for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
yet another long spout of very low and depressed mood. I went to the doctors in April about this and got signed off. I was then referred to the NHS to see the well being team for counseling and a psychiatrist (i think thats how you spell it) to look at medication as the doctors...
I been feeling it for a couples months now. Today I been thinking about cutting myself. I been crying for a bit. I can't cope anymore. Therapy is not helping and telling others about my depression doesn't help either because they don't want to hear it. I feel so alone...
Didnt want confronted by morons.
Want to write a book now.
But when i start fear hits.
They wont publish my facts.
Because me gets disability pay.
So they say me dont think proper.
And facts rob them of profits
So the wealthy prevent facts known.
Or send us to hospitals.
We become a commodity.
Our veracity removed
By college words
Which is how facts gets buried.
We tell the truth.
But get called dysphoric.
Plus possibly hospitalized
So the industry profits
I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see'
that life moves forward with or without you
that connections with others are temporary and
abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings.
This kind of truth has implications....
I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive.
I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
for some years now. I'm pretty used to him and we're comfortable with each other. He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something; he is there, whispering in my ear. He loves to clutch my heart...
roof. I'm struggling to control my breathing, my pulse is racing. Everyone who speaks to me is making me jump, making me want to curl up in a ball and cry. I can't go around a corner without feeling like a frightened rabbit. I need to get out of here.
I hate waking up to days like this... It's not fun and I feel like relapsing on my cutting again. I'm trying so hard to keep myself upright and those who know my life story know how much pain I've been in and hoe much pain I'm still in. I don't want anyone's pity but if you can...
who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
Then say lie for pay
Or never get paid.
They say educate others properly
But then limit what we teach
To benefit just the greedy powers
And call that a civilized country
That is a great country
While real americans wait
To see america get honest
body without realizing it until I'm completely holding my breath. It's been a bad habit for a few years now. I have to take deep breathes every so often, it's like I'm suffocating myself. ~~ I always feel like I'm being held down or something. Like I have no idea how to relax my...
please read this first.
Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
Don't get me wrong, these things ******* suck, however.
people diagnosed with depressed:
- usually smarter than the average person
- has a better perspective of the world
- views situations more realistically
People diagnosed with Anxiety
I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
thing. That I couldn't possibly be feeling the way I do. That it's not a real problem. That I need to grow up and get over myself. That i have nothong to be 'depressed' about. Well I hate to tell you that depression is real and it's not something that you can just 'get over' and...
or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days.
In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
that this is it. I will never feel happiness. I am just going to be a miserable f#ck for the rest of my life. I suck the life out of everyone around me and I convince myself they are sucking the life out of me
Meds made me worse.
Society failed to improve.
Social media allows trolls.
Local trolls grift us all.
Cops cant stop much
They are here to write tickets
So the wealthy can dodge taxes
With not much to say they do
Except facts like they get tax breaks
found other issues cropping up lately like worsening anxiety and even a couple of panic attacks. Only after taking care of my mother the last year of her life did I find out she had been taking anxiety meds for a long time, and hopefully mine won't continue to get worse.
for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
Sure it was programmed to cheat
And called challenging.
Upset when it cheats
Because that robs me
And the loss bites deep
Brings not good enough back
And proves takers win
While me gets meds that wreck me more.
The wealthy choose profit