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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,682 People

    My depression has come

    and gone multiple times. Mostly I manage to keep myself grounded knowing that I have 4 of the greatest friends I could have ever asked for. Sometimes I just wish that I could talk to them about how I feel..but honestly I'm too embarrassed to say a word about it to anyone. They...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Is this how you say goodbye?

    By leaving me alone? By walking pass me, pretending I don't exist? By giving me mixed signals? By hurting me, to the extent I die inside? Oh my dear love, I love you very much But everyday I see you.. You act like you're emotionless.. No physical contact, no signs, no nothing...
    Macyyyy Macyyyy 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Okay so this might sound really wired

    but i am super depressed because of a cough...okay let me explain a few days ago i started coughing all day and it was just constant 24/7 then i started to feel super sick and lose my appetite and now i hardly sleep i feel drained and weak i get hot and faint and it's getting to...
    SophieeKezzie SophieeKezzie 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    maxravnjak maxravnjak 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I have something called "selective mutism"

    and i've had it since i was a kid. And i have gone thrue alot...actually not so much but i have so manyy feelings and i think soo much and i just don't know what to do and there is so much more. if someone wants to talk about them or other stuff then i'm here for you. Just...
    Jjta Jjta 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    Genuinely feel like im losing my mind.

    This feeling of intense sadness is just getting too much. Just don't feel right. Don't know how much longer i can last like this
    Ottway23 Ottway23 22-25 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Seeing that there has been over 20,

    000 posts on this experience page makes me wonder if anyone has gotten better...if there was someone who posted on here that isn't alive anymore..I hope you all are doing alright and know that I care for you all. I honestly do. I hate knowing that there is depression in this...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I wish I was dead. I was planning on killing

    myself freshman year of college but I ended up dating this guy who turned out to be my other half. He's the love of my life but I ****** everything up and pushed him away due to my depression. I have a fear of abandonment so instead of being left I pushed him away and...
    ccarol9073 ccarol9073 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I wish I could go back in time

    and tell everyone that has put so much effort into me to give up because im not worth. that theyre just making it worse. that yes, they made me happy, but it was real happiness. it was just a cover, and even I believed I was happy. but no matter what the depression will lie...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Right now I'm honestly wondering how living

    with this feeling is worth it...it is enveloping me to the point that I don't want to fight anymore. Another day, another struggle.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Ever since I was a little girl I wrote my will,

    feeling like death would take me at any point... And here I am as an adult fighting back those same feelings that never seem to go away. It's so hard to wake up feeling miserable, and being surrounded by friends and family while the only words running through your head are...
    kiwikisses kiwikisses 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    do not try to save me from

    who I am i will not lose myself again, i am not my sadness, but my sadness is a part of me.
    wordful wordful 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Most people don't realise

    that I take everything seriously, I can't just dismiss anything that happens, it's part of the way my illness affects me, you unfriend me, or anything like that and I think and believe that I've done something wrong, you say you hate me and I think I'm the worst person on earth...
    shamrock40 shamrock40 51-55, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 13 Responses Mar 18

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    I'm so ugly and unless I'd

    rather slit my wrist and end all this for good......
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I always wear this, and i never take it off!

    ! Its the embodiment of all the hate i have against the world, the depression that ive been living in for some time now and a reminder of how things will always take a downhill course no matter how much it was impossible to do so.. Whenever im in a football (soccer) game and im...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I learned that there are many different kinds

    of depression. They are hard to define and are often overlapping. It's not uncommon for a soul to be infected by many of them at the same time. They can be also layered, wrapping the host many times. This is why during your fight against it, it may look like it's changing: it's...
    heronD heronD 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Everyday I remember how miserable I am how

    lonely I'm how unloved I am how I never was taking care of
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    People don't like to hear the truth

    because they don't like to see their illusions of the world destroyed.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 2 hrs ago

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    I've had chronic depression

    for over a year now and I hate everything I am. I've been dating a girl for over three years and I can't talk to her often. I feel alone. Like this feeling will never end... I'm 21 and I feel my life and chances to make a difference are withering away... I just want to opt out...
    DownInOut DownInOut 18-21, M 49 mins ago

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    “Battling Depression” I have found

    that writing is good for my soul, it helps me to deal with the depression in my life. Everyday I have to deal with the fact that I live in a place that doesn't want me here and living as a transwoman has given me the opportunity to see people at their worst. I live in a world...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 10 hrs ago

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    Well my house has sold,

    my sister is so happy she got what she wanted her share of the money. she had her little plan and a new state to move to, I'm still searching for a place for myself. I have to be out by the 19th of april, and of course everybody is telling me what I should do or where I should...
    nobody54 nobody54 56-60, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I truly am a lost soul.

    I know nobody will ever connect with me the way I want them too so why try? Besides, I wouldn't want to drag anyone down to my level. Or let them see how I do. There is no true darkness, day and night are the same. Everything is constant in my misery. It's all I got left. The...
    Wounduponwound Wounduponwound 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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