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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 16-17, F 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29, 2014

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    Why is night time, my mind goes crazy

    and begins to make my anxiety go mental.. Making it harder for me to fight the depression I'm in. I haven't dreamt in months.. Just nightmares waking me up in cold sweats sometimes crying, or even in a panic attack. There's a lot of darkness around my heart and soul at the...
    seanv14 seanv14 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 8, 2014

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2014

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 18-21, M Jan 6, 2014

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    keri79 keri79 36-40, F May 27, 2014

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    DAY ONE HUNDRED AND TWO1-online friends comforted me2-stayed in bed mist of the day3-I need Jesus muchly right now
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    1. I spent time with My guy today. I helped him move furniture into his new home. Had a quicky before the carpet guys got there. 2. Stopped by the craft store to get my daughter...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    DAY NINETY NINE1-had a surprise visit from my postman2-went for an hour walk3-I am happy tonight4-had breakfast with George5-went to the golf club for tea with my husband6-I love...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    DAY NINETY EIGHT1-went walking2-forgot my bag at shopping centre and two teenagers brought it to my house3-chatted with friends4- I will get closer to Jesus..
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    DAY NINETY SEVEN1-walked with postman2- got support from my friend3- my 17 y o son made a giant step in the right direction4- had roast lamb for tea5- Jesus is the best
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    Day1) One : Stood up for myself. Feels empowering not to accept to be insulted and ridiculed 2) Missing my special person but reconnected with my passion for...
    Strawberrygiggles Strawberrygiggles 41-45, F Jul 26

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    DAY NINETY SIX1-went to the pub for lunching family..2- had good chats with friends..3- did washing4- Jesus is always here..
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    Day 4 1. It was a good day at work today. No crazy drama stuff among wait staff and all customers were happy. 2. Got complements about my son at work today. My friends, the owners...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    1. Had nice dessert with mommy today. 2. Had a day off finally! No OT on sat this week! 3. Maybe I can sleep early tonight ? I will go to work early tomorrow ( it's a Sunday...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F Jul 25

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    DAY NINETY FIVE1- chatted with one of my best friends2- met the postman for a hot chocolate in town3- went for a drive up the bush to change my mind and distract myself..4- I so...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Lately I keep having this bizarre thought. I wonder if i died if anyone would care or even notice. Maybe it's the move, maybe the new program I am in. I am not sure. I just started...
    misophonia misophonia 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    DAY NINETY FOUR1- had lunch at the pub with a stranger, an old farmer..2- Peter and Tim, and Archibald, lifted my mood today..3- made crêpes for tea..4- my son got an award...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    Everyday. I over think a lot too. I feel so unhappy. I want to talk about what I'm thinking but too afraid to or just dont want to seem annoying.
    legzydawly legzydawly 18-21 4 Responses Jul 23

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    Day 3 1. It's day one of my two days off and I got my house cleaned and smelling good. 2. Then I was able to get some relaxing in, because my son made dinner and my youngest...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    Everyday at work, I battle my emotions to try not to lose it, but when I see her its like all my worries go away. We're just friends but I have a good feeling we like each other. I...
    jac0794 jac0794 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    Everyday from the moment I rise, I'm vin a constant battle with my thoughts. I question everything I think, even my actions, decisions and speech. It's like having two different...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 23

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    Oops, missed six days. I don't get on here much anymore. Let's just pretend this is day 2. 1. My son moved all his stuff into my place today. So glad he's chosen to live with me...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 22

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    no one understands me, not even myself sometimes
    Mavalyn Mavalyn 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    i get online every day . if i don't im dead or i got a life lol
    beaches21 beaches21 13-15, M Jul 21

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    1. Managed to skip lunch today - I m still on track with my two-meal diet 2. Went to a management meeting and met other bankers from the other investment banks and saw several of...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    This is why I dislike people who think they have it all right. Everyone has their strengths in different realms, mentally and physically. Intelligence is not just the ability to...
    winglessdove winglessdove 13-15, F Jul 20

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    DAY NINETY THREE1- walked in town for nearly an hour2- got free bread from charity shop3- walked up the bush4- no fighting or argument tonight between kids5- I love Jesus..
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 5 Responses Jul 20

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    Good day of learning, excepting and reviving. Learned that even though God has called us there is no limitations on his call. Even if we are dead in our sins he can still use us...
    space4rent space4rent 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    Ok with almost out of gas Almost all day. Ok with out of sugar Almost all day. 59 cent cone at mcdonalds. 64 cents with tax. My last purchase of the month was yummy.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    Day 3: I was able to sleep in today after having a restless night, I went through the day without having any suicidal thoughts, and my husband took the kids out for a couple of...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    DAY NINETY TWO1- my mum phoned..talked for 52min..both of us, not just me..2- had a long nap3- cuddled with daughter telling her I loved her and she said the same about me4- did...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 46-50, F 5 Responses Jul 19

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    Day 2: I got more dishes cleaned, got more information that we maybe moving (yes, a positive on this), and I managed to get the kids to work on cleaning their room....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    My life has been altered, or, as one woman I met told me, "transformed." I liked that word because something positive can be associated with it. It reminded me that even in the...
    christina1219 christina1219 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 18

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