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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,041 People

    It's sad.. I'm just so tired of life.

    I don't think I'll ever contemplate suicide but if I'm ever dying, I don't think I'll fight it.. I'm ready to leave this world, just waiting on the reaper.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    No one can save me from myself anymore.

    Forced to be on these useless drugs that task horrible and i get nothing out of it. Ill try fight till my 18 or 19 but after that I'm definitely killing myself. I can take the pain anymore
    Usernamesalreadytaken Usernamesalreadytaken 16-17, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    flower79 flower79 31-35, F 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    It's been a lot harder lately,

    I feel like no matter what I do it just won't get better. I don't even know why I'm writing this really, not like anyone ever says anything that helps to be honest. I just really wish that something could make it better for good and not just for a while. What I hate the most...
    MissJessieGurl MissJessieGurl 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    PurpleRose95 PurpleRose95 18-21, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I found You just have to live Your life.

    work, eat, sleep, play, read, hike, do the dishes, play with the cat, pet the cat, walk, run, go to fairs, dress up in silly costumes for friend, go to the beach, writing, driving, eating ice cream, dig, stub your toes, drink alcohol and watch the sun set, hammer together a...
    AceWarbringer AceWarbringer 31-35, M 15 mins ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    HELP!!!!!! I NEEDA ADVICE ASAP.

    Lol sorry. So this girl from my improv class. She's lesbian and like for a while her friend was trying so set me and her up or something. She added me on snapchat and we started snapping. And that's where I told her I'm straight and stuff. So she asked if I wanted to study after...
    shiyinglu shiyinglu 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Often when I'm working I tend to think how did

    I let my life get so ****** up then a hole starts to dig in my chest , but I tend to justify it by saying at least I actually face these emotions and not hide them away like most people or try to distract (procrastinate) myself with gossip
    Steve2315 Steve2315 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    Gaykid313 Gaykid313 13-15, M 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    When I first wake up in the morning,

    I find there's always a delay, even if just a few seconds, before all my old habitual thinking & assumptions come back. All I feel is that I'm relatively warm and comfortable. That's our healthiest state -- for real. I'm positive verything you think and do is far easier if you...
    WattDeFalk WattDeFalk 56-60, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    anon2254 anon2254 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Just don't be sad, just find something to make

    yourself happy. Those words are so much easier said than done. I've said those words before when it's been a good day, but I can't even remember the last good day. All I want to do is eat because I'm depressed and that's what I've done my whole life but I hate the way I look so...
    MissJessieGurl MissJessieGurl 18-21, F 23 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    slow loris eating a rice ball search

    that on youtube if you need cheering up
    sukibulb sukibulb 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    I thought all of this was over,

    I guess I was wrong, it has clawed its way back in. Putting these emotions in a corner just isn't working anymore, cause now they're stronger than I am. It's almost as is two people are fighting over who gets control inside my head, and i'm not sure which one is me.
    Voxus Voxus 18-21, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I am starting to except I am a loser in life .

    I have cut off all communication with my family and almost everyone else. I don't answer my phone or interact with people. I believe losers aren't allowed to be around others. I don't leave my house except go to work, because I don't want to have to speak or talk about myself. I...
    mel982 mel982 31-35, M 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    why does it take so much effort to be alive.

    why do i have to do this. i try so hard. so hard. but i cant do it anymore. let me go. i dont want to keep up this exhausting task.
    sukibulb sukibulb 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    What am I worth? I'm a lost cause with no

    future. All I feel is empty and sadness. My friends are blades and small capsules. What's stopping me from death?
    anthonyalfano anthonyalfano 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    It is really awful being

    such a disappointment because of my depression.
    AlittleHope AlittleHope 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey, I want to recommend "Hannah Vancouver"'s

    YouTube channel. She has made videos about depression and also other mental health including anorexia, bulimia, anxiety disorder, ADHD and cutting as she has experience with them all. I have found her so helpful so if anyone wants to check her out I think it could be helpful for...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I thought I was better.

    ..I'm not. I want to cut right now. If I tell my mom she'll get really worried especially because she thinks I haven't done it in 3 years. My friend isn't answering. I feel hopeless right now. I don't know why I'm alive, I'm worthless and I'll never be good enough. I wish I could...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I sometimes wish I had an imaginary real friend

    so that whenever something goes bad, he/she could sooth me. I really need an imaginary real friend so that he'll always be with me and never let me do something bad. I just wish.
    chocolateinmyblood chocolateinmyblood 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes God choose's us to do things

    that we are not award of. I know that I am here dealing with death and sometimes it gets hard to deal with, because I am only human and the pain and suffering is hard to deal with. We all ask ourselves and we ask God why do we stay here, what is the big picture? I have been...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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