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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,072 People

    I find it really hard to accept I am depressed,

    and even saying that I doubt myself. My mum is certain that I am, and when I tell people about my life I realise that it makes a lot of sense. But when I think about it myself, I can't help but feel that I could be feeling better, and it is my personality making me feel bad. Or...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I need to have something big happen to make me

    happy, or feel any strong emotion. I need a lover to make me feel satisfaction, and I can't seem to enjoy being in people's company anymore. I don't really want to keep feeling so dull and lifeless, so I hurt myself and I try to let the pain give me something to look forward to...
    wetgirl21 wetgirl21 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I don't really like to label my feelings.

    I am not very convinced I am depressed. I would probably more likely fill the criteria for bpd with all it's over sensitivity and difficulties with regulation, but it has such an unfortunate label. It is all a pattern and I know about patterns. Anxiety, frenzy, recklessness...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I wish things get better.

    .. one night I was feeling so overwhelmed by so many **** like "what if this happened what if that happened" then idk I couldn't stop over thinking I've been crying at night for so many times and I don't know what to do.. That night I even thought about my death, how I would...
    Macyyyy Macyyyy 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    gabs4help gabs4help 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 5 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    When I'm around the people I love,

    I'm happy. Even though I don't like who I am a lot of the times, I still love them and they love me. But because I'm happy around them they never know that I'm suffering. I still live with my parents and I don't think they know i still get very depressed sometimes. The last time...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 13 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    A "friend" just told me

    that my problems aren't real, that other people have it worse than me such as kids in Africa starving. I just don't know how to respond to that. Maybe my problems aren't real at all. I hate this so much.
    Jinyung Jinyung 18-21, M 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm not sure why I feel like this

    but I think a part of me is recovering. I'm still in the same situation and I still battle hard at times but for some reason I feel like a piece of the depression is going to release itself in the near future. Weird?
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 13 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Sometimes I feel like I just want to play it

    out, like it's a game, see what happens, and then there's the "I really want to be happy I want change" but idk. . . My sad songs I can relate to aren't cutting it anymore, I'm putting on a lot of weight, though, if I'm real down I won't eat for days. Even I know this is...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 day ago

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    Ever since I was 8 I've had depression,

    anxiety and a very low self esteem. This has leaded to self harming and anorexia, I don't know what to do with my life anymore
    EmaX0X0 EmaX0X0 13-15, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    seriously, this ******* picture .

    All my feelings in an image.
    AttitudeJulie AttitudeJulie 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It goes up and down..

    . The main thing that's putting me in it is family and students at school... Things that bring me up are drill team or my schools dance team and a certain group of friends however... It seems to always find me.. And it hurts... The things that mainly contribute to it are the...
    lilybunny944 lilybunny944 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    tired of fighting. tired of trying.

    tired of trudging though the muck of my mind and tired to fighting off the demons. tied of being strong. tired of forcing myself to keep going.... my battle with my depression is less a screaming war, anymore, than a quiet resistance. Now instead of actively fighting i just...
    Gia2222 Gia2222 18-21 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Someone tonight sitting at my table in ceramics

    said "I enjoy your company" even though I was just sitting there quietly procrastinating and not doing my work. What she said really made me feel better about myself tonight, even just a little. I think I should tell people that more often.
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    **** my life. Just **** it

    and **** everything else
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm crying... I don't want to be female anymore

    or with these people.. In the bible I have to be submissive.... HAVE, even if I am..what about all those domanant woman.. I believe in God yet church seems so uncomfortable and judging and religious for me.. I hate that minors have no right And I'm forced to go.. As a female I...
    lilybunny944 lilybunny944 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 18-21 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    It's been a while since I've had a happy time

    in my life. Yes I've had good days but I'm taking about when I felt like everything was good with no worries. I think it started in 2011 when I realized life was not going to be as I hoped it would. It seems like my emotions went downhill since then. I fake smiles for everyone...
    hiddenjem hiddenjem 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I constantly wonder why I feel like I never had

    a childhood, but I guess it's just regret. I was so scared, so afraid to take risks and do new things. Guess I've always been this way.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't want to be here

    and I don't see a point in being here since I have no purpose. There's nothing I want to do I don't want friends and I'm not good at anything. I hate myself and I have since I was little I just wish I could disappear. I wish I was dead.
    animerules44 animerules44 16-17 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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