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    Guess I'm going through one of my down days

    where I just feel like **** and keep beating myself up :/ Knowing my luck it'll last for the next few days
    JonnySlackMallon JonnySlackMallon 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    My past still haunts me.

    I have done my best to move on but. It is times like now when my past comes back. When its dark out and im alone. When the person who can stop me from breaking down is asleep. It comes back. It reminds me that maybe now my family dosnt say what they used to about me. But that...
    asassions007 asassions007 16-17, M 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    When you're alone With the dark of the sky When

    you have a gun And just want to say goodbye - Life is hard You want to fly I know it's easy to fall apart But it doesn't mean you have to die - It's okay to feel bad Pain demands to be felt It's okay to be sad Nobody is perfect - I know this poem isn't pretty as her I know he...
    lailalessard lailalessard 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Crystalolita Crystalolita 18-21, F 50 mins ago

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    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    looking to make friends

    and try to help people
    sharimm sharimm 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    depression is when you don't really care about

    anything. You don't care what you look like, you don't care what others think, you don't care what others say. You stay locked up in your room, lifeless and empt. You don't care when someone insults you.. you just listen, accept it quietly and agree. Wether it's true or not...
    Loquesoy Loquesoy 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I think I am starting to drink too often.

    It's only one drink before bedtime so I actually sleep, but it also helps me calm down and feel more numb. I'm not letting myself drink every day because I don't want to turn it into a way to cope. I don't want to be dependent on it. But it's helping a little. Not sure whether...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    I am looking for relationship here I am single

    here so want to merry with someone I am 24 yr old lonely man looking for a great girl
    uzairraufkhan uzairraufkhan 22-25 1 Response 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I want to kill these thoughts

    and feelings and the only way to do that is to end it all.
    Lovelysadness Lovelysadness 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    I once shot a man that was really brown

    and he hurt my butthole in prison
    TheThirdSythe TheThirdSythe 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 85 Responses Jul 9

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Dealing with a breakup.

    Tomorrow would be a month closer to would have been our 2 year mark. I hurt myself last night. Can't take this pain.
    smilesx36 smilesx36 22-25, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Had to go to my heart doctor today.

    Things are not looking to good for me. A normal heart's ejection fraction may be between 55 and 70.Mine has been 40% for a long time, but now it is down to 20%, that is why I get out of breath every-time I try to do anything. he is talking about putting a Defibrillator, just in...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 11 hrs ago

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    I'm truly almost to the point

    where I'd rather die then endure this loneliness am pain every day :(
    SmilezHeal SmilezHeal 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm feeling like absolute hell at the moment.

    I'd like it if someone could skype me or something while I cry and complain about what's wrong. I don't know if you would even want to, but yeah. I just need a shoulder at the moment because I feel lonely as hell.
    scaredscarlet scaredscarlet 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    My life seems so pointless.

    And yet I can't do anything about it. I can't talk to anyone in my life about this because they won't listen to me. They'll just put me on medication. I have no where else to go so I'm coming here to put this. I wish I could say that I had a plan to deal with myself but I don't...
    alison806 alison806 13-15, T 4 hrs ago

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    RandomBlue RandomBlue 31-35, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    My past doesn't stay in the past.

    It still haunts me. I've lived through a lot in my 28 years. Sexual, physical, verbal and emotional abuse growing up only to be in a 5 year abusive marriage. I got married and had my first child by 19. Thanks to my mother I was dubbed a liar and troublemaker as a child for...
    Badriyah Badriyah 26-30, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I don't see my depression

    as something bad. In fact, since I've been this way, I feel as though I've actually been able to see things more clearly as my vision isn't clouded by idealism. I used to under the impression that I was so smart and so much better than other people. Now I'm aware that I'm...
    Rhinestoneyes Rhinestoneyes 16-17 2 days ago

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    They didn't notice. They didn't notice the pain

    and suffering. They didn't care. I didn't try to hide anything. I didn't try to make it seem like everything was alright, but they didn't care. If I was them I wouldn't have cared either. So I can't blame them.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 4 hrs ago

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    I have not eaten anything today.

    I feel unmotivated & lazy. Every one has abandoned me. I have not showered since Friday. I am on vacation this week and I'm supposed to clean up my apartment, there are clothes all over the floor & unwashed dishes. I am in peri menopause & feel like I am losing my mind. I've...
    sparklebright70 sparklebright70 41-45, F 15 Responses 1 day ago

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    Been such a strange mix of emotions these last

    few weeks. Having feelings of joy and that nothing bad can get to me and I'm literally on top of the world, to then feeling so low that I can't see a future and that I can't deal with life anymore. I just don't know what to do anymore
    WhyCantIBeYou WhyCantIBeYou 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I post in here too much.

    I guess I've never really had an outlet before, so this is what I've gotten used to doing when I feel alone. I feel numb tonight. I don't even know when it started. Usually I am either temporarily cheerful or extremely sad. Right now I don't feel anything. It catches me off...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    Literally everything makes me sad.

    An ice cream truck just passed outside my window and I feel a deep sadness for the person driving it and wondering if children today appreciate him driving around. Normally every day sadness is like a background emotion but lately it's been swallowing me. The smallest things are...
    thatglassjar thatglassjar 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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