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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,892 People

    yeahis18 yeahis18 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    I battle depression almost everyday .

    It's hard going through this idk what to do and I need someone to talk to . Then I act all happy around people when I'm not .
    Heyitsjalenn Heyitsjalenn 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I've been depressed ever

    since I was about 14 years old. It all started when I lost my grandfather, he was my best friend. He was getting old and became sick, his leg had to be amputated because of an infection. He lost a lot of weight and spent a lot of time in hospitals. That is what bothers me, I...
    MJay087 MJay087 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    im good at vanishing,

    dont worry though. im not a big deal, u will forget me anyways
    angellove19 angellove19 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    "The darkness is death - we can speak,

    but we are not heard. We can scream but they turn their backs. We can run, but we cannot catch them. It is the dream where arms and legs won't work they way they should, and the air is too thick to breathe. Loved ones walk a mile ahead, forgetting to stop as we fall behind. This...
    isohatetheworld isohatetheworld 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    My laptop has stopped working

    for some reason so in writing this on my ipad. My mum just violated boundaries again and told me that my dad said that I'm in his way and that I have nothing going for me and that I have no life. I don't tell him anything of my life nor is he interested. My mum didn't even...
    Misscoconut Misscoconut 16-17, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Another really bad day,

    I've spent the last five hours trying to find reasons to live without overshadowing each thought with regret. Feeling like I let myself down. I've spent the last 21+ years trying to be a person I'm not. Now I've tried so hard that my path is pretty much unchangeable and I can't...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Here I am again walking around.

    This waste land of darkness. No matter how many times I leave I always seem to come back. But I am not the only one. There are others stuck in this nightmare of a game with me. Some continue to play. While others stop and disappear from existence. As I walk around this...
    TheDarkKnight1560 TheDarkKnight1560 16-17, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    In Loving Memory Jamestown Story You said

    yourself before, where are you? I'm needing you much more, I guess you never knew And now everything, is gonna fall apart I need you here, not just in my heart This wasn't how it's supposed to be And now I'm torn with misery I won't forget you please don't me In loving memory...
    AlyShine AlyShine 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    sometimes it gets the better of me.

    ..makes me not want to do anything...I dont feel like existing sometimes. and nothing really works or help. No one really understands how I feel, but I fight it nonetheless....its not fair on others for me to mope and complain, not when there is **** to do and not when there are...
    Jesse287 Jesse287 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Goodbye (I'm Sorry) Jamestown Story Time has

    run out for me, everything's distant and I don't know what to believe It's so hard, lost in the world's confusion and I need to leave for awhile, Life is so meaningless There is nothing worth a smile So goodbye, I'll miss you... And I'm sorry, but this is my fate, Everything is...
    AlyShine AlyShine 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 31

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    She says I'm walking in a straight line,

    but that's not really her style. They all got the same heart beat, but hers is falling behind. Nothing in this world could, ever bring them down. Yeah they're invincible and she's just in the back ground. And she says, I wish that I could be like the cool kids, cause all the...
    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I wouldn't be battling depression right now

    if I haven't even gone to Central School in the first place. Central has ruined my life...
    Trinityde Trinityde 13-15, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Nothing's Forever Jamestown Story I can feel

    the distance, your heart seems unsure you put me through hell cause loving you is a war I hope to God you're happy, I hope that you had fun you'll get what you deserve when all is said and done I don't know when, I don't know how but that was then and this is now So baby if we...
    AlyShine AlyShine 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    I've been fighting this

    for as long as I can remember. I do my best to hide it, to smile and joke and laugh. But as soon as I am alone I am choked and smothered by my overwhelming feelings of pity, disgust, hatred, and so much more. I tried talking to my boyfriend about it and he quickly ignores my...
    Amami Amami 22-25, F 6 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I have clear thoughts on how it will happen

    but lack the courage to follow my dreams...
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 36 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I never want to talk about it.

    I'm afraid I'm using up everyone's understanding. They can only put up with my bs for so long. How long before they don't care anymore? Before they start blaming me for not getting better?
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl 22-25, F 6 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I had a dream, I was crying

    and shouting... I wake up and i want tell someone about my dream but theres no one that cares about me, though I did told my bf about my weird dream but we didnt talk much about it and as usual the conversation drift away and we soon talked about his works and such... No one...
    shazmn shazmn 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 17 Responses May 27

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I'm tired of this life.

    I'm tired of this school. I'm tired of these people. I'm tired of classes. I'm tired of the same life. I'm tired of how I think. I'm tired of being discouraged. I'm tired of going through the motions. I'm tired of watching my days go by. I'm just done. I'm a senior in college. I...
    SheIsBroken SheIsBroken 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    You know you have trichotillomania

    when everytime you move from sitting down there's a **** ton of hair all over your spot. I hate it, but I can't stop.
    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    It's so difficult all the time.

    You try not to think about the bad things that happened, you pretend your okay. U feel like you can't talk to anyone because your afraidAw (: they'll hurt you or parented they understand. Your brain is always running you feel empty it's like a roller coaster. One day your great...
    yeahis18 yeahis18 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    When I was living alone,

    it was one of the most trying and sad times of my life. I didn't work and spent 24/7 at home. I had no internet or anything else to do but watch tv or sleep. And I hate tv immensely. And I had a loud neighbor too, which is another story. I had no friends and my mother only came...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I can't get it out of my head .

    .. The last words she said to me were " I'm sorry I can't take it anymore its too much ..." And she was gone why can't I go too it's just killing me inside why can't I just die I'm Useless no one cares
    Cookdc12 Cookdc12 22-25, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    They cut it down!! I live in the city,

    there isn't much nature around me. In the back of the house, in the alleyway there was a plant/bush/tree (I'm sure it was a weed) the point is that it had been there before we moved in, I've watched it growing. It would bring so many birds. In the fall and winter, I've gotten to...
    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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