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I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

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    There Are Gaps I Feel Vague About

    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 10, 2011

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    i have honestly been suffering from depression and anxiety since i was 4. horrible i know. i grew up at 7, i was forced. i never got to be kid. i was discussing budgets and bills...
    butterflykisses11 butterflykisses11 16-17, F 1 Response May 6

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    For me, it is waves. Big waves, little waves- no discrimination in size, cause or timing. It can feel so random. Or it can feel as if it was triggered. It can last hours, days...
    fromthegirlonthewall fromthegirlonthewall 18-21, F May 3

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    Some good memories like: Singing around the fire with whole family on summer night full of starts while my grandparents singing their favorite old songs about far away lands...
    Lucije Lucije 26-30, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I hate my life. I can't get over all the bad mistakes I've made and I feel like I'm worthless and going nowhere.
    Paratrooper94 Paratrooper94 18-21, M 2 Responses May 4

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    I take medicine to sleep, it's an Indian version of seroquel.
    kiddishguypete kiddishguypete 26-30, M May 19

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    A stuffed lamb (ᵔᴥᵔ) well, it's actually a goat but I call it Lammy. My grandfather used to tell me the the story of how I got it. When I was born my grandparents came to see...
    ChitterChat ChitterChat 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I think my favorite ones were centered around spending time with my grandparents. I loved them so much! I am fortunate that they lived as long as they did! They loved spending...
    kcyata kcyata 41-45, F 2 days ago

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    My parents were both alcoholics and drug addicts. My "father" was in jail when I was born. When they were home they really weren't because they were unconscious from heroin so I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 17

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    Post traumatic stress disorder caused by my family using me as the scapegoat for all their problems, throwing insults, mental, verbal, emotional, physical abuse...who knew. I was...
    singlemom1254 singlemom1254 36-40 May 7

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    What can I say? Just the usual suspect, the bullies, the picking on, the anguish you want to do something but you couldn't? I suppose I beat myself up every now and than. Sometimes...
    Cudd1efish Cudd1efish 26-30, M 1 Response May 4

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    I don't really know how to feel about it in starting to feel very numb and meaningless to people, I know it sounds very cliche but I feel like I just exist really... Now don't get...
    questionhearts2 questionhearts2 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    I'm so afraid of myself right now. I have so many things on my mind, and it's causing these horrible tantrums. I can't handle even the tiniest bit of irritation today - a noisy...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F May 3

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    It's basically these memories I have of my childhood which always bring me down gets me back were I started they're basically what screw me up physically and mentally and...
    freedom1608 freedom1608 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I remember being about 5 or 6 years old and running around the house half naked with my twin sister and playing together with our power rangers, barbies, and lion king toys. (This...
    TacitDrift TacitDrift 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    Continuing from the last post, I think what prompted this thinking was wondering whether conditions had changed since I was young. Some of it is surely the internet making...
    subotaicataloger subotaicataloger 41-45, M 1 Response May 3

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    When it comes to this topic, I always start from some things that came about in my childhood. I am a sixteen-year-old girl, I have never been bullied or laughed at, but I have self...
    yifang yifang 16-17, F May 3

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    Once upon a time I dropped my basket. I guess it's been about ten years now since the worst of them happened. I lost a month of my life laying in the fetal position without...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 10 Responses May 18

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    Depression is my life. I don't cut. I never tried to kill myself before ( only once when I was young and stupid, so it doesn't count). I don't dress up in black and hate the world...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I've always had a bad body image, I suppose it's what comes with watching your overweight mother get called a cow frequently throughout your childhood. It's time to for me to grow...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I will sum it up mostly since it's very long, but here it is: I was introduced to her when I visited my dad's family, she was the girl that lived up the road. I can't remember...
    Saravegan2 Saravegan2 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    Is it normal to get depressed from memories? I think that's where most of my depression comes from.
    Wishyouwerehere914 Wishyouwerehere914 16-17, M 5 Responses May 17

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    I was 19 when I had my first baby... but my depression started about five months into my pregnancy. I was so young and boyfriend was my age so definitely young as well. when I...
    crazy4love crazy4love 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    I am in such a horrible place right now..I was almost in a head on collision..I missed it by seriously 2 inches..I was so lucky...but I wished I wasn't.
    wthdoido wthdoido 22-25, F May 1

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    You have no idea what depression is or how it feels unless you've actually got it or been through it It's not attention seeking its a cry for help someone to talk to someone who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 3

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    There is no emotion linked to this feeling. There is no sadness. There is no bad feeling. It is just way to ******* hard. I am on a different wavelength to everyone else, one on...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F May 4

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    I am so sick of the way every one deals with you 'coming out' with depression. It has been the most horrible and disenchanting experience. I feel even more isolated than I did...
    alicemadeleine alicemadeleine 22-25, F 3 Responses May 9

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    IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE, READ THIS. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 13 Responses May 11

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    Hello and good morning who's up and ready to start this horrible day ? ✋🏽
    keats141 keats141 18-21, F 3 Responses May 14

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    I've had depression for years, since I was 7. Bullies and family are the cause of it. It's such a horrible thing to experience and I'm here for anyone who is battling depression...
    anonymousgirl1906 anonymousgirl1906 13-15, F 1 Response May 17

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    So I finally got a new job!! After two years and settling for only a part time position for the past 8 months, I finally got a full time position! My anxiety has been horrible for...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 6 Responses May 19

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    Haven't spoken to my parents since Feb... It does kill me everyday and I hate that I'm not talking to them because I'm usually clung on... But I got so tired of them hurting me and...
    imtired123456789 imtired123456789 22-25, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate it. I can be really happy but one bad thought pulls me into a deep depression. It's horrible.
    appleisaiah appleisaiah 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    I feel so stupid right now. I just got off the phone with my ex best friend, and he FINALLY told me part of why he did what he did to me. Apparently, I was so caught up in my...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Why is it that when people think of depression they think that it's when people don't have the ability to handle their own pain.....I can handle my pain just fine..... It's the...
    Nothingicandoaboutit Nothingicandoaboutit 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm so sick of this. I'm tired of things that I used to love to do. I'm starting to get sick of a lot of people and I'm pushing everyone away. it's so hard to find decent people...
    YINYANGINSANE YINYANGINSANE 13-15, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Starting child years instruction and mulling over is a particular self-control that is concerned with caring for and showing young people, considering their own needs and likings...
    proeducation02 proeducation02 22-25, F May 11

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    have childhood heroes LoverOfPeace had a great post as always. EP Link This specific one shared music. The guy singing had a very deep voice. Her point: - Fun Fact: Studies...
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    Growing up in a town of about 8,000 people I was one of the few students who stood out. I grew up on an Indian Reservation and was bullied just for being different. I am mixed...
    tcteacher tcteacher 26-30, F 1 Response May 3

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    there are some memories that haunt me , memories i don't like at all, they make it hard for me to stay focused and calm.
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 1 Response May 8

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    Memories are great to have (only when they're good ones). Things change so much that only a memory is all that's left. And it would've been great to relive those good memories but...
    rocketguy19 rocketguy19 16-17, M 5 hrs ago

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