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If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 71,215 People

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    Someone please kill me,

    I don't want to do this anymore
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think I'm depressed,

    have social anxiety, general anxiety, and possibly schizophrenia but my parents don't believe in mental illnesses and won't take me to a doctor. What should I do?
    sk8rkm77 sk8rkm77 13-15, F 3 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    As I lay next to friend sometimes I will wonder

    if he will miss me when I am gone? I am sure that he will know that somethings has changed around here and that I am not coming home. When I ask Jackie if I could have a new friend in my life he was not sure about all that, but it has helped me deal with everything that goes on...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Why does this dark hell always come back.

    Just when you think things are getting better
    cmabbott14 cmabbott14 22-25, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Hi I have been battle depression

    for a long time I feel alone no friend
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    How to avoid saying the wrong thing to those in

    need. The Ring Theory (also called the Kvetching Order) developed by Susan Silk, a clinical psychologist. In this example, she writes about The patient, Katie (who suffered a brain aneurysm and was in the ICU for a long period of time) and Katie's husband Pat. Draw a circle...
    antisocialno4 antisocialno4 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's good to know that you need other people

    as well as relationships in your life to stay emotionally stable. Even better when relationships end; that's my favorite feeling :^)
    2centdine 2centdine 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Taylorgangbby Taylorgangbby 18-21, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Nyx5 Nyx5 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I have battles with depression nearly my entire

    my life!! Some days are worse than others!
    cynthiashortridge cynthiashortridge 31-35, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 77 Responses Jul 9

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    I feel suicidal. I won't

    but I hate my life
    cmabbott14 cmabbott14 22-25, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Four weeks, this time.

    Ive finally climbed out, and yet its the anger, that helps me through. The path to feeling normal is so delicately structured, im hoping i can get through today, without snapping. Verbally, hardly violent in the slightest. Still, i tend to speak my mind, and that gets me into...
    UndyingWraith UndyingWraith 31-35, M 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I feel like nothing makes sense anymore.

    I am not who I used to be, life seems pointless.
    GiuliaOlimpio GiuliaOlimpio 18-21 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    What helps me feel better!

    So i suffer sporadically with feelings of depression, dare i say suicide. I find that as soon as I'm feeling kind of a bit better i grab it cause why not, what have i got to lose. Today I've just lay around all day until almost 4pm it's been ok cause I've got a terrible...
    DearSugar DearSugar 26-30, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Today I can't find me way off the couch!

    ! I should be happy it's the weekend but I could care less 😕
    cynthiashortridge cynthiashortridge 31-35, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 22 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I've heard people talk about the fact

    that we choose suicide because we're convinced that it's the only option. Subconsciously, I believe that. When I'm all alone, I believe that. Right now... I'm struggling to stop thinking about things.. I'm lonely, but at least it's not out of the ordinary.
    Holdontothefire Holdontothefire 18-21, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I look to the sky desperate

    for answers The solace I crave never finds its way to me However the tears do Searing a path down my cheeks Pooling inside of palms turned upward As I sink to my knees and open my mouth into a silent scream The pain approaches in waves Crashing upon me and eroding my...
    EriDaniElla EriDaniElla 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    It was a fine day with a frightening end

    but am so so so happy that It ended good. Life is getting brighter now I dare to dream and TRY to achieve those dreams , which seemed impossible not long ago but I won't rejoice yet the road is loooong and depression is still in the background but not as heavy...
    leiyah leiyah 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I've been suffering from depression

    for the past 8 years, maybe more. I try to ignore it, hoping it will go away, but in the end it's still there.
    Spyro93 Spyro93 18-21, M 7 hrs ago

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    I need someone to talk to

    if you could be kind enough to use some of your time to talk with I would be thankful ju message me
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I promised that if I ever got better I would do

    something to help others in my situation. That was 34 years ago. I am just so happy to be well again. So much time has past that I forgot about my promise. Seeing many commercials for depression medications on TV these days has reminded me of it. The following is my experience...
    quickrush quickrush 51-55, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I feel like giving up right now.

    I'm so sick of feeling depressed. When I go to school it always makes it worse because there's too many mean people there. I hate most mean people. I just want to be happy. Or it to just all end. I had a break down today at school and almost cut. I haven't cut in over a...
    Taken111414 Taken111414 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm tired of the best I ever feel is content.

    I don't ever feel relaxed and the only time I can sleep the whole night through is if I take Xanax or a sleeping pill but that's not always a guarantee. I was to know what feeling relaxed and happy is like...I've become less depressed and anxious than I used to be but I haven't...
    bmo0 bmo0 26-30, M 9 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    The battle is never ending!

    I'd love to win! Climb outta this hole for good and never look back. Is there anyone here that has had success with homeopathic remedies? I refuse to medicate myself ever again.
    joyfulcloudofsorrow joyfulcloudofsorrow 31-35, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    "You can tell how much a soul is broken by the

    amount of rage and sadness they hold inside"
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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