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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 66,321 People

    when I wake up in the middle of the night,

    you wanna know what my thoughts in my head are? their telling god that I'm ready to die. I tell him that I'm done with life and I just don't want to be here anymore. I know it's not a good thing to think about but there's nothing I can do to change it. sadly but truly, I'm...
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I hate night time. I always get lonely

    and think way too much.
    justthatxxxguy justthatxxxguy 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Ugh another sleep less night.

    I'm forcing myself to go to school today because of the fact that my boyfriend is taking me out to diner to night for our anniversary tomorrow. I really don't want to go to school today. I feel like absolute crud.
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 33 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    nickigirl525 nickigirl525 13-15, F 18 hrs ago

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    Weird; how I can actually see my arm with no

    fresh cuts, or healing cuts. Just scars. Hope I can stay clean. In other news, I've decided to wait until everyone I text, texts me. It's become very draining to try and be there for everyone but struggle with my family situation. Other other news, abuse in my house has...
    Wiltedleaves Wiltedleaves 16-17, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    WHAT IS THE ANSWER? All my life I have seen

    what it is like not to have God in my life. I had parents that did not care for me and a welfare system that gave a **** less. When I was still a boy I went to war, just to kill another boy that I did not even know. As I grow older and made my way through life all I have seen is...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Ive noticed that ppl on here like to see people

    hurting instead of liking to see people that actually made progress in life.
    Onikanohtakew Onikanohtakew 13-15, M 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    So... My girlfriend texts me telling me she's

    too depressed to talk and won't be talking to me for a while... She seemed fine just minutes before during the rest of our conversation... As someone that has depression, I'm not sure how to take this. She could be depressed... But for some reason this seems strange to me...
    WytW0lf WytW0lf 22-25, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I think about suicide a lot.

    The thing is...I don't want to die. I just want to stop hurting. I don't want to keep living the life I have. I wonder how long my children will be enough to keep me breathing. I feel like I am losing my faith. And my Christianity...my love for God...for Jesus...has been the...
    summerbaby73 summerbaby73 41-45, F 5 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Life is ****. No reason to live.

    Soon I will be no longer here.
    sarawee sarawee 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    thumper15 thumper15 18-21, F 22 Responses 1 day ago

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    How do you know if you are truly suicidal .

    . I know it's a stupid question , and seems like an obvious Answer , but I just don't know ... I have a plan and everything , but does that make someone suicidal ?
    youreadwhat youreadwhat 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I love feeling so depressed

    that I just start balling over something I should feel happy and act calm about... Perfect and with school tomorrow insomnia can start now.... *Hint Hint extreme sarcasm*
    purplesucidaldreams purplesucidaldreams 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I often feel as if I'm living without purpose.

    ... Why am I here? What purpose do I serve? What purpose could I possibly serve?
    Protonyx Protonyx 16-17, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I was very optimistic

    and everything I was a father to be until I wasn't anything stillbirth. before I used to think when someone is pregnant they will have a baby well nothing is promised. it's tough going through pregnancy and leaving empty handed. nothing was ever the same
    troubleminded troubleminded 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've battled depression most of my life,

    but it was never so bad that I would try killing myself. Well, until my grandpa died in 2006, he and I were really close, since then I've attempted suicide a few times and I've actually been successful twice. Once my mom found me overdosed in my room and I woke up in the...
    ShadowCatt ShadowCatt 18-21, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I'm feeling too tired.
    shethia shethia 18-21, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I've been battling my demons silently

    for two and a half years. I was the happiest I had been for two and a half years. Why did you destroy all my hard work? I'm falling, again, and this time I don't think I can pick myself back up.
    rsurrett rsurrett 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I've been at my lowest point

    for a few days now It appears I may have some form of bipolar disorder I've suspected something like this for a while now
    LuiGina LuiGina 13-15, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I would tell myself to not care.

    Nothing good or bad is permanent, so just keep moving. Someone called me a name? Don't react to it. I'm beginning to become a memory to my friends? Oh well. The guy I like doesn't like me back? Whatever. Someone complimented me? Thank and acknowledge them but go on with...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    There was this girl I liked a lot

    and I would do anything to be with her, but she got a boyfriend. I now hate myself and cut myself a lot, I get zero attention from females. The boy she went out with is a sofmore and I am freshmen, usually females go for older males because they are "more mature." Well I can...
    catbradley catbradley 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Tried this new app that I found to test how

    serenaded u really are and this is how I scored
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 10 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    clinical depression. in your day to day life

    which aspects of it do you find especially challenging? mine is paperwork and chores. I'm sure there's more.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat 41-45, F 4 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I have a question for those of you

    who have depression along with bipolar disorder. what do your mixed episodes feel like? mine feel like extreme agitation and I can't be touched or else I go crazy. I hate everything. every little noise bothers me. I see things that need to be cleaned but don't have the energy to...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Sometimes, I wonder why,

    I'm so full of these endless rhymes, About the way I feel inside, I wish.......sometimes......