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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,723 People

    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    Recovery is coming my way!

    Lately it has been feeling like the choking hands of depression have been slowly letting me go. I've been making more friends in person, and a special friend here on EP! I have been telling myself to live in the moment and it has honestly been helping me be happier and not...
    PriscilaGaray PriscilaGaray 13-15, F 10 hrs ago

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    Never fails... Just when I think the holidays

    have gone iff without a hitch... Something goes wrong. My husband has to go off base to a Japanese hospital to get our 4yr old treated for a high fever and white blood cell count that the ill equipped military hospital on base can't figure out. I have no car to go with them, so...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    It's not my fault that I don't have any friends.

    It's my ancestors fault for breeding not thinking of anyone else,but themselves. Didn't they know about genes or were they too retarded? I have to deal with my uglyness and dumbness everyday.People hate me as soon as they see me because of the way I look.People judge a book by...
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    1.5years on Prozac, gained 30lb.

    Now overweight. Anyone else?
    anon2254 anon2254 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    hbjjg hbjjg 26-30, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    annettesan annettesan 36-40, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I was going to just post Black Sabbath -

    Solitude but I'm being asked to make my "story" longer. So here it is, this song is what I'm listening to at this time of loneliness I am feeling.
    TheBoyFromSweden TheBoyFromSweden 22-25, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I just got a letter saying

    that I was accepted into a college and I really thought that my family would be so very happy and proud of me for that but it seems like they are not....well....good way to make them proud right..... :'( :'( I guess I'm back to square one, I'm still a failure to them...and now I...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Im confused and lonely.

    I feel sad and cold I feel misunderstood and muted .
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28

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    Depression is like a war.

    You either win, or die trying.
    JustSomeTeenagerr JustSomeTeenagerr 13-15, F 13 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I don't see the point on living anymore.

    I've been depressed for almost a year now, and so far things are only getting worse. The one person i thought i could trust completely has been lying to me, cheated on me for 3 months. I just don't see the point anymore. As for right now, i have absolutely no one around me. The...
    xMnon xMnon 18-21, F 7 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    burnedmemories burnedmemories 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I am happy that I got accepted into a college.

    ...I never thought that it would actually happen and now that it did I'm scared.....I'm so scared that I won't be able to make my family proud, I'm scared that I won't be smart enough and that I will fail, I'm scared that I won't fit in because of my social anxiety and that I...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    This my sound childish

    but I battle depression. I'm always alone no one asks if I'm okay. And when they do and they don't mean it I lie. Like they actually care about my feelings. But come for me for help and/or advice. I believe in the saying age is just a number. Maturity is a choice. And I also...
    RedBloodRose RedBloodRose 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I sometimes just want to go to a secret place

    in the nature to get away from everything and everyone, forever. Maybe somewhere in the sky, a secret place where no one will find me. I'm just so tired of the rules of society, the world and it's ****** incidents :'(
    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    13 years ago today I had quite possibly he

    worst experience a 13 year old girl could have. I opened my front door after playing out with a friend to find my amazing perfect mom dead on our hall floor. Mom I think about you every day and I wish you were here to help me through this difficult time. I don't cry every day...
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    im so depressed and feel

    as though no one needs me here and i feel like a burden to family and friends, and i stay up crying every night. i just want to die so everyone is happy
    pandabae11 pandabae11 22-25, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Published on Dec 28,

    2014I live as a transwoman and I battle depression everyday of my life.I write about it and sometimes I try to make a video.Everything I do is sponsored by Southerns Acts.© 2014 - 2014 Living Transgender. All rights reserved.CategoryEducationLicenseStandard YouTube License
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Recently i being so cynic ,

    and im so tired of everything in my life.I try to get over this with my SSRI treatment but i dont see it getting better, my though of suicide getting increased ,the only i could get over is my panic attack.Why human brain so much complicate and so much effect to our life....
    zumii zumii 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I've felt for the last year

    as though I'm living in a dream. Everything that happens is so vague yet viciously vivid all at once. I've had relationship breakdowns, suicide attempts, drug overdoses, international trips, an oncoming psychosis, job promotions, public melt-downs and out-pourings of emotion to...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    I keep having a reoccurring nightmare.

    I can't get it out of my head either. I dunno if it has anything to do with what I've been through (it probably does) but I keep on having a dream (a very terrorizing and horrid one) where my dad rapes me. I don't know if it is normal or not? but it's beginning to kill me, I...
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 31

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    I'm tired of everything,

    I don't wanna leave my house for a whole ******* week
    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Down from 355 lbs to 220.

    I am literally hating myself away. I can't eat. Can't sleep. I fear that the stress is making my hair start to thin and fall out, as if I didn't hate myself enough anyway. Part of me thinks "I've beaten this before." But another part of me says "How many more times will I have...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Hi, I spend most of my life in bed

    now days, not wanting to get up anymore.. mentally I m drained and my body hurts all the time. I try to cook for Jackie and Mr. Beasley but then I don't want to eat. I am glad that Jackie and Mr. Beasley like each other... They are both good friends to me and try to help me...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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