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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,655 People

    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    I really thought I was doing better; I have

    been. For the last 20years, from Thanksgiving until New Years, I was emotional to the N'th degree, self medicated or harmed, and felt angry towards anyone who seemed happy. Why? Because life's not fair!!! Okay so I had to come to some realizations. Life is not fair. But I am...
    3EB333 3EB333 41-45, F 13 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    we dont get to trade our shoes,

    we get to walk no thousand miles. you dont know what hell ive been through. dont judge
    tearsarefallin tearsarefallin 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My best friend committed suicide almost three

    years ago. Recently I haven't ben able to think about anything else. I don't have many other close friends and the ones I do have don't live in my area anymore and don't understand what I'm going through. Even my friends who have also lost someone to suicide don't understand...
    amazingcuzitis amazingcuzitis 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    The sad part in depression are people

    who doesn't understand depression or just completely ignore people with depression. Depression comes from a lot of things, not going to say them all. I do suffer from depression and that since my younger age. It never went away. I've been bully all my entire life, almost and...
    Kiritosteele Kiritosteele 22-25, M 17 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 31

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    I have missed my last three doctors appointments

    and all I want to do is sleep all day, most of the time the pain is to much for me to deal with so I find it easier to just lay there in bed. I am not sure if I have just given up on life or if I am still trying to deal with it the best way I can. I don't want to eat anymore...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I really struggle with the holidays.

    . I'm not much liked in my family. I'm the black sheep. And my boyfriends side I don't believe I'm much liked either. There really is no place for me..
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I get really stressed.

    All the time. I think it's affecting me. Because my family is always fighting and I have a panic attack every time they fight, which is quite frequent. Can anyone tell me how to deal with this arguing? Or give me some tips?
    Greenvines123 Greenvines123 13-15, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I'm stuck in that place between crying

    and not crying. Basically it's like I feel everything minus the tears. I want it to stop. I just want to sleep. Its nights like this I miss late night phone calls with my ex. He always made me feel less like **** and he always answered. I'm sick of hurting
    kpreston95 kpreston95 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Look at yourself as a very good friend,

    help yourself, teach yourself to be a bit more selfish. I start to think in this way several months after I walked out from depression. Merry Christmas all brothers and sisters here.
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 12 hrs ago

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    I can't live with myself anymore.

    Not with this awful self loathing, hatred for everyone around me and longing to be in another place... All I want to do is go to my draw, empty a whole try of Seroquil and end everything.... :(
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Mental state not good today.

    Fending of the feels as best I can. Trying to kill these thoughts. My depression overrode the pot I got today. And I feel an anxiety attack coming on. All around not good.
    yamang yamang 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Yep. Basically a lot of girls hate me,

    and when i say a lot, I mean ALOT. They hate me because sometimes I'm impulsive and say rude, mean and hurtful things which makes them want to to beat me up. It's come to the point that I can't even post "Going to chipotle with friends!" Or "At the pizza shop!" Or anything...
    FreeSpirit420 FreeSpirit420 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    In so many ways I wish God was real

    and that everything happens for a reason, but I don't believe it
    Lifefucksusall Lifefucksusall 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    How can I try to cheer myself up after

    so many things in my life have gone horribly wrong? I'm not looking for attention or anything, or trying to have a" feel bad for me" thing. I literally hate my own birthday, can't trust most of my friends and family, and I'm second best to everyone in my life. I've struggled...
    codynv88 codynv88 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 9 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    twinkle twinkle little star,

    let me get hit by a car how I really wish to die, jump off the roof and try to fly twinkle twinkle little knife, help me end this wretched life
    tearsarefallin tearsarefallin 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Back in crisis. Suicidal thoughts.

    Bought some pills. I have no idea what to do.
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 25 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Girls I will always listen to you

    and I will never judge you :)
    charmingcutie charmingcutie 18-21, M 58 mins ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Yes I battle depression

    and yes I've been hospitalized thanks to depression and anxiety and family problems but the one thing I've learned from all of this is how to overcome depression without medications. Yes my psychiatrist has prescribed me antidepressant and yes I got them filled but I don't need...
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Before you diagnose yourself with depression

    or low self-esteem, first make sure you are not, Infact, just surrounded by assho#*s!! I changed my ways of looking at things years ago and now, it's all under control and looking good :) Merry Christmas :)
    h4n5dj22 h4n5dj22 26-30, M 7 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    *i wrote this on my notes a few months ago,

    but forgot to post it. I'm not sure which experience to post this on, so I'll post it here* I just got done reading all of my stories that I post on here and wow. I can't believe how depressed I was. It makes me sad, but I'm glad to see how much I've changed these past couple...
    SleepyRose22 SleepyRose22 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28

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    Today is actually the first day I really

    thought about suicide. I hate myself and everybody else does, there is no reason for me to actually live. I make the ones I love unhappy and they would be much happier when I am dead. Everything would be so much better if I wouldn't exist.
    sammyismyname sammyismyname 18-21, F 22 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I don't get it. I feel trapped inside my body

    and mind. It's difficult to feel joy. Even as a kid it was difficult to feel joy. Looking back on my childhood and adolescence I remember always feeling insecure,angry, sad, and lonely. But more than anything I felt so dull. When I was 18 I started working out and I lost 70...
    brokenandtwisted brokenandtwisted 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I've been battling depression

    for a long time. Six years at the least, and it's always been getting worse. But after 14 years of life and hope, six years of increasing pain, and countless nights of tears and suicidal thoughts, I'm still standing. I thank those who have supported me, and I hope those will...
    Shyspan Shyspan 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Tonight, I sit at the bar drinking my drink

    and I feel alone. People around me, laughing and having a good time but yet I feel alone In this room. I hate the empty feeling.
    tallchick003 tallchick003 22-25, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I put on fake smiles all the time.

    Everyone thinks I'm happy and one time I let it slip that I was depressed and my friends just said it wasn't a "Jill thing" like because I'm Jillian Segina I can't be depressed?! Some people need a smack. In the face. With a ******* bulldozer!!!
    JillianSegina JillianSegina 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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