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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 66,991 People

    My friends decided to think of one word to

    describe everyone in our friendship group. My word was "bipolar", which is rather disheartening as I hoped to be more to them than simply a mental disorder.
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    My family gives me everything.

    They're light and joy and I love them more than anything. I also have a ton of good friends, and am involved in a club I love so much as well as a job I do really well in. I'm totally outgoing and have never been bullied or really mistreated. Why am I depressed?
    MakeAChange98 MakeAChange98 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I overcame my depression,

    but growing past this requires now a shift in lifestyle and personal culture to prevent relapse and develop a more rewarding cadence to life. The comic below that I came across is something I identify with.... http://www.depressioncomix.com/posts/217/
    Taurusedi Taurusedi 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    I am just a burden to everyone

    and it really hurts. It causes a lot of loneliness which hurts a lot inside. It causes me to feel alone and like I don't belong in this world and not belonging anywhere is one of the most painful feelings I have ever experienced. it is raw and brutal and just makes me want to...
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Yea, so remember that scene in the the TV movie

    "Salem's Lot" where the Glick kid turned into a vampire and is scratching on the window wanting Danny to let him in??? Yep...that's how my depression feels today. I'm just sitting here minding my own business while it's scratching on the damn window wanting me to let it in.
    pollyprozac pollyprozac 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    How can I help my boyfriend deal with his

    depression? I love him so much and it hurts my heart to see him go through all this pain.
    kaylaakionaa kaylaakionaa 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Last year I had the worst depression in my life.

    I clearly remember the day that was the turning point for the better. I was out taking a walk in my neighborhood when suddenly it occurred to me that for the longest time I have been forgetting to have fun. That made me cry. I had a heart to heart talk with myself, and promised...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    My parents are sick and tired of having a sick

    child. My depression is so bad. They try and help me but they just make me feel worse. They don't even know I think about killing myself everyday. I just want to leave this world so I'm not a burden.
    tornapart123 tornapart123 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    OK IM NOT DEPRESSED BUT PLEASE READ.

    So I really like this girl and we have been talking for about two weeks my friend said she told him she likes me right? but here's the thing she dosnt want to date anyone or anything like that. so she is talking to this other guy and we are gonna fight over her. He's 18 6'2 Id...
    skate0rDie skate0rDie 16-17, M 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 41 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    So this morning I seen my counsellor

    and I spilled out everything I've been feeling lately like my suicidal thoughts, my relapse / my urge to cut, and my depression. I have to say, I feel so much better now.
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I don't understand why people lie

    and say they care. They don't notice when they pass me, or even care enough to wave if they do. They chance a glance at me, most disgusted and filled with hate. Why do they act like we were close when they see the scars crawling up my wrists and arms?
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 13-15, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    (I can REALLY relate to this,

    especially when I encounter armchair mental health "experts") 
    bijouxbroussard bijouxbroussard 51-55, F 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Common sense, can such a saying be justifiably

    credible? What is common sense in this abstract and forever changing world? This world is dictated by laws and notions, for which my mind can not comprehend, let a lone agree with. Why? Why do I think about these confusing and utterly bizarre topics? Is there some great answer...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    again and again, I become more sad each time I

    enter ep I have been here since last october. each day I gain friend then next day I lost don't know why they may be not free or something I don't know in other hand ......I started to read the stories of members here I found they suffer more and I become too fragile from my...
    mustafasava mustafasava 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    Today was harder than most.

    I'm at the point where I want to disconnect my mind from my body so I don't have to feel anything at all. There are no words to express the emotions I'm feeling right now...and that is the hardest part of all.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just always feel so unwanted

    and annoying, maybe it's best if I'm just not here
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Two am and the room's empty

    and so is she- staring vacantly at the ceiling, lost amid a swirling maelstrom of fragmented thoughts. When floating face-up on an endless ocean of darkness just try not to sink and drown in the silence. Close your eyes and hold your breath one misstep and you'll plummet down...
    EverythingYouNeverKnew EverythingYouNeverKnew 13-15, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I feel like I'm numb all the time

    and nothing can make me happy and honestly im 14 im suppose to be living my teenage life but im in my room right when I get home from school and I don't leave until I go to school the next day and honestly I really wouldn't care if I died I would probably be more happy
    vanessa1718 vanessa1718 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    SoonToBeGone SoonToBeGone 16-17, F 12 Responses 1 day ago

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 34 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Never say these things to someone

    who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself a kick in the ***." 2: "No one ever said life was fair or easy." 3: "There are a lot of people worse off than you." 4: "Everyone gets depressed sometimes!" 5: "Maybe you should...
    tianajade tianajade 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    it just gets worse and worse,

    i used to be able to hide it but i don't even have the energy to hide it anymore or pretend i'm anything else then depressed.. everytime i wake up i feel so depressed,and everytime i fall asleep i feel depressed because i know i'll just wake up here again. i don't want to commit...
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 36 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So I'm in hospital guys.

    I'm a danger to myself apparently. So boring.
    ElCharlotte ElCharlotte 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Some days I get it. Ok the bf is being a butt

    much that's a reason to be upset. Then there are days like today. The bf has been great to me, my son has been happy and just amazing today. I got a day off school. Yet I feel this looming sadness in every inch of my body and have no idea why. I feel sadness, but my brain isn't...
    RjMommy245 RjMommy245 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Feeling really down today :-( I've been really

    unmotivated and depressed lately. The heavy schoolwork makes me crazy. My teachers, classmates and friends say they think I can get into uni. But, actually, I think I know myself more than them. Uni? I can't even handle my schoolwork well. I know Im not competent enough. Im not...
    Acrylic19 Acrylic19 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I'm sick of people saying

    that depression is a joke and that people who are depressed are just dramatic and weak . Depression is an illness , not a choice . We can't help how we feel and neither can most human beings . I hate waking up every morning , I hate bring around people and faking a smile . I...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 35 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    **** anyone who thinks depression is romantic.

    Depression is f*****g hell. Depression is not having the energy to get out of bed for 3 days. Depression is losing focus whenever you try to do something. Depression is slowly phasing everyone you love out because you forget they care. Depression is crying in the shower at 4 am...
    0hSheanBreeze012 0hSheanBreeze012 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    People often think they understand,

    they think they can handle it.. but in reality, they can’t.. the only way they can understand and truly handle it, is if they have been to the same breaking point as you. They want you to talk about it.. but the truth is.. I’m afraid. I’m afraid of your reaction, so I...
    0hSheanBreeze012 0hSheanBreeze012 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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