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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I. Just woke to a horrible nightmare me

    and my ex got in an awfull fight and she said horrible hurtfull things to me .... But in reality that would never happen we want to get back together but we just cant right now ..... I love her and want to be with her soo much but i cant
    justashyguy87 justashyguy87 26-30, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I once thought I was made of impenetrable steel,

    flawless and strong. But then I got into deep water and my steel hull dragged me to the bottom. The pressure of the water made my bolts pop, and in flooded bad thoughts. Everything was cold and dark, with nary a sign of life surrounding me. As I gasped for my last air, a...
    lostsoul8844 lostsoul8844 36-40, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Recently past is the 20th anniversary of being

    on anti-depressants. That's 20 years (w/2 breaks lasting not more than a few months) of trying more types of anti-depressants than I've had cheeseburgers. Not that the variety was spread out over the full 20 years. No, it was 17 years ago that Wellbutrin was found to be the most...
    ImperialAerosolKid ImperialAerosolKid 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I may have to get a 5th eye surgery.

    . Everyone leave me alone for a bit.
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    This girl posted on something I said about a

    teen girl dating saying that lying to parents causes depression and anxiety and that's it. Lmao. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain not some teen angst love song.
    ebabe ebabe 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    There is no point. Ultimately,

    to the universe, there is no point to anything. Everything is just matter following the laws of the nature of the universe. objects bouncing around in order. Well, I am not the universe, but I am a part of it. I am a human. The consciousness of the human mind allows us to create...
    Origination Origination 18-21, M 20 hrs ago

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    We’re all a unique collection of atoms.

    There’s only one of each of us, the only label you should wear is your name. Let your actions define you because there’s another spectrum. How you live your life, what you do with whatever you’re given, how you treat the other people around you. These are your actions...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    The Real Folk Blues..

    . Thinking about how the world treated me. The outcome is mixed. I had good days and bad days. 20 years on this planet, and feel sadness and joy. I kinda don't know where my life is heading. Is uncertainty a bad thing?
    lilman390 lilman390 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Sometimes people say

    that I'm not really depressed because I don't cut myself. Or take antidepressants. Or go to therapy. Or try go seek help from others. I guess they really don't know what it's like... I've never been able to stand the sight of blood. So I never cut myself; instead, I would drink...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've always been depressed.

    Nobody likes a depressed girl, because I'm emotionally "unstable". And the older I get, the more suicide sounds pretty damn great. I just want this living hell to be over. I'm tired of everything, I'm tired of ******* people. Do you know how many times I hear the words...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 11 Responses Mar 18

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    I'm depressed I just want to cry I'm 26 back at

    home with my parents and grandma and two younger brothers and my 3year old daughter living with the man (my father) who molested me and I never told anyone my daughter is my world and I want to give her everything I never had and so much more I have nothing but my love to give...
    LovingMe1 LovingMe1 26-30, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I really hate myself.

    Im such an idiot and i dont get anything at all. Ive never even had a boyfriend. Just a waste of time and life is what i am. I cant even do anything like a normal human being.
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I made my time, I hurried up,

    I didn't think enough.... I don't really know. I survived once, to my suicide attempt, I won't forget that moment, the rush o energy that scream "run!" On my head and forced me to leaved that poisoned room. I was sitting on a bench on a nameless street of my city, a warm night...
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    To be honest I don't know what I feel anymore.

    It's not emptiness..I don't think I'm lonely, yet for some reason I can't help but feel depressed always. As if there is some sort of negative energy that follows me around all day. I've done everything in the books to fill the hole in me, yet nothing seems to work. It's not...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    This is Tug of war in my head,

    I usually wish that I were dead. If only my body could be free, Well, at least baby, you still love me. And thru this game of tug-a-war, You are all I want...Nothing more! You pick me up every time I fall, For reasons unknown, u love me thru it all. I hate myself, So much it...
    shaybaby26 shaybaby26 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Lately I've been doing extremely well

    as far as my moods go. I'm starting to realized when my mania episodes come, and looking back at this week, I've noticed that I've been having a mania episode from Saturday until right now at this very moment. I know that because I hardly remember anything that's happened at all...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    when everyone compare me with another,

    when no one thinks im worthy, no one wants me, no one see me, when everybody underestimate me, when people thinks i havr autism, when people call me fat, when my brother stop care to me, since my parents defend them and accused me, when the worlds blame on me. The bravest thinf...
    Imadori Imadori 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I have had over five near death experience's,

    I have been operated on around 20 times that I can remember. I have been beaten three times, raped once. I have no doubt that God has been watching over me......And now I am dying of heart failure. So why wouldn't someone like me be depressed?
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I cried so hard yesterday,

    I threw up and got the rest of the week off...my manager understands but I'm just dying inside .
    HipsterYoda HipsterYoda 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 82 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    when you do everything you feel is right.

    and do your best to correct your mistakes. and protect those you love. and it seems like everything in your life is falling apart slowly while you can do nothing But watch. when you feel the shame and judgment of others around you. and you feel like a failure. when you want to...
    shadewolf7 shadewolf7 22-25, M 3 hrs ago

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    Just sent a final text to my

    now ex girlfriend. I think the problem with my relationships are on the girl's side. I'd give my all love compassion understanding and I'd love them. but they in turn would never stay committed or faithful in return always resorting to Ghosting me leaving me hanging wondering...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    ever since my dad passed 2 years ago

    and now since how at home I only have me and my mom I wish things would go back to the way they used to be but I have trouble with accepting changes and just dont know how long im gonna survive cause it feels like im on my own fighting the world and im losing
    aaronpayne aaronpayne 22-25, M 42 mins ago

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    So far I'm losing. Soon I'll just be a blood

    splatter on the side of a train or something.
    TieFighter501 TieFighter501 13-15, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I don't know why but sometimes I stay over my

    ex bf and he just never touches me ..its been a month we haven't been together and I would think we would just mess around..he is the one that tells me to sleep over ..I just feel so we next to him..
    moondesires moondesires 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I've wasted an unfathomable amount of resources,

    time, money and energy because of my depression. I first noticed I was depressed when I was 17, sometime between the time that my parents divorced, my rape, and my first breakup/ heartbreak. I got better when I was like 20-22. And now in my 23rd year of life, I just feel so...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses