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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,060 People

    Thundross Thundross 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I constantly wonder why I feel like I never had

    a childhood, but I guess it's just regret. I was so scared, so afraid to take risks and do new things. Guess I've always been this way.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I'm not sure why I feel like this

    but I think a part of me is recovering. I'm still in the same situation and I still battle hard at times but for some reason I feel like a piece of the depression is going to release itself in the near future. Weird?
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I wish the blues would go away,

    I am sick of this melancholy. The sun has not shined here in over a week! Rain every day! I need sunshine to chase theses blues away. Going to exercise, hope it helps.
    Southerncharm67 Southerncharm67 46-50, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When I was a kid, I wanted to be older.

    ... But this **** is not what I expected. Now I just wanna go back to my childhood where I don't care what others say about me. For once, I want to feel that pure happiness and joy again.
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    What's really weird is

    that I read these posts on suicide forums and depression forums, of people who are in very dark places in their life. But they all have a similarity which is that they have a love for a parent, or boyfriend/girlfriend, best friend or some aspiration that keeps them from suicide...
    Isolating Isolating 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    A million things to do,

    mind moving 100mph...energy level is nonexistent. Hate when exhaustion hits....next step is the tears...dammit!
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    gabs4help gabs4help 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I wish things get better.

    .. one night I was feeling so overwhelmed by so many **** like "what if this happened what if that happened" then idk I couldn't stop over thinking I've been crying at night for so many times and I don't know what to do.. That night I even thought about my death, how I would...
    Macyyyy Macyyyy 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    my battle against depression is already won .

    Guess who won. I can say that the battle is lost for me
    AllTheDevilsAreHere AllTheDevilsAreHere 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    help. please. get me out of myself.

    i dont know how much longer i could take this, im just a teenager but the pain is real. my heart really hurts. whenever i think of my life, my past or present, it makes me want to cry and cry. ive cried to sleep a thousand nights and its torture. my sister and i shared a bedroom...
    whitenut whitenut 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    mariabish mariabish 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    And 5 20mg of adderall later.

    . All I ever do is use drugs to feel some what okay... Like this is not okay..
    tiffanygetchell tiffanygetchell 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My best friend, Jake,

    killed himself earlier this week. I knew him for almost half of my entire life so far. We became best friends in third grade, and I always knew him as a very funny, happy guy. One year, his ex dumped him, and he felt crushed. I was the only one to help him through. Then, we...
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    A "friend" just told me

    that my problems aren't real, that other people have it worse than me such as kids in Africa starving. I just don't know how to respond to that. Maybe my problems aren't real at all. I hate this so much.
    Jinyung Jinyung 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Actually I'm Bipolar.

    But the depression in my down cycle is f*cking making me miserable. I saw my dr. They gave me Abilify to add to my meds. I haven't been able to get it. Its been 3weeks now! They are going to have to do something I cant take this sh!t! I got a taste of being "normal" I want it...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    In morning, everything still fine

    but now it seems pretty bad :( Depression control me again. It make me don't want to go out even for dinner or relax😢
    Maithon13 Maithon13 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Sometimes I feel like I just want to play it

    out, like it's a game, see what happens, and then there's the "I really want to be happy I want change" but idk. . . My sad songs I can relate to aren't cutting it anymore, I'm putting on a lot of weight, though, if I'm real down I won't eat for days. Even I know this is...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 13 hrs ago

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    **** my life. Just **** it

    and **** everything else
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I really ******* hate myself.

    I wish I wasn't born. There's no point of me being alive no good benefit for me. I can't wait till I die. There's no point for me to live because of the way I look and everything else about me.
    wassup305 wassup305 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes the only thing left to do

    when you've been down all day is to dance. Seriously, it comes to that for me. ::walks to room, locks door, takes off robe, dances in undies::
    NoBullsht NoBullsht 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 13 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I do not know if anyone reads this,

    but here are the facts. I walk around every day with so much anger, anxiety and depression. And the facts are that no one cares. As long as you put on your happy face so no one will care enough to ask if it goes well, but here you have the truth. Everything is great. My life is...
    AllTheDevilsAreHere AllTheDevilsAreHere 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Really having kinda a depressing day today :(

    would like someone to talk to.
    Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy 16-17, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 1 Response 52 mins ago

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    I had to tell myself life is

    for living. I got very down before. I keep trying to tell myself this not I am useless etc.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat 41-45, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014