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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 5 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    My name is Kayla, I have been battling

    depression and anxiety for two years, cry myself to sleep every night and i have tons of suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts and im seeing a councilor but shes making it worse.
    ThatGirlWithDepression ThatGirlWithDepression 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 6

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    It gets so frustrating being on

    such a constant roller coaster. I feel like I spend a lot of time wondering when the next thing will hit and send me careening off of this cliff that I've just barely managed to climb on to in the first place. They don't understand and they can't because they don't feel it. I...
    cartmanlover cartmanlover 18-21 Jun 10

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    Everyone will go through some hard times at

    some point. Life ain't easy... just something to think about. Did u know that people who are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know that people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all...
    valeMar valeMar 41-45 2 Responses Oct 20

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    I have been battling depression

    for years for circumstances I care not to share. Anxiety is not my friend but I thank god it's not something I have to deal with all the time. It's hard for me to ask for help but I do when my situation gets really bad. I got help and now I can function like a normal person...
    InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I desperately need exercise to recover

    but the anxiety just does not let me step into the gym. I have no friends anymore. I am trapped in the loop. I just randomly cry and drag along
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It feels cozy right now in the night with the

    air conditioning at 22 degrees but i cant stop dreading the unforeseen that tomorrow will bring along :( god knows how unstable, low n pathetic i am going to feel again :(
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 4

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    Yes been there, fought it

    and still do. I have to be aware and manage myself and my energy. I find it sad that there are so many people out there that have some form or degree of depression and or anxiety. It's really not a very nice thing to have in life and is extremely difficult and excruciatingly...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    I just had a panic attack,

    it still has not disappeared completely, I needed to sit here to seek help. I'm shaking compulsively, trembling, oxygen don't get to my lungs. Feeling literally that I'm going to die, that all ends right here right now, that it's not possible for me to continue living. It has...
    LookingForTheSunshine LookingForTheSunshine 26-30, F 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    We all have a strong desire to succeed in

    something. We all want to strive for perfection but only some achieve it. We all want happiness and to feel it all the time but that can be rare. I am someone who has tried all these things and failed. I wanted to succeed at something and be perfect at it and also desire...
    achorusgirl achorusgirl 18-21, F Oct 22

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    On a scale of one to ten,

    ten being the highest, my anxiety will always remain a 3 or 4. I have chosen to not allow depression and anxiety to take one more day. So I let it come along. Every time I step out the door, there it is. Like a finger or toe. I can't leave it behind. But it certainly does not...
    sunny3875 sunny3875 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses May 8

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    I hate it when people think

    that I'm joking or not being serious when I say something like this, or say that I'm just doing it for attention or anything like that. **** them! Everything I do isn't for attention, I don't hurt myself for attention I do it to take my mind off worse things in my life...
    lexigreen lexigreen 18-21, F 12 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I'm going through a break up

    after a 6 year relationship. This **** hurts my feelings so bad. I don't even want to get out of bed on most days. I try to find happiness in shopping and eating but I just feel empty and dead inside. he hurt me so bad...but I can't help but to blame myself. sometimes I hate...
    TiaAutumn TiaAutumn 18-21, F Oct 21

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    Nothing i do relieves me.

    Nobody seems to be able to help me.
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Well I've read this post back to see

    where I am now and I feel it reads like it wasn't me. However, I did write it. Thankfully, this darkness is now filled with light, fun and laughter. More so with my children especially when they have hysterical laughter from things we do together :-). God it's good to be back...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 2 Responses May 19

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 22 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    We all have a strong desire to succeed in

    something. We all want to strive for perfection but only some achieve it. We all want happiness and to feel it all the time but that can be rare. I am someone who has tried all these things and failed. I wanted to succeed at something and be perfect at it and also desire...
    achorusgirl achorusgirl 18-21, F Oct 22

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    If anyone, ANYONE, reading this is battling

    depression and anxiety, I know how you feel... I have bipolar was depressed for three years cut myself and have social anxiety. I still do but in getting better, if anyone needs a chat at all... Message me I will seriously try my best to help. I promise that.xxx
    MrJenks MrJenks 13-15, M Mar 19

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    He choose love, I choose freedom.

    He choose love because he saw beauty and happiness in it. I choose freedom because love was like a prison to me. Now he's living a life full of happiness and joy, while I find myself rotting in a dark room, prisoner of my own mind.
    kitkat1612 kitkat1612 18-21, F a week ago

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    Depression is when you don’t really care

    about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much and over think everything. Having both is hell.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    Do you have any idea how difficult it is just

    to wake up in the morning and do your normal routine when all you wanna do is curl up in bed and cry...
    youbrokeme youbrokeme 41-45, F 9 Responses 3 days ago

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    Today I took the wrong bus,

    dropped a bottle of lemonade (Orange) in my bag and forgot my gym clothes :/ then I got a black out during my test and flunked it real bad. Then I cried while walking through the hall, passed my classmates and spend half an hour on the toilet. Then the sticky wetness in my bag...
    PanicDream PanicDream 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Same ****, different day.

    1. Cant get out of bed 2. Cant concentrate at school 3. Cant stop eating 4. Drowsy as **** for no apparent reason 5. Crawl into bed after a failed attempt at writing down my feelings and wish I didnt have to face tomorrow.... Cool lyf
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Feeling overwhelmed with life (school,

    drama,tension) ...... When will this go away... I have so much stress on my mind tht I am starting to get to a deadly personality. :(
    Amyyy000 Amyyy000 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    This has been the battle of my life.

    Depression so heavy it feels like someone laid a very wet and large blanket on me. I could be happy as a clam. Then all of the sudden... Wham, lights out. It is bitter and agonizing. Everyone I love suffers from it when I am depressed. There is no hiding it. Sometimes I feel...
    jonnyfun1 jonnyfun1 31-35, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Failed my college attendance grade.

    I always get so tired and feel somewhat anxious whenever I enter the school building. How to tell my mom about my relapse, when she doesn't believe in my anxiety.
    PanicDream PanicDream 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Just as with anything else known to this world,

    humans have glitches and a lack of fine tuning. While there are those who live by the theory 'God makes no mistakes' I must say that I do not agree. Though I don't believe He had intentions of creating a bad life for any person, I think he himself was doing all he could do to...
    CarlyOnline CarlyOnline 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 19

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    If I don't message you back,

    it is because I am being admitted to a ward. I wills respond when I return. Xoxo
    lindseysway lindseysway 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I can't stop thinking about him.

    That day, the day that changed - ruined - everything. I regret my decisions so much, I should have stayed to help him. But I was a coward. I ran. I'm so sorry. Things can never be the same - I can never help you like you helped me. I'm sorry
    Gallowsweet Gallowsweet 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 11

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21

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    No matter how hard i try

    or what renewed force i attempt it with or what meds my shrink gives me, i just friggin go back to feeling ****. I want to be either high all time or be dead 😡
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    It's been a long month

    and I have been in low spirits. unfortunately, I reverted to form and isolated myself instead of reaching out to my friends. When you isolate yourself, you only make things worse. most of my friends are use to this by now. I'll try to do better next time. I guess I'll spend...
    holloway64 holloway64 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    My husband and I had a fight about sex again.

    ..He said that he is moving out now. I'm in such a bad place right now. I never thought that he would do this!! He's looking for places to stay now and hopes to be out within the month. I'm worried that we're divorcing, but he said that he wants a separation for now. I'm just so...
    AriaShakti AriaShakti 31-35, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    About those 3 tests I had today.

    .. Well, I kind of just didn't show up. And now I'm debating if I should just skip the last test as well. I mean let's face it. My head is completely empty and my fear for failure is causing me to fail. I forgot all formulas I had studied and left my notes at home. I'm definitely...
    PanicDream PanicDream 18-21, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Another prescription on my list

    now cause doctor thinks it's appropriate. I take my meds everyday. I can't complain. I just know I won't be normal again.
    vanessamoomoo vanessamoomoo 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    adventuretimer adventuretimer 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 24

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    We all have a strong desire to succeed in

    something. We all want to strive for perfection but only some achieve it. We all want happiness and to feel it all the time but that can be rare. I am someone who has tried all these things and failed. I wanted to succeed at something and be perfect at it and also desire...
    achorusgirl achorusgirl 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 22

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    It's been a long month

    and I have been in low spirits. unfortunately, I reverted to form and isolated myself instead of reaching out to my friends. When you isolate yourself, you only make things worse. most of my friends are use to this by now. I'll try to do better next time. I guess I'll spend...
    holloway64 holloway64 46-50, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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