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    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 82 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    So far I'm losing. Soon I'll just be a blood

    splatter on the side of a train or something.
    TieFighter501 TieFighter501 13-15, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    The Real Folk Blues..

    . Thinking about how the world treated me. The outcome is mixed. I had good days and bad days. 20 years on this planet, and feel sadness and joy. I kinda don't know where my life is heading. Is uncertainty a bad thing?
    lilman390 lilman390 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So now we have some lady on here pushing

    vitamins that you put under your tongue that will cure depression ...... Wtf is the world coming too . Any way people can find to push there products they will do.
    startingover34 startingover34 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    You made me stay, you made me promise the

    impossible. I no longer have the option so I now have to accept my pain and suffering as something I will always carry with me. Because of your selfish reasoning, I now have to live in a constant hell where I am tortured consistently. But not only am I hurt by others over time...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 6 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Emptiness, this damn mind f*cking,

    emptiness. This soul crushing, isolating, nauseating, horrible emptiness that keeps it's awful claws in me. Lonely, alone and lost. This is me right now.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am going to cover a lot of bases about myself

    here....I feel as though the last couple weeks I've been losing my mind, and I have to get out who I am in some form or another, and I figure sharing this is better than bottling it up in my mess of a brain. I have always, always, always tried to be the person people relied...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Lately I've been doing extremely well

    as far as my moods go. I'm starting to realized when my mania episodes come, and looking back at this week, I've noticed that I've been having a mania episode from Saturday until right now at this very moment. I know that because I hardly remember anything that's happened at all...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 11 Responses Mar 18

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 9

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I've had depression since I was 10 years old.

    I'm now 20 and with every day that passes, it gets worse and worse. I'm lucky enough to have patient supportive parents but even they can't help me. I don't know who can. I can't even help myself. It feels like I'm being consumed by the world... there is a vice gripping on my...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Sometimes people say

    that I'm not really depressed because I don't cut myself. Or take antidepressants. Or go to therapy. Or try go seek help from others. I guess they really don't know what it's like... I've never been able to stand the sight of blood. So I never cut myself; instead, I would drink...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    So I did the talk with my teacher today,

    and oh my god I feel so much more comfortable with him. I went in during lunch yesterday to give him a bag of candy and a card telling him that I appreciate him for everything, and also mentioned that I want to continue band after high school because nothing makes me more happy...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Recently past is the 20th anniversary of being

    on anti-depressants. That's 20 years (w/2 breaks lasting not more than a few months) of trying more types of anti-depressants than I've had cheeseburgers. Not that the variety was spread out over the full 20 years. No, it was 17 years ago that Wellbutrin was found to be the most...
    ImperialAerosolKid ImperialAerosolKid 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    So I may have to get a 5th eye surgery.

    . Everyone leave me alone for a bit.
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I really hate myself.

    Im such an idiot and i dont get anything at all. Ive never even had a boyfriend. Just a waste of time and life is what i am. I cant even do anything like a normal human being.
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I made my time, I hurried up,

    I didn't think enough.... I don't really know. I survived once, to my suicide attempt, I won't forget that moment, the rush o energy that scream "run!" On my head and forced me to leaved that poisoned room. I was sitting on a bench on a nameless street of my city, a warm night...
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Just sent a final text to my

    now ex girlfriend. I think the problem with my relationships are on the girl's side. I'd give my all love compassion understanding and I'd love them. but they in turn would never stay committed or faithful in return always resorting to Ghosting me leaving me hanging wondering...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    when everyone compare me with another,

    when no one thinks im worthy, no one wants me, no one see me, when everybody underestimate me, when people thinks i havr autism, when people call me fat, when my brother stop care to me, since my parents defend them and accused me, when the worlds blame on me. The bravest thinf...
    Imadori Imadori 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    This is Tug of war in my head,

    I usually wish that I were dead. If only my body could be free, Well, at least baby, you still love me. And thru this game of tug-a-war, You are all I want...Nothing more! You pick me up every time I fall, For reasons unknown, u love me thru it all. I hate myself, So much it...
    shaybaby26 shaybaby26 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't know why but sometimes I stay over my

    ex bf and he just never touches me ..its been a month we haven't been together and I would think we would just mess around..he is the one that tells me to sleep over ..I just feel so we next to him..
    moondesires moondesires 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I once thought I was made of impenetrable steel,

    flawless and strong. But then I got into deep water and my steel hull dragged me to the bottom. The pressure of the water made my bolts pop, and in flooded bad thoughts. Everything was cold and dark, with nary a sign of life surrounding me. As I gasped for my last air, a...
    lostsoul8844 lostsoul8844 36-40, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I have had over five near death experience's,

    I have been operated on around 20 times that I can remember. I have been beaten three times, raped once. I have no doubt that God has been watching over me......And now I am dying of heart failure. So why wouldn't someone like me be depressed?
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    When you wish to persevere

    but you have no fight left in you.
    Imbloo Imbloo 16-17 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Being suicidal and depressed is one of the

    hardest things I've been through. People say "seek help" But when you do, they say "you're attention seeking, people who deal with depression don't talk about it" You feel alone You feel empty You feel worthless. Trust me, if I would do anything for attention, it WOULDNT...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've always been depressed.

    Nobody likes a depressed girl, because I'm emotionally "unstable". And the older I get, the more suicide sounds pretty damn great. I just want this living hell to be over. I'm tired of everything, I'm tired of ******* people. Do you know how many times I hear the words...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes my family drives me to the point

    where I want to kill myself. So through the night when I can't sleep, I have a razor in my hand.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014