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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I don't know what's going on.

    I don't feel right. I've always had those brief moments of wanting to give up (not wanting to get better) and just sulk in my misery giving up my medication and therapy, but this is just completely different. After a year's worth of medication, I can say I'm better. Or I feel...
    MatchedWithBlack MatchedWithBlack 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    This is Tug of war in my head,

    I usually wish that I were dead. If only my body could be free, Well, at least baby, you still love me. And thru this game of tug-a-war, You are all I want...Nothing more! You pick me up every time I fall, For reasons unknown, u love me thru it all. I hate myself, So much it...
    shaybaby26 shaybaby26 31-35, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    If anyone wants to talk ,

    I'm here for you :)
    Josephine14 Josephine14 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't get it with some people,

    they only love you when you're whole and when everything is perfect, but when you're broken they give up, they let go even though they're the one who broke you in the first place.
    QueenValbuena QueenValbuena 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I've always been depressed.

    Nobody likes a depressed girl, because I'm emotionally "unstable". And the older I get, the more suicide sounds pretty damn great. I just want this living hell to be over. I'm tired of everything, I'm tired of ******* people. Do you know how many times I hear the words...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I hate the way I look.

    I have a ton of gray hair. I want my hair to be long and wavy. That's not going to happen.
    Roger773 Roger773 41-45, M 20 hrs ago

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    today is bad I feel so depressed

    when just the past few days I was actually starting to be happier again because I've been reaching out for help and doing things for myself usually I don't usually I just stay home in bed all day long I don't do anything and I don't talk to anyone I don't even get dressed I get...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 82 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 11 Responses Mar 18

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Sometimes people say

    that I'm not really depressed because I don't cut myself. Or take antidepressants. Or go to therapy. Or try go seek help from others. I guess they really don't know what it's like... I've never been able to stand the sight of blood. So I never cut myself; instead, I would drink...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I feel so useless, all my efforts are being

    useless. Not seeing any results of my work makes me feel a useless piece of ****, I'm spending a money that I don't have on studies... and I can't even find a job. No job, no money, absolutely nothing. What's my role in this world? a desire is slowly growing in my heart, the...
    TrappedDeadSoul TrappedDeadSoul 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't know why but sometimes I stay over my

    ex bf and he just never touches me ..its been a month we haven't been together and I would think we would just mess around..he is the one that tells me to sleep over ..I just feel so we next to him..
    moondesires moondesires 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    I once thought I was made of impenetrable steel,

    flawless and strong. But then I got into deep water and my steel hull dragged me to the bottom. The pressure of the water made my bolts pop, and in flooded bad thoughts. Everything was cold and dark, with nary a sign of life surrounding me. As I gasped for my last air, a...
    lostsoul8844 lostsoul8844 36-40, M 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 75 Responses Jul 9

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    So I did the talk with my teacher today,

    and oh my god I feel so much more comfortable with him. I went in during lunch yesterday to give him a bag of candy and a card telling him that I appreciate him for everything, and also mentioned that I want to continue band after high school because nothing makes me more happy...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Recently past is the 20th anniversary of being

    on anti-depressants. That's 20 years (w/2 breaks lasting not more than a few months) of trying more types of anti-depressants than I've had cheeseburgers. Not that the variety was spread out over the full 20 years. No, it was 17 years ago that Wellbutrin was found to be the most...
    ImperialAerosolKid ImperialAerosolKid 41-45, M 1 Response 26 mins ago

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    Hey, watch the movie,

    The Secret, it really will change your life if you let it
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 23 hrs ago

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    I cried so hard yesterday,

    I threw up and got the rest of the week off...my manager understands but I'm just dying inside .
    HipsterYoda HipsterYoda 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Josephine14 Josephine14 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Mornings like this it's easier to say

    that I'm feeling under the weather. It's easier to fake a bit of a cough and say I'm tired than to admit to what's really going on. If I were to be honest, I would say that my depression punctured my lungs, filled my veins with lead and my head with cotton. I would tell my co...
    TheBlasphemousOptimist TheBlasphemousOptimist 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    THE POWER OF PRAYER!Time pass's by slowly now

    for me. Each day I find myself talking more and more to the Lord. I really believe that things are getting easier for me to understand now. I am trying to let go of all my fears of dying and to except that I will be taken care of.I have noticed that the more I pray, I find that...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    No matter how much I try I just can't get over

    the fact that just because I didn't call my grandma my aunt said that if I get leukemia again no one would be there for me. I know it's not true but it still hurts. I can't call my grandma because she has leukemia now and it triggers me to remember what I went through. Remember...
    animerules44 animerules44 16-17 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I made my time, I hurried up,

    I didn't think enough.... I don't really know. I survived once, to my suicide attempt, I won't forget that moment, the rush o energy that scream "run!" On my head and forced me to leaved that poisoned room. I was sitting on a bench on a nameless street of my city, a warm night...
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I would love to say I want to die.

    But I don't. I want to see the world die.
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Sometimes my family drives me to the point

    where I want to kill myself. So through the night when I can't sleep, I have a razor in my hand.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 16 hrs ago

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    So now we have some lady on here pushing

    vitamins that you put under your tongue that will cure depression ...... Wtf is the world coming too . Any way people can find to push there products they will do.
    startingover34 startingover34 31-35, M 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I really hate myself.

    Im such an idiot and i dont get anything at all. Ive never even had a boyfriend. Just a waste of time and life is what i am. I cant even do anything like a normal human being.
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009