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I Battle Depression

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    I'm done. I'm done with crying

    whenever I get a minute to myself, I'm done with not knowing where I am. I'm done with doing things like looking on facebook or texting people when I know they're busy just to trigger myself. I hate it, I hate fighting it, and I hate taking medication. I don't want to fight it...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It comes and it goes,

    then it goes away again I feel happy, happier than I've felt in as long as I can remember. In fact I can't remember why I was ever sad? I have nothing to be depressed about. My life is fine, I have so much to offer the world. I'm quite pretty, kinda clever and I can be funny...
    xxlouisebaby xxlouisebaby 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 hr ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 77 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    kruges kruges 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 17

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    I just want to kill myself at this point,

    I could do it in a quick second and I want too and think I will tonight
    lostsoulandunknown lostsoulandunknown 16-17, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    About to cave in again.

    Don't know if I can fight it. I'm not the one to beg, in fact I find it kinda degrading, but a friend asked me to try something else besides slicing my writs. Please, someone help? Edit: Anyone?
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    There is a part of Me

    that i wish to erase. That is the part of me that is weak and dark. The part that pulls me down and makes me deeply sad. Yet it is the part that makes me feel in control by hurting My soul. That part of me hardens My heart. My mindre hurts I want to learn how to live without...
    monah monah 22-25, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    philm79 philm79 31-35, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Im so ******* sick of hearing my mother say

    if i got some fresh air i would feel better
    jennaveivea jennaveivea 36-40, F 11 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Tell me it will be okay,

    it will all fade away :S
    bR0k3nWings bR0k3nWings 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Sourminds Sourminds 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I hate it when everyone around you makes you

    feel like dirt for battling depression even my own mother hates me for this people make fun of me and they say oh it's depressed girl , it feels like everyone is constantly trying to break me
    elinahowl elinahowl 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Phone is still unable to access this site.

    .. Clearly they don't care. Go figure, I'm willing to vet if it was someone else saying they had issues they would correct... That's the thing... In this world its not who you know but how you know them. Its either about assets such as money and properties, or popularity. That...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 7 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 30 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    My mom got her scan results back,

    her cancer is in her lungs and they've found a spot at the base of her brain. I hate my life right now.
    ksgirl11 ksgirl11 18-21, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I went to the park today with my son

    and my friends disabled grandson. I'm trying to break through the emotional solitude I've been in . I've been off all my depression meds Sence August 21 st it's been just over a week now and I've been feeling emotionally week and like my heart has been broken to bits. I'm trying...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 44 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was doing so well,

    and the. Last night everything just went down the drain. All the things I've been trying to work towards. It's gone now
    BeYourOwnSavior BeYourOwnSavior 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been thinking about suicide more

    and more recently. I think about it for an increasing period of time at night before I sleep. I've been thinking about it for about 2 hours straight now. I like thinking about it. I think it will eventually push me to finally do it. I used to think about my mom and how she...
    Ajoseph219 Ajoseph219 16-17, M 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Walter Benjamin, although he killed himself,

    gave me the most beautiful visions of hope in his work. Him and Brecht.
    mp446 mp446 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    I see no point to it all ,

    no body around me cares , I sit there thinking about suicide and how simple it would be just to end no one would miss me so my death won't be inconvenient but i find a way of continuing.
    StereoPhonix StereoPhonix 13-15, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Im in a tough situation right now.

    I just found out last week that Im sick and the chances of me getting better is not really that great. It is possible but not a 100%. I havent told my family yet because I certainly don't know how to drop the bomb. And im kind of scared too. Scared of the heartbreaks my illness...
    sayangeiram sayangeiram 22-25, F 7 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I know no body cares

    and that everyone would be happier if I killed myself.. But that just gives me the strength to want to kill myself
    lostsoulandunknown lostsoulandunknown 16-17, F 6 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 21 Responses Jul 7

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    I am not depressed. I have depression.

    Yes, yes it does suck. Some days are much harder than others. But instead of letting this take over my life, let it defeat me I chose to rule it, to destroy it. I defeat and take over it! I try and live each and everyday to it's fullest, smile at everyone, she the older people I...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 11 Responses Aug 11

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Why is that when I see others living their

    lives, traveling, having fun I get so sad? I believe its because I desire that lifestyle but what I realized is that those people aren't always happy and they are not always living that life. They are just pictures of short moments of fun and happiness. Looking at others life on...
    krick771 krick771 26-30, F 6 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    15 Days To Go To My Suicide 3am,

    The devils hour. I stood there with a knife in my head ready to just end it all. To wait or to end it? It wasn’t the right time. But it was comforting to know that my day will come soon.
    theblacktiger theblacktiger 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I was a shy girl still am my family barely had

    anything thing but I was happy with what I had until some things happened ( illegal) and I was taken into foster care which put me into horrible depression and even though I live back with my family now I cannot get over my depression
    anestacia anestacia 16-17, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Hi everyone who comes

    and see this experience. First of all i'd like to introduce myself, my name is Emmett i'm gay and I'm just 25 from Thailand and have been in Los Angeles for almost 2 years. Yes, I'm a student. Go to the point, i've been living with American boyfriend almost 8 months he's older...
    Emsuke Emsuke 22-25, M 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    "don’t tell me I am pretty

    or thin or sweet or good until you have crawled inside my skin and felt the depths and shallows of me. only I know who I am. I live inside myself and it is a rotting cage."
    kruges kruges 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27

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    Ignorance is amazing.

    Cutting and depression don't always go hand in hand as the recent heat has suggested to me by 'concerned' citizens... Understood. Cutting and bipolar do not go hand in hand. But if it helps more than the medicine then please, leave the lecture. Everyone is very different. Maybe...
    BrokenBrain123 BrokenBrain123 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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