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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,856 People

    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I don't care anymore.

    Done trying....done being alone. Can't feel means can't hurt. Done done done done done. Tired of posting bullshit for random people to like. Why am I even on here? I admit, it's because I was hoping to find people I could talk to...relate to....confide in and be their confidant...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think I'm pretty good at hiding it in public,

    even around most of my friends, but on the inside it's a constant battle. I don't see why people like me and I don't see a purpose for life... But I've already got accustomed to loneliness.
    TyranFarted TyranFarted 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    On top of the congestive heart failure

    and all the rest of the **** wrong with me, they are telling me that I now have COPD..As COPD gets worse, one may be short of breath even when I do simple things like getting dressed or fixing a meal. It gets harder to eat or exercise, and breathing takes much more energy...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    I hate it. I can be really happy

    but one bad thought pulls me into a deep depression. It's horrible.
    appleisaiah appleisaiah 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    TheMadHatterWasHere TheMadHatterWasHere 18-21, F 3 Responses 59 mins ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I am not a simple person to understand.

    What you see on the surface is just a facade, masking my true self. The real person trapped inside of me is sitting in the corner of a dark, windowless room with no door to escape from. Sometime he will rear his head, and it's takes every fiber of my being to fight him back. I...
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Today is one of those days

    where music can't soothe me, no matter how much I listen to it :/ fml
    TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 18-21, M 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    The best advice I've ever gotten about battling

    depression is to fight it. My best friend told me to write positive things about the world and myself on sticky notes and place them around my room. I have sticky notes under my socks in the drawer that talk about how nice clean laundry smell. I have a sticky note on my mirror...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Why are you depressed ?

    I want everyone who saw this experience to list all the reasons why theyre depressed... Ill go first, loneliness, how worthless and expandable i could get when it comes to the people i care about the most.. Whats yours ? :)
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 1 Response 34 mins ago

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    Deppression is my struggle.

    ... My weight ... My insecurities...
    newanorexicgirl newanorexicgirl 16-17, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    i want someone who is ****** up to talk to me.

    come with all your sins so you cant possibly judge mine.
    aliwashere aliwashere 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Well, all things come to an end.

    .dont they? Nothing stays the same.. the feelings, the emotions, the screenshots, the songs, the little things that you did....all will soon reach a point where they would be meaningless and worthless..just like yourself.. How you could be so expandable and dispensable because...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I'm really upset right now.

    Wish i had someone to talk to. Im trying. Ive BEEN trying really hard to make things work. Ive been trying to get better. But it seems like its just fighting against who i really am. Seems pointless. Im not healthy and i will never be healthy. Whats the point of fighting against...
    Derpkitty Derpkitty 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Does anyone feel more depressed

    when you sleep in? It feels like you wasted half your day
    niceguyswin23 niceguyswin23 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    This is exam week... I really really really

    need to do good. But I can't sleep because if I sleep then I'll have nightmares and the nightmares are way way worse than being tired. Sometimes I have them when I'm awake, like flashbacks I guess, but everything is blurring together and I can't remember what happened when...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    Depression.. Loneliness.

    . Rejection.. Social Anxiety.. Yeaah im your perfect package.. Sigh.. If it only just ends.. This feeling that im always trapped in a viscous cycle to always be miserable... It will never end..
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I've been depressed for 3 years now.

    . Started when my cousin, my best friend, committed suicide. We were 17/18. I think only one short period of a month, I was happy after that.. And that was with my ex boyfriend of 5 years.. We were so connected emotionally spiritually physically. Idk what happened, or maybe it...
    krmdr krmdr 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    Here's my story I put together on how

    depression feels like to me: Depression is something that just eats and eats at you, no matter how hard you try you just can escape it! You try and run, you try and hide but whatever you do it will find you. I would describe it as an imaginary enemy haunting you your...
    nospokensaying nospokensaying 18-21, F 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Put my phone on shuffle

    and the first song that comes on is 'Hero' by Skillet..
    TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 TheAmazinglyAwkwardSpiderJoe1 18-21, M 11 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    and I'm back to hating myself again.

    I am crumbling. I think of my death more and more each day. I feel so happy when I am around people and doing something among them but once they are no longer around and I am by myself I feel alone more then ever. I am shredding myself to bits as well as my family. I feel awful...
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am trying so hard to deal with this,

    just not doing a good job of it, just how in the hell is one suppose to deal with the fact that one is dying. I am depressed and alone. I have no one to talk to about all this here and it really sucks.. all my life I have been there for anyone that needed me, now that I need...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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