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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 23 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I've been out of meds

    for 6 days. Called the doc AGAIN.! told me today he's not going to refill. Didn't say why or anything. now I have nothing til I find another doctor. The meds r only thing that keep me normal and nice. Being made to stop, cold turkey. Wth.. I'm going nuts. Anxiety thru the roof...
    nanook30 nanook30 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I Am My Own Hostage.

    For the average person, getting out of bed & getting ready for the day is a normal, worry free morning routine. But for many of us just the sound of the alarm clock is that dreaded noise that reminds us that we must struggle through another uncomfortable, meaningless day full of...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    IT´S BACK

    There was a blues festival in my town this week. My daughter posted all the dates for the concerts on our refrigerator door just to make sure we wouldn´t miss any of the shows. She is 12.  She loves blues, jazz and classical music.  Of course, she loves pop and modern songs...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 1, 2011

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29

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    Natural Depression Treatments

    1. Get in a routine. If you’re depressed, you need a routine. Depression can ***** away the structure from your life. One day melts into the next. Setting a gentle daily schedule can help you get back on track. 2. Set goals. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't...
    vewragid vewragid 31-35 4 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I was so positive about this weekend,

    my friend is getting married he wants me apart of his grooms men. But last 12hrs I have been having none stop anxiety attacks I've popped more pills than ever. But when I try to explain to people, just how bad I am they don't wanna listen. I'm kicking myself cause I'm gonna...
    seanv14 seanv14 26-30, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Chesher Chesher 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I Have..

    I have Depression,OCD and Social anxiety. It's painful and I feel like everything in my life is a struggle. Simple things that others take for granted like interacting in a class is like torture for me. But I don't have a choice but to live with it everyday. I've been having...
    Summr Summr 22-25, F 8 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    I'm done with people

    who think it is perfectly acceptable to push me around like I'm nothing. Removing toxic people from your life and trying to keep out of triggering situations is a whole lot harder than it seems. My recovery comes first. I just want to get better.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just got re-diagnosed.

    Although I guess it's relieving to know what the official names for what I'm going through it's infinitely more daunting. I mean, I have never been diagnosed with anxiety. I have old habits with depression, as almost a decade of it will naturally form coping mechanisms, but I...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 26-30 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Staring at the wall. Not moving a muscle.

    Chest feels like filled with black liquid and head so full that it´s about to explode. Vision blurred and breathing is almost useless. Is this some idea of special hell? No, it´s just one of the rough days.
    Eyesonthesky Eyesonthesky 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    The psychotherapist made me realise I've been

    depressed my whole life. After finally self harming at 13 it took 4 years to feel confident enough to seek help. I didn't want to waste the doctors time. School councillors are rubbish. The uni one was abit better. The psychotherapist was fine but I found myself agreeing that I...
    ssssmills ssssmills 18-21, F May 21

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    To Medicate - or Not.

    I hope my story & experience can help someone else that is struggling with Anxiety and Depression and is worried about taking medication. I think I have always known since I was younger I was not "Like everyone else". Not in some dramatic soul tormenting kind of way, just a...
    ALynn007 ALynn007 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    guardian96 guardian96 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've had both for the longest time.

    My psychiatrist put me on a new anti depressant called Effexor 75 mgs. And I've been on soooooo many anti depressants since I was 13. Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, Buspur, Cymbalta, Wellbutrin, Pristiq, Remeron, Trazadone, etc. I feel like a gini pig. They've never really put me on...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Patience - April 6

    How sick and tired we may become of people telling us to be patient or to learn patience. How frustrating it can be to want to finally have something, or to move forward, and then not have that happen. How irritating to have someone tell us to wait while our needs have not been...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    I was feeling a little better

    for a few days. I even spent time with some friends that I haven't seen in forever. It was great. But tonight the dark thoughts are back and they are drowning more then ever. I'm scared I might hurt myself again. I don't want this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Well I've read this post back to see

    where I am now and I feel it reads like it wasn't me. However, I did write it. Thankfully, this darkness is now filled with light, fun and laughter. More so with my children especially when they have hysterical laughter from things we do together :-). God it's good to be back...
    johnjw johnjw 36-40, M 2 Responses May 19

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    It gets so frustrating being on

    such a constant roller coaster. I feel like I spend a lot of time wondering when the next thing will hit and send me careening off of this cliff that I've just barely managed to climb on to in the first place. They don't understand and they can't because they don't feel it. I...
    cartmanlover cartmanlover 18-21 Jun 10

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    Uh hi, it's my first time posting here.

    Like most of you I have severe depression and anxiety. Lately it's been getting worse. I feel anxious and because of that I feel depressed and that makes me even more anxious, a completely vicious cycle. I feel horrible on my meds like I'm not myself, but I try to take them...
    QuietViolets QuietViolets 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Why the heck cant my mind just be normal like

    the rest :( what did I do to deserve this !
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 11

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Depression/Anxiety

    Well, it's four o'clock in the morning and I am online researching how to make this depression go away. I google and google and I find this website and decide to share my story. This is pretty much every night these days. In March 2006, my friend died in an accident. I was best...
    depressionhurts98 depressionhurts98 19-21, F 71 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Yes been there, fought it

    and still do. I have to be aware and manage myself and my energy. I find it sad that there are so many people out there that have some form or degree of depression and or anxiety. It's really not a very nice thing to have in life and is extremely difficult and excruciatingly...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    Today I had a bad anxiety attack at work.

    I was shaking and sweating, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it and I was crying, I was clenching my fists so hard my knuckles were white and I couldn't move from the spot I was rooted too after it started when I was in a quiet spot. I left work early and came home. I...
    InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    what are y'all sky pes?

    Need some new people to talk to with my friends 😁
    blondie4821 blondie4821 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Depression is when you don’t really care

    about anything. Anxiety is when you care too much and over think everything. Having both is hell.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 6

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    Vented to my mom about my doctor not refilling

    my meds. I'm bipolar depressive. Told her I felt horrible... She said it's all in my head. Nothing wrong with me. Just grow up you'll b fine. Wtf. What kind of support is that.
    nanook30 nanook30 26-30, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Locked Away I open my mouth

    and words fall out.. a jumbled alphabetic chaos that only few can sift thru to fully understand. The letters from my words strung out in front of him like a jigsaw puzzle waiting impatiently to be solved. My skin feels bare, scaly and freezing cold. Vulnerability has never been...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I hate it when people think

    that I'm joking or not being serious when I say something like this, or say that I'm just doing it for attention or anything like that. **** them! Everything I do isn't for attention, I don't hurt myself for attention I do it to take my mind off worse things in my life...
    lexigreen lexigreen 18-21, F 12 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    That it am done finally beating

    and at my breaking point you put ur trust in some and they throw it back at you fact this keeps happen depress me and the depression as giving me anxiety about going out and doing stuff I just dunno what to do
    scottishbigguy scottishbigguy 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    Snake Kiss.

    Here I am all alone I'm tired of waiting I'm tired of hoping So now I play with the rattlesnake. I twirl him around until he's mad Then he sinks his fangs deep into my veins That's when you come When its too late And I'm too far gone I hear your soft cries As I slowly die I...
    TwistedOak TwistedOak 13-15, F 1 Response May 23, 2013

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    People think depression is sadness & Emptiness .

    People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black sea .But people are sometime wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, feelings , being numb to smile , being numb to survive . You wake up in the morning just...
    Adl5000 Adl5000 26-30, F 2 Responses May 26

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    A little background information.

    Ever since I was about 9-11ish (20 now) I started getting these feelings of depression and suicidal thoughts, I never really thought anything about it, at that age I suppose I thought everybody was the same. Teenage years were hard, it was asif I was 2 people for the most of it...
    milnerr milnerr 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 20 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I Won't Give Up This Battle!

    I agree with 'Don't give up Hope' because it may take awhile before finding the right doctor and/or medication of even lifestyle/diet change.  Vitamins help quite often, and exercise if you are able to talk yourself into moving. Ha.  I was on serotonin type meds for...
    amethyst amethyst 46-50, F 14 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    Crying profusely in a pitch dark Bedroom with

    no one around till my eyes Burn And throat hurts. Because nothing else seems to help
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    Uplifting Depression: 15 Unexpected Lessons From Adversity

    1. Don’t ignore warning signals in your body. Frequent petty colds, stomach aches, and headaches may all be a sign of stress. 2. There is no need to be strong all the time, and even less of a need to maintain an image of strength in front of others. 3. Achievements and titles...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 20 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I Decided To Get Help...

    Well, everything was just getting to me too much. I have been a mess with marital problems, money problems and concern over my future and my children's future. I totally feel like my life is out of my hands and I have no say. These I believe are all valid reasons to be depressed...
    blissfulmiss blissfulmiss 36-40, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2012

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    I am having such a hard time dealing with my

    depression right now. Anxiety is my main problem but I just feel like I can't find my way out. I've lost my job 3 times in 5 years. I have a master's degree in library, but so many libraries are cutting back due to budgets. Yesterday, I was in the children's department of a...
    greensapphire greensapphire 26-30 1 Response 4 days ago

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    School started 2 days ago

    and I'm freaking out. There's very few people I know in the majority of my classes and I only have a few classes with close friends. Most of the people in my classes are the biggest a-holes in the school. It's really starting to bring out my anxiety again and I'm really hoping I...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    These lyrics from Kill Me by The Pretty

    Reckless sum it up quite well And all the lost souls say... Every day I wake up Every day I wake up alone (Kill me, just kill me) Or get me out of the sun Every day I wake up Every day I wake up alone (Kill me, just kill me) And get me out of the sun Someone get me out of the...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I made an appointment

    for therapy in September. My sister is going with me to every session until i can go alone. The anxiety makes me not go. Its a male doctor which im not happy about but its a start.
    kimmykins kimmykins 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I used to take Prozac

    and Zoloft for depression in 2008. That was my first time visiting the psychiatry. Those medications never worked for me because I felt more suicidal so I stopped taking it. As of today I just suffer mainly anxiety. I currently am taking medication for it.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    Seriously, it's getting ridiculous.

    I get angry at MYSELF about it. What exactly is there to be sad about? Why is going out with friends I've known for years such a big deal? What the **** is wrong with me? I mean, it frustrates me so badly. I resorted to self-harm today, just to get the courage to go out for a...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 26-30 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I just so want to write down my feelings

    because I feel so mixed up.i have fibromyalgia,anxiety and depression,Raynaud's disease and an underactive thyroid. I feel like I've given up on myself.am spending a lonely week on my own without my kids,they are on holiday with their dad. I've hardly seen anyone except today...
    tillytot42 tillytot42 41-45, F 12 hrs ago

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    Mini Life Story: A Little Depressing Perhaps Since I Missed Out The Nice Parts But Share Your Experiences And Advice?

    When I was 11 my mother died to suicide and apparently it was due to schizophrenia, I had a hard time as kid coping with it because no one told me what it was and what was going on with my mum. I knew it had been happening but she had medications to deal with it and so while I...
    WishingonashootingStar WishingonashootingStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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