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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 7 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Taken my first pill today of anti depressants.

    Been prescribed fluoxetine. I love my house and love it to be tidy. I don't want this to make me a sleepy person where I can't function. I think the good has far outweighed the risks with me so my doc has prescribed them. My anxiety was so high I was stopping breathing in my...
    Issima Issima 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    When i log off of ep.

    My mind attacks. So a book is needed. Or writing. Or xannax. Why. Seroquel legally relabelled. To be given to more people. Even those not psychotic. It causes heart attacks too. And me smokes. So. Pill makers help smoke makers. And both industries...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I bet you're the prettiest at 12 AM,

    When you're scared And sad, And you just need someone, This is when you're prettiest, Because it's when you're the most honest.
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Does anyone have experience with taking anxiety

    medication that doesn't make you sleepy or foggy?
    littlemissdazed littlemissdazed 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    I can't tell if I just want attention

    or if I'm really suffering. I hate myself and my brain and I just want these thoughts to stop.
    saaadcutiex3 saaadcutiex3 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I feel like I'm so different from everyone and that I'm not right, like there's something completely wrong from me. I don't understand it and I wish the feelings would go away. I just wanna fit in and be normal.
    steal11 steal11 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So recently this guy admitted his feelings

    towards me, and I did too. I told him that I really liked him and thought of him more then a friend. The next day, however, I say hey and he tells me he can't remember me. I ask him if he lost him memory, does he remember anything... Etc. He then says he doesn't know. After that...
    Littlewolf1562 Littlewolf1562 13-15, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I've always had depression

    and anxiety. I'm pregnant and just started a new position at my job. Things are changing so fast and its hard to do it and not be able to take any medication. I wish I was able to take something to calm me down. it's a lot of stress and my personal life feels like it's spinning...
    reynanv reynanv 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Cramping while on ep.

    Get called nasty by some biped. So. Label it a moron after explaining. Why. It showed clueless ego. And tried to bark at me. Like me was nasty. Stupid biped.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 4 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I really want to see a therapist.

    I want someone to talk to and I feel like this is eating me alive. BUT I have two issues that is keeping me from seeking help, myself and my parents. I am afraid to go a therapist because I remember I have had two mini experiences. The first when I was 13 or 14 my family was...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Am a saintly type. But got violent ideations.

    Am on xannax. But that just prevents convulsions When my body wants to retaliate. Against memories. Of those who hurt me.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    Why do people assume we are ok.

    Morons thinking computer is ep. Morons saying get a job. Morons saying spell better. Morons saying take meds. Me sees them as clueless. But some nights that dont erase pain. Caused by those pinheaded foks.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Wake up. Again. Cold.

    Alone. Surrounded by people, but alone. Alone inside my head. Peace, gone. She has forsaken me. Will He forsake me too. My only comfort. No strength to call out to Him, only defening silence. Sprawled out in pain. Black heart on display. Dreanched in tears. The summation of fear...
    Calsi704 Calsi704 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate meds so I avoid

    when I can, doctors can't really do anything for my depression, they can cover it up here and there, but it is like putting a bandage on when someone has been disemboweled. my anxiety is part of my ADHD, and I've already tried meds for that, they didn't help. so I live one day...
    Azureal Azureal 26-30, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I think I'm done pretending I'm okay.

    I'm not. Every night I cry myself to sleep. Every morning I have to push to get up. Just to go through my day doing the minimal work. I'm not okay. My depression is ruining me from the inside out.
    wtfdaysi wtfdaysi 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 29

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    I suffer from depression

    and anxiety. Living day to day can be a struggle and yes, I'm taking my psych. meds and going to counselling on a regular basis. The thing that bothers and saddens me is other people's stigma towards me and my disorders. I have lost many family and friends because of things I...
    FunkyFerdman FunkyFerdman 51-55, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 12 hrs ago

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    Homeless bites. Bullied bites.

    Wrecked by meds bites. Medical tests not matching bites. Barked at for advising on ep bites. Barked at for replying to posts bites. Luckily i helped people. My whole fokyn life. And some helped back. Or just helped Like pink Who says done looking for...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M a week ago

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    I'm only 14 and I've had severe depression

    and anxiety for years. It's gotten to a point where my medicine is just a side affect. The doctors suggest that I go to a center but my mom doesn't think it's the right thing. I've thought about suicide too many times to count and almost went through at school but then the...
    Megzilla8390 Megzilla8390 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    What to do. When somebody dont like my advice.

    Hmm. Umm. Pity them. Let them sink. Call them lazy. Or self centered. Or dimwitted. Or a diva. Or just keep giving To those who love it.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    Today has been one of those days

    where I'm not quite sure what I'm doing. I'm not sure where I'm going with my life, or if I even want to go anywhere with it. It's an overwhelming urge to curl up in bed under the covers and never leave. I feel so useless but that's all okay. That's what I'm starting to realise...
    smileforme1996 smileforme1996 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Issima Issima 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    Chemical imbalance???

    ? Really. What from. Wealthy fokurz. Gmos. Bullies. Meds. Policies. Laws. All made by wealthy fokurz. Pinks song. 18 wheeler. Can help. Sometimes. http://youtu.be/Clb8jCoJVqg
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 20 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Deep sadness. Becomes depression.

    Then rage. Saints get wrecked In a society led wrong. The wealthy love that. Because they bought everything. And made society their soap opera. Like in the movie gamer. And the hunger games series. But why. Profit. Power. Boredom. Policed by peers...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    Today is a dark day. the sun maybe shinning

    outside, but the darkness took over my mind and all I see is black..... black and red.
    Greyeyess Greyeyess 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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