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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 71,308 People

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Sometimes my family drives me to the point

    where I want to kill myself. So through the night when I can't sleep, I have a razor in my hand.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So now we have some lady on here pushing

    vitamins that you put under your tongue that will cure depression ...... Wtf is the world coming too . Any way people can find to push there products they will do.
    startingover34 startingover34 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    To be honest I don't know what I feel anymore.

    It's not emptiness..I don't think I'm lonely, yet for some reason I can't help but feel depressed always. As if there is some sort of negative energy that follows me around all day. I've done everything in the books to fill the hole in me, yet nothing seems to work. It's not...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Hey, watch the movie,

    The Secret, it really will change your life if you let it
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Being suicidal and depressed is one of the

    hardest things I've been through. People say "seek help" But when you do, they say "you're attention seeking, people who deal with depression don't talk about it" You feel alone You feel empty You feel worthless. Trust me, if I would do anything for attention, it WOULDNT...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I may have to get a 5th eye surgery.

    . Everyone leave me alone for a bit.
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    No matter how much I try I just can't get over

    the fact that just because I didn't call my grandma my aunt said that if I get leukemia again no one would be there for me. I know it's not true but it still hurts. I can't call my grandma because she has leukemia now and it triggers me to remember what I went through. Remember...
    animerules44 animerules44 16-17 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Mornings like this it's easier to say

    that I'm feeling under the weather. It's easier to fake a bit of a cough and say I'm tired than to admit to what's really going on. If I were to be honest, I would say that my depression punctured my lungs, filled my veins with lead and my head with cotton. I would tell my co...
    TheBlasphemousOptimist TheBlasphemousOptimist 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When you wish to persevere

    but you have no fight left in you.
    Imbloo Imbloo 16-17 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    This is Tug of war in my head,

    I usually wish that I were dead. If only my body could be free, Well, at least baby, you still love me. And thru this game of tug-a-war, You are all I want...Nothing more! You pick me up every time I fall, For reasons unknown, u love me thru it all. I hate myself, So much it...
    shaybaby26 shaybaby26 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 82 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    today is bad I feel so depressed

    when just the past few days I was actually starting to be happier again because I've been reaching out for help and doing things for myself usually I don't usually I just stay home in bed all day long I don't do anything and I don't talk to anyone I don't even get dressed I get...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    THE POWER OF PRAYER!Time pass's by slowly now

    for me. Each day I find myself talking more and more to the Lord. I really believe that things are getting easier for me to understand now. I am trying to let go of all my fears of dying and to except that I will be taken care of.I have noticed that the more I pray, I find that...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I don't know why but sometimes I stay over my

    ex bf and he just never touches me ..its been a month we haven't been together and I would think we would just mess around..he is the one that tells me to sleep over ..I just feel so we next to him..
    moondesires moondesires 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I hate the way I look.

    I have a ton of gray hair. I want my hair to be long and wavy. That's not going to happen.
    Roger773 Roger773 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    The Real Folk Blues..

    . Thinking about how the world treated me. The outcome is mixed. I had good days and bad days. 20 years on this planet, and feel sadness and joy. I kinda don't know where my life is heading. Is uncertainty a bad thing?
    lilman390 lilman390 18-21, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Sometimes people say

    that I'm not really depressed because I don't cut myself. Or take antidepressants. Or go to therapy. Or try go seek help from others. I guess they really don't know what it's like... I've never been able to stand the sight of blood. So I never cut myself; instead, I would drink...
    SarcasticBadger SarcasticBadger 16-17, M 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Emptiness, this damn mind f*cking,

    emptiness. This soul crushing, isolating, nauseating, horrible emptiness that keeps it's awful claws in me. Lonely, alone and lost. This is me right now.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I did the talk with my teacher today,

    and oh my god I feel so much more comfortable with him. I went in during lunch yesterday to give him a bag of candy and a card telling him that I appreciate him for everything, and also mentioned that I want to continue band after high school because nothing makes me more happy...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 11 Responses Mar 18

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    If anyone wants to talk ,

    I'm here for you :)
    Josephine14 Josephine14 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am going to cover a lot of bases about myself

    here....I feel as though the last couple weeks I've been losing my mind, and I have to get out who I am in some form or another, and I figure sharing this is better than bottling it up in my mess of a brain. I have always, always, always tried to be the person people relied...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I once thought I was made of impenetrable steel,

    flawless and strong. But then I got into deep water and my steel hull dragged me to the bottom. The pressure of the water made my bolts pop, and in flooded bad thoughts. Everything was cold and dark, with nary a sign of life surrounding me. As I gasped for my last air, a...
    lostsoul8844 lostsoul8844 36-40, M 5 Responses 21 hrs ago