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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 67,614 People

    I struggle with SAD, Seasonal Affective

    Disorder, otherwise known as Summer Blues. It's hard to see the weather warm up, I can't help but start to feel more depressed and hide deeper in my bedroom. I can't be the only one who depresses over the summer heat...
    Breakingkal Breakingkal 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I thought it had quietened down,

    gone somewhere else for awhile, buts it's come back. I want to cut myself again but I can't for fear someone would see them. I really don't know what to do. I go to school and I'm fine, my mind is distracted. Then I get home and it's like a bombshell pressing down on me. I can't...
    flower300 flower300 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    I guess there can be times

    where it is unpleasant to be around. I can leave... Which can give me ideas. Ideas that are unhealthy and have lead to scars.
    marandakate marandakate 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    --Suicide isn't about wanting to die-- Someone

    can have all the potential in the world. They can be a prodigy with incredible talent. They can have a lot of other things too - money, beauty, and a thousand pieces of gold. But if they're not happy inside... People don't lose their desire to be alive because they don't have...
    SilverSearching SilverSearching 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been battling severe depression

    for ages now and the other day I decided I need to do something but I just cant face going to the doctors and talking about it especially since im not an open person about whats going on in my head so I decided to try st johns wort its only my first day using it but im worried...
    ymasxatl ymasxatl 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 15 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I've been feeling really depressed this week

    and idk why. I just feel alone and actually have had suicidal thoughts again
    Stillmatic97 Stillmatic97 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like an animal.

    not human. something is tearing at my bones and ripping at my soul all the time. I can't sit still. ever. it's clawing at my skin. begging to be released. pain. deep inside my core. it's draining every bit of energy I ever had in me. it tires me. I get so exhausted. I just want...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Today I decided to change the way I deal with

    depression. I know I have to struggle with it for the rest of my life. It will always be there. Its part of who I am, and Im okay with it. I have never thought I could say that. I'm still scared of what the future might bring but I know I will make it. I don't know how, but I...
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    It's funny, not a single one of the people I

    consider "my friends" on here asked me how I was after I posted a few depressing posts and even one about suicide. I know it's not their job nor do I usually care, but when strangers give more of a **** than my "friends" it's pretty sad.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Growing up i never had any real friends,

    I was always that loner kid who would just sit alone and talk to himself just waiting for the day to go by. Obviously I got bullied and beaten up, and id come home crying asking myself what i had done wrong. I didnt want my parents knowing so I tried hiding my emotions. In...
    RXDX RXDX 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's weird sometimes I'm

    so happy that it almost seems so unreal. Then out of no where it just hits me. I literally alienate myself from everyone and everything and I just start to cry and sometimes it's just for a moment and sometimes it's for days. I'll lay and bed and just curl up into a ball and cry...
    Chibiiiii Chibiiiii 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My pain just rise day

    after day my depression becoming insane I can't bear this loneliness :'( I need support
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Im dying inside yes im breathing

    but inside im so sad so desperate so lonely néed care And lové néed hugs ànyone to be on my side until the end of time
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I just went to the store

    and bought a bunch of Reese's products, I'm not even hungry but I am eating it anyways. I seriously have a food addiction!
    trademymistakesXxxx trademymistakesXxxx 16-17, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Today the weak one was nervous

    and scared. But she realized what the problem was. She knew that she could not fight the enemy alone. She thought: I may be weak and nervous, but at least I am smart. So she came up with a foolproof escape plan. She closed herself in the safe place to wait for reason to come to...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 6 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 55 Responses Jan 18

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    It really isn't easy

    for me to open up and share my experience, even more when I know nobody cares. With that said, I'll take a blind chance and post my story online anyway... My life has just reached a dead end. At 19 years old, my life is completely devoided of any meaning, of any fun. Everything...
    Max96 Max96 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    A few months ago I was forced into an abusive

    relationship and it got extremely stressful. My acne broke out really bad and I started having bad chest pain and respiratory problems. I also started failing all my classes. I was hit and robbed of $200. Cops got involved and now I never have to deal with him again. But now I'm...
    BB97 BB97 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    I know that depression is a hard battle to

    fight all the time, I live that way myself, but once in a while I try hard to shine for you. Here is a little something for your heart. love you. "EVERYDAY" Everyday I see your smile, It makes me want to smile. Everyday I hear your voice, It makes me want to shout, you are my...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I ever wonder if I ever be happy

    and can I go at lest one day with out feeling down and if I ever have friends or gf and not feel so hole all I want to be is happy but it maybe not meant to be
    thebigscottishguy thebigscottishguy 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    That moment when your talking to an important

    person and you have a fight And you try to apologize but they just look at your messages and ignore you and you find every which reason to not live and they say they care but in reality it feels like they really don't like every second they are around you it feels like they...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 13 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    Right now I'm just working part time not in

    college yet, but I work a decent amount of hours and cover shifts. I've had some issues getting my drivers license but I'm positive I'll pass next time. I'm 19 and living with my parents but I think they have bad energy (I'm very sensitive and empathetic) my dad is always...
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F