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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 71,235 People

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Theres an old saying.

    Somewhere. Im not sure what it is or who said it, but im certain one applies here. Its 346am, and im here typing this on my samsung. Theres a half drunk 6 pack of blue moon ale on the table next to me, leftover from the night before. Ill probably rush the three, shotgun them...
    UndyingWraith UndyingWraith 31-35, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Idk I'm getting another panic attack

    and it sucks. My sister is getting angry for no reason and ugh! I'm hating this. Shes literally shouting on me and my parents aren't home. idk.. idk what to do.. nobody understands or cares..
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I hate my family, i hate my body,

    i hate myself, i hate everyone, i feel like nobody actually gives a .... About me, i cut myself for fun , and sometimes i think about death and how to kill myself ( but im not gonna kill myself) yet.
    ameliehils ameliehils 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    "You can tell how much a soul is broken by the

    amount of rage and sadness they hold inside"
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I need someone to talk to

    if you could be kind enough to use some of your time to talk with I would be thankful ju message me
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    My mind is a prison you can't escape.

    Reality is closing up on me. I can't breath anymore, I realize that I won't ever get out of this hell-like place. I don't really care anymore, because I like the dark, it's my go-to place, my safe place, the closest thing to a home a monster like me can have. Goodbye light...
    anonanastasia anonanastasia 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I've been suffering from depression

    for the past 8 years, maybe more. I try to ignore it, hoping it will go away, but in the end it's still there.
    Spyro93 Spyro93 18-21, M 23 hrs ago

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    I feel like nothing makes sense anymore.

    I am not who I used to be, life seems pointless.
    GiuliaOlimpio GiuliaOlimpio 18-21 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 77 Responses Jul 9

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    13 facts must be known

    if you love someone who fights depression 1. Depression is not a choice. Depression is one of the most helpless and frustrating experiences a person can have. It’s sometimes feeling sad, sometimes feeling empty, and sometimes feeling absolutely nothing at all. There are...
    Fo2los Fo2los 18-21, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Taylorgangbby Taylorgangbby 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Why does this dark hell always come back.

    Just when you think things are getting better
    cmabbott14 cmabbott14 22-25, F 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    worst thing to do is battle wat goes through

    your head i had 3 days of school due to depression stay strong
    metcalf123 metcalf123 13-15, M 1 hr ago

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    The people who said they'll be here, aren't. The feelings I said I won't feel, I feel the most. The memories I said won't remember again, can't forget them. And the promise of not giving up, I broke it too. And won't be coming back.. ever. I'm done. And I know nobody cares, but...
    theprincessofmyownkingdom theprincessofmyownkingdom 16-17, F 2 Responses 20 mins ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Someone please kill me,

    I don't want to do this anymore
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    It was a fine day with a frightening end

    but am so so so happy that It ended good. Life is getting brighter now I dare to dream and TRY to achieve those dreams , which seemed impossible not long ago but I won't rejoice yet the road is loooong and depression is still in the background but not as heavy...
    leiyah leiyah 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    What helps me feel better!

    So i suffer sporadically with feelings of depression, dare i say suicide. I find that as soon as I'm feeling kind of a bit better i grab it cause why not, what have i got to lose. Today I've just lay around all day until almost 4pm it's been ok cause I've got a terrible...
    DearSugar DearSugar 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hi I have been battle depression

    for a long time I feel alone no friend
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I promised that if I ever got better I would do

    something to help others in my situation. That was 34 years ago. I am just so happy to be well again. So much time has past that I forgot about my promise. Seeing many commercials for depression medications on TV these days has reminded me of it. The following is my experience...
    quickrush quickrush 51-55, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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