I Battle Depression On My Own

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    People that tell a clinically depressed person

    to just eat healthy and be positive are honestly so ignorant
    Madison18 Madison18
    18-21, F
    6 Responses May 16, 2015

    To StableRedGun Depression is an enemy

    who lies. See them and move through to survive. NEVER kill your body, suicide. The body IS a GIFT from the LORD. Should you kill yourself, you shall never recieve another body and shall be condemned to 'walking the Earth' for all eternity. Solve your problems and deal with them...
    RonniePonyStrong RonniePonyStrong
    36-40, M
    Jan 11, 2016

    I'm not really sure what's going on inside my

    head but lately I feel like everything is a struggle. I don't want to go to work I don't want to hangout with people this could be my depression coming in. I'm trying to convince myself that I've gotten this far let's keep moving. It's getting hard and I'm afraid it's going to...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 17, 2016

    depressed right now. I asked him

    why he broke up with me.. he is saying stuff that makes no sense. I ask what he means. I feel so stupid! why can't he just explain it without blowing up at me!? I didn't mean to do anything..
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses May 18, 2015

    I'm ugly: I avoid mirrors,

    I don't take pictures, I have an iPhone but I barley FaceTime (but when I do I'm in the dark or dim light)...I don't have an Instagram or a snapchat, but I do have a twitter account which I barely use..I'm very self conscious, I'm heartbroken, socially awkward, paranoid, and I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jun 28, 2014

    I don't fell any emotions anymore.

    I dint cry when I'm sAd I just sit thee with a blank face. I'm arms are covers you don't want to see my battle field. I'm like a rose that was dropped and stepped on over and over. I'm scared that the full force of the pain will come back again and I will hurt me to much to save...
    kamikoshinok kamikoshinok
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 15, 2015

    Why does it feel like I crave

    for misery? I feel like I put myself in the situation where I know I'm going to end up getting hurt and I don't mind. It's a horrible feeling but I can't shake it off.
    LionPrincess03 LionPrincess03
    22-25, F
    Sep 14, 2015

    I lie to my therapist

    and my family doesn't care, friends are always coming and going. No one stays with me through it all, but it's okay I have myself.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99
    18-21, F
    Jun 26, 2014
    MiaSosseh MiaSosseh
    22-25, F
    Feb 13, 2016

    i want to tell someone about my problems

    but they told me that i am overreacting and i'm too young to be sad and depressed, i don't know what to do
    grayzeb grayzeb
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 18, 2015

    My Depression Eats Me

    I feel like everything i do is wrong. I mess everything up and that's why everyone hates me. That's why I don't have friends. That's why people pick on me. That's why my mom hates me and I'll never be good enough for her. That's why the person I'm in love with doesn't love me...
    sugaranspice sugaranspice
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2013

    Days Like This...

    I am so down. From the time I opened my eyes, I exasperatedly wished I wasn't able to get awake... I want to pack my things. My clothes and my everything. But I am going to leave my phone.. I don't want to notify anyone. I don't want to be found by everyone. I am going to full...
    runawayme runawayme
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2012

    I work out of town all week

    and wife always seem to have sometime for me to do for be take her to the doctors, I understand alot of it but doctors sre comming back with nothing I'm to the point I think I'm going to rent a apartment and try to figure whats going on in head this has been going on for over 3...
    powpow411 powpow411
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    27 years old, 2 years in Iraq with PTSD.

    No friends, married and divorced twice, cheated on both times. I have a plan for the future, but i feel like im just going through the motions. I have a hard time meeting and opening up to people. I honestly dont know what to do.
    CmbtEng CmbtEng
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I just cant remember

    when was the last time that I didn't feel this way. I feel empty, and find myself wondering what is the purpose of life, why are we here? Specially why am I here, if Im nothing, no one loves me in a special way, no one wants me to BE here. Then, why am I? I just think and think...
    AnasHead AnasHead
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 28, 2015

    I am living a life in between two worlds.

    . I wonder if anyone else feels this way, but I choose to spend a lot of time on the Internet because it's the only way I can keep up with it all. At the same time it's a way of escaping for me, letting go of my problems by knowing there's places like this that exist. I'm really...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 23, 2015

    I think I have depression.

    I've never brought it up to anyone or even hinted at it. My grades are gradually dropping and I don't care and can't find the motivation to work harder. Every other day I shut down completely; rarely smiling or cooperating with the world. I will feel so bad about myself that it...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I don't have many friends,

    in fact I only have two that really care. I wonder if the reason is because I have had so many bad experiences that I make people uncomfortable. I mean if you saw someone who was in constant emotional pain, would you want to be friends. I've become positive and optimistic, or...
    Joshua1325 Joshua1325
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 9, 2016

    I'm new here and well.

    ... lonely I guess
    Nobody1415215425 Nobody1415215425
    16-17, M
    Apr 9, 2016

    I'm tired of trying..

    .tired of forcing myself to be happy.
    easynuh easynuh
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Nov 22, 2014

    i am breathing, you see me walking

    but inside i am shattered i feel dead
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 18, 2015

    Have you ever wondered why,

    when you are 3 in a "depressed mood",you can't do anything. I'm sure u know what I mean. I know i can get up and do whatever it is that needs to be done. I just can't. I know this will pass and I'll be ok,again. ahh,just hate this!I'm always hungry, it won't go away! can't get...
    Glitterpoo Glitterpoo
    1 Response Sep 11, 2015

    I'm not sure if I suffer of depression,

    I only know that my life became useless, every day the same, and I just can't stop crying for that. I wanna give up but at the same time I can't. My mom leaved me to fight this alone. Every day the same hell.
    NemoWasHere NemoWasHere
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    Every day you learn something new

    that will either build you up or knock you down. I'm being knocked over every day since I was diagnosed with depression. It only gets worse.
    LionPrincess03 LionPrincess03
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 16, 2015

    I battle sucidial tendicies,

    and depression with a lot of work Ive gotten a lot better, had 2 bad things happen lost one of my best friends and something that I did was really stupid. and no suicidal thoughts.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses May 17, 2015

    i have had it for a long time now.

    a tidal effect of depression that just seems to come and go. the last attack affected me for a long time. it never seemed to end. thoughts of suicide and feeling like im not good enough and just lack of interest in anything. im not going to give up to these thoughts. have to...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 20, 2015

    I just... really... really.

    . want nothing but death. I want to die so badly, I have ever since I was a child.. but I have an obligation to stay alive for my friends so that I can help them with their problems.... at least I'm of use I guess.. I just wish I could actually enjoy things while also being...
    skeletonofpuns skeletonofpuns
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Dec 25, 2015

    whrn I am having a "depression attack "(i knw

    isn't a real yhink,but that's how it feels ) imagination cutting myself, over and over. I don't want to die and I love my life depression just gets in yhe way,it makes it hard to move!i hate these thoughts butnthey kep comming back.if i told a professional im sure they would...
    Glitterpoo Glitterpoo
    Oct 9, 2015

    I Feel That This Burden Is Mine To Carry.

    I've been depressed for about a year now at least, and I haven't really told my family cause I don't want to drag them into this. I feel like this battle that I am waging is a fruitless one, I feel like everyday I lose. There are some days when I can corner my enemy, but he...
    KnightOfJustice KnightOfJustice
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Sep 3, 2012

    Bi! Bi-fem! Bi-Sexual!

    Gay! Lesbian! STOP HURTING US! we are humans to we have FEELINGS TO !!!
    Eiizeen Eiizeen
    22-25, T
    1 Response Apr 28, 2014

    As the night goes by I sit here sleepless,

    disturbed and staring into a blackhole. Mumbling and thinking something, wondering why, wondering how, is life meant to be so confusing? I am wishing for something that will shed light at the darkness, obsessed by a dream of a better life. I stumble through this world, lost...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 4, 2015

    I've been depressed ever

    since I can remember. Loneliness is a big part of it. I miss the complete intimacy a man and woman share together in matrimony. Plus, I am a business owner and trying to get it going.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 7, 2015

    I am really struggling,

    some days are better than other but most days are really difficult to get through,no one understands or cares either.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    I wish I wasn't vulnerable

    and naive in my early 20s when I got involved with my bf (ex now). Was with him 8yrs & I was so stupid back then to think they cared & loved me the way I loved them. I went through 8 yrs of being emotionally abused, from name calling, belittling, & being neglected from basic...
    IX00I IX00I
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

    you ever think is it

    even worth it...being alive
    hoffinator16 hoffinator16
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2016
    Madison18 Madison18
    18-21, F
    6 Responses May 15, 2015

    Waking up is enough for today.

    I don't have the strength to even go shower
    theesodapop theesodapop
    18-21, M
    Aug 14, 2015

    I have to. I've told people.

    .. Told them how I'm feeling but no one really cares. My family doesn't like when I show negative emotions. Happiness is the only emotion that seems to be socially accepted. It's how I was raised. Why can't there be anyone who wants to hear my story? Who wants to help, without...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

    I have been having a lot of interpersonal

    conflicts lately and I haven't been able to figure out why. Maybe it's because it's April, maybe because one year ago today I learned that my dad was in the hospital (he passed away six days later), maybe it's because I am just that difficult to get along with. On Friday, a...
    AlacrityMelancholy AlacrityMelancholy
    41-45, F
    Apr 3, 2016

    By battling depression on my own I mean

    that I do it w/o meds, I actually have the support of my gf, family and friends. I'm bipolar so I'm not always depressed but when I do have it, it is not pleasant. Most of my support backs me in not using meds, but some always think I should be medicated when I am depressed...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas
    56-60, M
    1 Response Oct 7, 2015

    I've been depressed for a couple of years now,

    but my worst point of depression was in july 2015 when i got so depressed i was taking medications for 6 months. I quit them in december/january. Because they were causing a lot of harm,what my point is here ,is that in this period until now i got literally no support from...
    Candymett Candymett
    18-21, F
    Mar 8, 2016

    If I could kill myself

    and know that no one would care I would already be dead.
    Ranae414 Ranae414
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2015

    I will not go down the road of being medicated

    for this again. Its not like the world will change. Only I will tolerate the world better...and thats just masking problems. My problem do not involve money or that materialistic nonsense. But just how society and people my age seem to somewhat make me feel like I don't want to...
    calliney calliney
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 11, 2015

    Sometimes I think everyone else is just

    as depressed as me, they just drink a lot more alcohol.
    Kingshelman Kingshelman
    31-35, M
    Feb 15, 2015

    I feel so unnoticed, lonely,

    & unwanted..even when I'm with my group of friends I feel as if I'm on the outside looking in, & they all are more attractive than me; I envy their great skin tone, hair, and teeth..but never to the point where I'm so jealous that I'm mad at them, it's never that serious... I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain
    22-25, M
    Apr 26, 2014

    I like to Handel things by myself.

    I don't like to involve people into my ****. My parents are ******* me off along with stress and just being sad puts more weight on it
    Nick20954 Nick20954
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    I'm depressed most of the time

    and I don't see the purpose of living even tho in most ppl's eyes i am a successful girl, pretty, smart and have a life that a lot of ppl would want to have ... What is wrong with me ? :(
    oxoi oxoi
    31-35, F
    Jul 15, 2014

    I just wanted to have somebody to say goodnight

    to, so I'll say goodnight to the EP family. I'm all alone on a 45 acre farm in the middle of nowhere and the isolation and depression is killing me. I don't think I'll ever find somebody that loves me again. Goodnight and Happy Holidays.
    LoneWolf37 LoneWolf37
    6 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I don't care if this is read,

    I just feel the need to write it, even though it's been said by many people before me. I hate my life. I hate everything about it. I also seem to hate everyone around me. Something is missing in my life, but I'm not sure of what it is. I thought the military was it, but all they...
    maveric619 maveric619
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2015
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