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I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 6 People

    There Are Gaps I Feel Vague About

    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 10, 2011

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