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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F a week ago

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    Maybe depression and anxiety are more of a

    super power. Don't get me wrong, these things ******* suck, however. people diagnosed with depressed: - usually smarter than the average person - has a better perspective of the world - views situations more realistically People diagnosed with Anxiety - high...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 1 Response 24 mins ago

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    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 29

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    Death sometimes feels like the only way out of

    a bad situation. Depression/mental illness in general is like being trapped in a elevator lined with mirrors. You can only see yourself and your situation. It seems there is no way out. Yet, there is a way, through medication and therapy. It's up to the person to get help, you...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 26-30 a week ago

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    I need to step back from this guy.

    He says he is there for me but I can't talk to him about the one thing that feels like it's burying me alive. My depression and GAD. I also have lupus which comes with a host of its own bs and physical conditions. I talk to no one around me about any of that. My best friend...
    kitakat00 kitakat00 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression. Anxiety. Stress.

    Loneliness. That's the life I'm living. Abandoned. Cold. Empty. Crying. That's how I'm feeling. Alone at 13. Used and abused. Taken in. Told I'm loved. Then left again. Not once but twice. Left again to be used, abused & forgotten by all. No family. No friends. No one...
    Saphhy195 Saphhy195 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I had a bad day 2 days ago.

    I thought watching sad movies wouldn't be a problem but it got me feeling really down and it added other things on my mind :(. Some how i was able to get it out of my head the next day.
    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    Caused by bullies. And no cures

    for anything So that we work Until broke. The whole time helping a few Buy and control everything Without curing anything. It makes me mad Because it makes no sense. Why is that life. How is that admirable Or civilized Or humane. Or respectable. And why...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    Reached another breaking point.

    Last month. Was gonna remove old farts. Who hurt me. And the dad who started it all. But pals sad if me did. And ep pals not knowing Won me what options. Have lost five who left earth. Dont want my pals feeling that. Not by my leaving. So. East coast...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jun 27

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Today was better somehow.

    I woke up feeling a little less tired and beaten. I don't think I cried once all day nor thought about suicide. Better. Still I'm struggling. But feeling like I have a little more fight in me. But women. I don't know. I want them, and hate myself for wanting. "I don't deserve it...
    rpf1988 rpf1988 41-45, M a week ago

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    I was always the bubbly person

    who made people laugh and smile. Now I don't even want people around me.
    Ashmm Ashmm 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    Daily. Almost hourly.

    But hope comes. EP Link
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jun 27

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I wanna be that happy girl,

    the one that is known by her smile, the one that lights up the room, the one that everyone is comfortable around, the one that never gets hurt, the one that everyone likes, but also, I want people to know how much they hurt me. It's hard to be both, I want to stay strong, I...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 20 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    From now on I accept every challenge,

    and I'm not going to worry about people judging me in the way I overcome obstacles. I know that I can do anything I set my mind to and it's not going to kill me to be stronger. Besides, I'm like, the silliest person on earth.
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    I really want to die

    and or hurt myself
    sealare sealare 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    took 15,000 mg of pills

    and still not dead yet..... tired of dealing with life and my past.... god Just let me die.... don't know why you want me to be on earth.... I give up
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, F 2 Responses 27 mins ago

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    Was told this was crap.

    How to locate cures. EP Link By more than one boo hoo bear. So to clarify. What causes sad or happy. Abuse. Lies. Theft. Bullies. Morons. Impairments Praise. Improving. Feeling good enough. So how to get there comes. Society is a greedy...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses Jun 29

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    I think I'm done pretending I'm okay.

    I'm not. Every night I cry myself to sleep. Every morning I have to push to get up. Just to go through my day doing the minimal work. I'm not okay. My depression is ruining me from the inside out.
    wtfdaysi wtfdaysi 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 29

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    I feel depressed but not only

    that I feel so hopeless. Just sitting there existing aggravates me. Everything irritates me. I'm angry at day. I'm crying at night. The only time I forgot is when I'm at the park swinging on the swings while listening to music. Drugs, Alcohol, Self-Harm, and Sex. There tempting...
    DarkDerpy DarkDerpy 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Why. Society following luxury.

    Not unity. Why. Commercials. Peer pressure. Traditions that have created crime. But a view like mine gets sedated. Why. Because if we cared more about unity. Certain religions And egos Would lose power. And they wont permit that. Without bombing way...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Big. Huge. Fight.

    Or flight. Big. Huge. Got bullied. By has beens. And a huge club. With wealth backing it. So. Fight looked good. Ded by kop. But then my inner sage spoke. How will that affect pals. And unknown peers Who fit like pals. It would wreck us all...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    Was dangerous today. Fears hit.

    Urges came back huge. But. Two kathleen madigan videos And a hot shower. Plus a breathing tip cured me.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    I hate trying to describe what depression

    and anxiety "feels" like to people who've never experienced it. No words could do it justice. The closest description I've ever heard was that "It's like drowning. Except you can see everyone around you breathing."
    nobody62442 nobody62442 22-25, F 5 Responses May 20

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    The thing about depression is everyone confuses

    it with being sad, or unhappy. But I'm not unhappy. There's just so much emotional and physical pain inside me that nobody can see. Most days it's bearable, but sometimes it's more than I can take. Anyone who's ever felt any kind of pain knows its power. Pain can consume you...
    Calsi704 Calsi704 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    ...and it has weird effects on my brain

    and body. One that I find kind of amusing and sobering all at the same time is this. When I'm having a conversation with someone- mostly noticed this with my brother and boyfriend, if there is a pause in the conversation, can literally just be for a few seconds I will...
    EleanorPainting EleanorPainting 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 29

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    Was fearful of intake appointment.

    Went to meet case manager early. To calm fears. A rehab worker came. To say my worker was at lunch. The rehab biped went frosty on me. Corrosively frosty. But me tolerated what me could. Then left. And went back later. To meet my worker. Who seemed truly...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Coping skills. Showrrs.

    Video games. Dogs. Kids. Creative writing. Comedy videos. Advising peers. Seeking advice. Sleeping. Chocolate. Listing positives. Listing pains on ep that faded. Making net pals. Eye candy at stores. Self pleasuring. Watching trees Or stars...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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