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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 66,353 People

    The heaviness in my heart seems to be pulling

    my hollow, decaying body through the floor
    thatgirlruth thatgirlruth 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    My depression is really bad today.

    I feel like ****. I was seriously considering acting on my suicidal thoughts last night, it would've had a good chance of working because of the storm, no way to leave the house and it would've been hard to get help here. The only thing keeping me here right now is my dog...
    ces588 ces588 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I've lost my spark. Life has lost it's flavor.

    My world is now without color.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    It's unnecessary for a seventeen year old to

    constantly think about how much he'd rather be dead than live another day in pain. But I can't help it..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 9 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I've battled depression most of my life,

    but it was never so bad that I would try killing myself. Well, until my grandpa died in 2006, he and I were really close, since then I've attempted suicide a few times and I've actually been successful twice. Once my mom found me overdosed in my room and I woke up in the...
    ShadowCatt ShadowCatt 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't felt this sad in

    so long. Usually I'm just numb, but now I'm in pain. I want to hurt myself, and I don't think anyone can stop me, even if they wanted to. I would ask for help, but I've tried so much that I know I'm just crying out into the dark, and at least that's better than being completely...
    ImOnCloudOne ImOnCloudOne 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX 16-17, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Broken crayons still color.

    People are like crayons. we start off our lives like a brand new crayon pointed with the paper still on. Through our lives we break, lose our paper, and turn into a little nub. But at the end of the day we can still color the picture just as well as any other crayon. So don...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    Am I depressed? I really just don't know.

    .. I think about ending my life the whole time, basically 24/7 but I know in my heart that I could never do it. I don't cut myself either. But I can't stop thinking about how much I don't want to live anymore. I thought it would get better but I've only learnt to hide it even...
    flower300 flower300 16-17, F 1 Response 30 mins ago

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    I'm in class and there is 16 people

    and I fell so alone and my wrist hurts
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Blended. Thoughts race.

    You can't think about the current thought without jumping to the next one. Your head spins. Your legs bounce up and down as you try to think of what to do next because you can't sit still, you tried. Everything and I mean EVERYTHING annoys you. Every sound, every whisper, is...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 33 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    oh okay.. this is again the part of the night i

    cry without a reason. nice. i wish there would be a way out of this ****...
    sannih sannih 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I love feeling so depressed

    that I just start balling over something I should feel happy and act calm about... Perfect and with school tomorrow insomnia can start now.... *Hint Hint extreme sarcasm*
    purplesucidaldreams purplesucidaldreams 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Im done talking to guys

    or even trying bec everytime I do they either have a boyfriend or just not interested bec im so ugly :( #foreveralone #ugly #useless
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I used to score above a 70 on this test.

    Don't give up fighting. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    if you ever need support join this group on

    Facebook https://m.facebook.com/groups/480215555420339?ref=bookmark
    im2hot2bemo im2hot2bemo 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    We should seriously make a show about going to

    different places around the world and help people that are depressed and suicidal. Idk it just came in my mind
    kjonesr kjonesr 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Iv been Battling depression

    for man as long as I can remember. Lately iv been doing better trying to force my self to socialize and get out. But certain triggers will pop back up in my life that seem to build up that wall of depression faster them I can break it down! One being my ******* step father...
    hawks94 hawks94 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Bleeding means you're still breathing.

    .. Breathing means you can still fight back...
    WytW0lf WytW0lf 22-25, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Don't know how much longer I can fight this war

    inside my head I feel like my depression is winning this battle...
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Take the memories, I don't need them.

    I needed to be loved until the end of time. What's the point of living and hurting. It's not worth it. Give me a love that's everlasting. Friendships and bonds that can't be broken. The joy of watching our children growing happy and healthy. Communication that would be never...
    angiede angiede 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I've been battling my demons silently

    for two and a half years. I was the happiest I had been for two and a half years. Why did you destroy all my hard work? I'm falling, again, and this time I don't think I can pick myself back up.
    rsurrett rsurrett 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 53 Responses Jan 18

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    Does anyone deal with agitated depression?

    Sometimes these feelings come across me and they are so strong and scary. Anyone else have any insight or tips?
    candywave candywave 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Medications been upped again,

    and I know that my phyciatrist still plans to increase it... Still feel like my life has no meaning... Going to study at university so I at least have something to do, and get a job out of it... But it's also so I can get my mum off my back about getting a 'life' -.-
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response 3 mins ago

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    manibobsmom manibobsmom 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
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