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I Battle Depression

If you're looking for depression support, meet a group of friendly people fighting depression and the feeling of being depressed. 68,055 People

    Neverending Fight

    Yes I battle with depression every single day of my life. Its part of my bipolar disorder. Some days are worse than others but Ive found a reason to live so I would never ever kill myself. Last year 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. Ive never fought with depression so...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 36 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Hold Your Happiness Close. Hold Your Depression Even Closer.

    I just heard a story on the radio about a woman who travels alone in places like Sudan and the Phillipines in areas where rebels of all different kinds live. She told a couple of stories of how she handled herself when faced by a group of teenage men with guns. She would march...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 21 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Who are you to judge the life I choose.

    ... When you were never a part of it...
    LiarOne LiarOne 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    My best friend, Jake,

    killed himself earlier this week. I knew him for almost half of my entire life so far. We became best friends in third grade, and I always knew him as a very funny, happy guy. One year, his ex dumped him, and he felt crushed. I was the only one to help him through. Then, we...
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    mariabish mariabish 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    5 Things Not to Say to the Depressed.

    1. Cheer up, turn that frown upside down, think happy thoughts !!   We are of course happy that the solution to our misery is as simple as turning it off and smiling .. why didn't we think of this ourselves? .. oh that's right cos its utter rubbish. Comments like this...
    SamOnHisSoapbox SamOnHisSoapbox 41-45, M 94 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    Rip Robin Williams I got to meet him a couple

    of years ago at a function dinner in Las Vegas. I will never forget that experience because I felt he was a very dark, sad, and tortured individual. He seemed very very manic and unsettled yet also very sad. He had been in pain for years. I hope he is at peace.
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 13 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    help. please. get me out of myself.

    i dont know how much longer i could take this, im just a teenager but the pain is real. my heart really hurts. whenever i think of my life, my past or present, it makes me want to cry and cry. ive cried to sleep a thousand nights and its torture. my sister and i shared a bedroom...
    whitenut whitenut 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My mom is telling me OM&M brought me in a

    depression.. What the hell. Seems like She doesn't know anything about me
    OfMiceAndKaylinn OfMiceAndKaylinn 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Happiness

    Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy Maybe I'm the only one Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 9, 2013

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    I really ******* hate myself.

    I wish I wasn't born. There's no point of me being alive no good benefit for me. I can't wait till I die. There's no point for me to live because of the way I look and everything else about me.
    wassup305 wassup305 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    And 5 20mg of adderall later.

    . All I ever do is use drugs to feel some what okay... Like this is not okay..
    tiffanygetchell tiffanygetchell 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I wish the blues would go away,

    I am sick of this melancholy. The sun has not shined here in over a week! Rain every day! I need sunshine to chase theses blues away. Going to exercise, hope it helps.
    Southerncharm67 Southerncharm67 46-50, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    (Picture attached) As I type this,

    I am quite upset at the moment... At the start of this year, I met a wonderful person on experienceproject when I was in the worst stages of my depression. She was the only one on this website that really offered to help. Due to my memory, I frequently forgot about this place...
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    Thundross Thundross 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    It's hard. I don't really have anyone anymore.

    I just sit here, unmotivated and emotionless. I've pretty much given up on trying to get better. I used to try and be happy and get better but I got constantly insulted and put down saying I can't do it. I barely get out of bed now. I don't feel anything but pain and sadness. I...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Confessions Of A Chronic Teenager - June 5, 2013

    Warning! This is a fairly long piece. Feel free to get your popcorn now, because this might take a while :P This was the final paper for an English class that I took last semester. Most kids had about a month and a half to write theirs, while I had a less than a couple of weeks...
    Vermonsterr Vermonsterr 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I'm not sure why I feel like this

    but I think a part of me is recovering. I'm still in the same situation and I still battle hard at times but for some reason I feel like a piece of the depression is going to release itself in the near future. Weird?
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    Clock Ticks, Nothing Changes

    The sweeping hand tick tick ticks, but nothing ever changes.  And you need the time to pass.  Not because you have anywhere to be; you don’t. You never have anywhere to be.  You just need the time to be anywhere but now, here.  Tick tick tick.  You...
    Little Bird Little Bird 31-35, F 204 Responses Apr 12, 2006

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    I am so tired of the pretend to care crap on

    this website. People who truly need help are bombarded with other's messages that pretend to care, while they turn the conversation to their problems or offer ridiculous and cliched advice. There are no magic words to cure true depression. We just want someone to listen, to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    What's really weird is

    that I read these posts on suicide forums and depression forums, of people who are in very dark places in their life. But they all have a similarity which is that they have a love for a parent, or boyfriend/girlfriend, best friend or some aspiration that keeps them from suicide...
    Isolating Isolating 18-21, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Actually I'm Bipolar.

    But the depression in my down cycle is f*cking making me miserable. I saw my dr. They gave me Abilify to add to my meds. I haven't been able to get it. Its been 3weeks now! They are going to have to do something I cant take this sh!t! I got a taste of being "normal" I want it...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I feel like I just want to play it

    out, like it's a game, see what happens, and then there's the "I really want to be happy I want change" but idk. . . My sad songs I can relate to aren't cutting it anymore, I'm putting on a lot of weight, though, if I'm real down I won't eat for days. Even I know this is...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 10 hrs ago

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    Suicide was always the plan.

    I figured I would start planning out the details and getting myself truly comfortable with the idea once my body started showing signs of failure. For several years now, I've had difficulty drinking from a glass without my head twitching once I start to tilt it back. I often...
    Nero82 Nero82 31-35, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    The Stigma

    There is a reason the subject of mental illness is so vitally important to me.  I know it intimately.  Having lived with chronic clinical depression most of my life, I've learned to deal with it, to function, to manage.  In that way, depression is similar to...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 145 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I do not know if anyone reads this,

    but here are the facts. I walk around every day with so much anger, anxiety and depression. And the facts are that no one cares. As long as you put on your happy face so no one will care enough to ask if it goes well, but here you have the truth. Everything is great. My life is...
    AllTheDevilsAreHere AllTheDevilsAreHere 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression is not easy.

    Never easy. Depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, procrastination - whatever evil it may be called. But one thing is for sure, it is debilitating. It is heart-wrenching. It is spirit-breaking, even mind-freezing. It sucked the spirit of life in you. Makes you feel both hopeless...
    TitaniumSkyScraper TitaniumSkyScraper 31-35, F 24 Responses Jun 16, 2014

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    Depression is so weird.

    We put on happy faces to hide the fact that we are in fact so depressed, but at the same time, we pray for someone to notice and be able to help. For as long as I can remember, I've been hoping someone would be able to just KNOW that I'm not right, because I do such a good job...
    Sarah196 Sarah196 18-21, F 31 Responses Jan 12, 2014

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    FloatyAquarius FloatyAquarius 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Everyone Needs To Read This

    Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out...
    genetica genetica 26-30, F 81 Responses Jan 24, 2013

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    And. Have become. A coping skill pundit.

    Redundant. But a pundit.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't been able to write

    as of late, though I'm not completely sure why. Perhaps it has lost it's purpose, whatever that purpose used to be. It's funny how life and death are exact opposites, yet they are so closely intertwined. One surely can't exist without the other, there is no meaning without an...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Depression Is...

    DEPRESSION IS NOT A STATE OF MIND! I am a Psychology major and it completely breaks my heart when I hear someone talking about someone who is depressed or wants to commit suicide. Depression is a mental DISEASE. Just like if you were to have cancer or a physical disease...
    InnerBeauty12 InnerBeauty12 18-21, F 42 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I constantly wonder why I feel like I never had

    a childhood, but I guess it's just regret. I was so scared, so afraid to take risks and do new things. Guess I've always been this way.
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    In morning, everything still fine

    but now it seems pretty bad :( Depression control me again. It make me don't want to go out even for dinner or relax😢
    Maithon13 Maithon13 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dealing With Depression

    My problems with depression seemed to slowly and quietly twist their way into my life for years.  At points it was so subtle I would be able to ignore it, or push it away, or think that it was just another bad day, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow day after day...
    suzanneontheriver suzanneontheriver 26-30, F 56 Responses Jul 12, 2006

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    In November 2001, I suffered a breakdown

    and was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression. My depression was treatment-resistant; fortunately about 10 years later I found an effective antidepressant. I say fortunately, because I know some struggle much longer. There were days when hope was so far gone and the psychic...
    onomatopoeiaCA onomatopoeiaCA 41-45, F 16 Responses Feb 14, 2014

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    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 11 Responses Mar 14

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    depression is the lowest feeling.

    ..sure they say life isnt meant to be easy..well how about we change that to life is meant to be easy and everyone in this world share the money around so noone is broke and everyone owns a house car and boats...How about people looking after eachother like humanity should in...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    A million things to do,

    mind moving 100mph...energy level is nonexistent. Hate when exhaustion hits....next step is the tears...dammit!
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    **** my life. Just **** it

    and **** everything else
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 5 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    If you dont have depression,

    dont even bother telling me life gets better. The fact is, your living a happy life, and you dont understand what I am going through. If you dont have depression, you will never understand.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 28 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE,

    READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Sometimes the only thing left to do

    when you've been down all day is to dance. Seriously, it comes to that for me. ::walks to room, locks door, takes off robe, dances in undies::
    NoBullsht NoBullsht 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    When I was a kid, I wanted to be older.

    ... But this **** is not what I expected. Now I just wanna go back to my childhood where I don't care what others say about me. For once, I want to feel that pure happiness and joy again.
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 4 Responses