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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 69,796 People

    Its no use telling me it'll get better,

    because i know that. I know it will. But I also know that its a vicious cycle, and that the dark days will come around again, just like they always do.
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I cant do it.. I just cant.

    . I cant keep on fighting and putting up with all of this bs in my life! Its so ******* hard.. I know im lonely af.. I know how much ****** up my case is.. I know all of my imperfections.. Physically and mentally.. I cant be human. I just cant try anymore. Im so...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I've stayed up all night cause my head hurts

    from stressing so much, the last few days I haven't been on here, I'm sorry if you've messaged me and I haven't answered. I've just been going through a lot lately and honestly it's taking every ounce of strength not to hurt myself. I honestly just want to die right now.
    Danewinter95 Danewinter95 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been having a really rough couple of days.

    Maybe weeks. It's been building up over time. I'm extremely irritable lately. Everything gets on my nerves. I can barely hold a conversation with anyone without snapping at them. I don't know what caused it but I don't like it. I thought I was getting better.
    toni701 toni701 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I was recently diagnosed

    as clinically depressed. I'm going through therapy, lots of work, lots of writing what I think and how it makes me feel daily... (Which I've been procrastinating on...) I kinda don't want this to go away though. I'm so used to it... It's a part of me. Does anyone else feel...
    girlinwhite girlinwhite 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    So yesterday night, i finished my very first

    track.. Which is a huge accomplishment for me and my best friend back then said that as soon as i do we would celebrate it and name the song together.. Well **** happened back then and we are no longer friends (its been like a week or two) and now, im amazed how she just...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I'm really tired of fighting.

    I just wish that I were dead. I'm tired of people telling me that "it gets better" when it doesn't and it never will. Don't you dare tell me that it gets better. I'm tired of telling people telling me "you're still young it can and will get better". I'm tired of people telling...
    lifesacruelgame lifesacruelgame 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Three hours with my family make me realize

    why my depression was the worst when I was living there.
    omnomn omnomn 18-21, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I'm not that bad compared to some others

    but I get sad for no reason. I feel like nobody cares about even know they tell me they do, I feel like I will never find love even know I have had it many times and I was the reason it ended. I feel like I have no friends when I got plenty.
    afterlife12 afterlife12 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    I've never really done physical self harm

    but I often get an irresistible urge to test or end friendships which I sometimes think of as a form of self harm. Recently I blocked most of my current Internet friends because it was too painful to be constantly reminded that they were avoiding me/keeping their distance. I've...
    iacob iacob 26-30, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    People here are so stupid sometimes.

    . This guy just said that I should kill myself. I battle depression it's been 3 years (since my grandpa died) , and I just have my mom. This makes me sad, because I don't have my dad, and I never will. Someone please help me, I'm suicidal...
    IBattleDepressionPleaseHelp IBattleDepressionPleaseHelp 18-21, F 17 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am feeling better.Talking with my family

    and my close friends,going for a walk everyday,helping people,making them happy...it makes me happy too.I am not hopeless,i am not gonna give up.I will fight :)
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    i just realized something .

    . i'm not the only one who is depressed. but also every single member of my family and every one of my friends i think i just attract people that are depressed like me like a magnet..i've even been told that my depression is contagious. i thought my friends were fake for not...
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression is such a cruel punishment.

    There are no fevers , no rashes , no blood tests to send people scurrying in concern , just the slow erosion of self , as insidious as cancer . And like cancer , it is essentially a solitary experience ; a room in hell with only your name on the door .
    Josephine14 Josephine14 18-21, F 1 Response 40 mins ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    Depression is living in a body

    that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die.
    loveyourselmore loveyourselmore 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    I don't like myself.I hate my image.

    I feel as if I push people away when I don't mean to.I get called **** all the time.Example my father tells me to die and go to hell all the time and calls me a worthless piece of ****.My "Friends" would call me names.I don't fit in and I just want to end it all
    BrandonDay BrandonDay 18-21, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I struggle tremendously with motivation these

    days. I sleep the majority of the day. Bed is like an addiction, I've been choosing comfort over living. My family has to sometimes literally pull me out of bed to do something. I'm able to go on the occasional hike with my dog which is nice but I'm afraid of social situations...
    redtailhawk29 redtailhawk29 22-25, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm good for a while I'll talk more ,

    laugh more Sleep and eat normally but then something happens , like a switch turns off somewhere /: And all I'm left with is the darkness of my mind , but each time it seems like I sink deeper and deeper ... And I'm scared that one day , o won't make it back up :/ I feel like...
    Josephine14 Josephine14 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 19 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Personally, I think it's over diagnosed.

    I was in and out of the Doctors like a yo yo. It wasn't long after my parents split up and other things that still haunt me to this day which I'd rather not speak of. I started going to the doctors as my Mum thought my moods were extreme. I was put on so many different types...
    IWantAUnicorn IWantAUnicorn 16-17, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Ehm.. well, since the meltdown is practically

    over, it was "nice" to let things be like how they should be and be weak for sometime to let all of the pain outside.. well not anymore. Im done. now lets get back on being positive and all of that crap.. yeah.. Whoever it was, whoever it will be, to ******* stab me in the...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    tumblr.com Instagram: chanelconoco I give advice on tumblr on just about everything and I post pics and just keep my blog creative. Instagram has quite a few nice pics
    someoneforyou12 someoneforyou12 22-25, F 22 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Maybe I'm doing this the wrong way.

    .. maybe i shouldn't just ignore or block out the reasons why I'm feeling depressed.. its the exact opposite, because no matter how hard you try to ignore it, you cant just block it out of your system completely. Its part of who you are, those things could be your horrendous...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am to

    announce that I have decided to become a Plexus Ambassador!!! I have jumped in with both feet for two very important reasons: 1) Plexus has a set of products that is CHANGING PEOPLE’S LIVES and I wanted to be a part of that! I've stood by and watched many of my friends gain...
    PlexusSlimChick PlexusSlimChick 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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