I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    It's so hard for me to get out of bed of leave

    the house. I have to "self medicate" by drinking high sugar, high caffeine energy drinks to even act like a normal person, talk to people. Sometimes alcohol when I'm extremely stressed or want to relax. I wish I was just naturally more energetic, I worry about my health. I know...
    BoyRandom BoyRandom
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Mar 16
    ForYouIWillWait ForYouIWillWait
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 17

    I everytime wanna help people here

    who battle depression and loneliness..... they post experiences that they need someone to talk who can understand them and when I try to be their friend to help them they don't talk......
    RishabhRick RishabhRick
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 14

    You don't choose what life throws at you

    but you can choose what to do with it. Trying to be positive.
    zimmzimms zimmzimms
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 15
    buscameenelcielo buscameenelcielo
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Mar 27

    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

    Since I've been diagnosed with depression,

    I've started to buy flowers every week. Like once or twice a week but lately all my flowers couldn't live well enough like before. They started to wilt after 2 days. Usually it takes longer than that. I bought the same type of flowers but maybe the weather isn't helpful too...
    redboredom redboredom
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    The anxiety has been particularly bad lately

    as my life is turned upside down. No, not EP shutting down (though I will miss it). Life, as I once knew it, is no longer. It is changing. Drastically changing. Chaos where there was once order... And though things will never be the same again, I look forward to at least...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 16

    I think I'm done pretending I'm okay.

    I'm not. Every night I cry myself to sleep. Every morning I have to push to get up. Just to go through my day doing the minimal work. I'm not okay. My depression is ruining me from the inside out.
    deleted deleted
    9 Responses Jun 29, 2015

    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 11, 2014


    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98
    18-21, F
    71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

    An updated

    list: Worthless Unwanted Unloved Second Best Left Behind Outcast Ugly Alone Cast Aside Unnoticed Unimportant Insignificant Unworthy Empty Tired Ignored Lied To Dead inside Unattractive Pathetic Afraid Used By People Suffering Internal Struggle Lesser Person Misunderstood...
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 30
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 8

    Hi I've been super depressed lately I can

    barely do anything any advice aaaaaaah .
    amnotthattired amnotthattired
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 28

    Maybe depression and anxiety are more of a

    super power. Don't get me wrong, these things ******* suck, however. people diagnosed with depressed: - usually smarter than the average person - has a better perspective of the world - views situations more realistically People diagnosed with Anxiety - high...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 7, 2015

    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Feb 6, 2014

    Monday was my first breakdown.

    I have a great family, 2 very close friends, and a new lady in my life. But I felt completely alone. I had thoughts...however fleeting...of ending it. I thought of my 4 year old son...and that ended that. I have my first doctor appointment today at 2:30. So hopeful.
    njautomechanic njautomechanic
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Apr 14
    abekho abekho
    36-40, M
    1 Response Mar 28

    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 15, 2014

    Being in a relationship

    and depressed is the hardest thing I've had to deal with, and being pregnant on top of it doesn't exactly make it any easier. It's impossible to hide cuts from someone who sees you naked every night. The hormonal changes from the pregnancy have made my depression and anxiety a...
    elle327 elle327
    2 Responses Mar 20

    From around age six I've battled with depression

    and anxiety. I of course had a stressor: abuse and the death of my mother. Her death was sudden and unexpected and the lives of my sisters and myself were tossed upside down. For many years I chalked my depression up to my traumatizing childhood, however because of recent events...
    MoonChild01 MoonChild01
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 8

    Emationally I'm in Pain Mentally I'm Depressed

    Spiritually I'm Stressed Physically I Smile Bare with me today not myself
    poetz13 poetz13
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 9

    I bet you're the prettiest at 12 AM,

    When you're scared And sad, And you just need someone, This is when you're prettiest, Because it's when you're the most honest.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 16, 2015

    Recently, I was accompanying a friend of mine

    downtown to a tattoo parlor, and during the drive, he mentioned something I had recently shared on social media, which more or less said the following about anxiety and depression: "Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of...
    BellaLocura BellaLocura
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Oct 23, 2015

    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life
    46-50, M
    20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

    I'm done being so miserable.

    Nobody deserves that. Happiness is a choice and I'm choosing it now. You should too. The heck with the people who kick us to the ground and enjoys it. You want to get back right? You want vengeance? Well the best vengeance is for us to be happy. Smiling at their faces with...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 17

    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 20, 2015

    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013
    36-40, F
    20 Responses Sep 14, 2013

    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 2, 2015

    just had an anxiety attack during a math test

    because i couldnt get it to make sense in my head... still really out of it and just finished a java test that i hope i did alright on.... i hate fast thoughts and intrusive thoughts and all of it!!
    rowwolf rowwolf
    18-21, T
    1 Response Mar 18

    It's so stupid how you've feeling

    so good one moment then you just want to cry your eyes out the next. The feeling of worthlessness even how good and nice you are to people is so heartbreaking. It's even more frustrating when you keep trying to stand up but people and the world just push you and kick you to the...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 6

    Can someone please explain what depression is?

    I definitely have it but have not been diagnosed as of yet. I feel terrible some days :(
    Sajebeauty Sajebeauty
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Mar 27

    almost Thanksgiving. I'm 1300 miles away from

    my family so we're having dinner at my bf's boss's house with all his coworkers. he's a water well driller so these are all tough guys. mostly country boys, loud and fun and kind of obnoxious. and then there's me. quiet, introverted, and anxious af because I'm a vegetarian at...
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Nov 22, 2015

    i know it is tough and

    that sometimes it feels like there i no end in sight. i want you to know i am cheering for you
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2015

    I love night time, but that's also one of the

    worst times for me unless I have something good to look forward to. One little thing could trigger me and I could break down.. I'm afraid of public places now because I feel like everyone's silently judging me..
    sleepwalking4ever sleepwalking4ever
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 5

    I just want a way out of loneliness.

    Sometimes I realize that all I do is talk to myself. But the truth is, no one will ever listen or care. I can't talk to anyone, even if I try. I don't know how to explain what is happening inside my mind. Heck I don't even know what is happening to me. The point is, I just want...
    enolallamai enolallamai
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 23

    People just like hurting me,

    even tho they tell me how much i mean to them, or a certain someone that im everything to them even tho its never humanly possible still just wants to be knowing we cant, gets obsessed/overly attached and i dont want to rid them from my life but i think that i need too. i just...
    BiFurZak BiFurZak
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 14


    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Aug 21, 2013

    I went to my general physician today.

    He said "I see you are taking anti depressants. Why are you taking them? You don't look depressed!?". At that moment many things crossed my mind. What was I supposed to respond? That I have been battling suicidal urges since 2001? That I sleep way too much just to avoid my...
    Kingshelman Kingshelman
    31-35, M
    7 Responses Jun 22, 2015

    Depression is not a choice.

    I wish people would stop saying that I chose to be this way .
    sasunaruizlove sasunaruizlove
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    Its getting worse. Didn't know loneliness

    could lead to this. Even if I surround myself with people, I feel the silence within me, feel like my internal organs are drowning and all I can do to save them is cry.
    Mpick Mpick
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 30

    Anyone else take Zoloft

    for depression and anxiety and notice a side effect of throat burn afterwards? Just started taking it again last night before bed per Dr.'s request yesterday and I told her this used to happened every time I took it, not matter how much water I drink with it. Thinking of...
    AliciaPooch28 AliciaPooch28
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 26

    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    To those of you who struggle with real mental

    health issues: I'm so sorry you have to watch people try turn them into a fashion trend.
    3st3ll3 3st3ll3
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 9

    Like this is a normal thing to me.

    I am getting old anyway, and getting depressed. But depression and anxiety triggers when i get tired and get stressed. When im still working, im really stressed and depressed.. Thats why, now eventhough im actively looking for a job, i am secretly happy that i don?t get a job...
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 16

    For as long as I can remember I have struggled

    with depression, even when everything is going well it feels like there is something dark in my stomach eating away at all the happiness inside. I feel like there is a shadow always following me, waiting till I can no longer keep fighting, waiting to break me. It started when...
    ColdSerpent ColdSerpent
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 19

    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 27, 2015

    Hows this for a

    list: Worthless Unwanted Unloved Second Best Left Behind Outcast Ugly Alone Cast Aside Unnoticed Unimportant Insignificant Unworthy Empty Tired Afraid Ignored Lied To Used by people Dead Inside Unattractive Pathetic
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 29

    I have always been a shy girl.

    The one who never really spoke up or tried to make new friends. Throughout preschool, I didn’t talk to anybody. I met this one girl, her name is Shania. She was my best friend. She helped me come out of my shell a little bit.. which was the best thing ever. To this day we are...
    ashleybushey ashleybushey
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 30

    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Mar 16, 2013

    All I can think of lately is death.

    I don't even cry anymore. I just go to school, come home, and sit in the dark. I try to go outside everyday, but I get awful headaches, and there are people all around me. I try to do well in school, but it's like I'm drowning. People never seem genuine. Sometimes, when I go to...
    rainandbooks rainandbooks
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Apr 17

    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    Hailey2thequeen Hailey2thequeen
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Nov 19, 2014

    I take medicine for depression,

    I take another for anxiety. They usually work well together until an unseen event appears. I still fill like I am loosing my sanity. And I still cry a lot about my 19 year marriage will be ending soon. Feeling unwanted and unneeded in your families life is a hard pill to...
    GirlieGirl07 GirlieGirl07
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Mar 16

    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    9 Responses May 8, 2014

    My depression and anxiety causes me to over

    think and I feel as if it's ruining my relationship.
    eburstrom11 eburstrom11
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 17

    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice
    18-21, M
    10 Responses Mar 29, 2015

    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Apr 29, 2014
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