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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I feel like I haven't bought my ticket

    for the place I wanted to go, yet I board the wrong plane, while also never packing luggage. You don't know where you'll end up - landing safely on the ramps, or being abandoned in the ocean. I don't know whether to enjoy the ride or take control of the flight. Anything can go...
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    You know that point where you slip back into

    that same mindset?You take your medication, you try the techniques they teach you. But then just one thing just resets it back to the core. It's like no one else understand, they do not see the gravity of it all. They do not see how such a 'simple' thing could completely relapse...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I feel like I'm fighting something I can't see.

    . My anxiety is through the roof, I'm spiralling down try to stop myself falling - I so need help!
    johnjw johnjw 41-45, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    "I know that I'm unlovable.

    You don't have to tell me." The only person who's seen the extent of my pain has run away. And now I'm alone again. With all the demons. My question is can anybody love someone who's been raped and as a result can't function in everyday society. Can anybody love that girl...
    Smithsfan Smithsfan 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was very recently diagnosed with anxiety.

    I probably always had it but I really look notice of it last year when I started having panic attacks. I'm on medication now and feel a lot better but it's hard to have to deal with a problem I'm not used to. My depression also flares up from time to time and I know I should see...
    Catherdra Catherdra 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Family Progress Yesterday I went with my

    fifteen year old son to see his psychiatrist. Things have improved somewhat. My husband is back at work, though needed to have the last week off to go through a medication adjustment. He has been off work for the past two years with major bipolar disorder. My eldest son...
    perseverer perseverer 51-55, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I feel so uncomfortable

    and unsteady right now. I have no one to vent too and I'm panicking. A few months before I made this big move my guy put me on with his old friend named "J" ... We clicked right away... and she's really cool and she ended up telling me that her and my guy messed around long ago...
    wannaberain wannaberain 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    Scoodaloop Scoodaloop 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    I use to be so happy

    and positive all the time. Now I'm just filled with so much anger and hate.
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I've lost it. A weird thing happened to my body

    due to medication and I freaked out. Then, I forgot to take my meds and got pulled into a long intensive dream session. It felt so real and nogalistic, I can't stop feeling sad. Not only do I feel like I've lost it, I feel like I've lost something as well.
    MadNocturnes MadNocturnes 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 13 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I lack motivation and energy

    and life is getting ahead of me. I'm out of clothes because I haven't done laundry, I'm out of money because I've called off work so much, and I'm out of time because my homework is due soon and I haven't touched it. I'm so sad and tired all the time, I barely have the energy...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I feel empty, like no one quite understands

    what I am going through. I continuously find myself strapped for words in situations where others take so lightly, but all I think about are the worries, the things that hurt, the opinions of others. Why do I even care what they think? My concentration level has gone out the...
    lostpixie lostpixie 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21, 2014

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    why do I feel depressed

    when I'm outside with many people and friends? I feel lonely and like everyone doesn't matter I can only feel the shagness and just get really depressed....
    miumiux miumiux 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Do not confuse my bad day

    as a sign of weakness because they are the days i am fighting my hardest.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    start therapy again today.

    new psychologist. feeling nervous :s
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I am reposting this.So basically most people

    who aren't that close to me don't know that I am a person who suffers from GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). Some of the symptoms of GAD include: EXCESSIVE worrying, always having trouble falling asleep, feeling restless and tense, etc. Anyway so yesterday something happened...
    devinesoul94 devinesoul94 18-21, F 20 mins ago

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    I'm trying my best to move past this.

    I hate myself for making my ma so sad. No matter what whenever she asks me "Baby, is there anything I can do?" I have to tell her no and I see the hurt in her eyes bc all she wants is for me to be okay and happy. I'm neither. I want to be for her but I can't if it's not what I...
    aunaturaleee aunaturaleee 18-21, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I forgot to take my medicine this morning.

    It's always surprising how quickly I slip back into depression.
    dartfrogged dartfrogged 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Every thought is a battle,

    every breathe is a war, and I don't think I'm winning anymore.
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M Mar 21

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    https://hirainingoutside.

    wordpress.com/2015/03/27/lets-fight-back/
    rainingoutside rainingoutside 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I originally posted this

    as a question but decided to share it as a story since it is such a big part of my life. I went to my doctor twice this month for a stabbing pain lower left back and thought had a kidney stone, and I waited several weeks before going to a doctor because I don't like going...
    Ifyouaskme Ifyouaskme 31-35 a week ago

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 16 Responses Mar 19

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    With words And facts.

    And hopes. And fears. And worries. And codependancy. And rage. And exercise. And sugar.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response