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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    i keep getting "stuck" physically,

    moving from room to room. A suffocating energy is taking over my body and mind. My chest is clinching up and i cant breathe. Im stuck in the past now with no direction forward.
    jaywabz jaywabz 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Depression is when you can't feel anything at

    all. Anxiety is when you feel too much. Having both means there's a constant war within me. Having both means I'll never win.
    amw121112 amw121112 26-30, F 2 Responses May 16

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    Hopefully some of my friends here will see this

    in their feed ... I'm not ignoring you. I'm kinda overwhelmed at work and at home. I want to write some long messages but I never feel I have enough time to write them properly, so I don't. I hope you understand.
    scrimshaw scrimshaw 41-45, M 5 Responses Apr 12

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    How can you tell your parents you need mental

    help without them laughing at you?
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been stuck in the same rut

    for over 3 years now. Every day there's another weight added to my shoulders, another anxiety to add to a never ending list. More recently, I've been struggling to remember anything. I've begun switching off completely and just going through the days routine. I'm regularly asked...
    dodgethebullet dodgethebullet 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I use to do ballet. The teacher was not nice

    but when I did ballet I felt free from life situations. I was able to express my self threw my classical ballet . it was a way of easing my depression.
    flowergirl1997 flowergirl1997 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've always had a bad body image,

    I suppose it's what comes with watching your overweight mother get called a cow frequently throughout your childhood. It's time to for me to grow out of it. It's time for me to look at myself honestly. Really, all of my posts are to myself. Every one of my replies to your...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    So I finally got a new job!

    ! After two years and settling for only a part time position for the past 8 months, I finally got a full time position! My anxiety has been horrible for two years due to the financial strain and I was unfortunate to get a boss in my part time position that took people for granted...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I am literally so done with everything

    and everyone. I feel like complete and udder ****. Does anyone have any ways that could possibly help me?
    xfallingstarx xfallingstarx 13-15, F May 16

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I honestly feel really crappy.

    My depression and anxiety is acting up and just I feel like ultimate ****.
    xfallingstarx xfallingstarx 13-15, F 1 Response May 15

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    So this guy literally mad my whole month today.

    I was at Kroger. He was stocking coffee k cups boxes, and I was looking at them. He couldn't find one, so I pointed it out to him. When I used my arm he saw my scars. I thought he would freak, but he just pull his shirt sleeve up, showed me his, and said, "I get it, but I wish...
    lizzie0714 lizzie0714 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    Someone please tell me how to be happy again.

    Please :( I'm so tired of trying and getting nowhere.
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate trying to describe what depression

    and anxiety "feels" like to people who've never experienced it. No words could do it justice. The closest description I've ever heard was that "It's like drowning. Except you can see everyone around you breathing."
    nobody62442 nobody62442 22-25, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    So much hurt. So much agony.

    But I'm laughing really of my foolishness. He lied. He lied to me. Well perhaps he never told me the whole truth. And here I am.... Feeling bad for being angry with him. Why? I deserve to be angry right? He hid things from me.... But I'm the one who feels bad for getting angry...
    TheWestlifer TheWestlifer 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 18-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Been increasingly absent,

    and find it difficult to even try to be present and mindful. I have noticed the connection of this to anxiety, which has been high this past week. Even my dreams are unsettling. Today I had to keep moving to fight the urge to go back to bed and let the mindless state take over...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    EP has become my coping strategy lately.

    And I can't quite tell how much it's helping vs. how much it's hurting. I feel a bit disconnected from the world lately, but is that because of EP, or would I be dealing with that anyway right now? This is the worst time of year for me (spring in the mountains! Ugh!) I really...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 4 Responses May 10

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    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I feel like everyone wants something from me.

    I try really hard to give it. Whatever I think they want. I'm pretty positive most of the time. Nobody that knows me would think depressed .. But sometimes i get overwhelmed or im just tired or whatever I feel like I have nothing to give, instead of telling some one I shut down...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 4 Responses May 14

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    what always helps me

    whether i'm deeply depressed or crazily anxious is looking at fish (and i think there's a scientific reason behind it?). if you can, keep an aquarium! if you can't, there are plenty of websites and apps that let you look at fish! (my fave is aquarium live hd for ios!) it really...
    kinkystapler kinkystapler 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    Sometimes i wish i could run away somewhere

    beautiful and start all over.
    TasiaMedina TasiaMedina 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    I've been treated since I was 15,

    it's only days like this that make it all worth while.
    KylieKaat KylieKaat 18-21, F 3 Responses May 9

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Will someone please pray

    for me, and those who don't believe in prayer, at least hope for me? I have to work a 7 hour shift today and with my current mental health issues, work is terribly difficult. I can't function. My anxiety makes me terribly irritable and my depression makes me severely tired...
    InvaderNice InvaderNice 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 29

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Haven't spoken to my parents

    since Feb... It does kill me everyday and I hate that I'm not talking to them because I'm usually clung on... But I got so tired of them hurting me and bottling it up that it's all just there sitting in my mind that whenever I want to talk to them I just get angry. I feel...
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    I love being at home in my Room

    where I safe. Just me by myself all safe and ****
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I woke up with anxiety again.

    I am getting so tried of it. sometimes I feel like giving up. I just feel sad today, I am tried of waking up with anxiety or my bipolar acting up. Today is not a good day.
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    My days get no better,

    Feels like they get worse and worse And the more I fake a smile the more I fake happy The more this urge of wanting to die eats away at me inside I'm ready to go I know it's my time I have no purpose And that is fine Suicidal and destructive ~Blasian Alien
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 1 Response May 13

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I just found out I got an F on my midterm

    and I'm feeling completely hopeless right now. I don't know who to talk to because I can't even tell my parents even though I tell them almost everything. I feel like I committed a sin and I don't know if I'll be forgiven.
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo 18-21 2 days ago

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