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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,046 People

    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Lately I have been watching TV way too much,

    and not knowing why I cannot stop. Today it occurred to me that it may be part of me subconsciously working on getting my depression worse, so that I am at a low enough state to jump start self improvement. Don't know if this makes sense to anyone else: Making myself worse to...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    No one runs away from his past,

    just when u think you got ur life figured out, its gonna cone and get you so bad because monsters dont really get anything nowadays.. You just have to surrender to the darkness of ur life and face ur demons, adapt them and learn how to live with them.. Finally, NEVER forget who...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    How long will it be so gloomy

    and dark and cold out there? It rained ice today. It is much harder to overcome depression when it is raining ice. I'd just like some sunshine and warmth - is that too much to ask?
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Today my depression got 10x worse.

    Lost 2 people I care about most and everything is just going down hill for me...
    Okayokay18 Okayokay18 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    When my depression really kicks in I can't

    concetrate enough to read or watch t.v. Sometimes music will help, but for me I make myself get up and go outside. The sun the wind the birds and the sky they all seem to help to recharge me, and while my depression is still there it's no longer a raging beast I can't control.
    nobody54 nobody54 56-60, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I live my life one day at a time!

    For I force myself to cope for the happiness and well-being of my 9 year old son.
    Yaakov012464 Yaakov012464 51-55, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Anika1258 Anika1258 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    So responsibility is knocking not literally at

    my door. I know I have sh-- to do but, I just want to curl up and stare at the computer watching and reading about normal people doing things I envy like working and buying food. I get $740-ish total a month in disability, but it's really not enough to get by. I dont even want...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I am going to buy a,bunch of daffodils today,

    woo hoo! I like their smiley 'faces' and,sunny yellow to cheer me up a,bit.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat 41-45, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Having depression is more

    than just being sad. It's like hearing a boss' battle music all the time, but the boss is not there. It's you.
    oceansopen oceansopen 22-25, F 20 hrs ago

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    I haven't gone to school

    for almost a month bc I just sleep all day everyday.. I get up at night to go to the bathroom and get water then go back to sleep I don't see a purpose of waking up anymore No one needs me or loves me...when I do go to school my teachers complain about me and how I'm not...
    xxangellynnxx xxangellynnxx 16-17, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    How to learn to love myself?

    I have no idea .
    Justicee124 Justicee124 18-21, F 1 Response 40 mins ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Depression has taken over my life.

    I don't even have the energy to get out of bed sometimes. All I do is lay in bed on my phone and blasting music, ignoring the world. I miss being happy.
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    It'd be nice to have a friend to talk to

    when I'm feeling down, someone that I could help when they needed it as well. The times I've made friends they either end from a mutual lack of communication, or sometimes in some sort of unrequited love ( surprisingly not on my end ). I don't regret anyone I've met on here, but...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 6 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    My depression is always constant.

    It's like a humming. Most days I can get by without it sounding too loud. Other days, it's deafening. Either way, it's always there. Sometimes, it feels like my only friend because it's reliable. I've lived with it for so long that the thought of my life without it scares me. At...
    Nero82 Nero82 31-35, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I don't wish I were dead,

    but some time off being alive would be nice.
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I thought to myself today: "I'm tired.

    " Then upon further thought I realized that I have been tired a very long time. On the very scarce and rare days when I do have energy it's quite literally like emerging from a fog - waking up from a deep slumber - the first day of spring - I feel ALIVE. The world is mine to...
    sbj120 sbj120 18-21, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I want to get better,

    I need to get better but those things don't matter unless I'm trying to get better. I need to get better for myself and for the people I care about . It's hard .. It really is hard but I'm trying. I thought I'd never get out of it and I was scared . Though now I'm working...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Suicide is Painless by Johnny Mandel https://m.

    youtube.com/watch?v=xIIqYqtR1lY
    thumper15 thumper15 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Haveing a real low time cant be bothed with

    anything not had any sleep for 3 weeks now and have spent 2 days on my sofa not even getting out of my PJ's nothing helps just want to sleep and not wake up
    katty81 katty81 31-35, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    It has been nearly a year

    since I got out of my depression. The last time lasted months and months. I first joined this group for help, and when I was over it I stayed to try and help. I try. But the issues I faced the last few times, what plunged me into the bottomless pit I wore myself out trying to...
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I struggle with suicide thoughts every time I

    pick up a plastic bag. Every time I bathe and every time I pick up a knife.
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    depression. I can't help

    but feel pessimistic about everything. I see the cup as half empty. I can't live with myself.
    unfairlives unfairlives 22-25, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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