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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,126 People

    I get that I am young

    and there are plenty more fish in the sea... But I have only been in love once. It happened to be my bestfriend who was a girl.. Our first love. And a really being change of coming out of the closet.. Together. After a year and a half of confusing love she broke my heart. She...
    laneymaee laneymaee 18-21, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I'm really fighting depression lately.

    I don't want to get out of bed. My meds don't seem to be helping. I know I'm just frustrating my husband. I'm not getting anything done. He's worried that I'm headed for another suicide attempt, and I can't promise him that I'm not. I tried in July last year. It was really bad...
    suisquirrel suisquirrel 41-45, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    TheKAMIFox TheKAMIFox 13-15, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    My husband seems to have reached a point

    where he can't deal with my depression any more. I understand how hard it must be for him, but at the same time it's hard for me when he can't support me any more. We don't have sex either. So the two things combined just make me feel hopeless about the future of our marriage. I...
    JewelThief JewelThief 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I can't shake it today between money problems

    and having a hard time finding a job I'm can't stop cry just wanna lay in bed
    sharivea sharivea 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    What am I going to do?

    I'm so depressed. My husband is sick and has been for three years. He brought this all on himself. He smoked that K2, synthetic marijuana, and it messed his brain up. Now he has seizures constantly and has memory loss long-term and short-term that affects his daily living. I...
    Grache Grache 41-45, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Soo... I've decided life is overrate!

    I know I should be great full I have a life! Same **** different day! Clean cook clean again cook again clean again! Then start the day all over again! I have the weekends to look forward too but I'm starting to think why do I look forward to them? Just same day different...
    LiilyPad LiilyPad 22-25, F 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response a week ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 25 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Roses are black, violets are extinct,

    this is depression , at least for me. you can't see beauty, you can't see color, your soul becomes lost , all thats left is a body and a brain, a brain that is contaminated, and need drugs to clean it. Faces are happy, people are laughing, you watch and stare in envy, wondering...
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    some days I wonder what has caused this battle

    within me. first I think its my ex husband and his abusive ways. then it starts my family. I start to realize my self image was caused by them. the way they have put me down about my appearance. I'm fat I'm ugly. I need to try harder at being prettier. now I'm getting married...
    Happythoughts7771 Happythoughts7771 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Going to the Dr tomorrow morning to have my

    medication switched hopefully :) for those who don't know I've been battling depression for a few years now I've attempted suicide many times but never went all the way through with it I always pretend to smile and be happy so u guys wouldn't have to worry about me but I wantto...
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I'm depressed to the point

    where I think death is a better place , I have no friends maybe one and I've been bullied throughout my hole life, I got in to drugs and alcohol and started running away the doctor put me on antidepressants it doesn't work anymore. I always told my self life will get better but...
    skinyxx skinyxx 18-21, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    What is this stumbling block I have put in my

    path? My anxious hope has shrouded my judgement. The bold Beauty of death is seeming ever so captivating, like a lightning bolt streaking through the pitch black. The quick snatching of life; Death the ultimate thief. Love has stolen my heart, life has stolen my mind, I...
    Walterseymoreflemming Walterseymoreflemming 18-21, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I have friends and I'm surrounded by love

    yet I still feel trapped. Death is the only freedom . Sleep is the only peace. Life comes with stress and anxiety . I just don't want it anymore.
    Walterseymoreflemming Walterseymoreflemming 18-21, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I didn't seek any professional help

    if what I'm dealing for awhile now is depression or not. However, I do feel like some of the symptoms matches with one of the different types of depression that I have read online. To me, this 'thing', I have gone through few years back but I got it over now. However, recently...
    raldy raldy 18-21, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Any little thing sets me off.

    I tend to obsess about little problems... Often making a molehill into a mountain, as they say. Depression is a sneaky thief. Robbing us of joy, making us zone out of life, and depriving us of opportunities that will never come again. I've been upset about our mouse problem...
    MommysGotTats420 MommysGotTats420 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Things haven't gotten better.

    Even after 3 months after my suicide attempt I don't want to be here anymore. I'm trapped in a plagued mind that won't let me see any light at the end of the tunnel. I'm still searching for it but I don't find any. I just want rest, peace, and serenity. Pills don't help, my...
    DaFufinator DaFufinator 18-21, M 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    myillmind myillmind 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today I'm a little better I have

    so much doubt in my head tho sometimes getting motivated to do another day is hard but I got this today ..... I think
    sharivea sharivea 22-25, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    After six consecutive "reverse smiley"

    or "straight faced smiley" days in my journal, today I finally assigned a smiley to this day. Yay. There was nothing really special about this day - it was a routine day - but my mood was fine, I staid busy, I had no negative thoughts or emotions or poisonous self talk. It was a...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 7 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    sunnyshine15 sunnyshine15 13-15, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Something that adds to my depression is seeing

    how people treat one and other. I have always been a good person. I have gone above and beyond to help others without asking anything in return. I've donated money to all types of charities. I always pick an angel off the giving tree for Christmas. I do all this even when I...
    megz327 megz327 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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