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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,469 People

    I'm feeling down and just want to draw,

    but I already know that my artistic abilities are not going to measure up to my expectations. So I sit here staring at a blank piece of paper wishing that what is in my head would magically appear so I don't have to try and fail. Because failing will only deepen the pit I'm in...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 31 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    !!! Rant Incoming !!!

    It's unavoidable.. It traps you. I've gone through two therapist and nothing ******* changes. I'm still ****** up in the head, when do this horrible times change? I keep hearing "it'll get better" - okay I started hearing that 4 years ago? When does that stupid ******* saying go...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Back on my anti depressants.

    . I couldn't do it...
    AlyseJay AlyseJay 16-17, F 9 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 36 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm not really sad anymore.

    I'm more so just tired of fighting. All I can think of is how the time it would take my loved ones to come to terms with my absence would be a lot less than the years of suffering I have left. Please, no words of encouragement. No matter how much you try and convince me that it...
    Loops29 Loops29 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 31 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    The upsetting memory got triggered by this one

    song played from the playlist a moment ago. It's not a good sign because it just means that all this while I'm just trying every possible way just to get distracted convincing myself that I have already moved on after so long. That's not the case. It comes back like everything...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Call it a sub die-ary entry.

    .. I can't sleep... That train came back around its going faster, with even more flashbacks at once to the point its giving me a greater headache... Please god end this madness! I got nothing going for me and you know it!
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    And I told them. And I regret it.

    My cousin who is like a sister to me just freaked out because I told her about my brain and the dark thougts in it. My mom was the one who got mad at me because of me telling her that I need therapy which in Germany is even free! My best friend and me got in a fight, well I...
    2wrp 2wrp 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I'd like to think we have these daily thoughts

    that interfere with normal lives that would like to see us fail... I like to think to myself and reflect my whole day was it worth it.. I could've done better mentally.
    vanessamoomoo vanessamoomoo 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    but now I look at it.

    I feel like I just won.
    Artz4Life Artz4Life 16-17 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    So I actually managed to make it to school

    today, in spite of waking up at, like, 10:05 when my class was at 10:30. Fortunately, I live closeby, so I was on time.
    rollingdoro rollingdoro 22-25, F 20 hrs ago

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    This week has been one of those

    where I just wanted to take every flammable liquid out there, douse my life in it all - light a match and watch my life burn to the ground leaving absolutely nothing but a charred series of remains behind. There is no earthly reason for me to stay alive short of serving my job...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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    danixy danixy 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Every day. I put on a happy face

    and pretend like nothing's wrong. I do my job and then I go home, where I sit alone and wait to do the whole thing over again the next day. I keep telling myself things will get better. I don't think I believe that anymore.
    PoisonedQuill PoisonedQuill 41-45, M 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I wanna scream and cry

    and smash walls and break things... But I don't want anyone to ask what's wrong or try to stop me.
    AlyseJay AlyseJay 16-17, F 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I want to go to bed,

    but I don't want to wake up. I'm at a loss.
    UnderworldNymph UnderworldNymph 16-17, F 6 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I went to my doctor again.

    I don't know if it is my failed personal relationships, my son being in jail, my ex husband fighting for custody or the fact that I am a very lonely person. I filled the script. I am contamplating if I will take the medication or not.
    sandmoon sandmoon 36-40, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Feel free to message me lovelies.

    You are not alone on this planet xx
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    It's difficult to pick empathy apart from pity.

    Yeah, my mom passed. You're sorry, I got that, keep telling me that things'll get better... well I'm sorry to say that I trust actions, not words. It's been nearly a year now, and with no one to build me back up I'm still stuck with these horrible emotions. People wonder why I'm...
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 11 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 39 Responses Aug 28

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    I get those days, weeks whatever

    where it gets too much. Its no ones fault but my own, and im going to have one of those weeks :/
    SingItForTheKids SingItForTheKids 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 20 Responses Jul 7

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    Ok I think this is how this is going to go down

    my life and what is to happen , one ) starting now I'm going to have one more mental Break down that will lead me in two to spots mental hospital for the crazy where I have to be look after Becuse I have fried my brain where I will be visited for time to time to time then stop...
    dethwerewolf1993 dethwerewolf1993 18-21, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    So, my friend said something to me today

    when she brought up that she was worried about me. I can't remember her exact words, but it went something like this "happiness isn't an emotional state you stay all the time. That's bullshit, because for the most part every day sucks. Happiness is something that has to be...
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 37 mins ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I've been crying all night and want to give up. Why should I be here when my life sucks? I can't do this anymore. 😭😭😭😭😭 I hate myself and feel like no one cares about me and like I don't even need to be here. I'm tired of crying and my wrist hurts. Depression...
    sassyprincess120 sassyprincess120 18-21, F 5 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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