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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,159 People

    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Jealousy is so ugly, I hate it.

    It consumes me...turns from despair into rage; but all of the rage is directed inward, at myself. Failed opportunities, too scared to try new things, blah blah blah. I can fix all of this, but I'm just so tired. I have no drive to fix it, no want. So I stew...I hurt myself....I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    the train runs through town in the next hour

    and a half..I want to just lay on those tracks . everyone I love , is gone..I see no way out..no hope, no future..I know I cant be free, ever..the question is, do I want to stick around and still try?..or disspapoint everybody, but mke myself happy?.
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    What I wouldn't give

    for a cigarette and the courage to drive to the edge of town. Listen to music, look at the stars, maybe even have someone to talk to. I hate how much I've killed of myself.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I'm 14 years old... Young,

    right? Well... I found out I have depression when I was 12. I tried suicide. I failed. I want to do this again. People think I'm just a dramatic person. I wish they were right.
    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 4 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Today the monsters are loud.

    Not the ones hiding under my bed or lurking in my closet; for those are simply the figment of fairy tales. No the monsters whose screams threaten to dismantle my sanity live in my mind. If you were to crack open my scull, within you would find the most hideous terrifying demons...
    Greyeyess Greyeyess 18-21 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was messaging about this with someone,

    but I think this is too important to not share: I have the kind of depression where people ask "what do you have to be depressed about? You have a good husband, wonderful kids, a great house, a good job." And this question would make sense if depression were logical and...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I wish I could go back in time

    and tell my 13-21 years old self that everything is going to be ok, don't give up, it's for sure going to be better. You know, back then there's no such thing as EP, Facebook or any site or community you can just log on to talk to or to vent. I remember I was really thinking of...
    Tealismyname Tealismyname 26-30 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Lets face it, transsexuals like me are nothing

    but a burden to society. I thought about killing myself, but that would only be more of a burden on the family who has to pay for the funeral. I'm going to live as a female. I'll stop stressing people out with all this lgbt stuff. I'll stop being a burden.
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I wasn't trying to kill myself,

    I was trying to kill the pain. But if in the process that kills me too, than I guess I wouldn't mind as long as the pain stops.
    crey97zy crey97zy 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I try so hard to be good.

    I know inside I'm a good person. So when I snap at my mom or think negative thoughts about stupid drivers on the road it really upsets me. I don't know why most of the time I'm good and then I go and think something mean. I'm a loving person. I don't want to have those thoughts...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    how do you overcome depression

    and stuffs? can someone please share with me their story and tell me how to overcome it? :)
    uglyskull uglyskull 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have been overwhelmed with stress,

    fatigue snd severe depression. The girl i am in love with, the one who is my best friend and i can talk to about everything dropped me like i was nothing. My parents continuously think I'm a disappointment. I have no friends, not a single person to talk to anymore. I tried a...
    wspd1993 wspd1993 18-21, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    No,I don't have suicidal thoughts.

    I have suicide plans,they are not the same!
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I don't get how people can fake depression.

    . Like how and why would you want to feel like this.. People are the worstttt😣
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    The loneliness is the hardest thing.

    I only have a few friends, and the ones I do have are getting sick of my complaining all the time. I don't blame them. I just can't cope with this alone. When I am alone I just cry and think about killing myself. I wonder what it is like being a happy, well-adjusted person who...
    macron macron 26-30, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Oh look my mother is home again in a bad mood

    and can't keep it to herself so she overreacts to anything me and my sister do and fights begin. I could have a perfect day and still expect there to be fighting in my home. I can't believe I'm going to say this but : I'd rather be at my fathers getting beat than being here...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 36 mins ago

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    My depression has never gotten

    so bad that it has sent me to the hospital. I am not someone who likes attention. It's embarrassing that I get depressed and I don't like talking about it. That being said, a tiny part of me sometimes wishes it would just go ahead and get so bad that someone would notice...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I've had bad depression

    since high school. I love drawing and always wanted to be an artist since I was in kindergarten, until my junior year when my art teacher made me redo everything and hated all of my work. I was bullied verbally by being kicked out of my lunch table for being "too stupid" to sit...
    justjane2000 justjane2000 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I went to the doctor's today.

    I cried a lot. I'm sick of crying. It's not very manly, is it? That's probably why no women want anything to do with me. I am not much of man. How does one even become a man? "Just be confident", they say, but I have never been good at faking it 'til I make it. I'm too honest. I...
    macron macron 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    there's darkness in my mind,

    it's swallowing my thoughts and only a huge black abyss remains, i feel like everything collapse, i feel like there's nothing left for me, there's nothing left to say, nothing left to do, it's dark, i wish i could cry, at least this is something that could save me from this...
    leuconoe leuconoe 31-35, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Some people are meant to lose this battle.

    They can not fight forever. They are tired of always pretending to be happy, tired of always being hurt, tired of the pain they feel inside. So they just give up. I think I'm one of them. I don't know when this is going to come to an end..maybe sooner than I thought. But all I...
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 15 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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