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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,362 People

    **** it sucks being in the hospital!

    what a night this turned out to be... :/
    Shianneee07x Shianneee07x 16-17, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    ok so I'm not sure about my spirituality.

    honestly I hope one of these religions is real but let's say they ARENT. I'm scared to die. like I know I won't be afraid after cause I'll be dead.. it's gonna be like me before I was born I won't know what's up. you see im scared I want to know what's happening when I'm dead...
    richmckee richmckee 16-17, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Just laying in bed overthinking my problems

    like I always do late at night. :/
    alexjohnson28 alexjohnson28 18-21, F 12 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I guess it's not situations

    that bring unhappiness, it's mostly people. Trying hard to stay away from negative vibes.
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Every day is a new battle,

    a new struggle against my mind. It's like a dark cloud is hanging over me and I can't escape; I am my own personal stalker.
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F 21 mins ago

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    I'm a senior in high school.

    I had a miscarriage in August. Every damn day I miss my baby so much... It hurts so bad it's like the pain is crushing me. I cry all the time. Like right now I'm sitting in the bathroom at school just crying my eyes out. No one understands. None of my friends understand. This...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    I can feel myself getting pulled back into the

    depressing state. Opening up and getting close to people,in my opinion, is overrated..
    DarkGoddesss DarkGoddesss 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    HelpIsHere5 HelpIsHere5 22-25 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    HelpIsHere5 HelpIsHere5 22-25 9 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I make a lot of depression posts not

    for attention but I use EP like a journal or a therapist. Please remember though, I'm not a negative person, I won't drag anyone into my bullshit, I can see the brighter side of things. Please don't see me as this crybaby or a person who's only negative. Behind depression, I'm...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's hard when you meet someone new

    and you don't know how to tell them that well you're ******.. And it's so scary to think of how they might react when the bad times come ....
    ttn159 ttn159 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I've been depressed since I saw my best friend

    comit suicide in grunt of me in year 7. 2 days afteri woke up from a coma from my attempt -life is a ***** then you die
    calthecal calthecal 22-25, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    This hurt.. So my girlfriend dumped me last

    night. You want to know why? She wasn't satisfied. I'm so distraught and humiliated right now...
    Winbu Winbu 16-17, M 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    It never really ends does it?

    You just have little holidays from it, if your lucky.
    MistyMoon1 MistyMoon1 41-45, F 15 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ive been relatively happy these past two weeks,

    thanks to the therapy and meds. But something is still not right. I cant seem to get myself to go and get a job or do something with myself. This is exactly what I feared about getting better. I guess the lack of motivation wasn't caused by the depression, but just me being lazy...
    DifferentOutsider DifferentOutsider 22-25, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 56 mins ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I have been depressed

    since I saw my best friend comity
    calthecal calthecal 22-25, M 15 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 17 Responses May 27

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I think I'm finally ready.

    After over a year of indecision, I think I can finally do it.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I felt it. That ounce of optimism.

    Like things could be better. This is a new feeling, and I haven't the slightest idea why I had it. Well, I do, but that's beside the point anyways. The point is, I felt it. And I'm clinging to that feeling for as long as my mind will let me.
    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I'm feeling so stuck.

    It's crazy how I can't even be happy for a full 24 hours...
    AlyseJay AlyseJay 16-17, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    I no longer feel like the choices I am making

    are my own, not fueled by my thoughts and opinions, but of others, and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it.
    Reznin Reznin 18-21, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 30 Responses Jun 16

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    How do you ask for people to listen to you

    without sounding like an attention-*****?
    pseudonymistress pseudonymistress 16-17, F 7 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Hey guys just letting you all know in a couple

    days ill be closing my account. Thank you so much for those who read my vents and for those who reached out. I never was looking for sympathy just an outlet for a pain greater than i could deal with. Im over the hurt but the raw anger remains. Not sure what im angry over Anymore...
    fyrebyrd fyrebyrd 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression.. Even just the word sucks!

    Don't get me started on how much it has ruined both me and my life!! I lost all my friends including my one of my best friends, except for one.. That one friend hates the fact that I SH and she doesn't understand fully, and it's hard to explain to her.. She thinks she knows...
    catho catho 16-17, F 13 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Every day since the age of ten.

    I am writing this instead of thinking about suicide. I hate my life so very much. I currently am trying to hold down three full time jobs to support my family. All I do is work. I spend ten hours a day in this tiny room with one window. At least I get to look outside. If I leave...
    TSumner TSumner 41-45, F 36 mins ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    I forgot what it felt like to be happy.

    . Without having suicidal thoughts all the time. I'm afraid to ask for help.. I'm a fraud to show how I really feel. I just don't want to feel this way anymore..
    BabyYourMine BabyYourMine 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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