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    Another failed relationship.

    Thank u BPD and depression. I'm a wreck again. I just want to die.
    CrazyDaisyeee CrazyDaisyeee 18-21, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I've battled depression

    for about a year now and just talking about this gets me kind of upset because I really do t like talking about this stuff but I'm running out of options here. Just when this seem to be getting better I get kicked in the *** again by life as if it finds me amusing. I'm running...
    Amubarak88 Amubarak88 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    It's easier to run Replacing this pain with

    something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken from deep inside of me The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and...
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Darkness encompasses my soul.

    Squeezing out the last rays of light. Savagely destroying any hope my heart had dared to believe. I close my eyes in defeat. I can feel my body breaking. My hands tremble, my breaths shallow. Images flash across my mind, awakening old demons. I panic yet and oddly calm, I know...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    soft kitty warm kitty little ball of fur happy

    kitty sleepy kitty pur pur pur.... my online mommy used to sing this to me online and I love this song alot it soothes me alot. wish I could make up for what I did to her tonight and get her back I love her with all my heart. love you nevertruleywanted
    Littlebaby13 Littlebaby13 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    "Sometimes when you're in a dark place,

    you think you've been buried. Actually, you've been planted." -Christine Caine This is my experience.
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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    It wasn't until earlier this year,

    that I realize I was depressed. I always was tired, lazy doing everything. Unmotivated about almost everything. Didn't like people, didn't like going out. I overate. I would binge eat in my room. I hated school and everyone in it, I was rude to people at work, and I just wanted...
    aishasmith aishasmith 18-21, F 23 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Happiness is a state of mind.

    Depression is a state of mind. Some say we can choose to be happy. How many of us choose to be depressed? Not many, if any. Happiness is the product of our mindset based on many variables such as environment, stability. Each individual has different parameters of what they...
    MistyGoddess MistyGoddess 41-45, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    bondageslut819 bondageslut819 18-21, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    My mom doesn't want to hear it.

    I started to break down today and almost told her I was depressed but didn't get to it. I was upset and trying to tell her how I'm unhappy all the time and I'm trying to be happier but it's hard. She hugged me and I knew in a minute she would probably cry too. She kept telling...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 4 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    No, I can't say I'm battle depression

    because I'm not. At least not right now. These days, last year, were the worst days of my life. I didn't know what to do with my life, I didn't to go out with my friends, I didn't study for uni and neither go to classes. The only things that I wanted to do was stay in my...
    JustAnotherGirlOnEP JustAnotherGirlOnEP 18-21, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    justanotherles justanotherles 13-15, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I compare my depression to a dark night with no

    light permeating from anywhere. I always looked up and saw nothing but blackness. It forced me to look down and turn within myself. My mind raging with things I thought. Demons slowly taking the good things and turning them into things I hated. Slowly they silenced all the...
    vanessacd5 vanessacd5 41-45 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I feel like I'm weird

    because of my depression and the constant internal battle inside my head. Yet I'm the most normal person I know. I'm an awesome person but a **** person at the same time.
    Heyyo1 Heyyo1 18-21, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    So this is it I say goodbye To this chapter of

    my ever-changing life And there's mistakes The path is long And I'm sure I'll answer for them when I'm gone So when the day comes and The sun won't touch my face Tell the ones who cared enough That I finally left this place That's been so cold Look at my face All the stories it...
    zoozii zoozii 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    depression sucks. I deal with it 24/7.

    But there are some points in life when it seems a lot worse. like when you find out your "friends" do something without you, or you gain a few pounds or you have a bad makeup/hair day! ya know? idk if im the only one like this, but please don't judge...
    daisymillerr daisymillerr 13-15, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Imagine yourself as a painter,

    you have this blank canvas in front of you. You envision this amazingly intricate painting of reds, blues, greens, and purples. Then the more you think the trickier it gets, you start to add Azure, Antique Ruby, Black Olive, Cerise, Daffodil, Electric Green, and many other...
    32nmud 32nmud 13-15, M 5 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    With time I have realized

    that I better handled myself than I do now. I am destroying my life. Today I saw tears in mom's eyes because she could not see me laughing and speaking about not carrying on with life longer. It hurt very little. I wanted to tell her I wish you hugged me on all those ocassions...
    deceptiveoutofcloset deceptiveoutofcloset 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I don't see my depression

    as something bad. In fact, since I've been this way, I feel as though I've actually been able to see things more clearly my vision isn't clouded by idealism. I used to believe I was so smart and so much better than other people. Now I'm aware that I'm quite the opposite and I...
    Rhinestoneyes Rhinestoneyes 16-17 11 hrs ago

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    My parents treat me like **** they're

    practically rubbing into my face that I lost my 3ds and neither one is willing to split the cost of my new 3ds 50/50 in 3 ******* months they won't be able to spare $125 cause "we would have to give $125 to the the other boys cause you guys are equal yeah and the hinges...
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    When i get depressed,

    i go out and see my friends and be happy. Plus i Eat less!
    psstisst psstisst 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    depression is when you don't really care about

    anything. You don't care what you look like, you don't care what others think, you don't care what others say. You stay locked up in your room, lifeless and empt. You don't care when someone insults you.. you just listen, accept it quietly and agree. Wether it's true or not...
    Loquesoy Loquesoy 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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