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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I truely wish someone would just come

    and kill me and id be done with
    hgaood hgaood 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    (A work in progress) Grotesque.

    It appears now, my friends, that this is the most adequate description for the state of affairs of which I am now strewn across. I find myself immersed in the darkest of dreams, dispatching the veil of all that surround me, as a result, I have emerged to an all new level of...
    InMyOwnImag3 InMyOwnImag3 18-21, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    My depression has gotten much better over the

    past 4 years but there are days when it just overtakes me and I want nothing more then to just stay in be all day. My husband has been very helpful and patient with me. He is the reason I am still alive...I wish it would go away completely but I know that will never happen and I...
    MugglebornArtist MugglebornArtist 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 11 Responses Mar 18

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 9

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I keep getting depressed over memories.

    Recently I have become more agitated as well like I was most of last year. I don't know what to do, I just want to escape :(
    Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy 16-17, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Maybe my words won't help.

    But I still want to say something to all of you that are in this group. You're all special, don't let anyone tell you not. People that say that you are not special are idiots trying to get under your skin. Neither are you ugly, worthless, stupid, negative things are not who you...
    SupermanMike SupermanMike 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I just want to feel visible

    and loved. I also want to be sad, happy, and everything in between. I feel like I'm wasting years of my life not living. I guess atleast I'm still living.
    Transparentfury Transparentfury 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm grieving my emotional disaster of a life,

    I think. I cried in my dreams last night. I have an achy pain in my chest. Is it possible to have joy and grief at the same time? If so, I need some joy right about now. The burdens of the past eight years have slowly brought me to this crux of ultimate fatigue, stress...
    cjkenton cjkenton 36-40 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    ever since my dad passed 2 years ago

    and now since how at home I only have me and my mom I wish things would go back to the way they used to be but I have trouble with accepting changes and just dont know how long im gonna survive cause it feels like im on my own fighting the world and im losing
    aaronpayne aaronpayne 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    It's what first brought me to this site in

    years passed, and what has brought me back again. I find that when I struggle in times like these, it us the constancy of EP that helps. I can always find someone to talk to, no matter what time of day or what personal turmoil I'm enduring. I love each of you fiercely for it...
    Bliink Bliink 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    You know that feeling?

    When you're just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed and just let everything out that you've been keeping inside all day. The feeling of both relief and desperation Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right. You're just tired, tired of...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have been living in hostel

    for past 1 month and i have been had a horrible time fighting my depression. Now this incident has made me far worse. My room mates were talking aloud while i was sleeping. Their talks woke me up, i couldn't sleep despite tring for half an hour. I started doing my things and...
    lovemylifetooless lovemylifetooless 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I hate when people over simplify depression.

    It hurts so much to hear people who are supposed to care about me say things like, "You just have to be more positive." Or to be told that my depression is just a ploy for attention. It's been really damaging and I feel too insecure at this point to even open up to people about...
    SunshineMoonshineSoulshine SunshineMoonshineSoulshine 31-35, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I have been feeling alive these days.

    .. I open myself to my grandma, I'm starting dating a girl... But sometimes the sadness and pain stab me on the back again. Goodbye, the song of slipknot really hit me today... no one can understand how I'm felling, so don't even try
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    when you do everything you feel is right.

    and do your best to correct your mistakes. and protect those you love. and it seems like everything in your life is falling apart slowly while you can do nothing But watch. when you feel the shame and judgment of others around you. and you feel like a failure. when you want to...
    shadewolf7 shadewolf7 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    This is me, i hid under covers

    and put a mask on coz im so scared. I run from the underground comuity coz that all seem to know me, im not bad im scared and confused.
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I think back to the time

    when I wasn’t in charge of my body. I didn’t have control. I was there and I could watch it all slip. I could see myself falling and breaking and all I could do was watch. I was just there sitting in a corner of my head. Unable to move or speak or even feel. I could see the...
    Carooox Carooox 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I've wasted an unfathomable amount of resources,

    time, money and energy because of my depression. I first noticed I was depressed when I was 17, sometime between the time that my parents divorced, my rape, and my first breakup/ heartbreak. I got better when I was like 20-22. And now in my 23rd year of life, I just feel so...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't stand this **** anymore.

    There are times that I'm feeling happy and motivated, but seconds later I just want to be dead. These ups and downs are killing me.
    TrappedDeadSoul TrappedDeadSoul 22-25, M 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I've never known what it's like to actually

    feel wanted by a parent or guardian. After my dad left when I was five, I became depressed. Imagine how weird it was to be depressed at such a young age. Ever since I was five I've depended on just my mom to be there for me. I thought mothers and daughters we're supposed to be...
    suicidalbieber suicidalbieber 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 82 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I haven't taken my meds in two days

    and today I'm a crying mess. I guess I have to keep taking it. Going to try and force myself to go out and do things today and ignore the nausea and heart ache. Sat in the shower today and cried, the trigger was ridiculous. I'm lucky my husband understands.
    eriesisgod eriesisgod 26-30, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I am sick of crying,i am sick of hurting

    myself(and i can't stop),i am sick of taking stupid pills/antidepressants,i am sick of myself and i want to die.
    seherozkurt seherozkurt 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Aplus82 Aplus82 31-35, M 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006