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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,681 People

    merry christmas guys !

    ! I hope you all have a great day. For some reason I can't get myself out of a depressive mood. It doesn't feel like christmas. my 'incident' started during Christmas time. It's ten times less enjoyable. I've gained two pounds, I was at dinner with my family, went into my nanas...
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Some time during the 6th

    or 7th grade.. I started getting depression, and it only grew even stronger since it was left untreated and things got worse in my life.. so now I'm failing school and close to being a high school drop out if i don't turn things around and get it under control but if there is...
    myownconsultant myownconsultant 16-17, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    You can have all your family

    and your friends around you to support, but this depression makes you feel so alone nonetheless. What else could you expect? When you have a hole in yourself, a void that can only filled up by you, then you can never truly appreciate or feel the warmth of others, until you...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    jackknifedtruck jackknifedtruck 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    ive lost everything im going to sound

    so selfish. right now im sorry. my husband just drop a bomb on my telling me the only reason he married me is because he thought things would change. iv had CPS involved in my life. They took my children away but the good note of that they are with family well my husband...
    oni2013 oni2013 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    If you were suicidal at all this year,

    or any year I'm the past and you are still alive right now for the holdays... I'd like to say I'm very proud that you have made it this far. It takes a lot of f***ing courage to last through the holidays. You are so strong and you can make it through 2015. Merry Christmas...
    alicefloe alicefloe 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    God it christmas and all i wana do is kill

    myself i got enuf alcohol to do it :/
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F 10 Responses 1 day ago

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    Haven't celebrated a family holiday

    since my folks divorced. Been on my own since I was 12 living with a single mother who works too damn hard and is always gone. Family holidays are never happy for me. They just remind me of everything I don't have. I don't care about presents or money. I just want to feel like a...
    ManyRegrets ManyRegrets 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I can't kill myself. Why?

    I don't care what good is in store for me if any. I just want to die.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I guess it's just mild

    and barely there but it's still there... :/ I've self harmed and I have negative thoughts a lot and some days just feel like I have 0% energy but I fight it! I already have anxiety, ocd and some ptsd tendencies, I don't need another problem no thanks
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    food taste bland to me.

    Kit Kat tasted bitter at the end on my throat, does that what chocolate taste like ? I keep on eating my lamb chop, it didnt taste delicious as i thought it will be though my mom said it taste wonderful. I recognised bitter and sour as I was sipping my lemon tea but thats all...
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Even Chirstmas becomes nothing

    but a bitter holiday when this feeling won't go away. Why the hell do you expect me to enjoy the colourful lights and presents when all I can see is black and white around me? For you to feel good? Fine. Of course! I want all of you happy. But leave me alone and don't push the...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    So in a few weeks I start my new college

    classes (I'm in a program called early college so I take both high school classes and college classes at the same time). One of them is a yoga class that I'm hoping will help me with my depression. I got my yoga matt today and I'm really excited to start the class. I just hope...
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 32 mins ago

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    is depression is just a fancy term?

    what am i doing to my life?
    conf19 conf19 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    Today was Boxing Day,

    and I went with my mother and younger brother to visit my uncle and aunt and a few of their friends. As predicted, it was awful. I was surrounded by loud, obnoxious and overly opinionated people. By overly opinionated I mean the strength and volume of a person's opinion greatly...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    If anyone in this group feels lonely

    and friendless, you can message me. I know how depression feels. I still battle it myself. Today, in quick succession, I felt sad, angry, defeated and invisible. Depression is a terrible illness and nobody should have to go it alone.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 9 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hope you all got through today.

    My day was probably not the Christmas I wanted because I am missing my boy. But I'm thankful to know that he is being looked after, he will be home soon and that although I didn't get the Xmas I wanted, I have a roof over my head, I'm warm, I've eaten good food and I spent the...
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I don't know what's wrong with me.

    .. I just spent Christmas Day in a terrible state of mind. Everything that happened, every word that came out of someone's mouth seemed so forced and over used. I found myself just wandering around, not doing anything in particular. I feel like ****. I don't want to be around...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    holdontilmay holdontilmay 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    A year ago, I had fresh cuts on my thighs,

    belly, and arm. A year ago, I felt like a puppet on strings controlled by an empty void. A year ago, I couldn't do anything without thinking about ending it all; I couldn't catch the train without wanting to jump in front of it, I couldn't sharpen a pencil without thinking about...
    BringMePierceTheSirensAtSix BringMePierceTheSirensAtSix 13-15, F 6 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm done with depression!

    I sick of it controlling my life. I'm sick of myself crawling into a ball after something horrible happens. I'm sick of screaming, hitting, and throwing things around to fell better. I am done. you will not control my life.
    jellyrolls34 jellyrolls34 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm mad and sad because I've been working at a

    court house and going to law school and every time I get my paycheck (I get payed 3,000) a month and when I look at my account I only have $500 and that doesn't cover my bills for my stupid lease on my car and other things and I just found out that my step mom was sending $2,500...
    idkusername123 idkusername123 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Most days I am fine,

    and I focus on my goals and what makes me happy. And others, I find fault in everything. My life is never good enough, and it feels like the world is crashing down on me. Whenever I am bored my mind wanders to dark, dark places. It takes all my energy to snap out of it, if only...
    ManyRegrets ManyRegrets 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I battle depression. I take refuge in

    imagination and humour. I make up my own little stupid imaginary stories and situations and I feel happy when I do that. That makes me think, am I really depressed? Humour is the opposite of sadness. How can I even think of funny things when I feel so empty inside and lock...
    thewanderess thewanderess 31-35, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Being alone is scary

    when you have crazy loud thoughts in your head that cannot be stop.
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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