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I Battle Mood Swings and Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 422 People

    Sometimes I wonder what the people

    who act like they care about me would do if they knew how many times they've almost lost me within the past few months. Sometimes I wonder if they would even care
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    I Feel Like The Bad Guy

    I try to be happy and put a smile on for everyone but it doesn't help. I'm only fooling those who don't know me. I'm always sad and feel like crying. I think about dying and suicide everyday and i feel like no one listens or understands me. I also feel as if they don't want to be...
    darkemotions91 darkemotions91 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24, 2012

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    Sometimes

    I sometimes have quite bad mood swings and end up snapping at people when I don't mean to. Earlier on in my life I was really depressed, but these days it isn't so bad. :)
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 17, 2009

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    I am not too sure if I've recovered from

    depression and gotten normal Or have lost all my feelings.
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9

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    Everything is just meaningless.

    .. Im a pretty successful teenager but there is just no reason for anything, other than sex drugs and food...and those just got boring already. Yesterday was YAY, today was Meh and tommorow could be hell. I hope not.
    TroubledIndividual TroubledIndividual 16-17, M Oct 15

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    Mysterious Ways: A Short Story

    She can hear him screaming blue murder in the back bedroom but she turns up The Pet Shop Boys and makes herself a cup of instant. Is God watching? It is Wednesday. The dustbin men will be coming. She has put out her rubbish; carefully bundled up in black bin liners at the bottom...
    Sighman Sighman 51-55, M May 10, 2012

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    Depressed For Years

    Not a day goes by without me feeling depressed at least once. Despite my taking 3 medications for it, I have horrable days. (Effexor, Buspar, Adderall are my medications) Phycotherapy, shmycotherapy... Give me money and watch my worries dissipate!
    AnnaLovesCoffee AnnaLovesCoffee 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2009

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    And because of this I've lost more then half of

    my friends. I've pushed everyone away. Even my family. I'm officially alone and it just makes matters worse.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 1 Response May 9

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    I have been doing so well these past few months.

    I've felt genuinely happy quite frequently... but twice this week I have had bad moments of intense anger. I keep it inside, but I have to hide myself in my room so I can cry. Every time I get angry like this, I have very self-destructive thoughts that I feel I can't control. I...
    SacredEarth SacredEarth 18-21, F Sep 14

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    Bipolar Much?!?!?

     A while ago I was diagnosed as being bipolar II.  The main difference between I and II is that BPI-ers tend to be at either extreme for weeks/months at a time, while BPII-ers like me can swing day to day, or even hour to hour. It's a pain in the azz. I can go from...
    Geode Geode 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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    Down And Up

    I get these sudden feelingsI don't know where they come fromI always try to keep themBut they always seem to runI always try and followI can never keep upI'll just sit here in my sorrowWaiting for them againUp and downDown and upThat's how I always feelJust don't ask if something...
    Bvbaddict Bvbaddict 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    I hate when you feel decent,

    happy almost, and then it disappears, and you feel insignificant and depressed again. It comes out of nowhere pretty much, and it completely takes you over.
    maiomeN maiomeN 16-17, F Aug 21

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    I'm me. Who really cares?

    Probably not many.
    t00mmyb00y t00mmyb00y 26-30, M Oct 24

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    I Don't Even Know.

    I have dysthimia or what ever it spells like. I am just always depressed a little, I don't often get to have up days but a good "normal" day is not supposed to be all that bad. I don't have information about it I just have meds and am having a bad time finding help. I also...
    XenDragon XenDragon 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 18, 2010

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    I've been beat down my whole life.

    I try to kill myself twice. I was life and self hating. Then I meet my best friend and she told me that I should go talk to my doctor. I got but on my meds and I never been happier I can finally deal with the sadness and stand up for myself I hope one day I won't need my meds...
    jbug232 jbug232 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9

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    I tend to get mad easily.

    As well as cry easily sometimes. I also have days where I feel like life isn't worth living anymore. I don't want pity. This is just the truth and one of the many flaws of myself.
    Philli8807 Philli8807 26-30, F Jun 18

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    Its Called Being Bipolar....

    its called being bipolar, i deal with mood swings all the damn time. they are one of the worst, and my depression is so bad sometimes.
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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    My Story..........

    Life is hard for evertone but for some people it's a whole lot harder. I suffer from serverve depression and have one on and off for the past years now. The thought of dying scares me but the thought of living scares me more. The worst part of this awful illness is people do not...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2010

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    My mood changes a lot,

    at school I'm a positive person but when I get home I'm just all depressed, cause the person at school is a whole different me! Need some one to talk to about this, and whowill listen to me
    Nik20954 Nik20954 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    i cry sometimes not noing

    why i snap at peole around me and then i cry i dont no why
    tgrakes tgrakes 26-30, F Aug 13

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    I hate the fact that one minute I am

    so happy like I have no care in the world and life is so beautiful and perfect next minute reality kicks in and I find out what is wrong with me and why is all this happening and I cry so bitterly I feel like life just doesn't seem to stop kicking you in the face I hate seeing...
    Mitsy95 Mitsy95 18-21, F Jun 18

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    When It's Bad, It's Really Bad

    i just have really awful mood swings! haha! especially before.
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 2 Responses May 1, 2009

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    Even when I don't feel depressed,

    that black cloud is always looming nearby. There are times when I'm completely numb...I realize that I should be feeling something, anything, but I don't. At least if I feel sad or miserable, I feel something. It would be amazing to feel happiness more often, but I just don't...
    MommySarah79 MommySarah79 31-35, F May 25

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    Sometimes It Switches From Hour By Hour

    Well, i don't even know where to begin. I've been diagnosed with depression since I was 16. I've actually been diagnosed with other things too, but nobody could really make up their mind of what I have, other than depression. Lately, I've been noticing that I go up and down a lot...
    doglover1984 doglover1984 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 18, 2011

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    A Thermos Full Of Acid.

    I feel like there is one of these buried inside me. I know how I am supposed to be, and so I put a shell around this thermos and painted it to look human. Human with a sense of humor even. But this thermos is always there. Part of me is always, no matter how I actually feel, in...
    mrdevonian mrdevonian 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    This Never Seems To Go Away.

    I've had problems with depression and anxiety for years. No medicine seems to work, I'm unhappy and don't know what to do. I have a job, a family..I should be ok, but I'm not. Can't figure it out.
    davedaddykh1 davedaddykh1 46-50, M 5 Responses Jan 30, 2012

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    Offset Compassion For Depression & Others

    I've always had a problem being to blunt with no regard. I hate liars with a passion and can't ever see a good reason to do it. eventually all truths come out. One saying that has always baffled me... God never gives you more than you can handle. Who in their right mind would...
    unsound unsound 31-35 Aug 3, 2013

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    I Don't Understand.

    It's just after 7pm here and I've been having an OK day.  Until about 10 minutes ago.  I don't understand why my mood swings the way it does.  Things were going OK today then for no reason I can understand I suddenly found myself feeling extremely depressed, lonely...
    Dropbear Dropbear 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 17, 2009

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    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M a week ago

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    Ace2117 Ace2117 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't care about myself but I care about you. I didn't mean anything I said, I said those things because I was angry. I didn't know what to do. You make me feel brand new. I'm a...
    AwakenedBlueAngel AwakenedBlueAngel 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Black-and-white. That's all she can say. Everything she looks that, everyone she comes into contact with, everywhere she goes, just black-and-white. Yes or no; is or isn't, good or...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I have never imagined in my whole life that I will experience workplace bullying. I started working in this small manufacturing company consisting of 4 office staffs including me...
    thatxx thatxx 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 10

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    It feels like my whole life is tumbling down. At times I'm so happy and socialable, but at times I withdraw and be isolated from my friends. At times I enjoy being with my friends...
    crimsonelise crimsonelise 18-21, F Nov 3

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    Can't concentrate, feel dumb. Mood swings. Helpless
    nonichecliche nonichecliche 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 12

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I’m not crazy. I’m not dumb. I don’t want to die, but I often feel like I want to take my own life. I am not dangerous to anyone but myself. I don’t need to be taught a...
    FadingStar17 FadingStar17 16-17, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    It's like I'm meant to be depressed.. I enjoy sports and working out = knee injuries I can't do sports so I turn to gaming = weight gain and carpal tunnel I want to succeed...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 5 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I have struggled with major depression, as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 23 Responses a week ago

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    Raking leaves therapy to depression. I recently posted some ideas of how I deal with depression. Here is one in greater detail. Yesterday morning I decided to take leaves in part...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    It snowed all day here today. A serious storm to start off the winter. The blanket is thick, sticky & cold. This stuff is the beginning of days spent indoors & early nights...
    PiscesDream PiscesDream 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I no longer battle depression. It used to be that I was depressed, and I thought I was not good enough, and I battled myself. That was not very good because as long as I was my...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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    I have been running on depression for long years already since I start on the college around 10 yrs already and every day get worst the body aches are horrible I can't handle this...
    forsa85 forsa85 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 2

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    Everyday in my mind is an endless battle. think of it as the 300 spartans, they never gave up but in the end they didnt win the battle. I'm slowly losing my battle with depression...
    Palavo88 Palavo88 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It occurs to me that for many people battling depression is a losing battle, and that perhaps some do not realize that this is a battle that we do not have to loose. I live with...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 25

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    Therapy update: Went back again today, after walking a freezing cold, long, exposed and extremely windy bridge with trucks screaming past me no less.. While the doctor was writing...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 4 Responses