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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,194 People

    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I'll be going to a neurologist

    who is also a psychiatrist about my recurrent syncope, and I think that I will also be getting started on antidepressants then too. The end may be further than I thought.
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I try so hard to be good.

    I know inside I'm a good person. So when I snap at my mom or think negative thoughts about stupid drivers on the road it really upsets me. I don't know why most of the time I'm good and then I go and think something mean. I'm a loving person. I don't want to have those thoughts...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    I wish I could go back to how things were.

    ...times when I could put on that mask; The guy that made people laugh and do what he could to help the people he knew out. That's how I kept friends before...they needed someone to vent to and help them out, and I couldn't stand to be alone. It was a mutual host/parasite sort of...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Do not stand at my grave

    and weep am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight. I am...
    Mischief8 Mischief8 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    What I wouldn't give

    for a cigarette and the courage to drive to the edge of town. Listen to music, look at the stars, maybe even have someone to talk to. I hate how much I've killed of myself.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Oh look my mother is home again in a bad mood

    and can't keep it to herself so she overreacts to anything me and my sister do and fights begin. I could have a perfect day and still expect there to be fighting in my home. I can't believe I'm going to say this but : I'd rather be at my fathers getting beat than being here...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I'm so tired of the never ending self-hatred

    and the endless frustration. No matter what I do or what I try I still hate myself at the end of the day. The constant fighting with myself is getting old and tiring.
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    With out pain in my life

    where would I be? As we get older and the pain gets worst, sometimes we may feel that dying would be a better choice. I have found if one just sits around and dwells on the pain nothing will change for you. I have been working out in my yard and yes it hurts and sometimes I...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 8 hrs ago

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    i feel so insignificant

    and weak at the moment, nothing i ever do makes a difference. i give her my everything and she takes more, i work unto exhaustion and they dock my pay, i stand by my friends yet stand alone; its as if im not here to others, just something to be used and thrown away. it gets...
    lilhunters lilhunters 18-21, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    When I was happily married ,

    my depression didn't affect me.........but now that I'm unhappily married my depression has returned.
    jspiscean jspiscean 46-50, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    My dreams are my only escape,

    and I have zero control over them. But every now and then, I can feel normal...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    The loneliness is the hardest thing.

    I only have a few friends, and the ones I do have are getting sick of my complaining all the time. I don't blame them. I just can't cope with this alone. When I am alone I just cry and think about killing myself. I wonder what it is like being a happy, well-adjusted person who...
    macron macron 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living

    abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family told me to seek medical help, and finally gave me the courage to take a step forward. I've dealt with severe depression and bipolar for as long as...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Feeling a little depressed

    and that makes you think too much.. Sometimes I wonder if all this was worth it, having lived as a male and having family and friends to help in times of need, to living as a female and having no family and friends for anything. I have lived as a woman for half of my life and I...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    I hate that I can't tell people how I really

    feel because I don't want people to think I'm just looking for pitty, I have been through a lot but still feel like I'm better off then a lot of people I know. but I really would rather give up, I wouldn't commit suicide but if something accidentally took my life it was be a...
    needbetter needbetter 31-35, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Lets face it, transsexuals like me are nothing

    but a burden to society. I thought about killing myself, but that would only be more of a burden on the family who has to pay for the funeral. I'm going to live as a female. I'll stop stressing people out with all this lgbt stuff. I'll stop being a burden.
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Today the monsters are loud.

    Not the ones hiding under my bed or lurking in my closet; for those are simply the figment of fairy tales. No the monsters whose screams threaten to dismantle my sanity live in my mind. If you were to crack open my scull, within you would find the most hideous terrifying demons...
    Greyeyess Greyeyess 18-21 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    angelkinzz angelkinzz 16-17, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Jealousy is so ugly, I hate it.

    It consumes me...turns from despair into rage; but all of the rage is directed inward, at myself. Failed opportunities, too scared to try new things, blah blah blah. I can fix all of this, but I'm just so tired. I have no drive to fix it, no want. So I stew...I hurt myself....I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I believe I won depression.

    Losing weight has changed my life in so many ways. I feel extremely good about myself.
    gisel607 gisel607 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I just want to be happy.

    .. No gender. I hate the gender roles... I miss my baby blue. She left me. I wish I had been good enough... I'm going through changes. Dying my hair and piercings. I'm getting there but I still hate the body I see in the mirror... How can anyone love me if I don't love me?...
    bbybleu bbybleu 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    I would really like to clear something up here.

    If you are visiting this page and do not suffer from depression, please understand that depression is a mental illness. It is messed up wiring in the brain that causes people to be sad. Do not ask people what they are depressed about, there is no answer to that question. Do not...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I saw the doctor. He gave me a 2 week sample of

    Pristiq to try. Does anybody know anything about this drug? It seems similar to Effexor, which is what I was on before. I explicitly said I didn't want to be on Effexor again. I don't get why he would give me something so similar.