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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    If I could just get up in the morning,

    do as a normal human being does. If I could just get up, get ready for the world, stop overthinking things, stop stressing for not doing anything and just function... But I can't. It's a force that's making me not do anything. Making me sit around. Making me tired, drained...
    Storiesnotforthefaintofheart Storiesnotforthefaintofheart 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I just done with being stupid

    and falling in love and I just hate myself for it
    kathrynvansickle kathrynvansickle 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    "Sometimes when you're in a dark place,

    you think you've been buried. Actually, you've been planted." -Christine Caine This is my experience.
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    Hi, my name is Bobbie Jean Chiasson

    and last Friday there was this black man that let his pit-bull go and he attacked me because the man did not like what I am. I am a 64 year old transwoman and when I called 911 they sent a traffic cop on a 911 call and he told me nothing but lies about what would happen. It took...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    today is just one of those days.

    Wake up. Eat. Cry. Work. TGIF woot
    ollifer ollifer 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    omg i deal with depression every day

    sometimes I wake up in the morning I wonder what kind of mood i will in be in this time
    tigradoll tigradoll 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    When i get depressed,

    i go out and see my friends and be happy. Plus i Eat less!
    psstisst psstisst 18-21, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Every time I look at myself in the mirror I

    feel like I'm suffocating. I'm just so unhappy with myself. An extremely intense wave of just straight self hatred comes over me every time I see myself. I've always hated myself but not like this. Never like this. I'm thinking about just ending it all. I feel like I will never...
    underwaterlilly underwaterlilly 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I'm sinking... further

    and further into the quicksand.. I grasp desperately for help, but nothings there. the more I struggle the quicker I sink.
    meowziewowzie meowziewowzie 22-25, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 8 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    All the songs I write have

    such depressing lyrics. It's why I can't show my music to anyone. I keep trying to rewrite lyrics or redo them entirely so I can make them less depressing and be able to release the songs someday. But why bother? These so songs are like a diary of who I am and who I was. I just...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    my boyfriend broke up with me today.

    .It hurt a lot,but umm I realized now I deserved better. For awhile now i knew this day would come and I'm okay. I will be okay and my daughter ,I feel depressed because now I gotta work for my own,gotta move out of state and all but I hope God blesses me.
    moondesires moondesires 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    No, I can't say I'm battle depression

    because I'm not. At least not right now. These days, last year, were the worst days of my life. I didn't know what to do with my life, I didn't to go out with my friends, I didn't study for uni and neither go to classes. The only things that I wanted to do was stay in my...
    JustAnotherGirlOnEP JustAnotherGirlOnEP 18-21, F 9 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Omg my doctor wants me to schedule an appt

    for next week. I have spent all day crying. I am not ok right now. My therapist thinks I am okay, my doctor thinks I am okay. My husband thinks I am okay. I have spent all day arguing with myself; reasons why you shouldn't kill yourself. I get it, I look nice, dress nice, I am a...
    hotwasabizen hotwasabizen 41-45, F 11 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Deep down I'm broken

    while on the outside I'm just pretending to be happy
    MissingMistake MissingMistake 16-17, M 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Ive been depressed and suicidal

    since the 4th grade. Kids are cruel and i was sick of being bullied. But recently in my life ive been stuck i a rut. Ive lost 3 friends this month 1 of which was a very close friend. I also lost my job because, and im not exaggerating here.. nobody likes me. you can try to...
    davidfrnks7 davidfrnks7 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I haven't smoked or hurt myself in almost 8

    years, but every 6-8 weeks I go through a cycle of severe depression and the urge to smoke or hurt myself. It lasts a week or less. The only way I've avoided doing something I'll regret it because I know it'll be over soon (until next time). Some times are harder than others...
    punkrockprincess0314 punkrockprincess0314 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    At the moment, all I want is to scream

    or weep. I am not sure why. I do not know what is going on with my life anymore. I do not have any suicidal thoughts, I do not have any major problems I believe but things are just getting harder. The things I have always wanted seem to be so far away from me; so impossible to...
    FreeyourSoul FreeyourSoul 70+ 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel myself sinking

    and sinking. even after getting help I feel like I'm loosing it. I feel crazy. I'm moody and go off on people for no reason and I know while I'm doing it it's wrong and it's not their fault but I can't stop. I wanna cut but I have no access to anything. when I expressed that...
    PaigeOfSteel PaigeOfSteel 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    thoughts of suicide plague my mind most of the

    time I'm awake honestly I only feel free when I'm asleep. oh well though I could never act in those thoughts.
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    It was 4 years back when i wanted to conquer

    the world. I started drawing as a kid and at 12 discovered my artistic abilities when i would create something and be appreciated for it. Those were the best moments in my otherwise depressing childhood/ teen years as i was an underdog barely known at school, the misfit, the...
    Bllahblah Bllahblah 22-25, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    All I do is eat, sleep,

    smoke, listen to music, read, and go to restroom. What a life.
    halohai halohai 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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