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I Battle Depression On My Own

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     everything just feels wrong the way i look, the way i feel, my friends and family, my job, everything... i cant seem to get the chattering out of my head any more, all i seem to see is the thundercloud and never the silver lining these days, and the water just seems to...
    alsorolo alsorolo 31-35, M 6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    I'm depressed and feel alone

    and hate life and everyone and everything in it, and all the sudden I have this person that makes the pain go away and that actually makes me not want to die everyday and not being with them or talking to them scares me because I'm scared to go back to the same feeling.
    Imjustdone Imjustdone 16-17, M Apr 24

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    I lie to my therapist

    and my family doesn't care, friends are always coming and going. No one stays with me through it all, but it's okay I have myself.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F Jun 26

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    I have for years and I normally don't tell

    people what's wrong with me
    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F Aug 13

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    I've been depressed for over a year

    and it's taking over my life. I seriously think about dying everyday.
    Blah2779 Blah2779 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    this is what it feels like to have depression

    i mean it literally feels like a monster in your body that needs to get out, one way or another
    Imjustdone Imjustdone 16-17, M Apr 23

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    it all started four years

    and six months ago. i took a blade to my skin for the first time. it took over my life. i was so young and so unbearably vulnerable that i destroyed myself night after night. these are only the scars on the outside, you have no idea how many scars i have left on my heart, on my...
    bosumc bosumc 13-15, T Apr 26

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    It's hard for me to make eye contact with

    people, due to my fear of being called ugly (which I am).
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Bi! Bi-fem! Bi-Sexual!

    Gay! Lesbian! STOP HURTING US! we are humans to we have FEELINGS TO !!!
    Eiizeen Eiizeen 18-21, T 1 Response Apr 28

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    I donno whats happening to me!

    All i think about is how much i hate myself and how awesome it would be if i just die! A month ago i prescribed myself with a pill of Zoloft/day! I hope the reduced the suicidal thought!
    pat131313 pat131313 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Freaks!! Takes One To Know One :d

    http://blog.beliefnet.com/beyondblue/ I find this website extremely uplifting & practical for everyone going through depression. The author is Therese Brochard who herself suffers from bi polar disorder writes extremely good blogs and how she coped with depression. She...
    sushmaik sushmaik 26-30, F Apr 19, 2010

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    The Chicken And Egg Conundrum

    I have had all the symptoms and behaviours of depression since my early teens or even earlier.When it lasts this long ( more than 30 years) ,it is such a badly tangled knot of memories and interconnected causes and repercussions ,that it becomes hard to know where to start...
    lezstar lezstar 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 7, 2010

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    I find myself trying to avoid people

    who I feel make fun of me because of my ugliness, and when I'm near them I constantly glance in their direction to see if they're laughing at or talking about me...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M Apr 26

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    24 Year Battle Still Ongoing

    I have battled mild to moderate depression and by myself since I was 12. I have battled severe anxiety for as long as I can remember. My father was hospitalized for depression 32 years ago and my mom and two of my siblings have been on anxiety medication of and on over the years...
    angrytp angrytp 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2013

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    Some Insight

    You know when you are in therapy and suddenly you realize something very important that you havent considered before? Like key moment when you have that piece of insight that it might be the key to solve some really deep issue? Well if you have been in therapy before, you know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 9, 2012

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    I have been depressed ever

    since I got this huge scar on my face; it has drained me of most of my confidence...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M May 5

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    jackiemarie jackiemarie 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 30

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    I have to. I've told people.

    .. Told them how I'm feeling but no one really cares. My family doesn't like when I show negative emotions. Happiness is the only emotion that seems to be socially accepted. It's how I was raised. Why can't there be anyone who wants to hear my story? Who wants to help, without...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    This girl I hate the most she's a w****!

    !! I wanna torture you using my Hands **** s*** I hate you as hell ?!!!!!!!
    Eiizeen Eiizeen 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 29

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    I feel so used and alone,

    so terribly alone
    sophiedeleveau sophiedeleveau 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I think it all happened

    when I was little, when all of the sudden I realized, I'm all alone. Yes, I grew up in a rather big family. A foster family that everybody treats me as an outsider. Even my mum. When I turned 12, mum told me I had to go back to my own family because they couldn't afford to...
    emmadali emmadali 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I'm always the counselor,

    but never the counseled.....
    Dablugie Dablugie 13-15, F May 5

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    I'm ugly: I avoid mirrors,

    I don't take pictures, I have an iPhone but I barley FaceTime (but when I do I'm in the dark or dim light)...I don't have an Instagram or a snapchat, but I do have a twitter account which I barely use..I'm very self conscious, I'm heartbroken, socially awkward, paranoid, and I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 28

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    I don't know how to start,

    so I'll just start where I feel my depression began. I have never had an easy life, I lived in a trailer house with my sister and my divorced mother. I never had many friends growing up and I still to this day don't. My father was and still is an alcoholic an I in no way an...
    TP40514 TP40514 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 11

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    No Insurance to Get Help..

    Well.. here is my story.. I been depressed since i was 12. My family moved around alot so i never really knew anyone for long and we were moving again.. starting over.. again. I was always the outcast. And with the last name of Krueger who wouldn't pick on me..lol Its pathetic...
    Avaniqafaye Avaniqafaye 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2009

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    Days Like This...

    I am so down. From the time I opened my eyes, I exasperatedly wished I wasn't able to get awake... I want to pack my things. My clothes and my everything. But I am going to leave my phone.. I don't want to notify anyone. I don't want to be found by everyone. I am going to full...
    runawayme runawayme 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2012

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    I don't know what it is

    but I started a fund to raise money for my new baby and no one has even donated yet. I feel so depressed.
    Mamiproud Mamiproud 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Therapy sort of helped.

    ..antidepressants made it ten times worse. Decided to go cold turkey. I'm telling you...thinking through your life and being thankful for the all that you have...is actually very helpful.
    Imaginarionify Imaginarionify 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    I'm depressed most of the time

    and I don't see the purpose of living even tho in most ppl's eyes i am a successful girl, pretty, smart and have a life that a lot of ppl would want to have ... What is wrong with me ? :(
    oxoi oxoi 26-30, F Jul 15

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    I'm sitting in bed trying to not cry right now.

    It's an hour before lights out and I'm already in bed. I just feel like **** so much. I don't really know why. Today wasn't a bad day. I just am sad out of my mind. I want my boyfriend. I want him here in my arms.i want to feel him close to me. I want everything about him.
    Imjustdone Imjustdone 16-17, M Jun 26

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    Evenly Matched, But I Feel I'm Losing The Battle

    I've felt this way for a long time maybe even longer than I've realized, but I've learned to do my best to push away the darkest of my thoughts and the most scathing of self-deprecation. I've learned that I have to laugh at myself. Even when I feel it's more cathartic to beat...
    jondoen jondoen 26-30, M Aug 21, 2012

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    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M May 5

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    I feel like I don't deserve too love anyone

    and that everyone is too good for me
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    No one sees my depression.

    .. Probably because I'm really good at hiding it... My mom doesn't even know... But one thing that no one knows is that I'm a cutter I have hit my braking point ... I feel so alone in this world I know I have people to talk to but I can't trust anyone... I don't know why but I...
    kesha886 kesha886 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    my first love and i dated

    for 3 months. and he decided to cheat. im so broken and lost. all i wanna do is cut and i have these suicidal thoughts everyday.. its taking over my life. but when i picture myself happy, its with him. im scared if he will get a new girlfriend and their relationship will be...
    bosumc bosumc 13-15, T Apr 26

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    Imjustdone Imjustdone 16-17, M Jul 12

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    So I started having a personal conversation

    with my close friend about self harm. I said that my depression has gotten worse and he said with a smile," your not depressed." I have been depressed since 6th grade and now I'm in 8th. I just started walking away and he said where are you going and I said leave me alone. It...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I Feel That This Burden Is Mine To Carry.

    I've been depressed for about a year now at least, and I haven't really told my family cause I don't want to drag them into this. I feel like this battle that I am waging is a fruitless one, I feel like everyday I lose. There are some days when I can corner my enemy, but he...
    KnightOfJustice KnightOfJustice 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    I feel so unnoticed, lonely,

    & unwanted..even when I'm with my group of friends I feel as if I'm on the outside looking in, & they all are more attractive than me; I envy their great skin tone, hair, and teeth..but never to the point where I'm so jealous that I'm mad at them, it's never that serious... I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M Apr 26

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    Sickness

    Depression is like an on going sickness to me. I'll always have it. Maybe sometimes all be ok. But then other days it's bad, really really bad. And no one understand. Depression doesn't give you a fever, or a sore throat. I get up in the mornings and I feel like I can't make it...
    ImAlittleLost09 ImAlittleLost09 18-21, F Nov 17, 2013

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    My thoughts get the best of me at night.

    I just lay in bed staring at the ceiling thinking of all the **** I do wrong and everything I'm not. I'm not good enough, not thin enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough.. I'm just a horrible person that shouldn't of have been born. Living like this sucks and I'm tired of...
    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F Jul 11

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    My Depression Eats Me

    I feel like everything i do is wrong. I mess everything up and that's why everyone hates me. That's why I don't have friends. That's why people pick on me. That's why my mom hates me and I'll never be good enough for her. That's why the person I'm in love with doesn't love me...
    sugaranspice sugaranspice 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    They say "what doesn't kill you makes you

    stronger" and i never believed that until now ! A few months ago i was going through the worst time of my life ...i wanted to kill myself and i self harmed ...i battled depression all on my own ..i had no friends and my family didnt know about my depression.. I never thought i...
    lovemusicnicole lovemusicnicole 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Ok. The person on here called catwithscars,

    please read your snapchat, and just hear me out before you block me
    Tgharrold99 Tgharrold99 13-15, M Aug 21

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