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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 8 Responses Mar 18, 2015

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25, 2015

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    I feel great today, but sadly to me it's not a

    good thing. It just shows me that this is how I'd be without depression, without anger.. Normal. Normal me can get **** done and be a great person.. Why can't I feel like this everyday? My life would change so much and id actually be a decency to society. This **** sucks.
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 22-25, F 71 Responses Jul 9, 2015

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 18-21, M 9 Responses Mar 14, 2015

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    My depression and anxiety is getting the most

    of me these past 6 months. I can't study for more than 10 minutes without having panic attacks. It's so upsetting to constantly be mad or sad. I just want to be happy, but nothing makes me happy.
    Malone670 Malone670 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I feel depressed again.

    Some days I feel good and energetic, other days I feel down and just don't want to leave my bed. I don't think many people close to me can understand what I am going through. I have just been through the worst year in my life, when someone I loved and trusted dearly betrayed me...
    lostinbeauty lostinbeauty 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    For three years I've been wishing I was dead

    every day of my life. For three years I've woken up every morning disappointed to be alive. For three years I've changed so much, that I don't even remember who I was before. I'm not even sure what's wrong with me anymore. I used to know why I was depressed, but now... I don't...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Suicide? noooo! Please DON'T.

    Don't do it! Never! There's always a better way. If you feel so miserable and you think it's the only way out, YOU'RE WRONG! If you're being bullied or abused or some people are just so stupid enough to not see your worth... don't give them the satisfaction of proving they were...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been having suicidal thoughts ever

    since I was twelve, and have been self-harming ever since I was seventeen. And today has been a pretty bad day in terms of suicidal thoughts...
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I've become so cold,

    and uninterested with people. I just don't care. It's so unlike me. I've become so confrontational..
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    JunkFoodJunkie JunkFoodJunkie 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 21 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    When others say they're "depressed",

    they're awarded or applauded for opening up about it but when I try and share my personal experiences with it, i'm attention seeking or advised to keep it to myself?
    ragd0ll ragd0ll 18-21, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    An 18 year old should be loving life

    and have no problems. I absolutely hate mine, everything comes crashing down I've got back up so many times and tried but it still goes wrong. I know not everything is perfect but honestly I feel as if my life was cursed. I have no money for the career I want to do, I've never...
    SSJx SSJx 18-21, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Why couldn't I just be normal?

    I hate having depression so much it's literally handicaps me from doing so much for with myself and my life. I strive everyday to be happy, to be active and to live a positive lifestyle Yet when days like this come I feel like it's going to last FOREVER - I start...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Whenever I have a breakdown in school they're

    pretty bad. Sometimes I'm not able to speak and I keep trembling and there are other times when I just can't stop crying. My teacher (well, she's more than that) always comes to help me through them. Now she's left the school because of a better job offer. I miss her...
    Almostmadeit Almostmadeit 16-17, F 10 hrs ago

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    I was actually professionally diagnosed with

    depression about a week or two ago after a rough patch in my life started to get the better of me. The NHS service in the UK is free which I am so grateful for, but the only issue is that I have now got to wait god knows how long for any form of therapy/counselling, as there is...
    longdarkhair longdarkhair 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    I think scars are like battle wounds--

    beautiful in a way. They show what you've been through and how strong you are for coming out of it.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    my mom tells me to not be sad

    and to just be happy. but she just doesn't seem to get it. she doesn't understand what I go through. of course I want to be happy but I'm just not. I feel like I don't have any choice but to feel like this. sigh.
    Niceguy890 Niceguy890 26-30, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I know but.. Its like.

    . My heart and soul are locked to a certain place and certain person and certain life that im yet to have, IF i was set to have. Not a specific place, but somewhere where my soul finds peace, a seashore surrounded by mountains. Not a specific person, but someone who would look...
    Valencia Valencia 18-21, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    You've been gone almost a month now.

    I just want to hear your voice so badly... It's killing me.
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    IamNicolle IamNicolle 22-25, F 16 hrs ago

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    This is always the part of the cycle I hate.

    The tired part. It's the tired that sleep does not repair. I imagine if my brain was a mechanical organ made up of wheels, springs, and cogs, it would be an inconsistent motion of fast then slow, as though I am only wound for brief moments and even then it's a bit too tight...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 6 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    sievert sievert 13-15, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I hope you did and will have a good day.

    Please be positive and be kind to others. We'll never know what they're going through. I hope it gets better for you. Please see the beauty in life. Kick that negativity off! Conquer the trials and hardship! Tell this cruel life, " In your face you cruel life!!! Who's...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 22-25, F 11 Responses Mar 13, 2015

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 24 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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