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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    keri79 keri79 31-35, F May 27

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 16-17, M Jan 6

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    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    Why is night time, my mind goes crazy

    and begins to make my anxiety go mental.. Making it harder for me to fight the depression I'm in. I haven't dreamt in months.. Just nightmares waking me up in cold sweats sometimes crying, or even in a panic attack. There's a lot of darkness around my heart and soul at the...
    seanv14 seanv14 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 8

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    When targeted. Revenge floods me.

    Was education when not targeted. But. If discriminated or bullied it changes. How sad is that. Before bed and after. What to say or do. Anger. Rage. Sadness. In america.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Aug 9

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 16-17, F 5 Responses May 29

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    Heston94 Heston94 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 6

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    I miss you dearly everyday, but its once a month that makes its way, Into my mind, soul, heart..my entire being. For this day, you do not allow me to concentrate on anything other...
    lavioletta lavioletta 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 1

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    Life in general is a battle and at some point you need to decide for yourself whether you can continue fighting decide for whatever reason you have to live if that reason leaves...
    1prettyfly1 1prettyfly1 22-25, M Oct 5

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    It's always at the back of my mind, the reason is that I'm not strong enough to get by all the obstacles. I'm not going to kill myself, but I know I get those thoughts and I know...
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    I managed not to cut for one year now, I felt better and better the last months. But the feeling of wanting to hurt myself gets stronger and stronger. Things are getting worse... I...
    Muizi Muizi 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Everyday I try to be happy, and I try to be like my very popular friends who I used to be so close to. I can't seem to relate to the usual teen girl things they are into, and so I...
    sodistant sodistant 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    1 ) I always stick up for myself, my friends, my family and for what I believe despite the consequences. 2 ) Thoughtful, I rarely ever say anything 'bad' about others as I don't...
    Michelleeli01 Michelleeli01 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    I'm supposed to go visit my parents today and stay there for a few days. But I'm feeling really nervous. I'm curled up in a ball inside a crawl space at home and don't want to move...
    SimiRayea SimiRayea 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Now my thoughts are so cloudy and my heart is so filled with hate. 😣 I am so frustrated, like my soul's been taken away. 😲 I don't know what to do anymore.. These people...
    SunshineH316 SunshineH316 22-25, F Oct 12

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    .1.I am proud to be an Indian and like reading about our culture.Our history is several millenia old.2.As Durga Puja is near,I think that good will always triumph over evil .3.I...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 27

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    1.When I read about human sufferings inflicted by man on other men ,I feel I am much better off.2.Money is something but not everything.3.Your family will be a close -knit unit if...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 27

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    Just this. Have an amazing day xo
    SagSunshine2014 SagSunshine2014 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    In the past 6 months, I've had 1 dry day, and that dryness ended with me peeing in a storm drain.
    LittleStain LittleStain 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 25

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    Today is a new day. There are opportunities and blessings waiting for you. Open up your heart to receive them!!
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    Yup, I'm now that person who always carries a two liter water bottle with them everywhere ^,^
    Selphira Selphira 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Growing up I always wore white briefs since my dad wore em also it wasn't a big thing to see us guys just hanging around the house in white socks and our white briefs. I remember...
    Briefedup Briefedup 16-17, M 5 Responses Oct 15

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    1. My anxiety meds are working. 2. I know what a beautiful daughter I have. 3. I am starting to get things together :-)
    girlfrommars2 girlfrommars2 31-35, F Sep 24

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    1.I am in control of my life and no one else.2.I am unique.3.I am caring and I deserve to be happy.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 24

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    1.Sometimes you have to assert yourself for your sake and your family.2.Stay away from people who try to bring you down.Sounds negative but it is required.3.Stand by your loved...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    I will not eat beaver. Don't go there, my friend is a hunter and he was roasting beavers, I mean what? I would never not on plane or on a train
    zg4love zg4love 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    Late last night I finally got a feral I feed to eat from my hand! :D I'd like to get him to the vet to get fixed, I'm one step closer to picking him up and hugging the stuffing out...
    BigMtnMnds BigMtnMnds 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 26

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    Another lost to suicide....... I'm in need of help :(
    mssmithy mssmithy 18-21, F Sep 29

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    I'll be another loss to suicide, help needed :(
    mssmithy mssmithy 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    Right ! That's it! I refuse to have any more experiences! !!!
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Sep 29

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    Is it normal to have these thoughts but at the same time look forward to my future? I just don't know if I can make it there
    heatherm10 heatherm10 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    I learned as hard as I try to change my situation, nothing will change until I do.
    zg4love zg4love 26-30, M Sep 30

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    Snoop Dogg rocks. He is one of the only rappers I enjoy listening to on occasion.
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 Oct 2

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    I am wearing them right now
    Guywhopees Guywhopees 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 4

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    I thank god I'm an athiest
    6foot4with4point6 6foot4with4point6 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 7

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    Quiet the mind and your soul will speak.
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 8

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    Is there anyone out there who doesn't? :-)
    Mathis1 Mathis1 36-40, M Oct 11

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    Can't forget about meditation !!!
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    smile today, Cry Tomorrow
    jallool jallool 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    There's been nothing new happening in a long time and on the other hand I haven't had that much time to be signed in lately. However I promised someone that I won't leave yet and...
    OrdinaryWhiteGuy OrdinaryWhiteGuy 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    I want to die so ******* badly that I'm numbed to the world. I feel like I don't really exist, like this is a nightmare or a coma. I have nightmares every night, and then wake up...
    Keylimee Keylimee 16-17, F 5 Responses Oct 3

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    Learning to breathe and let go are two of the hardest things I’ve forced myself to do every day it seems harder than the next to just take a moment and let go of my stress and...
    blackskys blackskys 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 30

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