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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,716 People

    ive lost everything im going to sound

    so selfish. right now im sorry. my husband just drop a bomb on my telling me the only reason he married me is because he thought things would change. iv had CPS involved in my life. They took my children away but the good note of that they are with family well my husband...
    oni2013 oni2013 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I guess it's just mild

    and barely there but it's still there... :/ I've self harmed and I have negative thoughts a lot and some days just feel like I have 0% energy but I fight it! I already have anxiety, ocd and some ptsd tendencies, I don't need another problem no thanks
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I'm tired of everything,

    I don't wanna leave my house for a whole ******* week
    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 6 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I sometimes just want to go to a secret place

    in the nature to get away from everything and everyone, forever. Maybe somewhere in the sky, a secret place where no one will find me. I'm just so tired of the rules of society, the world and it's ****** incidents :'(
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I hate my life. I hate stupid abuse.

    Im recovering from abuse. this is stupid. its very painful. I think Im losing my sanity. I feel Im gonna flip the **** out. I was tortured . horribly tortured. He loved hurting people. I am suffering.......... AAAaaaaaaAAh
    amtired amtired 22-25 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    There are times in my life I wish I was capable

    of being content and happy. The last few days all I did was try to hard to not feel defeated and sad and alone and scared. I was able to for a little bit but I'm back here to this tiny emptiness. I want good things to happen to me. I want to be strong. I pray for that day to...
    cutecrazy05 cutecrazy05 22-25 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So in a few weeks I start my new college

    classes (I'm in a program called early college so I take both high school classes and college classes at the same time). One of them is a yoga class that I'm hoping will help me with my depression. I got my yoga matt today and I'm really excited to start the class. I just hope...
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    jackknifedtruck jackknifedtruck 36-40, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Down from 355 lbs to 220.

    I am literally hating myself away. I can't eat. Can't sleep. I fear that the stress is making my hair start to thin and fall out, as if I didn't hate myself enough anyway. Part of me thinks "I've beaten this before." But another part of me says "How many more times will I have...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    It's not my fault that I don't have any friends.

    It's my ancestors fault for breeding not thinking of anyone else,but themselves. Didn't they know about genes or were they too retarded? I have to deal with my uglyness and dumbness everyday.People hate me as soon as they see me because of the way I look.People judge a book by...
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Everyday I play my games,

    talk to friends, read my books and sing my songs. And every night, I either love the day or die from it. It's always half and half; one day I'm surviving my depression, and the next, I'm drowning in the darkness again. And I guess tonight I'm drowning again. I had been...
    Shyspan Shyspan 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    This my sound childish

    but I battle depression. I'm always alone no one asks if I'm okay. And when they do and they don't mean it I lie. Like they actually care about my feelings. But come for me for help and/or advice. I believe in the saying age is just a number. Maturity is a choice. And I also...
    RedBloodRose RedBloodRose 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    is depression is just a fancy term?

    what am i doing to my life?
    conf19 conf19 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    When people say cutters just do it

    for attention, I feel like it's more of a cry for help yknow? Idk ig like more specifically they want to let a specific some1 know their hurting so that they can have hopes of that person coming to them which would make them happy. Then if that person they really wanted doesn't...
    WaldoUnfindable WaldoUnfindable 16-17, M 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 9 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't kill myself. Why?

    I don't care what good is in store for me if any. I just want to die.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 31

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    DepressedFool DepressedFool 16-17, F 6 Responses 19 mins ago

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    I can't seem to beat my bad luck it's

    phenomenal. I'm positive person by nature but life's events are grinding me down. Who knew one person's life journey could be riddled with one crisis after another. I always assumed there's couple in there during entire lifetime but not one after another. I wonder if I'm cursed...
    Imoveryou Imoveryou 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    annettesan annettesan 36-40, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Im confused and lonely.

    I feel sad and cold I feel misunderstood and muted .
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Some time during the 6th

    or 7th grade.. I started getting depression, and it only grew even stronger since it was left untreated and things got worse in my life.. so now I'm failing school and close to being a high school drop out if i don't turn things around and get it under control but if there is...
    myownconsultant myownconsultant 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    hbjjg hbjjg 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today was Boxing Day,

    and I went with my mother and younger brother to visit my uncle and aunt and a few of their friends. As predicted, it was awful. I was surrounded by loud, obnoxious and overly opinionated people. By overly opinionated I mean the strength and volume of a person's opinion greatly...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've felt for the last year

    as though I'm living in a dream. Everything that happens is so vague yet viciously vivid all at once. I've had relationship breakdowns, suicide attempts, drug overdoses, international trips, an oncoming psychosis, job promotions, public melt-downs and out-pourings of emotion to...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 6 hrs ago

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    Reznin Reznin 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I keep having a reoccurring nightmare.

    I can't get it out of my head either. I dunno if it has anything to do with what I've been through (it probably does) but I keep on having a dream (a very terrorizing and horrid one) where my dad rapes me. I don't know if it is normal or not? but it's beginning to kill me, I...
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...