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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,712 People

    “Battling Depression” I have found

    that writing is good for my soul, it helps me to deal with the depression in my life. Everyday I have to deal with the fact that I live in a place that doesn't want me here and living as a transwoman has given me the opportunity to see people at their worst. I live in a world...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I had a vague dream. .

    . I'm not %100 sure it was a dream since I was lying in my bed awake but I was in a waiting room, a small grey room with about twenty or so chairs, about 7 or 8 people in the room including me sitting in these chairs waiting for something. I'm pretty sure we were all depressed...
    OneHowlToTheMoon OneHowlToTheMoon 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Since I'm new here, I might

    as well use this experience to introduce myself. I'm Curtis, 17 year old who struggles with anxiety, depression and some other common stuff. I don't have much time to write this, so, I'll give a summary. When I was young, my father went to jail for a couple of years, finally...
    PoeticMystery PoeticMystery 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just zoned out/dozed off

    for a few moments and had one of my worst flashbacks and it actually physically hurt just remembering it... and I just puked up my guts too. It's the worst when they're just so vivid like that. But yay, guess I won't be sleeping at all tonight!
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Struggling with Depression & Suicide - A

    Personal Perspective By Debbie Leads 8/10/03 Days of endless struggle More hopeful pills today Trying to appear 'normal' In some sort of way. It seems that the struggle Is always here with me And I wouldn't be here now If guilt would leave me be I know there's been many Who...
    Mrunderstood Mrunderstood 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    Okay major problem: I took a bottle of rum from

    my neighbors and I'm really tempted to drink it. I haven't drunk since I got alcohol poisoning in November. I miss drinking but I know I shouldn't Dx
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I've had chronic depression

    for over a year now and I hate everything I am. I've been dating a girl for over three years and I can't talk to her often. I feel alone. Like this feeling will never end... I'm 21 and I feel my life and chances to make a difference are withering away... I just want to opt out...
    DownInOut DownInOut 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    My parents are concerned

    and disappointed with me. This morning my mom got angry with me because my grades (while still good) are mediocre compared to what they used to be, I haven't been putting effort into my looks, and I'm lazy and not interested in anything. What can I say? She's right. If I didn't...
    Casualdeviant02 Casualdeviant02 18-21, T 14 hrs ago

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    Does anyone else take the generic of Wellbutrin?

    Today is day 4 of 150mg. They're the XL ones. I notice though for the first 2 hours it hits me hard. Like I'm in a fog or high and I need to just relax and lay down. Then after that I'm okay. Just a slight headache but I can go about my day. Does this subside eventually? Or...
    megz327 megz327 26-30, F 5 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Tonight I wanna die. Or cry.

    Whichever one of those it is. I don't even know
    Sariliz Sariliz 18-21, F 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I'm normally seen as a very happy person.

    Rarely anyone has ever seen me depressed, or anything really. I'm good at hiding it. I lay in bed for hours at night thinking of everything I've ****** up in my life, the worst part about anxiety and depression is people who don't have it, will never understand. I never...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't even want to be here anymore.

    It's so hard to explain how I actually feel because I don't even know anymore. I just feel empty and confused , that's all I'm aware of. I'm sad. Hurt and just dead. I'm alive but I'm dead. People have hurt me, I have hurt people. And I hate myself for that. I've made so many...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    sometimes.. I avoid social media

    because I feel like I'll just get hurt. im becoming antisocial. how can I stop this fear?
    unfairlives unfairlives 22-25, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Is this how you say goodbye?

    By leaving me alone? By walking pass me, pretending I don't exist? By giving me mixed signals? By hurting me, to the extent I die inside? Oh my dear love, I love you very much But everyday I see you.. You act like you're emotionless.. No physical contact, no signs, no nothing...
    Macyyyy Macyyyy 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm seriously fighting the battle depressing

    right now. I have always aware of my feelings but I couldn't control its. There're only two options that I can choose; to trying harder with this painful life or to kill my self. I not being loved and unwanted by people. So, even if I choose option 2, no one will care that I'll...
    BellerMoo BellerMoo 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    maxravnjak maxravnjak 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    it ticks me off when people just act depressed

    for attention. cut for attention. I mean there is a HUGGEE difference then being depressed and wanting attention.
    alliesmithcx alliesmithcx 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    "For what it's worth: it's never too late or,

    in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be.There's no time limit, stop whenever you want.You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I...
    Mischief8 Mischief8 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    Its been about 2 months

    since I've hurt myself. I've been fighting really hard but I think I've hit my limit. I don't know how much longer I can go. I really want back into old habits, and tonight might just make me feel unstoppable.
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I have something called "selective mutism"

    and i've had it since i was a kid. And i have gone thrue alot...actually not so much but i have so manyy feelings and i think soo much and i just don't know what to do and there is so much more. if someone wants to talk about them or other stuff then i'm here for you. Just...
    Jjta Jjta 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I'm 39 and been depressed

    since 12. I learned how to manage it. Spirituality and my belief in Jesus, belief that we are all precious and is on this earth for a reason helps me to continue on. I was trained in counselling and psychology. I try to control the obsessive thoughts that tries to get me down. I...
    geisha7942 geisha7942 36-40, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I cry rarely. Before the past like month,

    it had Been months and months and months and months since I had cried at all. Even when I was depressed. But I find myself wanting to just cry lately and now I don't want to but I feel like bawling like a baby. And I feel like smoking. And taking pills. And cutting. And burning...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm so lost I don't know what I'm going to do.

    Why do i have to suffer some silly heart condition? Everything i do is wrong, EVERY SINGLE THING. My family treats me like ****, they say that they're degrading me so that i can prove them wrong, what the hell is wrong with people today? No it's not helping, it's only making it...
    Jeegogojee Jeegogojee 18-21, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Depression is bad some people think it can be

    blown away but in fact that's not possible you can only pause it.