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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,571 People

    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Sarahex Sarahex 31-35, F 13 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    I'm losing the battle,

    I'm staring at a bottle of Ciroc on my bed after drinking half of it.... Now I'm staring at the pain killers next to it.... I don't know if I want to die, but I know I don't want to live ... I just want to numb this pain... I'm losing this battle I'm so weak... I thought I...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I am not in a good place.

    I'm 40, married with kids. Anyone from the outside looking in might think I have a good life. I am blessed with a hard working husband, two wonderful kids, and a nice home. My older one is a challenge with attention issues and learning disabilities. I believe my husband can...
    Iwanttolovebeinghere Iwanttolovebeinghere 36-40, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    If you're not busy living,

    you're busy dying.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 31

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    These suicidal thoughts strike again

    after all these years. It just reminds me of the worst period of my life and makes me want to give up on everything. I know I got many things to live for but so much more things to die for; so can I die please? Can I die for all these things that cause me pain? That make me...
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I wish I had someone in my life

    that I could talk to about how I feel and a shoulder to cry on byt I dont have anyone, I dont know what I'd do if me and Lewis broke up cuz I wont have anyone because I have lost all my mates and my family act like they hate me xxx
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I lost my Granny on the 1st of April 2014 to

    cancer. Today would've been her 73rd birthday
    Ashlynthepanda Ashlynthepanda 13-15, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Fallenprinceofthedarkside Fallenprinceofthedarkside 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I never asked to be born

    but now i have to pay :(
    LostInLife19 LostInLife19 18-21, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I have been cyberbullied cause of a stupid

    mistake i made and somtimes i live my own hell in school and home and so sometimes i wish i would start fresh again and be happy again.
    kevin678 kevin678 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I met with the disability people

    that are going to help me find a job, today and they told me that they want to try me on some medication. I'm really scared. I don't know what kind or what it's going to do to me. They're gonna monitor me for a month and see if the meds are(n't) enough while I do some light...
    gglz18 gglz18 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I know what the problem is,

    and I wish most days I didn't have depression, anxiety and BPD. I wish I could hold down a job, be active, be social and most of all keep a guy. There are more people in this country afraid of and buy into stigma about mental illness than there are of those who have it and that...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Had a pretty good day today felt pretty happy

    and alright all day no bad thoughts of suicide so I'm doing better
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    You know what hurts? That feeling

    when you get upset. You know the feeling. The point when you're so upset it hurts to breathe. You're breathing heavily, trying not to cry, trying to keep it together. Suddenly the feeling progresses, and not in a good way. You think of all the bad things that could have happened...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I push away ppl bc i dont need them to remind

    me how **** i am how ugly i am how stupid i am how trash i am , i know already and it makes me feel bad enough so i dont need extra pressure i dont need their love i just need them to accept what i am And understand its not my fault that im like this i was born like this bc i...
    imscum imscum 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I battle depression everyday.

    . It suxs. There days where all I want to do is sleep all day.. A lot of it comes from me dealing with chronic pain. I get to point where u get so tried of it..I want to give up. Then I think about sex will help me forget about the pain. Well it help but it just a short fix...
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Somedays, like today,

    I'm okay. But I always feel like I'm waiting. Waiting to be hurt again or hurt myself again. I'm not necessarily sad but there's this underlying feeling i have of "why even try?" because I know that tomorrow or the next day I'm going to want to die again....stressful
    ChiascuroGirl ChiascuroGirl 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Done. Done. And, done.

    Oh, and done. Done.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I'm actually suicidal

    but the only one who knows is my therapist
    amaui1 amaui1 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    So the neighbors are partyin again,

    wonder if i should join dont wanna be depressed inside my house when theres a party just 10 feet away lol.
    1492Savagery 1492Savagery 13-15, M 11 hrs ago

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    I was severely depressed last few months.

    I was always crying when Im alone in my room. I think aboit suicide all the time. But now its different, I can accept it, that I will forever be on my own, that no one will reach out to me and everyone will miaunderstood me. Its shameful to say this but whenever I go to sleep...
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I've been battling my depression

    for about 8 years. I was put on medication about two years ago. The first med didn't help so I stopped it. I thought I was to where I could handle my depression without meds, I was wrong. My doc put me on a different med and it helps. There are days I forget to take it (like...
    tallchick003 tallchick003 22-25, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    I get really depressed every now

    and then and no one notices. I've been a bit depressed lately and no one has noticed or listens when I try to talk to them. Makes me feel lonely and like no one cares. It really sucks.
    thatonegirl360 thatonegirl360 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    People like to feel like they're going through

    the hardest time. That they're singled out. That they're the only ones experiencing a specific emotion. That no one can understand. But that's not always the case. On occasion, I read posts from this group. Call me a hypocrite if you must; but I always feel like these people are...
    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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