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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,232 People

    The darkness finally took control of my life.

    .. again. I was afraid that this would happen, and it finally happened again, but this time was even worse than in the past, this time I was completely swallowed by the darkness and my pain will never stop, this time I'm sure that my pain will never stop. My pain will stop only...
    HenriqueROG HenriqueROG 18-21, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Everyday it's the same thing.

    Wake up, hate myself, put on the fake smile, hide my pain from everyone, get home and want to die. Why can't I be someone else? Why can't I be normal? Why do I have to be me?
    dylanh9717 dylanh9717 16-17, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I've been depressed all my life.

    Not that I have a reason to. My family loves me. I haven't had a traumatic experience. I am not the stereo typical depressed person. I have quite a bit of friends. Yet, no matter what I do or try.. I can't fight the demons inside of my head. I can't fight the urges I promised to...
    dylanh9717 dylanh9717 16-17, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Feeling very alone. I often wonder

    why I'm even here. What possible value I add. Some days I really hate my life. my self.
    alostsoul1992 alostsoul1992 41-45, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I really don't know what to do.

    I just feel alone. I just want to leave but don't want to go down the same path I did back in September. I feel so helpless though and that seems like a good option again to escape again.
    Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy 16-17, M 1 min ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I wish I could feel some other emotion other

    then pain and sadness. I just want to feel happy for once. Is that too much to ask?
    broken203 broken203 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I fear the end is near.

    the blackness closes in and my walls are crumbling under the weight of my demons. the sun has set, i fear it will rise no more.
    Greyeyess Greyeyess 18-21 2 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Thatnobody123 Thatnobody123 16-17, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    elgrxce elgrxce 18-21, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    My moms been bugging me to download this app

    for the longest so i finally did. Im going through severe depression right now. Its so heavy on me .. no matter how hard i try depression always finds its way back in. I hate living sometimes.. i feel like a waste. My head is literally the worst place ever.. constantly...
    xMelEatsPizza xMelEatsPizza 13-15, F 6 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I don't want to be me anymore.

    I wish I could reset my whole life and re-make myself. I trapped myself inside this shell that I can't ever seem to break. I hate watching life go by from the sidelines. I hate being weak. I want to take control of my own life for once. I want to smash this shell from the...
    Decade91 Decade91 22-25, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I can't get help because my family doesn't

    believe that depression is real while I'm slow but surely fading away
    idontcare334 idontcare334 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    All I want is happiness

    but why do I suffer and struggle so much to find it? Is there even any out there for me? I hope Listening to Last Resort by Papa Roach right now and I feel like I'm the one who wrote it
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 14 hrs ago

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    I've noticed that all I do is look

    for anything depressing like music and movies and etc its like my mind wants to be depressed :( if that makes any sense
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I'm sad and tired and feel alone.

    I wish I had something to make me numb. Pills, smoke, drink, a bullet it doesn't matter. Anything to stop this horrid feeling. Anything for my head to be quiet for a little while....
    littlechef77 littlechef77 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I'm turning into who I was 5 years ago.

    I get depression often but back in high school it was so bad but no one noticed. No one ever notices. My dad thinks I'm just grumpy, and my mom just tells me to be optimistic. I try. I think positive thoughts but it just sucks. I'm doing the scratching thing again. Anxiety and...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I think twice before taking decision in my life.

    But wheel of fortune doesn't favour me.
    bon14ever bon14ever 26-30, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I have a new (not yet healed) scar

    that runs from mid thigh to just above my hip that required stitches. Which I did myself, because that definitely would've gotten me locked up in a psych ward. I'm in my high school's med program, so I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna die, but I did pop the stitches a few times early...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    We lie cold Damn up the river we can go

    slowWe don't wanna know Dull down our senses Become numb We take our time Ignoring all the signs Living in fear of our liesNever bad enough to break it or good enough to feel right Been in overtime half our lives Under indecision We become...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    I'm scared to get close,

    and I hate being alone. I long for that feeling; to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I sink. I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't wanna be me anymore.

    I wish I could go back to when I was a child and had nothing to worry about. I just want to disappear.
    Margarott Margarott 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    "Worthless"... "kill yourself" .

    .. "Fat" ... "Ugly"... Awful things to say right? I say these things every day to myself. Why you may ask? Cause it's true...
    dylanh9717 dylanh9717 16-17, M 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Hope1198 Hope1198 26-30, F 5 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    3 years ago.. I was in a very bad place.

    I was having suicidal thoughts,cutting and I had no one to talk to! So I told my high school counselor everything. And it was vey uncomfortable very weird i felt very exposed! and I don't know why but I feel like I'm back there! i cant let those feelings go! even tho telling him...
    MKM18 MKM18 18-21, F 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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