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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 63,734 People

    Depression is called an illness.

    Sadly I don't believe it's curable. Medicine is simply hiding the depression, therapy just wastes time. And if you do believe you're fixed, you think about how ****** up you actually are and you think about your past. Welcome to depression, you've been locked in a cage and you...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Do you ever find that one person

    that you just click with on a personal level? It was nothing romantic, but there is this girl who was new to my school, and on her second day we started talking and found out a lot that we have in common. A week later she was gone for a couple of days, and I assumed she was sick...
    Theforgotten4 Theforgotten4 13-15, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    If your battling depression please look up the

    YouTube channel Douglas Bloch
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 31 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Hey fam please check out The YouTube channel

    Douglas Bloch it will save your life
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 7 hrs ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    nicoleleightonx nicoleleightonx 18-21, F 2 Responses 10 mins ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 30 Responses Jan 12

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    I have been battling episodes of depression

    for the past 3 years. It's something I really never discuss with anyone. Seems like everyone is too occupied with their own lives to care or even notice. I'm really good about hiding it most of the time. I have a tough shell so even when I smile I'm slowing dying inside. I just...
    alishawill alishawill 22-25, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 11 Responses Aug 10

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    The present is slipping into the past My future

    seems as bleak as today Will the misery go on? I could change it all today Give myself a better future And let that become my present You can't be happy with your past unless you are happy with your present. If you don't enjoy your present, change your future. If you have...
    samyoung8 samyoung8 18-21, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I image depression as this dark,

    pitch black, empty room. I try to find my way out but I just can't seam to find an exit, or even a light switch. It gets scary in their sometimes and I start to panic because I'm all alone and theirs no one that can or will help me.
    MondoEG MondoEG 18-21, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I got high before I went to school today

    and I had to leave first block because I was gonna lose it. I asked to go to the bathroom and sat in front of my locker. Said hi to a few teachers, two asked me what I was doing at the same time and I panicked and said I was going to the nurse. I got Tylenol and then went to the...
    LittleBlackSubmarine LittleBlackSubmarine 16-17, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    All of a sudden the clouds have moved in over

    me again. I'm not leaving bed. All I can think about is how it's not going to get better, and I feel so defeated. The darkness wins and I have surrendered. It's too much to handle. Please don't say generic things like 'it will get better' because it's things like that which...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 1 Response 10 mins ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 19 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Day of judgment? Die-ary entry.

    Nothing but memories flowing thru my brain, depression has dug in deep, I know I can't fight it any longer... I don't think anyone would have fought this as long as I have... Only those people are more brave than me... They would have slit the wrist and said goodbye... But I...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I harmed myself again.

    .. Add 1 more scar.
    Tsb1092 Tsb1092 22-25, M 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    This Is For You.

    This is for you. I'm sorry you got bullied for being gay. I'm sorry your parents kicked you out for being a lesbian. I'm sorry you were raped as a little girl. I'm sorry your dad left you and your mom with nothing. I'm sorry you get bullied every day. I'm sorry you have no...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 18 Responses Feb 14

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 79 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    ogyyc ogyyc 16-17, M 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm so tired of feeling like this I'm

    so tired of worrying about the future I'm so tired of being angry I'm so tired but I cant sleep I'm so tired of being tired I'm so tired but my mind keeps me awake I'm so tired but I have to be here simply for my friends I'm so tired of the jealousy I'm so tired of my broken...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 31 Responses Jun 16

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 29 Responses Jul 3

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    I am not freaking good enough

    for anyone i can't freaking do anything right i don't even know why i am even freaking here anymore i certainly don't deserve him he is too good for me and my problems
    SophieeJordan SophieeJordan 18-21, F 6 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Dear mum, I'm so sorry

    that I wasn't the perfect daughter you envisioned me to be. I'm sorry that I seem to always get myself tangled in a web of mischief. But most of all I'm sorry for my selfishness I don't want to hurt you but it seems as If my anger seems to twist us both into ugly and hurtful...
    insomniacpoet insomniacpoet 13-15, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    This Puts It All Into Words I Couldn'T Say

    I found this on tumblr,not sure who the original author is,but thank you to whoever it was.Having been depressed for around half of my life with a few breaks in between when things got better,I relate to this so well.Especially during the darkest time of my life not so long ago...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 14 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I've been doing so well with my depression,

    I have actually been happy for a little while, but I don't know what happened. I feel so lonely and anxious right now. I don't want to be alive anymore. It's like I have nothing to live for anymore. I haven't been to school in two weeks, I lost my job, and my mom ever continues...
    dickdurk dickdurk 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm going to be off here

    for a little while. Good luck to everyone. Have faith. Keep battling. Love you all x
    HarrietAC HarrietAC 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    There once was a man

    who had a prized donkey. One day the donkey fell in a deep hole and no matter what the farmer did, he couldn't get it out. So with a heavy heart he gave up and decided to fill the hole in and bury his beloved pet. As he shoveled heap upon heap of dirt onto the donkey he noticed...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I battle depression,

    and also anxiety. I suffered from being mentally abused by mother pretty much my entire life. My own mother told me she hated me, she thought I was ugly, stupid and that my Dad wanted me aborted. My entire I felt hopeless and alone. I was planning on killing myself but when the...
    acw012192 acw012192 22-25, F 35 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 76 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    i'm on the verge of a huge panic attack

    and i feel like ripping my face off. oh and i'm crying my eyes out too.
    uunbeliever uunbeliever 16-17, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    This morning I found out one of my friends

    committed suicide. This is why I'm nice to everyone I meet, so things like this don't happen as often. I've had 3 friends who have passed away within this last year.
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    To understand...You have to read my story.

    . So I have a thing called, Selective Mutism, look it up because I'm not going to tell you. Because of this some people in my school mistook this for me being too stupid to talk or something and decided to bully me for years. (They were mostly boys) Eventually when I entered...
    Riukkuyo Riukkuyo 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    I've attempted suicide by gunshot several weeks

    ago, but I hesitated at the last moment. I can't continue on anymore. My mother is the most psychotic, evil person I know. No one else likes me. I have no encouragement from anyone. Everyone I loved left me. Now, I smile at the thoughts of me shooting myself. I know there's no...
    SturmWind SturmWind 16-17, M 5 Responses 53 mins ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I....feel....numb. I.

    ...feel....stuck. I exist.....but I don't.....live.
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I've dug myself into a deep,

    deep hole. My only options are to keep digging, or sit back and let the crumbling earth fall in and fill my lungs. I'm not sure I have it in me to keep digging.
    Theforgotten4 Theforgotten4 13-15, F 5 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I feel numb and idk what to do.

    ..all I do is cut deeper and deeper hoping i feel something
    h20polo13 h20polo13 13-15, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I need help. Idk where to find it.

    I don't have anyone. I carry a huge weight with me, wherever I go. Sooner or later, I am going to break completely, because I am severely weak.
    lovelysad lovelysad 16-17, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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