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I Battle Depression On My Own

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    I'm tired of trying..

    .tired of forcing myself to be happy.
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    sometimes i wish i just had someone around to

    care.....holidays comming up my kid will be with his mom and i have no family just another lonely day, i need to start this trucking so i can just disappear for good, and move to the other side of the country and hope i can rebuild my life
    rgagich rgagich 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    No one knows what I'm going through

    and that's not my fault. When I try to reach out to my friends or family members about my illness they brush it under the carpet and say that I just want attention. I would never want to feel the pain that I feel inside on a daily basis just to get someone to pay me some mind...
    VerucaRose VerucaRose 26-30, F 2 Responses May 19

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    Bi! Bi-fem! Bi-Sexual!

    Gay! Lesbian! STOP HURTING US! we are humans to we have FEELINGS TO !!!
    Eiizeen Eiizeen 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 28, 2014

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    I don't fell any emotions anymore.

    I dint cry when I'm sAd I just sit thee with a blank face. I'm arms are covers you don't want to see my battle field. I'm like a rose that was dropped and stepped on over and over. I'm scared that the full force of the pain will come back again and I will hurt me to much to save...
    kamikoshinok kamikoshinok 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    Days Like This...

    I am so down. From the time I opened my eyes, I exasperatedly wished I wasn't able to get awake... I want to pack my things. My clothes and my everything. But I am going to leave my phone.. I don't want to notify anyone. I don't want to be found by everyone. I am going to full...
    runawayme runawayme 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2012

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    3 years ago.. was told by my school counselor

    that i needed to see my doctor and seek help because she was most certain that i was dealing with depression.. after taking that step and telling my parents that i wasn't okay, they didn't believe me. i then told them about my self harm and about meeting with some one for two...
    unknownana unknownana 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I find myself depressed quit often.

    I feel like I'm not good enough for people and I get on everyone's nerves. I get lonely a lot. I've only mentioned this to my boyfriend because he's the only that seems to notice it but sometimes he's the reason for my depression . :/
    ToriDianne ToriDianne 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    i need help i have have asked

    for help from everyone and no one cares to hear me out.
    SMcCL SMcCL 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    I feel so unnoticed, lonely,

    & unwanted..even when I'm with my group of friends I feel as if I'm on the outside looking in, & they all are more attractive than me; I envy their great skin tone, hair, and teeth..but never to the point where I'm so jealous that I'm mad at them, it's never that serious... I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M Apr 26, 2014

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    I'm always the counselor,

    but never the counseled.....
    Dablugie Dablugie 16-17, F 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    The moment at the bottom of my despair

    and there is not one person I can call.
    scoria scoria 22-25 Jun 16

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    There are times I really don't want to live

    anymore. So much problems, financially, personal. It's very hard I cry alot.
    Missgirlie Missgirlie 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    I want to tell people

    that I suffer from depression but I don't know how! I want to let my friends and family know that I suffer from depression but worry that they will worry about me too much. I have been thinking about suicide for a while but have not properly gone through it. I have seen with a...
    thepan21 thepan21 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I battle sucidial tendicies,

    and depression with a lot of work Ive gotten a lot better, had 2 bad things happen lost one of my best friends and something that I did was really stupid. and no suicidal thoughts.
    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M 1 Response May 17

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    On bad days my world is an apocalyptic

    firestorm. On goods days I am convinced that I made it all up, nothing has ever been wrong, and I have been totally okay all along.
    scoria scoria 22-25 Jun 15

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    My Depression Eats Me

    I feel like everything i do is wrong. I mess everything up and that's why everyone hates me. That's why I don't have friends. That's why people pick on me. That's why my mom hates me and I'll never be good enough for her. That's why the person I'm in love with doesn't love me...
    sugaranspice sugaranspice 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    I told my sister and my friend some of my

    problems and that i am hurting myself, they are feeling sad and i felt better. But then when i want to talk again, because i'm feeling sad, they don't care anymore.
    grayzeb grayzeb 13-15, F Jul 18

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    I lie to my therapist

    and my family doesn't care, friends are always coming and going. No one stays with me through it all, but it's okay I have myself.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    sometimes i feel like im going crazy,

    i have some moments when im really depressed and i want to cry, but i hold my tears back and keep it together the best i can. some days are harder then others.
    marlenevc marlenevc 26-30, F 1 Response May 18

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    I'm depressed but it's not like the I hate

    myself actually im pretty confident and I can't cut myself because I just know someone would figure it out but everyday of my life is grey I don't feel anything I don't care but those are my highs those are the days when I can fake a smile I don't have any light only grey and...
    nannalovet113 nannalovet113 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    It's hard for me to make eye contact with

    people, due to my fear of being called ugly (which I am).
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I'm ugly: I avoid mirrors,

    I don't take pictures, I have an iPhone but I barley FaceTime (but when I do I'm in the dark or dim light)...I don't have an Instagram or a snapchat, but I do have a twitter account which I barely use..I'm very self conscious, I'm heartbroken, socially awkward, paranoid, and I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    It's like I'll never be happy again,

    and this is how my life will always be. I'm kind of ok with it though it's the people around me that don't let it go.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 16

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    i want to tell someone about my problems

    but they told me that i am overreacting and i'm too young to be sad and depressed, i don't know what to do
    grayzeb grayzeb 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I have battled depression

    since I was a teenager every day seems like a struggle but thankfully I have found a combination of meds and meditation that really seems to help me get through the day
    alex2123 alex2123 18-21, T 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Sometimes music is all

    that helps me now...you know I'm bummed when I'm not listening to metal lol
    Volumes Volumes 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2014

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    My mother knows about my depression

    and she has me on pills for them. She thinks they're working. That I feel better. That I'm happy......she doesn't know there's still nights I'm awake at 3 in the morning, crying, wanting to just swallow a whole bottle of pills. I'm alone in this. I always have been and I...
    Ugh2319 Ugh2319 13-15, F May 25

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    I feel like I don't deserve too love anyone

    and that everyone is too good for me
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

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    I have struggled wish depression

    for many years. At times I think of suicide. It is a awful feeling. Feeling alone, sad, worthless, and so much money. I am dealing with alot of personal problems. It just makes my depression even worse. It's a real struggle. I am here for anyone that wants to talk, share, and...
    Missgirlie Missgirlie 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    I thought going on a better diet would motivate

    me to lose weight and also help with my depression. I was wrong though, back to square one. When will I ever feel better? Tablets are a temporary fix which I feel make you worse in the long run. I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy. Most days it makes you not want to be...
    danyellelakin danyellelakin 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    depressed right now. I asked him

    why he broke up with me.. he is saying stuff that makes no sense. I ask what he means. I feel so stupid! why can't he just explain it without blowing up at me!? I didn't mean to do anything..
    XxautychanxX XxautychanxX 13-15, F 3 Responses May 18

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    I Feel That This Burden Is Mine To Carry.

    I've been depressed for about a year now at least, and I haven't really told my family cause I don't want to drag them into this. I feel like this battle that I am waging is a fruitless one, I feel like everyday I lose. There are some days when I can corner my enemy, but he...
    KnightOfJustice KnightOfJustice 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Most days I can take care of myself (thanks to

    the medication) but it would be nice if someone, anyone, checked in on me once in a while. Just a simple "How are you feeling" would be nice...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 29

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    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    People that tell a clinically depressed person

    to just eat healthy and be positive are honestly so ignorant
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 7 Responses May 16

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    I have autism, and despite me being able to

    push it down on a day to day basis, every couple of days, it gets the best of me to the point of wishing a bullet through my head, or a cure for it.
    omss omss 18-21, M 2 Responses May 16

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    I think it all happened

    when I was little, when all of the sudden I realized, I'm all alone. Yes, I grew up in a rather big family. A foster family that everybody treats me as an outsider. Even my mum. When I turned 12, mum told me I had to go back to my own family because they couldn't afford to...
    emmadali emmadali 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I have been battling it on my own

    since 2013. I almost gave up last year by hurting myself but I didn't do it because my friend who committed suicide in 2013 wouldn't want me to do it so I didn't do it because of him. He's making sure I'm still alive
    xxemogirlxx xxemogirlxx 22-25, F Jul 4

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    Sometimes I think everyone else is just

    as depressed as me, they just drink a lot more alcohol.
    Kingshelman Kingshelman 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I'm depressed most of the time

    and I don't see the purpose of living even tho in most ppl's eyes i am a successful girl, pretty, smart and have a life that a lot of ppl would want to have ... What is wrong with me ? :(
    oxoi oxoi 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2014

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    i am breathing, you see me walking

    but inside i am shattered i feel dead
    anad718 anad718 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I have for years and I normally don't tell

    people what's wrong with me
    alyssabay alyssabay 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 8 Responses May 15

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    I have to. I've told people.

    .. Told them how I'm feeling but no one really cares. My family doesn't like when I show negative emotions. Happiness is the only emotion that seems to be socially accepted. It's how I was raised. Why can't there be anyone who wants to hear my story? Who wants to help, without...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I struggle day in day out just like many others.

    we hide behind the wall we build, shielding from everyone near us. I usually am on my own because I push everyone away or they leave me behind. like now. I feel like there is no end to this torturous mind. I want it to end but I fail each time. it never truly ends and it will...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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