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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,503 People

    It's late at night on my thirteenth birthday,

    and I'm sitting here with an empty body that somehow weighs all too much, bloody hips that look all too familiar and a blank stare after I just washed off today's fake smile.
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Something I forgot when I was thinking about

    walking out of my job. I'm good at what I do and will not be pushed out!
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 22-25, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Shianneee07x Shianneee07x 16-17, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    somegirl117 somegirl117 18-21 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Depression It hurts me It angers me It makes

    me hate myself Depression It hurts him It angers him It makes him hate himself Depression It hurts us It angers us It makes us hate ourselves Depression It changed me It changed him It changed us Now there's no us
    beautifuldisaster4 beautifuldisaster4 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Every just not have enough energy

    for anything. you sit in your bed and just feel nothing. you want to get up, but whats the point. Nothing happens with your life. Its the same d*** thing everyday. All you do is repeat and repeat. Lie and keep lieing. Keep getting ignored. It doesnt matter if you try to change...
    ShhhAnon ShhhAnon 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I was thinking a bit more about the optimal

    times to use one's mind to counteract depression. In my experience the absolutely best time to do that is before one is depressed as a prophylactic measure. So for those of us who have been depressed before, we know it is coming again, using the mind to battle depression to...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 1 Response 55 mins ago

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    I can't find happiness in anything anymore

    and I still can't find a reason to keep living. my best friend has tried to help but no one can change the way I feel about myself. life's slowly eating away at me and I don't want it to win
    money4rocketfuel money4rocketfuel 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have the feeling I'm about to break soon

    and I'm scared it's gonna be in class. I'm thinking about telling my best friend about it but I'm scared he won't understand or he is gonna laugh, because we used to have someone who was depressed in our class and well... he was kinda weird and nobody took it serious and my...
    gomega98 gomega98 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Well. I'm laying on my bed

    and I can't get up. My mind is running and I'm close to tears . I feel this deep dark feeling and no motivation to get up. I'm lost. I don't want to be here , I don't want to be there. Only place I wanna be is with him. But he is over 160 miles away. Of course. And I can't till...
    crazycatlady11 crazycatlady11 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    What have you done to me?

    I can't stop thinking I can't sleep I'm always tired I hate myself I'm worthless The doctors don't care My parents done care My relationship is being effected I hate what you've done to me
    beautifuldisaster4 beautifuldisaster4 22-25, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I get that everything is relative in this life,

    and so is the experience of depression. But it frustrates me to read that people urges depressed people to choose another attitude, to snap out of it, to get over it, that they are too sensitive, that they are being too negative. I get that people want to help, but it's...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    I can feel it standing behind me .

    . . . ready to overtake me if I let it. Will it ever go away? I doubt it.
    junkfan junkfan 56-60, M 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    I've been in a circle

    for so long. It's a roller coaster but still a circle. I wish I had things together. When I was in highschool I saw my future very very different. At 26 I thought I would be married to someone who made me feel safe and happy. Someone who actually loved me and never made me...
    cutecrazy05 cutecrazy05 22-25 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    One day you'll realize the monster you hate is

    the one you see in the mirror everyday. I tried to warn you about me.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    gybe gybe 18-21, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Ever watch the video

    for Chandelier by Sia? That song is my life, that video is my state of mind. See, when I finally am in a good mood my brain goes into overdrive and I act SO WEIRD because I can't help myself and then everyone thinks I'm batshit crazy. And I feel that way, like I can't control...
    DreamingOrchid DreamingOrchid 31-35, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Just feeling low for a

    while now. Wish I could snap out of it. Tired of people saying oh just love yourself more it will all fall into place. Whatever jerks
    spaceylibra spaceylibra 31-35, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Yesterday I had a phone conversation with my

    husband during which I asked him what his plans for the evening were. He mentioned something that needed to get done. I then interpretted it in my mind as him telling me to do it, and I objected and said that I was not up to doing that. He hung up before I was ready to finish...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    It's happening again.

    Those compulsive thoughts. All I can seem to think about is how my boyfriend can cheat on me, how he doesn't find me interesting anymore, things that I can't even decipher whether or not they are rational thoughts. Because when I'm in this state of mind, everything is cloudy...
    ncon08 ncon08 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    ShadowWolf190 ShadowWolf190 13-15, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I'm done. I give up. This isn't worth the ride

    anymore. I try so hard. I go out of my way to be considerate to everyone else. I'm sick of getting my hopes up. I'm sick of being screwed. I'm sick of being the only one that hurts. I'm sorry, world. I gave you my best. I hope you can forgive me.
    KaylaNicole93 KaylaNicole93 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I always listen to maroon 5

    when i am upset
    Madelinex24 Madelinex24 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 17 Responses May 27

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I'm so upset with myself.

    I told my closest friend I'd always be there for her and while she was depressed and alone.. I was asleep.. I let her down.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    With all the pain, both past

    and present, I feel nothing but guilt for the way that I am. A roof over my head, food on the table, clean water to drink. I'm not unattractive, nor attractive. I'm above average height, and a big guy overall. I'm decently smart, enough so to attend a University with a...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    And my familie doesn't get it.

    Right :/ Same o' same old. They basically think I'm a lazy **** who doesn't make sense. Sure there are worse things in the world than me pitying myself for wasting the earths oxogen. That won't make me feel better though. It just makes me hate the world even more. How can I stay...
    PanicDream PanicDream 18-21, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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