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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,147 People

    I cut last week to the point I actually had to

    get stitches, I got the out today,..but I got in a fight and feel like I need to do it all over again...stupid right?
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I was doing really well

    for a while, but tonight I realized how little of an event can trigger my depression. I am hanging out at a club with my friends. When we all enter the VIP section, I am the only one asked to leave by the one who bought the table. It isn't their fault at all but I hate them for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Jealousy is so ugly, I hate it.

    It consumes me...turns from despair into rage; but all of the rage is directed inward, at myself. Failed opportunities, too scared to try new things, blah blah blah. I can fix all of this, but I'm just so tired. I have no drive to fix it, no want. So I stew...I hurt myself....I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 21 mins ago

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    Suicide is NEVER the answer.

    Talk to someone, get it out. If you have no one to talk to- message me. Think of all the life you have yet to live. You know suicide is not what you want. You just want to feel OK again. The Lord loves each and every one of us very much. Talk it out.
    KJPKelsey KJPKelsey 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I'm 14 years old... Young,

    right? Well... I found out I have depression when I was 12. I tried suicide. I failed. I want to do this again. People think I'm just a dramatic person. I wish they were right.
    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    When I was young, I was a happy child

    that wanted to grow up really badly, now I see how age can change your life in many terrible ways. My mother is extremely strict and all my teachers except for 2, hate me and like to get me in trouble. I have always been bullied, teased, ect. I thought it would be easier, I...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My depression has never gotten

    so bad that it has sent me to the hospital. I am not someone who likes attention. It's embarrassing that I get depressed and I don't like talking about it. That being said, a tiny part of me sometimes wishes it would just go ahead and get so bad that someone would notice...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I've been battling depression

    for 4 years, at times I think I've won but then there are days like these
    weonfire weonfire 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've had bad depression

    since high school. I love drawing and always wanted to be an artist since I was in kindergarten, until my junior year when my art teacher made me redo everything and hated all of my work. I was bullied verbally by being kicked out of my lunch table for being "too stupid" to sit...
    justjane2000 justjane2000 18-21, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    He is with me every single day.

    Every morning I wake up and the monster is there. Every evening I go to bed and, still, he is with me. He stays quiet most days, maybe a low rumble here and there just to let me know he's around...reminding me that, if he wanted to, he could erupt and swallow me...at least I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't get how people can fake depression.

    . Like how and why would you want to feel like this.. People are the worsttttšŸ˜£
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Today the monsters are loud.

    Not the ones hiding under my bed or lurking in my closet; for those are simply the figment of fairy tales. No the monsters whose screams threaten to dismantle my sanity live in my mind. If you were to crack open my scull, within you would find the most hideous terrifying demons...
    Greyeyess Greyeyess 18-21 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    No,I don't have suicidal thoughts.

    I have suicide plans,they are not the same!
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I wish I could go back in time

    and tell my 13-21 years old self that everything is going to be ok, don't give up, it's for sure going to be better. You know, back then there's no such thing as EP, Facebook or any site or community you can just log on to talk to or to vent. I remember I was really thinking of...
    Tealismyname Tealismyname 26-30 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    So we went out for dinner.

    Me, my best friend (the girl I like who likes somebody else) and her sister. It was ok, until we went to karaoke. You try singing "Don't look back in anger" or "Stop crying your heart out" while your heart is broken, in front of the very girl who broke it. I couldn't keep it...
    macron macron 26-30, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I believe I won depression.

    Losing weight has changed my life in so many ways. I feel extremely good about myself.
    gisel607 gisel607 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    Life is not fair - people should be responsible

    towards themselves and one another, but it doesn't always work out that way. I see stories on here about suicide, and it breaks my heart. Fortunately, I don't reach that point very often, but I wish others didn't have to. Nobody wants to suffer, nobody chooses death through free...
    chairsmissing chairsmissing 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I have been overwhelmed with stress,

    fatigue snd severe depression. The girl i am in love with, the one who is my best friend and i can talk to about everything dropped me like i was nothing. My parents continuously think I'm a disappointment. I have no friends, not a single person to talk to anymore. I tried a...
    wspd1993 wspd1993 18-21, M 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I was messaging about this with someone,

    but I think this is too important to not share: I have the kind of depression where people ask "what do you have to be depressed about? You have a good husband, wonderful kids, a great house, a good job." And this question would make sense if depression were logical and...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 7 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    the train runs through town in the next hour

    and a half..I want to just lay on those tracks . everyone I love , is gone..I see no way out..no hope, no future..I know I cant be free, ever..the question is, do I want to stick around and still try?..or disspapoint everybody, but mke myself happy?.
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    I understand how rough things are right now. I just want to let you know that things will get better, I promise. Keep holding on just a little bit longer. I know you feel like nobody really cares, you're wrong, stop denying it. I care, otherwise I wouldn't be saying this. You're...
    unishit16 unishit16 16-17, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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