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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,155 People

    XxXEmaXxx XxXEmaXxx 13-15, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I fight my depression with drugs.

    I know it's terrible but I have no idea what else to do. I have no one to talk to , no one I trust, not even my sister knows about my depression. I am slowly loosing all my friends, and I hate myself more and more every day. I feel lost
    elizabethandy elizabethandy 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Momentarily I think its finally gone away,

    and then it just pounces back on me.
    bbrynnaa bbrynnaa 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    sunnyshine15 sunnyshine15 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today I'm a little better I have

    so much doubt in my head tho sometimes getting motivated to do another day is hard but I got this today ..... I think
    sharivea sharivea 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's not something you can get rid of

    so easily.. It's with you for life. A smile on the outside doesn't mean anything has changed on he inside.
    girlalive girlalive 18-21, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Everything comes back to

    that there is part of me that feels like I deserve pain, and idk how to make that go away I've never known how. But then the other part just can't handle the pain anymore. Except the pain is the only thing that's ever mattered. The only thing that's ever felt right.
    dmbpal dmbpal 18-21, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I don't know exactly

    why I'm here or what I hope to accomplish by posting my thoughts. do I really want interactions? idk. do I want advice? it depends on my mood most likely. most everything does. I feel angry right now. I was very sad before at my last post and now I feel anger. It's slowly...
    janeblue2u janeblue2u 31-35, F 5 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    It's amazing how a song can bring back a

    memory/memories. You could remember that exact moment, what you wore, the other persons scent, the euphoric feeling you once felt about that person. I'm currently sitting in a cafe and a ridiculous James Blunt song came on and it ignited a wave of sadness. I am reminded at how...
    butterflyxhope butterflyxhope 22-25, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Love is killing me. I love her

    and at the same time I hate her with all my heart. Somedays I love her with all my heart and even think of marrying her and making her the mother of my children. Somedays I'm completely indifferent, and I don't give a **** about her. Somedays (like today) I hate her with all...
    Maniueru Maniueru 22-25, M 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I've been living with it

    so long. I won't recount anything from my past, just suffice to say it's been a long, medicated, bloody road. the past few years have been going decently enough, for me anyway. I've been taking my meds regularly since I got out of rehab. however, in the last 18 months I've had...
    janeblue2u janeblue2u 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Soo... I've decided life is overrate!

    I know I should be great full I have a life! Same **** different day! Clean cook clean again cook again clean again! Then start the day all over again! I have the weekends to look forward too but I'm starting to think why do I look forward to them? Just same day different...
    LiilyPad LiilyPad 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    No one cares about me.

    .I'm never wanted by anyone.I don't know what's true anymore I've been Lied too,cheated on,betrayed I'm tired of just about everything, I like to think people are different but every single one of them have hurt me..Not a single person appreciates what I do for them, they seem to...
    Toaster345 Toaster345 16-17, M 6 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    shortfry3 shortfry3 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    can anyone tell me why I am

    so scared all the time. It's like everything I do I get super nervous before hand. Even if it's something as simple as walking into class and sitting down, for some reason it's so nerve-racking. I always feel like I am stressing about something. why!!
    noriebby noriebby 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    The moment you realize

    that it all depends on you, you decide to be happy or sad, to feel positive or negative, you own your choices, you decide how are you gonna feel today, everything becomes a lot more easier to deal with.
    Nobody112 Nobody112 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    One week I feel on top of the world,

    like I can do anything and the next week I find myself drained, thinking about ending it. No event causes this change, it just must be chemicals in my brain to make me feel these two extremes. It is really scary. I tell myself to not act on impulse. I am only twenty and I have...
    molliee151 molliee151 22-25, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Daily. Or hourly. Or weekly.

    Or weakly. Sigh.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    yet another argument with my SO

    as he asked me to explain what I'm feeling, why am I sad, why am I angry. we've been together almost 7 years and still I need to do this? I don't have the energy for it. If he doesn't like me the way I am, here can break it off. I wish he would, in a way. I don't mind being...
    janeblue2u janeblue2u 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    What is this stumbling block I have put in my

    path? My anxious hope has shrouded my judgement. The bold Beauty of death is seeming ever so captivating, like a lightning bolt streaking through the pitch black. The quick snatching of life; Death the ultimate thief. Love has stolen my heart, life has stolen my mind, I...
    Walterseymoreflemming Walterseymoreflemming 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have almost lost everything due to my

    depression. My bedroom door would be locked my children had to fend for themselves I couldn't deal with life. I finally got the right combination of medication. In 3days a big change in me appeared. I thank god for my kids and owe them 2 years of their lives back.
    CuriousKittey CuriousKittey 41-45, F 5 Responses 1 hr ago