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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,367 People

    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    anon2254 anon2254 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm having one of those moments

    where one single issue just sent me back down to "the low mood". When this hits it's nearly impossible not to fall into a depressed sleep. Staying awake is hard when I feel like this and honestly, I don't see a point in staying awake in the first place.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Recently I have been feeling very overwhelmed

    and flooded with sadness and despair. If these feelings temporarily leave me, they return soon after. Does anyone else get this and how do you deal with it?
    libertinette libertinette 22-25, F 4 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I used to think I could get past this

    and be happy. Though lately I've been depressed to the point I can not function. It's too hard. People can't just say I'm giving up, because that would require having something worth fighting for
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    When youre just too damn depressed

    for the moment and hurt because of people whom you trusted with your life would just keep hurting you so youd just try to aleep while listening to Linkin Park and Breaking Benjamin on max volume because just **** it.. Things will always be like that forever so why even try to...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    i cant do anything right.

    my whole life i have not been able to gain weight or absorb fat in my body. ive been bullied so much thats my life. i hate how i look. im a stick. and i can never get a boyfriend. and im 21. i ruined the only thing i had which was my beautiful face two years ago because i didnt...
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 4 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    In a really good mood today.

    But isn't it sad how i genuinely can't remember the last time i felt like this
    Ottway23 Ottway23 22-25 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I am 13 years old, 8 of my best friends have

    died due to Leukima, Suicide Attempts and A car crash and being ran over πŸ˜” I have self harmed since I was about 7 years old. I had to go to councelling and I hate myself and my whole life is confusing πŸ˜ͺ
    EmRiddell EmRiddell 13-15, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I won round one. Looks like this match is going

    to be best of three though, except I can only lose once.
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    These last few months,

    I've noticed something. I'm not as sad as I used to be, and I think it's because I've found new things that help cope with it. One thing I found very, very helpful was simply listening to some spoken word poetry while going on a walk. (my favorite poem is The Nutritionist by...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I really can't deal when any judgements

    and my life is hard. I just want to have my story heard. I have gotten raped more then once, I've went to the cops about two of them and went to court the first one was not guilty said the jury so I dropped the second one so I didn't have to go through that pain again. I got...
    ashleyc3164 ashleyc3164 13-15, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Lately I've been seeing a lot of things saying

    that people who are really depressed hide behind a smile and try to make everyone else happy cause they don't want them to feel that way...and that that's why suicide is always surprising...but I don't think that's always how it is, sure it could play out that way but I've been...
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    There is no emotion linked to this feeling.

    There is no sadness. There is no bad feeling. It is just way to ******* hard. I am on a different wavelength to everyone else, one on which the same life is not worth living. I just need to stop my head buzzing. Feeling sad would be a huge relief, crying would be amazing. How is...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 19 hrs ago

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    This post goes out to anybody

    who ever feels so depressed they can no longer go on in this world. You are beautiful, your life is beautiful, this world is beautiful. You have so much to experience! Your life has JUST begun and it's way to precious to just throw it away over annoying teenage stressors (or...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I went to the gym today,

    it felt good for a few minutes now Im back to my normal self,I cant concentrate on studies
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 22 hrs ago

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    Todays positives were hard.

    Even though me has many. May lose truck and freedom due to liars. Making reports and laws.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel like three people in one.

    I always think in a feminine voice, and I have three alter-egos or personas. My main self is the calm, shy, INFJ type, but is very insecure and can't take much violence at all, but he's hurt, anxious, gentle, kind, yet intuitive. My second self is my feminine aspect, she...
    Lovelife090994 Lovelife090994 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I was talking online

    and I was saying good night when I got a comment "you're pretty and perfect, goodnight c:" 10 mins afterwards I found myself in the shower crying about it because I haven't been called pretty, perfect or even complimented in a very, very long time. πŸ˜”
    thegirlinred thegirlinred 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Sometimes a have a tough time reassuring

    that I belong with my friends, family, or even at home. An weird despair. Have a tough time fighting it and would love for someone to talk to. This isn't just about me, but you too, so don't be afraid to share your experiences too:)
    calBLAZER11 calBLAZER11 61-65, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    The scariest part for me is how much I've

    normalised taking medication for my depression. I keep thinking that it's just a chemical imbalance and refuse to acknowledge everything that is hurting me right now.
    drekarbouch drekarbouch 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    So I have been on Pristiq

    for about a week now. I have found that it has numbed my emotions. I found out today that my workplace is closing down. I will have to find a new job. I should be really upset, right? I feel worried and scared, of course, but I am not in tears. I am not sure whether it is a...
    macron macron 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    i'm trying to find someone to talk to about my

    depression i hate feeling like this i'd just like someone to talk to
    ledsteven95 ledsteven95 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    What do you feel when in this state?

    My co-worker/really good friend, revealed to me she suffers from depression today. She just came back from a 2 month leave. She was also diagnosed with bipolar. She also revealed to me, that about two years ago, she cut her wrists. I had no idea she was quietly suffering. I love...
    shegi20 shegi20 26-30, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I hate seeing happy, loving couples,

    I get sad and bitter everytime and I just wish I could have what they have.
    Margarott Margarott 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Numbness is the only thing

    that I feel as of lately. My wrist wants a nice cold blade against it. It's begging to be cut. My eyes feel as if they want to cry but my mind and body doesn't understand the feeling. Broken is all I am an all I'll ever be.
    Haixiu Haixiu 22-25, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I wanted to post this picture

    and write my soul down to deal with my pain but I can't even describe how bad I feel right now.
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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