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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,770 People

    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    fixaheartxoxo fixaheartxoxo 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    you know what? this is crazy!

    I feel like a forgotten body in my own bed. I can certainly go out of my bed again. I'm so **** tired. They say that everything will be fine, but it is not good. It will never be good. Wish people could just forget who I am. I'm just a dead body with a living soul. I have not...
    AttitudeJulie AttitudeJulie 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    Not a lot of people in my personal life know I

    have depression. My parents forgot or are choosing not to acknowledge it and have since December. My siblings are never home and my friends have moved on after thinking it was a phase. I had no one to talk to about it and it would build up inside me until I start crying and...
    sunshineinmysoultoday sunshineinmysoultoday 16-17, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    As someone that deals with depression on a

    daily basis I feel that by writing about it, it makes me feel better and it also allows me to share what I feel with you. Sometimes I can get my strength from you and that helps me deal with my own depression. I try to tell myself that I have a lot to live for, yet I cannot help...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I need someone to tell me how much of a loser I

    am! I need someone to make me feel I am and never will be more than that. I have to know I'm not good enough from those around me and when I don't get it I seek it out.
    mel982 mel982 31-35, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression is an involuntary emotion.

    It's an inescapable "thing" that is engrained in our conscious state of mind. Medicine is often used to alter the mindset; which in most cases, is not proven effective. For most, it's only a supplement for a temporary fix; for others, it can shown drastic change for the better...
    Air0118 Air0118 18-21, M 14 hrs ago

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    Who's can i make my parents care about me?

    ? They just want to control me but they dont talk they just yell, they dont even let me talk i feel i ruin their life since i born. I almost kill my mother, im a monster or something. I dont deserve to be happy
    antomg1 antomg1 16-17, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    That awkward moment when people don't know the

    difference between depression and just not getting what you want. 😕
    Waiting4Wings Waiting4Wings 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I cut sometimes not often thou,

    but my mom found out and she got extremely angry and stated yelling at me saying I was going to go to a crazy house with other people who cut. She didn't even care I was hurting myself, she never tried to comfort me, I dint remember a single time she would tell me it would be ok...
    DEATH1o1 DEATH1o1 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    so we just got out of school yesterday

    and I cant help but feel more alone than ever i mean my girlfriend is there but she's not there all the time and since my friends aren't there as much my depression is even worse the day is just going extra slow and every second feels like a minute and every minute an hour...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    t0ucht0relax t0ucht0relax 13-15, M 6 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I am tired tired of life kicking the holy

    living **** out of me.I am a middle child so i was was just there.My older brother got all the good DNA I got the **** that was left over.I am the person that will never ever catch a break.I get a good job then a new manger will take over so far i have been taking advantage of...
    Jazonx Jazonx 36-40 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    this is my first experiance

    that I've written, so not sure how this all works but here we go. I've suffered from depression since school, been taken into hospital for trying to take my life. I thought that finally things got back on track once I met my boyfriend who I am with now, but I've gone back down...
    aimsdisneyox aimsdisneyox 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm dying inside but

    so does everybody else apparently so its normal..
    jjjjjjaaaaaahhhhfgfgfgffgf jjjjjjaaaaaahhhhfgfgfgffgf 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Don't you hate when you're trying to open up to

    someone and tell them that you have depression and they're like "oh i think me too" but you can tell for them it's one of those "I'm depressed for like 3 minutes" kind of situations. I just think it's absolutely insensitive. Telling someone that you have depression is absolutely...
    Stellaluna13 Stellaluna13 18-21, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    For the last few months my mind has been

    so empty, for lack of a better word. It's so hard to explain. It's almost like a constant daze, where I process nothing, yet still remain functional. I've noticed this because for as long as I can remember I've always been deeply reflective, analytical and self monitored. It's...
    Isolating Isolating 18-21, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I am getting tired. So very tired of this

    feeling of emptiness sprinkled with moments of intense sorrow and longing for any amount of joy. The only other thing that keeps me company lately is anger. The anger is like a cancer and eats me from the inside out.
    Infiniteblue Infiniteblue 36-40, F 52 mins ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Today was quite interesting!

    ! First off, I woke up late, causing me to go to my first period late. One of my close friends in there hugged me as soon as I walked in, and I just started sobbing infront of everyone. I don't know why. So she took me to the bathroom and comforted me, I went back to class only...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Depression has been there all my life.

    I'm manic depressed and have been told I will probably have to deal with it the rest of my life. Someday a it stays in the shadows and I feel alright other days it feels although everything is trying to bring me down. Today is one of those days. Today could be the best day of...
    Meadowruelover Meadowruelover 18-21, F 4 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    MY LAST BREATH I TAKE!

    God , please forgive for all my sins, My heart is heavy as it comes to an end. You always been there for me, Now it is my turn to be there for thee. You have always filled my life with joy, As I worked and tilled the soil. The flowers that I grew, They are flowers just for...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 10 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    You're whole attitude

    and outlook on life is darkened. After a while feelings and thought become hard to untangle The lines between reality and imagination are blurred An imagination infested with negativity and self loathing Down trodden I have anxiety also I never used to notice my depression at...
    yeahtimesahundred yeahtimesahundred 31-35, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    When I dropped out of high school,

    people looked at me like I was worthless... Or just dumb. Honestly.. I liked to read. A lot and still do. I just didn't belong and it's something no one will understand. I didn't drop out because I got pregnant, I didn't drop out because I was on drugs, I didn't drop out because...
    Galatziaa Galatziaa 18-21, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Will you miss me, when you can no longer see my

    face, hear my cries, my pleas, when you can no longer feel the warmth of my skin. Will you miss me? My smile, my heart, the sound of my laughter? Will you miss me? Do you notice me now as I live and breathe, as the one who loves you and needs you? Do hear me now as I stand here...
    angeleyes4urpleasure angeleyes4urpleasure 41-45, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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