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    This depression sucks everything I have

    that is suppose to be enjoyable and fills it with sadness, guilt, anger, and everything i don't want. It destroys me with thoughts I don't want to have. When I want to be happy, it reminds me that I'm not allowed to have fun or even enjoy the things in life. I want to be free...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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    I've always imagined my life without my mom

    and how ****** it would be, my relatives would treat me like crap, like I'm nothing.
    apathy090 apathy090 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    i do usually feel this,

    but i have to fight back. i know how destructive this is. Just like right now, wanted not to wake up, but i fear it...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My parents are expecting me to give up my

    studies, studies that will help me get a job and leave this pathetic island and they want me to do all the housework while they do nothing. I feel so overloaded and it brings back bad memories. I keep holding them back but it really hurts my head, it feels like my head is gonna...
    StephBlakeIsInfinite StephBlakeIsInfinite 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    No matter how happy I am one day,

    the next morning I get dragged back into the black hole of depression.
    xmissunknownnx xmissunknownnx 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    It's strange, even when I'm happy I still feel

    like there's this sort of sadness in me deep down
    psychh psychh 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am going on medication tomorrow.

    I was recently diagnosed with chronic depression and anxiety, also known as Dysthymia. Since the 4th grade, and I'm now a Junior in High School. Years of being told I was making it all up by my parents and to "get over my attitude", the school finally stepped in and told them I...
    vanstable123 vanstable123 16-17, M 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I have had depression

    for a while now, at first I didn;t understand what was going on - I had a battle with myself day in and day out.I did a lot of soul searching and did a lot of research online.I reluctantly didnt want to go down the route of medication, its hard i must admit, with little help and...
    Gangstress Gangstress 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so lonely to the point im crying.

    No guy wants me. I've never been loved in my life. It's not fair how some people get to be loved and others don't. I have no one that cares about me. There just is no point. I can't even get a man
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Getting teary eyed for no apparent reason.

    Sitting in bed, trying to revise and I'm suddenly all teary. Anyone else struggle with this. It makes me think I'm unbalanced and as such won't be able to hold down a full time job after graduation :-/ (diagnosed with depression, tablets, therapy, I got the whole lot)
    heygrace heygrace 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I'm almost 20 and I've been depressed

    since I was 13. Things have gotten better, then worse, then better, then so much worse again. I'm trying so hard to do everything I can to be okay again because my depression puts a strain on my relationship with my boyfriend who I love so dearly.
    healedbydamage healedbydamage 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    kidkid240 kidkid240 16-17, T 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    i battle depression because of being rapt,

    molested ,and beaten from the ages of two tell i was nineteen i have constant relapse days were i don't wont to even get out of bed and if i see one lil thing on tv or see people do one lil thing out in public or hear lil words that they people that done this to me would do or...
    ecook19 ecook19 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Dear soul, We may have an ocean between us,

    or not. We may be different or sharing dreams. We may have met in the street today or we will someday. Maybe we will never see each other but it doesn't matter. You, reading this message, you are not alone. You are with me. Because I love you. So don't give up. I know this...
    PaleRaven PaleRaven 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    To all the depressed people suicidal n all,

    before you say something, ask yourself one question. Have you ever tried living? Put some effort in to living? Have you ever eaten nutritious things that your body and mind soo needs? Have you ever put in 2 hrs of physical labor that ur body needs by nature in order to get...
    Bllahblah Bllahblah 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    They say it is never too late.

    You can overcome. The pain can be shifted through. We can shed the pain, ounce by ounce. They tell you of the end product. Of the freedom you will feel. But they lack to tell you of what you must endure. To get your freedom you must relive it all. You must face every demon, you...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Today has been an emotional mess.

    I went from focused and energized to sitting here on my couch with a strong urge to cry. nothing is wrong. :(
    cchavez84 cchavez84 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    SamanthaCat23 SamanthaCat23 22-25, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I'm having an incredibly hard night.

    I relapsed with my self harm again and I want to cry. My life feels like a paradox. Everything I do to make me happy makes me upset, but if I didn't do it I would be upset too. I wish life was easier, the longer I stay alone with my thoughts the worse they get. My brain is...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate black people,

    and I believe hitler should have gas chambered blacks too, black people are behind every crime, they steal stuff from malls rob banks killing is another work done by blacks. I think black people shouldn't be counted as humans, God has created blacks to serve us, they should have...
    Aamir316 Aamir316 26-30, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    KoltonKnoch KoltonKnoch 16-17, M 8 hrs ago

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