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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    When targeted. Revenge floods me.

    Was education when not targeted. But. If discriminated or bullied it changes. How sad is that. Before bed and after. What to say or do. Anger. Rage. Sadness. In america.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Aug 9

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 16-17, F 5 Responses May 29

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    Why is night time, my mind goes crazy

    and begins to make my anxiety go mental.. Making it harder for me to fight the depression I'm in. I haven't dreamt in months.. Just nightmares waking me up in cold sweats sometimes crying, or even in a panic attack. There's a lot of darkness around my heart and soul at the...
    seanv14 seanv14 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 8

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29

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    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    keri79 keri79 31-35, F May 27

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 16-17, M Jan 6

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    My parents made the decision to cut me out of their life a little over a year and a half ago. Her final words to me were "I used to have a daughter, but no more. Delete our...
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    I thank God for each and every day. Today I am 39 weeks pregnant with my third child. What a blessing! I thank Him for allowing me to be a mother and giving me strength to do it...
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    I love my husband but I'm so tired of being constantly yelled at and belittled. If it's not me it's my kids he's yelling at. (Mostly my kids and occasionally his blood) We've...
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    This is something I have tried but not tried hard enough. When I was in my earlier job, there used to be a girl sitting next to me who always drank water and always had a bottle...
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    I am smart, handsome, caring, respectful and thankful for myself, my parents, brother family and friends!
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    Day three: I'm happy I have a tredmill I'm glad I have my best friend who I talk to about everything I love Thursdays. Best rest day ever.
    Southernpanda Southernpanda 18-21, F Aug 28

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    What a wonderful group, reading everyones positive thoughts gives me a lot of good energy every morning. It's fantastic that I can share my happy feelings with others here...
    Berry84 Berry84 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 3

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    I am Strong... I am Unique... I am Blessed... Have an amazing day everyone! :) -6-
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    Oh there is nothing like a bit of gratitude to get yourself out of a pity party sometimes. So I just have to do this! Day 1/7 . I survived Stage 3, Grade 3 Breast Cancer . I...
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    Day 5 - there are "wishes" floating through the air in my yard, cicadas and crickets are chirping, it's 72 degrees, breezy and sunny, and there's a bonfire next door that smells...
    Solfeggio Solfeggio 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Day 2. 1. Today I bought a new watch 2. Had a nice day shopping with the family. 3. Slept until 1 o clock
    xFredje xFredje 13-15, M Aug 20

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    Day One .. Finding this group and the magic combination of buttons to reconnect to WiFi when my laptop had a funny turn ~ A free day for some pamper 'me' time before meeting a...
    WanderingxYingxYang WanderingxYingxYang 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    WanderingxYingxYang WanderingxYingxYang 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    1. My grandmother is still alive and God has blessed me with someone so beautiful, I can't even find the words to describe how much and what she means to me 2. I have something to...
    infinitexhope infinitexhope 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    Day Three .. Back to the work day focus of a job I love ~ My daughter ~ A team effort in the kitchen.
    WanderingxYingxYang WanderingxYingxYang 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Day two: glad I have money for college, I found out my bosses think I'm one of the best employees, and I'm happy that I have a bed to fall asleep in after my ****** days are over...
    Southernpanda Southernpanda 18-21, F Aug 27

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    I'm happy I have the opportunity to go to school and pursue an education some people do not get that. I am also happy for the loving support of my dear mother and family for...
    jakeyd125 jakeyd125 22-25, M Aug 28

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    I founded this group several weeks ago....and now i notice 73 people have joined .. And been posting your positives.... well done.... to each and every one of you... keep positive...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 29

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    Day Six .. Friendships Photos and Art ~ A walk on a mellow day into town for some light hearted shopping with goodies in the bag ~ Coffee and Amaretto decadence with some XFactor...
    WanderingxYingxYang WanderingxYingxYang 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    Day 2: woke up to a house full of family. Had the day off. Had a great lunch with some amazing friends :)
    amcgarity amcgarity 22-25 Sep 1

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    My week of positives looked something like this .. Coffee. Internet ~ Connections. Family ~ Friendships ~ Colleagues. Home ~ Work ~ Team Work. Focused Planning Achieved...
    WanderingxYingxYang WanderingxYingxYang 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    Day 3: got a bunch of stuff done for the wedding, had hearts to hearts with my parents that left me feeling loved, it was a beautiful sunny day with no rain.
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