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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 32 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 22-25, F 11 Responses Mar 13, 2015

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    What a week? Emotionally exhausting.

    5 hours of sleep for 2 days. Crying from 3-5:00 am. Finding myself and every very abnormal. On bed 23/7 . Bored . Thinking. Why is this happening? I really feel like Killing myself right now. I wanna die. Don't wanna live no more. Pls. make it stop.
    CallMeBuddy CallMeBuddy 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    IamNicolle IamNicolle 22-25, F 21 hrs ago

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    I have noticed a positive incline in my

    positivity in my posts lately. Which may mean I'm going to crash soon or it may mean I'm just generally happier. Not that my outlook on anything changed...Just less focused on it I suppose.
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 15 hrs ago

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    I've been having suicidal thoughts ever

    since I was twelve, and have been self-harming ever since I was seventeen. And today has been a pretty bad day in terms of suicidal thoughts...
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I have finally accepted I'm going to kill

    myself. Now it's just a matter of when.
    CynicalHippie CynicalHippie 18-21, M 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 24 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Last night I took a hot shower

    while silently crying. Knowing that my tears blend in with water. I remember the feeling I felt in that moment. It was all but heartache pain. Thinking why do I have to go through this!? Not knowing the cause to this.. This depression is killing me and I cannot take it. But then...
    Shxxxooo Shxxxooo 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was actually professionally diagnosed with

    depression about a week or two ago after a rough patch in my life started to get the better of me. The NHS service in the UK is free which I am so grateful for, but the only issue is that I have now got to wait god knows how long for any form of therapy/counselling, as there is...
    longdarkhair longdarkhair 18-21, F 17 hrs ago

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    I feel depressed again.

    Some days I feel good and energetic, other days I feel down and just don't want to leave my bed. I don't think many people close to me can understand what I am going through. I have just been through the worst year in my life, when someone I loved and trusted dearly betrayed me...
    lostinbeauty lostinbeauty 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25, 2015

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 18-21, M 9 Responses Mar 14, 2015

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I think scars are like battle wounds--

    beautiful in a way. They show what you've been through and how strong you are for coming out of it.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 8 Responses Mar 18, 2015

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    So i can official say i have never been

    so Depressed in my entire life I was told by my Social Worker that GPs are fighting over who has to take responsibility for me If i don't take support they will put me in a secure hospital or something as a Vulnerable Adult I mean knowing if i don't do what i am told i will...
    SophieSophLJ SophieSophLJ 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    For three years I've been wishing I was dead

    every day of my life. For three years I've woken up every morning disappointed to be alive. For three years I've changed so much, that I don't even remember who I was before. I'm not even sure what's wrong with me anymore. I used to know why I was depressed, but now... I don't...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 21 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    sievert sievert 13-15, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    It's slowly eating away at me.

    .. Acting like I'm fine when I'm not always okay.. The last week has been torture and I feel so alone and useless and just want to get my **** together and make things better
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    You've been gone almost a month now.

    I just want to hear your voice so badly... It's killing me.
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I feel great today, but sadly to me it's not a

    good thing. It just shows me that this is how I'd be without depression, without anger.. Normal. Normal me can get **** done and be a great person.. Why can't I feel like this everyday? My life would change so much and id actually be a decency to society. This **** sucks.
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 22-25, F 71 Responses Jul 9, 2015

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    My depression and anxiety is getting the most

    of me these past 6 months. I can't study for more than 10 minutes without having panic attacks. It's so upsetting to constantly be mad or sad. I just want to be happy, but nothing makes me happy.
    Malone670 Malone670 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    You work so hard, just to end up at home crying

    yourself to sleep; just remember you're trying. You are moving mountains that have plagued you since you were young, and you're trying so hard. Keep fighting, fight until you have won. Fight until you have found your way home, wherever that may be. Until the sun comes back...
    MissQueenB MissQueenB 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I know but.. Its like.

    . My heart and soul are locked to a certain place and certain person and certain life that im yet to have, IF i was set to have. Not a specific place, but somewhere where my soul finds peace, a seashore surrounded by mountains. Not a specific person, but someone who would look...
    Valencia Valencia 18-21, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    There is a worldwide drought,

    not of substance but of consciousness. The masses of first world countries have been put to sleep by becoming fat and happy. Being fed processed garbage and distracted by the endless faucets of electronic entertainment. No one is truly happy, they are merely content just content...
    CynicalHippie CynicalHippie 18-21, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I've become so cold,

    and uninterested with people. I just don't care. It's so unlike me. I've become so confrontational..
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I came off my antidepressant

    because my doc wants me to change meds from Effexor to Wellbutrin. It has been the worst thing ever, I ended Effexor Friday and had the worst side effects, even after tapering off. I am already taking Wellbutrin half doses for two weeks per her instruction, I feel so raw and...
    TexasBrian TexasBrian 36-40, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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