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I Battle Depression On My Own

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    Hey there. There is no

    such thing somebody can fix you. You gotta fix yourself! Is all in you! In your mind! You gotta learn to see your pain and understand it. And try to not let your emotion controls you but the other way around. Happiness is not in the circumstances. Its your choice whether you...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2014

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    It sucks being homeless.

    Struggling to pay $60 every night just to keep a motel roof over my head
    lostgurl88 lostgurl88 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    Otherside. It's a Song you probably know by the

    Red Hot Chili Peppers. To You, It's another top hit by the band. To Me, It was the most significant, relevant song I knew from the time I was maybe 12 until about a year ago. "How Long, How Long Will I slide? Separate My sides; I don't I don't believe it's bad, Slittin' My...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M Dec 3, 2014

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    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    My parents often can't empathize with me,

    and I still wait for even therapist ms to realize I'm not okay. I feel okay sometimes, and I don't want to seem as if I want attention, but it always comes across that way. I try to have a serious conversation with people about my issues and its "I'm sorry." Or "you'll be okay...
    kittylova kittylova 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I just self harmed for the first time,

    it has been playing on my mind for a couple weeks and I have finally given in, it feels like all of the emotions that I've kept locked up inside have FINALLY been released through cutting but now I feel really guilty, weak and pathetic. With depression you just can't win!!
    EricaAudrey22 EricaAudrey22 18-21, F 13 Responses 6 days ago

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    The Chicken And Egg Conundrum

    I have had all the symptoms and behaviours of depression since my early teens or even earlier.When it lasts this long ( more than 30 years) ,it is such a badly tangled knot of memories and interconnected causes and repercussions ,that it becomes hard to know where to start...
    lezstar lezstar 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 7, 2010

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    I have to. I've told people.

    .. Told them how I'm feeling but no one really cares. My family doesn't like when I show negative emotions. Happiness is the only emotion that seems to be socially accepted. It's how I was raised. Why can't there be anyone who wants to hear my story? Who wants to help, without...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Stressed... Trying to keep positive!

    But it's really hard!
    LizC815 LizC815 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    Technically I haven't been diagnosed with

    depression, but I know from reading books, looking on the internet, taking psychology courses at my local college, that I am indeed depressed. I hurt emotionally; sometimes I don't know why. The funny thing is, when I talk to family or socialize-as best I personally can- I look...
    JessCalbrahm JessCalbrahm 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    sometimes i feel like im going crazy,

    i have some moments when im really depressed and i want to cry, but i hold my tears back and keep it together the best i can. some days are harder then others.
    marlenevc marlenevc 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I battle sucidial tendicies,

    and depression with a lot of work Ive gotten a lot better, had 2 bad things happen lost one of my best friends and something that I did was really stupid. and no suicidal thoughts.
    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm depressed most of the time

    and I don't see the purpose of living even tho in most ppl's eyes i am a successful girl, pretty, smart and have a life that a lot of ppl would want to have ... What is wrong with me ? :(
    oxoi oxoi 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2014

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    Its not that bad. I am just depressed with the

    rate of how my life is turning out. I am stuck! i am PRACTICALLY STUCK that i just bury my head in the pillow and try holding back tears. I am a failure. I am going through something that i like to call "been stuck in my own personal hell"
    suziewuzie suziewuzie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    Dont Know

     everything just feels wrong the way i look, the way i feel, my friends and family, my job, everything... i cant seem to get the chattering out of my head any more, all i seem to see is the thundercloud and never the silver lining these days, and the water just seems to...
    alsorolo alsorolo 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Hi Guys, This is the only place

    where I can release how I feel. Im 20, never had a Girlfriend, no first kiss, my friends cant understand how I feel. Its just too painful battling depression and loneliness every night by my own. I hope im not the only one thats experiencing this. Its like a Black Hole is...
    KianZzy KianZzy 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    OK I am; 60 epileptic,

    have been since I was about 8 diagnosed when I was 10. I've had surgery to remove brain tumor that stopped seizures for about 2 years. Worst thing that could have happened to me. At 28 was able to drive a car I was free. Then seizures came back, I lost DL and have not been able...
    Scott1954 Scott1954 56-60, M 3 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    It's hard for me to make eye contact with

    people, due to my fear of being called ugly (which I am).
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    People that tell a clinically depressed person

    to just eat healthy and be positive are honestly so ignorant
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Most days I can take care of myself (thanks to

    the medication) but it would be nice if someone, anyone, checked in on me once in a while. Just a simple "How are you feeling" would be nice...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 29

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    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    I lie to my therapist

    and my family doesn't care, friends are always coming and going. No one stays with me through it all, but it's okay I have myself.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I'm tired of trying..

    .tired of forcing myself to be happy.
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I find myself depressed quit often.

    I feel like I'm not good enough for people and I get on everyone's nerves. I get lonely a lot. I've only mentioned this to my boyfriend because he's the only that seems to notice it but sometimes he's the reason for my depression . :/
    ToriDianne ToriDianne 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    I have a long story. I have a lonely story.

    I've messed up my life with depression and self harm. I've been suicidal... I've lost all my friends. I have no life, and I'm always alone. I hide what's inside. I hate hurting people so I always do what people ask me to do no matter how much I don't want to... I hate my life...
    inacoldworld inacoldworld 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    I think it all happened

    when I was little, when all of the sudden I realized, I'm all alone. Yes, I grew up in a rather big family. A foster family that everybody treats me as an outsider. Even my mum. When I turned 12, mum told me I had to go back to my own family because they couldn't afford to...
    emmadali emmadali 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I'm always the counselor,

    but never the counseled.....
    Dablugie Dablugie 16-17, F 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    I feel like I don't deserve too love anyone

    and that everyone is too good for me
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

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    Bi! Bi-fem! Bi-Sexual!

    Gay! Lesbian! STOP HURTING US! we are humans to we have FEELINGS TO !!!
    Eiizeen Eiizeen 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 28, 2014

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    I know depression is an individual experience,

    and I manage mine in my own way. I have no trust in prescription medicine. I do not see a therapist. I have no support group, only my husband, and internet strangers. Not many people in my "real life" even know about my depression. Most of those who do know are either skeptical...
    eidolonnexus eidolonnexus 26-30, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I have autism, and despite me being able to

    push it down on a day to day basis, every couple of days, it gets the best of me to the point of wishing a bullet through my head, or a cure for it.
    omss omss 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I feel so unnoticed, lonely,

    & unwanted..even when I'm with my group of friends I feel as if I'm on the outside looking in, & they all are more attractive than me; I envy their great skin tone, hair, and teeth..but never to the point where I'm so jealous that I'm mad at them, it's never that serious... I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M Apr 26, 2014

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    depressed right now. I asked him

    why he broke up with me.. he is saying stuff that makes no sense. I ask what he means. I feel so stupid! why can't he just explain it without blowing up at me!? I didn't mean to do anything..
    XxautychanxX XxautychanxX 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel so used and alone,

    so terribly alone
    sophiedeleveau sophiedeleveau 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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     see thats bad!!

    ! Still i dont want professional help. Nobody understands me. 
    RaZorr RaZorr 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 8

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    it's hard. I think of suicide

    whenever something negative happens. I'm afraid to tell my family. they'd send me into therapy and I don't want to be a psycho maniac who takes therapy. can someone help? I want to stop thinking of dying . I actually want to feel alive. I feel like I'm trapped in a prison...
    unfairlives unfairlives 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 1

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    This is the time when my depression got the

    best in me! It's been so long from my last depression! I thought i am all cured until the beginning of this year! I had a huge fight with my bf and received bad news from my family and also losing a chance to be able achieve one of my goals in life! I am a mess! I have...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Sometimes music is all

    that helps me now...you know I'm bummed when I'm not listening to metal lol
    Volumes Volumes 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2014

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    My Depression Eats Me

    I feel like everything i do is wrong. I mess everything up and that's why everyone hates me. That's why I don't have friends. That's why people pick on me. That's why my mom hates me and I'll never be good enough for her. That's why the person I'm in love with doesn't love me...
    sugaranspice sugaranspice 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    No one knows what I'm going through

    and that's not my fault. When I try to reach out to my friends or family members about my illness they brush it under the carpet and say that I just want attention. I would never want to feel the pain that I feel inside on a daily basis just to get someone to pay me some mind...
    VerucaRose VerucaRose 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I want to tell people

    that I suffer from depression but I don't know how! I want to let my friends and family know that I suffer from depression but worry that they will worry about me too much. I have been thinking about suicide for a while but have not properly gone through it. I have seen with a...
    thepan21 thepan21 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I'm ugly: I avoid mirrors,

    I don't take pictures, I have an iPhone but I barley FaceTime (but when I do I'm in the dark or dim light)...I don't have an Instagram or a snapchat, but I do have a twitter account which I barely use..I'm very self conscious, I'm heartbroken, socially awkward, paranoid, and I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    Sometimes I think everyone else is just

    as depressed as me, they just drink a lot more alcohol.
    Kingshelman Kingshelman 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I have for years and I normally don't tell

    people what's wrong with me
    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    Days Like This...

    I am so down. From the time I opened my eyes, I exasperatedly wished I wasn't able to get awake... I want to pack my things. My clothes and my everything. But I am going to leave my phone.. I don't want to notify anyone. I don't want to be found by everyone. I am going to full...
    runawayme runawayme 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2012

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    It's like I'll never be happy again,

    and this is how my life will always be. I'm kind of ok with it though it's the people around me that don't let it go.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 6 days ago

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