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I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

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    There Are Gaps I Feel Vague About

    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 10, 2011

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    I have not been officially diagnosed but I have just about all the symptoms . I have been extremely miserable since I was a kid. I was mercilessly bullied and sexually harassed for...
    ajrestless ajrestless 22-25, F Feb 12

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    I am tired. Tired of living, trying to get out of bed. I don't want to do anything but sleep until I die. And the older I get the more I realize that it will never end. I will...
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    It's hard. Sometimes it'll go away for months and I'll be the happiest person in the world, but then there are times like these where I get so depressed, I contemplate my reason...
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    I wish I would have been diagnosed as a child. It was suggested to me but I didn't want to listen or believe it. I had such a struggle concentrating and caring about anything. I...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 8 Responses Feb 1

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    Depression is something I have always felt but never knew the name of. I was suicidal ar the age of 7 because I was being abused verbally, physically, and sexually by both of my...
    Mewl Mewl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
    annexthecelt annexthecelt 22-25, F Feb 9

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    "You're strong, and I admire you." Words I want so desperately to be said to me.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 12

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    I pretty much had no reason to be alive as a kid. That's something I'm starting to work on now. Is that depression ?? I don't know.
    consistentshift consistentshift 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 12

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    sigh........................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is really very hard for me to talk about that , but i would like to do , when i was a child i missed...
    umayyad umayyad 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 13

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    in the middle of killing myself on alcohol. bye *******.
    Moweb95 Moweb95 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    This is my story so please listen closely. I was born a baby boy and everyone was loving and caring. But soon after is where the happiness ends and the sorrow begins. During my...
    zepplinfan117 zepplinfan117 16-17, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    This is my story so please listen closely. I was born a baby boy and everyone was loving and caring. But soon after is where the happiness ends and the sorrow begins. During my...
    zepplinfan117 zepplinfan117 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'll be frank. I. Can't. Remember. My. Childhood. At. All. Sure there are bits and pieces of memories (such as losing my best friend and stealing) that's still somewhat fresh in...
    AoRagdoll AoRagdoll 13-15, F Feb 14

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    Because that's all I have. Memories.
    goodwitch011070 goodwitch011070 41-45, F 6 hrs ago

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    This was something I wrote during my Dark days. I took songs I was listening to and meshed the lyrics together and added parts of my own. Title: Good times last forever Good...
    LucemSpiritus LucemSpiritus 18-21, M Feb 2

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    Most of my childhood memories are locked away in a dark corner of my mind where no one will ever find them. But today I found them again. I was helping my mum transfer old family...
    JacobBlackburn JacobBlackburn 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    Summer vacation with my parents at the seaside and this is my first time to see the big Adriatic Sea. I am like 4 or 5 years old on the beach in my new bikini, my Mom had made that...
    EnchantedLilly EnchantedLilly 46-50, F Feb 15

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    It was at least 9 years since I would consider I had any kind of childhood. Time is supposed to separate feelings from the present but time makes it worse for me. It feels like I'm...
    WonderingOfTheSoul WonderingOfTheSoul 18-21 Jan 28

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    Omg, I thought that I was the only one who felt this way. I too grew up in Bklyn,NY and still have family there, but now as a parent it's not the same . I remember living...
    0intimacy 0intimacy 46-50, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    I hardly ever have complete memories. All I seem to remember are weird little fragments. I remember the neighbors house had these bushes they always trimmed up into spirals and the...
    Stitttch Stitttch 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    I have battled depression for years. I've never been diagnosed due to not trusting any of my therapists enough to actually tell them what's wrong more than my ADD symptoms. I hate...
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    Which is why I act the way I act today.. My father was a drug addict, he used to come home and just beat on me for no reason. While my mom just sat there and watched. She wouldn't...
    idfwuu idfwuu 13-15, M Feb 18

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    Such as when I could do anything without getting judged. They say I am narrow minded, believing that I am in my own little world while I am not. I know more than they know Indo yet...
    littleowlet littleowlet 13-15, F a week ago

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    Take the memories, I don't need them. I needed to be loved until the end of time. What's the point of living and hurting. It's not worth it. Give me a love that's everlasting...
    angiede angiede 26-30, F Jan 27

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    Since my childhood I have been suffering from OCD, depression and other problems but I have never consulted a psychologist nor have I shared it with my family or friends (don't...
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    I just want to be done feeling the way I do, but I can't seem to get my head out of this awful place. I'm not strong enough to do it alone, and I push away those that try to help...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    Yes , i smile and laugh , Yes i do . When i am with people i pretend to be happy. My emptiness is killing me from inside.This pain is in my nerves now. My daily routine is now...
    kathhyv kathhyv 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Oh man! I feel like ****.. Don't know what to do? I lie so much.. Even I don't what what the truth is.. Is this life not worth it.. or am I doing it wrong? If I am doing it wrong...
    im1whoknocks im1whoknocks 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    I gather all the metaphorical broken pieces of myself, the ones only I can see, and sit in the dark. I try to find people to talk to, people to help, desperately searching for some...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 14

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    I've been through and still battling depression, I was at the lowest 5 years ago and everything is still with me still to this day! I had voices shouting at me in my head I couldn...
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    Any moment I don't have that certain feeling of uneasiness or a deep dark sadness i kill myself again by making myself feel that uneasiness and sadness. It's such a deep dark...
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    I wanna feel better, I wanna let it all out every hurt, every pain. Everything I think even if it's wrong just get off my chest. Because it's like a heavy rock sitting on my chest...
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    Since I was a kid, I thought I had an iron stomach. I could eat things of questionable nature and always come out on top. Nothing ever grossed me out save for watching someone hurl...
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    I'm just ... Done ! Depression is taking over my life!! With my parents passing away along wih my brother and my sisters being taken away ... I'm alone and the darkness is jus...
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    those horrible thoughts wierd thoughts, how do you cope with them? like I look clothes I bought and think what's the point, I can't take them with me...when I die? and I do not...
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    it just gets worse and worse,i used to be able to hide it but i don't even have the energy to hide it anymore or pretend i'm anything else then depressed.. everytime i wake up i...
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    it just gets worse and worse,i used to be able to hide it but i don't even have the energy to hide it anymore or pretend i'm anything else then depressed.. everytime i wake up i...
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    Maybe too vivid. The details I'm able to retain of events regardless of time is uncanny, especially considering I often have trouble recalling what I had for lunch. These memories...
    PerpetualDreamers PerpetualDreamers 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    Well maybe not really exactly like that, but my memories or what I think is my memories definitely feel like they don't exist or... like they're just dreams. Sometimes my dreams...
    UnfinishedStar UnfinishedStar 18-21, F Feb 12

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    Last week I finished 8 weeks of intensive group trauma therapy to deal with the after effects of sexual abuse when I was a child. It was an amazing program! I wanted to quit...
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    I battle depression today, yesterday and tomorrow. I will battle it for the rest of my days. But it is a battle I refuse to lose. Right now I feel like I'm tip toeing along the...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8

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