I Battle Depression and Bipolar Disorder

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    I don't think I'll survive this one

    nor will I ever be happy- at least that is what my head is telling me these days. I'm suicidal, hospitalized, hopeless and tired of feeling tired.
    Ennah Ennah
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 6

    "Yawn" *stretch* Well

    that was a brutal morning. Some stressors ramped up anxiety last night and I woke up in a heavy depression. For the first hour I kept trying to reason with it: "What is causing all this anxiety in my head...why do I feel so overwhelmed I need to shut down and not face the world...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2015

    Ugh. Don't want to face life today.

    Trigger: anxiety I have for laying down healthy boundaries lol. Cure: "truth telling self talk" and exercise "I can't burn myself out looking after your needs and no my own " repeat till I believe it and my anxiety dials down. Weapons: Grand Flat White from Starbucks to...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    Oct 13, 2015

    Ugh. Starting to feel low

    but " the Show must go on"...I have a music gig I have been paid for already last month. It's what all performers have to do...you act , pull it together and I'll feel better as I play guitar and sing and entertain ....it's my passion and I love it ....just have to remind my...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 5

    And today I have won.

    ...not entirely but I am smiling now . Wrote last post about 3.5hrs ago ...it's just a shadow that I can't get rid of but...bipolar depression... Can't keep me out in the light of life . Push thru if you can . On your side
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    Feb 3, 2015

    The good thing about depression is you save

    money on food ( no appetite) energy ( no lights-sleep) and gym memberships( you exercise by sleeping) Bwaaahaaa just some thoughts . I have been pushing my azzz out of bed all day fighting this mofo depression.
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    2 Responses May 11, 2015

    I've got so much to live for,

    good people that brings out the best of me, I love my family and friends. There is so much hope and there is change, nothing ever stays excact the same. The storm will eventually pass. My life is a pussle seemingly chaotic with pieces laying everywhere, yes it is hard to see...
    Ennah Ennah
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 7

    I have never found self pity to be a helpful

    friend, and it won't be for you.. .I call you to manhood, to embrace the hard things in life for they are how God trains us to be strong. Everyone loves to see strong leaders who are full of wisdom, integrity, and don't get sidetracked with sin, but few want the training that...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    Hard one this morning,

    getting up but it's about self control ...remind myself my brain chemistry is damaged....can't trust my negative illogical feelings. Today is a combination of CBT mindufullness "this will pass soon" and an energy drink to give me some awake kick. Getting kids to school now...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2015

    New Research Regarding Depression

    Hello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know, so they can...
    UV4D UV4D
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 28, 2008
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