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I Battle Depression On My Own

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    I feel so unnoticed, lonely,

    & unwanted..even when I'm with my group of friends I feel as if I'm on the outside looking in, & they all are more attractive than me; I envy their great skin tone, hair, and teeth..but never to the point where I'm so jealous that I'm mad at them, it's never that serious... I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M Apr 26, 2014

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    I just wanted to have somebody to say goodnight

    to, so I'll say goodnight to the EP family. I'm all alone on a 45 acre farm in the middle of nowhere and the isolation and depression is killing me. I don't think I'll ever find somebody that loves me again. Goodnight and Happy Holidays.
    LoneWolf37 LoneWolf37 36-40 6 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    I don't fell any emotions anymore.

    I dint cry when I'm sAd I just sit thee with a blank face. I'm arms are covers you don't want to see my battle field. I'm like a rose that was dropped and stepped on over and over. I'm scared that the full force of the pain will come back again and I will hurt me to much to save...
    kamikoshinok kamikoshinok 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2015

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    I told my sister and my friend some of my

    problems and that i am hurting myself, they are feeling sad and i felt better. But then when i want to talk again, because i'm feeling sad, they don't care anymore.
    grayzeb grayzeb 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18, 2015

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    As the night goes by I sit here sleepless,

    disturbed and staring into a blackhole. Mumbling and thinking something, wondering why, wondering how, is life meant to be so confusing? I am wishing for something that will shed light at the darkness, obsessed by a dream of a better life. I stumble through this world, lost...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 4, 2015

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    I lie to my therapist

    and my family doesn't care, friends are always coming and going. No one stays with me through it all, but it's okay I have myself.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    Days Like This...

    I am so down. From the time I opened my eyes, I exasperatedly wished I wasn't able to get awake... I want to pack my things. My clothes and my everything. But I am going to leave my phone.. I don't want to notify anyone. I don't want to be found by everyone. I am going to full...
    runawayme runawayme 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2012

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    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 8 Responses May 15, 2015

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    I think I have depression.

    I've never brought it up to anyone or even hinted at it. My grades are gradually dropping and I don't care and can't find the motivation to work harder. Every other day I shut down completely; rarely smiling or cooperating with the world. I will feel so bad about myself that it...
    0KatieKat0 0KatieKat0 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    I just... really... really.

    . want nothing but death. I want to die so badly, I have ever since I was a child.. but I have an obligation to stay alive for my friends so that I can help them with their problems.... at least I'm of use I guess.. I just wish I could actually enjoy things while also being...
    skeletonofpuns skeletonofpuns 18-21, T 3 Responses Dec 25, 2015

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    I just cant remember

    when was the last time that I didn't feel this way. I feel empty, and find myself wondering what is the purpose of life, why are we here? Specially why am I here, if Im nothing, no one loves me in a special way, no one wants me to BE here. Then, why am I? I just think and think...
    AnasHead AnasHead 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    Why does it feel like I crave

    for misery? I feel like I put myself in the situation where I know I'm going to end up getting hurt and I don't mind. It's a horrible feeling but I can't shake it off.
    LionPrincess03 LionPrincess03 22-25, F Sep 14, 2015

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    depressed right now. I asked him

    why he broke up with me.. he is saying stuff that makes no sense. I ask what he means. I feel so stupid! why can't he just explain it without blowing up at me!? I didn't mean to do anything..
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 18, 2015

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    I'm ugly: I avoid mirrors,

    I don't take pictures, I have an iPhone but I barley FaceTime (but when I do I'm in the dark or dim light)...I don't have an Instagram or a snapchat, but I do have a twitter account which I barely use..I'm very self conscious, I'm heartbroken, socially awkward, paranoid, and I...
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    To StableRedGun Depression is an enemy

    who lies. See them and move through to survive. NEVER kill your body, suicide. The body IS a GIFT from the LORD. Should you kill yourself, you shall never recieve another body and shall be condemned to 'walking the Earth' for all eternity. Solve your problems and deal with them...
    RonniePonyStrong RonniePonyStrong 36-40, M Jan 11

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    i have had it for a long time now.

    a tidal effect of depression that just seems to come and go. the last attack affected me for a long time. it never seemed to end. thoughts of suicide and feeling like im not good enough and just lack of interest in anything. im not going to give up to these thoughts. have to...
    loveknowsnobounds loveknowsnobounds 22-25 1 Response Nov 20, 2015

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    I will not go down the road of being medicated

    for this again. Its not like the world will change. Only I will tolerate the world better...and thats just masking problems. My problem do not involve money or that materialistic nonsense. But just how society and people my age seem to somewhat make me feel like I don't want to...
    calliney calliney 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2015

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    I've been depressed ever

    since I can remember. Loneliness is a big part of it. I miss the complete intimacy a man and woman share together in matrimony. Plus, I am a business owner and trying to get it going.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 7, 2015

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    People that tell a clinically depressed person

    to just eat healthy and be positive are honestly so ignorant
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 7 Responses May 16, 2015

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    I'm going threw one of my lows today everything

    seems against me was supposed to go to the movies but I sell threw it and now I'm just sitting in my room crying wantingto pull my hair out
    nannalovet113 nannalovet113 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 25, 2015

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    I don't care if this is read,

    I just feel the need to write it, even though it's been said by many people before me. I hate my life. I hate everything about it. I also seem to hate everyone around me. Something is missing in my life, but I'm not sure of what it is. I thought the military was it, but all they...
    maveric619 maveric619 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 30, 2015

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    27 years old, 2 years in Iraq with PTSD.

    No friends, married and divorced twice, cheated on both times. I have a plan for the future, but i feel like im just going through the motions. I have a hard time meeting and opening up to people. I honestly dont know what to do.
    CmbtEng CmbtEng 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    If I could kill myself

    and know that no one would care I would already be dead.
    Ranae414 Ranae414 51-55, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2015

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    My Depression Eats Me

    I feel like everything i do is wrong. I mess everything up and that's why everyone hates me. That's why I don't have friends. That's why people pick on me. That's why my mom hates me and I'll never be good enough for her. That's why the person I'm in love with doesn't love me...
    sugaranspice sugaranspice 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    I have battled depression

    since I was a teenager every day seems like a struggle but thankfully I have found a combination of meds and meditation that really seems to help me get through the day
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 2, 2015

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    Have you ever wondered why,

    when you are 3 in a "depressed mood",you can't do anything. I'm sure u know what I mean. I know i can get up and do whatever it is that needs to be done. I just can't. I know this will pass and I'll be ok,again. ahh,just hate this!I'm always hungry, it won't go away! can't get...
    Glitterpoo Glitterpoo 31-35 1 Response Sep 11, 2015

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    I am really struggling,

    some days are better than other but most days are really difficult to get through,no one understands or cares either.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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    i want to tell someone about my problems

    but they told me that i am overreacting and i'm too young to be sad and depressed, i don't know what to do
    grayzeb grayzeb 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18, 2015

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    Waking up is enough for today.

    I don't have the strength to even go shower
    theesodapop theesodapop 18-21, M Aug 14, 2015

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    Every day you learn something new

    that will either build you up or knock you down. I'm being knocked over every day since I was diagnosed with depression. It only gets worse.
    LionPrincess03 LionPrincess03 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 16, 2015

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    i am breathing, you see me walking

    but inside i am shattered i feel dead
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 18, 2015

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    Sometimes I think everyone else is just

    as depressed as me, they just drink a lot more alcohol.
    Kingshelman Kingshelman 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2015

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    I'm depressed but it's not like the I hate

    myself actually im pretty confident and I can't cut myself because I just know someone would figure it out but everyday of my life is grey I don't feel anything I don't care but those are my highs those are the days when I can fake a smile I don't have any light only grey and...
    nannalovet113 nannalovet113 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2015

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    Sometimes music is all

    that helps me now...you know I'm bummed when I'm not listening to metal lol
    Volumes Volumes 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2014

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    I work out of town all week

    and wife always seem to have sometime for me to do for be take her to the doctors, I understand alot of it but doctors sre comming back with nothing I'm to the point I think I'm going to rent a apartment and try to figure whats going on in head this has been going on for over 3...
    powpow411 powpow411 56-60, M 2 Responses Aug 30, 2015

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    I like to Handel things by myself.

    I don't like to involve people into my ****. My parents are ******* me off along with stress and just being sad puts more weight on it
    Nick20954 Nick20954 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 25, 2015

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    Bi! Bi-fem! Bi-Sexual!

    Gay! Lesbian! STOP HURTING US! we are humans to we have FEELINGS TO !!!
    Eiizeen Eiizeen 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 28, 2014

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    By battling depression on my own I mean

    that I do it w/o meds, I actually have the support of my gf, family and friends. I'm bipolar so I'm not always depressed but when I do have it, it is not pleasant. Most of my support backs me in not using meds, but some always think I should be medicated when I am depressed...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M 1 Response Oct 7, 2015

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    I'm tired of trying..

    .tired of forcing myself to be happy.
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I wish I wasn't vulnerable

    and naive in my early 20s when I got involved with my bf (ex now). Was with him 8yrs & I was so stupid back then to think they cared & loved me the way I loved them. I went through 8 yrs of being emotionally abused, from name calling, belittling, & being neglected from basic...
    IX00I IX00I 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    I battle sucidial tendicies,

    and depression with a lot of work Ive gotten a lot better, had 2 bad things happen lost one of my best friends and something that I did was really stupid. and no suicidal thoughts.
    eatthekids1stplease eatthekids1stplease 22-25, M 1 Response May 17, 2015

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    whrn I am having a "depression attack "(i knw

    isn't a real yhink,but that's how it feels ) imagination cutting myself, over and over. I don't want to die and I love my life depression just gets in yhe way,it makes it hard to move!i hate these thoughts butnthey kep comming back.if i told a professional im sure they would...
    Glitterpoo Glitterpoo 31-35 Oct 9, 2015

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    I Feel That This Burden Is Mine To Carry.

    I've been depressed for about a year now at least, and I haven't really told my family cause I don't want to drag them into this. I feel like this battle that I am waging is a fruitless one, I feel like everyday I lose. There are some days when I can corner my enemy, but he...
    KnightOfJustice KnightOfJustice 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    I'm depressed most of the time

    and I don't see the purpose of living even tho in most ppl's eyes i am a successful girl, pretty, smart and have a life that a lot of ppl would want to have ... What is wrong with me ? :(
    oxoi oxoi 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2014

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    I'm not sure if I suffer of depression,

    I only know that my life became useless, every day the same, and I just can't stop crying for that. I wanna give up but at the same time I can't. My mom leaved me to fight this alone. Every day the same hell.
    NemoWasHere NemoWasHere 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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