I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

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    There Are Gaps I Feel Vague About

    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Oct 10, 2011

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