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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,972 People

    Things have gone downhill again,

    I just want to die. And no I don't want to talk, I needed to post this for myself. Sleeping is my only escape, considering I'm not able to go anywhere or be anything, because it's pretty much impossible. I'm basically trapped and I can't leave. I feel like suicide is sometimes...
    SociallyAwkwardGirl SociallyAwkwardGirl 16-17, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Right now, I'm going through depression.

    It's very hard to bear. Especially as a kid of 15 who is supposed to be playing, studying all day. I guess I have depression coz of my mom. She always scolds me. But not just scold, it... Emotionally hurts me. It's like she always compares me with others. She points out every...
    bigsmile2000 bigsmile2000 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    This is one thing i could do without

    but it haunts me everyday ,i stuggle with the crying spells and the mood swing and I just want a simple life .
    hopelessathappiness hopelessathappiness 51-55, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    A walk in the park now

    and then can help tackle depression: Sleeping too much. Feeling lazy all the time. Sapped of energy to do the daily routine.Nothing ever seems to go right. Many people go through one or all of these feelings at some point or the other, but they manage to come out of that sunken...
    IamnotCharlieSheen IamnotCharlieSheen 41-45, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Darklady22 Darklady22 31-35, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    constellationoftears constellationoftears 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Just hate it. My mood can change Without

    warning. One minute I can be on top of the world, hyper, do a cleaning session to suddenly needing to sit alone with my head in my arms crying. I take meds of course but I just can't seem to find that balance yet.
    rachhappyville rachhappyville 31-35, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    sometimes people they want u to help them,

    but when u need help you don't find them at all,this is what is happening to me.Sometimes i feel society is something unfaire.
    mrsabri mrsabri 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I always thought that

    if i killed myself it would be a burden for my family because they would have to pay for the burial and i know they can't afford it. Then i thought if i tried to save up a couple thousand to pay for my burial and ceremony i would end up spending it any ways so i just gave up and...
    toughlov3 toughlov3 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I just told the person

    that I love and loves me that"don't trust me","why are you talking tome?",I'm helpless ",i dont know what to do" They think I want to leave them but it's not true. Why does this happen to me always,?, Why I always ruin the only hapiness in my life?? Even though while doing a...
    Sophiakhan1 Sophiakhan1 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I don't care anymore,

    whether I live or die. I'll just leave it up to chance. After all, no one cares does so why should I? All I can do is watch as my life passes me by. I used to battle depression, now I lost. I am lost.
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M 24 mins ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Drowning in your own sorrow,

    and you forget your headphones, might as well be wearing cement shoes
    TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 18-21, M 18 hrs ago

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    I find it extremely hard to get out of bed

    and when I do I go down stairs for like 10 minutes then go back to bed it's just so hard now
    caitilin caitilin 13-15, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    It's hard enough to feel this way.

    It's harder when no one understands.
    AlittleHope AlittleHope 22-25, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    It's so much fun. When things are finally sort

    of looking up. But people still tend to treat you like ****. I don't get it I just don't get it. Getting rather sick and tired of people leaving all the time. As for right now this guy with whom i have this amazing connection. Doesn't want to date me because i'm depressed...
    xMnon xMnon 18-21, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I keep telling myself every day

    that I will be happy but that never happens. It doesn't worsen but still remains the same
    jellyycook jellyycook 18-21, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    So I woke up today feeling pretty good.

    I had the house to myself so I decided to go to Kings Dominion and ride some roller coasters. I went by myself because my boyfriend can't fit on any of the rides so I can't really go with him. I only stayed for a couple of hours because I feel my dizzy spells coming on but I...
    ShysietheVampiric ShysietheVampiric 18-21, F 32 mins ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    this last day i feel myself frustrated,

    mo the any other time,i don't know why?i don't know how to overcome this feelings,it is stoping me,blockingme,my relationship with others becom too low because of that
    mrsabri mrsabri 18-21, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I wish my psychiatrist would stop asking me

    about suicidal thoughts. I would never be so selfish as to actively kill myself. My parents went through so much to give me this life. But if anyone were to want to take it away from me right now, I would gladly give it away.
    dinosoar0216 dinosoar0216 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So instead of smoking nicotine i started to

    smoke green tea :/ it sounds weird but its not that bad (i never smoked in the first place) and it helps me take my mind of things and its not addicting so yeah. Don't care anymore, smoke tea and forget things for a while.
    Usernamesalreadytaken Usernamesalreadytaken 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I am depressed. I am depressed,

    but I don't go on a pity and think about suicide. I may cry or whine about it, but I always pick myself up and head on. I'm trying, at least.
    MisunderstoodGirl69 MisunderstoodGirl69 13-15, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I'm feeling too exhausted to explain with my

    own words how I feel today so, this quote sums up the thoughts that run in my mind: “I don't want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done...
    aloysia aloysia 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    thelittlekidindiapers thelittlekidindiapers 13-15, M 19 hrs ago

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