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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 66,287 People

    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I cut for the first time in six months.

    .. I thought I was strong I thought I was getting better... My last resort is coming and I'm not sure if I'm even scared.
    AlyseJay AlyseJay 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I can feel my heart ready to burst I'm not a

    morbid person on the outside I can't show no remorse And on the inside my soul is black Like the sky without stars Nothing twinkles for me No candle lights my flame of hope Is this a disease Of everlasting dispaire It makes me so mad I want to pull out my hair Will my suffering...
    1986shanet 1986shanet 26-30, M 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    It's been 3 years. 3 years

    since we broke up. 3 years since it all came crashing down. I remember every bit of it. The tears, the fights, the yelling and screaming. The pain. I still don't understand how you could do it to me. I took a bullet for you. I walked in front of your attacker and took a bullet...
    ShadowFax97 ShadowFax97 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want death to come

    and swallow me up right now. I hate everything
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Post partum is the worst.

    Landed me in a mental hospital away from the baby :(
    slar515 slar515 22-25, F 12 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    do you ever keep doing the same bad things?

    I know the consequences and still do it. like drinking then playing music a bit loud then obsessing and worrying about upsetting the neighbours.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I met a girl at the concert I recently attended.

    Well, I didn't actually meet her there, I met her on Instagram the day afterwards. We've talked pretty much non-stop since we met. She lives in a nearby city right now, but she's moving back here in a few weeks. The wait is apparently killer her as much as it's killing me. We've...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I suffer from ADHD,depression,

    anxiety, and stress. I can't take my life in anymore. The pain worsens every day. I need help,fast before I commit suicide!
    Freaknerdygirl1 Freaknerdygirl1 13-15 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    today is my last day to live.

    after today I will b dead. I have waited long enough
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 9 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    This seems very trivial to me.

    .. People I speak to here would probably say I'm fairly optimistic. I have to be, sometimes it's the only thing I have to keep me moving forward. I like to assist people with relatable problems, I don't really share my own, so this is my first time. Something has been bugging me...
    WytW0lf WytW0lf 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    When the memories hit you.

    ... that **** hurts
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's that time of the year,

    slipping to a dark place yet again. You see me. You know me. But you never really see I'm dying inside. All my will is growing fainter and fainter. All the passion left is now gone. I feel lonely. I feel sad. I feel anxious. I feel empty. Hi. This is me. I need a friend. I...
    mediocrity mediocrity 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I was actually diagnosed with Bipolar

    depression not that long ago and I have recently been really depressed. I'm hoping that I'll fall back into the happy time soon. Today I've been happier than usual, though. I'm just glad it's the weekend I guess. My battle with depression is hard but I think I can get through it...
    thatredheadmetal thatredheadmetal 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't want to go back to how I was before

    and I really don't want to get worse , but I am . I didn't even realize how bad it was because I was pretty much ignoring the fact that I'm not actually okay . I keep pushing it away, thinking " oh I'll feel better tomorrow " or " tomorrow I'll actually do that " but tomorrow...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 33 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I've battled depression

    for years. I've self harmed. I've spent many nights just sobbing feeling worthless. I had a father who was and still is never there. But I did have a wonderful grandpa to take his place. He died in 2012 of cancer. That's when I attempted suicide. My mother had nothing to do with...
    lickyoduck lickyoduck 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Today on my therapy I remembered I tried to

    kill myself 3 times. It was hard remembering why I used to be so sad that I wanted to do that. I had it completely locked on my mind. Now I see the life I have. Never again. Never that sad again.
    bduel bduel 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I'm feeling quite lonely

    and just down today, but instead of moping around the house, I've decided to go out, take my mind off it and keep myself busy!
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    Sometimes wounds you can't see hurt a lot more

    than the ones you can. It's so hard to lift your self out of something you can't physically see or touch... If only it were possible to pick out the feelings of depression as if you were picking weeds out of a beautiful garden.. There has to be a silver lining. You can't live...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Things aren't working out

    as planned and I'm having a hard time shaking it off. I really shouldn't be surprised, things never go as planned but it's just really disappointing when something you are really looking forward to doesn't happen.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    To you, who are hurting.

    You are not alone. - I have strong shoulders, and two feet firmly on the ground. So lay on me as much pain as you can give me. Be it little, or be it all, I will carry it. From here onto eternity, if needs be. You are not alone. You may feel so, and you may believe that there...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    "Cut my life into pieces,

    this is my last resort Suffocation, no breathing, don't give a **** if I cut my arm bleeding Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight Chances are that I might Mutilation out of sight And I'm contemplating suicide"
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've had the worst day ever

    since I've gotten help. I've been taking my medication but even it won't help take this pain away. I've been in a constant panic/ anxiety attack all day. I wish I had someone to talk with buy everyone treats me like a crazy person anymore for the mistakes I've made. I hope it's...
    Isurvived20 Isurvived20 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    It utterly ****** me off how my mood can change

    in a span of seconds from extremely happy to really depressed and miserable !! The little things that the close ones in my life commit can just burst my bubble of happiness despite the fact that those times and those people are really rare in my life. I try to fight it and...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Sometimes I want tragic things to happen to

    myself. You would think with everything I've gone through I would have suffered enough by now. Example: when I drive I often wish that another vehicle would run into me and I would become injured.
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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