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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    A random thought hit.

    Am not the messed up one. Trusted family And doctors And got worse So no cures pushed are the flawed Not me. Could family cure us. If they werent busy And saw cures were faked For profit. Maybe. But in a society that says work Until broken To make...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    Knowing that the past made me

    who I am is never going to be something that I am not happy about. I suffer from enormous anxiety and depression. I can't be myself or share my problems and feelings. My fear runs my life and my ever dwindling sadness is making it unbearable to go to school. My life is stuck and...
    Musicmaster101 Musicmaster101 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Someone told me today depression wasn't a real

    thing. That I couldn't possibly be feeling the way I do. That it's not a real problem. That I need to grow up and get over myself. That i have nothong to be 'depressed' about. Well I hate to tell you that depression is real and it's not something that you can just 'get over' and...
    spence96 spence96 18-21, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    Okay so I was wondering about Xanax withdrawal

    symptoms after very short term (but heavy) usage. I suffer from General Anxiety Disorder with severe claustrophobia as a symptom. I was taking a short flight to Germany from the UK for a vacation (alone I should add), and I simply cannot face being trapped in a plane...
    bananaman1uk bananaman1uk 26-30, M Aug 18

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    I have been on xanax,

    lexotanil, seroxat for years. I wanted to lose these from my life and wanted better options. It took gutts to leave them n some patience to bear a little anxiety at start but at the end Ive recovered myself using healthy food, activities and exercise. My doctor told me i had...
    rehankk rehankk 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Most americans say be honest Or get punished

    Then say lie for pay Or never get paid. They say educate others properly But then limit what we teach To benefit just the greedy powers And call that a civilized country That is a great country While real americans wait To see america get honest AND STOP...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 6 hrs ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression has got a hold on me.

    I been feeling it for a couples months now. Today I been thinking about cutting myself. I been crying for a bit. I can't cope anymore. Therapy is not helping and telling others about my depression doesn't help either because they don't want to hear it. I feel so alone...
    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    What to do when housed.

    Meds made me worse. Society failed to improve. Social media allows trolls. Local trolls grift us all. Cops cant stop much They are here to write tickets So the wealthy can dodge taxes With not much to say they do Except facts like they get tax breaks But...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    My father didn't want me

    as a baby I was gonna be a boy When I was born I was a girl and he showed some interest But my mum found out he was cheating on her has another baby girl four months older than me She gave him a second chance And my father lee tried to drown me My mum forget her keys came home...
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 15

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    Anxiety over critics.

    Again. Arrrrrrrggghhh. Cant advise now. Just debated ded by cop with seth. Got misread by him. Hate that on ep. And him in my face. Both of us are damaged by doctors. But me unable to sooth others bites. On ep its expected Because text can get misread...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 17

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    can i just die i know it would hurt some people

    but i know they would be okay honestly i think slowly they would forget me honestly is it even worth living i cant even honestly say anymore
    ExoLKai ExoLKai 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    eddie333 eddie333 18-21, M Aug 16

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    eddie333 eddie333 18-21, M Aug 16

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    I have so much anxiety

    and I can't control it. I don't know what to do.
    Kkj579 Kkj579 18-21 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    i don't feel like myself anymore,

    i used to enjoy life , but now i feel like i'm just on autopilot, like i'm not really a part of life and this world, i feel alienated and so alone i think about suicide frequently, i just have a special way of doing it in my mind that i don't have access to. everyone has...
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 days ago

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Playing a video game.

    Sure it was programmed to cheat And called challenging. Upset when it cheats Because that robs me And the loss bites deep Brings not good enough back And proves takers win While me gets meds that wreck me more. Why. The wealthy choose profit And bully...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    After a long time dealing with depression I've

    found other issues cropping up lately like worsening anxiety and even a couple of panic attacks. Only after taking care of my mother the last year of her life did I find out she had been taking anxiety meds for a long time, and hopefully mine won't continue to get worse. I...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 7 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    I knew something wasn't right inside me at 10.

    I knew that yes I grew up with mean girls but that didn't explain all the things that my brain was trying to feed me. I know that being molested at 5-10 was going to have some pretty major impact on my life. But I also knew that it was going to remain a battle for me keep my...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I think I'm done pretending I'm okay.

    I'm not. Every night I cry myself to sleep. Every morning I have to push to get up. Just to go through my day doing the minimal work. I'm not okay. My depression is ruining me from the inside out.
    wtfdaysi wtfdaysi 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 29

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I should kill myself

    before school starts :(
    Menokej Menokej 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    lookingtovent lookingtovent 18-21, F Aug 15

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    I have the worse habit of clinching on to my

    body without realizing it until I'm completely holding my breath. It's been a bad habit for a few years now. I have to take deep breathes every so often, it's like I'm suffocating myself. ~~ I always feel like I'm being held down or something. Like I have no idea how to relax my...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    You can't possibly believe

    that someone genuinely enjoys your company and loves you, whether it be a friend or your own family, because your brain doesn't let you. But after a while, it actually lets you start to believe it, start to count on it even, to make you feel better. And your whole life, everyone...
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    eddie333 eddie333 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    Got offered to teach crisis workers Before 08.

    Refused. Didnt want confronted by morons. Want to write a book now. But when i start fear hits. They wont publish my facts. Because me gets disability pay. So they say me dont think proper. And facts rob them of profits So the wealthy prevent facts known.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses 6 days ago