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I Battle Depression

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    All I need is that sure failsafe way to die.

    .. But now I'm on suicide watch...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 38 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I need to tell my mom I'm still unhappy.

    Idk how to though. Help?
    allie887 allie887 16-17, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Did You Hurt Yourself?

                Someone has told me. " When you were harmed, I recommend you try….Try to pick a stone and Carry it and squeeze It! Squeeze it! Squeeze it tightly!  And then he smiled and asked me " is it hurt? "             Nothing can harm you, except you harm...
    FreakTurtle FreakTurtle 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 30 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 22 Responses Jul 7

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 30 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    In his fragmentary jottings,

    published in the Daily Telegraph, Christopher Hitchens wrote: 'I am not fighting or battling cancer, it is fighting me.' That's exactly how i feel about my depression.It is winning me.The only thing that i do is ...not to die.I am not fighting anything,i just hang in there,in...
    lady2089 lady2089 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 18 Responses Mar 18

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    Yup, suicide watch. Being woken up

    after 6 hours by the police. Do these people really think I'm going to believe they care about me? Do they expect me to believe anyone cares about me? Nah I ain't falling to those lies anymore! If they truly cared they would understand its time for me to die!
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    WARNING: Possible Trigger Warning

    and Explict/Mature content! Also this is my choice to post this much information about me. Please keep your negative opinions to yourself. I simply want my voice and plea for help to be heard. My apologies if you see this on another EP thread! TLDR (Too long didnt read...
    Winbu Winbu 16-17, M 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Last year I fell into a really really bad

    depression. I closed myself out from the world. I'd stay inside a dark room & literally cry for days. I became suicidal..It was the worst times of my life. Luckily I was able to fight through it. But, now I'm going through major problems & I am in such fear that my depression is...
    ElenaSC ElenaSC 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    So tonight I am going to a Christian youth group

    where I don't know anyone at all and my freinds mom told them about me and said I'm coming but I can only imagine what she said like Oh he's a nice kid but depressed and doesn't have many friends anymore kus they all use drugs and aren't religious I'm scared kus these are...
    Vaughn37 Vaughn37 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was diagnosed or whatever you wanna call it

    about 5 months ago. I've been having to go to therapy stuff which hasn't worked at all. My family thinks it is but it isn't helping what so ever. I'm still cutting and still think about killing myself all the time. It really sucks always being unhappy. I miss the days when I was...
    allie887 allie887 16-17, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't like how some people say they are

    depressed, when they really aren't. They just look for attention. But the people who are really depressed, I feel your pain. I am depressed too, I was diagnosed with it.
    Mikaylaxo Mikaylaxo 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I barely have any friends at school

    which is pretty depressing and lonely ,I wish to die every day.
    Eugenie97 Eugenie97 16-17, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    For the past 4 years I have suffered from major

    depression, yes diagnosed. I have had 2 friends kill themselves which impacted me big. Family issues. Friend issues. Religion issues.Self issues. Yes I've thought of suicide, but it's okay to think about it, just not to go through with it. And I hope I never do. I've have been...
    tessareedy tessareedy 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I was depressed 4years ago

    and I cut and harmed myself... Today I still am depressed and everything's just worse and my parents don't know no one knows I don't know how to get help... I just need someone to talk to
    xLittleVampirex xLittleVampirex 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Oh depression, I really dislike you right now.

    I've suffered from major depression since the age of 13. I'm 16 now. I've been bullied my whole life, called endless names. Depression is my worst nightmare especially on nights like this when all I want to do is go back to the blade. I'm 214 days clean from cutting but I really...
    teenagetragedy teenagetragedy 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    For once I want to be able to have a mature

    and healthy relationship. Over the course of 3 years I have had 5 girlfriends 2 broke up with me for their own reasons. 2 cheated on me. (Most recent gf was caught having sex with someone else) And another moved away. (Left on a bad note..) I'm tired of being heartbroken. I...
    Winbu Winbu 16-17, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel myself slipping again.

    I had a few good days. But now I feel like life isn't worth it. The pain. The regrets. They circle around me like the Walking dead. Like a beast chasing me to finish me off.
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Ive been depressed for about 7yrs now

    and nobody knows it. I feel as if no one truly cares. I fear telling anyof my family and friends, I wouldnt know how they'd react. Theyd probably wouldnt take it seriously, I know they wouldnt. They'd move on right away. I spend everyday in my room, I sleep all day...
    xkLOVESjx xkLOVESjx 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Back to square one. Extra strength Tylenol

    and some weed. Tonight will hopefully be the night. But tonight's a little different. I won't tell anyone I know. This is my time. My battle. And I surrender alone.
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Leave the rope, Put down the razor,

    Throw away the gun, Put away the knife, Step away from the ledge. -It gets better//I promise.I love you
    ChelcBub14 ChelcBub14 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 77 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Alone again. 2:13am,

    noone to talk to. Running out of things to drink to lessen the effect my thoughts have on my emotions. What will I do when I run out.
    SilentJamie SilentJamie 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    My mother thinks depression is

    when you can't get out of bed. It's an overly simplistic definition of depression but that's what she honestly believes. I can still get up out of bed and function like a normal human being, but it's just hard. I have plenty to look forward to in life, but it's hard. I'm...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 77 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Broken, us less, alone,

    clueless,confused, betrayed, on the verge of tears, anxious, about to break down, depressed, pathetic, going to give up, bitter,lonely, angry, rejected, fell like I am about to fall apart at any moment, crushed, not good enough,empty and defeated.....pretty much sums up how I am...
    angelheelz angelheelz 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Fighting Depression On Daily Basis

    Keep up !!! Move some energy around!!! Live style!!!   I was born depressed. I didn't knew that in the beginning, but there was always something. Today, I know I wasn't so happy then. I used to think that I am but I was not. I was living in my own world alone - detached and...
    Bolek Bolek 41-45, M 9 Responses May 24, 2012

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    I went on a website today

    where they test you to check for any mental illnesses and in the results they told me I had several problems and to go see a therapist for better and professional tests or whatever. The thought of having a mental illness really scares me.
    Kimberlynnn Kimberlynnn 13-15, F 1 Response 49 mins ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 21 Responses Jun 16

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27

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    The depression is overwhelming lately.

    Somedays I have no motivation to go on anymore. I'm miserable at my job but most of all I have gone through the worst heartbreak of my life. 2.5 years of abuse and pain. Lying, cheating & finally discarding me like garbage. Moving out of state this weekend with a girl he met 3...
    josiekl josiekl 41-45, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    I'm trying really hard not to kill myself right

    now. I'm such a wimp. I've taken 4 extra strength pain relievers so I can just hopefully sleep. I was gonna take 8 bc on the back it said not to but I'm just so scared. Idk no way to fix how I'm feeling ever.
    allie887 allie887 16-17, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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