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    To be honest I don't know what I feel anymore.

    It's not emptiness..I don't think I'm lonely, yet for some reason I can't help but feel depressed always. As if there is some sort of negative energy that follows me around all day. I've done everything in the books to fill the hole in me, yet nothing seems to work. It's not...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    No matter how much I try I just can't get over

    the fact that just because I didn't call my grandma my aunt said that if I get leukemia again no one would be there for me. I know it's not true but it still hurts. I can't call my grandma because she has leukemia now and it triggers me to remember what I went through. Remember...
    animerules44 animerules44 16-17 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    This is Tug of war in my head,

    I usually wish that I were dead. If only my body could be free, Well, at least baby, you still love me. And thru this game of tug-a-war, You are all I want...Nothing more! You pick me up every time I fall, For reasons unknown, u love me thru it all. I hate myself, So much it...
    shaybaby26 shaybaby26 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Lately I've been doing extremely well

    as far as my moods go. I'm starting to realized when my mania episodes come, and looking back at this week, I've noticed that I've been having a mania episode from Saturday until right now at this very moment. I know that because I hardly remember anything that's happened at all...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Sometimes my family drives me to the point

    where I want to kill myself. So through the night when I can't sleep, I have a razor in my hand.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I've always been depressed.

    Nobody likes a depressed girl, because I'm emotionally "unstable". And the older I get, the more suicide sounds pretty damn great. I just want this living hell to be over. I'm tired of everything, I'm tired of ******* people. Do you know how many times I hear the words...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am going to cover a lot of bases about myself

    here....I feel as though the last couple weeks I've been losing my mind, and I have to get out who I am in some form or another, and I figure sharing this is better than bottling it up in my mess of a brain. I have always, always, always tried to be the person people relied...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've had depression since I was 10 years old.

    I'm now 20 and with every day that passes, it gets worse and worse. I'm lucky enough to have patient supportive parents but even they can't help me. I don't know who can. I can't even help myself. It feels like I'm being consumed by the world... there is a vice gripping on my...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Just sent a final text to my

    now ex girlfriend. I think the problem with my relationships are on the girl's side. I'd give my all love compassion understanding and I'd love them. but they in turn would never stay committed or faithful in return always resorting to Ghosting me leaving me hanging wondering...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    So I did the talk with my teacher today,

    and oh my god I feel so much more comfortable with him. I went in during lunch yesterday to give him a bag of candy and a card telling him that I appreciate him for everything, and also mentioned that I want to continue band after high school because nothing makes me more happy...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    When you wish to persevere

    but you have no fight left in you.
    Imbloo Imbloo 16-17 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I'm depressed I just want to cry I'm 26 back at

    home with my parents and grandma and two younger brothers and my 3year old daughter living with the man (my father) who molested me and I never told anyone my daughter is my world and I want to give her everything I never had and so much more I have nothing but my love to give...
    LovingMe1 LovingMe1 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    You made me stay, you made me promise the

    impossible. I no longer have the option so I now have to accept my pain and suffering as something I will always carry with me. Because of your selfish reasoning, I now have to live in a constant hell where I am tortured consistently. But not only am I hurt by others over time...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 5 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    So far I'm losing. Soon I'll just be a blood

    splatter on the side of a train or something.
    TieFighter501 TieFighter501 13-15, M 3 hrs ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I don't know why but sometimes I stay over my

    ex bf and he just never touches me ..its been a month we haven't been together and I would think we would just mess around..he is the one that tells me to sleep over ..I just feel so we next to him..
    moondesires moondesires 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    So now we have some lady on here pushing

    vitamins that you put under your tongue that will cure depression ...... Wtf is the world coming too . Any way people can find to push there products they will do.
    startingover34 startingover34 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I cried so hard yesterday,

    I threw up and got the rest of the week off...my manager understands but I'm just dying inside .
    HipsterYoda HipsterYoda 18-21, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    So I may have to get a 5th eye surgery.

    . Everyone leave me alone for a bit.
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Recently past is the 20th anniversary of being

    on anti-depressants. That's 20 years (w/2 breaks lasting not more than a few months) of trying more types of anti-depressants than I've had cheeseburgers. Not that the variety was spread out over the full 20 years. No, it was 17 years ago that Wellbutrin was found to be the most...
    ImperialAerosolKid ImperialAerosolKid 41-45, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 9

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 11 Responses Mar 18

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I have had over five near death experience's,

    I have been operated on around 20 times that I can remember. I have been beaten three times, raped once. I have no doubt that God has been watching over me......And now I am dying of heart failure. So why wouldn't someone like me be depressed?
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Sometimes people say

    that I'm not really depressed because I don't cut myself. Or take antidepressants. Or go to therapy. Or try go seek help from others. I guess they really don't know what it's like... I've never been able to stand the sight of blood. So I never cut myself; instead, I would drink...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Being suicidal and depressed is one of the

    hardest things I've been through. People say "seek help" But when you do, they say "you're attention seeking, people who deal with depression don't talk about it" You feel alone You feel empty You feel worthless. Trust me, if I would do anything for attention, it WOULDNT...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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