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I Battle Depression and Anxiety

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    I thought I was getting better

    after getting off medication but the depression is coming back. I been in therapy and on meds since i was a teen. The medication started Making me Physically sick so i decided to get off of them. At the beginning i felt ok for a couple of months but the it started going down...
    lovemeiris lovemeiris 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I hate how much I hate my life,

    I consider just ending it all every day, and I'm sure the only reason I am alive is because I can't stand the thought of causing any pain to my family, people say there are painless ways to kill yourself but there aren't someone is always going I get hurt. So I'm stuck living in...
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Having depression and anxiety at the same time

    is impossible to deal with. You want to die but then again you're so scared you will.
    Knockoffheart Knockoffheart 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I went through the whole day with a straight face, walking around feeling out of touch with my surroundings, soon as I got home and into bed, I started thinking about how lonely I am and how I'm never gonna be normal and happy like everyone else, and I started crying...
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I just had a panic attack at two in the morning.

    god i hate this. i don't know what brings this on i was almost asleep than all of a sudden I'm freaking out over nothing and i mean nothing at all. i just started to panic like something was wrong. it makes me think i did something wrong and i just don't know what.
    bw32 bw32 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    why do I feel depressed

    when I'm outside with many people and friends? I feel lonely and like everyone doesn't matter I can only feel the shagness and just get really depressed....
    miumiux miumiux 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I Am Alive

    Here I am searching through the fog. The fog is so thick I can't see where I'm going and I don't know where I'm at, but I am alive. I look behind me into my past and I can see most of where I have been. I see people I care for, people I miss, some good memories, but the hideous...
    keeva keeva 46-50, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I've been through a lot.

    I survived the roughest point in my life. I went through severe bullying, emotional abuse, self harm, self hatred, suicidal thoughts, and death on the inside. I made it through that. If I can handle the lowest point in my life, then I definitely can handle my life right now. I...
    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F Mar 17

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    I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas

    or a Happy Holiday this year! I know it's a struggle for those of us who suffer from depression or have great amounts of anxiety. Just remember to get up in the morning,breathe and be strong. Lots of love to all!
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Depression is feeling like you've lost something

    but having no clue when or where you had it. Then one day you realize what you lost is yourself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2014

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    Gloom and doom is always lingering

    as of lately. I want out of this so bad. I am angry at people for being people. Disgusted with myself. The world is an ugly place. I don't trust, I can't smile. This is not the me I want to be. I don't want to feel this pain any longer. I just want to feel awake again. And I...
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    https://hirainingoutside.

    wordpress.com/2015/03/27/lets-fight-back/
    rainingoutside rainingoutside 22-25, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Do people really understand someone

    who has an anxiety disorder? We all have anxiety. If you feel threatened in anyway, your heart starts to beat fast, adrenaline starts rushing through your body to do one of two things. Fight or flight. This is understandable when you are in “real” situations, like combat...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I've been getting an hour a night of really

    light sleep for almost a year I'm at wits end I don't know what to do anymore I'm so sleep deprived. I work construction as a welder it's such hard work as it is and without any sleep it's not good guys at work are clowning on me because I'm acting really weird but it's not...
    arthuralferez arthuralferez 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I took this photo earlier

    when I was out on a walk to distract myself from panicking. It's beautiful. I live near the countryside so walking up fields with my dogs really helps calm me down.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the

    colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast wavelengths of different variations and shades to create primary and secondary colors. The chapters of my life story are colorblind. My world consists...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F Dec 11, 2014

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M Mar 17

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    Is life really beautiful

    or do we say that lie and repeat it in our heads until we believe it like we have done with love, religion, peace, etc? The answer will always be: Life is not beautiful, but, what is the meaning of beautiful? Do we only see it the aesthetic way? Or do we see it like a picture...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 10 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    "I know that I'm unlovable.

    You don't have to tell me." The only person who's seen the extent of my pain has run away. And now I'm alone again. With all the demons. My question is can anybody love someone who's been raped and as a result can't function in everyday society. Can anybody love that girl...
    Smithsfan Smithsfan 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm proud of my self

    for leaving my bedroom and got ready and just went to my local shopping centre for a walk and just to get some fresh air and try to face the world...I'm sweating like crazy but I'm trying to face my demons if I can do it so can you it's really hard took me guts to do this all by...
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 29, 2014

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    been on a new medication

    for over a week and I feel great :)
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M Mar 16

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    I've been taking care of my mom in her home

    for the past week after she had an infection that hospitalized her. My sister and her infant son live there too, and she is a recovering alcoholic with the highest stress level I've ever been around. She projects her anger and stress onto everyone around her...and whenever she...
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I originally posted this

    as a question but decided to share it as a story since it is such a big part of my life. I went to my doctor twice this month for a stabbing pain lower left back and thought had a kidney stone, and I waited several weeks before going to a doctor because I don't like going...
    Ifyouaskme Ifyouaskme 31-35 4 days ago

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    I feel so uncomfortable

    and unsteady right now. I have no one to vent too and I'm panicking. A few months before I made this big move my guy put me on with his old friend named "J" ... We clicked right away... and she's really cool and she ended up telling me that her and my guy messed around long ago...
    wannaberain wannaberain 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My biggest fear is that you will see me .

    ........ the way I see myself.
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    "Just change your attitude.

    Change the way you think about things." How? You make it sound simple.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 2 Responses Mar 18

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses May 8, 2014

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    I Have To Keep My Focus ... Or Else I Will Fall.

    I think the hardest pain to overcome... is the one that makes you 'see' that life moves forward with or without you that connections with others are temporary and abandonment or betrayal are things innate in human beings. This kind of truth has implications.... such as...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    Do You Know How It Feels....

    ......to be put down and debased your whole ******* life? To be used and abused your whole ******* life? To be told you wasn't meant to be born and are ******* useless and are going to die soon? To be verbally, physically, mentally and emotionally abused amongst other types of...
    Lilith2013 Lilith2013 36-40, F 21 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Last night at a family outing to an Enchanted

    Forest, I had at least three major panic attacks because of the huge crowds of people and loud music. I was told to suck it up. Tip ~ Don't tell someone with anxiety to "just get over it". It makes them feel even worse than they did before & it is ******* helpless. -.-
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2014

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    It's really bad tonight.

    I never know what to do in these drowning moments. I feel like screaming until my voice disappears. More than anything I would like to sleep. And not have my heart racing like this.
    TooLateForEdelweiss TooLateForEdelweiss 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    You know that point where you slip back into

    that same mindset?You take your medication, you try the techniques they teach you. But then just one thing just resets it back to the core. It's like no one else understand, they do not see the gravity of it all. They do not see how such a 'simple' thing could completely relapse...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    You let certain people into your life

    and you think they will be a true friend to you always... but they always end up hurting you even when you think they act like they'll be there.. they won't.
    Euphorialbeauty23 Euphorialbeauty23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 13, 2014

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    Depression.

    You know when your so depressed, you just wanna stay home all day in your blankies, not do anything, and just die in your bubble of self pity?Thats the depression I have right now. I just feel like giving up everything and saying "**** it world goodbye" because I know if I die...
    oreosnow oreosnow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    My boyfriend of a year

    and a half dumped me today. We live together and he text me to end it. His reasons being my depression was making him Ill.
    Smithsfan Smithsfan 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 16

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    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Every thought is a battle,

    every breathe is a war, and I don't think I'm winning anymore.
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like I'm fighting something I can't see.

    . My anxiety is through the roof, I'm spiralling down try to stop myself falling - I so need help!
    johnjw johnjw 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    does anyone else feel numb

    and distant alot of the time? like youre there, but youre not?
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89 26-30, F 12 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 16 Responses a week ago

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    Is it bad that I wish I could have a cigarette?

    I've heard it's very relaxing.. And that's what I need right now. I want to be relaxed.. I want my mind to be calm. I don't want to think anymore... Not right now.
    Myohmygoodness Myohmygoodness 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I use to be so happy

    and positive all the time. Now I'm just filled with so much anger and hate.
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    School, work, and my home life is stressing me

    out beyond belief. I don't know what to do but I definitely know I'm not happy and the way I'm living isn't living at all. I'm too young to change much of it and it all sucks.
    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    The worse feeling is

    when something is killing you inside, and you have to act like you don't care...
    Scoodaloop Scoodaloop 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    With words And facts.

    And hopes. And fears. And worries. And codependancy. And rage. And exercise. And sugar.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    An Open Letter To All Who Suffer

     An Open Letter to All Who Suffer I know…  I have suffered from depression and despair since I was seven years old and my mother tried to kill herself the first time.  I know how deep a person can sink when they believe the whole world is piled up on...
    LonghornFan LonghornFan 56-60, M 21 Responses