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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    Reached another breaking point.

    Last month. Was gonna remove old farts. Who hurt me. And the dad who started it all. But pals sad if me did. And ep pals not knowing Won me what options. Have lost five who left earth. Dont want my pals feeling that. Not by my leaving. So. East coast...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jun 27

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    Today was better somehow.

    I woke up feeling a little less tired and beaten. I don't think I cried once all day nor thought about suicide. Better. Still I'm struggling. But feeling like I have a little more fight in me. But women. I don't know. I want them, and hate myself for wanting. "I don't deserve it...
    rpf1988 rpf1988 41-45, M 5 days ago

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    From now on I accept every challenge,

    and I'm not going to worry about people judging me in the way I overcome obstacles. I know that I can do anything I set my mind to and it's not going to kill me to be stronger. Besides, I'm like, the silliest person on earth.
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Coping skills. Showrrs.

    Video games. Dogs. Kids. Creative writing. Comedy videos. Advising peers. Seeking advice. Sleeping. Chocolate. Listing positives. Listing pains on ep that faded. Making net pals. Eye candy at stores. Self pleasuring. Watching trees Or stars...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    ...and it has weird effects on my brain

    and body. One that I find kind of amusing and sobering all at the same time is this. When I'm having a conversation with someone- mostly noticed this with my brother and boyfriend, if there is a pause in the conversation, can literally just be for a few seconds I will...
    EleanorPainting EleanorPainting 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am to

    announce that I have decided to become a Plexus Ambassador!!! I have jumped in with both feet for two very important reasons: 1) Plexus has a set of products that is CHANGING PEOPLE’S LIVES and I wanted to be a part of that! I've stood by and watched many of my friends gain...
    PlexusSlimChick PlexusSlimChick 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 20 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Why. Society following luxury.

    Not unity. Why. Commercials. Peer pressure. Traditions that have created crime. But a view like mine gets sedated. Why. Because if we cared more about unity. Certain religions And egos Would lose power. And they wont permit that. Without bombing way...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    The thing about depression is everyone confuses

    it with being sad, or unhappy. But I'm not unhappy. There's just so much emotional and physical pain inside me that nobody can see. Most days it's bearable, but sometimes it's more than I can take. Anyone who's ever felt any kind of pain knows its power. Pain can consume you...
    Calsi704 Calsi704 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am not what happened to me.

    I am what I choose to become.
    Meloryne Meloryne 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    Hopefully some of my friends here will see this

    in their feed ... I'm not ignoring you. I'm kinda overwhelmed at work and at home. I want to write some long messages but I never feel I have enough time to write them properly, so I don't. I hope you understand.
    scrimshaw scrimshaw 46-50, M 5 Responses Apr 12

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    Depression. Anxiety. Stress.

    Loneliness. That's the life I'm living. Abandoned. Cold. Empty. Crying. That's how I'm feeling. Alone at 13. Used and abused. Taken in. Told I'm loved. Then left again. Not once but twice. Left again to be used, abused & forgotten by all. No family. No friends. No one...
    Saphhy195 Saphhy195 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    I've only been awake

    for two hours and I am already done with today. Being so down and stressed all the time is exhausting. What's worse is everyone who is involved in my care keeps pushing diet and exercise as the solution, which just makes me feel worse because my body is a huge issue for me. I...
    someoneinvisible someoneinvisible 22-25, T 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Was told this was crap.

    How to locate cures. EP Link By more than one boo hoo bear. So to clarify. What causes sad or happy. Abuse. Lies. Theft. Bullies. Morons. Impairments Praise. Improving. Feeling good enough. So how to get there comes. Society is a greedy...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Was fearful of intake appointment.

    Went to meet case manager early. To calm fears. A rehab worker came. To say my worker was at lunch. The rehab biped went frosty on me. Corrosively frosty. But me tolerated what me could. Then left. And went back later. To meet my worker. Who seemed truly...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I hate trying to describe what depression

    and anxiety "feels" like to people who've never experienced it. No words could do it justice. The closest description I've ever heard was that "It's like drowning. Except you can see everyone around you breathing."
    nobody62442 nobody62442 22-25, F 5 Responses May 20

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    I really want to die

    and or hurt myself
    sealare sealare 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Death sometimes feels like the only way out of

    a bad situation. Depression/mental illness in general is like being trapped in a elevator lined with mirrors. You can only see yourself and your situation. It seems there is no way out. Yet, there is a way, through medication and therapy. It's up to the person to get help, you...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 26-30 5 days ago

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Destiniegonzales Destiniegonzales 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I was always the bubbly person

    who made people laugh and smile. Now I don't even want people around me.
    Ashmm Ashmm 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    I feel depressed but not only

    that I feel so hopeless. Just sitting there existing aggravates me. Everything irritates me. I'm angry at day. I'm crying at night. The only time I forgot is when I'm at the park swinging on the swings while listening to music. Drugs, Alcohol, Self-Harm, and Sex. There tempting...
    DarkDerpy DarkDerpy 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Daily. Almost hourly.

    But hope comes. EP Link
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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Big. Huge. Fight.

    Or flight. Big. Huge. Got bullied. By has beens. And a huge club. With wealth backing it. So. Fight looked good. Ded by kop. But then my inner sage spoke. How will that affect pals. And unknown peers Who fit like pals. It would wreck us all...
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    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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