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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 66,983 People

    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    So this morning I seen my counsellor

    and I spilled out everything I've been feeling lately like my suicidal thoughts, my relapse / my urge to cut, and my depression. I have to say, I feel so much better now.
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    A little lonely today,

    but overall, I've been doing real well in dealing with this depression. I've been riding this manic phase for 2 weeks now and I've made good use of it. Who knows when I'll see another one like it, but I'm enjoying it while it lasts!
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Each day I live, the pain consumes What little

    sanity I have bloomed Like walking in a cloud of fog Falling down, sinking into smog Life just seems grim I think on a whim Interest lost in everything I do But what a life, who really knew? Depressed to a fault, that all I see Death just seems like the only way for me A waste...
    Mrunderstood Mrunderstood 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    There's a girl I really like (and might be in

    love with) but she's halfway across the world. I've been talking to her for about a year. We talk to each other on different social medias and because of time zones, I don't get to talk to her as much as I'd want to (keep in mind I'm also a girl). I've been so stressed lately...
    radsadbrad radsadbrad 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have extreme depression

    and no therapist. I am under going horrible stress due from society's standards and school. There is one thing that keeps me from hurting myself, music, thank god for PTV
    aquaturtles aquaturtles 13-15, F 7 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    The worst depression of my life calumniated in

    late January, 2014 - I used to think it was lat February but I have been keeping a key word diary starting in February 2014, and I started this diary as part of my solution to the problem. It really helps. What do I record in this diary? First of all at the end of every day or...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    **** anyone who thinks depression is romantic.

    Depression is f*****g hell. Depression is not having the energy to get out of bed for 3 days. Depression is losing focus whenever you try to do something. Depression is slowly phasing everyone you love out because you forget they care. Depression is crying in the shower at 4 am...
    0hSheanBreeze012 0hSheanBreeze012 18-21, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Bad day today. I felt like ending it all,

    but I kept going because I couldn't do it in his home town. I wonder what he'd do if I did it and he found out that I'd done it and why I did it? Would he finally think of me? Would he see how special he was? Would he even care?
    LoneSouls LoneSouls 26-30, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    This is my story so please listen closely.

    I was born a baby boy and everyone was loving and caring. But soon after is where the happiness ends and the sorrow begins. During my childhood I was out of place I was looked down upon in disgrace. I didn't know why I was treated with so much hatred. Why I was consistently...
    zepplinfan117 zepplinfan117 16-17, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I've grown to hate winter.

    Dec 23, 2014...passed over for a life changing job because the HR was lazy Jan 10, 2014...our kitten climbs in the dryer and dies as the drier ran. Feb 9, 2014...close friend ODs on heroin and dies. Nov 2014...I'm forced to stop doing the one physical activity I love due to a...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    It's 3:38am - I'm sitting here thinking

    why do I bother anymore. Why should I actually try? I'll only fail anyway But now I'm thinking. Why? I think back and I realise, no one was ever holding me back. I always have had people standing behind me, teachers always telling me they know I can do better. I can I am smart...
    jakusbakus jakusbakus 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to keep my

    head above the water this time. I've been through worse but I am so overwhelmed and frustrated with life. I'm not really seeing the point anymore...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    How can I help my boyfriend deal with his

    depression? I love him so much and it hurts my heart to see him go through all this pain.
    kaylaakionaa kaylaakionaa 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    it just gets worse and worse,

    i used to be able to hide it but i don't even have the energy to hide it anymore or pretend i'm anything else then depressed.. everytime i wake up i feel so depressed,and everytime i fall asleep i feel depressed because i know i'll just wake up here again. i don't want to commit...
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 1 hr ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Chloegirlx Chloegirlx 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Dear journal Today is February 26.

    2015 and its 12:37am just another night I can't sleep so I just lay here and think about life I know I didn't have a really bad life or a very good one so why do I always just hate it and rather be dead then to be here on earth. Why do I hate myself so much and always want to cry...
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Yea, so remember that scene in the the TV movie

    "Salem's Lot" where the Glick kid turned into a vampire and is scratching on the window wanting Danny to let him in??? Yep...that's how my depression feels today. I'm just sitting here minding my own business while it's scratching on the damn window wanting me to let it in.
    pollyprozac pollyprozac 41-45, F 1 hr ago

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    People often think they understand,

    they think they can handle it.. but in reality, they can’t.. the only way they can understand and truly handle it, is if they have been to the same breaking point as you. They want you to talk about it.. but the truth is.. I’m afraid. I’m afraid of your reaction, so I...
    0hSheanBreeze012 0hSheanBreeze012 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    And today I realized,

    that I am the biggest hypocrite of them all. I tell everyone to keep holding on that there is light at the end. That everything gets better as long as you continue to wait. I always tell people to have hope. That they need to keep trying because it is too early to give up...
    0hSheanBreeze012 0hSheanBreeze012 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 25 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I overcame my depression,

    but growing past this requires now a shift in lifestyle and personal culture to prevent relapse and develop a more rewarding cadence to life. The comic below that I came across is something I identify with.... http://www.depressioncomix.com/posts/217/
    Taurusedi Taurusedi 31-35, M 3 hrs ago

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    So I'm in hospital guys.

    I'm a danger to myself apparently. So boring.
    ElCharlotte ElCharlotte 13-15, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    My family gives me everything.

    They're light and joy and I love them more than anything. I also have a ton of good friends, and am involved in a club I love so much as well as a job I do really well in. I'm totally outgoing and have never been bullied or really mistreated. Why am I depressed?
    MakeAChange98 MakeAChange98 26-30, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I feel like a failure,

    and I can't take it!
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I just always feel so unwanted

    and annoying, maybe it's best if I'm just not here
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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