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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,033 People

    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I honestly don't think I can wait till untill

    Thursday to see my therapist. I feel emotionally dead and I just wish that I wasn't born. If I wasn't so many life's wouldn't be as miserable. My mum would if been able to go through college and not blame me for her life being miserable and she would be able to spend more time...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    fjgreen95 fjgreen95 18-21, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I've got the grandular fever.

    My friends think its a joke and always say that im a manwhore and that i always kiss every girl i see. I know they are joking, but still it hurts that they not take me seriously. My parents are even worse. They think im seeking attention and that i dont sleep enough. Thats not...
    xWikish xWikish 16-17, M 21 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    LavishLemon LavishLemon 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I'm just sitting here,

    waiting for somebody to save me from my depression just by listening and really caring. That's all I've needed for years.
    papayalyn papayalyn 16-17, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I need help making a decision.

    .. My depression has been really bad lately. It hasn't been this bad in a while. So tomorrow is my birthday. Tomorrow I'm also supposed to be going on a trip out of town with my university class, until Friday. The thing is... I really don't want to go. The reasons I don't want...
    heresmyhand heresmyhand 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    This is one of my favorite posts.

    ..and it's how I feel about my friends here.
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 19 hrs ago

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    I thought all of this was over,

    I guess I was wrong, it has clawed its way back in. Putting these emotions in a corner just isn't working anymore, cause now they're stronger than I am. It's almost as is two people are fighting over who gets control inside my head, and i'm not sure which one is me.
    Voxus Voxus 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Anyone who is depressed please read that.

    Ways to deal with depression. I fought depression my whole adult life, since I was 19. Now I'm 26. I was one of the lucky ones, where I had people that adored me and helped me in every way imaginable, I had therapy, though that didn't do it for me it doesn't mean it's not...
    valeriemls valeriemls 26-30, F 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Often when I'm working I tend to think how did

    I let my life get so ****** up then a hole starts to dig in my chest , but I tend to justify it by saying at least I actually face these emotions and not hide them away like most people or try to distract (procrastinate) myself with gossip
    Steve2315 Steve2315 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    As it gets later into today it's harder

    and harder to hold back these tears. Even on this website nobody understands what I am going through...
    RjMommy245 RjMommy245 22-25, F 6 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I thought I was better.

    ..I'm not. I want to cut right now. If I tell my mom she'll get really worried especially because she thinks I haven't done it in 3 years. My friend isn't answering. I feel hopeless right now. I don't know why I'm alive, I'm worthless and I'll never be good enough. I wish I could...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 10 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Dear people who don't understand depression,

    If you lived with my emotions and my brain. Eventually you would cry also. - sincerely, major depression disorder
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 20 hrs ago

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    My body can almost endure a massive earthquake.

    My mind can barely survive a gentle shake.
    cakenibal cakenibal 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I've learned that when I sit in the house

    for to long I mentally start to go insane.....I feel like I'm boxed in and can't get out......I get very depressed and suicidal.....I'm not working right now but my boyfriend is so when he's off he just wants to sit around the house but I wanna go out and do stuff since he has...
    ShysietheVampiric ShysietheVampiric 18-21, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    These last 2 days I've done nothing

    but sleep half the day, not leave the house, and not talk to anyone. Recently I had to get rid of someone who I adored very much, and basically pulled an all nighter fighting with him, ending things between us. (look at my most recent story) I feel like I'm stuck in MY world...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    Aplus82 Aplus82 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm going through cutting withdrawals.

    They made me stop once I was released from the hospital. I thought it would end up helping but it's made me worse. I can't get out of bed anymore and feel as if the hospital just made it worse.
    Jacey97 Jacey97 16-17, F 14 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I have just been discharged from my section

    and everything is worse than ever. I feel like they've just abandoned me and left me all alone to die. Like I'm not sick enough anymore. I miss the safety and security of the ward and feel worse than ever now I've got my wish and have been let out. For the first time in many...
    DespicableMind DespicableMind 18-21, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    It's sad.. I'm just so tired of life.

    I don't think I'll ever contemplate suicide but if I'm ever dying, I don't think I'll fight it.. I'm ready to leave this world, just waiting on the reaper.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Because no one doesn't seem to mind.

    And if they do, it's too late I already fallen into pieces.
    LavishLemon LavishLemon 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Your sad for no reason.

    Crying but you wouldn't even be able to explain why. You want to reach out to someone for help but what would you even say. And who would you tell who would really understand. Your alone in it and even when it's summer and nice out and you should be happy and enjoying life you...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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