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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,099 People

    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F 13 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Yeah,Im not quite sure how to explain,

    but Ill try. I feel like a complete failure. I try and try but somethin usually comes up that gets in the way. Im tired of roadblocks. Cant I just have an easy fkn life for once? I try and I try and I try and I try . Some people in my life just keep yelling at me and yelling...
    amtired amtired 22-25, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Do you ever see the triggers coming at you full

    steam but you just don't have the energy to fight them?
    pollyprozac pollyprozac 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Roses are black, violets are extinct,

    this is depression , at least for me. you can't see beauty, you can't see color, your soul becomes lost , all thats left is a body and a brain, a brain that is contaminated, and need drugs to clean it. Faces are happy, people are laughing, you watch and stare in envy, wondering...
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    So this is like the first time I'm not

    journaling my thoughts in a notebook. Here goes a bit about me: Neurotic is the perfect word to describe me. I don't feel right mentally. A lot of stuff angers me, and I see the evidence in how deep my pen gouges into the paper or when my body flushes. I've been losing my mind...
    ReyJay ReyJay 16-17, M 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I have decided to fight my depression.

    Who's with me? I'd like each and everyone of you to join me. This is a fantastic sight and we can begin right here on this page by supporting one another :). For those of you who don't know where to even begin to fighting this mental illness, let me share with you where I...
    BlackBuddafly88 BlackBuddafly88 26-30, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    How is it possible to change

    so much yet change so little? So many exterior changes have occurred in my life but psychologically and in regards to depression; I'm in the same situation I've always been in. I don't take photos anymore because I realised that every memory is painful. I don't sleep because I...
    Isolating Isolating 18-21, M 3 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I read my dad's texts

    and this was his conversation: Girl: "Being A Woman Raising Two Boys Can Be An Adventure." Dad: "That's How I Feel About Raising A Girl." How do I take this? Because I don't feel very good about it.
    DarkOnTheInside13 DarkOnTheInside13 13-15, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    hey guys! I just created a music page on

    facebook under "betty" musician/band and I'm looking to get a few more likes :) my first video is a song I wrote about depression.
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    My husband seems to have reached a point

    where he can't deal with my depression any more. I understand how hard it must be for him, but at the same time it's hard for me when he can't support me any more. We don't have sex either. So the two things combined just make me feel hopeless about the future of our marriage. I...
    JewelThief JewelThief 26-30, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    TheKAMIFox TheKAMIFox 13-15, M 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I can't do this anymore.

    My mind is running wild. As soon as I see hope, it's gone. I want to quit at life.
    courtneylightsupthesky courtneylightsupthesky 18-21, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    You can think about suicide

    and feel like you want to die and all those thoughts, without actually being actively suicidal. The trick is to keep it just a thought, and not let it become an action... I have just discovered this .. I still don't get it myself lol
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I cant handle it anymore.

    But last time I went to psych ward it didnt help.I wanna die. I could use someone to talk to. I cant handle this life . I........ am losing ground.
    amtired amtired 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Any little thing sets me off.

    I tend to obsess about little problems... Often making a molehill into a mountain, as they say. Depression is a sneaky thief. Robbing us of joy, making us zone out of life, and depriving us of opportunities that will never come again. I've been upset about our mouse problem...
    MommysGotTats420 MommysGotTats420 22-25, F 5 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was just sittin here

    and realized...I've been thru so much that my future is years of needing therapy but not getting it cuz I hate shrinks and would rather fix myself anyway and wondering if there's actually a right guy out there that would wanna be with someone who's damaged like me.
    thumper15 thumper15 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    Keeping busy is the best cure,

    but now after a month into my new job I feel it creeping on top of me again. It's like this my shoulders are getting heavier again.
    JJ2961 JJ2961 18-21, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Something that adds to my depression is seeing

    how people treat one and other. I have always been a good person. I have gone above and beyond to help others without asking anything in return. I've donated money to all types of charities. I always pick an angel off the giving tree for Christmas. I do all this even when I...
    megz327 megz327 26-30, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    myillmind myillmind 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I can't shake it today between money problems

    and having a hard time finding a job I'm can't stop cry just wanna lay in bed
    sharivea sharivea 22-25, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I would find a different way to say You're

    gonna have to change everything you've made You're gonna have to reword every metaphor you'd use So that people who are hearing aren't confused´╗┐....
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 hr ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Sometimes I don't even realise it

    because it happens for an average of 2 weeks at a time. But when it hits, it feels like I am sad even when I'm happy. Like even when I'm laughing at something funny, there's this weight on my chest that I can't get rid of. And it happens almost every month. It is not good. I...
    Hymph Hymph 22-25 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I used to believe that I was getting better.

    And for a while, I was. But everything is falling apart right now and I feel like I'm being dashed apart from the inside out and everything hurts all the time.
    emmeliarochester emmeliarochester 16-17, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    A dark thick cloud has rolled in My chest

    feels the heavy burden as it settles in With every ounce of energy I struggle and fight Only to loose and lie helplessly in it's grips Tears fill my eyes and I try to shout But at last I am stuck, their is no way out -Lisa
    Lisaissmiling Lisaissmiling 36-40, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago