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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,852 People

    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    On top of the congestive heart failure

    and all the rest of the **** wrong with me, they are telling me that I now have COPD..As COPD gets worse, one may be short of breath even when I do simple things like getting dressed or fixing a meal. It gets harder to eat or exercise, and breathing takes much more energy...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Put my phone on shuffle

    and the first song that comes on is 'Hero' by Skillet..
    TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 18-21, M 7 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Today is one of those days

    where music can't soothe me, no matter how much I listen to it :/ fml
    TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 18-21, M 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I am not a simple person to understand.

    What you see on the surface is just a facade, masking my true self. The real person trapped inside of me is sitting in the corner of a dark, windowless room with no door to escape from. Sometime he will rear his head, and it's takes every fiber of my being to fight him back. I...
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

    We all know this isn't going to just disappear, and I don't have the strength to fight it every day. Let's save everyone's time.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Does anyone feel more depressed

    when you sleep in? It feels like you wasted half your day
    niceguyswin23 niceguyswin23 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I've been depressed for 3 years now.

    . Started when my cousin, my best friend, committed suicide. We were 17/18. I think only one short period of a month, I was happy after that.. And that was with my ex boyfriend of 5 years.. We were so connected emotionally spiritually physically. Idk what happened, or maybe it...
    krmdr krmdr 18-21, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I think that

    if i disappeared without a trace no one would care. I can't handle this depression anymore.
    Sonbou Sonbou 22-25, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    "You are not depressed.

    You're obviously just an attention seeker."
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I don't care anymore.

    Done trying....done being alone. Can't feel means can't hurt. Done done done done done. Tired of posting bullshit for random people to like. Why am I even on here? I admit, it's because I was hoping to find people I could talk to...relate to....confide in and be their confidant...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression.. Loneliness.

    . Rejection.. Social Anxiety.. Yeaah im your perfect package.. Sigh.. If it only just ends.. This feeling that im always trapped in a viscous cycle to always be miserable... It will never end..
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    and I'm back to hating myself again.

    I am crumbling. I think of my death more and more each day. I feel so happy when I am around people and doing something among them but once they are no longer around and I am by myself I feel alone more then ever. I am shredding myself to bits as well as my family. I feel awful...
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I fight the urge to hurt myself

    or worse everyday I only stop my self for a few people I'm hurt and no body knows
    wolfiegirl03 wolfiegirl03 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I became depressed by my female best friend

    and my boyfriend. Now, their just my exes, my ex best friend and ex boyfriend. I felt so used and betrayed. I felt like a fool! I felt so much pain by loving two people so much! I can never thought they will hide a relationship from me.
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    This is exam week... I really really really

    need to do good. But I can't sleep because if I sleep then I'll have nightmares and the nightmares are way way worse than being tired. Sometimes I have them when I'm awake, like flashbacks I guess, but everything is blurring together and I can't remember what happened when...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    Well, all things come to an end.

    .dont they? Nothing stays the same.. the feelings, the emotions, the screenshots, the songs, the little things that you did....all will soon reach a point where they would be meaningless and worthless..just like yourself.. How you could be so expandable and dispensable because...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    A few years ago I was diagnosed with severe

    depression. It was so hard to come to terms with the fact I had a mental illness which I was struggling to control. It was controlling me. It hurt knowing I was fighting a losing battle on my own and that no one or nothing could change the way I felt about myself. I felt...
    danyellelakin danyellelakin 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    And I feel absolutely awful.

    I just lay in bed crying or feeling like ****. I feel dead inside. I just feel emotionless get I'm sad and hurt. I can't even describe how I feel.. But it's an awful feeling
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Sitting here at 9:30am

    and already started drinking....I feel myself slipping back into my depression again
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40 41-45, M 7 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Have you ever been so sad

    that it physically hurts inside?
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Here's my story I put together on how

    depression feels like to me: Depression is something that just eats and eats at you, no matter how hard you try you just can escape it! You try and run, you try and hide but whatever you do it will find you. I would describe it as an imaginary enemy haunting you your...
    nospokensaying nospokensaying 18-21, F 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I think I'm pretty good at hiding it in public,

    even around most of my friends, but on the inside it's a constant battle. I don't see why people like me and I don't see a purpose for life... But I've already got accustomed to loneliness.
    TyranFarted TyranFarted 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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