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I Battle Memories Of Horrible Childhood

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    There Are Gaps I Feel Vague About

    gaps that don't make sense, feelings of negativity and fear and overwhelm being forced to be at my relatives place and them not letting me talk to my mum when I was only 4 or 5 and being so scaredbeing bullied around the farm by older neighbors and would pick on me... the boys...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Oct 10, 2011

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    I fell in love with him, when I was 6 and it lasted to age of 12, then other childhood friend came into play, who I found more mature and fell in love with him, it lasted 2 years...
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    Yes, they are horrible, but they make me who I am. All the hurt and pain, all these things that happened, continue to shape who I am, if I like it or not. I have gotten better...
    Christy243 Christy243 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Part of the reason I have been able to overcome this recent battle with depression is being on here, seeing that I am not alone, resisting the urge to isolate, seeing so many...
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    Isn't it interesting how, eventually, a person can fight this battle so long that they can predict every move the enemy will make? More interesting is that even knowing this, I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 46-50, F 5 Responses Feb 5

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    I didnt have a real childhood because I had the internet.That was my life. I knew about grown up things when I was very young.
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    I battled depression. My best friend, however, battles depression. I'll start at the beginning of the story, when I was 12/13. I met this boy who would turn out to be my best...
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    I wonder what is considered a horrible person. Someone who lies to others? A bully? Surely everyone is a horrible person one way or another. ~o.o~
    GrinchFairy GrinchFairy 16-17 1 Response Feb 3

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    I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change; when everybody else does.
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    Some amazing memories of the years gone by. Dancing the night away in the rain with the love of my life and waking up to the most amazing morning. Would not trade it for anything...
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    going to family day trips to the beach .when my son was born. and when I met my friend Emma when I was 13 had some good laughs. and meeting you for very first time Friday 30th of...
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    and I don´t need to struggle to forget them because I´ve seen that those memories are branded in my brain forever: The day when a man tried to kidnap my son, those days, when I...
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    It was confusing, dark and all I can remember is the torment I went through... I can barely remember the name of my first crush who I "married" all I remember is I proposed with a...
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    I admit that I battle suicidal thoughts a lot. It has come to the point were I'm scared I'll break and finally do it. I am scared to finally say I've had enough. I don't feel like...
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    I was Tatiana Nikolaievna, second daughter of Nicholas II. I have extensive memories over several years. I look very much like here as well.
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