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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 64,963 People

    Hey guys, another rant instalment 😋 well,

    hope you can read through this one. I've just failed my exams again. For English, I've tried to follow the teachers comments to "be more structured", but alas, I STILL failed, despite following his advice! I, again, got 50%. I put more effort into my work, yet I still get the...
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 16 Responses May 27

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 16

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    Battling Depression

    Everyday it seems that as soon as I enter my room my smile fades. My mind begins to fill with questions, and all I see is shadows. I have been battling depression for about 10 years now. No one has a clue at all, it is my darkest secret. Everything is a blur, I am not happy at...
    TaylorIW TaylorIW 13-15, F 32 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 36 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    I swear my mind is half depressing thoughts

    and the other half is music lyrics
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I broke down in front of my mum again this week

    and she said that if I keep sliding further into depression she'll pull me out of school....she already has no idea how bad it already is, no one does:( I'm so scared of her finding out and pulling me out of school I can't let that happen but some days are just so dark that I...
    paledaisy paledaisy 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 80 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    I had depression in 11th grade

    but eventually it simmered down that year. I went to the doctor today and it turns out I have depression again. FML. I don't have time for depression. This is gonna make things tough. Just wtf
    indosavior indosavior 18-21, M 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    weigh2goAna weigh2goAna 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Dear Mind, please shut the **** up,

    I'm trying to be happy.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel like I'm worthless

    and a nobody I am invisible and depression just makes everything worse...
    Kkeske Kkeske 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    Depression is horrible.

    Nights are the worst for me, as I've heard it is for most who battle depression. For me, it's mainly because the most traumatizing experiences have happened at night... I found out my boyfriend cheated on me. I attempted suicide for the first time. I was alone. I cut myself. I...
    sarrmar sarrmar 18-21, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 95 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    My friends and boyfriend think I overact.

    Think I'm to sensitive. I tell them if it was up to me I would be like this. They tell me then don't. They don't understand. It's not that easy. I am emotionally. I get hurt. I feel like I either shut down shut them out. Lie to the people I love and fake a smile. Or let it out...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 75 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    vineman vineman 18-21, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 19 Responses Jul 7

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 9

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    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I got up. I actually did something today.

    I'm back home though. I really need to do laundry & I'm fighting every part of me to not lay back down in bed. It's calling my name but I know if I do, I'm done for the day. Nothing will get done. Anxiety is kicking in & I feel like a complete lazy mess. Why is this happening.
    ncon08 ncon08 18-21, F 5 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Sooo.... last night I fell asleep around 2ish,

    but I didn't stay asleep for long. So I'm pissed AND tired. Today's going to be hell. I already have to put up with my friends' bullshit and me being more depressed than normal won't help. I don't want to do anything- I just want to curl into a ball on the floor and scream. And...
    Indefinitely16 Indefinitely16 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    muffinsita muffinsita 26-30, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 31

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    Can I just put it out there

    that all of the fcking 13-14 year old kids who are part of this and think "oh I'm sad cause mummy wouldn't buy me this" or "oh I'm so sad because I had a crush on a boy and he doesn't like me" need to stop being dumb and get back to being a kid. Fgs depression is a mental...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 37 Responses Aug 28

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    I hope all of you find something

    that makes you feel happy today. Always here to talk :)
    ljevans1234 ljevans1234 18-21, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    Is it ok for guys to cry ?

    Or want to cuddle with some one and just have some one ?
    Cookdc12 Cookdc12 22-25, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everyday is the same.

    . Constant struggle to get out of bed and achieve something..
    Lilneko Lilneko 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 31-35, F 33 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    My mom keeps telling me how she just wants me

    to be happy again and every time she says that I just start bursting out in tears.
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My "dark" Friend

    I wake up in the morning and before I can open my eyes I know that its there. The covers are heavy with sweat from nightmares I'll never remember. I inhale deeply through my nose, it must have woken it up. "Good night sleep?" it asks. "You know it wasn't." I can hear it...
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 24 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 17

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11

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    Downward Spiral...

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws 36-40, F 16 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 17 Responses Feb 14

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    It's like one minute I'm fine.

    .. Then suddenly my soul gets ripped out and sucked into a vortex of darkness leaving me empty and blind to all the good around me.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 18-21, F 30 Responses Jul 3

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    Recently a man who attends the same group CBT

    sessions as I told everyone that if he could just stop being sick and tired of feeling sick and tired, all would be well in his life. How true. It is strange that I had never heard that particular sentiment before then, now I am hearing it, seeing it, all over the place. It...
    morea morea 22-25, F 22 hrs ago

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    My life is getting so much worse right now.

    I'm getting into a forced marriage pretty soon. I'm pretty much hitting my rock bottom. Idk what to do anymore. I got so drunk by myself and snuck out of the house with my friend and ended up in a ****** up party where I barley knew half of the people there. I was so wasted I...
    Angrysalads Angrysalads 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    Get out of bed. Get off the couch.

    Just move. Find some motivation. Some reason to move. Why is this so damn hard? Why.
    ncon08 ncon08 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    "Carnivore" - Starset All my life they let me

    know How far I would not go But inside the beast still grows waiting Chewing through the ropes Who are you to change this world? Silly Boy! No one needs to hear your words. Let it go. Carnivore! Carnivore! Won't you come digest me? Take away everything I am. Bring...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 40 mins ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    So earlier today I was at my moms best friends

    house and I was taking to her youngest son. The kids about 6 now I think. I asked the kid who his best friend was and he said "well it's you!" And so I said "oh well what about at school?" And he looked at me and said "I don't have any friends at school. All the kids there hate...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I cried myself to sleep this evening

    and wake up with a headache, diarrhea and nausea... I vomited twice ... i wish somebody care about my well being
    shazmn shazmn 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12

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