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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,736 People

    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I thought I got over this.

    But I keep having severe mood swings where I will be in the worst mood ever for a day and then I'm back to normal. I feel like I'm just pushing all my problems to the back of my head and they're coming back up because they never actually went away...if that makes any sense...
    trademymistakesXxxx trademymistakesXxxx 16-17, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I start panicking when I think of how long I

    have been struggling with the same issues. How come I just can't overcome what has happened to me? Why is living so hard for me? I am so sick of this feeling. It should not be an accomplishment to be happy. Happiness should be self-evident. It makes me angry, as I do not want to...
    larosenoire larosenoire 22-25, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I can't seem to put my thoughts down,

    my minds not racing, I just feel extremely overwhelmed. I want to try millions of things and end up doing absolutely nothing. I waste my time searching for contentment only to waste an entire day with mindless things. Ugh.
    Savions Savions 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    I think I always felt like I know how I'm going

    to die. One day I'll lose my battle with depression and commit suicide. I think this all the time but am too scared to tell friends & family because I feel they will overreact.
    LfeSzdBarbie LfeSzdBarbie 26-30, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Being TG for the last couple of years has put

    my mind on a war path that makes me over think, in a space of say 5 minutes I'll think about if I want to stay who I am or go the other path and be who I feel I should be. It makes a hole in my chest that feels like it sucks emotion out of me and I can't feel anything and I just...
    frozochick0400 frozochick0400 18-21, T 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Sometimes I just start thinking about it

    and can't stop. It's like I'm stuck on a track and there aren't any stops. Whooot whooot! It's the feel-****** train! And I try to distract myself but every single thing I do reminds me. So I start to do even more stuff and maybe then I can make it through the day without...
    RosieJay RosieJay 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Death sometimes feels like the only way out of

    a bad situation. Depression/mental illness in general is like being trapped in a elevator lined with mirrors. You can only see yourself and your situation. It seems there is no way out. Yet, there is a way, through medication and/or therapy. It's up to the person to get help...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 26-30 4 hrs ago

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    Smile and know that Jesus loves everyone in the

    world and has a plan for your life! He hasn't forsaken you, he's waiting for you to turn to him and find forgiveness and peace in what you have done! When Judgment Day comes, he wants you to be on his side and to not let the devil drag you down! Jesus is the way the truth and...
    ZZRoll ZZRoll 16-17, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I did it. I had a slight form of depression.

    All i did i changed the way i lived. City, people and work. It helped me. Hope it will help you too
    nataliawww nataliawww 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 19 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Can't deal with anything anymore .

    I'm done trying.. I'm just done.
    nsameshit nsameshit 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    rpf1988 rpf1988 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    A plush blanket of comfort

    and destruction bound tightly around my frail body. My breathing is constantly labored and my toes curled under bracing for the next mental blow. Anxiety is a consistent flow of breath taking views from the peaks of happiness and the dark shallow graves from the valleys of fear...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I do need real friends

    who care about me, not fair weather friends who are only there when I please them but vanish when I am too depressing. I do need someone to understand that I don’t want to feel this way and would give my eyesight to feel happy again. I do want someone who cares enough to...
    mrsabri mrsabri 18-21, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I battle depression. I’m not crazy.

    I’m not dumb. I don’t want to die, but I often feel like I want to take my own life. I am not dangerous to anyone but myself. I don’t need to be taught a lesson. I don’t need to be ridiculed. I don’t need to be taken advantage of because I am vulnerable and reach out...
    mrsabri mrsabri 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I thought I had won the battle finally.

    I was placed on Cymbalta..they increased it and besides being tired all the time....my mood was good. they increased it again a couple of weeks ago and now I'm a mess. I haven't stopped crying tonight. Will this ever stop? will I always have to be afraid that my depression...
    mandy6b mandy6b 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes when I get really lonely,

    depressed and thought of suicidal I think about why I haven't killed myself, and the reason is because of my family and they will get sad, but I also think that if they weren't my family they wouldn't like me, so they only like me because I'm family and they are used to me, abd...
    Fenriis Fenriis 18-21, T 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    So tired of feeling so depressed.

    Another day of fighting. when will this end????
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 5 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    what are the signs my pulse is quick random

    weeping never awake can't sleep paranoid quiet hurts the head people hurt the heart no where left to go
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Another day, another dreadful day full of more

    noteworthy news of sorrow. My good friend has now once again started up on drugs.. He was 5 months sober, and yet he threw it all away for a couple of bottles and pills. And now like many teens in this day and age he talks about death, in such a lackadaisical, casual way. If you...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 hrs ago

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