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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 70,504 People

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    thoughts of suicide plague my mind most of the

    time I'm awake honestly I only feel free when I'm asleep. oh well though I could never act in those thoughts.
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    dealing with depression it's not fun at all

    sometimes i wanna scream everyday you gotta deal with people you don't like when im stress out i like isolate myself from everyone cause i don't have time for drama things like that wish i never had depression
    tigradoll tigradoll 26-30, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    having a bad few weeks.

    today, my mom threatened to end my insurance over a little disagreement. both of my parents have told me I should just leave their houses (divorced parents- I still live at home). they know I can't, especially not with my new medical problems. I also went to the doctor again the...
    etceteraetcetera etceteraetcetera 18-21, F 23 hrs ago

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    I haven't smoked or hurt myself in almost 8

    years, but every 6-8 weeks I go through a cycle of severe depression and the urge to smoke or hurt myself. It lasts a week or less. The only way I've avoided doing something I'll regret it because I know it'll be over soon (until next time). Some times are harder than others...
    punkrockprincess0314 punkrockprincess0314 26-30, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Aamir316 Aamir316 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Who's in depression mood & needs some1 to talk

    to Please add me or message we can chat not sexual..
    Billyaldo Billyaldo 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    It's miraculous how much magically better I

    feel only on the days i've finally resolved to get help.
    scoria scoria 22-25 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    At the moment, all I want is to scream

    or weep. I am not sure why. I do not know what is going on with my life anymore. I do not have any suicidal thoughts, I do not have any major problems I believe but things are just getting harder. The things I have always wanted seem to be so far away from me; so impossible to...
    FreeyourSoul FreeyourSoul 70+ 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    will never understand

    why girls give guys fake numbers :( hurts worse then actual rejection
    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I'm sinking... further

    and further into the quicksand.. I grasp desperately for help, but nothings there. the more I struggle the quicker I sink.
    meowziewowzie meowziewowzie 22-25, F 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I drink almost everyday

    because I do not know what I am dealing with. I feel if I go home, I would be incomplete and quiet. I love my parents yet I fear being in a quiet zone. My mom tries to talk but I have nothing to say. I am 6 antidepressants every night and I am not suppose to drink. But when I do...
    deceptiveoutofcloset deceptiveoutofcloset 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've barely been outside in three days.

    So Today I texted my friend thinking we had plans to go swimming. Instead she said she might go to the beach with her boyfriend. Which I clearly won't be invited to. :( I feel so sad now.
    beautifuldisaster4 beautifuldisaster4 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I want to give up but I'm scared I don't want

    to leave my sister alone.. I don't care about my life and I'm not sure what I'm doing in this world I only make people missable...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    The I just want to die feeling hasn't gone away

    for a week now. I'm fighting so hard to be normal. I fight myself on weather or not I should be alive. It's a never ending battle when your fighting yourself.
    Haixiu Haixiu 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    im always goin through depression its a daily

    thing for me whether it be from social anxiety changes that came into my life that happened or werent supposed to happen its hard for me to explain in words but Im fighting depression everyday
    aaronpayne aaronpayne 22-25, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Some days it's alright.

    Some days it's bad. Some days it's (bleeping) bad. Sometimes I feel like I won't be able to kick depression, but there are moments, fleeting as they may, that remind me that things are going to be okay. The biggest realization I had to make is the truth that my problems and...
    Brianianday Brianianday 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Having depression is like drowning; You get a

    gasp of air just long enough to hold you over as you go back under- but it's barely enough.. But something keeps you holding on until that next breath..
    CassandraLynn96 CassandraLynn96 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    If I could just get up in the morning,

    do as a normal human being does. If I could just get up, get ready for the world, stop overthinking things, stop stressing for not doing anything and just function... But I can't. It's a force that's making me not do anything. Making me sit around. Making me tired, drained...
    Storiesnotforthefaintofheart Storiesnotforthefaintofheart 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    I'm sorry mother, I'm going to put you through

    so much pain and suffering, I love you so much I just can't do it anymore, dear father.. Are you going to regret leaving me and mom after I take my own life? are you going to miss me? are you going to care?.. Dear sister please stay strong & remember I'll always love & be proud...
    apathy090 apathy090 16-17, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Wish I just had a switch to turn it off.

    .. it gets really hard sometimes to put a smile on my face and show the world that I'm OK... when I'm really not..
    Neverforgether Neverforgether 26-30, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I just done with being stupid

    and falling in love and I just hate myself for it
    kathrynvansickle kathrynvansickle 13-15, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    It's quite sad that the "I battle depression"

    group has 70,000 people in it, and the "I am happy" group has only 3000 people in it :(
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I often feel so worthless

    and stupid. No one understands my social anxiety or depression. im just told to "snap out of it" i feel trapped and suffocated. i feel alone and sad. i often picture my funeral and no one being there. i often picture my family finding me dead and not shedding a tear. my life has...
    lilpeanut24 lilpeanut24 22-25, F 12 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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    I've been in love with the same guy

    for 3 years and it ******* sucks. and people tell me all the time that I should just let go of him, but I can never bring myself to it. I punish myself for how I hurt him by cutting myself. I didn't mean to ever let it go this far. i hadn't talked to him in a long time cause I...
    ta78 ta78 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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