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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,520 People

    I'm secretly trying to be ok.

    I smile and laugh to show people how happy I am, but deep inside I'm dying.. Slowly giving in to my soul weekending as I try and manage another day of getting through it :'(
    M1TCH94 M1TCH94 18-21, M 11 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    A year ago she was my everything

    and I was happy.. A year later she's gone and I'm depressed..
    James550 James550 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    As much as I want to hurt myself I know I can't

    because the number of nice responses here on EP is overwhelming. Thank you
    alentecia alentecia 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    lindseysway lindseysway 16-17, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Its gets better and then it gets worse

    and then better and then worse again. I don't want to go through this anymore, I can't go through this anymore. I just wish I had the courage to kill myself. Maybe one day I will.
    xPrincessMia xPrincessMia 16-17, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    I suffered from depression

    and severe anxiety from the time I was eight years old. A lot of it had to do with my dad, I was also bullied, antisocial, had a lack of friends, and often spent my days home alone. I love my dad, and he is a good provider but over the years he has proven to be less and less of...
    Harlequingal Harlequingal 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    My mom just told me when I was a bit younger,

    I used to go to knock on her bedroom at midnight crying because I was "thinking about my cats dying".
    imjustateenager imjustateenager 13-15, F 22 hrs ago

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    my wrist is so cut up

    and sensitive that I can't move it without wanting to cry. I needed to punish myself, but this hurts like hell. currently bawling my eyes out because of how stupid and useless i am. x rose
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 10 hrs ago

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    The worst thing about depression is

    that sometimes you don't even know why you're so depressed.
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I cut again. He can't just be gone,

    he wasn't even thirty. He was my friend. He has to be alive.
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Even though I feel like I have conquered a lot

    of my depression I still have times when it claws its way out. Poetry has always provided me with a sense of inner peace and this poem I wrote in one of my darkest places. I wrote it back in August of this year after I thought the love of my life and I were finished. I can say I...
    Harlequingal Harlequingal 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    I broke again. I broke yesterday too.

    now there's more. pretty sure I need stitches but my parents don't care. die thinking.
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    When I've taken those depression screening

    questionnaires the doctors have given me I always struggle with the questions about feeling hopeless. I don't quite know how to approach the question. Or concept. Because I may feel lots of things, but my rational pragmatic brain is always there to remind me that I cannot truly...
    transformerman transformerman 22-25 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Dear Depression, We have a long history

    together, but I need to start ending things with you. I know we used to hang out years ago back in the day when a weekend wearing pajamas, eating junk food, and binge movie watching could be written off as being lazy. But lately, you are really affecting my relationships and my...
    Mookle Mookle 31-35, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Two days ago, I received a message from a dear

    EP friend of mine. His name was Joshua, and he was from California, but you would have known him as either BrokenBrain or ChangingFaces5. By the time I received his message, it was too late for me to stop him. I believe that he killed himself. If anyone knows otherwise, I beg...
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    Isn't it so ******* annoying

    when you suggest a good idea, and then someone either says the same thing and takes credit for it, or ignore you and continue with their bullshit. Ugh
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein.

    I heard it was about a tree and a boy. The tree was generous. Very generous, in fact, it may have been too generous. Perhaps a better word for the tree would be altruistic? Being altruistic is giving too much of yourself to someone else and not leaving...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    “These pains you feel are messengers.

    Listen to them.” _rumi "wound is the place where light enters you" _rumi “If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?” ― Rumi “Truly, it is in the darkness that one finds the light, so when we are in sorrow, then this light is nearest of...
    Camouflage Camouflage 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I left the institution on Monday

    and in the days since, I've lost a best friend after an argument, I flew to El Paso to visit family, I learned that I failed all my classes, and I've broken down twice. Talk about eventful. All I want is alcohol, guys.
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Please shut the **** up with the "be grateful"

    quote when you also preach "don't judge me until you've been in my shoes".. Okay? How're you gonna tell me to be grateful when you don't know if I have anything or everything ? I have nothing. Nothing worth living nor fighting for. Now please, leave me the **** alone with that...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    This day onwards, I think I need to fight

    for this depression. Since, it fail and it almost lead me to something that would basically I think would destroy me. Can't imagine why things fall apart, why people leave. Why they choose to hurt me instead of making me feel better.
    Choirayla Choirayla 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I haven't always been an unhappy person.

    Not up until a few months ago have i felt so down in the dumps. I brought depression on myself i think.. i've never wanted to step outside of my comfort zone and try new things for the simple reason reason of not wanting to be judged and i think that's what frustrates me the...
    killlian killlian 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    One of them nights.. Just down

    for no reason.. Netflix and video games are good for coping though.. :/
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have felt depressed

    for long periods of time in my life...I have learnt to deal with it and found a creative side under this dark shadow...the possibility of express my pain in a poetic way makes me write the best.Transform sadness into art is something deep and wonderful.
    4biandu 4biandu 31-35, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I can almost feel the darkness spreading

    through my mind, creeping back up on me and I know I can't do anything to stop it! :/
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't want to get up.

    You can't make me get up, I have no need to get up, so why should I, I ready don't care about getting up and you can't make me do it. Just let me sleep all day, just because it is 1 pm doesn't mean I have to get out of bed, no, let me be.......... If I get up that means I have...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    How I feel all the ******* time.

    Not sure I'll ever be truly happy anymore.
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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