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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,384 People

    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    I've been battling with depression

    for a while now, and the road to recovery is a tough one. I go to therapy now, and in a few weeks I'm going to find out whether my depression is psychological or caused by a hyperactive thyroid. If it ends up being a thyroid problem, my doctor can give me better, more effective...
    queercutie queercutie 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Worst feeling in the world - to know what

    exactly is bringing you down, yet not being able to do anything to survive.
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    It's funny how good I feel today,

    it feels like the world has been lifted off my shoulders.. Nothing even happened today, just beautiful weather that I'm sitting outside enjoying.. Fresh air never felt so good
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Just laying in bed overthinking my problems

    like I always do late at night. :/
    alexjohnson28 alexjohnson28 18-21, F 12 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    This hurt.. So my girlfriend dumped me last

    night. You want to know why? She wasn't satisfied. I'm so distraught and humiliated right now...
    Winbu Winbu 16-17, M 4 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    It's hard when you meet someone new

    and you don't know how to tell them that well you're ******.. And it's so scary to think of how they might react when the bad times come ....
    ttn159 ttn159 16-17, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I am really bad at explaining my life

    because I always get cut off by everyone around me. I and a original school boy who can't talk about their life. I have been a victim to attempted murder and I can't live like this no more please help me change my life.
    FrozenSoldier1245 FrozenSoldier1245 13-15, M 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I'm home alone with my cats

    until Halloween and I forgot to feed them this morning and yesterday morning. My mom is usually the one who does it. I feel like a terrible person.
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 2 hrs ago

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    Ive been relatively happy these past two weeks,

    thanks to the therapy and meds. But something is still not right. I cant seem to get myself to go and get a job or do something with myself. This is exactly what I feared about getting better. I guess the lack of motivation wasn't caused by the depression, but just me being lazy...
    DifferentOutsider DifferentOutsider 22-25, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I have cried myself to sleep

    for the past 2-3 years. After my friend killed herself things have just gotten worse. Sometimes I feel like I'm getting better, but I'm not. I have an amazing boyfriend, but he doesn't understad. Cuddling with him won't make everything alright. I really wish it would, but it's...
    berithepso berithepso 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I'm scared. I keep having nightmares

    and they are so realistic and so gruesome. Sleep used to be an escape for me, but now I'm afraid to go to sleep. Yet I'm frightened to be awake and trapped in my horrifying thoughts. I know it's probably the trazodone I'm taking that's causing my nightmares. The content of these...
    kberry95 kberry95 18-21, F 7 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Every day is a new battle,

    a new struggle against my mind. It's like a dark cloud is hanging over me and I can't escape; I am my own personal stalker.
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I've never been so betrayed by the ones

    who say they love me above all else. And it's all about something so minuscule. My college counselor and I sat down and started talking about my essay a couple months ago. I told him I've been thinking off the wall about topics but there was only one that I couldn't get out...
    phiazombie phiazombie 16-17, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Ya know what...I'm tired of beating myself up

    over everything...I love who I am! I have a deep respect for my thought process. Haha! I'm just gonna be happy! Forget the world! Forget the stress and anxiety! I'm not afraid to live my life, things are gonna be great! :D
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    i have always had depression.

    but,last year i had surgery.while sitting in the hospital i realized something...i have written about it,but it never hit me like it did then,i am alone.i have no one.for all that i have done to help my family,friends,i have no one that i can count on. and it really took the wind...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 hr ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Trust me, I know how it feels.

    I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower, so no one can hear you, and waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels...
    Meloryne Meloryne 16-17, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    University is really helping me with my

    depression. Before I started university, I hit a really rough patch again where I barely wanted to get out of bed. It worries me, because the course I applied to requires a certain standard of your own health. I didn't feel like I was well enough to be on the course. I was so...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 1 Response 51 mins ago

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    It occurs to me that

    for many people battling depression is a losing battle, and that perhaps some do not realize that this is a battle that we do not have to loose. I live with depression but most of the time I know that I have the ability to overcome it. Over the years I have learned more and...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I guess it's not situations

    that bring unhappiness, it's mostly people. Trying hard to stay away from negative vibes.
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I battle depression, I'm suicidal,

    I self harm. It sucks that what people say/said to me made me like this
    jasmire jasmire 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    So very tired of not sleeping,

    crying, looking like crap, feeling weak in my soul. People depend on me for so many things, and I sometimes feel like no one is there for me. Even doing the "right" thing feels awful! Trying to be optimistic and looking for the bright things in life.
    Irishloner Irishloner 46-50, F 6 hrs ago

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    AcousticLover AcousticLover 16-17, F 5 mins ago

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    I forgot what it felt like to be happy.

    . Without having suicidal thoughts all the time. I'm afraid to ask for help.. I'm a fraud to show how I really feel. I just don't want to feel this way anymore..
    BabyYourMine BabyYourMine 16-17, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I can feel myself getting pulled back into the

    depressing state. Opening up and getting close to people,in my opinion, is overrated..
    DarkGoddesss DarkGoddesss 16-17, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Here are some tools in my anti-depression

    toolbox (things that work for me in battling depression). Note: these are things that work for me, whereas your toolbox may need to be different. - Music (both listening to it and singing) - Exercise - Vitamins - A calendar keeping track of good days with smileys and bad days...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I've battled depression

    since I was young . I've done and been through things people shouldn't of been through. No one listens to me. I have so much on my shoulders and still no one listens
    alishaemmorey alishaemmorey 16-17, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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