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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,929 People

    Why is it so dark? When did my path became

    such a gravel road, with the sinister aura of James Newton Howard's beautiful composition which carries the same name. I have few friends i hold dear but cannot handle trusting them. I have a girlfriend that would do anything for me, yet i keep my distance even after 3 years. I...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Just waiting for Monday.

    .. Home alone.
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    If anyone wants to talk,

    just message me :) I'm here for you
    haily9784 haily9784 22-25, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    God I thought I was getting better.

    . Sure it's only 1-3 bad days a week but their hell, worst than ******* ever, I started cutting again and uh I can't handle anything in those times..
    ttn159 ttn159 16-17, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Get out of bed. Get off the couch.

    Just move. Find some motivation. Some reason to move. Why is this so damn hard? Why.
    ncon08 ncon08 18-21, F 42 mins ago

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    Hello, hope your day is great

    because you are! :)
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    sometimes it gets the better of me.

    ..makes me not want to do anything...I dont feel like existing sometimes. and nothing really works or help. No one really understands how I feel, but I fight it nonetheless....its not fair on others for me to mope and complain, not when there is **** to do and not when there are...
    Jesse287 Jesse287 18-21, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I cried myself to sleep this evening

    and wake up with a headache, diarrhea and nausea... I vomited twice ... i wish somebody care about my well being
    shazmn shazmn 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    **** you depression, **** your endless waves

    of darkness i want to see some light. you're too emotionally draining for me and i think it's time we broke up. i deserve to be happy and trapped in a black room with flickering lights of hope here and there. i need more. keep your lonely thoughts and miserable tactics to...
    xyourxonlyxstarx xyourxonlyxstarx 22-25, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I hate it when you are surrounded by all your

    friends and yet you still feel alone. Thanks cheer...worst. meet. ever.
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    I just wanted to share this,

    so it's only short. I was bullied harshly in school and no matter how much I ignored it, reported to teachers or stood up for myself, it still continued. I felt I had to do something really drastic to stop them and I was desperate to stop the taunts, the hits, the name calling...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 12 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy.

    I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my depression and anxiety led to a suicide attempt that landed me in the hospital. After being out of school for so long since I was in the hospital I...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    This is a poem I wrote

    when I was 14 What am I doing here I want to go home Nothing's funny anymore Nothing seems even remotely interesting anymore So why did I even come here? More smiling, more nodding Until they finally leave Even now all I really want to do is turn back But instead I'm...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    Everything is so hard

    for me. My life has gone downhill since my boyfriend left me. I'm a single mom who is battling depression and suicidal thoughts. Today my ex boyfriend just admitted to me that he found someone else after 2 weeks of the break up. My heart is all broken. I didn't even cry when I...
    TwingleLittleStar TwingleLittleStar 18-21, F 8 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I've been fighting this

    for as long as I can remember. I do my best to hide it, to smile and joke and laugh. But as soon as I am alone I am choked and smothered by my overwhelming feelings of pity, disgust, hatred, and so much more. I tried talking to my boyfriend about it and he quickly ignores my...
    Amami Amami 22-25, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Whenever I open up to people they laugh at me

    and tell me I'm too young. I didn't choose to be this way, if I could change I would.
    MW413 MW413 13-15, F 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I broke down in front of my mum again this week

    and she said that if I keep sliding further into depression she'll pull me out of school....she already has no idea how bad it already is, no one does:( I'm so scared of her finding out and pulling me out of school I can't let that happen but some days are just so dark that I...
    paledaisy paledaisy 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    Is there really a "happy ever after" sure

    dosent seem like I'm good enough for a gf
    SportsGraphCollector SportsGraphCollector 22-25, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 31

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    Is it ok for guys to cry ?

    Or want to cuddle with some one and just have some one ?
    Cookdc12 Cookdc12 22-25, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Another really bad day,

    I've spent the last five hours trying to find reasons to live without overshadowing each thought with regret. Feeling like I let myself down. I've spent the last 21+ years trying to be a person I'm not. Now I've tried so hard that my path is pretty much unchangeable and I can't...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Okay so, I had an account "shianneee07x"

    but I decided a couple weeks ago I didn't want anything to do with this site anymore, and I forgot my password on that account and made this one. So if we've talked before, feel free to message/add me! but anyways right now it's like the only thing I can turn to and open up...
    DepressedxxParadise DepressedxxParadise 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Today was one of those days.

    You know the ones. All the little things have built up. And suddenly you're crying over something stupid and you can't stop. It's exhausting. But I got through it.
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My mom keeps telling me how she just wants me

    to be happy again and every time she says that I just start bursting out in tears.
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    So I have really bad depression

    that got worse about two years ago when my uncle (who was like my dad) died & then two weeks after my Bestfriend killed himself. To be honest I usually don't like people in my head so I refuse to seek help && I self medicate. No big deal everyone smokes but my brother decided to...
    LizTaylor LizTaylor 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I had a dream, I was crying

    and shouting... I wake up and i want tell someone about my dream but theres no one that cares about me, though I did told my bf about my weird dream but we didnt talk much about it and as usual the conversation drift away and we soon talked about his works and such... No one...
    shazmn shazmn 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Here's my poem: If i were to die no one

    wold notice I could use a noose or a knife there Would only be blood left of me pouring Out or just broken bones there would Be no more pain for me I would be Free yet still hurt some how it's a never Ending circle and it never ends it always Moves...
    SykikGhost1 SykikGhost1 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't get why she still wants to be my friend

    if all she does is make me feel bad about myself. I know than I'm inadvertently insensitive when I speak sometimes, but I'm just a rational person, I'm not trying to hurt anyone...I'm just trying to be myself
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 36 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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