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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 66,378 People

    Sometimes I just don't want to be anywhere.

    Sleep is my safe place. Where I don't have to go through ****. It's like I want to be with my friends in school so that I'm not alone But lately everything's gotta so much harder to do and even just putting on makeup and putting on a nice outfit is to much. School would...
    TooFarGonee TooFarGonee 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Mischief8 Mischief8 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    "I wonder what my mom

    and dad would say, if I told them that I cry each day."
    shethia shethia 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I've been on two different medications to

    help me with this over the past 2 months and haven't felt any improvement. I'm not one to really talk about my depressing thoughts or anything gloomy but honestly it's hard. I don't have a reason to hate my life or myself like it's not that bad I just do. If I could just...
    swfan4ever swfan4ever 18-21, T 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    The past few weeks have been Hell on Earth,

    quite literally. What can get worse than having multiple breakdowns and panic attacks in the middle of school whilst seriously contemplating leaving the world? Not bloody much.
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    You can take medicine ,

    and go through therapy, but for me , the real medicine is love, my kind of love rest within a dogs heart. It does the same thing mess and therapy is suppose to do. Get you out f bed, make you laugh, keep you busy, keeps you responsible , makes you feel safe, and proves...
    youreadwhat youreadwhat 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    I have about five or six months

    until my brain tumor decides to finish me off. I'm excited, somewhat, because I'll be able to leave this mad world. A life of "go to school, then college, then work, then die" mindset drilled into you and everyone attacking you everyday (physically and verbally) is quite...
    SturmWind SturmWind 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I really don't even have a good reason to feel

    so down lately. I've had some ups and downs but nothing awful has happened. I just can't break out of this funk, I'm so tired of crying every night. I feel so alone.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 26 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 53 Responses Jan 18

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    Depression. My heart,

    my mind, my soul...suffocating as walls slowly close in around me. Slivers of light seem so distant. Harsh wind pushes the light further away. It's cold, desolate. Empty.
    ttbridge ttbridge 36-40, F 5 hrs ago

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    So I found out yesterday

    that I might be losing my current therapist because she (and everyone else that knows how bad I'm struggling right now) feels like I need more support. So she is putting in a referral for me to get intensive in home therapy (which means 3 therapy sessions a week and each of them...
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I had a terrible breakdown last night

    because I ate after I said I would kill myself if I ever ate again, it wasn't a good night so I've taken the day off of college. All of done is lay in my bed starring at the wall. My mum has come in a few times and I've just yelled at her. I think I might just not speak to...
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Ive been sitting here wasting my time over

    first world problems. I think its time to grow up and chase my dreams and goals. I cant be like this forever. I will change for the better ..
    Savagez Savagez 13-15, M 18 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I have changed my name on here many times.

    I feel verry down right now. If any one here wants to die, let me know.i am scared of being caught wit thease thoughts too. I need a free painless way. My positive attitude went south real quick.
    deathsdoor101 deathsdoor101 41-45, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with depression

    after my best friend died in a car crash that I was suppose to be in. It's hard for me to admit I have depression because it makes me think I'm crazy. It gets very hard because I have no one to talk to that understands me like my best friend understood me. That's why we were...
    Tristag8 Tristag8 16-17, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I had a good day today:)

    even though bad stuff happened, somehow I managed to separate myslef from it and just enjoy the ride. it was nice after such a ****** week
    procats procats 18-21, F 22 mins ago

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    I'm done. No one listens to me.

    It's like I'm screaming out and I don't get a response. I'm not looking for new people I'm already overwhelmed with people. So don't think I want that. No one is going to help me. No one listens when I talk. They're all "gimme what I want" No one takes me seriously. No one...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 33 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    I need serious help, how do you defend

    for yourself? Or be strong? Cause I cannot defend myself and I don't think I've ever been so depressed in the whole of my life
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    It isn't letting me post on

    or add the group I want. I'm trying to post on the "I am suicidal" one. Because it's not like anyone would care anyway.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    It's just all too much sometimes.

    I've been playing piano for ten years now and I want to go to a music school for college. I need to go. But all of this pressure to have good grades and to practice piano 2+ hours a day is becoming too much, however the last thing I want to do is quit piano. That's not an option...
    cf102 cf102 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I always feel sad and I can't get myself up

    sometimes, it's really hard for me to trust anyone because they all leave when they say they are going to stay, my life sucks right now 😔
    BMTH26 BMTH26 13-15, F 59 mins ago

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    I battle depression. To someone

    who says depression can't helped you're just wrong!!
    Johnviolinist823 Johnviolinist823 22-25, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Mysterygirl2129 Mysterygirl2129 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    i'm so tired of this heavy gloomy feeling all

    day everyday ,,i don't choose to be like this , i feel like i'm under some kind of spell and i can't get rid of this dark cloud over my head i don't see a point in living or doing anything when we're all destined to die i see no joy in life all i see is suffering and things...
    AndeleAndele AndeleAndele 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    And it's really bad today.

    I didn't want to get out of bed at all , but I did . I didn't want to come to school , but I'm here. Now I just want to leave and curl up in my bed and stay there for days .
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 8 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    "When I reach out for help,

    I don't get a hand, but a paw " <3
    youreadwhat youreadwhat 18-21, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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