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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 13-15, F 5 Responses May 29

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 16-17, M Jan 6

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    keri79 keri79 31-35, F May 27

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    Day 2.... as prompted by my work college, i have been asked to post 3 positives every day for the next week.... so here are Sundays positive's.. 1... Got a lie in bed instead of...
    marklovescoffee marklovescoffee 46-50, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I need to feel you every day in that special way
    nothism nothism 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    ...... Day five ...... As prompted by my work colleague.... .... ..... here is day 5 of my 3 positives a day thingy.... 1... The first positive...as you all know.. Today was my...
    marklovescoffee marklovescoffee 46-50, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    And I hate it. I hate myself for being like this. Even though I came out to my family and they've accepted me. I still feel in gods eyes I'm doing something wrong and I'm going to...
    ALEYXI ALEYXI 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Today i feel awful is like nobody is there. I feel bad about myself, i look in the mirror and i just want to brake it. I don't like me and i feel stupid about it. Nobody cares...
    havenoideaa havenoideaa 16-17, F Jul 19

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    I make myself drink a glass of water every time before I eat (including snacks). I read that this is supposed to help with weight loss. I don't know if it's working but my skin...
    restitutor restitutor 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Every guy. Is going to fall for the same girl. The same girls are going to get told there pretty over and over again. Because they are. And then there are the best friends. The...
    Cozie Cozie 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I'm really low right now. I need some help. I want to kill myself so badly but I need help in doing it. I need some encouragement. I can't do this anymore. Please help me. Help me...
    madsgrammar madsgrammar 16-17, F Jul 17

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    It's official, I'm in a feedist relationship! Well, I’m free to stuff, gain and indulge in feedism. My partner is new to it and may not be into it, but she’s supportive of me...
    enplumpen enplumpen 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    Thank you for giving me another day, another chance to become a better individual. Thank you for everything. ❤️
    hisangelicbaby hisangelicbaby 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Oh yes. I do. Every single day. Thanks to Zuzu, showing me how. It is such an imaginative thing to do, nfknfowhoghging. I enjoy it, and can't imagine life without it! omg wow...
    InternationalDarkness InternationalDarkness 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    A Facebook friend / work colleague has tagged me in one of her posts...she is also posting 3 positives a day for the next seven days....and made me do the same....so ...here are my...
    marklovescoffee marklovescoffee 46-50, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've been reminded by Mr. markie to write my three daily positives. *giggles* good thing or i would have forgotten. My #1. I spent the day listening to a mixture of music and...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Day three...... As prompted by my work colleague... ....... here is day 3, of my 3 positives a day.... 1... Done all mums shopping today..and saved loads of money with bogof...
    marklovescoffee marklovescoffee 46-50, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Day four of my 3 positives a day.... 1....fixed a customers tv this morning ...making her very happy to be able to see her soap operas again tonight... 2...had a good night at...
    marklovescoffee marklovescoffee 46-50, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm copying mr markie My #1. Today I fell asleep outside on a blanket. Well long story short. I got sunburn on my legs, but the good thing is its not real bad. My#2. I had a...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    :) My#1. Today has been an alright day. Nothing really bad happened today so I guess that's a good thing. My#2. James was a weirdo today... *still scratching my head* he asked me...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    don't really have a choice, I have to use catheters every time I pee (its only in when im in the toilet) due to disability and I have to drink loads and loads because of my kidney...
    wheels1972 wheels1972 41-45, M Jul 2

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    July 4th will be the second anniversary of the day I lost my wife. It happened in an instant, though I didn't realize at the time just how catastrophic it was. She lives on in my...
    niplover6969 niplover6969 51-55, M 3 Responses Jul 2

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    i keep trying to be perfect, and i'm falling so short right now. i have no relationship with my husband, i don't really have any friends either. i have a few co-workers that i can...
    daskjl daskjl 26-30, F Jul 6

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      Starting today, I'm done waiting for a day to spark me. I'm tired, I'm overweight, I'm unhealthy, & no more waiting on dr to ok exercises because of my lupus & chipped...
    SIUnDIY SIUnDIY 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Just as you finally believe the depression has subsided it comes back. The numbness and the pain begins to resurface and there's nothing you can do to rid yourself of this toxicity...
    nottobevelealed nottobevelealed 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I think I fall in love...huhh I don't loke this feeling. I haven't liked someone for a long time and now I want to be like that again. I just meet him a few hours ago, he's my...
    Tikksunisa Tikksunisa 18-21, F Jul 21

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    Every time I look at a girl I think of lustful thoughts having lewd dreams I'm a tomboy and yes I'm gay but I get hit on 16 year olds I'm freakin 14 although there is this one girl...
    coolchaser25 coolchaser25 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    1. A nice hot shower to wash work life away! 2. Helped several people with housing issues today 3. I love my home
    daisybell7 daisybell7 36-40, F 12 hrs ago

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    Ok so here it goes... my three positives for today! My#1. Today I got to sit and chat with a few of my ep friends. I really liked the catch up. My#2. I took the advice that mark...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    and da*m is it draining me
    Taylorr2 Taylorr2 13-15, F Jul 10

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    Oh that's all I've been doing for the past 9 months nothing else but water and I feel unreal or out of this world, oh and I have more energy!
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 20 hrs ago

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    Thanking God for what you already have is a better prayer than asking for things that you do not need
    MtnDewForever MtnDewForever 16-17, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    I went skateboarding yesterday and was at the park from 9:00am-6:00pm practicing only 5 tricks but I got them all down perfect and clean
    lifesowavey lifesowavey 16-17, M Jul 20

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    1. It's midnight and I'm happy 2. Cute animal videos on YouTube made me laugh 3. You are not alone. There's other people out there feeling exactly the same. I love EP!!!
    daisybell7 daisybell7 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Lol another reminder from markie to do my three positives. I know I'm late so here is to make up for yesterday. My#1. I went to my aunts Birthday party and had loads of fun...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    1. Rain isn't always a bad thing! Means you can stay indoors and bond with family without feeling guilty! 2. Making buns with my daughter was fun today 3. I won't have a hangover...
    daisybell7 daisybell7 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't know why I even bother trying to look and feel good, the sparkle in my eyes are gone!
    brokenh8rt brokenh8rt 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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