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I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

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    There Are Gaps I Feel Vague About

    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 10, 2011

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    I hear how everyone just wants to relive their childhood because they miss. Well i wish i could say that, but when your childhood was ****, you cant really say that. When i was a...
    mmmaddy98 mmmaddy98 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I have come to realize I have depression. I remember growing up as a kid I would start crying being sad for no reason. Now I try my best to pull through
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    Reason - parents were cool but narcissists and left us alone to fend for ourselves at age 4,6 and 9. They go to Peru, Equador .. Whatever struck their fancy. All in all I lucked...
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    I have had, depression, bi polar, and anxiety since I was 10 yrs old when my dad died I am now 38 and just lost my grandma that raised me I try not to be for my wife and son which...
    bert102176 bert102176 36-40, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Sed te amo, nunquam me amas.... Something's are hard to say </3 if you actually try to figure it out then you must care. Even if it's a little bit.
    AlphaBloodMoon AlphaBloodMoon 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    She's to young </3 Not yet do the parents know that they will soon be the youngest grandparents on the block. Walking through the store, everyone stares but no one says a...
    AlphaBloodMoon AlphaBloodMoon 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I am tired. Tired of living, trying to get out of bed. I don't want to do anything but sleep until I die. And the older I get the more I realize that it will never end. I will...
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    It's hard. Sometimes it'll go away for months and I'll be the happiest person in the world, but then there are times like these where I get so depressed, I contemplate my reason...
    1Nanotherlife 1Nanotherlife 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I haven't figure out if this is bipolar or depression. It's so hard to figure out because I was raised in a depressed, negative, abusive environment, and I was bullied a lot -- so...
    ChellyRocker ChellyRocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    It was at least 9 years since I would consider I had any kind of childhood. Time is supposed to separate feelings from the present but time makes it worse for me. It feels like I'm...
    WonderingOfTheSoul WonderingOfTheSoul 18-21 1 day ago

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    I need to somewhat write a rant or write down my feelings, I decided to do it on here, idk why though since nobody even gives a ****. It'll probably be long.. anyways. I feel hurt...
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 7 Responses Jan 4

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    The uncle I suspect of raping me died this Monday... And memories started to haunt me again. All the things I keep inside... Most of them are about my grandmother. He used to live...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Recently I remembered an embarrassing event from childhood.. My parents were never married and separated shortly after I was born. Anyway as a result I did not see my dad all that...
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    every lasting fight with my mind, over my body. its like a battlefield over middle. only with advance modern weapons. the bombs dropping all around, the small arms fire suppressing...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    So, as I wrote before I am in relational group trauma therapy for women who have survived childhood abuse. It is an intense program that I attend four days a week for three hours a...
    Etheros Etheros 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Ever since I was a child i have been bullied, if it wasnt about the way i looked itd be about the way i talked or the way i dress or the people i hang about with etc. And i thought...
    klxo klxo 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I share this in hopes that it will help at least one person. No matter what you're going through just know that there are more people than expected who can relate. Hopefully this...
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    I have battled depression for years. I've never been diagnosed due to not trusting any of my therapists enough to actually tell them what's wrong more than my ADD symptoms. I hate...
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    I remember when life was easy and peoples were kind , days of my childhood keep visiting my head : my grandfather's horse the green leafs of all that trees in country side I miss...
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    The distractions I've tried so desperately to cling to do nothing for me anymore. I have always been painfully self aware of all the dark inside of me. The problem with that is...
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    When the memories hit you.... that **** hurts
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I didn't think scars would be left since it wasn't even deep, but who knew the tiniest thing would last a long time. More bad memories to stay with me. I just want it to be time to...
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    Take the memories, I don't need them. I needed to be loved until the end of time. What's the point of living and hurting. It's not worth it. Give me a love that's everlasting...
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    Today was horrible. I dont want a new year, im gonna be all alone and sleep inntil the stupid day is done. So sad that i have to be a part of 2015, not gonna make it to 2016, thats...
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    I'm so tired of life and living is so hard. I wish I was dead or at least numb enough to not feel like this anymore. Its not a temporary problem, my whole life feels like one big...
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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE, READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give...
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