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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,504 People

    what my ig sisters told me death is where light

    will embrace me, laughter will kiss my lips, happiness will find its way, smiles will lit my face, sadness will never reach me, I can let go of my pains, I will never be alone again, I will never cry again, no more tears, no more pain, no more sadness, no more darkness, no more...
    tearsarefallin tearsarefallin 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Apparently according to my sister I'm taking

    advantage of the fact that I have an issue written down on paper, which I'm not, I just don't have the energy to handle anything. I'm apparently making all my family ill because I'm like a disease. What a way to make me feel more worthless.
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't want to get up.

    You can't make me get up, I have no need to get up, so why should I, I ready don't care about getting up and you can't make me do it. Just let me sleep all day, just because it is 1 pm doesn't mean I have to get out of bed, no, let me be.......... If I get up that means I have...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Im pretty good at hiding it .

    . I been depressed since 13 my parents would always fight and yell and my "friends would always exclude in everything they did so im always stuck at my broken home xD .. Then i got drunk to try numb the pain but only made it worse after (hangover) till one day i got alcohol...
    emotionalgirl97 emotionalgirl97 16-17, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    So tomorrow I see my therapist

    and my psychiatrist (at different times) and I'm honestly wondering if I should ask to be admitted somewhere for a bit. they raised my meds and they helped.for a little but.now it seems like they're not again. And I've already been on a bunch of different one's. I'm not sure...
    EFairy EFairy 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    My best mate and are butting heads a lot

    recently like deadset we're ready to deck each other and I feel like I'm about to cry. I mean this is my favourite person in the world. The first person I came out too and the only one I fully feel comfortable with and we're ready to punch on. That makes me feel so horrible that...
    DrAlgernopKrieger DrAlgernopKrieger 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    When I've taken those depression screening

    questionnaires the doctors have given me I always struggle with the questions about feeling hopeless. I don't quite know how to approach the question. Or concept. Because I may feel lots of things, but my rational pragmatic brain is always there to remind me that I cannot truly...
    transformerman transformerman 22-25 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I got blocked by a Facebook support group

    for depression for posting that I was having a hard time. What awesome support. How ****** of a person am I if that's people reaction to me.
    zoezatara zoezatara 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Even though I feel like I have conquered a lot

    of my depression I still have times when it claws its way out. Poetry has always provided me with a sense of inner peace and this poem I wrote in one of my darkest places. I wrote it back in August of this year after I thought the love of my life and I were finished. I can say I...
    Harlequingal Harlequingal 18-21, F 22 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    The worst thing about depression is

    that sometimes you don't even know why you're so depressed.
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    One of them nights.. Just down

    for no reason.. Netflix and video games are good for coping though.. :/
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I can't tell if I'm depressed

    or just a sad person. What are the signs I may be depressed? Pls I can't tell :((
    SeanNation SeanNation 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I just realized that I have major depression.

    . it's really hard to let it click, but it explains a lot.. for one, one of the symptoms (that seems less likely to be able to be something else or that I could make up at all) is to lose 5% of your body weight in less than a month.. I've lost 20% in only a little more than 3...
    kayalucky4 kayalucky4 18-21 11 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I really want to be able to open up to people,

    and tell people about how i feel. I think that i used to be able to, but i can't anymore for some reason. I want to be able to share these feelings, to be able to express how i feel. I want to be able to explain to people how im feeling, i want to share these feelings that im...
    lamaninja lamaninja 16-17, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    I went to my first therapist

    and I don't know, I feel like I am smart and know the things he is going to say, I know myself and if someone else tells me it doesn't mean much when I'm out in the world I just react and do. don't think I can change.
    needbetter needbetter 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    “These pains you feel are messengers.

    Listen to them.” _rumi "wound is the place where light enters you" _rumi “If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?” ― Rumi
    Camouflage Camouflage 18-21, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I can almost feel the darkness spreading

    through my mind, creeping back up on me and I know I can't do anything to stop it! :/
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    How I feel all the ******* time.

    Not sure I'll ever be truly happy anymore.
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I suffered from depression

    and severe anxiety from the time I was eight years old. A lot of it had to do with my dad, I was also bullied, antisocial, had a lack of friends, and often spent my days home alone. I love my dad, and he is a good provider but over the years he has proven to be less and less of...
    Harlequingal Harlequingal 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I had an interesting day.

    I gardened, painted, read and wrote some more of my reviews for music this year. I didn't take any pills during the day and I actually felt kind of calm. While I know a bad day is just around the corner, and I had this bizarre and unpleasant feeling in the back of my mind all...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've struggled with depression

    for years. I love writing poetry, and depression always seems to make it's way into my writing. but I'll never share my writing with anyone because I hate the way depression and other mental disorders seem to be romanticized in poetry and i feel like people would look at my...
    likesugarandcyanide likesugarandcyanide 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    A year ago she was my everything

    and I was happy.. A year later she's gone and I'm depressed..
    James550 James550 16-17, M 8 hrs ago

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    xPrincessMia xPrincessMia 16-17, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Well ever since i was small Id be awaken to my

    parents constant arguing and fighting...theydbe on and off...off and on...my whole life. I didn't even wanna come home sometimes because i knew the constant fighting and accusations awaited the minute i walked through the front door. My mom is an amazing woman very...
    wilwuch wilwuch 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    My mom just told me when I was a bit younger,

    I used to go to knock on her bedroom at midnight crying because I was "thinking about my cats dying".
    imjustateenager imjustateenager 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I haven't always been an unhappy person.

    Not up until a few months ago have i felt so down in the dumps. I brought depression on myself i think.. i've never wanted to step outside of my comfort zone and try new things for the simple reason reason of not wanting to be judged and i think that's what frustrates me the...
    killlian killlian 18-21, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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