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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,162 People

    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Every breath I take I'm not

    even sure anymore if its adding a second or deducting that second to my life.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I don't know exactly

    why I'm here or what I hope to accomplish by posting my thoughts. do I really want interactions? idk. do I want advice? it depends on my mood most likely. most everything does. I feel angry right now. I was very sad before at my last post and now I feel anger. It's slowly...
    janeblue2u janeblue2u 31-35, F 6 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    The moment you realize

    that it all depends on you, you decide to be happy or sad, to feel positive or negative, you own your choices, you decide how are you gonna feel today, everything becomes a lot more easier to deal with.
    Nobody112 Nobody112 16-17, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    "What is depression like?

    " he whispered. It's like drowning, except you can see everyone around you breathing.
    OrangeViolin OrangeViolin 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    i think i may have depression.

    i always feel hopeless and worthless but i know I'm not its ppl that make me feel that way and i always think life would be better without me but when i look at my kids i know to them that would not be true. i cry alot bc of my marriage but is it my husband that the problem or...
    ashleynichole25 ashleynichole25 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Momentarily I think its finally gone away,

    and then it just pounces back on me.
    bbrynnaa bbrynnaa 16-17, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    What can be said of a man

    who has no friends before he dies? How many times can you claim that it's not you, but them? This stark realization just delves me deeper into the darkness...creeping ever closer.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    i have graduated in college.

    i have work. im 26 yrs old and i'm not happy. since i was little i always feel im alone. right now i always cry at night. i always feel nobody loves me.... i am the type of person who constantly helps others, even prioritize other people than myself. but nobody has ever let me...
    loner1119 loner1119 26-30, F 11 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    It's not something you can get rid of

    so easily.. It's with you for life. A smile on the outside doesn't mean anything has changed on he inside.
    girlalive girlalive 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    No one cares about me.

    .I'm never wanted by anyone.I don't know what's true anymore I've been Lied too,cheated on,betrayed I'm tired of just about everything, I like to think people are different but every single one of them have hurt me..Not a single person appreciates what I do for them, they seem to...
    Toaster345 Toaster345 16-17, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    sealare sealare 13-15, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    yet another argument with my SO

    as he asked me to explain what I'm feeling, why am I sad, why am I angry. we've been together almost 7 years and still I need to do this? I don't have the energy for it. If he doesn't like me the way I am, here can break it off. I wish he would, in a way. I don't mind being...
    janeblue2u janeblue2u 31-35, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I hate the thought of taking medication.

    But when I don't, everything seems a lot harder.
    aewdabs aewdabs 18-21, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    shortfry3 shortfry3 13-15, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    can anyone tell me why I am

    so scared all the time. It's like everything I do I get super nervous before hand. Even if it's something as simple as walking into class and sitting down, for some reason it's so nerve-racking. I always feel like I am stressing about something. why!!
    noriebby noriebby 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Love is killing me. I love her

    and at the same time I hate her with all my heart. Somedays I love her with all my heart and even think of marrying her and making her the mother of my children. Somedays I'm completely indifferent, and I don't give a **** about her. Somedays (like today) I hate her with all...
    Maniueru Maniueru 22-25, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    depression makes me a little more composed.

    I should hate feeling gloomy. But it's so dolefully peaceful . Ah woe is me woe is me
    WalterSeymoreFlyming WalterSeymoreFlyming 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 25 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I not only bettle depression I battle low self

    image! I am so frustrated how guys tend to base a girl on what she looks like when we all get older and ugly with age your wife you marry will not always be skinny. she gain weight each child and new stretch marks her hair will turn gray and her boobs sag. So why this world so...
    MichaelaG MichaelaG 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I've been living with it

    so long. I won't recount anything from my past, just suffice to say it's been a long, medicated, bloody road. the past few years have been going decently enough, for me anyway. I've been taking my meds regularly since I got out of rehab. however, in the last 18 months I've had...
    janeblue2u janeblue2u 31-35, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Everything comes back to

    that there is part of me that feels like I deserve pain, and idk how to make that go away I've never known how. But then the other part just can't handle the pain anymore. Except the pain is the only thing that's ever mattered. The only thing that's ever felt right.
    dmbpal dmbpal 18-21, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    I've been emotionally unstable

    for two long, long years. I never was able to figure out why my depression and mood swings were so bad. I recently decided to switch my birth control from the patch to the iud, and have been off of the patch for almost a month. My boyfriend and I noticed an immediate difference...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    It's amazing how a song can bring back a

    memory/memories. You could remember that exact moment, what you wore, the other persons scent, the euphoric feeling you once felt about that person. I'm currently sitting in a cafe and a ridiculous James Blunt song came on and it ignited a wave of sadness. I am reminded at how...
    butterflyxhope butterflyxhope 22-25, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    One week I feel on top of the world,

    like I can do anything and the next week I find myself drained, thinking about ending it. No event causes this change, it just must be chemicals in my brain to make me feel these two extremes. It is really scary. I tell myself to not act on impulse. I am only twenty and I have...
    molliee151 molliee151 22-25, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014