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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,337 People

    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Haven't left my apartment in 3 days.

    Found my neighbor dead about a month ago and think I'm just beginning to process it. Between that and my already unstable mindset, I don't know how the rest of today will play out. I've fantasized for 3 days straight about killing myself.... I attempted last April and obviously...
    mi33sardonic mi33sardonic 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    If Anyone, I mean ANYONE.

    Needs to vent out feelings or just talk to someone about their depression, no matter how dark or horrible your thoughts are, I'm here! You don't have to fight that black dog alone. No judgments. I'm here. :)
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Amount of motivation

    for life = 0
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel so sad I don't know what to do anymore.

    This is taking a lot out of me.
    Mamiproud Mamiproud 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I'm having one of those days

    where I'm questioning who I am and everything I'm doing with my life. I need a vacation from my existence.
    SeanNation SeanNation 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    If I just knew what I was supposed to be doing,

    if I knew why I was here, what my purpose was, what it is I should be pouring myself into . . . and I felt like I was making a difference . . . I feel like that would help, & I wouldn't struggle with depression so much.
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Sometimes I think I don't want to try to be

    happy, that maybe feeling this way for so long has become my comfort zone.
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I hate having money. Well my dads money.

    We are very blessed, we never have to struggle, my parents give me & my brother everything. & my cousins aren't in the same situation. Like they always said I have everything & I'm a spoiled brat. They even one time admitted that they were jealous of me because of that. I feel...
    FreeSpirit02 FreeSpirit02 18-21, F 24 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    For some that are trying to call me a spoiled

    brat. Just know that my dad is a recovering drug addict that is really mean & uses verbal abuse that wounded me emotionally ever since I was little. My mom who does dialysis is very sick suffering from kidney disease, & has had multiple surgeries in the last 3 years & can barely...
    FreeSpirit02 FreeSpirit02 18-21, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I don't know what's emptier,

    my bank account or my love life.
    Cualitee Cualitee 13-15, M 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    estrellita75 estrellita75 36-40, F 13 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    So My Tarot reading of the afterlife

    reads Oppression Reflection Rebirth I also found out my next afterlife will remain unhappy. But suicide wasn't on during life. Maybe I could prove them wrong No. I find imagining tangle power is not enough I need perfect instances and events. And to find someone. Anyone...
    Pride49 Pride49 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So today I became sick in class (I actually

    threw up- something I havent done in about 5 years). I am embarrassed and dont really want to go back tomorrow
    Nottobeohsoblunt Nottobeohsoblunt 16-17, F 7 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I'm just that girl, I'm the one

    who was always there for you when you needed a smile. The one who fought you're battles with you. That girl who picked you up when you tried giving up. I was there when no one else was, when they all scattered like roaches in your darkest moments & you don't even realize the...
    XoxoxoMaryoxoxoX XoxoxoMaryoxoxoX 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    the birds dont sing, they just screech

    when im depressed lol the sun doesnt shine, it burns
    jazzg25 jazzg25 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm that person , that always says nothing

    when I'm asked whats wrong . I'm the one that always says I'm fine even when my face shows otherwise . I'm the one who is always quick to give help, but even slower to take help from anybody .
    Princeofthesky Princeofthesky 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Strength! The strength I find in you,

    Gives me the strength to do what I need to do. You give me my life itself, You are what brings out my best. You have never failed on me, Not as far as I can see. You give what it is I need to be, That is why you are the best of me. I now trust in you , What is it you want me...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 17 Responses May 27

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    I guess I do. I don't know,

    it always there, especially when I lay in bed and can't sleep. Not like I have anything to get up for. But then again I think I'm too old to be this way. It was ok back 20 years ago, then it seemed reasonable. But now, you'd think I'd be done with it. Although at times it seems...
    colddeck colddeck 36-40, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    The world has tricks

    that we play.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 22 hrs ago

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    youbrokeme youbrokeme 41-45, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I used to think I was ugly

    because my skin was so dark , but as time grew by I got over that and now I hate my lips !! Lol it's always something with me I guess am I the only person out there that always seems to find something wrong with myself .
    Princeofthesky Princeofthesky 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Can you hear it? The silence is deafening.

    Can you feel it? The blood flows freely. Can you taste it? The bitterness of defeat. Can you make it? Or will your life just cease?
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    My boyfriend of 2 years passed away over 1 year

    and 3 months ago now. In the first months of his passing I was in so much pain my heart would ache and ache feeling like it would burst out of my chest. Depression soon set in and I had to go to university within the first 2 months of losing my boyfriend. I still have really bad...
    starfish93 starfish93 18-21, F 4 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I just had the worst anxiety attack ever.

    . everyone and life ******* sucks. 😔
    Shianneee07x Shianneee07x 16-17, F 6 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 30 Responses Jun 16

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    I can feel it knocking at my door.

    As Winter approaches. The days are getting shorter. I feel a little more lonely each day.
    newlifeforme73 newlifeforme73 36-40, M 8 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    At times I wonder if this weight I feel wrapped

    around me will ever be freed. I dream big, but my reality can be quite underwhelming. The idea that life isn't fair and what we want may not always be can be quite depressing. Especially for someone with wild and sometimes unachievable aspirations like me. Depression is the...
    DetrimentalFallacy DetrimentalFallacy 16-17, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I can't sleep. Have had trouble

    for the last week and a half falling asleep. It is about to be 5am and I feel wide awake. My body is tired, but my mind and nerves won't stop. I feel very anxious. I'm so afraid of life. I'm afraid my best friend is going to die from her cancer. I think I'm going to call...
    estrellita75 estrellita75 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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