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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,218 People

    Everyday it's the same thing.

    Wake up, hate myself, put on the fake smile, hide my pain from everyone, get home and want to die. Why can't I be someone else? Why can't I be normal? Why do I have to be me?
    dylanh9717 dylanh9717 16-17, M 1 Response 22 mins ago

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    Dear humans, STOP REPRODUCING AND ADOPT

    CHILDREN IN NEED. YOUR DNA IS NOT IMPORTANT, NOR ARE YOUR CHILDREN SPECIAL. STOP INVADING THE WORLD, IT ISN'T YOURS TO POLLUTE. Sincerely, The World. End of rant
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 54 Responses Jan 18

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I wish I could feel some other emotion other

    then pain and sadness. I just want to feel happy for once. Is that too much to ask?
    broken203 broken203 13-15, F 5 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    i honestly don't know what happened to me today.

    i was sitting on my bed listening to music and thinking like usual, and all of a sudden i burst out in tears. i was crying for like twenty minutes before i stopped, because my mom came into my room. i burred my face in my pillow and acted like i was tired, because i know she...
    NoraCipriano NoraCipriano 13-15, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My Baby Girl

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our relationship...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living

    abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family told me to seek medical help, and finally gave me the courage to take a step forward. I've dealt with severe depression and bipolar for as long as...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    Big hugs and love to all my ep friends

    and ep people in general who are going to struggle over Christmas due to depression, loneliness or whatever reason. Love you all.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    "The loneliest people are the kindest.

    The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not want to see anyone else suffer the same way."
    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 12 Responses Mar 13

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    don't kill yourself over a boy,

    he'll bring another girl to your funeral
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Happiness Is A Choice? Bullshit.......

    If you honestly deal with depression, you know that you "don't have a choice". People who say that happiness is a choice, don't deal with depression. I'm sorry but it's been proven that chemicals off-balanced in the brain, contribute to depression. Telling a person who has been...
    peachturnover peachturnover 36-40, F 34 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I wish I could go back to how things were.

    ...times when I could put on that mask; The guy that made people laugh and do what he could to help the people he knew out. That's how I kept friends before...they needed someone to vent to and help them out, and I couldn't stand to be alone. It was a mutual host/parasite sort of...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is Something You Can't Turn Off......

    and you have no control over your mood swings and other peoples views. I hate hearing people say things like "get over yourself" or "your just doing/saying that for attention" I personally have not had to endure that here on EP, but have seen it said to others. it is not the...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream 36-40, F 37 Responses Oct 22, 2011

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    Telling me I can't be sad

    because someone has it harder in life than I do, is like saying someone can't be happy because someone has a better life than them.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I've been depressed all my life.

    Not that I have a reason to. My family loves me. I haven't had a traumatic experience. I am not the stereo typical depressed person. I have quite a bit of friends. Yet, no matter what I do or try.. I can't fight the demons inside of my head. I can't fight the urges I promised to...
    dylanh9717 dylanh9717 16-17, M 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I need help. Ive been contemplating suicide

    for some time. I don't want to myself but I really don't want to live anymore. Who or what should I contact?
    anchoria anchoria 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    When life passes you by cause you have no

    motivation to do anything. :(
    Hope1198 Hope1198 26-30, F 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I'm so tired of the never ending self-hatred

    and the endless frustration. No matter what I do or what I try I still hate myself at the end of the day. The constant fighting with myself is getting old and tiring.
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 27 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    3 years ago.. I was in a very bad place.

    I was having suicidal thoughts,cutting and I had no one to talk to! So I told my high school counselor everything. And it was vey uncomfortable very weird i felt very exposed! and I don't know why but I feel like I'm back there! i cant let those feelings go! even tho telling him...
    MKM18 MKM18 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Do not stand at my grave

    and weep am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight. I am...
    Mischief8 Mischief8 22-25, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I have a question for all the people

    who are depressed "why are the people we know and love and even people we don't tell us all the time it is so easy to defeat this disease, it so simple to talk about it, and to find support." But when really for some we do not have anyone to talk to, we do not trust other people...
    bonbypop bonbypop 41-45, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I'm really sick and tired of people telling me

    to change my view, think positive. They make it sound like I can flip a switch and automatically improve every single aspect of my life. It's not easy, I have depression. If I could just flip a switch and be happy and positive don't you think I would have done it already? I've...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 15 Responses May 27, 2014

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    i feel so insignificant

    and weak at the moment, nothing i ever do makes a difference. i give her my everything and she takes more, i work unto exhaustion and they dock my pay, i stand by my friends yet stand alone; its as if im not here to others, just something to be used and thrown away. it gets...
    lilhunters lilhunters 18-21, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    elgrxce elgrxce 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I crack open 1/2 anti-depressant pill extra

    and then I hit the gym. FU depression. I am weaponized and am gonna fight my way back to happiness
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 12 Responses Mar 18

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    I'll be going to a neurologist

    who is also a psychiatrist about my recurrent syncope, and I think that I will also be getting started on antidepressants then too. The end may be further than I thought.
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    Oh look my mother is home again in a bad mood

    and can't keep it to herself so she overreacts to anything me and my sister do and fights begin. I could have a perfect day and still expect there to be fighting in my home. I can't believe I'm going to say this but : I'd rather be at my fathers getting beat than being here...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I would really like to clear something up here.

    If you are visiting this page and do not suffer from depression, please understand that depression is a mental illness. It is messed up wiring in the brain that causes people to be sad. Do not ask people what they are depressed about, there is no answer to that question. Do not...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I'm A Miracle

    All my life I was told that I was ugly, fat, worthless, and that I would never be anything. Sometimes, I want to believe those things. But I learned that I am beautiful no matter what my body type is. I am me. No one can change that. I learned that life is too short to stress...
    imperfectperfectionist123 imperfectperfectionist123 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't wanna be me anymore.

    I wish I could go back to when I was a child and had nothing to worry about. I just want to disappear.
    Margarott Margarott 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I've noticed that all I do is look

    for anything depressing like music and movies and etc its like my mind wants to be depressed :( if that makes any sense
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I'm scared to get close,

    and I hate being alone. I long for that feeling; to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I sink. I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    When I was happily married ,

    my depression didn't affect me.........but now that I'm unhappily married my depression has returned.
    jspiscean jspiscean 46-50, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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