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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,823 People

    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I don't even enjoy my past

    or current hobbies anymore. I just spent 1 hour on the ps3. Before it was almost a full day of non stop gaming. I though maybe Im growing up, but I still have a love for it. What the hell is wrong with me?
    fjgreen95 fjgreen95 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    When I get upset I can say the meanest,

    cruelest things to someone, anyone, and idk how to stop it. It's like evil overcomes me.
    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    hey peeps, I've had a pretty rough life (but

    who hasn't). People are constantly bullying me at school, I've tried suicide, and Once in a while I still think about it. I just feel so alone all the time. My family life isn't great, I don't feel like I'm entitled to opinions just about everywhere I go with anyone. and only a...
    havingfun89 havingfun89 16-17, M 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    and I'm back to hating myself again.

    I am crumbling. I think of my death more and more each day. I feel so happy when I am around people and doing something among them but once they are no longer around and I am by myself I feel alone more then ever. I am shredding myself to bits as well as my family. I feel awful...
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    It's not easy, everyday is a constant battle.

    This is something that will never leave me and I understand that. But accepting my fate does not make it any less harder. If I could stop it, I would do it in a heartbeat.
    KEdouardo KEdouardo 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I don't care, i don't want to fight it anymore.

    I really have lost the will to live
    Ottway23 Ottway23 22-25 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

    We all know this isn't going to just disappear, and I don't have the strength to fight it every day. Let's save everyone's time.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    im crying right now because no matter what i do

    i cant gain weight. i have been underweight and unable to gain weight my entire life and the bullying has damaged me mentally. i even disfigured my face because of so much bullying. no guy wants me ive been alone my whole life. im tired of this is no fair. i cant gain weight at...
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 14 Responses 1 day ago

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    On top of the congestive heart failure

    and all the rest of the **** wrong with me, they are telling me that I now have COPD..As COPD gets worse, one may be short of breath even when I do simple things like getting dressed or fixing a meal. It gets harder to eat or exercise, and breathing takes much more energy...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    "You are not depressed.

    You're obviously just an attention seeker."
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    LifeIsShitLetsEndIt LifeIsShitLetsEndIt 18-21, M 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    It's a struggle just to get out my bed.

    I'm just so unhappy for no reason.. I don't see myself alive in 5 years.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate it. I can be really happy

    but one bad thought pulls me into a deep depression. It's horrible.
    appleisaiah appleisaiah 13-15, M 3 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I need someone to tell me how much of a loser I

    am! I need someone to make me feel I am and never will be more than that. I have to know I'm not good enough from those around me and when I don't get it I seek it out.
    mel982 mel982 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm so tired. It's 2 am.

    I just got home and what should've been a great birthday weekend I'm sitting here crying. Praying I don't wake up. I'm sick and so tired of this life. Like I just wanted one night where there was no fighting. And I wasn't forcing myself to please everyone and I just wanted to...
    cutecrazy05 cutecrazy05 22-25 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I feel like depression effects me

    so much more, on a day to day basis then the other people around me with it. I mean, I can't hardly talk to other people without kicking myself, or just totally faking everything, let alone have/sustain friendships. I sit through hours of school on my own simply because the...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    My past few weeks have been pretty good

    so while my mind is clear and happy I'd like to offer some motivation to all the folks struggling with their depression. My first bit is this: try as hard as you can not to seal yourself off. From your friends, family and yourself. Pushing all these people away costs your...
    littlechef77 littlechef77 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I am getting tired. So very tired of this

    feeling of emptiness sprinkled with moments of intense sorrow and longing for any amount of joy. The only other thing that keeps me company lately is anger. The anger is like a cancer and eats me from the inside out.
    Infiniteblue Infiniteblue 36-40, F 1 day ago

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