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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,416 People

    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    AlyseJay AlyseJay 16-17, F 6 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I just told my mother

    that I think I should see a therapist. Well, she got angry for some reason, asking me why I was constantly sad and angry... What can I say? I honestly dont have that much of a reason. Not a reason that I could tell my mom. As for me I dont care if its over soon. But if I go I...
    2wrp 2wrp 13-15, F 10 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 31 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    This picture though..

    It's funny how that works, loneliest being the kindest and so forth.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    For the very first time I went to a support

    group ! It was hard and scary but I did it. I went
    jcain739 jcain739 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    And right now I'm losing.

    Big time. Here's to another 8 years of being alone. Cheers.
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like killing myself.

    I'm tired of living. I get so happy the thought I finally ending this journey but what if death is worse? I hope it's not recarnetion, I'd be so mad. Hopefully it's just a blank, and nothing after death. I part of me wants to wait and see more of life but another part of me...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 16 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I still don't know how I battle every day.

    Hallucinations getting worse. Just now as I was passing an empty I saw a faceless person. Great way to start a terrible week. I've been on going into a deep declining depression that I can't surface out of. Being with people only slows the pain. Being alone makes it worse but I...
    DaFufinator DaFufinator 18-21, M 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I've been so ******* restless Like im waiting

    for him to message me and tell me he loves me and misses and wishes he were here and can't wait to see me But he doesn't exist I don't want to go to sleep feeling like this but I know it's not changing anytime soon I always thought of myself as happy but this past year or so...
    MsVanessa420 MsVanessa420 18-21, T 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't fear death because

    when it comes time for my death no one but me can bring death to myself. The only way I die is if I kill myself.
    Samuel116 Samuel116 16-17, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I'm in a bad place...

    I need meds, but I can't get them until Friday and even then, it will take time for them to work. To make things worse, I don't even know what medication will work for me. There might be another miss like there was with Welbutrin, which I had really high hopes for. I feel stupid...
    rollingdoro rollingdoro 22-25, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    These thoughts won't leave me alone.

    Therapy may help, but never enough. Group therapy is a joke. They're all so happy here. It is misery.
    Moweb95 Moweb95 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 20 Responses Jul 7

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    It's weird how having a "down-set date",

    as it were, improved my mood drastically. I mean, it's not a date that I am definitely going to kill myself, I'm not as optimistic as that, but it is a date on which i will decide whether i am going to do it, if i am going to do it at all. If i don't do it on that date, I'll...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Haven't even been awake

    for 30 minutes. Tried to play some saints row and someone said homecoming queen and I just started crying... I miss her so much... This is going to be a bad day. A really bad day.
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    maydaysirens maydaysirens 13-15, F 9 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    My grandmother thinks I'm stupid.

    My aunt and uncle think I'm an idiot. My dad abused me growing up and favors my prettier sister over me. My mom has anxiety problems that she takes out on us (which just make my own issues worse as she won't get help). My sister constantly reminds me of how weird I am and how...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm not saying I'm not trying to sound like

    I'm not the only one that has problems I just with that I would get in a car crash and lose my memory dose any one feel the same way
    dethwerewolf1993 dethwerewolf1993 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    For the first time in a few weeks,

    I'm feeling like no one gives a crap about me.
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    I feel like I've been getting a lot better !

    I can sleep, I've become a bit more social, I can look in the mirror on a good day and actually say " I don't look too bad today" I really have all my friends to thank for this though especially Peter! He's amazingly happy constantly :) and my bestie spicy barita AKA Kayla. They...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    KWsuperstar KWsuperstar 16-17, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    Today is getting worse.

    .. Phone isn't working. This site isn't letting me talk to anyone cause of the stupid update. Nothing is going right, I'm cold, I'm bored, I'm upset... I miss everyone that means everything to me... Its over, I know its over... I just want to die... I want to end it so bad... I...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Can Distance Relationship ever work?

    , she keeps cheating on me and confesses, I am tired and heartbroken, I want to move on but is hard for me, I still love her. What do I do?
    Pascalzeal1 Pascalzeal1 26-30, M 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    StarFox11 StarFox11 22-25, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Anyone take Wellbutrin (Bupropion)?

    How is it supposed to make you feel? Im going to ask my doctor for it. Im tired of living like this.
    DifferentOutsider DifferentOutsider 22-25, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I went ahead and took pictures of all the good

    moments, beautiful sunsets, amazing places and people. I printed them out and hung them on my wall, to remind me of them. Yes, there are ****** days in life, but there are also good ones, and if you remind yourself of the better ones, you might just feel a little better :) Maybe...
    orwellian orwellian 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    The past few days Iv felt off,

    not myself. I'm usually a happy person. I can feel I'm slipping...I know where this is going to lead. I can't do anything about it. I'm to far gone. The person I need to help me threw this isn't here. I am utterly alone.
    ErinTripp94 ErinTripp94 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    please message me i am hurting

    if you are in this group and helpful
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 6 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I wish I could just leave this world.

    . Like into a permanent state of lucid dreaming so I can choose what I want and I can actually be happy. I guess the closest thing to that is death. At least ill finally be peaceful..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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