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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,405 People

    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    If anyone is looking

    for a live chat site for depression and other diagnosis's check out www.depression-understood.org. Register for free and create a name. Then click on any of the rooms. Live chat rooms really help!
    WantingToGoHome WantingToGoHome 51-55, F 16 hrs ago

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    Although my mom suffers from depression she

    thinks that I can snap out of it and thinks that I have no legit reason to be depressed although she already knows the psychology and science behind depression. I told her about being depressed when I was 15 or 16. I never got help. I wish I could snap out of it. I don't want...
    todaypie todaypie 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Had to go to the doctor this morning.

    2nd time in 6 months I've left the house. Hated it. For some reason, when I'm in enclosed spaces I feel safer....but when I leave the house my chest feels crushed, my eyes dart all over. I feel like everyone is watching me, waiting for me this whole time while I hid in my house...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I don't think people understand how difficult

    it is to explain what's going on in your head, when you don't even understand it yourself.
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I don't know what I've done,

    I mean I was just an autistic girl with an aspiration, To be accepted, I tried to "patch things up" make them right... All I got was ignorance and rejection, You've tried to turn everyone against me, Is it entirely my fault that this happened? You were the one who asked me. I've...
    thedimone thedimone 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    The demons. They win again.

    They take over my whole self. My whole being. They push away others. They manifest themselves deep in my mind. They turn those who are trying to help me into different demons. They will not relinquish control. It's been years, I believed I had healed. Not completely but enough...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I am depression I am the emptiness you feel at

    2 am. The tears with no reason. The pain when you smile. I don't come alone. I bring my closest friends... We are the scars that cover your body. The voice you despise, but soon learn to trust... I am the only thing you will feel. Say this quoted somewhere and had to...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Tears streaks my face.

    Blood stains my arms. Pills in hand. Darkness envelopes my mind. A fortress around my emotions, demons at the gates. This is the beginning of the end. I will either triumph or fall. Only time will show....
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Everyday is so hard. My thoughts are never

    ending, my heart is in a panic, my head hurts, sleepless, overwhelmed, drained, all the things I can't stand....Praying to feel better.
    Tamona35 Tamona35 36-40, F 8 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Wake up with suicide on my mind,

    pop some pills to dull the thoughts, put on the fake smile and go to school, hide my thoughts and seem okay, get home and cry. Cry my bottled up emotions I've kept locked up, cut my arm to feel something. That's my life, every single day.
    dylanh9717 dylanh9717 16-17, M 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Can someone around my age who's going through

    depression message me please..? I need advice on stuff..
    Liseyyx Liseyyx 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I'm starting to get really ******* annoyed by

    being home all the time doing homework and **** while everyone else gets to got out and have fun. I don't even have any ******* people to talk to anymore 😡😡
    thisissamwut thisissamwut 18-21, M 1 Response 45 mins ago

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    For the past month I've been

    so depressed.. Today I felt happy, I feel happy right now. I wish it could stay this way forever. It's a nice feeling. I want you all to feel nothing but happiness, if not now, soon! ❤️
    kristen1993 kristen1993 22-25, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Depression, fear, and failure has been my worst

    enemy. I'm my own worst enemy. I could think and dream about all the great things about what life could be like, but I sell myself short, of empty promises. I live for the temporary, and never going anywhere. I know if I give up, there would be no growth, and I would go insane...
    RichiNatural97 RichiNatural97 70+, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I'm Tired of feeling stupid.

    .tired of getting hurt..
    James550 James550 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    It's always the small things

    that trigger my depression. Tonight my insecurities and anxiety in social situations kept me from truly enjoying myself. This was online in a game. Should've been fine. But jeez I'm not fine. It was nerve wrecking for me. I didn't quite fit in. Story of my life, not surprised by...
    kitakat00 kitakat00 26-30, F 1 Response 39 mins ago

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    jacobnipper jacobnipper 13-15 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Sometimes even a song can't describe the

    feeling of pain that I have to go through..
    nelizabth292 nelizabth292 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I'm having one of those days

    where I think everyone is better than I am. I'm comparing myself to my friends. They're smarter, prettier, and likable. Some days I just ******* hate myself.
    trademymistakesXxxx trademymistakesXxxx 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am gone. I'm so far gone you wouldn't

    even know So far gone I won't even show. I'm so far gone and there's no way out so far gone I just want to shout. I'm so far gone you could never hear me scream So far gone you wouldn't hear a thing. I'm too far gone I try and let you see. So far gone you wouldn't notice me. I'm...
    1986shanet 1986shanet 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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