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I Battle Depression

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 77 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I don't know how much longer i can take this.

    .. i just want to disappear. I know that might seem like im over reacting but i think everyone belongs somewhere and i just dont feel like this is where i belong, i never have and i dont think i ever will. I just want to go...
    WorthlessAngel12 WorthlessAngel12 16-17, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27

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    It's hard to be happy

    when people around you make you upset & there no one to help out
    djdwtw17 djdwtw17 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I'm losing my battle.

    . I can't help but lose
    LivingNotRequired LivingNotRequired 18-21, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I never expected my adult life to be this hard.

    I cry when I hear songs from the 80s bc they remind me of a magical time; where lights were bright, rainbows, Madonna, playing manhunt, listening to bon jovi, smurfs,Legos. I download songs from the 80s to take me back in time. Tina turner, Bryan Adams, Stevie wonder, mister...
    Rainbowdash1276 Rainbowdash1276 36-40, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    I remember a time when I craved to meet new ppl,

    couldn't wait to be seen, when almost everything in life gave me a high, when I inspired others by how ambitious I was, now I feel like I'm one of those ppl you see and be like damn how he let himself go like DAT. I never knew how much pain anxiety and depression endures on ppl...
    flight12 flight12 18-21, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 30 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I am mortal but am I human?

    How much longer can I take this pain until I break? As I look and see how happy people are, or at least how they seem, it burns. It brings back memories of before my incident. Before my cuts, before my innocence was takeb. It's really messed up when I wish I could go back to...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I've always been teased about my weight.

    . I'm exactly 100 ... And I hate it. I hate my body. And I tend to cover up when around my boyfriend
    YoungLovee15 YoungLovee15 13-15, F 8 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    ffffffs, that good mood lasted about 10 minutes.

    What the Hell do you do when you can't keep happy? How do you live your life knowing that sooner or later you're just going to fall into that bottomless pit of absolute darkness? How do you make plans with your friends when you know that you're going to feel uncomfortable...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I think this is the worst depression I've ever

    been in. I'm extremely suicidal. I actually have strep throat right now and I'm not going to the doctor for it because I want it to get worse. And yes I know that's ******* stupid. You don't have to tell me how dumb it is..I already know. I just wish I was gone already. I'm...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 6 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    My mom just found out her cancer has come back

    for the 3rd time. Feeling pretty depressed.
    ksgirl11 ksgirl11 18-21, F 17 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I hate that even on good days like today

    something still ends up making me depressed! I had a great day and I was really happy then out of no where I became depressed and started thinking negative. I hate feeling like I can't control my emotions!
    Jaymerz97 Jaymerz97 16-17, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Why does this thought feel

    so relevant to me on a "down" morning? I don't really understand what it is saying to me yet. But it grabbed ahold of me and hasn't let go.
    ladymaverick31 ladymaverick31 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I'm 18 and I'm depressed again.

    I was diagnosed at 16, like many teenagers with mental illness, but now I feel I have no right to be depressed. I can't be. I don't know why, but I always had this idea that adults can't be depressed, and since I'm no longer a teenager, I feel even worse for that. Like I should...
    sinispia sinispia 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm incredibly depressed right now.

    Long story short I am involved with a married man. The wife just found out he was talking to me. She doesn't know we are having an affair just that we are talking. Him and I used to be close friends in high school. The wife still flipped because he hid me from her. And...
    AvaLennon AvaLennon 31-35, F 18 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I think I need more help

    than just motivation.
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I lost my big brother Jason last year

    and my sister committed suicide early this morning and to be honest the only thing keeping me going is my boyfriend but he keeps me alive he stops me from killing myself but the crying the cutting the feeling of hurt i don't know what to do everything seems to be going wrong for...
    SophieArmoniaMarkezzie SophieArmoniaMarkezzie 18-21, F 13 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    At what point is it okay to self-admit to the

    hospital for depression? In the past few months all I thought about was killing myself, all day every day. It's the first thing to enter my mind when I wake up. I'm probably not going to do it; the idea is still pretty terrifying. However, I did recently buy some razor blades...
    terrencehogan terrencehogan 22-25, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    . Because that's all depression is. A blank page. Desperately wishing for something to fill in the emptiness.
    Transparency Transparency 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's always kind of a shock

    when I find myself thinking about suicide. It's a little bit like discovering a friend likes the same shows as you. "Oh, you're right, that is a good idea." I don't want to live anymore. It's really as simple as that. I'm not going to say no-one would notice, because they...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    Hi, if you're having a rough night please don't

    do anything regrettable, just cuddle with some blankets and light some smelly candles, and play good music that won't make you feel bad things. ILY :)
    InhuldibleCrelk InhuldibleCrelk 36-40 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 10 Responses Aug 10

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    I'm constantly sad I leave myself out of things

    and just recently I started cutting my arm and tried an overdose I don't know what to do
    Mustangkid2017 Mustangkid2017 22-25, M 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I just got an 8.5 on my essay out of 20.

    SCORE! I hate the school curriculum.
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    ksgirl11 ksgirl11 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I always feel like I can't talk to anyone,

    not my friends, not my parents and not my brother, they just won't understand!
    kruges kruges 16-17, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    No one cares.........

    .I don't blame them
    Supershoes24 Supershoes24 22-25, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 21 Responses Jul 7

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    I cried today over reading the words "all ive

    really wanted and want is for my mom to spend more time with me and care about me." My mom has always given me the things i have needed to survive, but not to mature as a person. I had to build myself. I didnt have a father and my mother was the only one i could turn to. My...
    scientrick scientrick 18-21, M 7 hrs ago

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    Why does this **** happen to me?

    I mean, nothing really happened, but I feel really ****** right now. I just self harmed for the first time. So let me rant. I watched too much TV as a little kid. I didn't watch a whole lot, but I watched more than I should have. A short commercial break is all it takes, all...
    Transparency Transparency 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 17

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 11 Responses Aug 11

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 78 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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