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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I have the worse habit of clinching on to my

    body without realizing it until I'm completely holding my breath. It's been a bad habit for a few years now. I have to take deep breathes every so often, it's like I'm suffocating myself. ~~ I always feel like I'm being held down or something. Like I have no idea how to relax my...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 24

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    Depression has got a hold on me.

    I been feeling it for a couples months now. Today I been thinking about cutting myself. I been crying for a bit. I can't cope anymore. Therapy is not helping and telling others about my depression doesn't help either because they don't want to hear it. I feel so alone...
    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Started out rare Then became tradition To

    wreck us all. And me got wrecked Asking for help. EP Link
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 hrs ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Nobody fights for us They sedate us.

    Or send us to hospitals. We become a commodity. Our veracity removed By college words Like dysphoria. Which is how facts gets buried. We tell the truth. But get called dysphoric. And medicated Plus possibly hospitalized So the industry profits And...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 17

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 20 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    After a long time dealing with depression I've

    found other issues cropping up lately like worsening anxiety and even a couple of panic attacks. Only after taking care of my mother the last year of her life did I find out she had been taking anxiety meds for a long time, and hopefully mine won't continue to get worse. I...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm in work and anxiety is going through the

    roof. I'm struggling to control my breathing, my pulse is racing. Everyone who speaks to me is making me jump, making me want to curl up in a ball and cry. I can't go around a corner without feeling like a frightened rabbit. I need to get out of here.
    AnxiousTG AnxiousTG 31-35, T 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    tonight I found out my dad got sick a month ago

    and now he's deaf in his right ear. it's my fault we don't talk I stopped going with him. now he's gonna talk to me and stuff, but I can't. if that was happening to me I would just want my family and I took it from him. but he has his wife so what does he even need me for
    steal11 steal11 18-21, F Aug 16

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    I bet you're the prettiest at 12 AM,

    When you're scared And sad, And you just need someone, This is when you're prettiest, Because it's when you're the most honest.
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    Anxiety over critics.

    Again. Arrrrrrrggghhh. Cant advise now. Just debated ded by cop with seth. Got misread by him. Hate that on ep. And him in my face. Both of us are damaged by doctors. But me unable to sooth others bites. On ep its expected Because text can get misread...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 17

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Got offered to teach crisis workers Before 08.

    Refused. Didnt want confronted by morons. Want to write a book now. But when i start fear hits. They wont publish my facts. Because me gets disability pay. So they say me dont think proper. And facts rob them of profits So the wealthy prevent facts known.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 22

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    I have so much anxiety

    and I can't control it. I don't know what to do.
    Kkj579 Kkj579 18-21 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Playing a video game.

    Sure it was programmed to cheat And called challenging. Upset when it cheats Because that robs me And the loss bites deep Brings not good enough back And proves takers win While me gets meds that wreck me more. Why. The wealthy choose profit And bully...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 22

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Breathing never worked

    for me. It always made it worse. Maybe i didnt know the proper technique. Or maybe it just wasnt for me.
    rehankk rehankk 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    A random thought hit.

    Am not the messed up one. Trusted family And doctors And got worse So no cures pushed are the flawed Not me. Could family cure us. If they werent busy And saw cures were faked For profit. Maybe. But in a society that says work Until broken To make...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 24

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    What to do when housed.

    Meds made me worse. Society failed to improve. Social media allows trolls. Local trolls grift us all. Cops cant stop much They are here to write tickets So the wealthy can dodge taxes With not much to say they do Except facts like they get tax breaks But...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 23

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    Maybe depression and anxiety are more of a

    super power. Don't get me wrong, these things ******* suck, however. people diagnosed with depressed: - usually smarter than the average person - has a better perspective of the world - views situations more realistically People diagnosed with Anxiety - high...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    eddie333 eddie333 18-21, M Aug 16

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 4 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I am currently going through

    yet another long spout of very low and depressed mood. I went to the doctors in April about this and got signed off. I was then referred to the NHS to see the well being team for counseling and a psychiatrist (i think thats how you spell it) to look at medication as the doctors...
    rose0087 rose0087 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    eddie333 eddie333 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    with the situation at work my anxiety has sky

    rocketed and has left me unable to work. now even the smallest things can leave me in tears
    507max 507max 31-35, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    eddie333 eddie333 18-21, M Aug 16

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    How to stop blaming dad.

    How to ignore dads type and work. How to stop wanting revenge How to stop craving a sanctuary. How to stop craving less pain.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 24

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    I have been on xanax,

    lexotanil, seroxat for years. I wanted to lose these from my life and wanted better options. It took gutts to leave them n some patience to bear a little anxiety at start but at the end Ive recovered myself using healthy food, activities and exercise. My doctor told me i had...
    rehankk rehankk 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    i don't feel like myself anymore,

    i used to enjoy life , but now i feel like i'm just on autopilot, like i'm not really a part of life and this world, i feel alienated and so alone i think about suicide frequently, i just have a special way of doing it in my mind that i don't have access to. everyone has...
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I'm starting to get the feeling

    that this is it. I will never feel happiness. I am just going to be a miserable f#ck for the rest of my life. I suck the life out of everyone around me and I convince myself they are sucking the life out of me
    Jessalex Jessalex 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 days ago