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I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

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    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 10, 2011

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