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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,712 People

    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    One day I'm so angry

    and sad, but the next I'm so happy. I think I'm bi-polar but to scared to ask mom to take me to therapist
    Sevrin77 Sevrin77 13-15, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    When the one thing that made you happy does not

    make you happy anymore...how do you keep yourself holding on?
    lovelybones14 lovelybones14 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I've spent the last week

    or two sliding deeper and deeper into yet another depressive episode. I'd been working really hard and chatting with some friends online and generally doing OK. Then an online friend broke some bad news that I didn't handle well at all. Now I feel like I was a fool to think I...
    rpf1988 rpf1988 41-45, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    At this point all I can do is cry.

    I don't even want to "fix" my depression anymore. I don't even care anymore. I'm just going to stop talking and stop eating again. They're putting me in a mental hospital soon so what's the point. **** it I don't care.
    lifesacruelgame lifesacruelgame 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hiya there, i'm Gavin,

    I like to help people with depression/self-harm, so if you need to talk you can message me
    GavinP GavinP 13-15, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 19 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Went on a date today.

    Spent 4 hours with him. I can't remember much of the conversation. I felt sleepy and bored. Am I just desperate if I give him another chance?
    transienthope transienthope 22-25, F 20 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I feel like I write in here too often

    although it's been months since I've been online. I don't know what's going on with me. I went on vacation and became all positive. 3 days back at my job and I can feel the negativity eating away at me again. I need a break. So much is going wrong in every aspect of my life. At...
    kitakat00 kitakat00 26-30, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    just spent the last 4ish hours in bed

    questioning why I even try to be happy at this point
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate feeling this way.

    Feeling so alone.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I cant help but feel

    that waking up is starting to get over rated. The worse thing is, My anger isnt making this feeling any better. Meh, i guess I'll just keep feeling like sh!t.
    Incontiman Incontiman 26-30, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    So it's been a while

    since I've actually been on here but I haven't been myself lately. I feel like when I'm busy during the day and doing things I'm ok because I'm not thinking about everything but when I get home or I'm alone I'm just numb. I don't know who to talk to cause no ones gives a **** or...
    brokenangel4ever brokenangel4ever 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I honestly feel like everything is turning to

    **** I want a way out but I don't know how to do it. It always seems like I'm here for everyone else but when I need someone there never there for me. I'm just so tired of my life and it seems like no one understands nor cares I have a crazy mother and I want out so bad.
    kaykay199667 kaykay199667 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    As I'm writing I am sat in my car in the lot

    outside work having just walked out of the office. My demons have become too big again. I can't carry on like this. No human should be so chronically sad as this right now. I can't be alone nor can I talk to people in this mood. What the hell is wrong with me. What can I do...
    drowen1 drowen1 26-30, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Been on meds now about 3 weeks.

    that deep sadness has gone. But i just feel so angry all the time. Anyone any tips on how they vent their anger?
    Ottway23 Ottway23 22-25 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression, anxiety, ptsd,

    personality disorder and more. Sick of it, 35 yrs fighting it. No family, no friends, no home, no life, just me and my illness. So over it.
    jakdempsey jakdempsey 46-50, M 4 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    When I'm alone, I feel hallow.

    When I'm with my family or at work, it's like I'm not even depressed. But when I finally am alone, I feel an incredible wave of sadness, as if depression is making up for lost time. It's overwhelming
    TaintedBlueberry TaintedBlueberry 18-21, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Help.. Last night I was playing GTA

    and a girl with the same name and almost identical voice as my first love was on there.. Her laugh was so adorable.. I miss her..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    when will this depression leave?

    ??? so exhausted in fighting this.....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Sometimes, even my parents doubt me.

    Makes me feel really ****** and worthless I'm not gonna lie... 😞
    Iduneven Iduneven 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I did it. I had a slight form of depression.

    All i did i changed the way i lived. City, people and work. It helped me. Hope it will help you too
    nataliawww nataliawww 26-30, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I haven't told no one !

    Not my sisters my mom my best friends .... :( my doctor knows I battle depression an she prescribed me pills but I hate pills I don't believe in them ... I thought I was stronger but I guess not ... I want to give up
    ev23 ev23 31-35, F 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    After so many events I sunk into deep

    depression. for two years I convinced myself that I will die soon in an accident or something, that everything will be over soon and that I just have to wait and it will happen. But after two years of waiting I decided that I'm done waiting and that I have to take matters into...
    editavner22 editavner22 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    my ex came to me yesterday saying

    that he had cheated on his current girlfriend.......I was so happy I couldn't stop laughing! there little perfect relationship was falling apart just like ours did! but then I felt terrible and decided that instead of sitting by and watching it crash and burn I would offer up...
    ShysietheVampiric ShysietheVampiric 18-21, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Tonight feels like a bad night.

    I desperately want to cry, but I can't seem to make any tears. There's a ton of built up sadness inside right now. I've been taking meds for a few months now and it's helped control my emotions, but there are still bad days. I guess I can't expect everything to be perfect. At...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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