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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I'm in work and anxiety is going through the

    roof. I'm struggling to control my breathing, my pulse is racing. Everyone who speaks to me is making me jump, making me want to curl up in a ball and cry. I can't go around a corner without feeling like a frightened rabbit. I need to get out of here.
    AnxiousTG AnxiousTG 31-35, T 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I bet you're the prettiest at 12 AM,

    When you're scared And sad, And you just need someone, This is when you're prettiest, Because it's when you're the most honest.
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    I am currently going through

    yet another long spout of very low and depressed mood. I went to the doctors in April about this and got signed off. I was then referred to the NHS to see the well being team for counseling and a psychiatrist (i think thats how you spell it) to look at medication as the doctors...
    rose0087 rose0087 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Breathing never worked

    for me. It always made it worse. Maybe i didnt know the proper technique. Or maybe it just wasnt for me.
    rehankk rehankk 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I think I'm done pretending I'm okay.

    I'm not. Every night I cry myself to sleep. Every morning I have to push to get up. Just to go through my day doing the minimal work. I'm not okay. My depression is ruining me from the inside out.
    wtfdaysi wtfdaysi 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 29

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    Depression has got a hold on me.

    I been feeling it for a couples months now. Today I been thinking about cutting myself. I been crying for a bit. I can't cope anymore. Therapy is not helping and telling others about my depression doesn't help either because they don't want to hear it. I feel so alone...
    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Someone told me today depression wasn't a real

    thing. That I couldn't possibly be feeling the way I do. That it's not a real problem. That I need to grow up and get over myself. That i have nothong to be 'depressed' about. Well I hate to tell you that depression is real and it's not something that you can just 'get over' and...
    spence96 spence96 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 23

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    Nobody fights for us They sedate us.

    Or send us to hospitals. We become a commodity. Our veracity removed By college words Like dysphoria. Which is how facts gets buried. We tell the truth. But get called dysphoric. And medicated Plus possibly hospitalized So the industry profits And...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 17

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Maybe depression and anxiety are more of a

    super power. Don't get me wrong, these things ******* suck, however. people diagnosed with depressed: - usually smarter than the average person - has a better perspective of the world - views situations more realistically People diagnosed with Anxiety - high...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm scared she doesn't love me anymore

    and that she's only spending time talking to me because she's pitying me. I'm scared to tell my family about my coming out as a lesbian - what if they disown me? I wouldn't last in a care home And the thoughts have come back, the hospitalising/ stick pills down your...
    InferiorMe InferiorMe 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I'm starting to get the feeling

    that this is it. I will never feel happiness. I am just going to be a miserable f#ck for the rest of my life. I suck the life out of everyone around me and I convince myself they are sucking the life out of me
    Jessalex Jessalex 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    A random thought hit.

    Am not the messed up one. Trusted family And doctors And got worse So no cures pushed are the flawed Not me. Could family cure us. If they werent busy And saw cures were faked For profit. Maybe. But in a society that says work Until broken To make...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 24

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    Okay so I was wondering about Xanax withdrawal

    symptoms after very short term (but heavy) usage. I suffer from General Anxiety Disorder with severe claustrophobia as a symptom. I was taking a short flight to Germany from the UK for a vacation (alone I should add), and I simply cannot face being trapped in a plane...
    bananaman1uk bananaman1uk 26-30, M Aug 18

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    I have the worse habit of clinching on to my

    body without realizing it until I'm completely holding my breath. It's been a bad habit for a few years now. I have to take deep breathes every so often, it's like I'm suffocating myself. ~~ I always feel like I'm being held down or something. Like I have no idea how to relax my...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 24

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    Playing a video game.

    Sure it was programmed to cheat And called challenging. Upset when it cheats Because that robs me And the loss bites deep Brings not good enough back And proves takers win While me gets meds that wreck me more. Why. The wealthy choose profit And bully...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 22

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I hate it I hate it I fcking hate it.

    I hate waking up to days like this... It's not fun and I feel like relapsing on my cutting again. I'm trying so hard to keep myself upright and those who know my life story know how much pain I've been in and hoe much pain I'm still in. I don't want anyone's pity but if you can...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    When you look at him with love in your eyes,

    but he just looks back with disgust and lies.
    kxtrinx kxtrinx 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    Got offered to teach crisis workers Before 08.

    Refused. Didnt want confronted by morons. Want to write a book now. But when i start fear hits. They wont publish my facts. Because me gets disability pay. So they say me dont think proper. And facts rob them of profits So the wealthy prevent facts known.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 22

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    After a long time dealing with depression I've

    found other issues cropping up lately like worsening anxiety and even a couple of panic attacks. Only after taking care of my mother the last year of her life did I find out she had been taking anxiety meds for a long time, and hopefully mine won't continue to get worse. I...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 20 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I have so much anxiety

    and I can't control it. I don't know what to do.
    Kkj579 Kkj579 18-21 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    How to stop blaming dad.

    How to ignore dads type and work. How to stop wanting revenge How to stop craving a sanctuary. How to stop craving less pain.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Aug 24

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    Shopping. Prices. Value.

    Quality. And omg crowds.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Just got back into this app,

    looking for new people to just have a nice chat with.
    Aiolle Aiolle 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Most americans say be honest Or get punished

    Then say lie for pay Or never get paid. They say educate others properly But then limit what we teach To benefit just the greedy powers And call that a civilized country That is a great country While real americans wait To see america get honest AND STOP...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    A lot has happened this weekend & all I want to

    do is cry... I miss him so much
    HisPrincessRach HisPrincessRach 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 4 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Had a really awkward experience

    when the doctor asked me if I was depressed or had anxiety
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I should kill myself

    before school starts :(
    Menokej Menokej 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17