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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,723 People

    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm in an odd place. I am a Borderline

    Personality Disorder sufferer, I was diagnosed in 2012. My marriage has ended, through my choice, and I have been telling myself the reasons behind my decision were sound. Now I'm starting to wonder if I've kidded myself into thinking my marriage had to end, and that really I...
    mikken78 mikken78 31-35, M 34 seconds ago

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    ogyyc ogyyc 16-17, M 9 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    The present is slipping into the past My future

    seems as bleak as today Will the misery go on? I could change it all today Give myself a better future And let that become my present You can't be happy with your past unless you are happy with your present. If you don't enjoy your present, change your future. If you have...
    samyoung8 samyoung8 18-21, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I may be depressed, I see everything negative,

    I was prescribed Zoloft but didn't take it because I feel like I shouldn't have to depend on a pill... I now just work and think, but my thinking goes beyond plans and what others think...I think about possibilities, like, what if the world disappeared? What if our time came and...
    edward012 edward012 18-21, M 5 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I've dug myself into a deep,

    deep hole. My only options are to keep digging, or sit back and let the crumbling earth fall in and fill my lungs. I'm not sure I have it in me to keep digging.
    Theforgotten4 Theforgotten4 13-15, F 5 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I was feeling tremendous power today

    until about two hours ago, then someone criticised me and now I feel like dying. I feel such profound self-hatred that I want to kill myself, almost as a way of exacting revenge against me on behalf of the world - as a kind of vindication. It would, I feel, immediately absolve...
    PhiliaSophia PhiliaSophia 18-21, M 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Do you ever find that one person

    that you just click with on a personal level? It was nothing romantic, but there is this girl who was new to my school, and on her second day we started talking and found out a lot that we have in common. A week later she was gone for a couple of days, and I assumed she was sick...
    Theforgotten4 Theforgotten4 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11

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    i'm on the verge of a huge panic attack

    and i feel like ripping my face off. oh and i'm crying my eyes out too.
    uunbeliever uunbeliever 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I'm so tired of feeling like this I'm

    so tired of worrying about the future I'm so tired of being angry I'm so tired but I cant sleep I'm so tired of being tired I'm so tired but my mind keeps me awake I'm so tired but I have to be here simply for my friends I'm so tired of the jealousy I'm so tired of my broken...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 31 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I'm going to be off here

    for a little while. Good luck to everyone. Have faith. Keep battling. Love you all x
    HarrietAC HarrietAC 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    I feel numb and idk what to do.

    ..all I do is cut deeper and deeper hoping i feel something
    h20polo13 h20polo13 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    Screaming inside. Why?

    !!! Fvck!!! Fvck!!! FVCk!!! Now my dad's cancer is back too. Is this all a fvckin joke!?!? I am paralyzed. Don't want to leave the house, I know I'll end up buying alcohol. Good thing I don't have access to other things cuz I want to be numb, turn off my head. Take myself...
    estrellita75 estrellita75 36-40, F 6 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Some days I stop and remind myself

    that there's more to me than the adversaries that surround me. That depression cannot deny the fact that I'm strong, determined and focused. Some days the power is with me. And if I can do it, trust me you can do it too! So stop for a sec and remind yourself the wonderful person...
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    Depression is called an illness.

    Sadly I don't believe it's curable. Medicine is simply hiding the depression, therapy just wastes time. And if you do believe you're fixed, you think about how ****** up you actually are and you think about your past. Welcome to depression, you've been locked in a cage and you...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I am not freaking good enough

    for anyone i can't freaking do anything right i don't even know why i am even freaking here anymore i certainly don't deserve him he is too good for me and my problems
    SophieMarkezzie SophieMarkezzie 18-21, F 6 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    I have been battling episodes of depression

    for the past 3 years. It's something I really never discuss with anyone. Seems like everyone is too occupied with their own lives to care or even notice. I'm really good about hiding it most of the time. I have a tough shell so even when I smile I'm slowing dying inside. I just...
    alishawill alishawill 22-25, F 5 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Gallowsweet Gallowsweet 18-21, F 8 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I feel like crap, I feel like I annoy people,

    I try to enjoy life then I fall being miserable again. I am taking medication but it's not making me feel happy that's all I want is to be happy again.
    Derek1995 Derek1995 18-21, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I image depression as this dark,

    pitch black, empty room. I try to find my way out but I just can't seam to find an exit, or even a light switch. It gets scary in their sometimes and I start to panic because I'm all alone and theirs no one that can or will help me.
    MondoEG MondoEG 18-21, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    This morning I found out one of my friends

    committed suicide. This is why I'm nice to everyone I meet, so things like this don't happen as often. I've had 3 friends who have passed away within this last year.
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    The depression is coming back harder

    than ever before. I just feel so guilty and useless all the time. I've also been having very poor sleep due to night time heartburn. Which doesn't help my mood. My dr recently put me on olanzapine on top of the latuda I've already been taking so hopefully it kicks in soon.
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I think tomorrow night is

    when I put everything to a end... On the first I owe my power and my rent and I haven't got the money at all... All this started with abuse that I couldn't stop, and being used and abused by those I love... And no the rest of what I have I lose too... Now I truly have nothing...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 6 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 35 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I....feel....numb. I.

    ...feel....stuck. I exist.....but I don't.....live.
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Why do I feel like I've missed out on

    so much, like time escaped me? I'm 24 and I feel like I never had a childhood. But I did. I can't seem to let go of the past, always wanting to do something a different way or try something I was too scared to do. It makes me realize that fear has always dominated my life. I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 13 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 17 hrs ago

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