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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    Made a breakthrough of sorts today.

    Apparently, I have an "inferiority complex." At first I didn't really see it, but the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. I used to weigh 355lbs. Back then, the only way I kept the few friends that I had was by making fun of myself for being such a fat bastard...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    the worst thing for me right

    now is being left literally alone for the next 24hours.
    Lilythehuman Lilythehuman 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 20 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Finally talked about some of my problems with

    my friend. Things I've never told anyone. Sure I was completely drunk but hey, gotta start somewhere right ?
    goodlife687 goodlife687 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The other day I was presented with a huge

    opportunity that could help not only myself but also my family not ask at once but gradually.. Then I remembered the phone call I had just had with my parents. My brother in rehab almost three months now is not getting any better yet they keep asking for money to try other...
    Claura Claura 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    ThomasAnderson04 ThomasAnderson04 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    I suffer from hyperhidrosis

    or excessive sweating. Does anyone else in the UK suffer from this?
    pbarn pbarn 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 13 Responses Mar 29, 2015

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    i know it is tough and

    that sometimes it feels like there i no end in sight. i want you to know i am cheering for you
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 25, 2015

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    Hey! Why are you so hard on yourself?

    Don't you know how beautiful and lovely you are? What do you mean I lie? :/ Hey I'm no liar! You're the one lying to yourself! saying, "I ain't good enough, no one love me, no one cares, I'm no good, everyone else is better than me!" STOP IT will yah? I'm sure somebody...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    These past couple months I have become

    so detached from reality that it doesn't even feel like I am here anymore; it is as if I am enclosed in a bubble watching life go on outside but I can't do anything about it, it's almost like I don't even exist anymore. I've been battling depression my whole life which led to me...
    veronicamoore veronicamoore 16-17, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 20, 2015

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    Since I've been diagnosed with depression,

    I've started to buy flowers every week. Like once or twice a week but lately all my flowers couldn't live well enough like before. They started to wilt after 2 days. Usually it takes longer than that. I bought the same type of flowers but maybe the weather isn't helpful too...
    redboredom redboredom 22-25, F 8 Responses Oct 29, 2015

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    I have suffered with bipolar disorder

    for 30 years mixed with anxiety it's not fun. I have been trying to set some small goals for myself lately. trying to pull myself out of this negative space I have been in for far to long. got to remember I am a strong woman and I have a lot to be grateful for. it will get...
    Dawnfoley2005 Dawnfoley2005 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    being in a relationship

    and still feeling alone because I'm starting to realize maybe we don't belong together. and the anxiety I feel everyday is taking a toll.
    blissfullybritt blissfullybritt 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 3

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    I would love it if you read this entire thing.

    ... please. For my entire life I just haven't been accepted for who I am. I have anger issues, OCD, ADD, depression, anxiety, etc. People all around me for at least 8 years have been teasing me and they would never want to be friends with me because I have anger issues. I mean...
    thechocolatemaniac thechocolatemaniac 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 9 Responses May 8, 2014

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    Whenever I get anxious I like to say everything

    that is making me feel fear. 1. I just got super scared because I thought I missed an appointment(it would've probably triggered me depression) 2. I'm scared because I feel like I'm not acting my age. 3. Scared that I still haven't found my passion. The one thing that brings me...
    RoamingStone RoamingStone 22-25, M Jan 29

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    I look and I see people changing left

    and right. Some get confident and become themselves and some where already. Some are in deep water but are floating, even if they aren't on the inside. It's only when people see you drowning when it gets truly sad. This is long so my hat goes off to the people who finish it...
    RoamingStone RoamingStone 22-25, M Jan 29

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    almost Thanksgiving. I'm 1300 miles away from

    my family so we're having dinner at my bf's boss's house with all his coworkers. he's a water well driller so these are all tough guys. mostly country boys, loud and fun and kind of obnoxious. and then there's me. quiet, introverted, and anxious af because I'm a vegetarian at...
    TheDevilHerself TheDevilHerself 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 22, 2015

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    I had the worst 36 hours of my life.

    .. in jail. It was a life-changing experience. I realized that almost all things in life are a privilege that you can lose in an instant. I have 100s of things to be grateful everyday. Every minute I find things I took for granted before.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 31

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 21 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 7 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    I went to my general physician today.

    He said "I see you are taking anti depressants. Why are you taking them? You don't look depressed!?". At that moment many things crossed my mind. What was I supposed to respond? That I have been battling suicidal urges since 2001? That I sleep way too much just to avoid my...
    Kingshelman Kingshelman 31-35, M 7 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    I'm 30 yo and have no clue what to do with my

    life. got out of the military in 2012 and haven't worked since. a bit of savings and a disability check keep me afloat but times are changing. savings are starting to dwindle and a new baby is on the way. spent most of the morning doing my resume and job applications. the search...
    ThomasAnderson04 ThomasAnderson04 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I've got a lot of stuff on my plate at the

    moment, and I'm struggling to cope with it all. Depression and anxiety come and go in my life, seemingly randomly sometimes. At times, I'll feel like my life is starting to get on the right track and I'm finally making some progress towards being the person that I want to be...
    looseleif looseleif 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 4

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    how many of you with anxiety experience

    difficulty swallowing when you eat because every time when I eat I focus too much on if the food is going to make me choke or not and then I end up having an anxiety attack..
    dahomie1 dahomie1 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    i hate when people try

    and guilt me into anything, feeling bad for them, trying to coax me to do something with them. Especially when they tell me they're suicidal and "your the only one i talk to" i hear it alot and im no freakin pyschiotrist i have the same problems as these people, how am i suppose...
    BiFurZak BiFurZak 22-25, M Jan 26

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    Depression affects me everyday

    as soon has I wake up I'm slapped in the face with saddness, loss of instrest wanting to sleep all day :/ man the affects a dating the wrong person will change your life in a bad way
    DutchLove DutchLove 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    I know why I can't be myself

    and it because of two specific reasons. 1. I'm afraid people will not respect me. Why do I care so much? Because I can't deal with people literally viewing me as a worthless person who has nothing meaningful to say or add. I have been in various situation where people have...
    RoamingStone RoamingStone 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    Being told that I don't have depression

    and that I should just get over it. Got a whole entire lecture, it isn't fair that I get yelled at for something I can control it's hard to deal with
    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I feel so depress that I can't

    even breath since my boyfriend and I break up I don't feel like leaving I just wanne died
    tweetyreck tweetyreck 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    everything's getting

    so bad again and I just wish I could tell someone everything. how I feel, what's going on, what in doing, why this is happening. I just want it all to come out without getting lectured or yelled at or told I'm being sensitive or that I shouldn't be like this, that I'm too sad. I...
    steal11 steal11 18-21, F Jan 29

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I think I'm done pretending I'm okay.

    I'm not. Every night I cry myself to sleep. Every morning I have to push to get up. Just to go through my day doing the minimal work. I'm not okay. My depression is ruining me from the inside out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jun 29, 2015

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2, 2015

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