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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,784 People

    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I am getting tired. So very tired of this

    feeling of emptiness sprinkled with moments of intense sorrow and longing for any amount of joy. The only other thing that keeps me company lately is anger. The anger is like a cancer and eats me from the inside out.
    Infiniteblue Infiniteblue 36-40, F 17 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    It's a struggle just to get out my bed.

    I'm just so unhappy for no reason.. I don't see myself alive in 5 years.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Depression is an involuntary emotion.

    It's an inescapable "thing" that is engrained in our conscious state of mind. Medicine is often used to alter the mindset; which in most cases, is not proven effective. For most, it's only a supplement for a temporary fix; for others, it can shown drastic change for the better...
    Air0118 Air0118 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I need someone to tell me how much of a loser I

    am! I need someone to make me feel I am and never will be more than that. I have to know I'm not good enough from those around me and when I don't get it I seek it out.
    mel982 mel982 31-35, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Not a lot of people in my personal life know I

    have depression. My parents forgot or are choosing not to acknowledge it and have since December. My siblings are never home and my friends have moved on after thinking it was a phase. I had no one to talk to about it and it would build up inside me until I start crying and...
    sunshineinmysoultoday sunshineinmysoultoday 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I'm so tired. It's 2 am.

    I just got home and what should've been a great birthday weekend I'm sitting here crying. Praying I don't wake up. I'm sick and so tired of this life. Like I just wanted one night where there was no fighting. And I wasn't forcing myself to please everyone and I just wanted to...
    cutecrazy05 cutecrazy05 22-25 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    so we just got out of school yesterday

    and I cant help but feel more alone than ever i mean my girlfriend is there but she's not there all the time and since my friends aren't there as much my depression is even worse the day is just going extra slow and every second feels like a minute and every minute an hour...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    fixaheartxoxo fixaheartxoxo 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 1 Response 18 mins ago

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    Hey everyone, I'm battling

    and suffering from depression too. I've been seeing a councillor and may be put on medication. I know life really sucks right now but for all ages, every breathe is a new beginning. if you don't like something you have the power to change it. every breathe. if you mess up, don't...
    ocdfun123 ocdfun123 16-17 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    For the last few months my mind has been

    so empty, for lack of a better word. It's so hard to explain. It's almost like a constant daze, where I process nothing, yet still remain functional. I've noticed this because for as long as I can remember I've always been deeply reflective, analytical and self monitored. It's...
    Isolating Isolating 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    im crying right now because no matter what i do

    i cant gain weight. i have been underweight and unable to gain weight my entire life and the bullying has damaged me mentally. i even disfigured my face because of so much bullying. no guy wants me ive been alone my whole life. im tired of this is no fair. i cant gain weight at...
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 13 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I am tired tired of life kicking the holy

    living **** out of me.I am a middle child so i was was just there.My older brother got all the good DNA I got the **** that was left over.I am the person that will never ever catch a break.I get a good job then a new manger will take over so far i have been taking advantage of...
    Jazonx Jazonx 36-40 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I feel like depression effects me

    so much more, on a day to day basis then the other people around me with it. I mean, I can't hardly talk to other people without kicking myself, or just totally faking everything, let alone have/sustain friendships. I sit through hours of school on my own simply because the...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 13 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 22 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Trying to enjoy the last day of school knowing

    that nobody would miss me or even ******* notice that I wasn't there is an absolute ******* killer
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I haven't been on EP

    for a long time. I need to be more socially active. I've been up and down latelly In reaction to recent events. I am on an up turn right now, but I need to stay aware of all of my feelings, past and present. I need some good conversation. Preferably, someone my own age.
    kman862 kman862 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Today was quite interesting!

    ! First off, I woke up late, causing me to go to my first period late. One of my close friends in there hugged me as soon as I walked in, and I just started sobbing infront of everyone. I don't know why. So she took me to the bathroom and comforted me, I went back to class only...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    That awkward moment when people don't know the

    difference between depression and just not getting what you want. πŸ˜•
    Waiting4Wings Waiting4Wings 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    t0ucht0relax t0ucht0relax 13-15, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't been on in a while

    and I apologize you guys! I too have been battling depression, and honestly I'm sure a lot of people that do, come to the conclusion with suicide. I have had this before but.. I honestly don't see the point in it. I've known what it's like to want to die. But it's only temporary...
    zxmnwendy zxmnwendy 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    You don't know how sad you can get till you're

    so sad you slit your wrist 48 times and continue on your thighs, stomach, and neck.
    JustThatTypicalWhiteGirl JustThatTypicalWhiteGirl 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Don't you hate when you're trying to open up to

    someone and tell them that you have depression and they're like "oh i think me too" but you can tell for them it's one of those "I'm depressed for like 3 minutes" kind of situations. I just think it's absolutely insensitive. Telling someone that you have depression is absolutely...
    Stellaluna13 Stellaluna13 18-21, F 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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