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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,750 People

    Sometimes when I get really lonely,

    depressed and thought of suicidal I think about why I haven't killed myself, and the reason is because of my family and they will get sad, but I also think that if they weren't my family they wouldn't like me, so they only like me because I'm family and they are used to me, abd...
    Fenriis Fenriis 18-21, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Ok so i've been doing really good

    for a few months now but somethings worrying me a lot lately. I feel the need for something bad to happen to me - car accident, rape, broken bones etc, preferably something that'll put me in hospital / an institution of some sort. This might sound messed up or whatever but also...
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I just start thinking about it

    and can't stop. It's like I'm stuck on a track and there aren't any stops. Whooot whooot! It's the feel-****** train! And I try to distract myself but every single thing I do reminds me. So I start to do even more stuff and maybe then I can make it through the day without...
    RosieJay RosieJay 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Everyday of my life..

    . i battle depression. Ive beaten it once but only a few know that it has been with me passed that. Its a struggle to stay happy but with my mind that is never possible. I was suppose to die at birth... I was mistake... I wasnt suppose to live. I escaped the threshold of death...
    InfiniteZero InfiniteZero 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It seems that all my life someone has been

    taking away from me. I never had much of a life anyway because people like my mom and others have felt the need to destroy what I had. I am now just waiting for my time to end and there is nothing that anyone can do for me anymore. My health has fallen apart and I am in pain...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Today I feel as if the burden of negativity

    and tiredness has lifted. I do not know what is different about today, but I am definitely better, much better.
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    what are the signs my pulse is quick random

    weeping never awake can't sleep paranoid quiet hurts the head people hurt the heart no where left to go
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I start panicking when I think of how long I

    have been struggling with the same issues. How come I just can't overcome what has happened to me? Why is living so hard for me? I am so sick of this feeling. It should not be an accomplishment to be happy. Happiness should be self-evident. It makes me angry, as I do not want to...
    larosenoire larosenoire 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Just a random thought.

    Correct me if i am wrong. My life is completely fine. But i have the urge to cry. And feeling so depressed! And so sad and trying to remember bad stuff from the past. What happened to me? Is this have anything to do with my hormones? Or the unbalanced chemical in the brain? I...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I'm really depressed

    and thinking of leaving EP and my family
    equusrider equusrider 56-60, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I do need real friends

    who care about me, not fair weather friends who are only there when I please them but vanish when I am too depressing. I do need someone to understand that I don’t want to feel this way and would give my eyesight to feel happy again. I do want someone who cares enough to...
    mrsabri mrsabri 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I haven't been down in it

    for this long in a long time. I remember dealing with it as a kid/teenager and just being able to shut down. wall myself in, cry, not eat, write. As an adult living with it, it is quite different. i still have to be present. I have to force myself to get out of bed in the...
    greeneyz83 greeneyz83 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I've been feeling down again this whole last

    week. Restless nights, bleak thoughts, feeling unwanted, stupid. feeling the guilt of past experiences. I guess this what I get for quitting the medication I had prescribed to me...
    I3luemoon I3luemoon 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I think I always felt like I know how I'm going

    to die. One day I'll lose my battle with depression and commit suicide. I think this all the time but am too scared to tell friends & family because I feel they will overreact.
    LfeSzdBarbie LfeSzdBarbie 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 19 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Confusion in my head.

    .. Hatred in my words and actions... Depression in my heart... Numbness in my body... I didn't ask for this.... Does somebody want it? I can't handle it anymore... But.... I'm fine 😊
    Saphhy195 Saphhy195 18-21, F 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Death sometimes feels like the only way out of

    a bad situation. Depression/mental illness in general is like being trapped in a elevator lined with mirrors. You can only see yourself and your situation. It seems there is no way out. Yet, there is a way, through medication and/or therapy. It's up to the person to get help...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I have been battling it

    for a year and its getting harder by a second. When I cry I can feel my heart break and it makes me cry more. I feel like a broken soul walking around because I feel worthless and things like that. I don't like this feeling
    xxemogirlxx xxemogirlxx 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I thought I got over this.

    But I keep having severe mood swings where I will be in the worst mood ever for a day and then I'm back to normal. I feel like I'm just pushing all my problems to the back of my head and they're coming back up because they never actually went away...if that makes any sense...
    trademymistakesXxxx trademymistakesXxxx 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    What did I felt when I had put

    that blaze between my skin. I now understand it was a stupid selfish act that I had done & continue to go months without doing so. I have moments where I want to relapse, I had enough. I am slowly killing myself in the most silent way. I do not wish to seek help but I am crying...
    2ndTry 2ndTry 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Smile and know that Jesus loves everyone in the

    world and has a plan for your life! He hasn't forsaken you, he's waiting for you to turn to him and find forgiveness and peace in what you have done! When Judgment Day comes, he wants you to be on his side and to not let the devil drag you down! Jesus is the way the truth and...
    ZZRoll ZZRoll 16-17, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Being TG for the last couple of years has put

    my mind on a war path that makes me over think, in a space of say 5 minutes I'll think about if I want to stay who I am or go the other path and be who I feel I should be. It makes a hole in my chest that feels like it sucks emotion out of me and I can't feel anything and I just...
    frozochick0400 frozochick0400 18-21, T 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    i miss my ep friend jo5h me

    and hin used to be best friend intil he blocked me
    deleted deleted 26-30 23 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Another day, another dreadful day full of more

    noteworthy news of sorrow. My good friend has now once again started up on drugs.. He was 5 months sober, and yet he threw it all away for a couple of bottles and pills. And now like many teens in this day and age he talks about death, in such a lackadaisical, casual way. If you...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 23 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    There are some days I wake up

    and wonder: what the hell am I doing here? Why would I be given a life, one I know I should be appreciating, when every day is a constant struggle? I feel like I am my own worst enemy. I try to find the good in everything, but can't manage to find the good within myself. I work...
    VioletMerryweather VioletMerryweather 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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