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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 16-17, M Jan 6

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    When targeted. Revenge floods me.

    Was education when not targeted. But. If discriminated or bullied it changes. How sad is that. Before bed and after. What to say or do. Anger. Rage. Sadness. In america.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Aug 9

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 16-17, F 5 Responses May 29

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    keri79 keri79 31-35, F May 27

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    Why is night time, my mind goes crazy

    and begins to make my anxiety go mental.. Making it harder for me to fight the depression I'm in. I haven't dreamt in months.. Just nightmares waking me up in cold sweats sometimes crying, or even in a panic attack. There's a lot of darkness around my heart and soul at the...
    seanv14 seanv14 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 8

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    am 40 had good parents, stable family good early education, no socialization though (small parochial school) history of alcoholism in the family dad came from broken home he swore...
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    ForbiddenSubmissive1 ForbiddenSubmissive1 26-30, F Dec 3

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    After being here for quite some time ,I feel that E.P.is not the place for good people.People are leaving because of stalkers.Rude responses and vulgar messages are received by...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 10 Responses Dec 4

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    "If there is one thing that I've learned this month - it is that I do not know anything. And you probably don't know anything either." 11.30
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    I just realized i have no friends left. Most likely a good thing.
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    I plan on sharing this with my psychologist... Not sure what that would even do, but I just want someone to know how i TRULY feel every single day... I'm not "real" anymore. I am...
    mrtonystarks mrtonystarks 18-21, M 4 Responses Nov 27

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    It's heart breaking to know there is 65,000 people on this app & more people who battle depression every single day, as well as myself. I just want to say that I love and am proud...
    aquasea aquasea 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    The night encircles me in its gentle unassuming arms and guides me to the place where I feel most at peace. Darkness closes in, comforting and safe. My eyes close and instantly...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I battle depression everyday. I've got to the point in life where I feel lost inside myself. Nobody body seems to understand and k don't want to tell them because I know they would...
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