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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,756 People

    Death sometimes feels like the only way out of

    a bad situation. Depression/mental illness in general is like being trapped in a elevator lined with mirrors. You can only see yourself and your situation. It seems there is no way out. Yet, there is a way, through medication and/or therapy. It's up to the person to get help...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Sometimes when I get really lonely,

    depressed and thought of suicidal I think about why I haven't killed myself, and the reason is because of my family and they will get sad, but I also think that if they weren't my family they wouldn't like me, so they only like me because I'm family and they are used to me, abd...
    Fenriis Fenriis 18-21, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So tired of feeling so depressed.

    Another day of fighting. when will this end????
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't been down in it

    for this long in a long time. I remember dealing with it as a kid/teenager and just being able to shut down. wall myself in, cry, not eat, write. As an adult living with it, it is quite different. i still have to be present. I have to force myself to get out of bed in the...
    greeneyz83 greeneyz83 31-35, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Sometimes I just start thinking about it

    and can't stop. It's like I'm stuck on a track and there aren't any stops. Whooot whooot! It's the feel-****** train! And I try to distract myself but every single thing I do reminds me. So I start to do even more stuff and maybe then I can make it through the day without...
    RosieJay RosieJay 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I do need real friends

    who care about me, not fair weather friends who are only there when I please them but vanish when I am too depressing. I do need someone to understand that I don’t want to feel this way and would give my eyesight to feel happy again. I do want someone who cares enough to...
    mrsabri mrsabri 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I start panicking when I think of how long I

    have been struggling with the same issues. How come I just can't overcome what has happened to me? Why is living so hard for me? I am so sick of this feeling. It should not be an accomplishment to be happy. Happiness should be self-evident. It makes me angry, as I do not want to...
    larosenoire larosenoire 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ok so i've been doing really good

    for a few months now but somethings worrying me a lot lately. I feel the need for something bad to happen to me - car accident, rape, broken bones etc, preferably something that'll put me in hospital / an institution of some sort. This might sound messed up or whatever but also...
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    There are some days I wake up

    and wonder: what the hell am I doing here? Why would I be given a life, one I know I should be appreciating, when every day is a constant struggle? I feel like I am my own worst enemy. I try to find the good in everything, but can't manage to find the good within myself. I work...
    VioletMerryweather VioletMerryweather 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been having a really rough couple of days.

    Maybe weeks. It's been building up over time. I'm extremely irritable lately. Everything gets on my nerves. I can barely hold a conversation with anyone without snapping at them. I don't know what caused it but I don't like it. I thought I was getting better.
    toni701 toni701 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Just a random thought.

    Correct me if i am wrong. My life is completely fine. But i have the urge to cry. And feeling so depressed! And so sad and trying to remember bad stuff from the past. What happened to me? Is this have anything to do with my hormones? Or the unbalanced chemical in the brain? I...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I hate it. One second I'm fine,

    having the best day and then suddenly I'm just like.... well **** it. I just feel like **** and I can't understand why!
    GrimMindControl GrimMindControl 18-21, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Another day, another dreadful day full of more

    noteworthy news of sorrow. My good friend has now once again started up on drugs.. He was 5 months sober, and yet he threw it all away for a couple of bottles and pills. And now like many teens in this day and age he talks about death, in such a lackadaisical, casual way. If you...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Today I'm depressed why you ask?

    It's important to me may not be to you but to me it is. It all started a few days ago I was listening to the radio and a song came on called top of the world by the carpenters. I heard them all the time at Christmas time so after that I researched. them I found out something...
    sarahhoek sarahhoek 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am to

    announce that I have decided to become a Plexus Ambassador!!! I have jumped in with both feet for two very important reasons: 1) Plexus has a set of products that is CHANGING PEOPLE’S LIVES and I wanted to be a part of that! I've stood by and watched many of my friends gain...
    PlexusSlimChick PlexusSlimChick 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    I've stayed up all night cause my head hurts

    from stressing so much, the last few days I haven't been on here, I'm sorry if you've messaged me and I haven't answered. I've just been going through a lot lately and honestly it's taking every ounce of strength not to hurt myself. I honestly just want to die right now.
    Danewinter95 Danewinter95 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Confusion in my head.

    .. Hatred in my words and actions... Depression in my heart... Numbness in my body... I didn't ask for this.... Does somebody want it? I can't handle it anymore... But.... I'm fine 😊
    Saphhy195 Saphhy195 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I'm really depressed

    and thinking of leaving EP and my family
    equusrider equusrider 56-60, M 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 19 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I've never really done physical self harm

    but I often get an irresistible urge to test or end friendships which I sometimes think of as a form of self harm. Recently I blocked most of my current Internet friends because it was too painful to be constantly reminded that they were avoiding me/keeping their distance. I've...
    iacob iacob 26-30, T 6 hrs ago

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    i miss my ep friend jo5h me

    and hin used to be best friend intil he blocked me
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Today I feel as if the burden of negativity

    and tiredness has lifted. I do not know what is different about today, but I am definitely better, much better.
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Every day is a battle

    and it feels like a rollercoaster with all of the ups and downs, twists and turns. Fortunately enough, lately I've been at the top of the hill. It's been easier to deal with than usual. I've been happy lately which is cool. Haven't hurt myself in 18 days which is okay I guess. I...
    PiecesOfPeace PiecesOfPeace 18-21, F 7 Responses 8 hrs ago

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