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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Don't try telling someone who's down

    that you know how they feel, no matter what everyone's situation is different then yours There are ways to talk
    sean4you sean4you 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 18

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 4

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    Currently having uncontrollable fits of crying.

    Little things have been triggering me and I've been to quick to anger with my 3 yr old. At moments I feel intensely lonely and others I'm okay. I swing back and forth but cannot find a so called happy medium. I feel left out. Left behind. I'm anxious about school and my...
    larisahhh larisahhh 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    I have had anxiety ever

    since I was in the fifth grade, after I was molested over and over by a man that man mom let stay w/ us for a while. I never told bc I was scared.. but I am a lesbian now, that's part of the reason and I'm just attracted to girls. but my mom bashes me for it and says I'm using...
    xvibess xvibess 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 20

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    People think depression is sadness & Emptiness .

    People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black sea .But people are sometime wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, feelings , being numb to smile , being numb to survive . You wake up in the morning just...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 3 Responses May 26

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    sen017 sen017 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It gets so frustrating being on

    such a constant roller coaster. I feel like I spend a lot of time wondering when the next thing will hit and send me careening off of this cliff that I've just barely managed to climb on to in the first place. They don't understand and they can't because they don't feel it. I...
    cartmanlover cartmanlover 18-21 Jun 10

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    Five years ago i get my first anxiety

    and panic attack, it takes me one and a half year to understand what it is, doctors were wrong in my case, what i needed is a psychiatric and not a normal doctor, it was 5 mai 2009 i was studying my first year in collage, after this date every thing get another turn, i lost two...
    whispersgod whispersgod 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Won't Give Up This Battle!

    I agree with 'Don't give up Hope' because it may take awhile before finding the right doctor and/or medication of even lifestyle/diet change.  Vitamins help quite often, and exercise if you are able to talk yourself into moving. Ha.  I was on serotonin type meds for...
    amethyst amethyst 46-50, F 14 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    Having a sexual experience is one of the best

    forms of depression and Anxiety relief
    pmo77 pmo77 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate it when people think

    that I'm joking or not being serious when I say something like this, or say that I'm just doing it for attention or anything like that. **** them! Everything I do isn't for attention, I don't hurt myself for attention I do it to take my mind off worse things in my life...
    lexigreen lexigreen 18-21, F 12 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    It's not just social anxiety

    but it's an intense FEAR from public interaction that gets so bad, I try my best to avoid it. That itself has caused great self-hatred and insecurity, and I feel that I cannot do anything because of said reasons. I'm too scared to drive a car because I'm afraid I'll make a car...
    yourpetmuzzie yourpetmuzzie 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 21

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Time for another sad,

    loveless day where my crush has no ******* clue I like her. Fml
    guyzerp1 guyzerp1 26-30, M Sep 23

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    sean4you sean4you 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 20

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    Remember when there was nothing else to do,

    but lie in bed and; wonder how it was always up to you, and no one else and; Early mornings, made by warnings, whats the point of the alarm that im ignoring. It's either raining, i'm not complaining, but waking up is hard to do so.. Turn my head, it's back to bed with no delay...
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M Sep 15

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    Depression is when you don’t really care

    about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much and over think everything. Having both is hell.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    This is my poem, hope you like it.

    It's depressing but it sums up how I feel. It's called Mirror Mirror, why do you show me what I don’t want to see? Why don’t you listen, when I say ‘let me be’? Why are you constantly there, always around, always near? When I scream ‘go away!’, you don’t, why...
    HollowHeart17 HollowHeart17 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 19

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Well I've read this post back to see

    where I am now and I feel it reads like it wasn't me. However, I did write it. Thankfully, this darkness is now filled with light, fun and laughter. More so with my children especially when they have hysterical laughter from things we do together :-). God it's good to be back...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 2 Responses May 19

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    When will it ever end.

    His words broke me down more than his hands. I am so scared everyday. Everyday. He appears in my dreams often. I want to escape. I can't handle it anymore. It's all hitting me tonight. How fcked up these past 2 years were. How much I've been fcked in the head. I am a complete...
    somegirl117 somegirl117 18-21 a week ago

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    There I was, having a perfectly fine day with

    fine things. But nope. NO. I'm not ALLOWED to feel ok, i'm not ALLOWED to just talk to people without assuming that they hate me. Seriously **** this. CAN I NOT JUST HAVE ONE DAY? please
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses May 8

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    As it's the only subject

    that I'm unable to put words to.. I shall just leave this here..
    JaneBloodyAusten JaneBloodyAusten 31-35, F 9 Responses Sep 1

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 6

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    My "friend" that set up plans to hangout with

    and ditched wants to go to a comic-expo type thing and has asked me to go. see the guy once a year and we only go to the expo. dont know if i should even go or bother with him anymore. Love to have a friend but its doesnt feel like a friend just an acquaintence i could pass up.
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Think I'm finally ready to tell someone I think

    I have depression.......but scared.
    heatherm10 heatherm10 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 23 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    I Have..

    I have Depression,OCD and Social anxiety. It's painful and I feel like everything in my life is a struggle. Simple things that others take for granted like interacting in a class is like torture for me. But I don't have a choice but to live with it everyday. I've been having...
    Summr Summr 22-25, F 8 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 20 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I hope EP will help me with recovery from

    depression & anxiety. It would be great if any of you could share your experiences of recovery.
    HelpMeSurviveDepression HelpMeSurviveDepression 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 5 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 20

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    x3donnaa x3donnaa 22-25, F 7 Responses Sep 21

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    Hi all. I'll condense my first experience post

    to a reasonable length by stating that I have suffered from depression and anxiety for the majority of my short life. I am in my early twenties and live with my family. I have a girlfriend, that too, has her own personal battles as well. This experience post is meant to serve as...
    ResilientBeing ResilientBeing 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    I was able to spend the whole day driving in

    city traffic and shopping in crowds. No anxiety. No fear. No rage. This may not seem like much to most people, but to me, it's a major accomplishment. I think this new medication is working...
    aftie aftie 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    There are moments when my brain wants to be a

    complete jackass and remind me more than necessary of all the ****** things I think about daily already. And those times are really hard, and i just want to force myself to sleep just so I don't have to deal with it any longer. Really wish the mind had an off switch.
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 18-21, F Sep 18

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    This is the first time

    that I have ever posted anything on EP. I get anxious sharing my feelings, and very rarely open up to people, which is why I like to read the posts on here, but never actually write my own. But now I have to share my feelings with someone because I don't know what to do with...
    freyy freyy 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 29

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    If anyone, ANYONE, reading this is battling

    depression and anxiety, I know how you feel... I have bipolar was depressed for three years cut myself and have social anxiety. I still do but in getting better, if anyone needs a chat at all... Message me I will seriously try my best to help. I promise that.xxx
    MrJenks MrJenks 13-15, M Mar 19

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 21

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    I've gotten a day job

    and do college in the afternoon and evening. It's been very tiring. I feel out of my mind these days. Things are looking better but worse. I can barely sleep eight hours anymore because I've grown a powerful fear of the dark ever since I watched Cujo for the second time...
    Apirne Apirne 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Mornings are the worst

    for me. I wake up too early and in a panic. I shake in bed for 2 hours before I finally get up to go to work. It's such a battle. The only time I don't feel a load of anxiety is when the day is over and I know I can sleep in a few hours. But even now, with how terrible...
    girl3708 girl3708 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21

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    Yes been there, fought it

    and still do. I have to be aware and manage myself and my energy. I find it sad that there are so many people out there that have some form or degree of depression and or anxiety. It's really not a very nice thing to have in life and is extremely difficult and excruciatingly...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    Another sleepless night.

    ...it's 4am and still wide awake....I just want to sleep!!! Trying to steer clear of meds, as I hate them. I just wish I could switch my brain off! Oh well... Such is life hey.
    AFriend2All AFriend2All 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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