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I Battle Depression

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    I want to stop taking my meds.

    They don't help...I've been on them since 2011. I've become lazy and increasingly lethargic from my depression lately and I have been taking them infrequently anyway. I feel like prescribing medications for people with depression (or manic depression in my case) is such a...
    thedokken thedokken 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 35 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 30 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    So the medicine I take

    that is supposed to make me not feel sad and suicidal and yadda yadda but first they started me with 25mg and it wasn't working so then they upped it to 50mg and them 75mg and now it's at 100mg But I still feel really sad and the past like 3 nights in a row I had dreams about...
    Heavenseemssofaraway Heavenseemssofaraway 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I want to sum up what I have learnt about

    life:1. There is no purpose for life 2. Things will get worse eventually, accept things as they are3. Don't hold hope on anyone 4. when you are in good times, you have friends
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression:The Misunderstood Illness

    uhhhhhhhh i dont really have a story haha but ill try im 26 and i feel like im 90 i feel like ive lived too long up until the fall of 2002 i was pretty happy and social and was picked on quite a bit in high school and never stood up for myself really i was a punching bag and a...
    bv1986 bv1986 26-30, M 35 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    I lost my best friend last March.

    She passed away because of cirrhosis of the liver. No one wants to talk about her. I play her home movies so I can hear her voice and see her. When I text her done and x husband, they don't respond. My whole future was to retire and move closer to her. Now I feel so alone. I use...
    ldlbell ldlbell 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Although I'm not working through my own

    problems too well, I found a page that gives some positive reinforcement for those willing to accept it. http://www.marcandangel.com/2012/04/09/11-ways-to-become-the-person-you-love/
    Holdontothefire Holdontothefire 18-21, M 22 hrs ago

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    Mike069 Mike069 22-25, M 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I've had a few really tough days.

    I've felt so unbelievably low. I feel like I'm falling deeper and deeper. The pain in my chest is crippling. Worst of all I can't pinpoint why. It just is. I don't know what I would do without some of my EP friends who have tried to keep me above water. I'm still trying to fight...
    rural84 rural84 26-30, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Even Though You Feel Broken.

    .. Just Open up your broken heart and keep on wanting. Dont close it and lock it. To get love... you need to open your heart. So Remember Keep opening up your heart and keep on wanting!!
    MrMovingOn MrMovingOn 13-15, M 9 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    my whole depression is about how I look.

    I wish I could be someone else. I wish I could be pretty lighskinned and have boobs and a nice butt. it seems like everygirl has this but me. im just a dark ugly lanky girl that no guys that I like like me because they want a lightskin girl. ugh I hate the way I look.
    horridlife horridlife 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    The hardest part is that you can't talk about

    your darkest thoughts to anyone without them feeling like you are about to slice your wrists. i tried talking to my best friend of ten years about it and she went off the deep end- what about my wedding? what about this, what about that? I was immediately incensed that she...
    Maritmus Maritmus 31-35, F 7 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    I always remind my self

    that Dying is easy, Dying is Paradise... But to think about the people I hate will keep living, and do the things they do, and they would be Glad that I'm Gone, ( not to mention they're the reason why I'm So Depresses that I want to Kill my self ) I realized that, that is...
    DarkSkySt36 DarkSkySt36 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I sometimes think that pills would really help

    me. But I don't know how to get them. I remember a few years back, a friend gave me a zanax and it didn't affect me like everyone explained it. I felt normal. I didn't feel anxiety anymore. I didn't feel like the whole world was dropping on my shoulders. I remember when I tried...
    saramatt127 saramatt127 18-21, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 26-30, F 16 Responses May 27

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    I am sorry that I have not written anything

    lately, but I have been dealing with the Home Care place and with my nurse about my new wheel chair, that I got the orders from my doctor last Tuesday and I still have not gotten it yet. And I am still dealing with the law about my case since the 4th and they still have not...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I'm tired of having these nights

    where I'm really suicidal.. I know I'd never do it anything. But I can't handle it anymore.
    Theyma Theyma 18-21, M 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    To try to make myself go to work tomorrow I

    make the following pros and cons list for my job: Cons: 1. disgusting people. I will always remember how they gossiped about me, how they scolded me like a handicapped, how it was like when no one helped even when you asked...when i first arrived here and was not familiar with...
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I have reached a new level I'm

    either numb or in pain... This past March I almost successfully took my own life. After I got out of the hospital I really tried to get this right again... But after slowly losing everything that truly mattered to me (which to be fair wasn't much but were certainly big none the...
    LilyLove1987 LilyLove1987 26-30, F 8 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    It feels like you can't talk to anyone about

    feeling hopeless because they automatically presume you're suicidal
    kiinnn kiinnn 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I've had a weekend of being down on myself a

    lot. and now it's Monday and it's like i'm in a funk or whatever and I can't get out of it. any suggestions?
    EFairy EFairy 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Is it really even worth it?

    I mean seriously? I always feel so shut off from the world. Here I am, this awkward husk just floating by in the wind. I watch the world go by every single day, hoping for it to change. Despite all of my best efforts, I continue to fail to see the beauty in any of it. Nothing...
    BigBlittleb123 BigBlittleb123 16-17, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I just wish I was dead.

    I get so sad and cry a lot for hours. I've had depression since I was a kid. It won't go away. Tried meds. Therapy. Begged God to heal me. I feel alone. I just want the pain to stop. I want to be normal.
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    **** life right about now.

    so close to cutting 😔
    s123a123d123 s123a123d123 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    Did You Hurt Yourself?

                Someone has told me. " When you were harmed, I recommend you try….Try to pick a stone and Carry it and squeeze It! Squeeze it! Squeeze it tightly!  And then he smiled and asked me " is it hurt? "             Nothing can harm you, except you harm...
    FreakTurtle FreakTurtle 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    I have anxiety. I was diagnosed with dysthymia

    when I was fifteen. I'll be twenty five next month. My emotions hold me back. Sometimes I feel like my brain has prison bars inside of it. I get deep dark and depressed. When I'm not in my depressed fuzzy head I am happy I see color and beauty in life and in nature. I love being...
    Mg89 Mg89 22-25, F 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    And it seems like I'm not the only one today.

    .. Folks read my story as I have read some of yours. Most of you still have a chance to come around while others are sitting in the same chair as me. With that said, if you know of a way to exit this world, than please share, if you wish to partner up to find an at to walk away...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I'm so tired of my therapist telling me about

    how my suicide would affect my family. Why is it always about them? Why do I constantly have to put everyone else's needs and wants before my own? Can't they understand how miserable I am and how much better it would be for me to be gone?
    heartempty heartempty 41-45, F 13 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    I like to call my depression 'silent'

    depression. No one around me know I'm depressed because i try not to show it. I was not like this until last year after my ex left me. I do let my emotions out, but in places where no one sees me so they either dont feel sorry for me or tell me to stop feeling sorry for myself.
    redphoenix02 redphoenix02 22-25, F 6 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Depression makes me sad

    and aggravated its comes from stupid people or a battle with myself from not doing the right thing and when I'm depressed I tend to wat until the pain goes away
    Crazybunny101 Crazybunny101 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    JoannaBe JoannaBe 36-40, F 17 Responses Mar 18

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    I've been struggling with depression

    since I lost my grandfather/best friend. I was around 4 at the time. Since then I was never the same person. I had a lot of outbursts of different emotions. Now lets fast forward 10 years. I was 14 and was sent off to live with my grandparents because I hadn't been getting along...
    magicalpotato96 magicalpotato96 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

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    summerbeams summerbeams 18-21, F 30 Responses Jun 12

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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