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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,080 People

    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Just like chris. And sometimes by listening.

    To him. And lewis black. But chris lived through more. http://youtu.be/vw5lwK9UAY8
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    So why when all my family is around,

    it's thanksgiving and everyone's happy, I find myself staring off into space fighting tears. Why tears? What are these tears about? Just why!? I can't help but feel hopelessness and worthlessness. It eats at me, almost constantly. Doesn't matter where I am or who I'm with, I...
    danielle1423 danielle1423 22-25, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Do you ever get random sparks of motivation?

    It's like randomly I'll feel hyped to want to change but the feeling lasts for about 5minutes and I go back to my depressive state of mind.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    idk what to do. just wanted to post.

    I'm getting happier. but.. lives still mixed and people still unhappy.. what to do.. my work is never done
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    everyday I feel depressed no matter how many

    people help me I jst can't help but feel down, I don't enjoy it but I guess I hav to start getting use to it cuz I've felt this way the passed 15 years
    teddy714 teddy714 13-15, M 5 hrs ago

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    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, T 12 hrs ago

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    Lets add on to my problems.

    . You know how thanksgiving is usually a time where you get with your whole family and just eat and enjoy the company? Because I don't. My whole family is separated through fighting, so, I had dinner with my mom and eleven year old sister.. They don't even feel like people I'd...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Weight loss continues

    as I take more and more pills... I ended up emptying a bunch of the capsules into a bag that I carry around with me... They help me through the day..
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have been so depressed

    for such a long time... I'm not even sure what it's like to feel happy anymore. :(
    Misscoconut Misscoconut 18-21, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My older brother came over today

    and noticed how skinny I looked. He pointed it out and my whole family started staring and commenting
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 4 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    You really know you are depressed

    when sadness and anger turn to numbness. I no longer really feel anything. Maybe a little sadness but the rest has faded away into a void...
    Jrivs Jrivs 16-17, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I miss that feeling of genuine happiness.

    Faking smiles is extremely exhausting . I wonder at what point in my life that my brain just drowned in my thoughts completely . If I could go back and prevent it , I would. I thought I could swim but these waves are too high. And I swear, no one can survive this.
    BeverlyPills BeverlyPills 16-17, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    It's a constant fight with my emotions.

    I'm trying to stay positive.. Keep myself busy.. So busy that my mind can't wounded off. But that is impossible. I feel grief take over my spirit. My face shows no emotions and I feel my entire get heavy and I have to remember to breath.. I'm trying so hard to stay positive. My...
    Princesjazmine90 Princesjazmine90 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    SophieeChapman SophieeChapman 18-21, F 6 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I really hate my life

    and who I am. If it wasn't for my children I know id no longer be here. Some days I don't even know if that will be enough to hold on anymore. I feel like I'm drowning and I'm only getting just enough gulps of air to keep living but it's so painful. My whole body aches. It hurts...
    sparrow412 sparrow412 26-30, F 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Its a daily struggle

    even when things are going well in my life.
    away9999 away9999 46-50, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I plan on sharing this with my psychologist.

    .. Not sure what that would even do, but I just want someone to know how i TRULY feel every single day... I'm not "real" anymore. I am an observer living above and critiquing myself, watching myself go through the motions of life without actually being present in the moment. I'm...
    mrtonystarks mrtonystarks 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    even on a day that should be nice i am very

    depressed and disappointed in myself
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    Feeling down today. Been through the ringer,

    fighting with myself and pushing through. Growing up is tough. Being alone is tough. Feeling like I'll never find someone is tough. Feeling like I've wasted too much time with depression and now it's too late to find love is tough. Maintaining healthiness is tough. Life's not...
    transienthope transienthope 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    I have two close friends

    who are battling manic depression. I love them and have been trying to support them the best way I can. However, I have never experienced anything like they have. I was wondering if any of you could share some things that have helped you? And/or some things that people have done...
    rojn rojn 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 31

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    When I get sad, I get unhappy,

    when I get unhappy I get super depressed. Even about small things. I feel as if I am just an existence and not a person, I isolate myself, I abandon other people and I abandon myself
    lorettah lorettah 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect.

    Don't worry about being perfect. Spend your time and energy making sure that you're spending your life giving and receiving love. nobody is going to remember you for your imperfections- they will remember you for your kindness, good humor, and compassion. So stop trying to...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 25 mins ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Almost November 27, 2014 Hello,

    old friend, now tell me why you failed, how you came so close, yet you have yet to see my end. At my throat did your blade set already digging into my flesh you had me, you saw me fold, so why, my Demon, did you fail? Demon, were you weak, afraid? What thoughts raced in your...
    TheDylanG TheDylanG 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate living with depression.

    I will have a few good days and then get hit with more bad days. I wish that I could have more of the good days then the bad days but right now its more bad days then it is good days.
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 2 hrs ago

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    Ive had depression ever

    since i was 12. Im 16 now. If you ever need to talk im here. Dont hesitate.
    PCOSstrength PCOSstrength 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I have a sunny parallel in my mind of how I

    want it to come out. But it's like nothing I do helps things. Things could be pleasant but they turn bad. At this point I don't feel like it will ever get better and I feel so and I don't see what's the worth in life anymore.
    Misscoconut Misscoconut 18-21, F 18 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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