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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,688 People

    Seeing that there has been over 20,

    000 posts on this experience page makes me wonder if anyone has gotten better...if there was someone who posted on here that isn't alive anymore..I hope you all are doing alright and know that I care for you all. I honestly do. I hate knowing that there is depression in this...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Struggling with Depression & Suicide - A

    Personal Perspective By Debbie Leads 8/10/03 Days of endless struggle More hopeful pills today Trying to appear 'normal' In some sort of way. It seems that the struggle Is always here with me And I wouldn't be here now If guilt would leave me be I know there's been many Who...
    Mrunderstood Mrunderstood 26-30, M 3 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Okay so this might sound really wired

    but i am super depressed because of a cough...okay let me explain a few days ago i started coughing all day and it was just constant 24/7 then i started to feel super sick and lose my appetite and now i hardly sleep i feel drained and weak i get hot and faint and it's getting to...
    SophieeKezzie SophieeKezzie 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My depression has come

    and gone multiple times. Mostly I manage to keep myself grounded knowing that I have 4 of the greatest friends I could have ever asked for. Sometimes I just wish that I could talk to them about how I feel..but honestly I'm too embarrassed to say a word about it to anyone. They...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I truly am a lost soul.

    I know nobody will ever connect with me the way I want them too so why try? Besides, I wouldn't want to drag anyone down to my level. Or let them see how I do. There is no true darkness, day and night are the same. Everything is constant in my misery. It's all I got left. The...
    Wounduponwound Wounduponwound 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    it was an awful day. it tested me to.

    the limit. I was treated unpleasantly by someone I don't know that well who won't even realise the full extent of how hurtful it was.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat 41-45, F 5 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Genuinely feel like im losing my mind.

    This feeling of intense sadness is just getting too much. Just don't feel right. Don't know how much longer i can last like this
    Ottway23 Ottway23 22-25 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    it ticks me off when people just act depressed

    for attention. cut for attention. I mean there is a HUGGEE difference then being depressed and wanting attention.
    alliesmithcx alliesmithcx 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    maxravnjak maxravnjak 16-17, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I've had chronic depression

    for over a year now and I hate everything I am. I've been dating a girl for over three years and I can't talk to her often. I feel alone. Like this feeling will never end... I'm 21 and I feel my life and chances to make a difference are withering away... I just want to opt out...
    DownInOut DownInOut 18-21, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I wish I was dead. I was planning on killing

    myself freshman year of college but I ended up dating this guy who turned out to be my other half. He's the love of my life but I ****** everything up and pushed him away due to my depression. I have a fear of abandonment so instead of being left I pushed him away and...
    ccarol9073 ccarol9073 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Ever since I was a little girl I wrote my will,

    feeling like death would take me at any point... And here I am as an adult fighting back those same feelings that never seem to go away. It's so hard to wake up feeling miserable, and being surrounded by friends and family while the only words running through your head are...
    kiwikisses kiwikisses 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Is this how you say goodbye?

    By leaving me alone? By walking pass me, pretending I don't exist? By giving me mixed signals? By hurting me, to the extent I die inside? Oh my dear love, I love you very much But everyday I see you.. You act like you're emotionless.. No physical contact, no signs, no nothing...
    Macyyyy Macyyyy 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Update: I've been taking meds

    and so far things are going substantially better than they were before (i.e. a few months ago). I can still feel the bad thoughts bubbling beneath the surface but I don't get trapped in deep trenches of cyclical thought patterns nearly as often. I'm dating someone delicious...
    Mittons Mittons 18-21 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Since I'm new here, I might

    as well use this experience to introduce myself. I'm Curtis, 17 year old who struggles with anxiety, depression and some other common stuff. I don't have much time to write this, so, I'll give a summary. When I was young, my father went to jail for a couple of years, finally...
    PoeticMystery PoeticMystery 16-17, M 1 Response 11 mins ago

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    Its been about 2 months

    since I've hurt myself. I've been fighting really hard but I think I've hit my limit. I don't know how much longer I can go. I really want back into old habits, and tonight might just make me feel unstoppable.
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I learned that there are many different kinds

    of depression. They are hard to define and are often overlapping. It's not uncommon for a soul to be infected by many of them at the same time. They can be also layered, wrapping the host many times. This is why during your fight against it, it may look like it's changing: it's...
    heronD heronD 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Look I need help, I can't do this anymore,

    I need to kill myself, does anyone know any ways that I can do it, it wi be best for everyone
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    An update!! http://bipolar2medstudent.

    blogspot.com/2015/03/update.html
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Well my house has sold,

    my sister is so happy she got what she wanted her share of the money. she had her little plan and a new state to move to, I'm still searching for a place for myself. I have to be out by the 19th of april, and of course everybody is telling me what I should do or where I should...
    nobody54 nobody54 56-60, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I'm normally seen as a very happy person.

    Rarely anyone has ever seen me depressed, or anything really. I'm good at hiding it. I lay in bed for hours at night thinking of everything I've ****** up in my life, the worst part about anxiety and depression is people who don't have it, will never understand. I never...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I'm so ugly and unless I'd

    rather slit my wrist and end all this for good......
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    “Battling Depression” I have found

    that writing is good for my soul, it helps me to deal with the depression in my life. Everyday I have to deal with the fact that I live in a place that doesn't want me here and living as a transwoman has given me the opportunity to see people at their worst. I live in a world...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 18 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Everyday I remember how miserable I am how

    lonely I'm how unloved I am how I never was taking care of
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses