I Battle Depression

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12
    18-21, F
    40 Responses Nov 12, 2012

    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta
    56-60, M
    23 Responses May 19, 2010

    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb
    22-25, F
    11 Responses Mar 13, 2015

    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221
    31-35, M
    11 Responses Aug 11, 2014

    It's really hard waking up everyday feeling

    useless. And crying quietly to keep people from asking questions. Or smiling when I just want to be left alone.... I don't know how I lost myself but I did, and everyday kills me more than the last. Be respond to a fake smile faster than the words " I need help ". I'm just tired...
    mrzsmillii mrzsmillii
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 17

    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino
    22-25, F
    65 Responses Jul 9, 2015

    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork
    13-15, F
    24 Responses Jul 3, 2014

    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Dec 24, 2014

    Been feeling down this past few days,

    wanting to be someone else. I don't know where my life is going
    Margarott Margarott
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 17

    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork
    13-15, F
    16 Responses Jul 7, 2014

    A Flower Of Life! Life is like a flower,

    it blooms and shows it's beauty, but when the bloom is done, the plant still lives on. I will live on through you, you are my plant, so just because I will not be able to bloom anymore, I will still be with you. I don't ask for anything here, but support from my friends...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc
    61-65, T
    1 Response Apr 20
    Appleslices69 Appleslices69
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 17

    today's depression is extremely deep.

    .. if some bad guy try to take me to bad places,i might not be able to refuse.. Feeling loneliness in a crowded is awful than feeling it alone. You expect something to someone,you think you can feel alive again with someone no...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17

    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver
    26-30, F
    55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica
    26-30, F
    78 Responses Jan 24, 2013

    as the melodramatic header can tell you,

    I'm riddled with angst and pretentious self hatred. It's been so for running on, i don't know, two years now (give or take(more likely take)). About a month and a half ago, i began to "cut" myself. I began by shattering the plastic body of mechanical pencils until i got a piece...
    yamaraj yamaraj
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 17

    For You! The courage

    that I show, comes from you, you know. the blessing that I have received, I get from God, as he pleased. The dreams that I have are mime, to look back on from time to time. If just one of those dreams were to come true, "feel the joy," that is all that is left for me to do...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc
    61-65, T
    3 Responses Apr 15

    My depression is finally going away.

    I sometimes feel myself clicking in and out of feeling normal. I can finally get out of bed and feel like I have a purpose again. I can actually smile! I look outside and see the sun and feel a moment of joy in the morning. I started Lexapro 8 weeks ago, and it has done wonders...
    pianokat pianokat
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 16

    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove
    70+
    1 Response Feb 25, 2015
    Angel2345 Angel2345
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Apr 15

    When I get depressed I fantasize about

    spankings. I know it sounds weird and maybe it is but it kinda helps take my mind off of it.
    Niceguy890 Niceguy890
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 16

    "Look at people with your heart

    and you will be better for it, because your eyes cannot see what your heart can feel." Miss Bobbie Jean, with a dream.........
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc
    61-65, T
    1 Response Apr 19

    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper
    36-40, F
    18 Responses Jun 16, 2014

    Hi i'm new here, but.

    .. if you want a good friend or just be listened, i'm here for you :)
    LoneSuicidalDemon LoneSuicidalDemon
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 16
    Adeadmanwalking Adeadmanwalking
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 20

    Feeling anxious about every desco soon I make

    regarding work. Don't feel like working. Even though I do what I used to love doing.
    thinkingshard thinkingshard
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 17

    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream
    36-40, F
    36 Responses Oct 22, 2011

    Once again skipping, sitting in an empty lot,

    wishing I brought a razor and wanting another dealer. Seems every time I pull this juvenile trick it gets that much harder to commit, or to take even a single step towards the future. Not caring is as addicting and as satisfying as cutting (or crack, for that matter). So, in an...
    yamaraj yamaraj
    18-21, M
    Apr 19

    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Feb 14, 2014

    I'm sitting in school

    and I want to cry so bad but I know if I do I won't be able to stop. I saw my dad for the first time in months today. He was drunk just like the last time I saw him. He got mad at me for no reason and started yelling at me. He even grabbed a gas tank and he stopped himself...
    pguadalupe pguadalupe
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 18

    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 9, 2013

    My college documentary class took a trip to

    take some photos, and we split into small groups. One girl I have gotten to be friends with this semester, the other we are friends with but I don't know her as well, and the other girl who was with us I don't really know. But the four of us ended up on the subject of depression...
    starling156 starling156
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Apr 17

    I'm really so f*ing done with my life right now.

    I lived a boring life with barely any fond memories for anything I have done. I crave the feeling for pure happiness. To jump around and laugh and dance without a care in the world. With people I love that love me. I went to orientation today and I can't help to feel so freakin...
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 15

    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196
    18-21, F
    31 Responses Jan 12, 2014
    allianotran allianotran
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 15

    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Oct 31, 2014
    JustAnotherGirlOnEP JustAnotherGirlOnEP
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 20

    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird
    31-35, F
    198 Responses Apr 12, 2006

    I need help - all I think about is self harm Or

    ways to end the suffering ! I'm alone and don't know what else to do
    elliebullock16 elliebullock16
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 21
    Stephan7 Stephan7
    26-30, M
    Apr 20
    unbound97 unbound97
    18-21, F
    Apr 21

    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    7 Responses Nov 21, 2014

    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws
    36-40, F
    16 Responses Feb 21, 2013
    PanzerVor PanzerVor
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Mar 14, 2015

    My depression is getting

    so much worse.
    rainandbooks rainandbooks
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Apr 15

    I'm done being so miserable.

    Nobody deserves that. Happiness is a choice and I'm choosing it now. You should too. The heck with the people who kick us to the ground and enjoys it. You want to get back right? You want vengeance? Well the best vengeance is for us to be happy. Smiling at their faces with...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 17

    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    13 Responses Jun 9, 2014

    To all who still think about suicide

    or have a depression. You don't have to be alone. We can be friends and I'll try to make you feel better and see the bright side of things. I hope you get well and never ever give up, alright? ^^,) respond here or pm me if you want to get in touch. Take care now. Have a nice...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    Apr 21

    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    8 Responses Mar 18, 2015

    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox
    41-45, M
    93 Responses Aug 11, 2009
    PositiveStateOfMind PositiveStateOfMind
    22-25, M
    Apr 20

    On one can be strong alone it takes a army of

    people behind them, giving them the courage and the power to move mountains, to make a difference in someone else's life not of their own. Someone that can stand tall before you all and say I am "ME" and that is all you will ever see. Written by Miss Bobbie Jean
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc
    61-65, T
    1 Response Apr 19

    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    45 Responses Jan 18, 2015

    Since EP is going I don't know how I am going

    to find another coping mechanism for my depression. I wanted to write about four different stories but I was too shaky, irritated and frustrated type. I feel like I'm being consumed by a fire and the fire is my thoughts. I'm just never happy it seems.. The alternative apps etc...
    UnicornsOfHope UnicornsOfHope
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 17

    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy
    51-55, F
    140 Responses Sep 16, 2009

    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker
    26-30, M
    34 Responses Nov 3, 2012

    This site can't close!

    It keeps me afloat! It stops me cutting! I don't know what I will do when it closes! Any help? Xx
    NiamhM NiamhM
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Apr 17

    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover
    36-40, F
    32 Responses Jul 28, 2013
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