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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,075 People

    Today my depression got 10x worse.

    Lost 2 people I care about most and everything is just going down hill for me...
    Okayokay18 Okayokay18 16-17, F 4 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    bdeavera bdeavera 13-15, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    It seems, that my life is only made of vague

    anxiety's, that are never truly resolved. Whenever I overcome an obstacle, outwit an opponent and achieve what I want to achieve; another obstacle comes ten times more fierce than the last, an enemy twenty times more brilliant comes a long and an achievement thirty times more...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Keeping busy is the best cure,

    but now after a month into my new job I feel it creeping on top of me again. It's like this my shoulders are getting heavier again.
    JJ2961 JJ2961 18-21, M 6 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I'm 31 years old and have battled with

    depression for as long as I can remember. I have thought about suicide almost every day although never actually tried. I expected my life to be so different by this age I'm not married although was in a unhealthy relationship for 8 years and now have a 5 year old. Although my ex...
    xxangeleyes81xx xxangeleyes81xx 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Do you ever see the triggers coming at you full

    steam but you just don't have the energy to fight them?
    pollyprozac pollyprozac 41-45, F 4 hrs ago

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    My friend said that I used him.

    When I feel down because of my depression, I text a few friends, and they try to help me, try to listen what happened. When I feel not bad, I don't text my friends, don't reply when I get a text. Sometimes I do reply but very slow. That's why most of my friends left me. I just...
    Kayu96 Kayu96 31-35, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    As it gets later, my thoughts get darker ,

    the house gets quieter, my thoughts are now louder, I see a flash, I hear a whine , A tear I shed from my eye, I look at my dog, he is warning me now, he looks at me and sits on my lap, your service dog watching you is not all that good, sitting on your lap now thats a real...
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    Recently, I've been experiencing a foreign

    feeling occasionally. I don't even know how to describe it, but it's as though I'm all warm inside. As though I'm ok, and that ok-ness isn't just a mask. As though I know things will get better. I think I'm finally experiencing true happiness, properly, for the first time in 3...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Coming up on 30 I am not at all

    where I expected to be. I wanted a career. A husband. A house. Instead I left my job a year ago to pursue opening my own coffeehouse that's taking forever to build and every last penny I have. A boyfriend 6 years younger who isn't established yet. And a basement apartment that's...
    megz327 megz327 26-30, F 11 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I try my best every day not to try to end my

    life just to please others who want me to, its really hard,
    ricardo112 ricardo112 16-17, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    So responsibility is knocking not literally at

    my door. I know I have sh-- to do but, I just want to curl up and stare at the computer watching and reading about normal people doing things I envy like working and buying food. I get $740-ish total a month in disability, but it's really not enough to get by. I dont even want...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 25 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's not a battle that just ends

    after a few weeks. Just when you think you're over it, something happens and you are back to feeling empty. The only thing that kept me going through all of it was realising that there are other people with worse problems than me. I was excluded, but that time alone allowed me...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    hey guys! I just created a music page on

    facebook under "betty" musician/band and I'm looking to get a few more likes :) my first video is a song I wrote about depression.
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 18-21, F 45 mins ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Anika1258 Anika1258 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I still battle depression

    but the road to recovery is so much quicker once you learn to love yourself!!
    Lucyshrimp Lucyshrimp 22-25, F 6 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    When my depression really kicks in I can't

    concetrate enough to read or watch t.v. Sometimes music will help, but for me I make myself get up and go outside. The sun the wind the birds and the sky they all seem to help to recharge me, and while my depression is still there it's no longer a raging beast I can't control.
    nobody54 nobody54 56-60, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    How long will it be so gloomy

    and dark and cold out there? It rained ice today. It is much harder to overcome depression when it is raining ice. I'd just like some sunshine and warmth - is that too much to ask?
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't wish I were dead,

    but some time off being alive would be nice.
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I used to take drugs

    and when I lost my apartment 3 months before I was able to move, I prostituted for a place to stay. And for food.
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I struggle with suicide thoughts every time I

    pick up a plastic bag. Every time I bathe and every time I pick up a knife.
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I'm not having a very good day.

    . I'm lonely and it makes it impossible to shut up.. So I message people to the point where it's unreasonable.. Then I get frustrated with myself because I can't stop. My mind is restless and my body is tired.. I just want to be someone who doesn't need to be pitied.. It makes me...
    Holdontothefire Holdontothefire 18-21, M 23 hrs ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I want to get better,

    I need to get better but those things don't matter unless I'm trying to get better. I need to get better for myself and for the people I care about . It's hard .. It really is hard but I'm trying. I thought I'd never get out of it and I was scared . Though now I'm working...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    Why would you think that telling me "just be

    happy" would just make it go away? I can tell a broken vase to "just be a vase again" but guess what? It's still broken glass. I can't say I'm suicidal anymore but I sure do have my share of suicidal ideations. I'm still trying to figure out why I'm this way and how it's so hard...
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    My depression is always constant.

    It's like a humming. Most days I can get by without it sounding too loud. Other days, it's deafening. Either way, it's always there. Sometimes, it feels like my only friend because it's reliable. I've lived with it for so long that the thought of my life without it scares me. At...
    Nero82 Nero82 31-35, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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