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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Ok, so I'm kinda grasping at straws here lately

    attempting to understand just what the heck is up with me... I think I am experiencing anxiety and depression but I'm not sure. If you were to ask anyone to describe me in one word, they would probably say "happy" or "upbeat". Truth is, I'm neither and I feel like a great big...
    VC32 VC32 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    depression is when you don't really care about

    anything. You don't care what you look like, you don't care what others think, you don't care what others say. You stay locked up in your room, lifeless and empt. You don't care when someone insults you.. you just listen, accept it quietly and agree. Wether it's true or not...
    Loquesoy Loquesoy 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Guess I'm going through one of my down days

    where I just feel like **** and keep beating myself up :/ Knowing my luck it'll last for the next few days
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I really don't know how much longer I can hold

    on. I've been trying to distract myself anyway I can from cleaning to music to books to seeing friends and family to the good old fashion alcohol, anything to stay out of depression mode. And its not going very well. I can feel myself slipping, I have been fighting the urge to...
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    They didn't notice. They didn't notice the pain

    and suffering. They didn't care. I didn't try to hide anything. I didn't try to make it seem like everything was alright, but they didn't care. If I was them I wouldn't have cared either. So I can't blame them.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 2 hrs ago

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    You know how when a baby is slowly being rocked

    to sleep and their trying to fight it but eventually end up falling into a deep slumber anyway? Well that's how i feel about depression right now. Life is gently rocking me and as much as i try to avoid falling into a deep slumber (depression), I just can't bypass it because it...
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    I'm truly almost to the point

    where I'd rather die then endure this loneliness am pain every day :(
    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Dealing with a breakup.

    Tomorrow would be a month closer to would have been our 2 year mark. I hurt myself last night. Can't take this pain.
    smilesx36 smilesx36 22-25, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I know i have wrote quite a lot of these in the

    past but it seems to be getting worse, i have constant thoughts of just ending it because of my mum but the only person thats stopped me is my sister because she has a hard time with my mum as well so i dont want to leave her on her own with my mum but the past week they have...
    ymasxatl ymasxatl 22-25, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I once shot a man that was really brown

    and he hurt my butthole in prison
    TheThirdSythe TheThirdSythe 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I don't see my depression

    as something bad. In fact, since I've been this way, I feel as though I've actually been able to see things more clearly as my vision isn't clouded by idealism. I used to under the impression that I was so smart and so much better than other people. Now I'm aware that I'm...
    Rhinestoneyes Rhinestoneyes 16-17 2 days ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Literally everything makes me sad.

    An ice cream truck just passed outside my window and I feel a deep sadness for the person driving it and wondering if children today appreciate him driving around. Normally every day sadness is like a background emotion but lately it's been swallowing me. The smallest things are...
    thatglassjar thatglassjar 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Been such a strange mix of emotions these last

    few weeks. Having feelings of joy and that nothing bad can get to me and I'm literally on top of the world, to then feeling so low that I can't see a future and that I can't deal with life anymore. I just don't know what to do anymore
    WhyCantIBeYou WhyCantIBeYou 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    looking to make friends

    and try to help people
    sharimm sharimm 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    I am looking for relationship here I am single

    here so want to merry with someone I am 24 yr old lonely man looking for a great girl
    uzairraufkhan uzairraufkhan 22-25 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have not eaten anything today.

    I feel unmotivated & lazy. Every one has abandoned me. I have not showered since Friday. I am on vacation this week and I'm supposed to clean up my apartment, there are clothes all over the floor & unwashed dishes. I am in peri menopause & feel like I am losing my mind. I've...
    sparklebright70 sparklebright70 41-45, F 15 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    My past still haunts me.

    I have done my best to move on but. It is times like now when my past comes back. When its dark out and im alone. When the person who can stop me from breaking down is asleep. It comes back. It reminds me that maybe now my family dosnt say what they used to about me. But that...
    asassions007 asassions007 16-17, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    This is not written by me.

    I ran across it and it sums up everything I feel and wish I could convey. To the Husband With the Wife Who Has Depression Dear Husband, I love you dearly, more than anything in this whole world. I think you already know this. I know you love me too, I just forget sometimes...
    Renewedspirit15 Renewedspirit15 36-40, F 3 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    RandomBlue RandomBlue 31-35, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Imagine yourself as a painter,

    you have this blank canvas in front of you. You envision this amazingly intricate painting of reds, blues, greens, and purples. Then the more you think the trickier it gets, you start to add Azure, Antique Ruby, Black Olive, Cerise, Daffodil, Electric Green, and many other...
    32nmud 32nmud 13-15, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    soft kitty warm kitty little ball of fur happy

    kitty sleepy kitty pur pur pur.... my online mommy used to sing this to me online and I love this song alot it soothes me alot. wish I could make up for what I did to her tonight and get her back I love her with all my heart. love you nevertruleywanted
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 days ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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    I post in here too much.

    I guess I've never really had an outlet before, so this is what I've gotten used to doing when I feel alone. I feel numb tonight. I don't even know when it started. Usually I am either temporarily cheerful or extremely sad. Right now I don't feel anything. It catches me off...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think I am starting to drink too often.

    It's only one drink before bedtime so I actually sleep, but it also helps me calm down and feel more numb. I'm not letting myself drink every day because I don't want to turn it into a way to cope. I don't want to be dependent on it. But it's helping a little. Not sure whether...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    My past doesn't stay in the past.

    It still haunts me. I've lived through a lot in my 28 years. Sexual, physical, verbal and emotional abuse growing up only to be in a 5 year abusive marriage. I got married and had my first child by 19. Thanks to my mother I was dubbed a liar and troublemaker as a child for...
    Badriyah Badriyah 26-30, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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