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    my mom tells me to not be sad

    and to just be happy. but she just doesn't seem to get it. she doesn't understand what I go through. of course I want to be happy but I'm just not. I feel like I don't have any choice but to feel like this. sigh.
    Niceguy890 Niceguy890 26-30, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    This is always the part of the cycle I hate.

    The tired part. It's the tired that sleep does not repair. I imagine if my brain was a mechanical organ made up of wheels, springs, and cogs, it would be an inconsistent motion of fast then slow, as though I am only wound for brief moments and even then it's a bit too tight...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 6 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 18-21, M 9 Responses Mar 14, 2015

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    What a week? Emotionally exhausting.

    5 hours of sleep for 2 days. Crying from 3-5:00 am. Finding myself and every very abnormal. On bed 23/7 . Bored . Thinking. Why is this happening? I really feel like Killing myself right now. I wanna die. Don't wanna live no more. Pls. make it stop.
    CallMeBuddy CallMeBuddy 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Suicide? noooo! Please DON'T.

    Don't do it! Never! There's always a better way. If you feel so miserable and you think it's the only way out, YOU'RE WRONG! If you're being bullied or abused or some people are just so stupid enough to not see your worth... don't give them the satisfaction of proving they were...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 24 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    So i can official say i have never been

    so Depressed in my entire life I was told by my Social Worker that GPs are fighting over who has to take responsibility for me If i don't take support they will put me in a secure hospital or something as a Vulnerable Adult I mean knowing if i don't do what i am told i will...
    SophieSophLJ SophieSophLJ 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    JunkFoodJunkie JunkFoodJunkie 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have noticed a positive incline in my

    positivity in my posts lately. Which may mean I'm going to crash soon or it may mean I'm just generally happier. Not that my outlook on anything changed...Just less focused on it I suppose.
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 12 hrs ago

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    I hope you did and will have a good day.

    Please be positive and be kind to others. We'll never know what they're going through. I hope it gets better for you. Please see the beauty in life. Kick that negativity off! Conquer the trials and hardship! Tell this cruel life, " In your face you cruel life!!! Who's...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 8 hrs ago

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    Whenever I have a breakdown in school they're

    pretty bad. Sometimes I'm not able to speak and I keep trembling and there are other times when I just can't stop crying. My teacher (well, she's more than that) always comes to help me through them. Now she's left the school because of a better job offer. I miss her...
    Almostmadeit Almostmadeit 16-17, F 12 hrs ago

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    Why couldn't I just be normal?

    I hate having depression so much it's literally handicaps me from doing so much for with myself and my life. I strive everyday to be happy, to be active and to live a positive lifestyle Yet when days like this come I feel like it's going to last FOREVER - I start...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    sievert sievert 13-15, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I feel depressed again.

    Some days I feel good and energetic, other days I feel down and just don't want to leave my bed. I don't think many people close to me can understand what I am going through. I have just been through the worst year in my life, when someone I loved and trusted dearly betrayed me...
    lostinbeauty lostinbeauty 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I feel great today, but sadly to me it's not a

    good thing. It just shows me that this is how I'd be without depression, without anger.. Normal. Normal me can get **** done and be a great person.. Why can't I feel like this everyday? My life would change so much and id actually be a decency to society. This **** sucks.
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I've been having suicidal thoughts ever

    since I was twelve, and have been self-harming ever since I was seventeen. And today has been a pretty bad day in terms of suicidal thoughts...
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I was actually professionally diagnosed with

    depression about a week or two ago after a rough patch in my life started to get the better of me. The NHS service in the UK is free which I am so grateful for, but the only issue is that I have now got to wait god knows how long for any form of therapy/counselling, as there is...
    longdarkhair longdarkhair 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    For three years I've been wishing I was dead

    every day of my life. For three years I've woken up every morning disappointed to be alive. For three years I've changed so much, that I don't even remember who I was before. I'm not even sure what's wrong with me anymore. I used to know why I was depressed, but now... I don't...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25, 2015

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    You've been gone almost a month now.

    I just want to hear your voice so badly... It's killing me.
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    An 18 year old should be loving life

    and have no problems. I absolutely hate mine, everything comes crashing down I've got back up so many times and tried but it still goes wrong. I know not everything is perfect but honestly I feel as if my life was cursed. I have no money for the career I want to do, I've never...
    SSJx SSJx 18-21, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 22-25, F 11 Responses Mar 13, 2015

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    I think scars are like battle wounds--

    beautiful in a way. They show what you've been through and how strong you are for coming out of it.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Last night I took a hot shower

    while silently crying. Knowing that my tears blend in with water. I remember the feeling I felt in that moment. It was all but heartache pain. Thinking why do I have to go through this!? Not knowing the cause to this.. This depression is killing me and I cannot take it. But then...
    Shxxxooo Shxxxooo 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    deleted deleted 26-30 50 Responses Jan 18, 2015

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    There is a worldwide drought,

    not of substance but of consciousness. The masses of first world countries have been put to sleep by becoming fat and happy. Being fed processed garbage and distracted by the endless faucets of electronic entertainment. No one is truly happy, they are merely content just content...
    CynicalHippie CynicalHippie 18-21, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    IamNicolle IamNicolle 22-25, F 18 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 22-25, F 71 Responses Jul 9, 2015

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 32 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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