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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Every thought is a battle,

    every breathe is a war, and I don't think I'm winning anymore.
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I kicked depressions butt with JESUS !

    After many unsuccessful attempts nothing really worked until I prayed and called Jesus for help then my depression cleared within a week and never came back again! Hallelujah praise Jesus !
    ladyrasta ladyrasta 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    Having depression and anxiety at the same time

    is impossible to deal with. You want to die but then again you're so scared you will.
    Knockoffheart Knockoffheart 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11, 2014

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    I was very recently diagnosed with anxiety.

    I probably always had it but I really look notice of it last year when I started having panic attacks. I'm on medication now and feel a lot better but it's hard to have to deal with a problem I'm not used to. My depression also flares up from time to time and I know I should see...
    Catherdra Catherdra 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    I thought I was getting better

    after getting off medication but the depression is coming back. I been in therapy and on meds since i was a teen. The medication started Making me Physically sick so i decided to get off of them. At the beginning i felt ok for a couple of months but the it started going down...
    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    start therapy again today.

    new psychologist. feeling nervous :s
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    I feel like I'm fighting something I can't see.

    . My anxiety is through the roof, I'm spiralling down try to stop myself falling - I so need help!
    johnjw johnjw 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    Honestly, it's a lot better then it was,

    normally, people tell me "you're such a happy person" or "you seem so happy, Grace." But I'm really not, it's all an act, to just avoid the typical questions people have to ask, like "why?" Or "what's so wrong with your life?" When really, I don't even know the answers. I've...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Do not confuse my bad day

    as a sign of weakness because they are the days i am fighting my hardest.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    https://hirainingoutside.

    wordpress.com/2015/03/27/lets-fight-back/
    rainingoutside rainingoutside 22-25, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Last night at a family outing to an Enchanted

    Forest, I had at least three major panic attacks because of the huge crowds of people and loud music. I was told to suck it up. Tip ~ Don't tell someone with anxiety to "just get over it". It makes them feel even worse than they did before & it is ******* helpless. -.-
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2014

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    been on a new medication

    for over a week and I feel great :)
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M Mar 16

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    Scoodaloop Scoodaloop 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I've been through a lot.

    I survived the roughest point in my life. I went through severe bullying, emotional abuse, self harm, self hatred, suicidal thoughts, and death on the inside. I made it through that. If I can handle the lowest point in my life, then I definitely can handle my life right now. I...
    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F Mar 17

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    My boyfriend of a year

    and a half dumped me today. We live together and he text me to end it. His reasons being my depression was making him Ill.
    Smithsfan Smithsfan 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 16

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    You know that point where you slip back into

    that same mindset?You take your medication, you try the techniques they teach you. But then just one thing just resets it back to the core. It's like no one else understand, they do not see the gravity of it all. They do not see how such a 'simple' thing could completely relapse...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F a week ago

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M a week ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I use to be so happy

    and positive all the time. Now I'm just filled with so much anger and hate.
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I originally posted this

    as a question but decided to share it as a story since it is such a big part of my life. I went to my doctor twice this month for a stabbing pain lower left back and thought had a kidney stone, and I waited several weeks before going to a doctor because I don't like going...
    Ifyouaskme Ifyouaskme 31-35 4 days ago

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I've been getting an hour a night of really

    light sleep for almost a year I'm at wits end I don't know what to do anymore I'm so sleep deprived. I work construction as a welder it's such hard work as it is and without any sleep it's not good guys at work are clowning on me because I'm acting really weird but it's not...
    arthuralferez arthuralferez 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    why do I feel depressed

    when I'm outside with many people and friends? I feel lonely and like everyone doesn't matter I can only feel the shagness and just get really depressed....
    miumiux miumiux 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M Mar 17

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    Is it bad that I wish I could have a cigarette?

    I've heard it's very relaxing.. And that's what I need right now. I want to be relaxed.. I want my mind to be calm. I don't want to think anymore... Not right now.
    Myohmygoodness Myohmygoodness 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I've been taking care of my mom in her home

    for the past week after she had an infection that hospitalized her. My sister and her infant son live there too, and she is a recovering alcoholic with the highest stress level I've ever been around. She projects her anger and stress onto everyone around her...and whenever she...
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F