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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,775 People

    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I'll be getting a new therapist soon.

    My last one wasnt fixing anything and I left the sessions angrier than I went in.. How do I know if this'll be different..?
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 35 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    I slit my wrists to erase the pain,

    You look at me and think I'm insane My eyes turn red, bleeding my tears And still you try to protect me from my worst fears Look at my scars, then will you see Why I can't seem to go around and fake happy Yet you tell me you love me, that you'll forget For soon i'll be gone...
    ravenzewolf ravenzewolf 13-15, F 7 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I just want to take a moment

    and thank every single one of you on here for being here and supporting me. Whenever I need a place to spill my thoughts or things get rough at home and I have no one to go to, I go here, even if no one reads it. Honestly, I believe I'd be dead by now if it weren't for you guys...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    I am not the old happy me,

    she was gone for such a long time now.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I battle severe depression

    and eating disorders I was anorexic from 3 to 6 grade and bulimic from 7th to 9th I've always been bullied about my weight and my looks I'm a very different person I'm so loving and kind and I'm also hateful at times but not very often I have a bunch of different sides but for...
    oilchick1488 oilchick1488 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    This will be a rant, apologies in advance.

    My home life sucks and I just don’t like people or school or talking and I wouldn’t ******* care if I failed all my classes and dropped out but obv I can’t and I’d also like to go to college what do I do I just want to fall off the face of the earth I hate school I hate...
    opheliarevived opheliarevived 16-17, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 5 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    The biggest bully I have known in my life was

    my father. I always felt nauseous/sick/suicidal every time he spoke. We have been estranged for years and now he is trying to reach me and remind me that he is my father and responsible for giving me life. Thing is, he is retiring and is definitely short on money. All my life I...
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Each day the thoughts sink in deeper.

    I ******* hate living. It's so bullshit. Doing the same thing everyday. I'm dying inside. I can't take this anymore. But at the same time I can't kill myself. I want to, it's all I think about. And that just makes me angry. I'm always angry at everything. I hate myself for being...
    Tsb1092 Tsb1092 22-25, M 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Is it still a battle

    if you're both sides?
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I have the tools at hand to commit suicide ,

    knives , swords. But I said f u cc kk that s hh i tt If I'm goin to die it'll be for a cause... Something told me Im here for a reason ..... Not just any old reason . A real reason... -RB . T.P.C M.W
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 4 mins ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    I am slowly giving up,

    a little more every day
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I draw my strength from my hate no reason to

    keep it inside, wake up every morning wishing id died, i know im alive because god has a purpose for me, but its not what you think he just wants to see me suffer and laugh at the pain in my screams! I wanna rip out my heart and throw it in the trash, let all the hate and anger...
    sizzahands86 sizzahands86 26-30, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I battle depression because i am left behind in

    terms of my career compared to my age bracket. I quit my first job after a month because i battle about a taboo health problem. I quit because I plan to seek for a doctor regarding my problem.I plan to look for a job but I am hesitant when the interview came because of the lag...
    loner1991 loner1991 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Everyday I look happy to friends

    and family like everything is OK, but on the inside there is a gap of loneliness from 1 person and its killing me.
    Crazychick123456 Crazychick123456 16-17, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    I'm feeling very sad

    and anxious today and I don't know why. Nothing bad has happened to me. The voices in my head are getting louder to. I haven't cut for years but I'm starting to feel like cutting again which is a bad sign. Maybe I'll call my dr.
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    The world has let itself be carried away by

    stupidity. It's the easiest way. They were begging to lose consciousness of their acts to release them from responsability. For humanity without identity, without integrity, what they called freedom, has only served to make them see that they were incapable of making decisions...
    MissNNN MissNNN 22-25, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    You know there is a quote I wrote

    and it says:"life is like an abstract painting, with one glance you can't get the background story or even understand it until you live it and breathe it" and everybody has something unique about them no matter what you think. But one thing we have in common: we've all...
    breannabmk1023 breannabmk1023 16-17, F 7 hrs ago

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    So here I am alive...

    Trying to make phone calls. My phone company is letting me keep my phone till Nov. But I can't get ahold of others... Been on the waiting phone with power for 30 mins now... This is crazy.
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    A die-ary entry. I'm going to test something.

    I'm making myself a special French toast. I read that these spices are good mood enhancers. Let's put it to the test eh. Well good night for now.
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11

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    Thought today would be slightly better

    but it's worse than yesterday. Only today I'm not laying in bed, but sitting on a chair starring out the window. I feel like my head is buzzing, so it's not quiet enough... I just want total silence, and I don't want to engage in meaningless chatter. I just want to sit here...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 8 hrs ago

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    Today's die-ary entry.

    Phone calls made but one. I feel beat, tired, sick, and empty inside. The thought of killing and inflicting harm weaving greatly on my mind... I ask myself... Why am I alive still. And than I cry and call myself a failure and a coward... I've cheated death so many times, is...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Everyday for the past 11 months is a struggle

    for me to even look forward to a better day.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I have battled depression

    since I was a toddler. Every day is a struggle, but also an experience
    griffinlynn1 griffinlynn1 13-15, T 13 hrs ago

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    I don't want someone

    who can listen, I want someone who can understand.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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