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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 71,255 People

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    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 144 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 93 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 15 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I feel like a piece of ****

    and worthless, that's why I try to make other people happy but in the end of the day I feel so alone. I honestly don't open up, I feel so weak when I do it.
    QueenValbuena QueenValbuena 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    I have battled depression my whole life.

    I remember coming home from first grade and crying because everyone hated me. I started taking antidepressents at age 15 and have taken them off and on for many years. They do help and I can usually tell when I can't over come the depression on my own and need to start taking...
    Marseymo Marseymo 46-50, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 203 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I haven't felt right the past few days.

    I'm just very sluggish. I'm not having the best thoughts either :/
    xGNFx xGNFx 18-21, M 1 Response 27 mins ago

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    SwizzleDragon SwizzleDragon 16-17, F 12 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I have clear suicide plan,

    i already have the tools, prepared notes, and decided when im gunna do it. Im still finding reason why i should stop this but i really cant find one. People whom i know dont care that I've been living with mental illness, and i dont want them to know my suicide plan cos they're...
    kazzerino kazzerino 18-21, F 77 Responses Jul 9

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I feel suicidal. I won't

    but I hate my life
    cmabbott14 cmabbott14 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been suffering from depression

    for the past 8 years, maybe more. I try to ignore it, hoping it will go away, but in the end it's still there.
    Spyro93 Spyro93 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Another horrible day over hopefully I will be

    able to sleep all night so I don't have to think , I got some sleeping pills so I hope that helps.
    startingover34 startingover34 31-35, M 18 hrs ago

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    Why does this dark hell always come back.

    Just when you think things are getting better
    cmabbott14 cmabbott14 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Taylorgangbby Taylorgangbby 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate my family, i hate my body,

    i hate myself, i hate everyone, i feel like nobody actually gives a .... About me, i cut myself for fun , and sometimes i think about death and how to kill myself ( but im not gonna kill myself) yet.
    ameliehils ameliehils 18-21, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I have battled it for

    as long as i can remember. Now, its happening alot more than it used to.
    Gavin788 Gavin788 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I'm struggling :-( Sometimes I become

    so bitter about being cursed with this lifelong disability that no one understands. Feeling sorry for myself only makes it worse I know but it's so hard to ignore the unfairness of it all sometimes. Why can't I just be normal and stable and settled? I know it's up to me but it's...
    Mari3028 Mari3028 31-35, F 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 38 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    It's good to know that you need other people

    as well as relationships in your life to stay emotionally stable. Even better when relationships end; that's my favorite feeling :^)
    2centdine 2centdine 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    there is a full blown war going on inside

    if my head lately. without sounding effing nuts.. I can literally hear the sides battling in my head. One side telling me the bad, the other side reminding me of the good. it's enough to make someone go mad!!! it's horrible.
    PinkStarburst1984 PinkStarburst1984 31-35, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 11 Responses Mar 18

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 55 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    My mind is a prison you can't escape.

    Reality is closing up on me. I can't breath anymore, I realize that I won't ever get out of this hell-like place. I don't really care anymore, because I like the dark, it's my go-to place, my safe place, the closest thing to a home a monster like me can have. Goodbye light...
    anonanastasia anonanastasia 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    I promised that if I ever got better I would do

    something to help others in my situation. That was 34 years ago. I am just so happy to be well again. So much time has past that I forgot about my promise. Seeing many commercials for depression medications on TV these days has reminded me of it. The following is my experience...
    quickrush quickrush 51-55, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am winning at this.

    I feel as a giant towering from above.
    Hamhavi Hamhavi 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    I'm tired of the best I ever feel is content.

    I don't ever feel relaxed and the only time I can sleep the whole night through is if I take Xanax or a sleeping pill but that's not always a guarantee. I was to know what feeling relaxed and happy is like...I've become less depressed and anxious than I used to be but I haven't...
    bmo0 bmo0 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    It was a fine day with a frightening end

    but am so so so happy that It ended good. Life is getting brighter now I dare to dream and TRY to achieve those dreams , which seemed impossible not long ago but I won't rejoice yet the road is loooong and depression is still in the background but not as heavy...
    leiyah leiyah 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 23 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 22 Responses May 19, 2010

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