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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,178 People

    Some people are meant to lose this battle.

    They can not fight forever. They are tired of always pretending to be happy, tired of always being hurt, tired of the pain they feel inside. So they just give up. I think I'm one of them. I don't know when this is going to come to an end..maybe sooner than I thought. But all I...
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 15 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Lets face it, transsexuals like me are nothing

    but a burden to society. I thought about killing myself, but that would only be more of a burden on the family who has to pay for the funeral. I'm going to live as a female. I'll stop stressing people out with all this lgbt stuff. I'll stop being a burden.
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Today the monsters are loud.

    Not the ones hiding under my bed or lurking in my closet; for those are simply the figment of fairy tales. No the monsters whose screams threaten to dismantle my sanity live in my mind. If you were to crack open my scull, within you would find the most hideous terrifying demons...
    Greyeyess Greyeyess 18-21 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I saw the doctor. He gave me a 2 week sample of

    Pristiq to try. Does anybody know anything about this drug? It seems similar to Effexor, which is what I was on before. I explicitly said I didn't want to be on Effexor again. I don't get why he would give me something so similar.
    macron macron 26-30, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I don't get how people can fake depression.

    . Like how and why would you want to feel like this.. People are the worstttt😣
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have been overwhelmed with stress,

    fatigue snd severe depression. The girl i am in love with, the one who is my best friend and i can talk to about everything dropped me like i was nothing. My parents continuously think I'm a disappointment. I have no friends, not a single person to talk to anymore. I tried a...
    wspd1993 wspd1993 18-21, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    What I wouldn't give

    for a cigarette and the courage to drive to the edge of town. Listen to music, look at the stars, maybe even have someone to talk to. I hate how much I've killed of myself.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I wish I could go back to how things were.

    ...times when I could put on that mask; The guy that made people laugh and do what he could to help the people he knew out. That's how I kept friends before...they needed someone to vent to and help them out, and I couldn't stand to be alone. It was a mutual host/parasite sort of...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    That moment when you post a status asking

    for someone to talk to because you're depressed and it gets removed for being depressing. Oh, ok. I must have came to wrong site. This is Experience Project right? This is a group about depression right? My friend of 15 years is dead and I wanted someone to talk to for help...
    Musicthataltersyou Musicthataltersyou 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Feeling a little depressed

    and that makes you think too much.. Sometimes I wonder if all this was worth it, having lived as a male and having family and friends to help in times of need, to living as a female and having no family and friends for anything. I have lived as a woman for half of my life and I...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 23 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I believe I won depression.

    Losing weight has changed my life in so many ways. I feel extremely good about myself.
    gisel607 gisel607 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    So we went out for dinner.

    Me, my best friend (the girl I like who likes somebody else) and her sister. It was ok, until we went to karaoke. You try singing "Don't look back in anger" or "Stop crying your heart out" while your heart is broken, in front of the very girl who broke it. I couldn't keep it...
    macron macron 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Jealousy is so ugly, I hate it.

    It consumes me...turns from despair into rage; but all of the rage is directed inward, at myself. Failed opportunities, too scared to try new things, blah blah blah. I can fix all of this, but I'm just so tired. I have no drive to fix it, no want. So I stew...I hurt myself....I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    My dreams are my only escape,

    and I have zero control over them. But every now and then, I can feel normal...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    The loneliness is the hardest thing.

    I only have a few friends, and the ones I do have are getting sick of my complaining all the time. I don't blame them. I just can't cope with this alone. When I am alone I just cry and think about killing myself. I wonder what it is like being a happy, well-adjusted person who...
    macron macron 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I just want to be happy.

    .. No gender. I hate the gender roles... I miss my baby blue. She left me. I wish I had been good enough... I'm going through changes. Dying my hair and piercings. I'm getting there but I still hate the body I see in the mirror... How can anyone love me if I don't love me?...
    bbybleu bbybleu 16-17, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    My depression has never gotten

    so bad that it has sent me to the hospital. I am not someone who likes attention. It's embarrassing that I get depressed and I don't like talking about it. That being said, a tiny part of me sometimes wishes it would just go ahead and get so bad that someone would notice...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've had bad depression

    since high school. I love drawing and always wanted to be an artist since I was in kindergarten, until my junior year when my art teacher made me redo everything and hated all of my work. I was bullied verbally by being kicked out of my lunch table for being "too stupid" to sit...
    justjane2000 justjane2000 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm so tired of the never ending self-hatred

    and the endless frustration. No matter what I do or what I try I still hate myself at the end of the day. The constant fighting with myself is getting old and tiring.
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I need help. Ive been contemplating suicide

    for some time. I don't want to myself but I really don't want to live anymore. Who or what should I contact?
    anchoria anchoria 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I hate that I can't tell people how I really

    feel because I don't want people to think I'm just looking for pitty, I have been through a lot but still feel like I'm better off then a lot of people I know. but I really would rather give up, I wouldn't commit suicide but if something accidentally took my life it was be a...
    needbetter needbetter 31-35, M 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I try so hard to be good.

    I know inside I'm a good person. So when I snap at my mom or think negative thoughts about stupid drivers on the road it really upsets me. I don't know why most of the time I'm good and then I go and think something mean. I'm a loving person. I don't want to have those thoughts...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I'm 14 years old... Young,

    right? Well... I found out I have depression when I was 12. I tried suicide. I failed. I want to do this again. People think I'm just a dramatic person. I wish they were right.
    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was messaging about this with someone,

    but I think this is too important to not share: I have the kind of depression where people ask "what do you have to be depressed about? You have a good husband, wonderful kids, a great house, a good job." And this question would make sense if depression were logical and...