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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 70,529 People

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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    If you can't control the way your mind is

    thinking, bless it and have trust things will get better. The answer always comes in one form or another. The main thing to survive is to have patience, which is attained through faith and belief in your own Self.
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    today is just one of those days.

    Wake up. Eat. Cry. Work. TGIF woot
    ollifer ollifer 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I often feel so worthless

    and stupid. No one understands my social anxiety or depression. im just told to "snap out of it" i feel trapped and suffocated. i feel alone and sad. i often picture my funeral and no one being there. i often picture my family finding me dead and not shedding a tear. my life has...
    lilpeanut24 lilpeanut24 22-25, F 12 Responses 2 days ago

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    omg i deal with depression every day

    sometimes I wake up in the morning I wonder what kind of mood i will in be in this time
    tigradoll tigradoll 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel myself sinking

    and sinking. even after getting help I feel like I'm loosing it. I feel crazy. I'm moody and go off on people for no reason and I know while I'm doing it it's wrong and it's not their fault but I can't stop. I wanna cut but I have no access to anything. when I expressed that...
    PaigeOfSteel PaigeOfSteel 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Wish I just had a switch to turn it off.

    .. it gets really hard sometimes to put a smile on my face and show the world that I'm OK... when I'm really not..
    Neverforgether Neverforgether 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    If I could just get up in the morning,

    do as a normal human being does. If I could just get up, get ready for the world, stop overthinking things, stop stressing for not doing anything and just function... But I can't. It's a force that's making me not do anything. Making me sit around. Making me tired, drained...
    Storiesnotforthefaintofheart Storiesnotforthefaintofheart 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Everything I do I seem to fail at.

    I fail at being an adult. I fail at life. I am unemployed, and still live with my parents...I'm 26! I feel like I'm wasting my life away. I want to be like everyone else, and contribute to the world, but I've been in a downward spiral for years now, and I don't know how to claw...
    limeness limeness 26-30, M 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Every time I look at myself in the mirror I

    feel like I'm suffocating. I'm just so unhappy with myself. An extremely intense wave of just straight self hatred comes over me every time I see myself. I've always hated myself but not like this. Never like this. I'm thinking about just ending it all. I feel like I will never...
    underwaterlilly underwaterlilly 16-17, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    It's quite sad that the "I battle depression"

    group has 70,000 people in it, and the "I am happy" group has only 3000 people in it :(
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I haven't smoked or hurt myself in almost 8

    years, but every 6-8 weeks I go through a cycle of severe depression and the urge to smoke or hurt myself. It lasts a week or less. The only way I've avoided doing something I'll regret it because I know it'll be over soon (until next time). Some times are harder than others...
    punkrockprincess0314 punkrockprincess0314 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I drink almost everyday

    because I do not know what I am dealing with. I feel if I go home, I would be incomplete and quiet. I love my parents yet I fear being in a quiet zone. My mom tries to talk but I have nothing to say. I am 6 antidepressants every night and I am not suppose to drink. But when I do...
    deceptiveoutofcloset deceptiveoutofcloset 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    im always goin through depression its a daily

    thing for me whether it be from social anxiety changes that came into my life that happened or werent supposed to happen its hard for me to explain in words but Im fighting depression everyday
    aaronpayne aaronpayne 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    having a bad few weeks.

    today, my mom threatened to end my insurance over a little disagreement. both of my parents have told me I should just leave their houses (divorced parents- I still live at home). they know I can't, especially not with my new medical problems. I also went to the doctor again the...
    etceteraetcetera etceteraetcetera 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Omg my doctor wants me to schedule an appt

    for next week. I have spent all day crying. I am not ok right now. My therapist thinks I am okay, my doctor thinks I am okay. My husband thinks I am okay. I have spent all day arguing with myself; reasons why you shouldn't kill yourself. I get it, I look nice, dress nice, I am a...
    hotwasabizen hotwasabizen 41-45, F 11 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    dealing with depression it's not fun at all

    sometimes i wanna scream everyday you gotta deal with people you don't like when im stress out i like isolate myself from everyone cause i don't have time for drama things like that wish i never had depression
    tigradoll tigradoll 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm sinking... further

    and further into the quicksand.. I grasp desperately for help, but nothings there. the more I struggle the quicker I sink.
    meowziewowzie meowziewowzie 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    All the songs I write have

    such depressing lyrics. It's why I can't show my music to anyone. I keep trying to rewrite lyrics or redo them entirely so I can make them less depressing and be able to release the songs someday. But why bother? These so songs are like a diary of who I am and who I was. I just...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    At the moment, all I want is to scream

    or weep. I am not sure why. I do not know what is going on with my life anymore. I do not have any suicidal thoughts, I do not have any major problems I believe but things are just getting harder. The things I have always wanted seem to be so far away from me; so impossible to...
    FreeyourSoul FreeyourSoul 70+ 1 Response 2 days ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    The worse I feel about myself,

    the more I like making others feel good about themselves. I would never want somebody to experience this pain.
    Gingerfab Gingerfab 18-21, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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