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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,487 People

    Sarahex Sarahex 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I'm so upset with myself.

    I told my closest friend I'd always be there for her and while she was depressed and alone.. I was asleep.. I let her down.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I hate it when I start pitying myself,

    knowing fully well there are people fighting even tougher battles.
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Does anyone else feel stuck

    yet lost at the same time? It's like, I understand the feeling but can't explain it..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    I can't find happiness in anything anymore

    and I still can't find a reason to keep living. my best friend has tried to help but no one can change the way I feel about myself. life's slowly eating away at me and I don't want it to win
    money4rocketfuel money4rocketfuel 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    Bye Bye Halloween, Hello Depression.

    I think I have to give up going on... dare I say it ...on Halloween (MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR) to say inside and try and handle my emotions. It ****** me off a bit. Why? I told my parents about it like a month ago to get help, yet I see my mother is online playing games for...
    RandomDudeFriend RandomDudeFriend 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    It's been getting worse the last couple of weeks

    or so. I feel myself slipping in and out of reality. I don't sleep, and my days blend together. I don't eat because I hate how I look due to the fact that I used to weigh 355 lbs and I still see every bit of it every time I have the displeasure of looking at myself in the mirror...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Therapy update: Went back again today,

    after walking a freezing cold, long, exposed and extremely windy bridge with trucks screaming past me no less.. While the doctor was writing stuff down about my mood, which seems to have levelled somewhat, I glanced at his computer. I saw previous notes from him about my...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ever watch the video

    for Chandelier by Sia? That song is my life, that video is my state of mind. See, when I finally am in a good mood my brain goes into overdrive and I act SO WEIRD because I can't help myself and then everyone thinks I'm batshit crazy. And I feel that way, like I can't control...
    DreamingOrchid DreamingOrchid 31-35, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    **** this ******* ****.

    I am sick of people who say I can't achieve things. I am sick of stupid problems that seem to be everywhere. I am sick of all this responsibility and I am tired of making everyone else happy. Even my abstinence from suicide is to ensure I don't upset those I care about.
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Re-wrote this. letting it all out,

    or most of what I can think of right now... I'm not "real" anymore. I am an observer living above and critiquing myself, watching myself go through the motions of life without actually being present in the moment. I'm waiting and hoping that my life will just be over with...
    doomy22 doomy22 18-21, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    It's strange not being on rock bottom.

    I mean, I'm not all that far from it, but I'm no longer there. It's scary. Leaving the place you've known for so long. It's even scarier when the things and people who are helping you aren't guaranteed to be there through the whole process. I've been debating pushing myself...
    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    To Endure Gods Love! Somehow it feels like all

    my life God has watched over me and protected me from death, yet he has allowed me to endure the suffering of a life time. Today as I sit here, I cannot help but wonder why would God want to save someone like myself? For the most part I would like to think that I have done my...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    Very down today . Just can't knock

    that feeling today . Please god tomorrow is better
    snowmoon123 snowmoon123 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 17 Responses May 27

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    I always listen to maroon 5

    when i am upset
    Madelinex24 Madelinex24 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    Todays already not a good morning,

    my dad barged into my room extremely early as well as very rudely just so I can get to school early and see a teacher, only to find out she's not there in the mornings. 😓 The same thing happened yesterday, and I'm like crying right now.
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I give up. I'm not getting much lower

    than this, and am not able to crawl out.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's late at night on my thirteenth birthday,

    and I'm sitting here with an empty body that somehow weighs all too much, bloody hips that look all too familiar and a blank stare after I just washed off today's fake smile.
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    I'm about to give up man.

    Seriously, this life thing just isn't really worth it anymore. One let down after another. Why bother? I've already lived my life through in my head, it's just a matter of time now that I live out these phases before I curl up to die. Why not just end it all now and say **** it...
    doomy22 doomy22 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Heart breaking. He has OCD in the real sense.

    "Love is not a mistake, and its killing me that she can run away from this and I just cant. I cant. I cant go out and find someone new because I always think of her. Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin. I see myself crushed by an endless...
    HelpIsHere5 HelpIsHere5 22-25 23 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I have been on medication

    for double depression since last year. About two months ago the meds stopped working and I completely relapsed except it was worse than it has ever been. I could barely get out of the bed in the morning and I am not sure how I am not currently failing every class in my last...
    Soalone10 Soalone10 22-25, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Something I forgot when I was thinking about

    walking out of my job. I'm good at what I do and will not be pushed out!
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression It hurts me It angers me It makes

    me hate myself Depression It hurts him It angers him It makes him hate himself Depression It hurts us It angers us It makes us hate ourselves Depression It changed me It changed him It changed us Now there's no us
    beautifuldisaster4 beautifuldisaster4 22-25, F 5 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Yesterday I had a phone conversation with my

    husband during which I asked him what his plans for the evening were. He mentioned something that needed to get done. I then interpretted it in my mind as him telling me to do it, and I objected and said that I was not up to doing that. He hung up before I was ready to finish...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I have the feeling I'm about to break soon

    and I'm scared it's gonna be in class. I'm thinking about telling my best friend about it but I'm scared he won't understand or he is gonna laugh, because we used to have someone who was depressed in our class and well... he was kinda weird and nobody took it serious and my...
    gomega98 gomega98 16-17, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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