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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,542 People

    Two days ago, I received a message from a dear

    EP friend of mine. His name was Joshua, and he was from California, but you would have known him as either BrokenBrain or ChangingFaces5. By the time I received his message, it was too late for me to stop him. I believe that he killed himself. If anyone knows otherwise, I beg...
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I left the institution on Monday

    and in the days since, I've lost a best friend after an argument, I flew to El Paso to visit family, I learned that I failed all my classes, and I've broken down twice. Talk about eventful. All I want is alcohol, guys.
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    lindseysway lindseysway 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 31

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein.

    I heard it was about a tree and a boy. The tree was generous. Very generous, in fact, it may have been too generous. Perhaps a better word for the tree would be altruistic? Being altruistic is giving too much of yourself to someone else and not leaving...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    And found that it's not wise to befriend someone

    who fights the same battle. It just sends you into a downward spiral. It's best to surround yourself with positive people. Their light chases gray clouds away.
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F 7 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    When I've taken those depression screening

    questionnaires the doctors have given me I always struggle with the questions about feeling hopeless. I don't quite know how to approach the question. Or concept. Because I may feel lots of things, but my rational pragmatic brain is always there to remind me that I cannot truly...
    transformerman transformerman 22-25 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have felt depressed

    for long periods of time in my life...I have learnt to deal with it and found a creative side under this dark shadow...the possibility of express my pain in a poetic way makes me write the best.Transform sadness into art is something deep and wonderful.
    4biandu 4biandu 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    When I'm depressed and feeling sick

    and stuff like that I listen to this song ''My Name Is'' by Eminem.
    EverydaysLikeSunshine EverydaysLikeSunshine 16-17, M 6 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    I hate you. I hate you.

    I hate you. I hate you.I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. Why you gotta ruin our lives you demon (depressed monster)!!! But I pity you. Always taking the blame for all the bad stuff. It's tough. The word is tough, it's deep, and it's, poisonous. But it all...
    feint30 feint30 26-30, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    when something lil but good happens (bc good

    big things never happens to me) and makes me happy , it only last for seconds bc i just realize how good it feels to actually feel good and how i forgot that feeling long ago and i feel like crying and get so sad...
    imscum imscum 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    does any one elce feel the need to talk looking

    to tall to others who feel the same
    stonerr686 stonerr686 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    holy balls. I just watched the movie Girl,

    Interrupted and wow whenever I have a suicidal thought I'm gonna think of that movie and I swear I'll be ok. life changing wow.
    kenzi18 kenzi18 18-21, F 1 Response 59 mins ago

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    Dear Depression, We have a long history

    together, but I need to start ending things with you. I know we used to hang out years ago back in the day when a weekend wearing pajamas, eating junk food, and binge movie watching could be written off as being lazy. But lately, you are really affecting my relationships and my...
    Mookle Mookle 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I met with the disability people

    that are going to help me find a job, today and they told me that they want to try me on some medication. I'm really scared. I don't know what kind or what it's going to do to me. They're gonna monitor me for a month and see if the meds are(n't) enough while I do some light...
    gglz18 gglz18 22-25, F 25 mins ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    my wrist is so cut up

    and sensitive that I can't move it without wanting to cry. I needed to punish myself, but this hurts like hell. currently bawling my eyes out because of how stupid and useless i am. x rose
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I know what the problem is,

    and I wish most days I didn't have depression, anxiety and BPD. I wish I could hold down a job, be active, be social and most of all keep a guy. There are more people in this country afraid of and buy into stigma about mental illness than there are of those who have it and that...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    One of the things I say to myself all the time

    is that I want to go home when I am always home when I start saying it. Its one of the ways I know I'm depressed.
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    Abandon me Again and again Like I never

    mattered To begin with Abandon me Like I dont need you Break that promise You said "I'll never leave you." Abandon me On my darkest of nights Even though I've stayed glued to your side Forget that I loved you Forget that I needed you Forget that I trusted you Forget that I...
    kwellanique kwellanique 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Two days ago, I received a message from a dear

    EP friend of mine. His name was Joshua, and he was from California, but you would have known him as either BrokenBrain or ChangingFaces5. By the time I received his message, it was too late for me to stop him. I believe that he killed himself. If anyone knows otherwise, I beg...
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My mom just told me when I was a bit younger,

    I used to go to knock on her bedroom at midnight crying because I was "thinking about my cats dying".
    imjustateenager imjustateenager 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I just realized that I have major depression.

    . it's really hard to let it click, but it explains a lot.. for one, one of the symptoms (that seems less likely to be able to be something else or that I could make up at all) is to lose 5% of your body weight in less than a month.. I've lost 20% in only a little more than 3...
    kayalucky4 kayalucky4 18-21 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Its gets better and then it gets worse

    and then better and then worse again. I don't want to go through this anymore, I can't go through this anymore. I just wish I had the courage to kill myself. Maybe one day I will.
    xPrincessMia xPrincessMia 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    This day onwards, I think I need to fight

    for this depression. Since, it fail and it almost lead me to something that would basically I think would destroy me. Can't imagine why things fall apart, why people leave. Why they choose to hurt me instead of making me feel better.
    Choirayla Choirayla 22-25, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Isn't it so ******* annoying

    when you suggest a good idea, and then someone either says the same thing and takes credit for it, or ignore you and continue with their bullshit. Ugh
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    One of the worst things about depression is

    feeling bad for being depressed. Somehow, it feels like you're letting everyone down. Or, as if it's somehow a judgement of your family and friends ... you know that people care, and you know they'd like for you to be happy, so why aren't you?? "It's not you, it's me," right...
    MisterSerious MisterSerious 41-45, M 6 Responses 6 hrs ago

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