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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I feel so sick. Depressed

    and full of anxiety. Knowing Christmas is upon us, I worked so hard for my money. Like soooooo hard. Just for it to be stolen I'm so upset. I had already called the cops but they haven't done anything. I'm so mad because my phone is just off. Can't make calls or texts, I have...
    sloaned sloaned 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I love what this picture has to say.

    It's good motivation to help gain positivity in your life.
    Bird488 Bird488 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 3

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    Sometimes I look in the mirror

    and I'm honestly surprised to see there's still a person there. I'm hurting so much that my emotions have overwhelmed me completely and taken full possession of myself to the point as I feel I AM my pain, my hopelessness and my fears, as if they have stolen my identity, as if...
    LookingForTheSunshine LookingForTheSunshine 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15

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    I can't take this anymore!

    !! I'm so anxious. Felt like I was gonna have a panic attack al day. Still feels like it. I'm shaking abn my heart is beating fast. Please just kill m!!!
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 16

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    I am so lost in this world,

    what am I doing here? I'm not 'used to it' like others seem to be. It's like this life is a test run (that isn't going very well) for my next life, which will be better because I'll know how to deal with emotions and troubling life situations and big decisions, like most other...
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    drachenReiter drachenReiter 31-35, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 6

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11

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    When people say something mean to me I try to

    hold myself back from crying
    chrislawson141 chrislawson141 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 17

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I feel like I am fading away,

    I sit with friends and close ones and I can't be a part of the happiness. That's the worst thing about holidays. The family is together and there is always somebody there. I feel like I am going crazy, I have so much anxiety in me and cutting down my nails eating pumpkin seeds...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Four months ago, my depression had me at my

    lowest point. I had been going downhill for the past year, and I decided to move to another state and get a fresh start. I can honestly say it was the best choice I've ever made. I have never been so mentally and emotionally sound. I have been happy every day for almost four...
    HeartlessSinner HeartlessSinner 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    Omissions are betrayals.

    That's all I want to say but this asinine app requires atleast 25 characters
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F a week ago

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 12 Responses Nov 18

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    Some days no matters how hard you try,

    nothing seems to get right. My usual self would say, go to sleep, and keep trying tomorrow will bring something new, maybe better... who knows.. but today I'm not my usual self, honestly I have days like that, but didn't want to worry anybody, I had the feeling something bad was...
    valeMar valeMar 41-45 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17

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    I wanna do everything

    and nothing at the same time..
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 19

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Summerandroses Summerandroses 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    It's weird waking up on Christmas

    and thinking of everything you have and nothing you have. I remember having a place that I would go to in my own mind. Rightly named "Mommy." A place in my imagination where I had to create what I thought a real mommy might be like. And she was a queen. All I needed. She knew...
    Jaielll Jaielll 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It's been 4 years full of lost hope,

    failed attempts to reach out, nights of crying myself to sleep, and of finding no solutions. I guess I finally stopped really trying to get help from anyone in my life so the internet has become my best therapist.
    LisetteDS LisetteDS 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 5 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I stopped taking my happy pills

    because I started to feel no feelings... I wasn't happy nor sad and nothing phases me In the past week I have been noticing changes tho, taking things seriously, getting up set over stupid things, I have called work sick today because I just couldn't get out of bed... I'm...
    lifeisnottoobad lifeisnottoobad 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 19

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    Something got me thinking

    and I realized that even though I know I'm not suicidal, I still don't see myself living past my college graduation and finally escaping my parents' house. When I first realized it, I started laughing. and crying. all at once. I just don't know what to do anymore.
    beingbrye beingbrye 22-25, T 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Im not running anymore,

    and I'm not going to bury my troubles while pretending they don't exist... I am depressed and I suffer from it every single day. I can't do anything without thinking about what depresses me. My life is ruled by the thought of one person that was once apart of my life and I have...
    Suddanlius Suddanlius 22-25, M 5 Responses Nov 19

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 4

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    On a scale of one to ten,

    ten being the highest, my anxiety will always remain a 3 or 4. I have chosen to not allow depression and anxiety to take one more day. So I let it come along. Every time I step out the door, there it is. Like a finger or toe. I can't leave it behind. But it certainly does not...
    sunny3875 sunny3875 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    My depression has never been good,

    I haven't had a good period for as long as I can remember. My "good" periods were when the meds began working and I could hide the fact that I was depressed from the one's around me. When it was bad I couldn't get out of bed and didn't eat or sleep, or I would do nothing but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel like I cannot truly enjoy life.

    . . I get paranoid at times and then my mind obsesses over the worst case scenario. I get really depression and even I should be having a good time. . . it's like I am not there 100%. I feel I simply let people down. I sometimes feel that most people would be better without...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 14

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Same ****, different day.

    1. Cant get out of bed 2. Cant concentrate at school 3. Cant stop eating 4. Drowsy as **** for no apparent reason 5. Crawl into bed after a failed attempt at writing down my feelings and wish I didnt have to face tomorrow.... Cool lyf
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 29

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    I never realized this before,

    but I have this thing. I become addicted to things, I always need to be doing something, like eating nuts or pumpkin seeds. I always have to keep my hands busy, when I don't I feel like I'm going crazy. I get so restless and can't study or do anything. It takes all of my energy...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    I have severe anxiety

    which seems to have manifested into horrible health anxiety (hypochondria) and now I can't even leave my house to go to school because I've convinced myself I'm dying somehow. Either that I'm ignoring a symptom and the doctor overlooked an issue I FEEL sick and I can feel the...
    overlordmisha overlordmisha 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 17

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses May 8

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11

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    LostSoul8188 LostSoul8188 36-40, M 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    So, it's Christmas Eve

    and I just had to promise myself I wouldn't relapse now. I've gotten far. Had to take 3x my normal Xanax dose after telling myself that I don't deserve to punish myself tonight of all nights. My mind is a mess and there's no one to talk to. These thoughts that won't shut up. I...
    Khaleesi18 Khaleesi18 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    obviously no one can help me I should just give

    the **** up im going to be depressed forever nobody ******* cares I don't even care anymore I'm tired of being sad then ok then sad I hate everything I hate everyone i don't even care about being " okay " anymore , what's the ******* point. i ******* hate earth and I...
    FuckedupNow FuckedupNow 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 15

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    3:00am and I'm no longer fine that sick

    feeling washes over me seeps in from my pores all the way down to my bones drowning me
    itsmecricket itsmecricket 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 19

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