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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I stopped taking my medication.

    ..again. It just doesn't seem to do anything for me. I am on the highest dosage they can put me on and have changed medications twice. I am done having people evaluate me and try and figure out why I am so ****** up. I talked to a counselor and told her that I felt like I was...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15

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    I used to be very worry-free,

    but recently I think I have problems. I'm worried about my health, I have sleeping problems and my college is at the worst it's ever been (my kind of hell). I cry at night.. I think I'm becoming so miserable. No one cares about my feelings, even my mom.
    ladolce ladolce 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    I feel like people think they can walk all over

    me now I have to kids an have tried to change my old ways
    Amanda724 Amanda724 22-25 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Same ****, different day.

    1. Cant get out of bed 2. Cant concentrate at school 3. Cant stop eating 4. Drowsy as **** for no apparent reason 5. Crawl into bed after a failed attempt at writing down my feelings and wish I didnt have to face tomorrow.... Cool lyf
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 29

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    I feel like my heart is shrinking

    and I feel like I have lost hope and confidence in myself. I don't feel happy, and that is what bothers me the most.
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo 18-21 a week ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 6

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    So even though the big reason

    for my depression has kinda left for some reason i still feel sad. I still feel empty. i still cry myself to sleep at night. There are still days when i feel like nothing matters. That all i want to do is lay down and cry. sometimes i feel like im going to explode. Like i just...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    When I try to pick apart the reasons of

    why exactly I have these anxiety and depression issues, I am lost. I had a wonderful childhood. I've been through a few bumps but nothing serious. What's with the panic attacks? The chest pains? The worrying? The fear? What's with the thoughts of suicide? The sadness? The...
    LittleListener LittleListener 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Everyday is a struggle

    for me; a struggle to maintain any sort of happiness I can muster, and then hold onto until I rest at the end of the day. Life is so hard to bare now a days, and its the little things like tea, and the rare moments I share with my friend and family that help keep me going. I don...
    Suddanlius Suddanlius 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 13

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    People think depression is sadness & Emptiness .

    People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black sea .But people are sometime wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, feelings , being numb to smile , being numb to survive . You wake up in the morning just...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 3 Responses May 26

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    On a scale of one to ten,

    ten being the highest, my anxiety will always remain a 3 or 4. I have chosen to not allow depression and anxiety to take one more day. So I let it come along. Every time I step out the door, there it is. Like a finger or toe. I can't leave it behind. But it certainly does not...
    sunny3875 sunny3875 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I smoke for my anxiety .

    .........anyone else have any secret remideies camomile ???
    Amanda724 Amanda724 22-25 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 4

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    So I just completed this startup competition,

    which literally finished a couple of hours ago. Our team didn't do as well (at all) as the other teams that pitched their ideas. Anyways, after we went I felt an instant rush of defeat, frustration, and depression. I felt really bad for my teammates, because they knew I wasn't...
    pinderal pinderal 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I think my anxiety stems from being picked on

    as a child as well as criticism from my mother; which I feel now is just a symptom of her own insecurity.
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie 22-25, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy.

    I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my depression and anxiety led to a suicide attempt that landed me in the HOSPITAL. After being out of school for so long since I was in the hospital I...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 5 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Major breakdown going on today.

    Here's one of the reasons: I don't want to go into details, but I shared some good news with my friends today, and they told me in these words "get your feet on the ground and stay on this planet like the rest of us!", among other things. (Yes, they ment it!) I only did...
    NOTtheMessiah NOTtheMessiah 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Ginger wine is an awesome

    yet temporary fix to my feelings.
    bestofyou bestofyou 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Yes been there, fought it

    and still do. I have to be aware and manage myself and my energy. I find it sad that there are so many people out there that have some form or degree of depression and or anxiety. It's really not a very nice thing to have in life and is extremely difficult and excruciatingly...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    I really struggle with reaching out to people

    because of anxiety. I fear being judged harshly, and it makes it difficult to even try. I'm not antisocial, I'm just scared. :(
    beingbrye beingbrye 22-25, T 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    So for the first time in a very very long time

    i felt myself and i felt upbeat about everything my outlook was positive and id come out of my introverted shell but now as its reaching what nearly 11pm as im typing this and my head has done a 180, what motivated me this morning isnt working and ive plummeted into this same...
    Lathor Lathor 22-25, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Well I've read this post back to see

    where I am now and I feel it reads like it wasn't me. However, I did write it. Thankfully, this darkness is now filled with light, fun and laughter. More so with my children especially when they have hysterical laughter from things we do together :-). God it's good to be back...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 2 Responses May 19

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    I've had just enough to drink where,

    if I had a gun, I could finally end it all and have some peace. Instead, I'll just sit here, continue to drink while listening to music and cutting myself.
    ben1019 ben1019 31-35, M 4 mins ago

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    I suck. I met a girl

    who was pretty. I won't make the same mistake ever ever again. I tried to change myself to make everyone like me because that's how sad I was. She only liked the cool kids. All the cool kids were ignorant and rude and hit females, they didn't care about the girls. They just...
    dksl14 dksl14 16-17, M 1 Response 15 mins ago

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    Shoved my fingers down my throat

    and faked being sick today. I just can't imagine walking around school like everything is fine. Just don't have the energy to pretend. I feel like if I'm around too many people I'll panic.
    UnderworldNymph UnderworldNymph 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    My mind is my enemy. It has stolen from me

    and left me less than whole. It has taken joy, love, confidence and clarity; leaving only fear and self doubt. Where I sought out the new and different I now avoid it. Things I once loved and enjoyed sharing with others now only happen when I'm alone. I want those parts that...
    phoenix924 phoenix924 36-40 2 Responses Nov 14

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    I feel like my whole world is collapsing around

    me. I'm constantly depressed or stressed or anxious. I have panic attacks nearly daily that I can't control no matter how hard I try... I want to self-harm so much more then i used to... Anyone have advice?
    DorchaCraven DorchaCraven 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I haven't ever said it on here

    but I did try to.. Well... I don't want to say the word. But I tried to die. I took a bunch of my stomach pills and some Tylenol I keep with me for just in case reasons. But anyway, it didn't work. I just slept a lot and got a headache and dizzy. It's been a few weeks since then...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 13

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Summerandroses Summerandroses 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13

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    As it's the only subject

    that I'm unable to put words to.. I shall just leave this here..
    JaneBloodyAusten JaneBloodyAusten 31-35, F 11 Responses Sep 1

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Lately things have really sucked.

    It is getting harder for me to stay positive and be the good person I want to be. I also started to scratch when I get anxious and am covered in scratch marks. Because of this I have started wearing my jacket more to cover up the marks and people are asking questions I don't...
    mickyhoney mickyhoney 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses May 8

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Depression is when you don’t really care

    about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much and over think everything. Having both is hell.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21

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    If I don't message you back,

    it is because I am being admitted to a ward. I wills respond when I return. Xoxo
    lindseysway lindseysway 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 29

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Im not running anymore,

    and I'm not going to bury my troubles while pretending they don't exist... I am depressed and I suffer from it every single day. I can't do anything without thinking about what depresses me. My life is ruled by the thought of one person that was once apart of my life and I have...
    Suddanlius Suddanlius 22-25, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 28

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