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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,638 People

    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I feel like an animal.

    not human. something is tearing at my bones and ripping at my soul all the time. I can't sit still. ever. it's clawing at my skin. begging to be released. pain. deep inside my core. it's draining every bit of energy I ever had in me. it tires me. I get so exhausted. I just want...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today I decided to change the way I deal with

    depression. I know I have to struggle with it for the rest of my life. It will always be there. Its part of who I am, and Im okay with it. I have never thought I could say that. I'm still scared of what the future might bring but I know I will make it. I don't know how, but I...
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    I struggle with SAD, Seasonal Affective

    Disorder, otherwise known as Summer Blues. It's hard to see the weather warm up, I can't help but start to feel more depressed and hide deeper in my bedroom. I can't be the only one who depresses over the summer heat...
    Breakingkal Breakingkal 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I've been battling depression

    since I was like 14. I've been off and on different pills and can't seem to find one that works well for me. I don't have any one to turn to about it. No one knows I deal with it except for my mom. And she tells me how tired she is of my depression and that she doesn't deserve...
    JustDevy JustDevy 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hello and Good morning,

    afternoon or evening (where ever you're located) I would just like to spread some positive energy to each and every one of you today. I hope you all have a good day! Enjoy it!
    BlackBuddafly88 BlackBuddafly88 26-30, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I know that depression is a hard battle to

    fight all the time, I live that way myself, but once in a while I try hard to shine for you. Here is a little something for your heart. love you. "EVERYDAY" Everyday I see your smile, It makes me want to smile. Everyday I hear your voice, It makes me want to shout, you are my...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I am no longer loved.

    No one wants me now.
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 6 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Today the weak one was nervous

    and scared. But she realized what the problem was. She knew that she could not fight the enemy alone. She thought: I may be weak and nervous, but at least I am smart. So she came up with a foolproof escape plan. She closed herself in the safe place to wait for reason to come to...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Right now I'm just working part time not in

    college yet, but I work a decent amount of hours and cover shifts. I've had some issues getting my drivers license but I'm positive I'll pass next time. I'm 19 and living with my parents but I think they have bad energy (I'm very sensitive and empathetic) my dad is always...
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Would you rather have acne ,

    acne scars , no friends and be overweight? Or non existent? I dont want to exist...
    MyLifee99 MyLifee99 13-15 9 hrs ago

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    It really isn't easy

    for me to open up and share my experience, even more when I know nobody cares. With that said, I'll take a blind chance and post my story online anyway... My life has just reached a dead end. At 19 years old, my life is completely devoided of any meaning, of any fun. Everything...
    Max96 Max96 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 13 Responses Mar 18

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Everyday I remember how miserable I am how

    lonely I'm how unloved I am how I never was taking care of
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    "Everyday we climb that mountain trying to get

    closer to you God, yes we may stumble and yes we may fall, but in the end it is worth it all, just to be closer to you my Lord." Miss Bobbie Jean.
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I was stupid to think I could ever be anything

    without it. my depression defines me. it's all that I'll ever have. all ill ever be. I can't just be happy. it hurts more than being depressed and I know that doesn't make sense but it's true for me.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Ever since I was a little girl I wrote my will,

    feeling like death would take me at any point... And here I am as an adult fighting back those same feelings that never seem to go away. It's so hard to wake up feeling miserable, and being surrounded by friends and family while the only words running through your head are...
    kiwikisses kiwikisses 22-25, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    That moment when your talking to an important

    person and you have a fight And you try to apologize but they just look at your messages and ignore you and you find every which reason to not live and they say they care but in reality it feels like they really don't like every second they are around you it feels like they...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I wish I could go back in time

    and tell everyone that has put so much effort into me to give up because im not worth. that theyre just making it worse. that yes, they made me happy, but it was real happiness. it was just a cover, and even I believed I was happy. but no matter what the depression will lie...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I guess there can be times

    where it is unpleasant to be around. I can leave... Which can give me ideas. Ideas that are unhealthy and have lead to scars.
    marandakate marandakate 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    do not try to save me from

    who I am i will not lose myself again, i am not my sadness, but my sadness is a part of me.
    wordful wordful 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    My pain just rise day

    after day my depression becoming insane I can't bear this loneliness :'( I need support
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Here is other day with pain inside my heart

    wish I could feel less lonely and depressed..
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses