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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,058 People

    Lately I have been watching TV way too much,

    and not knowing why I cannot stop. Today it occurred to me that it may be part of me subconsciously working on getting my depression worse, so that I am at a low enough state to jump start self improvement. Don't know if this makes sense to anyone else: Making myself worse to...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I thought to myself today: "I'm tired.

    " Then upon further thought I realized that I have been tired a very long time. On the very scarce and rare days when I do have energy it's quite literally like emerging from a fog - waking up from a deep slumber - the first day of spring - I feel ALIVE. The world is mine to...
    sbj120 sbj120 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I live my life one day at a time!

    For I force myself to cope for the happiness and well-being of my 9 year old son.
    Yaakov012464 Yaakov012464 51-55, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Anika1258 Anika1258 13-15, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Depression has taken over my life.

    I don't even have the energy to get out of bed sometimes. All I do is lay in bed on my phone and blasting music, ignoring the world. I miss being happy.
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    It has been nearly a year

    since I got out of my depression. The last time lasted months and months. I first joined this group for help, and when I was over it I stayed to try and help. I try. But the issues I faced the last few times, what plunged me into the bottomless pit I wore myself out trying to...
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    depression. I can't help

    but feel pessimistic about everything. I see the cup as half empty. I can't live with myself.
    unfairlives unfairlives 22-25, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    When i have my lows,

    that i feel like i can no longer be around people, I enjoy going to parks and being in peaceful beautiful nature. My favorite parks to visit are ones with streams or rivers running through. Because when you think about it life is just like a river. It is born and it ends. In...
    bbrynnaa bbrynnaa 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    Having depression is more

    than just being sad. It's like hearing a boss' battle music all the time, but the boss is not there. It's you.
    oceansopen oceansopen 22-25, F 23 hrs ago

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    Suicide is Painless by Johnny Mandel https://m.

    youtube.com/watch?v=xIIqYqtR1lY
    thumper15 thumper15 18-21, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    Some days I can't breathe.

    Some days I am screaming inside, hoping that someone can hear me, no one does. Some days I think of the past, ruminating as to why things had to pan out the way they did. Some days I'm on auto pilot, smiling on the outside, melting inside. Some days I mask my pain with laughter...
    sja516 sja516 22-25, F 2 Responses 52 mins ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Why would you think that telling me "just be

    happy" would just make it go away? I can tell a broken vase to "just be a vase again" but guess what? It's still broken glass. I can't say I'm suicidal anymore but I sure do have my share of suicidal ideations. I'm still trying to figure out why I'm this way and how it's so hard...
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F 26 mins ago

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    I am going to buy a,bunch of daffodils today,

    woo hoo! I like their smiley 'faces' and,sunny yellow to cheer me up a,bit.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat 41-45, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    While depressed, I let go.

    I let my mind & body do its own thing. Haven't gotten a haircut in the longest time, facial hair has to go, I've been lazy, eating whatever, drinking whatever. I just don't care and my body is feeling it.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    How to learn to love myself?

    I have no idea .
    Justicee124 Justicee124 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Recently, I've been experiencing a foreign

    feeling occasionally. I don't even know how to describe it, but it's as though I'm all warm inside. As though I'm ok, and that ok-ness isn't just a mask. As though I know things will get better. I think I'm finally experiencing true happiness, properly, for the first time in 3...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I still battle depression

    but the road to recovery is so much quicker once you learn to love yourself!!
    Lucyshrimp Lucyshrimp 22-25, F 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    School is messing with my head.

    .only if they knew the rage inside... everything just keeps getting worst and worst..I act normal, I try to act happy and be nice..I can't keep up with this, I'm beginning to punch concrete daily and ram into things to release energy. I hate this..I can't take it...the government...
    Redned21 Redned21 22-25, M 1 hr ago

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    I don't wish I were dead,

    but some time off being alive would be nice.
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    When my depression really kicks in I can't

    concetrate enough to read or watch t.v. Sometimes music will help, but for me I make myself get up and go outside. The sun the wind the birds and the sky they all seem to help to recharge me, and while my depression is still there it's no longer a raging beast I can't control.
    nobody54 nobody54 56-60, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I used to take drugs

    and when I lost my apartment 3 months before I was able to move, I prostituted for a place to stay. And for food.
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    bdeavera bdeavera 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    I struggle with suicide thoughts every time I

    pick up a plastic bag. Every time I bathe and every time I pick up a knife.
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 25 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    It'd be nice to have a friend to talk to

    when I'm feeling down, someone that I could help when they needed it as well. The times I've made friends they either end from a mutual lack of communication, or sometimes in some sort of unrequited love ( surprisingly not on my end ). I don't regret anyone I've met on here, but...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 6 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    So responsibility is knocking not literally at

    my door. I know I have sh-- to do but, I just want to curl up and stare at the computer watching and reading about normal people doing things I envy like working and buying food. I get $740-ish total a month in disability, but it's really not enough to get by. I dont even want...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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