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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,292 People

    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I feel like such a bad gf Like every time my bf

    has something bad happen to him or he gets hurt or something I try and comfort him, but lately it's been every day and almost every time we talk. I'm starting to think I suck at comforting and supporting someone but also I. Am. So. Exhausted. With life, with myself and even with...
    CammieBx CammieBx 18-21, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I'm suicidal. I want to get better.

    I think what I need is someone to be there for me, not necessarily to make me feel better, or to let me vent to them, but to coach me through the process of getting better. With social anxiety added to the cocktail of emotions, asking for help has been a terrifying nightmare...
    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    So first off. I'm done trying.

    I have an iq of 135, yet I am a b/c student. I'm not racist but I don't see everyone as equals. I hate blacks that don't apply themself same for other races. I hate immigrants. I hate gays. I hate atheist. I hate feminist. The worst part about all this society is excepting them...
    richmckee richmckee 16-17, M 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My first day back at work tomorrow

    after a month off. I'm so scared! No matter how I act from now on I will always be the crazy girl who tried to kill herself. I don't want to go back! I guess I have to get myself looking amazing to show I'm not a mess and not let their nastyness get to me. First step to getting...
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 22-25, F 8 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    It'd be really nice if I could just stay happy

    for more than 10 minutes. If I could do that I'd never ask for anything else. **** my life...damn it!
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Hey guys havent posted in a bit

    but thought i would let u know i am still going strong back in charge. Things are moving in the right direction. Slowly but moving. I am not happy as such but i am not depressed. I feel good. Grateful. I am on the road to happiness though and thats the win. Hang in there...
    fyrebyrd fyrebyrd 26-30, M 9 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    It's annoying how people don't believe me

    when I say I'm depressed for no reason..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Things were going well

    but past few days has taken the wind out of my sails. Today I will contact my psychologist and schedule an appointment.
    lemonthyme lemonthyme 31-35, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I once was at my friends

    and she like me is a cutter. We where talking and I fouls out she was cutting with dirty broken glass I know that's not safe and she could get infected. I know it's bad but I gave her one I my razors just to keep her safer. She looked at it and was like "I can't cut with this...
    HateMeOrLoveMee HateMeOrLoveMee 13-15, F 8 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Let's admit that the world needs pain

    and misery. Without it, we would never be completely satisfied. For example, crying makes you feel better, so the lowest kind of pain gives you room to increase you're happiness. And without it, we would not genuinely know what true happiness is. If you are suffering through...
    lovelysad lovelysad 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 13 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Triggers. Imagine sitting in a pastel colored

    room and having a woman tell you that you appear to have been depressed your entire life. Even childhood? Even childhood. So, when I wrote about 'dark closets' and feeling lonely, those weren't normal things for a child to write about--yeah, I was 9 but, doesn't everyone get...
    PseudoNymph PseudoNymph 22-25, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I thought my friends were my friends,

    I thought that they liked me, I did everything to make them happy, obviously not, can't believe they would go behind my back and talk about me like that, I just wanna die, never been so upset :'(
    BethHawkins BethHawkins 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I cant do this anymore!

    I feel so empty and un loved
    BabyGirlAtHeart BabyGirlAtHeart 13-15, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I have been battling with depression

    since I was 10. I started feeling sad and withdrawn after my dad died.I was also abuse as a child.I am on a high dose of anti-depressants but I still have time when I struggle to get out of bed and get things done around the house. The times when my depression consumes me is...
    EmmaLuvsGiraffes3 EmmaLuvsGiraffes3 18-21, F 5 mins ago

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    There is no beauty, joy,

    or fulfillment in life.
    SturmWind SturmWind 16-17, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Here's a poem that I wrote just

    now not done tho Smoke disappearing into the night sky, The car silently travels along its way, The future spot of a cross on display; A explosive crash crash-bang and boom-oh my! Shattering glass sirens coming quick pace. Finding a last breath, broken bones near sight...
    SoFarGoneInYou SoFarGoneInYou 16-17, F 21 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    nevergoodenough98 nevergoodenough98 16-17, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    After a few weeks of trying to happy,

    my mind takes over and starts to ruin my life again, welcome back depression, I've missed you ;'(
    BethHawkins BethHawkins 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    If your going through depression please

    checkout the YouTube channel douglas bloch it will help I promise
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I get better and then my cousin comes home

    and yells at me tells me I'm dramatic and I'm a hoe and that I'm all these things I sit in the library at lunch everyday I don't understand why he calls me all these things I'm so quite all the time. Why me I'm trying to heal and you just cut me open again
    tay1244 tay1244 16-17, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I saw a different doctor today,

    and after a few minutes of consultation, she too handed me yet another prescription for anti-depressants. I never said I wanted them and I will never want them! I understand the chemical imbalances and physical difficulties altogether, but I'm so anxious of the thought of being...
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 7 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Its that time again .

    Where I wish I could just go to sleep until it was over . Even more than my in ability to get a good nights sleep every night . I try not to dump my problems on others but thank you all for your putting up with me . I tend to just glide through the edges of EP and peek in on...
    ghostintherain ghostintherain 41-45, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I live in the heart of negativity .

    The people around me only look at the dark side of things , love to share their negative thoughts on every little thing , must influence others with their bad , negative , killing energy to ruin the day . I always scream at them and shout loud counting all the blessing that we...
    Gemiiniii Gemiiniii 16-17, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 30 Responses Jun 16

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    Today isnt gunna be good.

    . This morning I woke up and just pretty much sobbed my eyes out for no reason..
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I sometimes feel like I being buried 5 foot

    under the ground.... Today's is my grandpas anniversary of his death even tho I have never met him it feels like everything is my fault can someone please talk to me it gets lonely here....
    SoFarGoneInYou SoFarGoneInYou 16-17, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I can't take it anymore.

    My depression is killing me. My AvPD is killing me. My lonelyless is killing me. I just can't live like this anymore. I don't want to die anymore... I have to die. There's literally nothing or nobody worth living for. Why would people force anyone to stay alive, even when...
    JustAPoorBoy JustAPoorBoy 18-21, M 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I hate this lol I was

    so happy for like 2 hours ago dunno why, and now i'm just sad again like **** i hate my mood
    kittykira kittykira 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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