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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Lately, I've been more depressed

    and than I've been in I'd say at least two years. I'm worried it's going to damage my relationship beyond repair. I cry/get angry because I feel sad or anxious almost every day and I feel quite out of control and ill, and it affects my boyfriend too. But I also need to find a...
    illium illium 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I really don't know how much longer I can hold

    on. I've been trying to distract myself anyway I can from cleaning to music to books to seeing friends and family to the good old fashion alcohol, anything to stay out of depression mode. And its not going very well. I can feel myself slipping, I have been fighting the urge to...
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    You know how when a baby is slowly being rocked

    to sleep and their trying to fight it but eventually end up falling into a deep slumber anyway? Well that's how i feel about depression right now. Life is gently rocking me and as much as i try to avoid falling into a deep slumber (depression), I just can't bypass it because it...
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Guess I'm going through one of my down days

    where I just feel like **** and keep beating myself up :/ Knowing my luck it'll last for the next few days
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    looking to make friends

    and try to help people
    sharimm sharimm 41-45, M 23 hrs ago

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    Another failed relationship.

    Thank u BPD and depression. I'm a wreck again. I just want to die.
    CrazyDaisyeee CrazyDaisyeee 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    soft kitty warm kitty little ball of fur happy

    kitty sleepy kitty pur pur pur.... my online mommy used to sing this to me online and I love this song alot it soothes me alot. wish I could make up for what I did to her tonight and get her back I love her with all my heart. love you nevertruleywanted
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 day ago

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    When you're alone With the dark of the sky When

    you have a gun And just want to say goodbye - Life is hard You want to fly I know it's easy to fall apart But it doesn't mean you have to die - It's okay to feel bad Pain demands to be felt It's okay to be sad Nobody is perfect - I know this poem isn't pretty as her I know he...
    lailalessard lailalessard 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Imagine yourself as a painter,

    you have this blank canvas in front of you. You envision this amazingly intricate painting of reds, blues, greens, and purples. Then the more you think the trickier it gets, you start to add Azure, Antique Ruby, Black Olive, Cerise, Daffodil, Electric Green, and many other...
    32nmud 32nmud 13-15, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have not eaten anything today.

    I feel unmotivated & lazy. Every one has abandoned me. I have not showered since Friday. I am on vacation this week and I'm supposed to clean up my apartment, there are clothes all over the floor & unwashed dishes. I am in peri menopause & feel like I am losing my mind. I've...
    sparklebright70 sparklebright70 41-45, F 15 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    I don't see my depression

    as something bad. In fact, since I've been this way, I feel as though I've actually been able to see things more clearly as my vision isn't clouded by idealism. I used to under the impression that I was so smart and so much better than other people. Now I'm aware that I'm...
    Rhinestoneyes Rhinestoneyes 16-17 1 day ago

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    My past doesn't stay in the past.

    It still haunts me. I've lived through a lot in my 28 years. Sexual, physical, verbal and emotional abuse growing up only to be in a 5 year abusive marriage. I got married and had my first child by 19. Thanks to my mother I was dubbed a liar and troublemaker as a child for...
    Badriyah Badriyah 26-30, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Dealing with a breakup.

    Tomorrow would be a month closer to would have been our 2 year mark. I hurt myself last night. Can't take this pain.
    smilesx36 smilesx36 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Been such a strange mix of emotions these last

    few weeks. Having feelings of joy and that nothing bad can get to me and I'm literally on top of the world, to then feeling so low that I can't see a future and that I can't deal with life anymore. I just don't know what to do anymore
    WhyCantIBeYou WhyCantIBeYou 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    justanotherles justanotherles 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Hey, it's me again...

    I decided to tell all about my ' depression story' yesterday and when I started to write it I was scared to remember everything. It's not that I forgot it, it's about I didn't want to remember how I felt during those months... I talked with my friends last night too and I told...
    JustAnotherGirlOnEP JustAnotherGirlOnEP 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Literally everything makes me sad.

    An ice cream truck just passed outside my window and I feel a deep sadness for the person driving it and wondering if children today appreciate him driving around. Normally every day sadness is like a background emotion but lately it's been swallowing me. The smallest things are...
    thatglassjar thatglassjar 18-21, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Ok, so I'm kinda grasping at straws here lately

    attempting to understand just what the heck is up with me... I think I am experiencing anxiety and depression but I'm not sure. If you were to ask anyone to describe me in one word, they would probably say "happy" or "upbeat". Truth is, I'm neither and I feel like a great big...
    VC32 VC32 31-35, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I once shot a man that was really brown

    and he hurt my butthole in prison
    TheThirdSythe TheThirdSythe 18-21, M 18 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    depression sucks. I deal with it 24/7.

    But there are some points in life when it seems a lot worse. like when you find out your "friends" do something without you, or you gain a few pounds or you have a bad makeup/hair day! ya know? idk if im the only one like this, but please don't judge...
    daisymillerr daisymillerr 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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