or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
for about 3 years now and I didn't tell my soon to be husband that I had anxiety and depression until about a month ago. I was ignoring all the signs for a long time, thinking that I was just lazy, paranoid, or lost. It all started when I was 16 years old. I was in, what I now...
and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
I've started to buy flowers every week. Like once or twice a week but lately all my flowers couldn't live well enough like before. They started to wilt after 2 days. Usually it takes longer than that. I bought the same type of flowers but maybe the weather isn't helpful too...
mental instability, I have finally found a therapist who is successfully helping me with my anxiety and depression. I am not healed, and I am not on medication, but even after only three sessions I feel much more grounded and worthy of life. I dont know how long this positive...
I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
Me says me knows
Pal says him stronger.
Me says for now.
Him says dont **** him off
Me says ditto
Him says me weaker
So me repeats my past
And when ready for sleep
And show me what me did
who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
The frustration I feel is so immense that I can no longer find hope for anything in the future. I don't want to end my life but I don't want to live it anymore. My body and soul just want to lay on the couch and be there forever. It kills me because I hate the idea of being...
for me are different.
People who say you should just "ignore" these attacks, have clearly never had one, because they're scary as hell.
Normally anxiety attacks happen when I'm in public, when I'm stressed out, like doing school, or something.
An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know… I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time. I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive.
I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see'
that life moves forward with or without you
that connections with others are temporary and
abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings.
This kind of truth has implications....
1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress.
2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others.
3. Achievements and titles...
for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
days back, but didnt quite have the right words yet. I thought that id share my story, in the hopes that someone out there would be able to put things into a bit better perspective.
After being being attacked and robbed twice, just abou a year apart, i started getting sick and...
Agreed to read.
But a crowd comes.
So me reads flyers
To ignore the crowds.
And sees phone help needed
But A A has singleness of purpose
And N A does too.
Regardless of mixed meeting members.
Fokurs wreck recovery that...
hard day, but have to hide it from those around you?
There's nothing I should be upset about, sad about, angry about, yet that heavy blanket of darkness weighs on me.
It always passes, but when it's there, it's so hard to carry.
Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days.
In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
please read this first.
Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
They give you pills
That alter you.
Some permanent client
And the cause aint never stopped
Because thats a cure
And cures wreck the profits
That make banks look small.
And less evil
Than the medical industry.
You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
At doctors offices.
Its more crazy than manson
Its a scummy joke.
Say meds work.
And most get back to work.
Me asks them
Why were sad in lobby
Sad over meds not helping
Or being fired
They said not...