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I Battle Depression

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    Oh depression, I really dislike you right now.

    I've suffered from major depression since the age of 13. I'm 16 now. I've been bullied my whole life, called endless names. Depression is my worst nightmare especially on nights like this when all I want to do is go back to the blade. I'm 214 days clean from cutting but I really...
    teenagetragedy teenagetragedy 16-17, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I don't understand why I had to survive all the

    abuse in my life, why I had to think there was ever any hope for me. I tried so hard only to learn im dying anyhow of heart decease. What a joke... In the past year, i've grown more colder and hateful. If there is a hell, it'll be my final destination. This isn't some phase nor...
    Yearsgoby Yearsgoby 18-21, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I just got laid and I stopped

    after awhile because I felt I wouldn't bust a nut anyway n I was barely aroused because of anhedonia, and now I can't help but notice how much i hate everything in the world, it started by getting psychosis about God than being diagnosed later with schizoaffective disorder...
    SsMcGavin SsMcGavin 22-25, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    summerbeams summerbeams 18-21, F 30 Responses Jun 12

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I'm feeling down, like really down,

    and no matter how happy I am I think about how much happier I'd be if I was gone.
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    The depression is overwhelming lately.

    Somedays I have no motivation to go on anymore. I'm miserable at my job but most of all I have gone through the worst heartbreak of my life. 2.5 years of abuse and pain. Lying, cheating & finally discarding me like garbage. Moving out of state this weekend with a girl he met 3...
    josiekl josiekl 41-45, F 5 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    All I need is that sure failsafe way to die.

    .. But now I'm on suicide watch...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Hey check this out !!

    New depression treatment http://news.harvard.edu/gazette/story/2014/07/new-treatment-for-depression-shows-immediate-results/
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 78 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    My mother thinks depression is

    when you can't get out of bed. It's an overly simplistic definition of depression but that's what she honestly believes. I can still get up out of bed and function like a normal human being, but it's just hard. I have plenty to look forward to in life, but it's hard. I'm...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Feeling down again several times a day these

    days. Last night after having dinner with two friends I was even more depressed. They are very updated about how each other s doing recently, have common interest and activities. They talked about celebrating birthday next month on a weekday, taking leaves from work to do...
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Life is just **** when you have everything

    negative placed in your way and you even tried to change for the better. but god thinks he will give you a ****** *** life and you would want something to do with him? why cant i be like every other girl my age. i am not supposed to be on ep typing how much i hate my life i...
    horridlife horridlife 22-25, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    The external factors to your pain can be

    removed. The internal wounds that bleed can heal. Don't give up.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 day ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I feel so alone.... No one there to talk to.

    . No one to trust.. Getting sick and tired of this
    babyboomb babyboomb 16-17, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Tonight after work on my way to bus stop to go

    home I saw two pairs of couples taking wedding photos on streets. I turned 29 last month, I wonder again if I will ever be able to get married. People around my age are all getting married but I don't even have a boyfriend. People always assume that you must have some problems...
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 22 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    My best friend from middle school battles it,

    not me. I haven't spoken to her in years since we parted ways to different high schools. She has changed drastically the last time i saw her. I didn't expect her to be so... aggravating. I'm giving her my lending ear and i told her i'd do anything to help her... Her response was...
    Dapperness Dapperness 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Leave the rope, Put down the razor,

    Throw away the gun, Put away the knife, Step away from the ledge. -It gets better//I promise.I love you
    ChelcBub14 ChelcBub14 13-15, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Hmm... Don't know if anyone will really notice

    this, but if you're feeling upset or anxious and want somebody to listen to, I'm here. I'm also fairly depressed, and yes I am troubled and a little bit mad but, honesty I've been doing this for about two years now and people have told me that I'm inspiring or that my words are...
    CheeseBomb500 CheeseBomb500 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm so sick of people asking me how I'm feeling

    or am I ok! I know they're only being polite, but they don't really want to know the answer. I always reply with OK or fine, inside my head I am screaming that of course I'm not ok or fine. I am depressed. But, how would someone react if I responded with how I actually feel? The...
    Sarahex Sarahex 31-35, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    So I got pretty close to offing myself last

    night. I can't cut right now but I (possibly intentionally) reopened some old ones. Now I'm drinking coffee and basically being a useless, emotionless, exhausted lump. Tonight definitely isn't going to be better.
    JustOldLight JustOldLight 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    In his fragmentary jottings,

    published in the Daily Telegraph, Christopher Hitchens wrote: 'I am not fighting or battling cancer, it is fighting me.' That's exactly how i feel about my depression.It is winning me.The only thing that i do is ...not to die.I am not fighting anything,i just hang in there,in...
    lady2089 lady2089 22-25, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 18 Responses Mar 18

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    I feel myself slipping again.

    I had a few good days. But now I feel like life isn't worth it. The pain. The regrets. They circle around me like the Walking dead. Like a beast chasing me to finish me off.
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 6 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    I'm just gonna add everyone in this group

    that's online. If you need advice or help I'm here :D
    CheeseBomb500 CheeseBomb500 13-15, M 19 hrs ago

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    I'm sitting in a corner of my house crying my

    eyes out, pleading to anyone that I will get better. I am so depressed, I just want it to stop :'(
    BethHawkins BethHawkins 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Did You Hurt Yourself?

                Someone has told me. " When you were harmed, I recommend you try….Try to pick a stone and Carry it and squeeze It! Squeeze it! Squeeze it tightly!  And then he smiled and asked me " is it hurt? "             Nothing can harm you, except you harm...
    FreakTurtle FreakTurtle 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    I'm tired all the time.

    I have no effort to do anything anymore. I've started to lose interest in trying to he friends with people. I don't reply to any text messages that I receive. My main decision every day is do I self harm or not. Nobody should have to live like this. This is a heartbreaking...
    BethHawkins BethHawkins 13-15, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    My user name explains it all I'm here to help

    you. I promise I won't judge you :) We can talk about anything that's been on your mind~ Love C.L
    Onlinetherapy Onlinetherapy 18-21, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm definitely an 'up

    and down'er with my weight. First hit a high weight at 13, slowly through healthy balanced dieting lost it an emerged through it at 15. Then went too far and was borderline anorexic, would take big bottles of cordial to school to keep me full. Lied about eating and would make...
    MillyMilly33 MillyMilly33 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    For the past 4 years I have suffered from major

    depression, yes diagnosed. I have had 2 friends kill themselves which impacted me big. Family issues. Friend issues. Religion issues.Self issues. Yes I've thought of suicide, but it's okay to think about it, just not to go through with it. And I hope I never do. I've have been...
    tessareedy tessareedy 16-17, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Broken, us less, alone,

    clueless,confused, betrayed, on the verge of tears, anxious, about to break down, depressed, pathetic, going to give up, bitter,lonely, angry, rejected, fell like I am about to fall apart at any moment, crushed, not good enough,empty and defeated.....pretty much sums up how I am...
    angelheelz angelheelz 22-25, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Fighting Depression On Daily Basis

    Keep up !!! Move some energy around!!! Live style!!!   I was born depressed. I didn't knew that in the beginning, but there was always something. Today, I know I wasn't so happy then. I used to think that I am but I was not. I was living in my own world alone - detached and...
    Bolek Bolek 41-45, M 9 Responses May 24, 2012

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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