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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,703 People

    annettesan annettesan 36-40, F 7 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    is depression is just a fancy term?

    what am i doing to my life?
    conf19 conf19 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Today was Boxing Day,

    and I went with my mother and younger brother to visit my uncle and aunt and a few of their friends. As predicted, it was awful. I was surrounded by loud, obnoxious and overly opinionated people. By overly opinionated I mean the strength and volume of a person's opinion greatly...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyday I play my games,

    talk to friends, read my books and sing my songs. And every night, I either love the day or die from it. It's always half and half; one day I'm surviving my depression, and the next, I'm drowning in the darkness again. And I guess tonight I'm drowning again. I had been...
    Shyspan Shyspan 13-15, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    A year ago, I had fresh cuts on my thighs,

    belly, and arm. A year ago, I felt like a puppet on strings controlled by an empty void. A year ago, I couldn't do anything without thinking about ending it all; I couldn't catch the train without wanting to jump in front of it, I couldn't sharpen a pencil without thinking about...
    BringMePierceTheSirensAtSix BringMePierceTheSirensAtSix 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    jackknifedtruck jackknifedtruck 36-40, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I guess it's just mild

    and barely there but it's still there... :/ I've self harmed and I have negative thoughts a lot and some days just feel like I have 0% energy but I fight it! I already have anxiety, ocd and some ptsd tendencies, I don't need another problem no thanks
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    Im confused and lonely.

    I feel sad and cold I feel misunderstood and muted .
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I keep having a reoccurring nightmare.

    I can't get it out of my head either. I dunno if it has anything to do with what I've been through (it probably does) but I keep on having a dream (a very terrorizing and horrid one) where my dad rapes me. I don't know if it is normal or not? but it's beginning to kill me, I...
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Haven't celebrated a family holiday

    since my folks divorced. Been on my own since I was 12 living with a single mother who works too damn hard and is always gone. Family holidays are never happy for me. They just remind me of everything I don't have. I don't care about presents or money. I just want to feel like a...
    ManyRegrets ManyRegrets 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    You can have all your family

    and your friends around you to support, but this depression makes you feel so alone nonetheless. What else could you expect? When you have a hole in yourself, a void that can only filled up by you, then you can never truly appreciate or feel the warmth of others, until you...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    God it christmas and all i wana do is kill

    myself i got enuf alcohol to do it :/
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F 10 Responses 2 days ago

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    ive lost everything im going to sound

    so selfish. right now im sorry. my husband just drop a bomb on my telling me the only reason he married me is because he thought things would change. iv had CPS involved in my life. They took my children away but the good note of that they are with family well my husband...
    oni2013 oni2013 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    This my sound childish

    but I battle depression. I'm always alone no one asks if I'm okay. And when they do and they don't mean it I lie. Like they actually care about my feelings. But come for me for help and/or advice. I believe in the saying age is just a number. Maturity is a choice. And I also...
    RedBloodRose RedBloodRose 13-15, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I can't kill myself. Why?

    I don't care what good is in store for me if any. I just want to die.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Apparently it's part of me having Borderline

    Personality Disorder. I was recently diagnosed but I'm still not sold on actually having the condition.
    IsolatedWolf IsolatedWolf 26-30, M 6 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Being alone is scary

    when you have crazy loud thoughts in your head that cannot be stop.
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Never fails... Just when I think the holidays

    have gone iff without a hitch... Something goes wrong. My husband has to go off base to a Japanese hospital to get our 4yr old treated for a high fever and white blood cell count that the ill equipped military hospital on base can't figure out. I have no car to go with them, so...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    So in a few weeks I start my new college

    classes (I'm in a program called early college so I take both high school classes and college classes at the same time). One of them is a yoga class that I'm hoping will help me with my depression. I got my yoga matt today and I'm really excited to start the class. I just hope...
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    hbjjg hbjjg 26-30, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Hope you all got through today.

    My day was probably not the Christmas I wanted because I am missing my boy. But I'm thankful to know that he is being looked after, he will be home soon and that although I didn't get the Xmas I wanted, I have a roof over my head, I'm warm, I've eaten good food and I spent the...
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate my life. I hate stupid abuse.

    Im recovering from abuse. this is stupid. its very painful. I think Im losing my sanity. I feel Im gonna flip the **** out. I was tortured . horribly tortured. He loved hurting people. I am suffering.......... AAAaaaaaaAAh
    amtired amtired 22-25 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Even Chirstmas becomes nothing

    but a bitter holiday when this feeling won't go away. Why the hell do you expect me to enjoy the colourful lights and presents when all I can see is black and white around me? For you to feel good? Fine. Of course! I want all of you happy. But leave me alone and don't push the...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    There are times in my life I wish I was capable

    of being content and happy. The last few days all I did was try to hard to not feel defeated and sad and alone and scared. I was able to for a little bit but I'm back here to this tiny emptiness. I want good things to happen to me. I want to be strong. I pray for that day to...
    cutecrazy05 cutecrazy05 22-25 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Reznin Reznin 18-21, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had