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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I have a lot I'm dealing with right now.

    I know I have anxiety and now I figured out I have depression. I know people say "You don't have depression. Your too young for that." Welp, I do. I figured out I had depression, just like I figured out I had anxiety and dyslexia. I don't find it bad labeling my self that I...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F May 12

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I woke up with anxiety again.

    I am getting so tried of it. sometimes I feel like giving up. I just feel sad today, I am tried of waking up with anxiety or my bipolar acting up. Today is not a good day.
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I just found out I got an F on my midterm

    and I'm feeling completely hopeless right now. I don't know who to talk to because I can't even tell my parents even though I tell them almost everything. I feel like I committed a sin and I don't know if I'll be forgiven.
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo 18-21 1 day ago

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

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    I HAVE battled...now I am ready to give up the

    fight.. I am tired of trying.. I have enough.. My EP friends have helped me, but now I think they are getting tired of me feeling down and depressed.. Which I understand as I am sick if it too.. They said:'What can I do to help?' Well, I don't know what they can do..if I knew I...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    How can you tell your parents you need mental

    help without them laughing at you?
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    Haven't spoken to my parents

    since Feb... It does kill me everyday and I hate that I'm not talking to them because I'm usually clung on... But I got so tired of them hurting me and bottling it up that it's all just there sitting in my mind that whenever I want to talk to them I just get angry. I feel...
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 6 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    what always helps me

    whether i'm deeply depressed or crazily anxious is looking at fish (and i think there's a scientific reason behind it?). if you can, keep an aquarium! if you can't, there are plenty of websites and apps that let you look at fish! (my fave is aquarium live hd for ios!) it really...
    kinkystapler kinkystapler 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    I've always had a bad body image,

    I suppose it's what comes with watching your overweight mother get called a cow frequently throughout your childhood. It's time to for me to grow out of it. It's time for me to look at myself honestly. Really, all of my posts are to myself. Every one of my replies to your...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    So this guy literally mad my whole month today.

    I was at Kroger. He was stocking coffee k cups boxes, and I was looking at them. He couldn't find one, so I pointed it out to him. When I used my arm he saw my scars. I thought he would freak, but he just pull his shirt sleeve up, showed me his, and said, "I get it, but I wish...
    lizzie0714 lizzie0714 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    6 weeks. That's how long I lasted

    as the "new and improved me". I can't do this. It's just a battle of who can get rid of you the quickest. Who can make you think they're different, just to prove you wrong. I've been strong. I've waited. And I thought things had got better. But it was just another lie. After 6...
    Smithsfan Smithsfan 18-21, F 1 Response May 8

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    i keep getting "stuck" physically,

    moving from room to room. A suffocating energy is taking over my body and mind. My chest is clinching up and i cant breathe. Im stuck in the past now with no direction forward.
    jaywabz jaywabz 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Sometimes i wish i could run away somewhere

    beautiful and start all over.
    TasiaMedina TasiaMedina 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I honestly feel really crappy.

    My depression and anxiety is acting up and just I feel like ultimate ****.
    xfallingstarx xfallingstarx 13-15, F 1 Response May 15

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    Basically I'm at war with my head all day

    wondering if all these ugly opinions of mine and bad vibes I get off people are accurate or if I'm just crazy...I meet strangers online and in person that are great so I know there's cool people out there...I'm just sick to death of it...I've been around a lot of narsassism so I...
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel like everyone wants something from me.

    I try really hard to give it. Whatever I think they want. I'm pretty positive most of the time. Nobody that knows me would think depressed .. But sometimes i get overwhelmed or im just tired or whatever I feel like I have nothing to give, instead of telling some one I shut down...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 4 Responses May 14

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I love being at home in my Room

    where I safe. Just me by myself all safe and ****
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    I am literally so done with everything

    and everyone. I feel like complete and udder ****. Does anyone have any ways that could possibly help me?
    xfallingstarx xfallingstarx 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Those days where you wish the world would just

    disappear. Is five minutes of happiness and the ability to relax too much to ask for?
    shyguy38 shyguy38 18-21, M 1 Response May 15

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    My demon is anxiety. I've lived with him

    for some years now. I'm pretty used to him. We're comfortable with each other. Dare I say we're friends? He is a part of me, and everywhere we go, we go together. Heading to school, talking to people, buying something, eating something, he is there, whispering in my ear. He...
    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 27

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 3 Responses May 11

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    My days get no better,

    Feels like they get worse and worse And the more I fake a smile the more I fake happy The more this urge of wanting to die eats away at me inside I'm ready to go I know it's my time I have no purpose And that is fine Suicidal and destructive ~Blasian Alien
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 1 Response May 13

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    I've been treated since I was 15,

    it's only days like this that make it all worth while.
    KylieKaat KylieKaat 18-21, F 5 Responses May 9

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    i am not where i am supposed to be.

    .... but thank god i am not where i was.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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