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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,031 People

    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Felt nice leaving home today.

    Even though it was just going to grandparents. Lots of laughter and love throughout. Today was a good day.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I do not strive to be better then you,

    only better then myself. We each fight our own battles in this world of ours. Some have greater ones then others, yet they are the same in each others eyes. Just because you see someone doing what they feel is right for them, does not mean that it is right for you. That is why...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    I do not know if anyone reads this,

    but here are the facts. I walk around every day with so much anger, anxiety and depression. And the facts are that no one cares. As long as you put on your happy face so no one will care enough to ask if it goes well, but here you have the truth. Everything is great. My life is...
    AllTheDevilsAreHere AllTheDevilsAreHere 18-21, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I hate how quickly it can sweep in on your life.

    Had a pretty normal, calm day where I was joking around a bit with my roommates and boyfriend. Then I started working on something alone, away from everyone else in the house and like a cloud it slipped into my mind and fogged up my thoughts. It is almost like I cannot be left...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    All it takes is a beautiful fake smile ( : to

    hide an injured soul and they will never notice how broken you really are? ) :
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    It's hard. I don't really have anyone anymore.

    I just sit here, unmotivated and emotionless. I've pretty much given up on trying to get better. I used to try and be happy and get better but I got constantly insulted and put down saying I can't do it. I barely get out of bed now. I don't feel anything but pain and sadness. I...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 6 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    I'm finally going back to school today

    and I can't mentally handle it. No one understands how hard it is. And the fact I have only one class and then am expected to sit there all day doing nothing makes it worse. I really don't want to go.
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 13 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Who are you to judge the life I choose.

    ... When you were never a part of it...
    LiarOne LiarOne 22-25, F 21 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    My mom is telling me OM&M brought me in a

    depression.. What the hell. Seems like She doesn't know anything about me
    OfMiceAndKaylinn OfMiceAndKaylinn 16-17, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Suicide was always the plan.

    I figured I would start planning out the details and getting myself truly comfortable with the idea once my body started showing signs of failure. For several years now, I've had difficulty drinking from a glass without my head twitching once I start to tilt it back. I often...
    Nero82 Nero82 31-35, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    FloatyAquarius FloatyAquarius 18-21, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I haven't been able to write

    as of late, though I'm not completely sure why. Perhaps it has lost it's purpose, whatever that purpose used to be. It's funny how life and death are exact opposites, yet they are so closely intertwined. One surely can't exist without the other, there is no meaning without an...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I've battled depression

    since I was 13. I'm 28 now. It seems like my whole personality has changed. I used to could brush things off real easy and not worry. Now worry is all i do. I smoke weed to control the depression. I think it has stopped working. It takes more to shut my brain off. But I'm...
    kitakat00 kitakat00 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes the only thing left to do

    when you've been down all day is to dance. Seriously, it comes to that for me. ::walks to room, locks door, takes off robe, dances in undies::
    NoBullsht NoBullsht 22-25, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I really ******* hate myself.

    I wish I wasn't born. There's no point of me being alive no good benefit for me. I can't wait till I die. There's no point for me to live because of the way I look and everything else about me.
    wassup305 wassup305 16-17, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    people call me an emo ***** does it hurt yes.

    They say things like oh do you hurt yourself is that a choker do you use it to hurt yourself.my only response is "leave me alone if all your going to do is judge me" i have 5 or 6 friends how i would hate to make cry but thats all i seemto be good at all i want to do is die doesn...
    BellaVictoria BellaVictoria 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My best friend, Jake,

    killed himself earlier this week. I knew him for almost half of my entire life so far. We became best friends in third grade, and I always knew him as a very funny, happy guy. One year, his ex dumped him, and he felt crushed. I was the only one to help him through. Then, we...
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 13 mins ago

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    I wish the blues would go away,

    I am sick of this melancholy. The sun has not shined here in over a week! Rain every day! I need sunshine to chase theses blues away. Going to exercise, hope it helps.
    Southerncharm67 Southerncharm67 46-50, F 2 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Why can't anything ever turn out how it's

    supposed to? Just once that would be nice.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I recently opened up to my dpctor about my

    depression, and I had also told my so called best friend about it. But no matter how many times I explain it to her, she doesn't understand. Idk if she chooses not to, or just doesn't understand, but it's not helping me at all....and it doesn't help that she's been acting b*tchy...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 18-21 1 Response 1 day ago

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