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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,320 People

    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I keep bein told 2 turn my frown upside down.

    That isnt helpful. One of those days 2day...
    JessiDay02 JessiDay02 13-15, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Tonight is just one of those nights

    where I'm just over it. Over people, over stress, and over life in general. There isn't even a particular reason why I feel this way. It's just that I'm tired of being. Everything in this world revolves around money, around work, around competition, around impressing other...
    larosenoire larosenoire 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I am in such a horrible place right now.

    .I was almost in a head on collision..I missed it by seriously 2 inches..I was so lucky...but I wished I wasn't.
    wthdoido wthdoido 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Being depressed sucks the life out of you.

    It makes you feel nothing inside. You feel dead. Tired. Constantly annoyed
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    you know depression can be a real ***** friends

    don't understand or family for that matter not that they dont care they just don't get it.
    ledsteven95 ledsteven95 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    What's wrong with me?

    I'm ******... I wake up everyday... Waiting to die, for the past 2 years... I've been waiting
    KozGame KozGame 16-17, M 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Oh look at me, doing the same **** I do every

    day. In the dark, blade ready to go. Songs to set me deeper into the dark....hiding under the table painting sorrow with my thoughts. I'm so tired and yet I still post these things...hoping somehow they'll help. I don't know what the **** I expect to happen....I expect...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Depression - a feeling of drowning

    while everyone around you is breathing.
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 19 hrs ago

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    Why is it that I am leaping about being hyper

    and seemingly joyous yet my mind does not stray for a second from the knife on the kitchen counter that could so effortlessly end my life. Does anyone else ever experience this?
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I don't know what to do.

    My parents are having and have been having problems in their marriage from time to time for a while now. And today I got a call from my mom where she told me how sad, depressed and lonely she feels. I can hear her starting to cry in the phone while she tells me my dad doesn't...
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I need to pull myself out of this.

    I'm stronger than this.
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    It's hard knowing that the doctors think you

    need medication for one to be happy that kills me because I know that will never fix things. It's hard going thru the day having to act like nothing is wrong so the people that you love don't worry. It's hard when the only person you can think of in the morning, and when your...
    magicgiraffe magicgiraffe 18-21, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 10 Responses Mar 14

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    "The silence depressed me.

    It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence." -Sylvia Plath
    Meloryne Meloryne 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I'm really battling my depression

    and I am afraid it's gonna win . About 5 years ago I started losing a lot of people close to me back to back i was at funerals every month so I talked to a therapist and a doctor because after a while I started getting really bad migraines and over thinking and having out...
    MissDeandra MissDeandra 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I think if I came out to my parents they

    wouldn't understand at all. But it's something I know I will do someday and probably soon. The sad thing is that while they love me and I know they'd never kick me out, they might not support me and they'll be sad, especially my mother. I'm just so conflicted. I want to be happy...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I need only my good friend Justin hall.

    I've dreamed about seeing him again for over 3years now.
    shaunahall shaunahall 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    Something I found on the Internet: I Say I Say

    I Say by Simon Armitage Anyone here had a go at themselves for a laugh? Anyone opened their wrists with a blade in the bath? Those in the dark at the back, listen hard. Those at the front in the know, those of us who have, hands up, let's show that inch of lacerated skin...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Justin hall you better have spent the better

    part of the week on a boat👿I want you dizzy tomorrow you jerk face about face down!!
    shaunahall shaunahall 41-45, F 18 hrs ago

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    Being depressed is bad enough

    but depressed and sick? Ugh, I just missed 2 weeks of school cuz I've been so sick. Some kind of respiratory thing that makes me feel like I'm havin an asthma attack every time I do somethin stupid like walk across the room or get outta bed. Soooo, that means all I've been...
    thumper15 thumper15 18-21, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I don't know what happened,

    I had a great day yesterday with my family, then a great morning and breakfast, but then it just crept slowly back into heart, the darkness, the same one I felt back in middle school. God, I was just dreaming of my perfect life, as a wife and mother. I don't know what happened...
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 1 Response 30 mins ago

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    I don't deserve to be here.

    I don't deserve to live.. I'm a waste. Waste of life, space, money. I'm a burden. Burden to everyone around me. I'm a useless, worthless, fat, disgusting, piece of **** person. Why am I even here. I'm scared to live. I have to cut myself to keep myself from dying. Why is my...
    dylanh9717 dylanh9717 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I dream of Freedom I dream of living life

    without a check to pay I dream of mankind without hatred I dream of a world without war I dream of nature I dream of unlimited beauty I am not myself I am not where I want to be I am not who I want to be So I suffer So I cry
    larosenoire larosenoire 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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