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I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

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    There Are Gaps I Feel Vague About

    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 10, 2011

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    flproblems flproblems 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    the sad part is the people who are "blessed" wouldnt understand because they dont have to go through the same things you have to go through.
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    And. If i analyze it. I am more lucky than some.
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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    I spend most of my time sitting on the internet and not leaving my house, or attending parties people invite me to. Some days I can't even dress myself. I can't leave the house...
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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
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    I try not to dwell on it too much, but I feel very lonely at times, and I feel I don't have many true friends. I have an vaguely empty and lost feelings almost constantly. I feel...
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    I am 38 years old and have battled depression since childhood. I don't believe it is curable or treatable and I don't know why I have to live like this. I have Asperger's Syndrome...
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    For a while in my life the last few years, off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been...
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    The upsetting memory got triggered by this one song played from the playlist a moment ago. It's not a good sign because it just means that all this while I'm just trying every...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Die-ary entry time. Just before doctors appointment. Cause of my troubles sleeping. I had taken to sleep aids. With water. Can't feel much again. Likely still under the influence...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I never thought i would be telling this kind of story, but i just can't take it anymore... It might all have started when i was in middle school, i was bullied a lot and that...
    Nokuteshi Nokuteshi 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 7

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    MisMel MisMel 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    Rainatmidnight97 Rainatmidnight97 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I had tremendous dysfunction in my childhood. My father died before I was born at age 39, and my mother never recovered from his death, struggling with addictions and mental...
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    This is me at 2 years and a half - my parents separated at age 3 or so - and was sent to stay at my grand mum , it was the first time I had suffered depression , missing my parents...
    stephenrko stephenrko 31-35, M Aug 30

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    August 31. Denial. I've been recovering many years. I've used denial many times. It has been a defense, a survival device, a coping behavior, and, at times, almost my undoing. It...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    Well, I first got depression when i was about 13 or so, maybe before that, and i am now 18, and it went away once or twice, at least it thought it did, and recently i thought i was...
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    My childhood in 2 cartridges.
    adav218 adav218 13-15, M Aug 19

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    Going on about 44 hrs of no sleep... All I can think about are the memories and the fact that there is no real easy way out... I mean there is, but I don't know the trick of doing...
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    August 22. Responsibility for Family Members. "I can still remember my mother clutching her heart, threatening to have a heart attack and die, and blaming it on me...
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    jiumpuu jiumpuu 13-15, F Aug 27

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    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 8 Responses Aug 31

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    Haven't made a updated post today. Figured I should. Off and on tears, I get headaches more than cry now... My chest pains seemed to subside for the time being, but I still get...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    September 8. Stopping Our Pain. "Some of my feelings have been stored so long they have freezer burn." —Beyond Codependency There are many sources of pain in our life. Those...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Sep 8

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    340 pm... Nothing seems to change. As per normal my brain just starts firing up and the memories come back... Reminding me of things people have said, and done... The tears start...
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