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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,772 People

    I hate it. One second I'm fine,

    having the best day and then suddenly I'm just like.... well **** it. I just feel like **** and I can't understand why!
    GrimMindControl GrimMindControl 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I just start thinking about it

    and can't stop. It's like I'm stuck on a track and there aren't any stops. Whooot whooot! It's the feel-****** train! And I try to distract myself but every single thing I do reminds me. So I start to do even more stuff and maybe then I can make it through the day without...
    RosieJay RosieJay 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I do, I have a lot of bad days,

    but I have some rare good days. On those good days I want to enjoy it. I want to be happy. Don't get me wrong, I love helping people but I get down so easy and when I'm doing good and all these people complain to me about their problems, it ruins my whole mood. I can't handle...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    What did I felt when I had put

    that blaze between my skin. I now understand it was a stupid selfish act that I had done & continue to go months without doing so. I have moments where I want to relapse, I had enough. I am slowly killing myself in the most silent way. I do not wish to seek help but I am crying...
    2ndTry 2ndTry 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have been battling it

    for a year and its getting harder by a second. When I cry I can feel my heart break and it makes me cry more. I feel like a broken soul walking around because I feel worthless and things like that. I don't like this feeling
    xxemogirlxx xxemogirlxx 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I haven't been down in it

    for this long in a long time. I remember dealing with it as a kid/teenager and just being able to shut down. wall myself in, cry, not eat, write. As an adult living with it, it is quite different. i still have to be present. I have to force myself to get out of bed in the...
    greeneyz83 greeneyz83 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today has been so long

    and hard, finding it hard to breath . Once again I failed , I'm 34 and never had a full time job , what's so wrong with me. I've been casual always I feel like giving up
    wicankat wicankat 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I've been having a really rough couple of days.

    Maybe weeks. It's been building up over time. I'm extremely irritable lately. Everything gets on my nerves. I can barely hold a conversation with anyone without snapping at them. I don't know what caused it but I don't like it. I thought I was getting better.
    toni701 toni701 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I was recently diagnosed

    as clinically depressed. I'm going through therapy, lots of work, lots of writing what I think and how it makes me feel daily... (Which I've been procrastinating on...) I kinda don't want this to go away though. I'm so used to it... It's a part of me. Does anyone else feel...
    girlinwhite girlinwhite 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I've never really done physical self harm

    but I often get an irresistible urge to test or end friendships which I sometimes think of as a form of self harm. Recently I blocked most of my current Internet friends because it was too painful to be constantly reminded that they were avoiding me/keeping their distance. I've...
    iacob iacob 26-30, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I’ve already said too much.

    I’ve already shared too much, and now I want all my secrets back. I hate getting too close to people. I regret having shared so much, for having cared so much, for allowing myself to feel so much.
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is living in a body

    that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die.
    loveyourselmore loveyourselmore 16-17, F 24 mins ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    I'm not that bad compared to some others

    but I get sad for no reason. I feel like nobody cares about even know they tell me they do, I feel like I will never find love even know I have had it many times and I was the reason it ended. I feel like I have no friends when I got plenty.
    afterlife12 afterlife12 18-21, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Just a random thought.

    Correct me if i am wrong. My life is completely fine. But i have the urge to cry. And feeling so depressed! And so sad and trying to remember bad stuff from the past. What happened to me? Is this have anything to do with my hormones? Or the unbalanced chemical in the brain? I...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm really depressed

    and thinking of leaving EP and my family
    equusrider equusrider 56-60, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I cant do it.. I just cant.

    . I cant keep on fighting and putting up with all of this bs in my life! Its so ******* hard.. I know im lonely af.. I know how much ****** up my case is.. I know all of my imperfections.. Physically and mentally.. I cant be human. I just cant try anymore. Im so...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Confusion in my head.

    .. Hatred in my words and actions... Depression in my heart... Numbness in my body... I didn't ask for this.... Does somebody want it? I can't handle it anymore... But.... I'm fine 😊
    Saphhy195 Saphhy195 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 19 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Its no use telling me it'll get better,

    because i know that. I know it will. But I also know that its a vicious cycle, and that the dark days will come around again, just like they always do.
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I know I battle depression everyday.

    I have been for some the now. It all slowly started when we found out my son had autism, I was about six month pregnant with our daughter. that was a really big adjustment for me. after she was born things just really seem to go down hill from there. I try my hardest everyday to...
    sexygirl81 sexygirl81 31-35, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I've stayed up all night cause my head hurts

    from stressing so much, the last few days I haven't been on here, I'm sorry if you've messaged me and I haven't answered. I've just been going through a lot lately and honestly it's taking every ounce of strength not to hurt myself. I honestly just want to die right now.
    Danewinter95 Danewinter95 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I struggle tremendously with motivation these

    days. I sleep the majority of the day. Bed is like an addiction, I've been choosing comfort over living. My family has to sometimes literally pull me out of bed to do something. I'm able to go on the occasional hike with my dog which is nice but I'm afraid of social situations...
    redtailhawk29 redtailhawk29 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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