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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,337 People

    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I was talking online

    and I was saying good night when I got a comment "you're pretty and perfect, goodnight c:" 10 mins afterwards I found myself in the shower crying about it because I haven't been called pretty, perfect or even complimented in a very, very long time. 😔
    thegirlinred thegirlinred 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I won round one. Looks like this match is going

    to be best of three though, except I can only lose once.
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I went to the gym today,

    it felt good for a few minutes now Im back to my normal self,I cant concentrate on studies
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 4 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 10 Responses Mar 14

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Feel so gray today. Was down at a local

    Starbucks working at the long table on something. It was busy, lots of people. Felt sadness well up in me to the point that I felt like breaking down and weeping. Not about to do that in a Starbucks or walking home through town center. The wave of emotion had faded to a mere...
    subotaicataloger subotaicataloger 41-45, M 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Recovering addict battling depression can be

    one of the hardest things people who never been through it will never understand
    stiles1363 stiles1363 31-35, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    There is no emotion linked to this feeling.

    There is no sadness. There is no bad feeling. It is just way to ******* hard. I am on a different wavelength to everyone else, one on which the same life is not worth living. I just need to stop my head buzzing. Feeling sad would be a huge relief, crying would be amazing. How is...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    In a really good mood today.

    But isn't it sad how i genuinely can't remember the last time i felt like this
    Ottway23 Ottway23 22-25 1 hr ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I Don't know what's happiness.

    .. There are some moments when I fleetingly think I'm happy, but it's so fast, it doesn't last. I always have this sensation of emptiness in my chest. I try to fill my days with the only thing that gives me some satisfaction and that's my job, but at the same time I think what a...
    Karmario Karmario 26-30, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    My depression is back

    and worse than ever. Nothing even happened and I absolutely hate this ******* feeling. Why do I want to die?
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 11 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I feel my life has gone down the drain.

    I'm 21 years old and despite having accomplished some things that I had set my mind to, I am slowing becoming an empty shell. I can barely feel any kind of emotions for whatsoever, my interests are strictly limited, I'm clumsy and I am bad or mediocre at almost everything I do...
    diogosil diogosil 18-21, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Continuing from the last post,

    I think what prompted this thinking was wondering whether conditions had changed since I was young. Some of it is surely the internet making depression more visible in the world. Likewise I wonder if I had depression as a kid and simply regarded it as something else. I...
    subotaicataloger subotaicataloger 41-45, M 23 hrs ago

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    I don't know what happened,

    I had a great day yesterday with my family, then a great morning and breakfast, but then it just crept slowly back into heart, the darkness, the same one I felt back in middle school. God, I was just dreaming of my perfect life, as a wife and mother. I don't know what happened...
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I feel like three people in one.

    I always think in a feminine voice, and I have three alter-egos or personas. My main self is the calm, shy, INFJ type, but is very insecure and can't take much violence at all, but he's hurt, anxious, gentle, kind, yet intuitive. My second self is my feminine aspect, she...
    Lovelife090994 Lovelife090994 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    The scariest part for me is how much I've

    normalised taking medication for my depression. I keep thinking that it's just a chemical imbalance and refuse to acknowledge everything that is hurting me right now.
    drekarbouch drekarbouch 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    My heart feels so heavy

    and I don't know how to carry it.
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 17 hrs ago

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    Todays positives were hard.

    Even though me has many. May lose truck and freedom due to liars. Making reports and laws.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    anon2254 anon2254 18-21, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I don't know what to do.

    My parents are having and have been having problems in their marriage from time to time for a while now. And today I got a call from my mom where she told me how sad, depressed and lonely she feels. I can hear her starting to cry in the phone while she tells me my dad doesn't...
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    So I have been on Pristiq

    for about a week now. I have found that it has numbed my emotions. I found out today that my workplace is closing down. I will have to find a new job. I should be really upset, right? I feel worried and scared, of course, but I am not in tears. I am not sure whether it is a...
    macron macron 26-30, M 10 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I used to. I still do from time to time,

    but it's more the usual I'm having a sucky day kind of thing. I used to feel extremely lonely and like I had no friends. In high school, there were times I thought of suicide and even kind of attempted. I was just too scared to follow through. And I'm glad I was. You see, I...
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    MerelyKatie MerelyKatie 16-17, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Sometimes a have a tough time reassuring

    that I belong with my friends, family, or even at home. An weird despair. Have a tough time fighting it and would love for someone to talk to. This isn't just about me, but you too, so don't be afraid to share your experiences too:)
    calBLAZER11 calBLAZER11 61-65, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    hbananaz hbananaz 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I was adopted when I was younger

    and I don't know really anything about my real parents. I have a loving family here in the U.S. So I feel like I shouldn't be sad and everyone says I'm so lucky there is no reason to be sad. However, I can't seem to stop how I feel. I feel empty and lost almost like I'm the only...
    akazakh23 akazakh23 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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