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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,361 People

    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm feeling so stuck.

    It's crazy how I can't even be happy for a full 24 hours...
    AlyseJay AlyseJay 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I wish people weren't just in it

    for themselves and care for others like some do. I show compassion until I am disrespected and then I just give up. Because...if they don't care...then why try?
    Woods93 Woods93 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Is there any reason to life at all?

    Sometimes I feel life is completely meaningless and directionless, everything happens for no reason, I feel like I have no guidance. And for those reasons I think I'd be Better off ending it. Idk I just feel confused and every night before I go to bed I think to myself, I'll...
    matildaaavvv matildaaavvv 18-21, F 4 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    HelpIsHere5 HelpIsHere5 22-25 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I feel so sad I don't know what to do anymore.

    This is taking a lot out of me.
    Mamiproud Mamiproud 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Knock knock. Who's there?

    Apple. Apple who? APPLE PIE! My 5 year old self proceeds to crack up at this joke as my dad smiles down upon me. I miss those days...back when I wasn't so sick. Now, he has so much fear in his eyes for me. Maybe he realizes how much I have changed now.
    OriginalJuli3 OriginalJuli3 16-17, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I'm a senior in high school.

    I had a miscarriage in August. Every damn day I miss my baby so much... It hurts so bad it's like the pain is crushing me. I cry all the time. Like right now I'm sitting in the bathroom at school just crying my eyes out. No one understands. None of my friends understand. This...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    I don't know what's emptier,

    my bank account or my love life.
    Cualitee Cualitee 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    It never really ends does it?

    You just have little holidays from it, if your lucky.
    MistyMoon1 MistyMoon1 41-45, F 14 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    How do you ask for people to listen to you

    without sounding like an attention-*****?
    pseudonymistress pseudonymistress 16-17, F 6 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    Disclaimer: I'm a horrible writer

    when I'm emotional, so please bear with me I remember when I was a child, I was a naturally awkward leader who was happy go lucky and didn't have a care in the world. I didn't notice anything happening around me, at least until the fifth move. I moved around a lot; I still do...
    pseudonymistress pseudonymistress 16-17, F 23 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Well.. I almost died

    when I was born. A lot of times.. I wish I had. All my life, I've been rejected, abandoned, betrayed, the outcast, bullied. At the age of 11, I started self harm because of it (yeah at age 11 tho I had a mental age of 15..says my mother. I'm quite mature and have more wisdom...
    ravenzewolf ravenzewolf 13-15, F 10 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Why should we be here?

    Relatively simple question right, to some at least. To others the answer can be elusive, maddeningly so. Why? Actually why? Personally, it’s not to enjoy myself like most people, as of yet. I’m waving goodbye to some of the supposed “best years of my life&rdquo...
    Dan412 Dan412 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    HelpIsHere5 HelpIsHere5 22-25 8 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    **** this life. **** everything about it!

    I can't stand living anymore. I was feeling so good for so long and these past few weeks this depression has drowned me in sorrow, in blood, in fear of living. Why can't anything go away, why can't these thoughts stop, why was I even ****** born. I relapsed on cutting again. I...
    PapercutLP48 PapercutLP48 22-25, M 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Row row row your boat,

    gently down the stream. Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily...life is but a dream.
    HelpIsHere5 HelpIsHere5 22-25 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Hey guys just letting you all know in a couple

    days ill be closing my account. Thank you so much for those who read my vents and for those who reached out. I never was looking for sympathy just an outlet for a pain greater than i could deal with. Im over the hurt but the raw anger remains. Not sure what im angry over Anymore...
    fyrebyrd fyrebyrd 26-30, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I was given this Halloween art assignment in

    class today and it was titled 'the monster in me'. It was supposed to be a head cut in half with one side a self-portrait and one side the 'monster in me', to test our symmetry skills. Then we were supposed to explain why we are different then the monster. I drew myself on both...
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I give up😢 I found a blade in my bathroom

    and couldn't resist. My life is so messed up right now, I can't take it anymore!!! I'm just going to cut more deeper, see how this night turns out. 💔✌️
    Shianneee07x Shianneee07x 16-17, F 6 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I make a lot of depression posts not

    for attention but I use EP like a journal or a therapist. Please remember though, I'm not a negative person, I won't drag anyone into my bullshit, I can see the brighter side of things. Please don't see me as this crybaby or a person who's only negative. Behind depression, I'm...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I'm so tired of trying to prove myself to people

    who constantly tear me down. Grrr....it just...GRRAAAAHHH!
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 30 Responses Jun 16

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    **** it sucks being in the hospital!

    what a night this turned out to be... :/
    Shianneee07x Shianneee07x 16-17, F 1 Response 7 mins ago

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    the only thing stopping me from killing myself

    right now is that its anniversary of my uncles death.
    chels6 chels6 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    If I just knew what I was supposed to be doing,

    if I knew why I was here, what my purpose was, what it is I should be pouring myself into . . . and I felt like I was making a difference . . . I feel like that would help, & I wouldn't struggle with depression so much.
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I hate feelings. They really have a knack

    for biting ya in the ***.
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    DEPRESSION IS IN NO WAY ANY SIGN OF WEAKNESS!

    Well, it has been about a week and a half since my neck surgery and it looks like things just might be getting back to some kind of normal for me. I really believe that the worst part about something like this is dealing with the mental problems that one face's at a time like...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 3 Responses 1 day ago

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