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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,036 People

    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Hello I'm new and I just wanted to know

    if anyone would like to talk or be friends or something
    sheonlysmileswhen sheonlysmileswhen 16-17, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I Hate Feeling The Ups And Downs Of My Emotions.

    I Can Be So Happy One Minute Only To Sad, Lonely And Secure The Next Moment. Having Anxiety Doesn't Help With Having Friends Or Meeting People Even Though That's What I Want To Do... I Freak Out Over The Slightest Of Things... I Wish I Could Make It Better. I Hate Looking In The...
    Insomnia101 Insomnia101 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    If anyone needs to talk,

    I'm here. I know how much it means not to be alone on rough nights. No topic too rough for me.
    h4ll h4ll 22-25, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    2infinityandbeyond 2infinityandbeyond 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I plan on sharing this with my psychologist.

    .. Not sure what that would even do, but I just want someone to know how i TRULY feel every single day... I'm not "real" anymore. I am an observer living above and critiquing myself, watching myself go through the motions of life without actually being present in the moment. I'm...
    mrtonystarks mrtonystarks 18-21, M 31 mins ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 36 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Turns out I have social anxiety.

    T-T this explains a lot.
    SeanNation SeanNation 18-21, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    My demon stood with me He

    who took all i had from me, Who had stolen away from me Family, Joy and Peace. I sought help from my savior, Christ, Praying for strength, begging for a sign, Praying that for once I could simply smile. The Lord, his cross was engulfed in fire And bridges destroyed by rust...
    TheDylanG TheDylanG 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I feel like sub-consciously I like

    being sad. It's hard not understanding why you can't be happy. But then I think well some people are meant to be sad so that others can be happy, maybe it's just life balancing itself out. All I know for sure is it comes and goes as it pleases and I really hope one day it just...
    FelBaby FelBaby 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I might be having a ruff time

    but i love who i am and dont want to changw
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Let's get drunk, make-out

    and swallow some pills✌️
    piercethetaco000 piercethetaco000 13-15, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I hate feeling depressed

    and haven't to put a smile on my face and pretend everything is okay when really it isn't I just want to runway and cry I wish I had someone to talk but I'm afraid to let my friends know how I really feel I'm afraid they will judge me
    godsgift1993 godsgift1993 18-21, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    "I wear my soul on my sleeve at night (searching

    for substance)." I'm so lost....I'm grasping at air hoping to catch something I can turn into a reason to fight. I've been grabbing for so long now....my knuckles are ghostly white. I tried to find a meaning in the horrid world that surrounds me, yet I'm left with nothing to...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    A lot of the time I would like to just die.

    I tend to hide that from people and just tell them I'm fine..but I just wanna die really..I've got so much going on in my head right now and I don't know what to do anymore, I keep lying to everyone telling them I'm okay, but I'm really not
    lamaninja lamaninja 16-17, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    It's snowing. The first real snow of the season.

    Snow makes me happy. The white flakes the smell in the air just the beauty all around of snow. I'm trying harder than I have in the past few weeks to feel that happy feeling right now but I can't. I just want to leave work and run under my covers. I used to be able to fake...
    cutecrazy05 cutecrazy05 22-25 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    god is a evil sadist ******* with no feelngs

    for somebodys poor life. hes a monster that deserves no praise.
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    "You've been so strong,

    held on much longer then you thought you could You can't see the glow in your smile, you don't know the power in your words. You've never felt the fire in your heart. Cause no ones ever told you."
    lachica12100 lachica12100 13-15, F 19 hrs ago

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    I hate the holidays. I hate being forced to be

    around family. It makes me more depressed than I already am.
    weigh2goAna weigh2goAna 18-21, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Therapy update: went back to the first

    therapist I ever saw.. She didn't seem to remember me much, which is understandable since it had been about a year since we last talked. I opened up about my sadness and my lack of inhibitions when it comes to the consequences of things I do. I don't think she noticed my subtle...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    They always say; "Be what you want to be.

    " But how can I do that if I am not free? I try not to make others worry, I try to cover up the pain. But why does it matter, is it all in vain? I hide behind a wall that is my fake smile. But even that turns to tears after a little while. But behind that wall is something...
    WhiteTheKid WhiteTheKid 16-17, M 5 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I accidentally over drafted my bank account

    paying my student loan. My mom very kindly offered to cover it for me next time I came to town. She told me to make sure they weren't charging me daily for not having money. I checked and they weren't. And now they are. And I'm unemployed and if I can even get the money I can...
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl 22-25, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    All I want to do is go hide

    or runaway n crys
    godsgift1993 godsgift1993 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds 31-35, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I have had depression

    for years, no one can help me, I've cut for years, my dad has nothing to do with me, my mom is a recovering addict and the only dad I ever had died of cancer.
    lickyoduck lickyoduck 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Tear me from the skin,

    tear me from the rind. Does it make you happy now? Tear meat from bone, tear me from myself. Are you feeling happy now? In this hole that is me, a life that is growing feeble In this hole, So limiting, The sun has set all darkness.
    WhiteTheKid WhiteTheKid 16-17, M 5 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    I will no longer be lied to.

    I am not a failure because I didn't do something the way you wished I'd done. I am not rude because I disagree with your opinion. I am not in need of improvement because I didn't reach your benchmark. I am not depressed because I need to change my attitude. I am not, nor a...
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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