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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 61,937 People

    My mind is riddled with metaphors

    and I dream in code. I was feeling very low one day and had this vision as I was half in and half out of sleep. I saw a dark crossroads, down three of the roads was endless grey, but down one all was black. I felt distraught and decided to try the black road, in hopes I might...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 days ago

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    I hate how a lot of people don't understand it.

    I get to 'get over it' 'cheer up' 'choose to be happy' It's like don't you think I've tried it's like my brain and /or body just wont let me or something. Like, I don't work that way. My moms newest husband (who I live with, with my mom) keeps saying he want to kick me out cause...
    EFairy EFairy 18-21, F 7 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I've had enough of living.

    I can't do this anymore. I just want to go and let the world carry in without me. I am worthless, damaged and useless. I'm nothing to everyone.
    GirlWithTheRedHair2013 GirlWithTheRedHair2013 16-17, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    The girl in my mirror Laughs at me The door on

    my cage is wide open But I can never be free. The darkness is dripping From my lips and my eyes It's dyed my hair black Same are the tears that I cry...
    Brokenglassapple Brokenglassapple 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My psychologist is a really nice

    and intelligent guy but whenever I go there, he talks about things I enjoy like what video games I'm playing and what I have been doing for fun over the summer and it's been over a year and he does ask me about my sadness, anxiety, anger, and how I feel lonely but he never...
    Jrivs Jrivs 16-17, M 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    summerbeams summerbeams 18-21, F 30 Responses Jun 12

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    Today has been really bad

    for me. The last little while has. I was happy then my mood has kind of gradually trickled downward. I don't like feeling like this. Today I just laid in bed all day. I did get up and go somewhere but came right back to my room afterward. I get sleepy all the time and I take...
    fairytalesandspiderwebs fairytalesandspiderwebs 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    The happiest I've been

    since I've been depressed was when I went to camp and I didn't have to worry about any of my classmates putting me down or any of that crap. I miss it everyday now. I miss people who didn't care that I wasn't cool or that I'm gay all they did was make me feel happy and I really...
    AndrewFlewTheTardis AndrewFlewTheTardis 13-15, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I'm tired of people telling me in young

    and things will get better in time. I'm 31 and I have nothing going for me: No husband, no prospect husband, no career, crappy job, all my so-called friends barely talk to me, I have a hard time connecting with anyone, I'm not close to my family or anyone. My 3 main emotions are...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 26-30, F 11 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    I just really feel like hurting myself.

    I hit myself a few times but still feeling angry and sad.
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 26-30, F 6 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    anon2254 anon2254 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 39 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Well today I woke up feeling okay.

    I always feel very comfortable when Im sleeping. Sleep & music are my only get aways from the world. I just wanna get better mentally. It feels like there is a way out & I know theres a way out from this depression & anxiety, but at the same time I cant seem to find the opening...
    flight12 flight12 18-21, M 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    JoannaBe JoannaBe 36-40, F 18 Responses Mar 18

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    I've been clean of cutting

    for 5 months now, it's been hard when you get the urge and when you see that people on here as well have have up and done it, makes me want to do it more. Wish I had friends who understood me.
    Chesher Chesher 16-17, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm usually wanting to just die already,

    but right now I'm just numb. Numb of all my feelings, and I'm okay with that. Because my feelings hurt me....😐
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    It comes and goes but

    when it come there's really no one for me to talk to so I face it alone
    randelynisdead randelynisdead 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    It's so ******* frustrating.

    It has changed me so much, and I wish I could just give up already.
    thequietpanda thequietpanda 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    A list of things I might never be able to do

    if I don't show up and get a referral to a psychiatrist in the morning: Kiss a girl Be shirtless and comfortable in public Know what it's like to go on a really long bike ride Be on a boat or ship in the ocean Spend the night under the stars Learn to drive a car with a manual...
    Holdontothefire Holdontothefire 18-21, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I never like to tell anyone about my depression

    unless they notice I'm not okay and are actually there for me. I just hate the thought of people pretending to care because they feel bad for me.
    rangek rangek 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 22 Responses Jul 7

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 21 Responses Jun 16

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    Ever since my mom passed away I haven't been

    eating right but no one in my family has noticed and it kinda hurts me but I shouldn't care the only person that would notice is gone. I try to eat but I can't really anymore. I am already underweight and I fear it's just getting worse.
    LifeSucksxoxo LifeSucksxoxo 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I won't pretend that I'm past my own depression

    but I will tell you that life is BEAUTIFUL. There is so much to experience and so much beauty in the world. There is so much out there to see and do that one person couldn't possibly do it all in one shot. I hear these stories of celebrities like Drew Carrey, Drew Barrymore...
    TheHoarseWhisperer TheHoarseWhisperer 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    thisguyah thisguyah 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I've been cutting for a

    while now. It helps me get my pain out. None of my friends understand me. My scars have gotten bad.
    101worthless101 101worthless101 13-15, F 13 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Fighting Depression On Daily Basis

    Keep up !!! Move some energy around!!! Live style!!!   I was born depressed. I didn't knew that in the beginning, but there was always something. Today, I know I wasn't so happy then. I used to think that I am but I was not. I was living in my own world alone - detached and...
    Bolek Bolek 41-45, M 9 Responses May 24, 2012

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    I suffer with depression.

    As I am young, people don't tend to understand why I am depressed. Adults seem to think I hate my life; I fact it's that I have a hatred for myself, not my life. I value what i have and how lucky I am to live in a great society, but I just hate myself so much that I have no...
    emilythespacecat emilythespacecat 13-15, F 6 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I battle depression. I get anxiety attacks.

    . I feel like it's my time..
    jenifersantos jenifersantos 16-17, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 26-30, F 16 Responses May 27

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    In all honesty, this is the best thing that's

    happened to me. Long story short: got depressed, decided against suicide, and learned im gonna die of heart decease anyway. I'm not a weak fool or a boy that can change from depression. I cannot be saved at this point. I'm dying and people act like it'll mean the world to me...
    Yearsgoby Yearsgoby 18-21, M 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm depressed mostly

    because of my fear of rejection. I am battling who and what I am. I am very likely transgendered , but an can't say it because, then what ? Then what for me, and then what if I was to tell everyone, I think almost all my friend and family would reject and shun me. And that's...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 7 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    I have been battling depression

    for over 20 years. I've tried therapy, and multiple drugs. Now I'm in a pretty good place but lonely. I don't mind being alone, but sometimes it's too sad and I have no one to talk about it with. My husband has been supportive but he really doesn't get depression. So many people...
    Jodybird Jodybird 56-60, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    We depressed ppl, we have something in common.

    We are so taking by this new world. We want everything that the new world can offer. We are the most effected by the poisons media.
    Arobi Arobi 31-35, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I've been battling depression

    since I can remember. Maybe even as young as 8 years old. It's nothing you can describe for people to understand unless they have depression too. I tried to take my own life October 31st, 2012. I was 17 at the time. I grew up with 4 older siblings that are my best friends. I...
    LaBellaVita19 LaBellaVita19 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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