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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,484 People

    I feel so lost in my life right now.

    ..nothing makes sense to me. I feel lonely and sad every single day. No one is there to help me or just talk to me a little, it's just me and myself, can't even trust my best friend. It's so hard to live like this. I was happy a couple of years ago but someting happend and...
    Eskhol Eskhol 18-21, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I'd like to think we have these daily thoughts

    that interfere with normal lives that would like to see us fail... I like to think to myself and reflect my whole day was it worth it.. I could've done better mentally.
    vanessamoomoo vanessamoomoo 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Well, according to this site's finest,

    I allowed myself to be raped. I've had enough of this world, I seriously have. Why do people continue to mock me? My life's already ruined, what more do you want? I'm done. I'm done. Damn it all. Every single time I think I can stand, people continue to kick me back down. I've...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    So, my friend said something to me today

    when she brought up that she was worried about me. I can't remember her exact words, but it went something like this "happiness isn't an emotional state you stay all the time. That's bullshit, because for the most part every day sucks. Happiness is something that has to be...
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am surely going to reach a point

    where I will just breakdown. My family life is destroyed. We don't even talk to each other anymore. There was a time when mom and dad had huge arguments. I thought this is the end they will have a divorce but they didn't happen. Now they are together happy and me and my little...
    NtshaK NtshaK 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    ( this might be long

    but I hope it's worth your time) : I can't sleep at night, I always have anxiety attacks and depression. I feel like I see in black and white and the world is different then i am. I don't allow people to talk to me or get near me. Everyone always ends up hurting me on top of...
    feir123002 feir123002 13-15, M 5 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    The upsetting memory got triggered by this one

    song played from the playlist a moment ago. It's not a good sign because it just means that all this while I'm just trying every possible way just to get distracted convincing myself that I have already moved on after so long. That's not the case. It comes back like everything...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Well I'll make this a die-ary entry.

    .. I'm just waking up... Its Saturday and they normally don't work on the damage on the building today but I guess they decided to today. I'm cold, and feeling lonely... I don't feel like getting up for a lot of reasons... Mostly cause I have no reason to get up...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    but now I look at it.

    I feel like I just won.
    Artz4Life Artz4Life 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Considering giving up on everything

    and peacefully drifting to blackness... I'm worthless... I truly feel worthless if there's a god kill me in my sleep tonight please... I feel like laying on train tracks in the rain and counting each raindrop to hit my forehead until I enter the sleep I've been longing for...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    danixy danixy 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Remember beautiful people,

    despite your complete lack of motivation, you CAN minimise your emotional pain. Dont lay in bed wishing your life would end already, i know how much you dont want to get up, but you just have to find that last bit of resilience and do it! Get up! Make a warm cup of herbal tea...
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Update from the last experience: I had my

    hospital interview Monday after school. And after two hours, they decided to admit me into the inpatient program. Basically I'm there from 8:30-12 on school days where I have group and individual therapy. Today was my first day. (I was suppose to start yesterday but they...
    allidoisread allidoisread 13-15, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Die-ary entry time. Just

    before doctors appointment. Cause of my troubles sleeping. I had taken to sleep aids. With water. Can't feel much again. Likely still under the influence of them. But I can see this being a bad day for me... The memories maybe suppressed but they are still there. They are...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    I'm feeling down and just want to draw,

    but I already know that my artistic abilities are not going to measure up to my expectations. So I sit here staring at a blank piece of paper wishing that what is in my head would magically appear so I don't have to try and fail. Because failing will only deepen the pit I'm in...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Am I the only one who seems to have depressing

    phases? Like, bad things will happen one after another for a month, and then a week of happiness and being okay, then back to bad. Am I the only one?
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Ok I think this is how this is going to go down

    my life and what is to happen , one ) starting now I'm going to have one more mental Break down that will lead me in two to spots mental hospital for the crazy where I have to be look after Becuse I have fried my brain where I will be visited for time to time to time then stop...
    dethwerewolf1993 dethwerewolf1993 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Sky Williams - Hangman In life,

    each interaction is like a game of Hangman. We only get one sheet of paper. And you never know when your hurtful words can be their last letter.
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 22-25, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    I'm not really sad anymore.

    I'm more so just tired of fighting. All I can think of is how the time it would take my loved ones to come to terms with my absence would be a lot less than the years of suffering I have left. Please, no words of encouragement. No matter how much you try and convince me that it...
    Loops29 Loops29 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I had a session with my psychologist this week.

    We talked about a fight i had with my sister. He asked me what i was thinking at the time. He then took this sentice and asked me so what? Then to that answer why does that matter? This continued until i admitted something that i never dared to think about let alone say out...
    Erinjessica Erinjessica 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    exercise is good therapy

    for me atleast lol..........
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    It's funny how your perspective of the world

    changes going from this immense pressure and negativity to feeling so surreal empty and worthless. Most people when they look at my life judge my success on the materialistic achievements, house, job, car and would say I'm very successful but the fact is my life is empty...
    pyroguy80 pyroguy80 31-35, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    I don't feel "real" anymore.

    I am a observer living above myself, watching myself go through the motions and actions of life without actually living in the moment. I am just waiting for my life to eventually be over rather than living, having fun and really enjoying it. Nothing matters to me anymore. I...
    spacedoutt spacedoutt 18-21, M 5 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    You know that feeling?

    When you’re just waiting to get home into your room, close the door, fall into bed. Just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of desperation. You’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. You just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay...
    lifeishard112233 lifeishard112233 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    It's kicking in today,

    I've felt it ever sense I woke up this morning. Just everything sucks.
    NegativePulse NegativePulse 18-21, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 20 Responses Jul 7

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    "There's no one to call cause I'm just playing

    games with them all. The more I swear I'm happy the more that I'm feeling alone. Cause I spend every hour just going through the motions, I can't even get the emotions to come out. Dry as a bone, and I just wanna shout!" -"What Now" Rihanna
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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