and I've had severe depression

    and anxiety for years. It's gotten to a point where my medicine is just a side affect. The doctors suggest that I go to a center but my mom doesn't think it's the right thing. I've thought about suicide too many times to count and almost went through at school but then the...
    Megzilla8390 Megzilla8390 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Hopefully some of my friends here will see this

    in their feed ... I'm not ignoring you. I'm kinda overwhelmed at work and at home. I want to write some long messages but I never feel I have enough time to write them properly, so I don't. I hope you understand.
    scrimshaw scrimshaw 46-50, M 5 Responses Apr 12

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    Taken my first pill today of anti depressants.

    Been prescribed fluoxetine. I love my house and love it to be tidy. I don't want this to make me a sleepy person where I can't function. I think the good has far outweighed the risks with me so my doc has prescribed them. My anxiety was so high I was stopping breathing in my...
    Issima Issima 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Feeling unable to function With no cures

    located Can rattle us often And rob us of motivation Which leads to homeless And for the caring That can cause rage Even if a mentally gifted minor What causes this. Stress. From work Or school. Or family. Why. We are oppressed. The wealthy bought...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've always had depression

    and anxiety. I'm pregnant and just started a new position at my job. Things are changing so fast and its hard to do it and not be able to take any medication. I wish I was able to take something to calm me down. it's a lot of stress and my personal life feels like it's spinning...
    reynanv reynanv 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    What to do. When somebody dont like my advice.

    Hmm. Umm. Pity them. Let them sink. Call them lazy. Or self centered. Or dimwitted. Or a diva. Or just keep giving To those who love it.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    Today is a dark day. the sun maybe shinning

    outside, but the darkness took over my mind and all I see is black..... black and red.
    Greyeyess Greyeyess 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Maybe depression and anxiety are more of a

    super power. Don't get me wrong, these things ******* suck, however. people diagnosed with depressed: - usually smarter than the average person - has a better perspective of the world - views situations more realistically People diagnosed with Anxiety - high...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 7 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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