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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    Harper101 Harper101 16-17, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    Dear parents, If you guys read my suicidal

    notes, would you change? Would you love me more? Would you apologize for all the terrible and horrible things you said to me? Would you guys become better for me? Or will you continue to blame me for everything? Say that everything's still my fault for the way things are right...
    supahdupahrosie supahdupahrosie 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    So I'm really overwhelmed today.

    The self harming is like screaming at me. I'm doing my best to fight it. I just feel like I'm drowning. My family is trying to help, but they don't really get it. They think they do, but they don't.
    lizzie0714 lizzie0714 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    tisher2288 tisher2288 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 13 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    It's sad how no matter what you do,

    people will always treat you like ****. Whether they know what you're going through or not....
    ShesDepressedHoney ShesDepressedHoney 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Same ****, different day.

    1. Cant get out of bed 2. Cant concentrate at school 3. Cant stop eating 4. Drowsy as **** for no apparent reason 5. Crawl into bed after a failed attempt at writing down my feelings and wish I didnt have to face tomorrow.... Cool lyf
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    On a scale of one to ten,

    ten being the highest, my anxiety will always remain a 3 or 4. I have chosen to not allow depression and anxiety to take one more day. So I let it come along. Every time I step out the door, there it is. Like a finger or toe. I can't leave it behind. But it certainly does not...
    sunny3875 sunny3875 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I've battled depression

    and anxiety for 2 years and I was cutting for a year and never got caught until November and lost literally everything. I battled anxiety for 4 years and it was already bad enough and then shortly after I lost everything I wreck a truck... I flipped it upside down in the ditch...
    guitarboy0412 guitarboy0412 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I never thought I'd say it

    but this is in the past for me. my advice is to wait. just sit there and cry for however long it takes. pain is necessary to be strong, due to our modern life of luxury this pain must be mental/emotional rather than physical. if you have a lot of pain in your past there are a...
    pete420 pete420 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 14

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    As it's the only subject

    that I'm unable to put words to.. I shall just leave this here..
    JaneBloodyAusten JaneBloodyAusten 31-35, F 11 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    Depression is like sitting in the corner of a

    crowded room watching everyone around you enjoy life while you struggle to remember what you are living for...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I come out of the shadows just enough to feel

    human once in a while but not enough to be hated or loved, but yet it still finds me won't leave me the sadness from the abuse the emptiness it leaves. I fake the smile everyday knowing it will get worse, my heart breaks even more than I ever thought it could, and every day I...
    skittlesbaby753 skittlesbaby753 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm hurt and in pain And i don't know what to

    do I'm sad and I'm mad And a little lonely too I'm tired and I'm weak And slowly falling down I'm fragile and I'm delicate And almost at the ground I bleed and I scar And with that I forget Then it stops and they heal And I remember it I scream and I cry And I wish...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    mollyomeara mollyomeara 13-15, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I have a hard time to do certain things,

    like stick to a diet. I don't care about my weight unless I realize my old dress doesn't fit or somebody in my close circle tells me I am fat. But twice I have really made a decision to keep a diet, and the first time was when I was 12 and got bullied, I got so depressed and...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Summerandroses Summerandroses 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    Feels like I'm starving

    but want to throw up at the same time. A rumbling thunder that starts in my toes and slowly creeps up every inch of my body. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to hurt myself...or you. I want to crawl out of my own skin and leave this lifeless body behind.
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I made it. I´m so proud I´m going to burst.

    http://hailey2thequeen.weebly.com/blog/how-to-cope
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm super out of it. I got stuck up north

    and couldn't get my medicine before it ran out. I've been back on it for a few days now. Last night I woke up feeling awful. I went to the bathroom to put some cold water on my face. On the way back to bed I passed out. Luckily, my cousin was in town and was on the blow up...
    lizzie0714 lizzie0714 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 11

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I fear that some one will see past the mask.

    They can tell that I am not what I pretend to be. But a part of me weeps wishing someone would notice I am falling apart. Someone cares right?
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    elyayamama elyayamama 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I'm trying. Even if you don't think so,

    I am any one can tell you that. But there's only so much I can do. I'm at a point where I can't do anything else. I'm standing on a ledge. Too close now to be safe. Too far from happiness. Too far from safety. Too far to save myself. My mind is too broken, too lost, too out of...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F Jan 11

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    I did something I shouldn't have done

    and the things I know now are making me feel very anxious. I'm trying to focus and not let things hurt me, but it's being really difficult. I'm trying to convince myself that I don't care. I thought I didn't care. I don't know how to describe how I feel. It doesn't hurt. I'm...
    Ushuaia Ushuaia 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I'm deeply depressed,

    but I don't tell people because all I get for it is name calling such as "attention seeker"
    DoYouTryToUnderstand DoYouTryToUnderstand 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 15

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    Need some advice or even someone just to listen.

    I have a new job. My first full time job. First big thing i did to get myself together. Thing is i am not good at it. Everyone says its amaising if you can get past the first three months. Before that you sink or swim. They say its a matter of wanting it. Finding what works for...
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 10 Responses 6 days ago

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    the worst part that medicine doesnt help me .

    im just lost .so hard to explain .just need help
    marwancrouch marwancrouch 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Im not running anymore,

    and I'm not going to bury my troubles while pretending they don't exist... I am depressed and I suffer from it every single day. I can't do anything without thinking about what depresses me. My life is ruled by the thought of one person that was once apart of my life and I have...
    Suddanlius Suddanlius 22-25, M 5 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    Finally went to a psychiatrist today

    for the first time... She gave me meds and said it would be good to see a trauma therapist and she gave me soft meds to start out and in a month wants to see me again to see how they go... I got meds for depression and I got antipsychotic meds for my episodes and my anxiety and...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm a teen with depression.

    .. I feel so alone right now.. There's this empty hole, inside of me.. I don't know what's wrong... I just... I need someone.
    undeadsuperhero undeadsuperhero 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11, 2014

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Today I did something big.

    I decided to leave my bedroom, my safespot. I decided to leave it for 24 hours. The fact is that I left the house, I went out (in public spaces) and did stuff. I went to the movies, I did some shopping and I sat down for a coffee. I did all of this, for me. Today, i won a small...
    haileycuddlebug haileycuddlebug 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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