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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,921 People

    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    If anyone wants to talk,

    just message me :) I'm here for you
    haily9784 haily9784 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Whenever I open up to people they laugh at me

    and tell me I'm too young. I didn't choose to be this way, if I could change I would.
    MW413 MW413 13-15, F 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    This is a poem I wrote

    when I was 14 What am I doing here I want to go home Nothing's funny anymore Nothing seems even remotely interesting anymore So why did I even come here? More smiling, more nodding Until they finally leave Even now all I really want to do is turn back But instead I'm...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Is there really a "happy ever after" sure

    dosent seem like I'm good enough for a gf
    SportsGraphCollector SportsGraphCollector 22-25, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    I hate it when you are surrounded by all your

    friends and yet you still feel alone. Thanks cheer...worst. meet. ever.
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 18 hrs ago

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    Hello, hope your day is great

    because you are! :)
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Here's my poem: If i were to die no one

    wold notice I could use a noose or a knife there Would only be blood left of me pouring Out or just broken bones there would Be no more pain for me I would be Free yet still hurt some how it's a never Ending circle and it never ends it always Moves...
    SykikGhost1 SykikGhost1 13-15, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    My life like most others hasn't been easy.

    I have depression that probably be traced back to the abuse I got while I was younger. My depression led to social anxiety. And my depression and anxiety led to a suicide attempt that landed me in the hospital. After being out of school for so long since I was in the hospital I...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I just wanted to share this,

    so it's only short. I was bullied harshly in school and no matter how much I ignored it, reported to teachers or stood up for myself, it still continued. I felt I had to do something really drastic to stop them and I was desperate to stop the taunts, the hits, the name calling...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 12 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    I've been fighting this

    for as long as I can remember. I do my best to hide it, to smile and joke and laugh. But as soon as I am alone I am choked and smothered by my overwhelming feelings of pity, disgust, hatred, and so much more. I tried talking to my boyfriend about it and he quickly ignores my...
    Amami Amami 22-25, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 36 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    It's so difficult all the time.

    You try not to think about the bad things that happened, you pretend your okay. U feel like you can't talk to anyone because your afraidAw (: they'll hurt you or parented they understand. Your brain is always running you feel empty it's like a roller coaster. One day your great...
    yeahis18 yeahis18 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    When I was living alone,

    it was one of the most trying and sad times of my life. I didn't work and spent 24/7 at home. I had no internet or anything else to do but watch tv or sleep. And I hate tv immensely. And I had a loud neighbor too, which is another story. I had no friends and my mother only came...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    My laptop has stopped working

    for some reason so in writing this on my ipad. My mum just violated boundaries again and told me that my dad said that I'm in his way and that I have nothing going for me and that I have no life. I don't tell him anything of my life nor is he interested. My mum didn't even...
    Misscoconut Misscoconut 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Why is it so dark? When did my path became

    such a gravel road, with the sinister aura of James Newton Howard's beautiful composition which carries the same name. I have few friends i hold dear but cannot handle trusting them. I have a girlfriend that would do anything for me, yet i keep my distance even after 3 years. I...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 26 mins ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    So I have really bad depression

    that got worse about two years ago when my uncle (who was like my dad) died & then two weeks after my Bestfriend killed himself. To be honest I usually don't like people in my head so I refuse to seek help && I self medicate. No big deal everyone smokes but my brother decided to...
    LizTaylor LizTaylor 18-21, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I don't get why she still wants to be my friend

    if all she does is make me feel bad about myself. I know than I'm inadvertently insensitive when I speak sometimes, but I'm just a rational person, I'm not trying to hurt anyone...I'm just trying to be myself
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    **** you depression, **** your endless waves

    of darkness i want to see some light. you're too emotionally draining for me and i think it's time we broke up. i deserve to be happy and trapped in a black room with flickering lights of hope here and there. i need more. keep your lonely thoughts and miserable tactics to...
    xyourxonlyxstarx xyourxonlyxstarx 22-25, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I do because I am always looking on the bad side

    and never good but hell that gonna change.
    jadelynthompson jadelynthompson 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    Another really bad day,

    I've spent the last five hours trying to find reasons to live without overshadowing each thought with regret. Feeling like I let myself down. I've spent the last 21+ years trying to be a person I'm not. Now I've tried so hard that my path is pretty much unchangeable and I can't...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    It's him. Whenever I'm around my dad

    or even just at his house, I can't handle it. He makes me so angry because he can get away with all this crap and he doesn't care how you feel about it; it's all about him. Whenever I'm at his house I always feel on the verge of crying, and whenever he's gone I get tempted to...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4

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    sometimes it gets the better of me.

    ..makes me not want to do anything...I dont feel like existing sometimes. and nothing really works or help. No one really understands how I feel, but I fight it nonetheless....its not fair on others for me to mope and complain, not when there is **** to do and not when there are...
    Jesse287 Jesse287 18-21, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 17 Responses May 27

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Here I am again walking around.

    This waste land of darkness. No matter how many times I leave I always seem to come back. But I am not the only one. There are others stuck in this nightmare of a game with me. Some continue to play. While others stop and disappear from existence. As I walk around this...
    TheDarkKnight1560 TheDarkKnight1560 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I can't get it out of my head .

    .. The last words she said to me were " I'm sorry I can't take it anymore its too much ..." And she was gone why can't I go too it's just killing me inside why can't I just die I'm Useless no one cares
    Cookdc12 Cookdc12 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    yeahis18 yeahis18 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 31

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