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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 66,421 People

    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 33 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Feeling saddd having a bad day:( Someone to

    talk to would be lovely :)
    FindingNirvanaa FindingNirvanaa 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    So people are always asking me

    why I'm depressed. I usually give pretty broad answers. But now I want to answer for real. When I started middle school I started hating the way I looked. I thought I was fat because my thighs touched and I wasn't a size two. I was anorexic for a period of two years. During...
    Ashleyyyb Ashleyyyb 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    The urge is so strong to cut,

    oh gosh. 6 months clean and I'm worried it won't last much longer..
    aapache aapache 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    So my dad started hitting me with some cord

    half an hour ago, i was trying to kick him- but it didnt really do anything (i was still getting hit) anyways he dropped his phone And i tried to break it- the screen did not crack, so i took a knife and scratched up the sim card
    Nottobeohsoblunt Nottobeohsoblunt 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I'm 50 years old i'm the product of rape I've

    been dealing with that knowledge of that for about 25 years. The only time I'm happy is when I'm helping others. I suffer from depression and suicidal tendencies I feel like giving up.
    martin812 martin812 46-50, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    happycupcake happycupcake 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Some days aren't as bad

    as others, but I find myself so down when I feel like I can't provide for myself and I'm just a burden to my boyfriend that I live with. I'm stuck in bed after calling into work, because the idea of being around people is utterly paralyzing. I sometimes feel as though people...
    aliiceblue aliiceblue 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Ugh. I am so fed up with everything right now.

    I want to cut. Or jump off a cliff.
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 14 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Silent tears dripping down my face,

    the sadness will not leave me, I try to will it away but to no avail, my mind is in a dark forest with no direction, I am lost.
    Dixiechic66 Dixiechic66 46-50, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I just found out that I m high senestivity

    and its so burden having it and I would love to chat w people who have this same thing so I can learn on to get better
    Beautifulnature Beautifulnature 51-55, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    " I wish I could show you

    when you are lonely or in the darkness, the astonishing light of your own being"
    Mischief8 Mischief8 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I wanna feel better, I wanna let it all out

    every hurt, every pain. Everything I think even if it's wrong just get off my chest. Because it's like a heavy rock sitting on my chest. Somethings I just got let go. The hate I have for my parents. The way they did me wrong. But I know I did wrong to them as well. The hurt...
    kcauley kcauley 18-21, F 20 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Depression. My heart,

    my mind, my soul...suffocating as walls slowly close in around me. Slivers of light seem so distant. Harsh wind pushes the light further away. It's cold, desolate. Empty.
    ttbridge ttbridge 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    I've tried so hard; but it's just getting

    so much worse. I just need I don't know. I'm alone& im just broken.
    AnonMily AnonMily 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    You know that feeling

    when nothings wrong but nothing's really right either
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I had a good day today:)

    even though bad stuff happened, somehow I managed to separate myslef from it and just enjoy the ride. it was nice after such a ****** week
    procats procats 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    honestly I've been suffering in silence

    for 4 years. all I want is someone to talk to all the time. loneliness is said to be the worst feeling in the world and its my best friend.
    noriebby noriebby 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Currently my life is just me waiting

    for the next moment I'll try to kill myself. I just want to feel happy again and not worry about everything and just not be such a ****** person in general.
    monstersinsideyourhead monstersinsideyourhead 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Sometimes we never realise

    that close friends can be so two-faced.
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 7 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I just don't want to wake up tomorrow.

    I just want to die, and it won't matter one bit! And it bothers me. I don't know if I feel depressed now because I broke up with my ex or I really am a sadist. But I broke up a long time ago. It should not matter anymore. Anything I do or did will go unnoticed. And it bothers...
    im1whoknocks im1whoknocks 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    i'm so tired of this heavy gloomy feeling all

    day everyday ,,i don't choose to be like this , i feel like i'm under some kind of spell and i can't get rid of this dark cloud over my head i don't see a point in living or doing anything when we're all destined to die i see no joy in life all i see is suffering and things...
    AndeleAndele AndeleAndele 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I had a terrible breakdown last night

    because I ate after I said I would kill myself if I ever ate again, it wasn't a good night so I've taken the day off of college. All of done is lay in my bed starring at the wall. My mum has come in a few times and I've just yelled at her. I think I might just not speak to...
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic 18-21, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Mittensss Mittensss 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Self Reflections My skin is not a tough armor,

    its too thin and easily broken. The air i am inhaling is attenuating with each gasp for breath. My shins are quivering and small hairline fractures litter their outer most layers from too many end of my ropes falls to my knees. The heart that beats within my rib cage is tattered...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    AlphaBloodMoon AlphaBloodMoon 13-15, F 7 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I'm shy, I'm in 10th grade in school.

    I have only one really good friend who pretends not to be my best friend on public! And it's so difficult for me to make new friends. On school breaks I seat alone , and my classmates speak to me only if they need helping with a task or something like that. They are good...
    TheDarkestNight TheDarkestNight 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My sons birthday is tomorrow

    yet I am extremely depressed. Why?????
    pg2000 pg2000 41-45, M 2 days ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.