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    Sometimes my family drives me to the point

    where I want to kill myself. So through the night when I can't sleep, I have a razor in my hand.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 33 mins ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Josephine14 Josephine14 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    Mornings like this it's easier to say

    that I'm feeling under the weather. It's easier to fake a bit of a cough and say I'm tired than to admit to what's really going on. If I were to be honest, I would say that my depression punctured my lungs, filled my veins with lead and my head with cotton. I would tell my co...
    TheBlasphemousOptimist TheBlasphemousOptimist 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I would love to say I want to die.

    But I don't. I want to see the world die.
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    THE POWER OF PRAYER!Time pass's by slowly now

    for me. Each day I find myself talking more and more to the Lord. I really believe that things are getting easier for me to understand now. I am trying to let go of all my fears of dying and to except that I will be taken care of.I have noticed that the more I pray, I find that...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Just started on lexapro this week.

    Does anyone have experience with this medication ? Just wondering. I hope it helps me....
    NJguitarist NJguitarist 41-45, M 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    No matter how bad or good your day have been.

    .. I want you to know this: I'm proud of you! You had the courage to get out of bed and place your feet on the ground! If you didn't I still am proud. You are wonderful! You are beautiful and I promise you one day it will get easier :) If you feel like giving up shake your head...
    1beth1 1beth1 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate the way I look.

    I have a ton of gray hair. I want my hair to be long and wavy. That's not going to happen.
    Roger773 Roger773 41-45, M 4 hrs ago

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    I used to feel very depressed during Winter

    for no reason and Zero energy. But during warm summers I feel alot better.
    FrostyElsie FrostyElsie 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I did the talk with my teacher today,

    and oh my god I feel so much more comfortable with him. I went in during lunch yesterday to give him a bag of candy and a card telling him that I appreciate him for everything, and also mentioned that I want to continue band after high school because nothing makes me more happy...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    I don't know what's going on.

    I don't feel right. I've always had those brief moments of wanting to give up (not wanting to get better) and just sulk in my misery giving up my medication and therapy, but this is just completely different. After a year's worth of medication, I can say I'm better. Or I feel...
    MatchedWithBlack MatchedWithBlack 16-17, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Today may end up being a bad day

    for me. I've become very good at ignoring those negative thoughts in my head and replacing them with positive ones. I truly feel like I have a handle on my depression, without medication, now. Still, I have bad days. I have days when my depression hits me like a brick and...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I have battling with anxiety

    and depression now for around 18 months. I have just come off sertraline as it was making me tired through the day which ticked off my anxiety, so I went to the doctors who has now put me on citalopram 2 Days in I am now shattered most of the time and just wanting to sleep...
    mjlay83 mjlay83 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey, watch the movie,

    The Secret, it really will change your life if you let it
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    these last few weeks have been the worst in my

    life. between the knee pain and stomach problems, I would like to just lay down and never wake up. I'd like to turn the net off and never use a phone again, at the end of the day all I have is myself. That's just not enough anymore. I need to get away and figure out if going...
    nobody54 nobody54 56-60, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    So now we have some lady on here pushing

    vitamins that you put under your tongue that will cure depression ...... Wtf is the world coming too . Any way people can find to push there products they will do.
    startingover34 startingover34 31-35, M 1 Response 20 mins ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Words are useless. They fall on deaf ears

    and offer empty promises of encouragement. Words are used to mask so much and can be the brutal truth or a concealing lie. There is no way to know the difference. They are used to manipulate, they are used to share the truth, they are used to communicate. But for those of us...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 6 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Unfortunately I am going through another

    depression strike right now, I feel so empty. I am just laying in bed cuddling a pillow feeling like I'll alway be alone. I just want that one person in my life to say "I love you" to but saddly it's always either I get thrown aside, cheated on or it's distant. I dont ask for...
    dsalter dsalter 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm beyond scared for today to the point

    where I'm shaking. But I'm ready to rip off the bandaid and get this talk over with. Wish me luck guys!
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I told my friend what I go though

    and he looked at my with theost emotionless face and said I fell bad for you
    Mitchs113 Mitchs113 13-15, M 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    FOR THOSE STRUGGLING WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!

    *NOTE * (This is written from a spiritual point of view NOT religious though) Author had a near death experience to give an idea of what I mean. This is, in my opinion, a great article for those who lost someone to suicide and for those who are struggling with the thoughts...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I really want to get better.

    I don't know what's wrong with me and why I can't get better. I'm such a disappointment to all the people who care about me they try so hard to make me feel better. I have swallowed a bottle of pills 4 times in my life. I always just end up in the hospital and upsetting my...
    beanie1417 beanie1417 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel so useless, all my efforts are being

    useless. Not seeing any results of my work makes me feel a useless piece of ****, I'm spending a money that I don't have on studies... and I can't even find a job. No job, no money, absolutely nothing. What's my role in this world? a desire is slowly growing in my heart, the...
    TrappedDeadSoul TrappedDeadSoul 22-25, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago