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    Omg my doctor wants me to schedule an appt

    for next week. I have spent all day crying. I am not ok right now. My therapist thinks I am okay, my doctor thinks I am okay. My husband thinks I am okay. I have spent all day arguing with myself; reasons why you shouldn't kill yourself. I get it, I look nice, dress nice, I am a...
    hotwasabizen hotwasabizen 41-45, F 11 Responses 2 days ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    So this is it I say goodbye To this chapter of

    my ever-changing life And there's mistakes The path is long And I'm sure I'll answer for them when I'm gone So when the day comes and The sun won't touch my face Tell the ones who cared enough That I finally left this place That's been so cold Look at my face All the stories it...
    zoozii zoozii 18-21, F 39 mins ago

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    The worse I feel about myself,

    the more I like making others feel good about themselves. I would never want somebody to experience this pain.
    Gingerfab Gingerfab 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    about two years ago i tried to kill myself.

    i had pretty bad depression and anxiety. i still have. and it won't go away. no matter how hard I try. im still having suicidal thoughts. and i feel like if something bad happens... im gonna kill myself
    effylee effylee 16-17, F 1 Response 39 mins ago

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    It wasn't until earlier this year,

    that I realize I was depressed. I always was tired, lazy doing everything. Unmotivated about almost everything. Didn't like people, didn't like going out. I overate. I would binge eat in my room. I hated school and everyone in it, I was rude to people at work, and I just wanted...
    aishasmith aishasmith 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    It's easier to run Replacing this pain with

    something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken from deep inside of me The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and...
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 33 mins ago

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    No, I can't say I'm battle depression

    because I'm not. At least not right now. These days, last year, were the worst days of my life. I didn't know what to do with my life, I didn't to go out with my friends, I didn't study for uni and neither go to classes. The only things that I wanted to do was stay in my...
    JustAnotherGirlOnEP JustAnotherGirlOnEP 18-21, F 9 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I got a letter in post from fraud

    and error saying i need attend a tape recorded interview about a fraud investigation and suspected criminal offences in benefits. I dint commit fraud and have no idea why ive been sent this.
    KentGirl29 KentGirl29 26-30, F 1 Response 42 mins ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    It hurts me knowing some of my family members

    doesn't really care about me. They can't really blame me why I don't tell people things like, my problems, my feelings and the things happened to me. what's the use? They wouldn't care anyway. I don't wanna waste my feelings on people who aren't worth it. I don't wanna love...
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    I'm not sure if I'm 34

    or 35 without doing the math...but I am sure that I'm in the saddest, most depressed time of my life. I've struggled with depression for nearly my entire life. My mother was diagnosed as manic depressive when she was in her early thirties. She's been in bed ever since. It is...
    denvyl denvyl 31-35, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Everything I do I seem to fail at.

    I fail at being an adult. I fail at life. I am unemployed, and still live with my parents...I'm 26! I feel like I'm wasting my life away. I want to be like everyone else, and contribute to the world, but I've been in a downward spiral for years now, and I don't know how to claw...
    limeness limeness 26-30, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    My parents treat me like **** they're

    practically rubbing into my face that I lost my 3ds and neither one is willing to split the cost of my new 3ds 50/50 in 3 ******* months they won't be able to spare $125 cause "we would have to give $125 to the the other boys cause you guys are equal yeah and the hinges...
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Every time I look at myself in the mirror I

    feel like I'm suffocating. I'm just so unhappy with myself. An extremely intense wave of just straight self hatred comes over me every time I see myself. I've always hated myself but not like this. Never like this. I'm thinking about just ending it all. I feel like I will never...
    underwaterlilly underwaterlilly 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    All I do is eat, sleep,

    smoke, listen to music, read, and go to restroom. What a life.
    halohai halohai 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I compare my depression to a dark night with no

    light permeating from anywhere. I always looked up and saw nothing but blackness. It forced me to look down and turn within myself. My mind raging with things I thought. Demons slowly taking the good things and turning them into things I hated. Slowly they silenced all the...
    vanessacd5 vanessacd5 46-50 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    It was 4 years back when i wanted to conquer

    the world. I started drawing as a kid and at 12 discovered my artistic abilities when i would create something and be appreciated for it. Those were the best moments in my otherwise depressing childhood/ teen years as i was an underdog barely known at school, the misfit, the...
    Bllahblah Bllahblah 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've battled depression

    for about a year now and just talking about this gets me kind of upset because I really do t like talking about this stuff but I'm running out of options here. Just when this seem to be getting better I get kicked in the *** again by life as if it finds me amusing. I'm running...
    Amubarak88 Amubarak88 16-17, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    My mom doesn't want to hear it.

    I started to break down today and almost told her I was depressed but didn't get to it. I was upset and trying to tell her how I'm unhappy all the time and I'm trying to be happier but it's hard. She hugged me and I knew in a minute she would probably cry too. She kept telling...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Happiness is a state of mind.

    Depression is a state of mind. Some say we can choose to be happy. How many of us choose to be depressed? Not many, if any. Happiness is the product of our mindset based on many variables such as environment, stability. Each individual has different parameters of what they...
    MistyGoddess MistyGoddess 41-45, F 5 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    When i get depressed,

    i go out and see my friends and be happy. Plus i Eat less!
    psstisst psstisst 18-21, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    "Sometimes when you're in a dark place,

    you think you've been buried. Actually, you've been planted." -Christine Caine This is my experience.
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 23 hrs ago

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    Darkness encompasses my soul.

    Squeezing out the last rays of light. Savagely destroying any hope my heart had dared to believe. I close my eyes in defeat. I can feel my body breaking. My hands tremble, my breaths shallow. Images flash across my mind, awakening old demons. I panic yet and oddly calm, I know...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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