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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    mollyomeara mollyomeara 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 19

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Someone help me?? I dint like these feelings.

    5 years with almost no clean steaks....
    PrettyUglyPeople PrettyUglyPeople 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    So today was going pretty well,

    I accepted my job offer and was pretty happy about it. And not too long after that I learn my parents are getting divorced. So my day took a quick turn for the worst. I just can't catch a break.
    Gophillies8 Gophillies8 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    I had a really bad day today,

    dealing with negative thoughts and feelings. Plus I am finally fat. I was always the skinny guy, but somehow this little pot belly snuck up on me. I miss my six pack. Yet I find the ladies more attracted to the older, mentally broken, out of shape me; than they ever were to in...
    Kingshelman Kingshelman 31-35, M 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Crystalbaby90 Crystalbaby90 16-17, F Jan 19

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    Today has been one of my worst days in a long

    time. Can't stop shaking and I haven't been able to leave my room yet today.
    Emmy182 Emmy182 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    I had a good day today.

    I've only felt it a few times for short amounts of time rather than all day. Not being doped up on medicine really makes a difference
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Join this Facebook group

    if you ever need support https://m.facebook.com/groups/480215555420339?ref=bookmark
    im2hot2bemo im2hot2bemo 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Finally went to a psychiatrist today

    for the first time... She gave me meds and said it would be good to see a trauma therapist and she gave me soft meds to start out and in a month wants to see me again to see how they go... I got meds for depression and I got antipsychotic meds for my episodes and my anxiety and...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    It's sad how no matter what you do,

    people will always treat you like ****. Whether they know what you're going through or not....
    ShesDepressedHoney ShesDepressedHoney 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11, 2014

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    Anxiety has been ruining my life

    for the past 10 years! I get panic attacks more often than i can even bear to admit. In comparison my depression feels like relief... It still sucks, i've had it really bad too, but at least it's not an acute feeling of constant and sheer terror. 3 years back i was working this...
    maunder maunder 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Dear parents, If you guys read my suicidal

    notes, would you change? Would you love me more? Would you apologize for all the terrible and horrible things you said to me? Would you guys become better for me? Or will you continue to blame me for everything? Say that everything's still my fault for the way things are right...
    supahdupahrosie supahdupahrosie 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I come out of the shadows just enough to feel

    human once in a while but not enough to be hated or loved, but yet it still finds me won't leave me the sadness from the abuse the emptiness it leaves. I fake the smile everyday knowing it will get worse, my heart breaks even more than I ever thought it could, and every day I...
    skittlesbaby753 skittlesbaby753 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I'm so tired of everything.

    .. I want to sleep and never wake up... :'(
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Any moment I don't have

    that certain feeling of uneasiness or a deep dark sadness i kill myself again by making myself feel that uneasiness and sadness. It's such a deep dark drowsy horrible feeling but I love it at the same time. It's such a comforting but killing feeling. I am addicted to sadness
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Summerandroses Summerandroses 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    tisher2288 tisher2288 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am SOOO TIRED of the stereotyping it makes

    me SICK . It takes REAL courage to cry so for all you guys who have been told to to be a man and suck it up FORGET that trash it takes a REAL man to cry and show his emotions when he is hurting . The same goes for us women now that's not to say I go around crying in front...
    RedsSaphire RedsSaphire 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 13 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    My best friend put me into a depression

    when she lied for a solid year telling me she was an alcoholic. I was in the 8th grade. She then proceeded to become a drug addict and suicidal and has been in and out of mental institutions ever since. I can not differ between someone else's own problems and my own. I am dead...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Do not say you have depression

    or anxiety if you're feeling down. It is not a joke. Depression is a real mental illness that affects so many people. **** everyone who claims they have it that really don't.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    wish I had a partner

    for this struggles I'm alone and have bad anxiety I wish it gone so I can do things like normal peeps
    kittyanthony kittyanthony 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55, M 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    My dad has been abusive my whole life.

    One of my best friends want to cut and commit suicide because of a break up.
    pickering07 pickering07 13-15, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    On a scale of one to ten,

    ten being the highest, my anxiety will always remain a 3 or 4. I have chosen to not allow depression and anxiety to take one more day. So I let it come along. Every time I step out the door, there it is. Like a finger or toe. I can't leave it behind. But it certainly does not...
    sunny3875 sunny3875 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    Same ****, different day.

    1. Cant get out of bed 2. Cant concentrate at school 3. Cant stop eating 4. Drowsy as **** for no apparent reason 5. Crawl into bed after a failed attempt at writing down my feelings and wish I didnt have to face tomorrow.... Cool lyf
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I have battled depression

    for the majority of my life. It started when I was 7 years old from the death of my father. We were best buddies and when he passed away it sent me into a deep depression. I went through a few years of therapy in school to no avail. I have gotten good at masking this on the...
    srb76 srb76 36-40, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I fear that some one will see past the mask.

    They can tell that I am not what I pretend to be. But a part of me weeps wishing someone would notice I am falling apart. Someone cares right?
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    So I'm really overwhelmed today.

    The self harming is like screaming at me. I'm doing my best to fight it. I just feel like I'm drowning. My family is trying to help, but they don't really get it. They think they do, but they don't.
    lizzie0714 lizzie0714 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Feels like I'm starving

    but want to throw up at the same time. A rumbling thunder that starts in my toes and slowly creeps up every inch of my body. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to hurt myself...or you. I want to crawl out of my own skin and leave this lifeless body behind.
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 19

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