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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I have had anxiety ever

    since I was in the fifth grade, after I was molested over and over by a man that man mom let stay w/ us for a while. I never told bc I was scared.. but I am a lesbian now, that's part of the reason and I'm just attracted to girls. but my mom bashes me for it and says I'm using...
    xvibess xvibess 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    It's so hard to fight sometimes,

    like it's beyond my control.
    cicizzle cicizzle 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 10

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    sean4you sean4you 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 1 day ago

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    IT´S BACK

    There was a blues festival in my town this week. My daughter posted all the dates for the concerts on our refrigerator door just to make sure we wouldn´t miss any of the shows. She is 12.  She loves blues, jazz and classical music.  Of course, she loves pop and modern songs...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 1, 2011

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    Hi all. I'll condense my first experience post

    to a reasonable length by stating that I have suffered from depression and anxiety for the majority of my short life. I am in my early twenties and live with my family. I have a girlfriend, that too, has her own personal battles as well. This experience post is meant to serve as...
    ResilientBeing ResilientBeing 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    As it's the only subject

    that I'm unable to put words to.. I shall just leave this here..
    JaneBloodyAusten JaneBloodyAusten 31-35, F 6 Responses Sep 1

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    So the other day I had a mental break

    so many things inside this head... Things I haven't posted on here only bc it still hurts... Anyway I've been having suicidal thoughts(this is the first time I've had these thoughts) I can't pretend I'm happy anymore. Growing up was ok,highschool wasn't too bad, college was a...
    muffinpowers muffinpowers 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    Yes been there, fought it

    and still do. I have to be aware and manage myself and my energy. I find it sad that there are so many people out there that have some form or degree of depression and or anxiety. It's really not a very nice thing to have in life and is extremely difficult and excruciatingly...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    x3donnaa x3donnaa 22-25, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    People think depression is sadness & Emptiness .

    People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black sea .But people are sometime wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, feelings , being numb to smile , being numb to survive . You wake up in the morning just...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 3 Responses May 26

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    I Have..

    I have Depression,OCD and Social anxiety. It's painful and I feel like everything in my life is a struggle. Simple things that others take for granted like interacting in a class is like torture for me. But I don't have a choice but to live with it everyday. I've been having...
    Summr Summr 22-25, F 8 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 11

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    Mornings are the worst

    for me. I wake up too early and in a panic. I shake in bed for 2 hours before I finally get up to go to work. It's such a battle. The only time I don't feel a load of anxiety is when the day is over and I know I can sleep in a few hours. But even now, with how terrible...
    girl3708 girl3708 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It's not just social anxiety

    but it's an intense FEAR from public interaction that gets so bad, I try my best to avoid it. That itself has caused great self-hatred and insecurity, and I feel that I cannot do anything because of said reasons. I'm too scared to drive a car because I'm afraid I'll make a car...
    yourpetmuzzie yourpetmuzzie 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is when you don’t really care

    about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much and over think everything. Having both is hell.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 11

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    I don't care anymore.

    Just honestly dont
    somegirl117 somegirl117 18-21 3 Responses Sep 14

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    It gets so frustrating being on

    such a constant roller coaster. I feel like I spend a lot of time wondering when the next thing will hit and send me careening off of this cliff that I've just barely managed to climb on to in the first place. They don't understand and they can't because they don't feel it. I...
    cartmanlover cartmanlover 18-21 Jun 10

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    I am not using it as an excuse.

    .....it is not an excuse it is a reality..... unfortunately that reality is mine....... I am doing the best I can so people just back off!!!!!!!!!!
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F Sep 10

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 5 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I used to be very depressed.

    Not knowing what was the cause. Grumbling, anxious all day long. I wasnt satisfied with my life. Then i figured out it was the people surrounding me made me feel so. I reached out for help, though it was not any easy. But i decided to change my environment. Cut off those who...
    ketogluta ketogluta 22-25 Sep 14

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    I recently started meds

    for both. It's not that I'm depressed, and I can do anything about it. Most people would never know from looking at me in my every day life. I try to always smile, and my motto is always "fake it till ya make it". I feel alone some, but won't let anyone get close enough too me...
    Beautyismycurse Beautyismycurse 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses May 8

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    I hate it when people think

    that I'm joking or not being serious when I say something like this, or say that I'm just doing it for attention or anything like that. **** them! Everything I do isn't for attention, I don't hurt myself for attention I do it to take my mind off worse things in my life...
    lexigreen lexigreen 18-21, F 12 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21

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    Don't try telling someone who's down

    that you know how they feel, no matter what everyone's situation is different then yours There are ways to talk
    sean4you sean4you 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Won't Give Up This Battle!

    I agree with 'Don't give up Hope' because it may take awhile before finding the right doctor and/or medication of even lifestyle/diet change.  Vitamins help quite often, and exercise if you are able to talk yourself into moving. Ha.  I was on serotonin type meds for...
    amethyst amethyst 46-50, F 14 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    Well I've read this post back to see

    where I am now and I feel it reads like it wasn't me. However, I did write it. Thankfully, this darkness is now filled with light, fun and laughter. More so with my children especially when they have hysterical laughter from things we do together :-). God it's good to be back...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 2 Responses May 19

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    My mom never fails to find a way to drag me

    down... My first appt with the new therapist is tomorrow. I really don't want to go but I really want to give medication a try so I know I can't miss it either.
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 11

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    these illnesses suck,

    they have drained me of nearly everything that I use to be, the medications have left me a shell of who I once was, I just hope that one day that I can fight my way back, and be the person that I once was
    Shamrock40 Shamrock40 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 12

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    This is the first time

    that I have ever posted anything on EP. I get anxious sharing my feelings, and very rarely open up to people, which is why I like to read the posts on here, but never actually write my own. But now I have to share my feelings with someone because I don't know what to do with...
    freyy freyy 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 29

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 4

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    This is my poem, hope you like it.

    It's depressing but it sums up how I feel. It's called Mirror Mirror, why do you show me what I don’t want to see? Why don’t you listen, when I say ‘let me be’? Why are you constantly there, always around, always near? When I scream ‘go away!’, you don’t, why...
    HollowHeart17 HollowHeart17 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Today is not a good day at all

    for me. I just feel very tired and irritable. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
    dolovf dolovf 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 14

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    Another sleepless night.

    ...it's 4am and still wide awake....I just want to sleep!!! Trying to steer clear of meds, as I hate them. I just wish I could switch my brain off! Oh well... Such is life hey.
    AFriend2All AFriend2All 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Currently having uncontrollable fits of crying.

    Little things have been triggering me and I've been to quick to anger with my 3 yr old. At moments I feel intensely lonely and others I'm okay. I swing back and forth but cannot find a so called happy medium. I feel left out. Left behind. I'm anxious about school and my...
    larisahhh larisahhh 26-30, F 1 Response 28 mins ago

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    Went to my first therapist appt at the new

    place today and my mom was there. Well I want to keep medication as an open option and my mom was basically trying to shut the option down all together. She was basically saying that I have all the problems I have because I "am home all the time, don't go anywhere and have too...
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 12

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    Is anyone else finding facebook depressing.

    All these people with their lives together. Weddings, graduations, new houses. Feeling a bit like a failure.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12

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    There are moments when my brain wants to be a

    complete jackass and remind me more than necessary of all the ****** things I think about daily already. And those times are really hard, and i just want to force myself to sleep just so I don't have to deal with it any longer. Really wish the mind had an off switch.
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 23 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    My anxiety is so bad

    because I can't go out in public i can't be around alot of people and weed is the only thing that helps me and i battle depression because of my childhood growing up my kid being took from me and me not having a family
    bud24 bud24 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    If anyone, ANYONE, reading this is battling

    depression and anxiety, I know how you feel... I have bipolar was depressed for three years cut myself and have social anxiety. I still do but in getting better, if anyone needs a chat at all... Message me I will seriously try my best to help. I promise that.xxx
    MrJenks MrJenks 13-15, M Mar 19

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