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    I listen when I speak I do what's right

    for me Love me for what it means And every breath I breathe I listen when I...
    Chpt16 Chpt16 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Suicide? noooo! Please DON'T.

    Don't do it! Never! There's always a better way. If you feel so miserable and you think it's the only way out, YOU'RE WRONG! If you're being bullied or abused or some people are just so stupid enough to not see your worth... don't give them the satisfaction of proving they were...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    For three years I've been wishing I was dead

    every day of my life. For three years I've woken up every morning disappointed to be alive. For three years I've changed so much, that I don't even remember who I was before. I'm not even sure what's wrong with me anymore. I used to know why I was depressed, but now... I don't...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Last night I took a hot shower

    while silently crying. Knowing that my tears blend in with water. I remember the feeling I felt in that moment. It was all but heartache pain. Thinking why do I have to go through this!? Not knowing the cause to this.. This depression is killing me and I cannot take it. But then...
    Shxxxooo Shxxxooo 18-21, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I feel depressed again.

    Some days I feel good and energetic, other days I feel down and just don't want to leave my bed. I don't think many people close to me can understand what I am going through. I have just been through the worst year in my life, when someone I loved and trusted dearly betrayed me...
    lostinbeauty lostinbeauty 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    It's my birthday today.

    .... I asked for the day off. I knew it wouldn't start off right. I woke up early and all I can feel is anxious.... fear and sadness. please let this day pass by quickly. Today I'm 40. I'm just as lost as people here half my age. I had my **** together in my mid 20s more than now...
    SelfishShellfish SelfishShellfish 36-40, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have finally accepted I'm going to kill

    myself. Now it's just a matter of when.
    CynicalHippie CynicalHippie 18-21, M 8 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 32 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Have you ever just felt like youre missing a

    place youre yet to visit, someone youre yet to meet or just a life youre yet to have ? Being free, not having many flaws, not being that much messed up, not even being perfect, just being good enough to be happy.
    Valencia Valencia 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 18-21, M 9 Responses Mar 14, 2015

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    She can paint a lovely picture,

    BUT.... This story has a twist. Her paint brush turned to a razor that was hungry for her wrist.
    chasingmylife chasingmylife 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25, 2015

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 22-25, F 71 Responses Jul 9, 2015

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I think scars are like battle wounds--

    beautiful in a way. They show what you've been through and how strong you are for coming out of it.
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am trying to get Social Security Disability

    and SSI for my depression. I can look back now and see that it has always haunted me. I have quit almost every job I have had when I start to get stressed out and anxious. Only a couple of jobs have I held longer than six months and none of those were full-time. I can't make it...
    PressPToPlay PressPToPlay 46-50, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I know but.. Its like.

    . My heart and soul are locked to a certain place and certain person and certain life that im yet to have, IF i was set to have. Not a specific place, but somewhere where my soul finds peace, a seashore surrounded by mountains. Not a specific person, but someone who would look...
    Valencia Valencia 18-21, M 3 hrs ago

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    Why couldn't I just be normal?

    I hate having depression so much it's literally handicaps me from doing so much for with myself and my life. I strive everyday to be happy, to be active and to live a positive lifestyle Yet when days like this come I feel like it's going to last FOREVER - I start...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    An 18 year old should be loving life

    and have no problems. I absolutely hate mine, everything comes crashing down I've got back up so many times and tried but it still goes wrong. I know not everything is perfect but honestly I feel as if my life was cursed. I have no money for the career I want to do, I've never...
    SSJx SSJx 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I feel that no one is loves

    or cares about me in the world I tried and tired but in my mind I just feel sad, alone and no one is here to help me. As the days goes on I keep imagining myself in this dark room trying to get out of a small box trying to break free, but I just can't break free. No one in my...
    Moonheart1 Moonheart1 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    sievert sievert 13-15, F 1 Response 16 mins ago

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    IamNicolle IamNicolle 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    Think my depression is coming back never happy

    anymore feel like I need to cut but don't want to to, don't know what to do :(
    bblover117 bblover117 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 21 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I wanted to apologize to all the nice people I

    have messages with here and to those of you that have been so kind to me !! I have been isolating pretty bad lately and I haven't been getting on here and messaging all of you like I was and I feel bad for that. What a ****** thing this depression it's so stupid! I'm so sad and...
    notasb4 notasb4 41-45, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'M tired of being lonely I jwanna meet some one

    who I like and start a relationship with them I have been alone for so long and so tired of it I did meet a girl who really like but she isn a relatnship I just want someone who is mine and I am theirs
    knevels knevels 18-21, T 2 days ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    deleted deleted 26-30 50 Responses Jan 18, 2015

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    This girl at my school said to me "don't

    pretend to be so sad, youre just doing it for the attention." ummm nobody WANTS to feel this way?
    annabearrr annabearrr 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 24 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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