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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2014

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 16-17, F 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    keri79 keri79 31-35, F May 27, 2014

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 18-21, M Jan 6, 2014

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    Why is night time, my mind goes crazy

    and begins to make my anxiety go mental.. Making it harder for me to fight the depression I'm in. I haven't dreamt in months.. Just nightmares waking me up in cold sweats sometimes crying, or even in a panic attack. There's a lot of darkness around my heart and soul at the...
    seanv14 seanv14 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 8, 2014

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29, 2014

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    scared to sleep at night.. i close my eyes to go to sleep.. and right when i shut them, i pass out for a some seconds. I feel fearful and so i try to open my eyes but they feel...
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    I woke up from a nightmare... It left my heart aching. In my dream he told me that he prefers me when I'm angry and hurt because at least it is honest. This realization made me cry...
    PseudoNymph PseudoNymph 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    So my first post on this got deleted which just made my day even worse. What I was writing about that made me upset and angry got made worse by ep deleting it! So apparently I can...
    NewDay NewDay 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    My partner and I have sex every night sometimes more than once a day. When he wants it. If I refuse I get a spanking from him until I agree to have Alex which hurts a lot more...
    kayleighbean95 kayleighbean95 18-21, F Feb 3

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    li17 li17 26-30, F Feb 17

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    Day 1 Didn't do too much today
    Paperboyc Paperboyc 18-21, M Feb 4

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    I certainly did from the age of about 11 into my 20s. Its not so often now. As a 79 years old widower I do not have as much sexual libido as I used to, but it is still very nice...
    Wulfstan Wulfstan 70+, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    "Life is too short to own a German car.” Tom Magliozzi
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M Feb 4

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    11/4/2014 RIP Tom Magliozzi, one half of the Car Talk brothers, passed away Monday from complications of Alzheimer's. Along with a knowledge of cars so encyclopedic that they...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M Feb 4

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    OMFG I have no wifi at home since saturday and I'm dying
    Letsfcktgethr Letsfcktgethr 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    I am really dying inside..nowadays i sleep late but when it clocks 0000hrs am awake and feeling thirsty ..i will keep awake till 0400hrs then back to sleep am nolonger me
    Benshee Benshee 22-25, F Feb 6

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    I am a girl in the US that is bisexual. I'm leaning toward girls, and I am really curious as to being with one. I am hoping to find someone, but I would need to get to know her...
    elegantpoison elegantpoison 13-15, F Feb 9

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    After a couple of decades, I am used to it.
    KnightMoves KnightMoves 46-50, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've accomplished so much in life yet I always feel worthless.
    theenigma199606 theenigma199606 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    I really believe ! Today I know that in the whole world I have no one . I realize that what a fool am I . Broken heart .whom I will share my everything ! There has no one ! No one...
    TiMe24toGo TiMe24toGo 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    Today is a good day. I don't write this to brag, boast, or to make anyone suffering feel worse. I write this because I want you to know that there WILL be a day for you that is a...
    pollyprozac pollyprozac 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    It has occurred to me that I need to address my feelings. I don’t know how accurate I may be, but I think that the way I am feeling is a result of neglecting my thoughts and...
    anisse113 anisse113 18-21, F a week ago

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    The worst depression of my life calumniated in late January, 2014 - I used to think it was lat February but I have been keeping a key word diary starting in February 2014, and I...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    😢😭 I try to get them to understand. But they never can. How can they, if I can't even understand myself. There's no reason at all to be still hurting. To still be sad and in...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Hi everyone, this is my first experience here and English is not my main language so sorry for bad English. About 4 days ago I went to see a psychiatrist because lately I was...
    Alvaro88 Alvaro88 26-30, M a week ago

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    I'm finally starting to feel happier in myself, just a month ago and I was on the verge of ending my own life and hating every second of every day. But Now I Haven't had a serious...
    nathans872 nathans872 18-21, M 5 Responses Feb 5

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    **** anyone who thinks depression is romantic. Depression is f*****g hell. Depression is not having the energy to get out of bed for 3 days. Depression is losing focus whenever you...
    0hSheanBreeze012 0hSheanBreeze012 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I ask myself everyday why i cant be normal like other people :'(
    TiffanyNicoleLovesNene TiffanyNicoleLovesNene 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 7

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    Each and every day I have to go to school where everyone knows is your best friend and the person you "like". Well mine fight each other because the person I like thinks that my...
    tickledcandyfloss tickledcandyfloss 13-15, F a week ago

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    My parents are sick and tired of having a sick child. My depression is so bad. They try and help me but they just make me feel worse. They don't even know I think about killing...
    tornapart123 tornapart123 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm sick of people saying that depression is a joke and that people who are depressed are just dramatic and weak . Depression is an illness , not a choice . We can't help how we...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    i have an extreme insecurity. it interupts my life. its a very odd insecurity too. had it for a year or two now and its really bad. people mess with it without realizing it every...
    mysteriousnite mysteriousnite 13-15, F Feb 1

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    For those of you who doubt getting professional help will change anything I say you should give it a try. I went to a pschiatrist and he diagnosed me with bipolar disorder and put...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F Feb 2

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    Today I observed myself talking to my fiancée on Skype. I noticed I didn't commit myself 100% to loving her, but rather around 65%. The other 35% was loving me. Feeling the sorrow...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 3 Responses Feb 3

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    Yes I do.and the lil voice in my head that's supposed to be my friend is horrid Every day it seams He sings Knock knock in ur head Bang bang I want u dead I'll kill ur family and...
    emo200 emo200 13-15, F Feb 6

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    I think Im falling down that bottomless pit again. For every day that passes I feel more and more depressed, sad and just sick. It feels like Im coming down with something, I feel...
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