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I Battle Depression

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    LionCaged LionCaged 26-30, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Everyone I thought so much about what I want to

    say to u all but tonight is so sleepy night...so I will say this: you are not alone. be strong I will be by your side believe that no matter what u face u can be happy u deserve it:):) I love you <3
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 77 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Good Saturday morning EP!

    Well maybe for everyone but naturally not for the monster like me that has no one but EP... Same feelings as always... Same tears, with same sunny disposition... Everyone always says it gets better... 3 months now... Trust me nothing works...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Why the F do i even bother

    why F sake i feel so depressed
    SophieKezzie SophieKezzie 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 10 Responses Aug 11

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    Those times when everything seems too much to

    handle. I just wanna run away
    crazyminds crazyminds 18-21, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I'm going back to college in a week.

    I'm worried I won't make it past October. Worried history will repeat itself. Is it common to feel weird when getting close to the 1 year anniversary of my suicide attempt?
    mwdot mwdot 18-21, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Well the weekend is here.

    The family won't be checking in on me. I'll have random contacts checking in. But if I play my cards right. I just might get to say game over man game ******* over! Nothing like getting my hands on some captain Morgan, 60 t1's 20 benadryl, 20 unisoms, and 10 gravol. Along with...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 21 Responses Jul 7

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    I can't get away from here.

    I feel enclosed by the very corner of the world I sought refuge in. This contradiction will forever define me. Someone get me out! I'm going fcking mad. A claustrophobia has come over me, and I'm hyperventilating. There's no one to talk to. Relate to. I'm starring down the sun...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I am here, I am her

    for you... If you need to talk I will listen all night. You want to run away and hide in your room, I will hide with you, you want some distance ill sit at the other end of the room. When you need to be held ill be right there beside you holding you tight. You need a drink ill...
    bolahaming bolahaming 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    I googled that I needed someone to talk to

    and this site came up. I guess I don't mind if I don't have anyone to talk to. I guess I just like the idea that people can see how I feel by reading what I write. I'm just trying to figure out how to see the beauty in this world.
    Saccahride Saccahride 18-21 8 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    I hate you. I'm slowly sinking to the bottom of

    the ocean and everyone around me is rising. I'm tried I want to give up. Why keep trying if the scar number is rising. You keep lying as if you're trying. I keep on hiding remain lying about how much I'm dying. I'm done. Are you having fun?
    Aniyiah Aniyiah 13-15, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    You know how people with seasonal depression

    have depression during the winter due to a lack of sunlight? I have a seasonal depression during the spring and summer. I hate the heat and I hate the sun because it is so painfully bright. I absolutely love the fall and winter, the quiet peace they brings, the cold crisp air...
    Apirne Apirne 18-21, F 7 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Ha. Not clean anymore.

    But I don't give a ****. I give up.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 7 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    i just really need to talk to someone right now,

    i have no one to turn to, to let all my feelings go. ive never had anyone by my side and ever since ive just been pushing people away and im aways alone and isolated in my room. Everytime someone gives me a compliment i always deny it and tell myself the opposite. Everytime i...
    rxxandrw rxxandrw 18-21, M 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 77 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I've been struggling with depression

    since I was 12 years old, I'm 20 now. And as of tonight I've run out of the only thing that makes me feel good. Soon enough the physical pain will set in but it's the anxiety and sadness that will hurt the worst. Almost ten years of fighting and I'm still stuck.
    garagedad garagedad 18-21, T 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 17

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I have been depressed

    for about 2 years now... and i have no reason to be depressed. I am young, have a mom and grandma who both love me, family friends who love me...but I can't stand their love... I don't deserve it. Some days are better than others and I can actually smile a real smile. But it...
    Unknown1263 Unknown1263 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    First full week of school down This is gonna be

    a long school year Don't know if I'm gonna survive
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I admit, a lot of the times I think about what

    things people would say about me of I left this earth :( Sometimes I feel like I need everything to stop :( so hard to be as strong as I used to be
    crazyminds crazyminds 18-21, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 30 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Each day is a fight, almost every moment of the

    day. But then comes that 20min where you feel okay and you forget about being sad, and then it hits you again. I had a good day yesterday after months of only darkness. It was still going up and down but I felt good for longer. Today I'm back to going up and then down after...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 8 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Well back to my studies.

    .. I don't feel like doing anything else... Sooner or later I might have some picture clear answer...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 23 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I'm almost 8 months pregnant.

    I can't give him sex and he's kind of a fiend. He's been acting shady with his phone. There was a rumor he cheated on me but he says no. I feel like I'm never good enough I hate myself I feel like if I just disappeared he'd be happier. I think of his happiness Not mine. I feel...
    NataliPurtyEyes NataliPurtyEyes 18-21, F 5 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I have this morbid fantasy

    where I tie a cinder block to my feet and throw myself from the Ocean Beach pier. I imagine sinking further down and feeling a slight panic as I run out of air, followed by a calm of knowing it's almost over. I wonder how many others I would join down there. I'd never do it, but...
    princessaliababua princessaliababua 22-25, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 10 Responses Aug 10

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I'm getting worse, I cut last night.

    It isn't just the demons in my head anymore, now I have to worry about actual people calling me names. I always did but now it's worse than before. Before it was dad and my cousin only. Now it's my classmates and dad and cousin. I know I'm worthless and I know I don't deserve...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 14 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I'd really like to go back to bed,

    but I'm pushing through. I don't want to go to work, but I have to. When I'm there, I'll want to leave, but I can't. When I leave, I won't know where to go, but I won't go home. I'll smile, I'll lie, I'll cry, but I'm pushing through.
    nudgette nudgette 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I'm having trouble letting go of my past,

    especially all my failures and all the people who hurt me. I still think of all the times I wasn't good enough, of the boy who led me on for two years and then literally laughed at my broken heart, of my best friend who dropped me out of nowhere. It still hurts even though it's...
    Planetoi Planetoi 18-21, F 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I admit I have trust issues

    yet I have reasons like this one. I was led on during my freshman year. As the the months went by his kindness turned to nothing, but bitterness. It hurts because I liked him a lot because I thought he was different. He made me smile randomly, and he made me forget about the...
    OutOfTheOrdinary OutOfTheOrdinary 13-15, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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