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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,674 People

    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I always wear this, and i never take it off!

    ! Its the embodiment of all the hate i have against the world, the depression that ive been living in for some time now and a reminder of how things will always take a downhill course no matter how much it was impossible to do so.. Whenever im in a football (soccer) game and im...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    An update!! http://bipolar2medstudent.

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    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I have something called "selective mutism"

    and i've had it since i was a kid. And i have gone thrue alot...actually not so much but i have so manyy feelings and i think soo much and i just don't know what to do and there is so much more. if someone wants to talk about them or other stuff then i'm here for you. Just...
    Jjta Jjta 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I truly am a lost soul.

    I know nobody will ever connect with me the way I want them too so why try? Besides, I wouldn't want to drag anyone down to my level. Or let them see how I do. There is no true darkness, day and night are the same. Everything is constant in my misery. It's all I got left. The...
    Wounduponwound Wounduponwound 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I have an LDR boyfriend,

    and he handles me being depressed so well, and I know that none of this is fair to either of us. I've slowly been losing interest in things that I used to be entertained by, and it's gotten so bad that on the typical day, I can prompt myself to do nothing but lie in bed. The...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Genuinely feel like im losing my mind.

    This feeling of intense sadness is just getting too much. Just don't feel right. Don't know how much longer i can last like this
    Ottway23 Ottway23 22-25 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Okay so this might sound really wired

    but i am super depressed because of a cough...okay let me explain a few days ago i started coughing all day and it was just constant 24/7 then i started to feel super sick and lose my appetite and now i hardly sleep i feel drained and weak i get hot and faint and it's getting to...
    SophieeKezzie SophieeKezzie 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My family, and my friends

    both hate me, I don't know what to do with myself. Should I just kills myself, because I feel like everything's better when I'm by around:(
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 13 Responses Mar 18

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Would you rather have acne ,

    acne scars , no friends and be overweight? Or non existent? I dont want to exist...
    MyLifee99 MyLifee99 13-15 1 day ago

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    I wish I could go back in time

    and tell everyone that has put so much effort into me to give up because im not worth. that theyre just making it worse. that yes, they made me happy, but it was real happiness. it was just a cover, and even I believed I was happy. but no matter what the depression will lie...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My depression has come

    and gone multiple times. Mostly I manage to keep myself grounded knowing that I have 4 of the greatest friends I could have ever asked for. Sometimes I just wish that I could talk to them about how I feel..but honestly I'm too embarrassed to say a word about it to anyone. They...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Here is other day with pain inside my heart

    wish I could feel less lonely and depressed..
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Right now I'm honestly wondering how living

    with this feeling is worth it...it is enveloping me to the point that I don't want to fight anymore. Another day, another struggle.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Update: I've been taking meds

    and so far things are going substantially better than they were before (i.e. a few months ago). I can still feel the bad thoughts bubbling beneath the surface but I don't get trapped in deep trenches of cyclical thought patterns nearly as often. I'm dating someone delicious...
    Mittons Mittons 18-21 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Everyday I remember how miserable I am how

    lonely I'm how unloved I am how I never was taking care of
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Most people don't realise

    that I take everything seriously, I can't just dismiss anything that happens, it's part of the way my illness affects me, you unfriend me, or anything like that and I think and believe that I've done something wrong, you say you hate me and I think I'm the worst person on earth...
    shamrock40 shamrock40 51-55, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I learned that there are many different kinds

    of depression. They are hard to define and are often overlapping. It's not uncommon for a soul to be infected by many of them at the same time. They can be also layered, wrapping the host many times. This is why during your fight against it, it may look like it's changing: it's...
    heronD heronD 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Ever since I was a little girl I wrote my will,

    feeling like death would take me at any point... And here I am as an adult fighting back those same feelings that never seem to go away. It's so hard to wake up feeling miserable, and being surrounded by friends and family while the only words running through your head are...
    kiwikisses kiwikisses 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I wish I was dead. I was planning on killing

    myself freshman year of college but I ended up dating this guy who turned out to be my other half. He's the love of my life but I ****** everything up and pushed him away due to my depression. I have a fear of abandonment so instead of being left I pushed him away and...
    ccarol9073 ccarol9073 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Well my house has sold,

    my sister is so happy she got what she wanted her share of the money. she had her little plan and a new state to move to, I'm still searching for a place for myself. I have to be out by the 19th of april, and of course everybody is telling me what I should do or where I should...
    nobody54 nobody54 56-60, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Seeing that there has been over 20,

    000 posts on this experience page makes me wonder if anyone has gotten better...if there was someone who posted on here that isn't alive anymore..I hope you all are doing alright and know that I care for you all. I honestly do. I hate knowing that there is depression in this...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Is this how you say goodbye?

    By leaving me alone? By walking pass me, pretending I don't exist? By giving me mixed signals? By hurting me, to the extent I die inside? Oh my dear love, I love you very much But everyday I see you.. You act like you're emotionless.. No physical contact, no signs, no nothing...
    Macyyyy Macyyyy 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    People don't like to hear the truth

    because they don't like to see their illusions of the world destroyed.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response