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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    How is it even possible to hurt SO bad

    for SO long?? 3 years living inside the nightmare now. Will it EVER end?
    LookingForTheSunshine LookingForTheSunshine 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I make such horrible impulsive decisions.

    . I've succeeded at ruining my life because of these decisions.. I feel so alone, jus wish I didn't have to live life anymore... I'm so depressed.. My eyes burn from crying and not sleeping.. Saw the guy I like at this bar yesterday; he knows I go there every Tuesday, and he...
    n1n74 n1n74 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I don't know why I feel the way I do.

    It's not environmental. There is no reason I should feel this way. On paper my life is ******* awesome. But I'm depressed all the time and I feel I always have been. Went to the doc. Meds aren't working. Things are getting worse.
    YEGH YEGH 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    There isn't anybody in my life right

    now that understands the extent of my condition. Nobody that knows about the trips/days in hospital. I spent the night making sure my dad and brother were alright. And now I could walk out without anybody knowing. And never come back.
    Smithsfan Smithsfan 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    A great song to check out: Gabrielle

    Aplin-Lying to the mirror
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F Apr 10

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Arsidone. http://youtu.

    be/vw5lwK9UAY8
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 5

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    Here's a poem which I find particularly helpful

    and generally good to have in mind. It's called "Hope for the Suffering Heart", and it's by Joseph Kemper. "While the pain reigns and fear rules My heart cries out, is there no end Long after the words have ceased The voices echo in my ears Tearing deep into my heart Till it...
    somniatorlupus somniatorlupus 18-21, M Apr 6

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    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

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    phaselove86 phaselove86 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    Hopefully some of my friends here will see this

    in their feed ... I'm not ignoring you. I'm kinda overwhelmed at work and at home. I want to write some long messages but I never feel I have enough time to write them properly, so I don't. I hope you understand.
    scrimshaw scrimshaw 41-45, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    So I got put on medications this morning during

    my medication evaluation. An antidepressant and an antianxiety medication. I as much as I don't want to be on them I know I need them and I'm hoping that they help me out.
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 1 Response Apr 6

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    ashleymac96 ashleymac96 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 8

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

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    I just wanna meet one person

    who will Come into my life and not hurt me , and never leave .. 😔😢 struggling with anxiety and debating whether to end it all or just suck it up .
    pinkkbeautyy pinkkbeautyy 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    Last Friday I tried to commit suicide,

    and because of that I'm now in a mental hospital because they don't think I'm stable. The doctors here says, that I'm suffering from depression and social anxiety. Have any of you tried something familiar?
    josieee1 josieee1 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I really have to fight back the urge

    to break down into tears, and especially when I am at work. Many times I'll just be working and suddenly become completely consumed by grief and sorrow. It's becoming increasingly more difficult to hide my tears. I wish things weren't this way. I wish that things would improve...
    DarkestDespair DarkestDespair 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Can you go to the hospital

    for just having really bad depression? Not feeling suicidal but just being severely depressed? Because I am severely depressed and I need something that'll help. This is the worst it's ever been .
    mariahhhh101 mariahhhh101 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 6

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I think I may suffer from depression and/or

    anxiety....I don't know any signs or symptoms and I don't want to look any up and self diagnose myself...both of these are very serious conditions and I don't want to jump to any conclusions. I'm just very confused and lost.
    SouthernBell1020 SouthernBell1020 18-21, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    After every upswing is a downswing

    and this one has put me so low I'm going to need a latter to get out of this hole.
    camillem33 camillem33 16-17, F a week ago

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    Rapid cycling bipolar disorder.

    Body defeats most meds. Some made me worse. So. Every minute is. Up. Down. Up. Down. If my body could exercise like that. Me would be closer to sexy looking. Lmao.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    This is probably my biggest secret.

    I have been battling depression for well over two years now. For the last five, or six it has been on-again/off-again. I am tired of it. I don't even know who I am anymore. I remember when Robin Williams killed himself. I was furious and my first reaction was to mouth off at...
    JeanYuss JeanYuss 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I've battled depression

    and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I have it a bit more under control these days but I still have moments when it all just goes to hell again for a few days at a time.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Going to the doctor in the morning

    for my evaluation for my antidepressant. Wish me luck.
    Lovelybaby18 Lovelybaby18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 23 hrs ago

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Walkin to work... It's Easter n my bunny jus

    died the other day... My buddy bunny.. :/ feels like I'm in Hell.. (Edit) Currently at work psyching myself out, pretending I'm happy and normal, like I'm not completely falling apart on the inside... But I'm not okay and I don't think anything is okay.. I don't want to get...
    n1n74 n1n74 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 5

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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