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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    Sleepless nights. Dreary days.

    Another voice who controls my ways. Hopeless shouts. Helpless tears. SHE who gives me crazy fears. Arguments in my head. Between me and HER So much is said. Too much fighting. And Not enough strength. SHE is gaining power. I'm losing my faith. SHE wants me me do things...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I just need to get this out.

    One day I was sitter having dinner and my sister comes and sits by me and she says with this disgusted look on her face "you have a double chin. You know that?" (I have chubby cheeks and I was thin as a stick) "you know that right? You're so ugly, like really really ugly. You...
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I make such horrible impulsive decisions.

    . I've succeeded at ruining my life because of these decisions.. I feel so alone, jus wish I didn't have to live life anymore... I'm so depressed.. My eyes burn from crying and not sleeping.. Saw the guy I like at this bar yesterday; he knows I go there every Tuesday, and he...
    N1n74 N1n74 22-25, F Apr 15

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I got my depression from sexual assault

    and from being bullied most of my childhood. I wish i could take beta blockers
    IntrovertLyssa IntrovertLyssa 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    I started to feel self conscious about how I

    looked close to a year ago. One day I had just come out of the shower and stared at myself in the mirror. Since that day on I've been obsessed with picking out imperfections about my body. I am 6ft 1 and am tired of the comments being hurled at me. Only my girlfriend knows I am...
    anonymous341998 anonymous341998 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 17

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 14

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I kicked depressions butt with JESUS !

    After many unsuccessful attempts nothing really worked until I prayed and called Jesus for help then my depression cleared within a week and never came back again! Hallelujah praise Jesus !
    ladyrasta ladyrasta 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    I just wanna meet one person

    who will Come into my life and not hurt me , and never leave .. 😔😢 struggling with anxiety and debating whether to end it all or just suck it up .
    pinkkbeautyy pinkkbeautyy 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 12

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I can really tell when I don't take my meds.

    I'm going through some family issues, a break up, and stress from work. this has been a long road. I want to make new friends but have issues keeping them for the fact of, I just get in a mood where I don't want to be around people.
    SassySophia SassySophia 26-30, F Apr 19

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Sometimes I really have to fight back the urge

    to break down into tears, and especially when I am at work. Many times I'll just be working and suddenly become completely consumed by grief and sorrow. It's becoming increasingly more difficult to hide my tears. I wish things weren't this way. I wish that things would improve...
    DarkestDespair DarkestDespair 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 16

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 17

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    I got a shot of steroids yesterday.

    I now realize a lot of my inertia and depression is physical. I feel so much better, not just because it helped me recover from bronchitis, but I actually felt like getting up and cooking myself breakfast this morning, felt like walking the dog, etc. I actually had hunger, not...
    Harley53 Harley53 61-65, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living

    abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family told me to seek medical help, and finally gave me the courage to take a step forward. I've dealt with severe depression and bipolar for as long as...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Last Friday I tried to commit suicide,

    and because of that I'm now in a mental hospital because they don't think I'm stable. The doctors here says, that I'm suffering from depression and social anxiety. Have any of you tried something familiar?
    josieee1 josieee1 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    raebaybrown raebaybrown 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    N1n74 N1n74 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    I think so. Just shared it here on my blog

    energymustmove.wordpress.com
    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Rapid cycling bipolar disorder.

    Body defeats most meds. Some made me worse. So. Every minute is. Up. Down. Up. Down. If my body could exercise like that. Me would be closer to sexy looking. Lmao.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 3 Responses Apr 18

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    This is probably my biggest secret.

    I have been battling depression for well over two years now. For the last five, or six it has been on-again/off-again. I am tired of it. I don't even know who I am anymore. I remember when Robin Williams killed himself. I was furious and my first reaction was to mouth off at...
    JeanYuss JeanYuss 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    It is my problem these days ,

    that happens when we feel that there is a wide gap between what we hope and what we are in .
    umayyad umayyad 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    No loving. No sanctuary.

    No societal cures for the poor. No cures at all. Wealth owns all. And wont care. Because that shrinks wealth. They act caring to deny not caring. But then amp up the torment. Why breathe. Hope that they change. And helping peers cope. To change society...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 day ago

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    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him. We're comfortable with each other. Dare I say we're friends? He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something, he is there, whispering in my ear. He...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M a week ago

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