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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 65,010 People

    It's like I'm meant to be depressed.

    . I enjoy sports and working out = knee injuries I can't do sports so I turn to gaming = weight gain and carpal tunnel I want to succeed = depression and laziness says otherwise Eyes are my favorite and a very appealing feature to me = my eyes suck and have gotten 4 surgeries...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I'm so fed up with my feelings.

    Not too long ago, I was happy after accepting my refusal to every try to commit suicide... Yet, here I am again starting the same thing all over again because of how alone college makes me feel ???
    iAmuHinamori iAmuHinamori 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I've accepted it. I've accepted everything.

    I'm not the person I want to be, so it's time to accept who I am as a person. I give up, I'm done. I'm a lazy, weak child trapped in a grown man's body. I overvalue myself, and like to think I'm a good person. I've always worn a mask, so desperate to fit in somewhere, never...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's like, I want to get up

    and shower, And dry my hair, And curl it, And apply my makeup, But there's this tiny part of me, That screams no, And this tiny voice controls most of me And I listen And I don't shower And I don't dry my hair And curl it And apply my makeup Instead I lay here Smelling of...
    StayingSaneWithoutYou StayingSaneWithoutYou 16-17, F 11 hrs ago

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    2infinityandbeyond 2infinityandbeyond 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    "I wear my soul on my sleeve at night (searching

    for substance)." I'm so lost....I'm grasping at air hoping to catch something I can turn into a reason to fight. I've been grabbing for so long now....my knuckles are ghostly white. I tried to find a meaning in the horrid world that surrounds me, yet I'm left with nothing to...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    For all of you that don't want emotional pain,

    TRUST ME, it's a lot better than feeling nothing. When you lose that connection to your emotions, it works with EVERY emotion. It sucks.. I don't feel anything
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 36 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses 5 days ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I’m not crazy. I’m not dumb.

    I don’t want to die, but I often feel like I want to take my own life. I am not dangerous to anyone but myself. I don’t need to be taught a lesson. I don’t need to be ridiculed. I don’t need to be taken advantage of because I am vulnerable and reach out to the wrong...
    FadingStar17 FadingStar17 16-17, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    Eyesonthesky Eyesonthesky 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    So I'm 14 years old and my entire life I have

    suffered with anxiety but in the past year or so it's gotten A LOT worse along with the starting of my depression. My dads an alcoholic and my parents just got divorced which is a reason why my depression/anxiety has gotten so much worse... a couple weeks ago my mom took me to...
    lachica12100 lachica12100 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I feel like I'm all alone in the world,

    surrounded by hundreds of people all day long, yet I'm drowning so fast. I have no one to reach out to but maybe someone here will hear my cry for help, before I make a horrible mistake again.
    ashthenerd ashthenerd 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I seriously can not take life right now.

    .. Why is it that when I finally open myself up a bit, it always goes wrong. It's such a waste of time everything. I don't want anything on this world anymore. I'm done.
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel so alone i just don't know what to do

    anymore i just feel like the world would be better off if i was not here i feel so worthless and useless just a waste of space like i can do nothing right i was unfriended by 100 people today and i don't know why i do not know what i did but i would not be surprised if i did...
    SophieeChapman SophieeChapman 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I wonder is cutting yourself the only

    form of self harm? What about people who drink constantly even though it does so much damage to your body , aren't they harming themselves ? What about those who do drugs to fight the pain , despite the affect it has on their brain and the risk of a possible overdose and death...
    Fallenprinceofthedarkside Fallenprinceofthedarkside 18-21, M 7 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I've come to realize

    that I call out my own flaws and call myself ugly so I don't hear it from someone else..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Black-and-white. That's all she can say.

    Everything she looks that, everyone she comes into contact with, everywhere she goes, just black-and-white. Yes or no; is or isn't, good or evil. Never in between. That kind of thing doesn't exist. Gray is in a color in her mind. She can love or hate. Never at the same time. It...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 5 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I really do feel like I'm battling it.

    I'm putting up a good fight. My education and career are absolutely on the right track. I can be positive in public, but as soon as I'm left alone with myself the battle begins. This is the one time in my life that I should not feel depressed. Things are going right except for...
    theoneleftme theoneleftme 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm not sure this is a world I belong in

    anymore. I'm not sure that I want to wake up.
    AngieM12 AngieM12 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I'm so jealous of people

    and their lives and how happy they are. They seem to be able to overcome obstacles and be happy. I'm so jealous of people who have families who are proud of them and aren't unfair and overprotective. Families who really love them. I'm super jealous of those people in a...
    cutecrazy05 cutecrazy05 22-25 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel so empty. No one notices

    that I'm dead inside. I know a lot of people hide it with a smile on their faces cause it's easier that way. Looking for a way out is much easier than finding your purpose. It's hard to feel nothing.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 31

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    So I've been having a whole lot of depression

    issues, even issues that I'm scared that's going to lead me to kill myself. I just need someone to talk to them about, so my daddy's taking time out of his busy schedule to spend a daddy-daughter day with me :) He's truly the best step-dad anyone could have. He's been there when...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't know why I am here tonight,

    confessing to a room of strangers. Sure they've wondered in the darkness like I have, but can they understand me? Now I've been alone most of my life. The people I talk to, I set up mental barriers to stop them for getting to know me. I stay alone, trapped in my apartment, I...
    Darkenedwounds Darkenedwounds 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    Therapy update: went back to the first

    therapist I ever saw.. She didn't seem to remember me much, which is understandable since it had been about a year since we last talked. I opened up about my sadness and my lack of inhibitions when it comes to the consequences of things I do. I don't think she noticed my subtle...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    To be honest if it wasn't

    for my friends and family, I would have ended my life a long time ago without thinking twice about it. I hate living for some reason, it's strange because I don't have much to be upset about but I still cry myself to sleep most nights. The only reason I'm still here is for the...
    Glo59 Glo59 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've got an exam and a concert today.

    I hate choir. I hate exams. I hate competitions. I hate it all. It all feels like judgement to me. Like by getting involved I give people the right to judge me, to tell me what's wrong and what's right. Even on this site, just posting up stuff on here. Someone is going to be a...
    kwellanique kwellanique 13-15, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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