I Battle Depression and Ptsd

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    My physical therapy session did not go well

    today. I am in a lot of pain and I hate myself. I can feel the hatred building up inside and I just want to hurt myself. I just want to break something. I hate what I've become a shell of the former person I once was. I hate this bipolar. And it's making me hate myself more and...
    bipolarPeter bipolarPeter
    31-35, M
    May 11, 2015

    I watched Prozac Nation last night,

    such a good film but her drinking habits triggered me into grabbing a bottle of wine from downstairs and drinking the lot straight from the bottle... Nothing like getting hammered on your own at 2am...!
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2015

    I Get Sick of Hearing You Should Be Happy

    I get sick of hearing you should be happy youve got this youve got that why arnt you happy look at every thing you have but its not as easy as that becalse your not depressed from all the toys you have its so much more and people dont get it.
    lunnas lunnas
    41-45, F
    11 Responses Aug 12, 2009

    I know I have to accept

    that this is the way things are, but I don't want to, I can't. -.-
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds
    18-21, F
    Feb 8, 2015

    So it's a year today

    since '**** hit the fan' so to speak... The whole day (and last night) I've been checking the time thinking 'this time last year I was doing this/in this place/talking to this person', etc. every little thing I did.. It's like the whole thing was happening again, don't know how...
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 3, 2015

    Ptsd And Depression On The Holidays

    Having PTSD and Depression is so much harder to deal with through the holidays. Idread the holidays and always feel so alone through them. I lost my first girfriend due to suicide on Christmas Eve of 1981. It has been so much hell for me since its a struggle everyday just to wake...
    mysticghost mysticghost
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Dec 7, 2009

    I Am Tired

      of feeling worse each day when I should be getting better. I jump at the slightest thing, have flashbacks still, and still have nightmares......it's been 9 years. It is better, yes, but not gone. When is it gone?  
    bluehaiku bluehaiku
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jul 21, 2009

    I get a horrible sinking feeling early every

    morning when I awaken from my slumber. Yet the feeling keeps me in bed till noon and even then it lurks around till evening. I am on medication and I feel better, yet I am suicidal. I wish God had chosen a different life for me. Nothing seems worth it and it's extremely...
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    Mar 26

    Coming up to the year anniversary.

    . God this is difficult, if only there were a way to stop my stupid brain thinking about the past so much
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds
    18-21, F
    Jan 23, 2015

    More Than One Thing

    Depression is enough, believe me, but add post traumatic stress disorder because my ex boyfriend stalked me, tortured me, and tried to kill me, AND I was sexually assaulted more than once.....no wonder I am a head case. I don't know which is worse, though. PTSD only...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 27, 2009
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