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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,664 People

    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    I'm mad and sad because I've been working at a

    court house and going to law school and every time I get my paycheck (I get payed 3,000) a month and when I look at my account I only have $500 and that doesn't cover my bills for my stupid lease on my car and other things and I just found out that my step mom was sending $2,500...
    idkusername123 idkusername123 18-21, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I battle depression. I take refuge in

    imagination and humour. I make up my own little stupid imaginary stories and situations and I feel happy when I do that. That makes me think, am I really depressed? Humour is the opposite of sadness. How can I even think of funny things when I feel so empty inside and lock...
    thewanderess thewanderess 31-35, F 5 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    Girls I will always listen to you

    and I will never judge you :)
    charmingcutie charmingcutie 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    You can have all your family

    and your friends around you to support, but this depression makes you feel so alone nonetheless. What else could you expect? When you have a hole in yourself, a void that can only filled up by you, then you can never truly appreciate or feel the warmth of others, until you...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    Most days I am fine,

    and I focus on my goals and what makes me happy. And others, I find fault in everything. My life is never good enough, and it feels like the world is crashing down on me. Whenever I am bored my mind wanders to dark, dark places. It takes all my energy to snap out of it, if only...
    ManyRegrets ManyRegrets 18-21, M 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    If you were suicidal at all this year,

    or any year I'm the past and you are still alive right now for the holdays... I'd like to say I'm very proud that you have made it this far. It takes a lot of f***ing courage to last through the holidays. You are so strong and you can make it through 2015. Merry Christmas...
    alicefloe alicefloe 16-17, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I really thought I was doing better; I have

    been. For the last 20years, from Thanksgiving until New Years, I was emotional to the N'th degree, self medicated or harmed, and felt angry towards anyone who seemed happy. Why? Because life's not fair!!! Okay so I had to come to some realizations. Life is not fair. But I am...
    3EB333 3EB333 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Even Chirstmas becomes nothing

    but a bitter holiday when this feeling won't go away. Why the hell do you expect me to enjoy the colourful lights and presents when all I can see is black and white around me? For you to feel good? Fine. Of course! I want all of you happy. But leave me alone and don't push the...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    God it christmas and all i wana do is kill

    myself i got enuf alcohol to do it :/
    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F 10 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses Jul 17

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 31

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    If anyone in this group feels lonely

    and friendless, you can message me. I know how depression feels. I still battle it myself. Today, in quick succession, I felt sad, angry, defeated and invisible. Depression is a terrible illness and nobody should have to go it alone.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Look at yourself as a very good friend,

    help yourself, teach yourself to be a bit more selfish. I start to think in this way several months after I walked out from depression. Merry Christmas all brothers and sisters here.
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Haven't celebrated a family holiday

    since my folks divorced. Been on my own since I was 12 living with a single mother who works too damn hard and is always gone. Family holidays are never happy for me. They just remind me of everything I don't have. I don't care about presents or money. I just want to feel like a...
    ManyRegrets ManyRegrets 18-21, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Hope you all got through today.

    My day was probably not the Christmas I wanted because I am missing my boy. But I'm thankful to know that he is being looked after, he will be home soon and that although I didn't get the Xmas I wanted, I have a roof over my head, I'm warm, I've eaten good food and I spent the...
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    My best friend committed suicide almost three

    years ago. Recently I haven't ben able to think about anything else. I don't have many other close friends and the ones I do have don't live in my area anymore and don't understand what I'm going through. Even my friends who have also lost someone to suicide don't understand...
    amazingcuzitis amazingcuzitis 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    holdontilmay holdontilmay 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I really struggle with the holidays.

    . I'm not much liked in my family. I'm the black sheep. And my boyfriends side I don't believe I'm much liked either. There really is no place for me..
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been battling depression

    for a long time. Six years at the least, and it's always been getting worse. But after 14 years of life and hope, six years of increasing pain, and countless nights of tears and suicidal thoughts, I'm still standing. I thank those who have supported me, and I hope those will...
    Shyspan Shyspan 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    merry christmas guys !

    ! I hope you all have a great day. For some reason I can't get myself out of a depressive mood. It doesn't feel like christmas. my 'incident' started during Christmas time. It's ten times less enjoyable. I've gained two pounds, I was at dinner with my family, went into my nanas...
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm done with depression!

    I sick of it controlling my life. I'm sick of myself crawling into a ball after something horrible happens. I'm sick of screaming, hitting, and throwing things around to fell better. I am done. you will not control my life.
    jellyrolls34 jellyrolls34 18-21, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Being alone is scary

    when you have crazy loud thoughts in your head that cannot be stop.
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    1492Savagery 1492Savagery 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 11 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Happy Christmas everyone :) let it be a day

    when we forget all of our worries and stresses and well and truly give our minds a rest (as tough as it may be for some!) <3 and thanks you guys for everything, I've gotten so much help and support off you guys I don't know if I'd be here without you :) <3
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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