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I Battle Existential Depression

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    Existential Depression

    I thought I'd start a group for all those who suffer from existential depression to find some comfort in knowing that you are not alone.  For those wondering what it is: http://psychcentral.com/lib/2008/what-is-existential-depression/ I think my existential depression...
    dan888 dan888 26-30, M 6 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Need More Treatment Ideas Please!

    I have been depressed since I was around 12yrs old (I'm now 30) and have been on every silly medication known to man since I was around 18. A few hospital stays and suicide attempts later I do not seem to b making much progress. I'm hoping you guys can help me... My depression...
    iamnotmypast iamnotmypast 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 7, 2009

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    Rage With Nowhere To Go

    I have suffered from existential depression since I was 15.  It's what drove me into dysthymia, and eventually to a major depressive disorder.  I first came across ED at http://steve-olson.com/the-hidden-inner-life-of-existential-depression/.  It fit what I was...
    WisSchmidt WisSchmidt 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 18, 2010

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    Caramelheart Caramelheart 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 15

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    Want You To Be Happy Always

    i am not a spirutual teller. i just want to help you out . i am medical student,so i just wana help you out, i have magic thought which will make you happier for whole of your life. 1) belief is the mother all the consequence which you face in your life, if u belief that u r not...
    chokien chokien 22-25 Oct 2, 2013

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    Dealing With Existential Depression

    Existential depression permanently changes the way you experience the world, but it could be for the better. There isn't enough online in terms of how people deal with these thoughts/feelings. While the experience is highly individual, I thought I should share some ideas that...
    KP02 KP02 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 24, 2010

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    Not so alone now. Thank you,

    whoever made this site. I have been wishing I would die since I was around 12 years old for really no reason at all. I can't tell you why, I just feel that way. I never understokod them, they never understood me. Like, bullies. They say something mean about you and, what? Do you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 20

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    Sometimes I feel that all my perceptions about

    everyone and everything is wrong and I feel like my entire life is a lie.
    ayang1150 ayang1150 16-17, F Mar 20

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    Severe Depression- What Is This Life?

    I have battled depression, severe anxiety and paranoia since I was a small child. Way too young to know what existentialism or cognitive dissonance meant, but old and intelligent enough to know that I was very uncomfortable here on this earth and inside this body. I didn't get it...
    kizzyrenee kizzyrenee 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    Seriously Seeking Anybody's Help

    I cannot remember a time I didn't struggle with existential depression. From the age of 5 I always knew I was different and thought I was doomed. I felt so trapped that I had formulated a plan that now scares me. I had decided that this world was not a place I was supposed to...
    blackhalfie blackhalfie 26-30 4 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    An Existential Crisis?

    Thanks to Dan for providing this message board as a means to share one's experiences with Existential Depression. I don't have the financial means to seek out a therapist who specializes in this arena. This is very new territory to me, and existential depression is a self...
    Autumn1969 Autumn1969 41-45 1 Response Aug 6, 2012

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    At A Point Where I Question Everything.

    I know I'm suffering with something, I goggled types of depression and I existential depression sums it up. I constantly question what is my purpose. Its been so bad, I question my every action or want now. Although I have studied well and have 2 degrees, I constantly wonder if...
    Empathink Empathink 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 13, 2013

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    1) CAUSES I've wrestled with ExDep my entire

    life. Even as a kid I was extremely keen to notice hypocrisy between people's words & behaviors, and incongruities between how I was told the world functioned & what I saw actually manifest. I didn't have a logical grasp of these phenomena, only the pain and frustration of my...
    natsoray natsoray 26-30 Dec 12, 2013

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    Story Of My Life...

    I've dealt with this all my life, but its been more of a process of peeling away layers until I have now  'exposed' my existential depression.  In the past I was able to cope well with it, or moreover I had no idea the concept of 'existential depression' existed but I...
    dizzybats dizzybats 18-21 3 Responses May 27, 2010

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    If I Can't Find A Meaning To This Fearful Life, I'll Become The Enemy Of Mankind

    It is not existence itself (in the sense of conscious experience) that is the malign ulcer I seek to identify here. It is human nature, even extensive to our deficient social institutions, that are to be taken as enemy. In the face of it, our propping up of such failed...
    Madej Madej 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2012

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    Nietzsche Is Making My Soul Sick

    I first encountered existential depression after reading Thus Spoke Zarathustra in my philosophy class. Before even opening the book, I instinctively knew what it was going to be about. I knew it was going to be an upheaval of morals, and an upheaval of God, which would lead to...
    Bupsy Bupsy 18-21, M 4 Responses May 1, 2013

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    Caramelheart Caramelheart 16-17, M 4 Responses Mar 17

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    Existential Depression In My Life

    I was diagnosed with major depression at the age of 12. Since then I have been on lots of different medications just trying to find what works. I have suffered with bouts of extreme depression, and I have attempted suicide. I never felt like the definition of major depression...
    jenn1800 jenn1800 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 24, 2010

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    Ayahuasca Cures Depression

    Ayahuasca. it is a medicine that has existed for thousands of years. It is made in the rain-forest. It must be taken with a shaman, who is not motivated by greed and self-gain. If you suffer from any form of depression, Ayahuasca can cure you. Take a minute to read my story...
    AlexLight101 AlexLight101 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    Fears

    I use to be quite religious, until I had some experiences that made me question god's existence. Afterwards I started to have fears that I can't control, I stay up late, then sudden thoughts of death just went over me. I began getting bored with life, studies i ask myself if...
    introvertedlife introvertedlife 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2013

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    The Crushing Realization

    It started when I lost my faith in God. And it was slow, and crept up on me, and strangled me softly at first. Simple doubts about a divine creator turned into an agonizing certainty and overwhelming fear that turned me into an insomniac, gave me relentless anxiety attacks. I...
    SublimeMarrow SublimeMarrow 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    Not Really A "battle"...it Just Is :)

    the meaning of life)Hello!  I ran across this site while looking to apologize to someone about being who I am, or the person that I am.  complicated, but of course you all reading this certainly understand :).  So I'm glad I found this group.  I only...
    ThankUpages ThankUpages 41-45, M 2 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Finally A Name

    AFTER MONTHS OF RESEARCHING DEPRESSION ON THE INTERNET I FINALLY HAVE A WORD FOR IT NOW............E.D.[ TYPICAL THIS IS ONE OF THE HARDEST DEPRESSIONS TO HELP].NEXT TIME I GO TO THE DOC I WILL TELL HIM/HER, [ 50% CHANCE THEY WONT KNOW ].ONE WEEK AGO THE DOC DIDNT EVEN KNOW  ...
    bitterpea bitterpea 46-50, M May 25, 2010

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    I am new, and have done a rubbish job of

    commenting so far. I am not really sure this site is for me, I no longer battle ExDep. But I know how much it hurts, and I wish there had been someone, anyone who understood it when I was experiencing it. It's awful, but if my experience can be helpful to someone, that's...
    jamaiscommelesoiseaux jamaiscommelesoiseaux 26-30 Feb 15

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    I'm really trying not to have an existential

    breakdown right now... I've been through a couple of them and they suck... Nothing changes...you can either accept your issues or learn and broaden your perspective... And then move on! I really hope I can bate it off... Oh well... Here goes something...
    Shoutittotheworld23 Shoutittotheworld23 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 6

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    The Life And Afterlife - Why

    Firstly, I would like to say hello to everyone!I would like to start with saying something that you already know as well.  None of our lives will matter in the end.Here is a little about me:I am a 39 year old (40 in two weeks - inching closer to the inevitable) father of 2.  I...
    moosemessier moosemessier 36-40 14 Responses May 23, 2011

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    One Big Fat Cliché ~ My Childhood - Today

    This is the first story I've shared on here so I'm not exactly sure how it works. However, my main reason for signing up for this was because of my existential depression. I am very young and have had a lot of family troubles, like most. When I was 5, my mother left my father for...
    thisisashittyusername thisisashittyusername 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2012

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    New Convert, Newly Depressed - Is There Any Hope?

    Hi everyone, About a year and a half ago I lost my faith in God. I was never very religious, although I did believe in some sort of higher power that I would pray to and that made me feel like life was comfortable, meaningful, and fair. However, once I definitively realized I...
    whiteguy91 whiteguy91 22-25 1 Response Oct 14, 2013

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    My Cross

    At one point in my life I was a pretty gifted artist. I was accepted in to CIA right out of high school on scholarship, but my mother wouldn't let me go. I wanted to be one of those rebellious children that took charge of my own life once I'd chosen my path, but my mother was a...
    MelMel68 MelMel68 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2013

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    Twenty Years of Flailing

    I was first told I was depressed at college. I was nineteen. I went to the doctor - got little time and a prescription to an anti-depressant. I guessed, at the time, that this was all a GP could do in the middle of dealing with so many students. The drug was wrong for me and led...
    Shymer Shymer 36-40, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    One Day, Existence Just Didn't Make Sense

    I have an exact date range for when my troubles with existentialism started. December 25 2007- January 7 2008. I received and read a book that touched on some major philosophy ideas, about existence, morality, freewill, communism, existence of god, where the universe came from...
    anomienous anomienous 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 5, 2013

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    Want This World To Be Happy Place

    hello friends , i am medical practioner by profession i want to share some medical fact and mystery to be happy always 1) we all are destined to be happy and prosperous, but y most of them are not happy? ans- actually we all search a happiness in something which is of some...
    chokien chokien 22-25 Oct 3, 2013

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    The night before I started writing this,

    I watched a movie called The Road with Viggo Mortensen on Netflix. For those who haven't seen it or read the book (which I only learned existed when I mentioned the movie to my therapist earlier today), the story follows a father and son who struggle to survive in a post...
    kalicko kalicko 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 11

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    Related Experiences

    I was diagnosed with depression at eight years old and have lived with it in such a way that it has crippled nearly every aspect of my life. I have never been on medication to help...
    Scorpio018 Scorpio018 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    Today has been a really rough day. These last three days actually have been really rough. I've been trying to stay positive because I know what my depression can do to me if I...
    Moonchild205 Moonchild205 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    Hey everyone. :) i have made this youtube video and I am posting the link here. It is a video that is about my life and my battle with depression and a ton of other things. The...
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    I have a raging battle against depression and suicidal thoughts. I have tried antidepressant drugs and I ended up sitting in a railway line due the feelings they gave me (train...
    artymike8 artymike8 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 23

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    What is depression? Depression is emptiness. It's a deep, dark hole inside you that can't be filled. It's feeling like you are all alone in the world and no one knows you exist...
    KittenHasaWhip KittenHasaWhip 46-50, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I have battled depression since I was a teenager. Mine comes and goes in waves, and it varies how severe. I usually will encounter at least one episode every year, sometimes...
    thatspecialsomeone thatspecialsomeone 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I do battle depression and the people around me know it. My girlfriend helped me see the positive things in life but since we don't go to the same school she doesn't see what it's...
    Ghrite Ghrite 13-15, M Mar 22

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    i have depression and ADHD. my doctor said that my depression is because of my dads brain tomur. my dad has had this tomur since he was 18. my theropetist says that i have...
    1994trip 1994trip 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I feel it is brave of me to admit this, but I can in this anonymous world. I am a professional married mother. The depression, if that is what it is hit me as a teenager. It got...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Mar 24

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    I battle depression. When I am depressed, I cant function. I cant get out of bed before 1oclock. When I do get out of bed, my body gets tired so I go right to the couch. Dishes sit...
    amarie02 amarie02 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I have came to complete acceptance that depression will likely always be apart of me., a piece of me I carry through my days here as an earthling . This is not me saying, hey I...
    Allissaxxx Allissaxxx 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    I battle both anxiety and depression, which now is manifesting itself in being anxious about depression returning. It has been very tough lately and work is a major source of...
    kjmbk kjmbk 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    They say "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and i never believed that until now ! A few months ago i was going through the worst time of my life ...i wanted to kill myself...
    lovemusicnicole lovemusicnicole 18-21, F Apr 7

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    I battle depression and I've waged a war against it never again do I want another family member to commit suicide over depression. Raped and soul wounded my cousin committed...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 12

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    My mom is not a very happy person. She prefers my sister, brother and other brother to me and sides with them all the time. I know I'm an adult and don't even live in the same...
    mimileelee mimileelee 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I am like you. Depression has been my way of life ever since I can remember. I'm 46 years old. I'm a virgin, but proud of it although I am not proud of the fact that I've done...
    churchworker churchworker 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Right now, is a low part of my life. And it has come at the worst time. Anyone I have told my reasoning for my depression, has looked at me as if I were pathetic. That the reason I...
    AtticusAneamagus AtticusAneamagus 13-15, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I battle depression daily. I mainly use anger as an outlet to diffuse it. Anger is a way I cope with depression and it triggers me to do positive things. Being depressed is not an...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have suffered depression since the age of 16 and I was always ashamed to admit it. People generally didn't understand my emotions and to be honest i didn't understand it myself...
    Robuk1991 Robuk1991 22-25, M 6 Responses Mar 27

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    I have been dealing with depression for as long as I can remember. From before I even knew what to call it. I am thankful that my darker periods are less frequent and don’t...
    AnonymousEP77 AnonymousEP77 41-45, M Apr 5

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    *Read if you battle depression* I do too. It's not as bad as you may think it is, but when I have a bad day I just feel like breaking apart. But don't worry about me, I will be...
    violetangel violetangel 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 22

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