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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 62,853 People

    I think this is the worst depression I've ever

    been in. I'm extremely suicidal. I actually have strep throat right now and I'm not going to the doctor for it because I want it to get worse. And yes I know that's ******* stupid. You don't have to tell me how dumb it is..I already know. I just wish I was gone already. I'm...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 7 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    IT REALLY ****** ME OFF WHEN SO MANY OF YOU

    TELL ME TO GET HELP. I have a counsellor, a therapist, a doctor I see once a week and I'm on a doubled dose of the strongest anti depressants. So **** off with the whole 'get help' I DO HAVE HELP. I still WANT TO DIE.
    HarrietAC HarrietAC 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 mins ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I couldn't get out of bed

    and missed all of my classes today. I feel like crap.
    shenlong977 shenlong977 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Why does this thought feel

    so relevant to me on a "down" morning? I don't really understand what it is saying to me yet. But it grabbed ahold of me and hasn't let go.
    ladymaverick31 ladymaverick31 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've always been teased about my weight.

    . I'm exactly 100 ... And I hate it. I hate my body. And I tend to cover up when around my boyfriend
    YoungLovee15 YoungLovee15 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I lost my big brother Jason last year

    and my sister committed suicide early this morning and to be honest the only thing keeping me going is my boyfriend but he keeps me alive he stops me from killing myself but the crying the cutting the feeling of hurt i don't know what to do everything seems to be going wrong for...
    SophieArmoniaMarkezzie SophieArmoniaMarkezzie 18-21, F 13 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think I need more help

    than just motivation.
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I'm not unhappy today,

    I've felt okay, had a few smiles, and even laughed. But I do still want to end things, because I can't go back to how things were
    HarrietAC HarrietAC 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    No one cares.........

    .I don't blame them
    Supershoes24 Supershoes24 22-25, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm 18 and I'm depressed again.

    I was diagnosed at 16, like many teenagers with mental illness, but now I feel I have no right to be depressed. I can't be. I don't know why, but I always had this idea that adults can't be depressed, and since I'm no longer a teenager, I feel even worse for that. Like I should...
    sinispia sinispia 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 30 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 10 Responses Aug 10

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    I am mortal but am I human?

    How much longer can I take this pain until I break? As I look and see how happy people are, or at least how they seem, it burns. It brings back memories of before my incident. Before my cuts, before my innocence was takeb. It's really messed up when I wish I could go back to...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 17

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I cried today over reading the words "all ive

    really wanted and want is for my mom to spend more time with me and care about me." My mom has always given me the things i have needed to survive, but not to mature as a person. I had to build myself. I didnt have a father and my mother was the only one i could turn to. My...
    scientrick scientrick 18-21, M 17 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I sometimes feel like I don't belong in this

    world.... I cry at night and I always think that people talk about me behind my back. Some people look at me like I'm stupid and treat me like I'm stupid.
    Babyh13 Babyh13 18-21, F 6 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    My mom just found out her cancer has come back

    for the 3rd time. Feeling pretty depressed.
    ksgirl11 ksgirl11 18-21, F 17 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm constantly sad I leave myself out of things

    and just recently I started cutting my arm and tried an overdose I don't know what to do
    Mustangkid2017 Mustangkid2017 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's always kind of a shock

    when I find myself thinking about suicide. It's a little bit like discovering a friend likes the same shows as you. "Oh, you're right, that is a good idea." I don't want to live anymore. It's really as simple as that. I'm not going to say no-one would notice, because they...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't need someone one to make me happy.

    I need to stop having friends. All of them have made me sad in some way. And it isn't their fault, it's mine. I get attar he'd to people easily. So I need to stop doing that, I need to back away from people. Limit the time I talk to them. Because I can't get hurt if there's no...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 5 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    If you're looking for a sign to not kill

    yourself tonight: THIS IS IT.
    InhuldibleCrelk InhuldibleCrelk 36-40 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 77 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    ffffffs, that good mood lasted about 10 minutes.

    What the Hell do you do when you can't keep happy? How do you live your life knowing that sooner or later you're just going to fall into that bottomless pit of absolute darkness? How do you make plans with your friends when you know that you're going to feel uncomfortable...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I don't know how much longer i can take this.

    .. i just want to disappear. I know that might seem like im over reacting but i think everyone belongs somewhere and i just dont feel like this is where i belong, i never have and i dont think i ever will. I just want to go...
    WorthlessAngel12 WorthlessAngel12 16-17, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Goddammit, it's really hard to write a suicide

    note. There's been a few times when I've felt like my suicide note isn't enough so I just haven't done it. I have no idea what a sufficient amount of "sorry"s would be, I don't know what would be enough to make them understand much I need to do it. Until I can figure that out, I...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    I'm losing my battle.

    . I can't help but lose
    LivingNotRequired LivingNotRequired 18-21, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    I just got an 8.5 on my essay out of 20.

    SCORE! I hate the school curriculum.
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 21 Responses Jul 7

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    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate that even on good days like today

    something still ends up making me depressed! I had a great day and I was really happy then out of no where I became depressed and started thinking negative. I hate feeling like I can't control my emotions!
    Jaymerz97 Jaymerz97 16-17, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I don't want to get out of bed

    because nothing I do brings me joy anyway. Even the little things seem so hard and meaningless to do. I have tried to get my mom to take me to a therapist but she says every teenager goes through that phrase... Yes, my parents have given me everything for a perfect childhood and...
    jiumpuu jiumpuu 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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