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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,916 People

    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    why is everything so damn complicated?

    love, family, friends, school, jobs, college, money, sports, social activities, everything and anything. life and everything in it is so damn complicated!
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I literally crave sadness.

    I don't know why. And I hate this about myself. But reading some posts about depression I just want to have that feeling, I want to be engulfed by the feeling. Let it override my thoughts. I have depression, but I never feel sad, I just feel bad. When I am actually happy, I...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I don't feel good tonight well not just tonight

    it's been for several days, I just want to be normal and don't get very obsess about every think I do, I want and I need to control my life, :(
    andreadorian andreadorian 31-35, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    something bad happened to me today

    and I broke down after years of this feeling growing I admitted to my family that I feel suicidal and no one is taking me seriously. I want them to help me but they are in no good position themselves and are too pre occupied their own problems. The reason I didn't go through...
    yasmine98 yasmine98 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Suicide is my daily thought.

    Should I or shouldn't I?
    BloodRunsSlow BloodRunsSlow 13-15, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    So...uh i guess its ok to put this here.

    last year, a few days before the holidays my mother found out about my self harm. she called me attention seeking. she wasnt very good to me,didnt feed me properly etc. so in october i tried to end it all. my mother never came up to see if i was ok despite the unusual silence...
    sukibulb sukibulb 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    right now we are in the process of moving

    and I can't help because my health is so bad....the whole day all I've been sitting on my *** watching the ones I love sweating breaking their backs in the heat trying to get us all moved and set up....right now I just wanna cry because I can't do anything and I feel so useless...
    ShysietheVampiric ShysietheVampiric 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    depression is a mental problem.

    not you being in a bad mood.
    sukibulb sukibulb 16-17, F 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder

    after having a nervous breakdown last day senior yr high school. Missed grad&spent whole summer in my bedroom. Ashamed,confused as I was thrusted into this mental state foreign to me. Eventually I gradually fought for lack of better term to becoming somewhat dysfunctional not...
    Sugasug Sugasug 41-45, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    He ruined my entire life,

    lied to me, forced someone to jump me, and tore apart countless relationships that I've had. And yet today, when he sent me a photo of himself with a noose around his neck saying "please give me something to change my mind", I spent 6 hours talking to him, calling him, texting...
    IntoxicatedLies IntoxicatedLies 16-17, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    psychh psychh 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Why is it that when people think of depression

    they think that it's when people don't have the ability to handle their own pain.....I can handle my pain just fine..... It's the hate that surrounds me...people fight, cheat, rape, it's just so awful why would I be happy living in such a horrible world...?
    RhsStud17 RhsStud17 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Masochistic expressions of pain Never ending

    pouring rain Need to feel fire on skin It cures the torment within The beast crawling inside Rips heart open wide Accepting love as acid to thirst The last as painful as first Need for comfort deep surrounding Through the body heart is pounding Fire touches flesh and heals The...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 14 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I don't want to die. I want to feel alive again.

    But lately I catch myself thinking "I just want to die" over and over again. I'm always sad and in pain. Except when I'm with my best friend or hanging with my family. But I keep secrets from my family about who I really am. I know what I want for myself would hurt everyone...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    There's no point in even trying at life,

    people just screw you over and no one wants to help or understand you, suicide is the only option
    Aplus82 Aplus82 31-35, M 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I feel so stupid right now.

    I just got off the phone with my ex best friend, and he FINALLY told me part of why he did what he did to me. Apparently, I was so caught up in my anxiety at that point that I didn't notice his stepfather hurting him. I feel physically sick. How could someone hurt another human...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 57 Responses Jan 18

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    flower79 flower79 31-35, F 12 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 10 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I've delt with depression

    since I was in 7th grade. For years I have practiced hiding my depression. When I couldn't take it anymore I became suicidal. My mom found out and took me to counseling after awhile my mom seemed to get aggravated about having to take me. So when she asked if it was helping I...
    ygandulla ygandulla 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    its early. im on my own.

    im lonely but everyones asleep. please talk to me.
    sukibulb sukibulb 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like somedays,

    i feel like can take over the world and then reality hits and back at again feeling sorry for myself for i don't even know exactly.
    lesley2456 lesley2456 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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