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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,761 People

    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Everyday for the past 11 months is a struggle

    for me to even look forward to a better day.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    Everyday I look happy to friends

    and family like everything is OK, but on the inside there is a gap of loneliness from 1 person and its killing me.
    Crazychick123456 Crazychick123456 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I don't want someone

    who can listen, I want someone who can understand..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 35 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I've been diagnosed with depression

    since I was 13. I used to be so over emotional, I would cry at everything. But now, I feel nothing. No emotions. My hamster died and I didn't feel anything, does that make me a horrible person? I feel like a shell of a person I used to be. The old me is gone. I suffer with a...
    MrsKAura MrsKAura 18-21, F 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I'll be getting a new therapist soon.

    My last one wasnt fixing anything and I left the sessions angrier than I went in.. How do I know if this'll be different..?
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Learning to breathe and let go are two of the

    hardest things I’ve forced myself to do every day it seems harder than the next to just take a moment and let go of my stress and worry. I miss my father so much it hurts. I think of his smile and sometimes hear his laughter in my mind. It makes me want to cry and breakdown...
    blackskys blackskys 22-25, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I slit my wrists to erase the pain,

    You look at me and think I'm insane My eyes turn red, bleeding my tears And still you try to protect me from my worst fears Look at my scars, then will you see Why I can't seem to go around and fake happy Yet you tell me you love me, that you'll forget For soon i'll be gone...
    ravenzewolf ravenzewolf 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I know your name; David I know how old you are;

    18 I know when I met you; 2004 I know how long we have been friends; 10 years I know what you got me for my birthday: A tattoo and lip piercing I know what kind of cigarettes you smoke; Marlboro Black Menthol 100′s I know what kind of alcohol you hate the most; Cherry Vodka...
    forgottenheart forgottenheart 18-21, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I know I'm not going to kill myself.

    I don't enough courage to do it. I'm not looking for someone to tell me, "don't do it" or "it's not worth it" or whatever. I don't cut. I suffocate myself. I take whatever I can find, wrap it around my neck, and pull. I pull until I see black dots. Until I start loosing my...
    MatchedWithBlack MatchedWithBlack 16-17, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    God woke you up not to cry cause you can't,

    If god knows we can't handle it, He wouldn't have woke us up. Face your problems and be happy on front of the haters because they hate it when you're happy.😊😃😄
    Tweenagemess18 Tweenagemess18 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    (A little poem I wrote ,

    ps don't start with me about the punctuation I'm too sleepy to care XD.) I don't laugh , I don't smile or cry I don't hold my head up cause the answers won't fall out of the sky . I don't feel and I don't know why , but my heart wants to live while my head is saying die.
    Princeofthesky Princeofthesky 18-21, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 6 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 8 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I've often said I wanted to kill myself.

    To be honest, I fear dying (what happens after death), but I want to die. At this point, my life simply has degenerated into a total hell, and there really is no hope for things to get better. I know some of you would say that it does get better and there is hope, but if you...
    SturmWind SturmWind 16-17, M 4 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Today I am having a lot of those thoughts.

    .where I seriously just can't stand look at anyone or talk because I was ******* antagonized by my ex and he thinks it's funny and I'm like seriously are you ******* kidding me he ****** me off soo much....now I'm just in this depression mood I haven't felt in a while....ughh...
    kennyamazing kennyamazing 13-15, M 22 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Is it still a battle

    if you're both sides?
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    I have battled depression

    since I was a toddler. Every day is a struggle, but also an experience
    griffinlynn1 griffinlynn1 13-15, T 4 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 hr ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    So I'm still alive but I'm strongly thinking

    about end it... I mean what's the point.. Phone gets turned off tomorrow, no rent money... No money for power... I'm at my wits end... I lost everything...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 7 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 31 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Fed some cute stray pups this morning.

    Good deed for the day, done! :)
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    One of my Tools: Creative visualization.

    Da pimpin bipolar poet has returned. Thats right he's back, he fell down In a hole and slipped into a role. He once had to shoot down this sweet boy h-mo name Cole ... got nothin gainst no one, I do l Love em All! especially dem Haters da Hoez! - but chix not dudez thatz...
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M 6 hrs ago

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    The world has let itself be carried away by

    stupidity. It's the easiest way. They were begging to lose consciousness of their acts to release them from responsability. For humanity without identity, without integrity, what they called freedom, has only served to make them see that they were incapable of making decisions...
    MissNNN MissNNN 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Today's die-ary entry.

    Phone calls made but one. I feel beat, tired, sick, and empty inside. The thought of killing and inflicting harm weaving greatly on my mind... I ask myself... Why am I alive still. And than I cry and call myself a failure and a coward... I've cheated death so many times, is...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    This will be a rant, apologies in advance.

    My home life sucks and I just don’t like people or school or talking and I wouldn’t ******* care if I failed all my classes and dropped out but obv I can’t and I’d also like to go to college what do I do I just want to fall off the face of the earth I hate school I hate...
    opheliarevived opheliarevived 16-17, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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