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    I am at a constant war with myself.

    The front on which this war is fought has changed recently. I find myself wanting to get better....for the first time in forever. I want to be normal again...I want to be able to go for drives like I used to. I want to feel the smile of a girl by my side...jamming out to music...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't felt right the past few days.

    I'm just very sluggish. I'm not having the best thoughts either :/
    xGNFx xGNFx 18-21, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    13 facts must be known

    if you love someone who fights depression 1. Depression is not a choice. Depression is one of the most helpless and frustrating experiences a person can have. It’s sometimes feeling sad, sometimes feeling empty, and sometimes feeling absolutely nothing at all. There are...
    Fo2los Fo2los 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    So my entire family blames me

    for my mom being a drug addict because I won't talk to her or have any contact with her whatsoever. She just went back to rehab for the 6th time this week. I don't understand how I'm being blamed for her poor choices. Almost 2 years ago I said she was still up to her old games...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 9 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I always look at the good side of people,

    but I always end up hurt. I'm really hard to keep my heart soft, but it's just so hard.
    QueenValbuena QueenValbuena 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Today may end up being a bad day

    for me. I've become very good at ignoring those negative thoughts in my head and replacing them with positive ones. I truly feel like I have a handle on my depression, without medication, now. Still, I have bad days. I have days when my depression hits me like a brick and...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    I cried myself to sleep last night.

    I'm so alone. I have no one
    Lunarlight Lunarlight 18-21, F 8 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I really want to get better.

    I don't know what's wrong with me and why I can't get better. I'm such a disappointment to all the people who care about me they try so hard to make me feel better. I have swallowed a bottle of pills 4 times in my life. I always just end up in the hospital and upsetting my...
    beanie1417 beanie1417 22-25, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    My mind is a prison you can't escape.

    Reality is closing up on me. I can't breath anymore, I realize that I won't ever get out of this hell-like place. I don't really care anymore, because I like the dark, it's my go-to place, my safe place, the closest thing to a home a monster like me can have. Goodbye light...
    anonanastasia anonanastasia 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 82 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    The people who said they'll be here, aren't. The feelings I said I won't feel, I feel the most. The memories I said won't remember again, can't forget them. And the promise of not giving up, I broke it too. And won't be coming back.. ever. I'm done. And I know nobody cares, but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    quirkychris quirkychris 31-35, M 13 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I've been to two therapists

    so far and it didn't seem to help me at all. It felt great talking about my feelings but it reminded me every week how "terrible" my life has been and is right now. With the first therapist I was heavily forced to do certain exercises like buying groceries (since I also have...
    zrscp zrscp 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 76 Responses Jul 9

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Another horrible day over hopefully I will be

    able to sleep all night so I don't have to think , I got some sleeping pills so I hope that helps.
    startingover34 startingover34 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    I was fighting with my mum this morning

    and she's stressed screaming at me and my sister saying it's our fault my dad was angry with her and I'm stressed from having a job. But the jobs not stressful livi n G with her is. All because i was asking for help from my dad and she wanted him to bath the kids. I just...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24 13-15, F 17 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I always look at the good side of people,

    but I always end up hurt. I'm really hard to keep my heart, but it's just so hard.
    QueenValbuena QueenValbuena 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    ImAlivingParadox ImAlivingParadox 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's getting worse. I lay awake in my bed

    crying, wake up crying. It's all the same. I think about everything but I feel like nothing. I want to believe that things will get better, but it's getting harder to believe. I get constant headaches, migraines, body aches & cramps. I can't eat and when I do, I get sharp pains...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds 22-25, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    I have battled depression my whole life.

    I remember coming home from first grade and crying because everyone hated me. I started taking antidepressents at age 15 and have taken them off and on for many years. They do help and I can usually tell when I can't over come the depression on my own and need to start taking...
    Marseymo Marseymo 46-50, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    uhleasah uhleasah 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I feel like a piece of ****

    and worthless, that's why I try to make other people happy but in the end of the day I feel so alone. I honestly don't open up, I feel so weak when I do it.
    QueenValbuena QueenValbuena 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have battled it for

    as long as i can remember. Now, its happening alot more than it used to.
    Gavin788 Gavin788 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    there is a full blown war going on inside

    if my head lately. without sounding effing nuts.. I can literally hear the sides battling in my head. One side telling me the bad, the other side reminding me of the good. it's enough to make someone go mad!!! it's horrible.
    PinkStarburst1984 PinkStarburst1984 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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