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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,394 People

    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    When I was in second grade I was sexually

    abused by my uncle. I was allowed to sleep over there because he had a cool motorcycle shop and I would hangout there. And I don't remember all of it but he would bathe me and touch me while I was in the bath. I tried telling his wife but she didn't believe me cause it was her...
    garrettthecarrot garrettthecarrot 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't know what to do anymore,

    feeling sad and beaten down all the time. My mum hates me and says I'm a 'disappointment' I feel selfish for having suicidal thoughts. The doctors pass me off for just being tired or abit 'down' but this feeling is getting stronger each day. Depression 1 me 0.
    lauren1303 lauren1303 18-21, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 20 Responses Jul 7

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    Don't bother trying to know me,

    i'll end up hurting you. Just leave me alone to die, by either suicide or starvation.
    futurediary futurediary 13-15, M 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Distraction is key...

    having your distraction helps you through it, helps you move away form the bad and towards the good! But when your distraction isn't there... what are you supposed to do? Suffer a night with it... or suffer a night of guilt...?
    gabs4help gabs4help 16-17, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Sometimes I just want to go in the woods far

    away where no one can find me so I can stay there for weeks. I also wish I could hide in a hole some where or live under ground where no one can find me.
    mommysbabygirl mommysbabygirl 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    blackoceans blackoceans 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Sometimes I wonder how some people are

    so open about their depression. I'm like a closed book when it comes to that..
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Help. I just can out

    and stuff has happened... Please help...
    Chaserness56 Chaserness56 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11

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    What do I have to do to get the right

    medication? It's been weeks. I don't understand how this can happen. You're in the psych ward for 3 days for OD and they dont change your meds. I go to the ER because I'm throwing up blood. They don't change your medication. I really can't continue like this. I'm out of options...
    BrokenBrain123 BrokenBrain123 22-25 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My grandmother thinks I'm stupid.

    My aunt and uncle think I'm an idiot. My dad abused me growing up and favors my prettier sister over me. My mom has anxiety problems that she takes out on us (which just make my own issues worse as she won't get help). My sister constantly reminds me of how weird I am and how...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I don't fear death because

    when it comes time for my death no one but me can bring death to myself. The only way I die is if I kill myself.
    Samuel116 Samuel116 16-17, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Princeofthesky Princeofthesky 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm falling into depression again.

    I can feel it. I feel like I wanna die rather then go through this again. Idk if I'll be able to take it. I just need some help !!
    kitkatally kitkatally 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Why is it that the thought of dying naturally

    when I'm 70 or 80 or 90 puts me in to an existential panic, but when I think of taking my own life now, it seems so calming and great?
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey I was wondering if anyone here has any

    experience with ADHD meds causing depression? would love to hear some thoughts stories or tips and things that helped you. seems like my ADHD medications are a big contributor to my depression and suicidal thoughts but I cant stop taking them because I would utterly and...
    0love 0love 18-21 6 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I feel sad then someone makes me laugh

    and then I am happy again. But when I get home I get sad again. I take focalin but I don't think I have add but I was diagnosed when I was young do you think I could have out grown it. what should I do I see a scicologist but she doesn't know I feel depressed. Then there is this...
    cat1234were cat1234were 13-15 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Idk what happened but it just hit hard today.

    ..I've cried 3 different times within an hour. I'm glad I have my bf to help me through it though. ):
    AhmaniFree AhmaniFree 13-15, M 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    And right now I'm losing.

    Big time. Here's to another 8 years of being alone. Cheers.
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I always wonder what life is like

    for people that don't have depression.
    LaBellaVita19 LaBellaVita19 18-21, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    Eversince I got depressed,

    everything went bad to worst. All of my actions seem to produce ****** up situations. My friends are even caught up with what I do. Little by little, I am beginning to hate myself. I am beginning to feel like I am a burden to everyone I interact with. **** this depression...
    wreckedserenity wreckedserenity 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    And here it hits even harder.

    .. I feel like I'm a time bomb just waiting to go off... I can't even stand being in the same room with a group of people. I hear music and I want it turned off. I see people talking and I want them to go away..
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Depression and anxiety are also called "Silent

    killers"...... They affect our immune system, nerves, heart, mind, skin and body.. So Now, get rid of depression and anxiety in 10 minutes. Go to : http://healthland.time.com/2012/10/08/6-breathing-exercises-to-relax-in-10-minutes-or-less/ Heart this, so more people can...
    Heart39 Heart39 26-30, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Well might as well get the die-ary done now.

    .. Just waking up... Light headed, chest hurts like someone or something jumped on it. Some feelings, and same thoughts going thru my brain, like trains. Memories cruising with them. Thoughts of personal death racing along with. Nothing seems to change.
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    For the very first time I went to a support

    group ! It was hard and scary but I did it. I went
    jcain739 jcain739 36-40, F 14 mins ago

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    no... I'm not depressed bc I'm overweight.

    .. I'm depressed bc people automatically think they don't like me bc I'm fat, but so what right!! everyone has a little bit of beauty inside them and I just don't think I'm that bad of a person, the few friends I have constantly tell me that I'm one of the nicest persons they...
    jayissosadlike jayissosadlike 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I've been doing good months now,

    but every once in a while when triggered, it just hits me and it's as depressing as the last time.
    MissSagittarius MissSagittarius 22-25, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 31 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Nowadays, I think about killing myself every

    day. I won't do it, because I know that I'm not the only person that it would affect; I have family and friends to think about, but it sure can be tempting sometimes.
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Today I broke. And I crashed.

    The pain flooded my mind my heart and my body. The liquor made it in my cup and my thoughts took a trip. What would death feel like ? Is the one question that sticked. Maybe it's peaceful so peaceful nothing like you could of ever imagined. It's like mid way in the air you just...
    BIGGIESMALLSS BIGGIESMALLSS 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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