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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29

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    keri79 keri79 31-35, F May 27

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 13-15, F 5 Responses May 29

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 16-17, M Jan 6

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    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    Made it to 11 am today before it set in. I hate it, it's taking over my life!'
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    90 min of cross trainer today... Wish to make it every day!! Wonderful feeling after finishing and having a shower!!!
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    Just returned from a few months away again, and restarted my membership the very next day. It surprised me that I'm actually a bit stronger than I was when I'd left. Noticeably...
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    And I hate it. I hate myself for being like this. Even though I came out to my family and they've accepted me. I still feel in gods eyes I'm doing something wrong and I'm going to...
    ALEYXI ALEYXI 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Today i feel awful is like nobody is there. I feel bad about myself, i look in the mirror and i just want to brake it. I don't like me and i feel stupid about it. Nobody cares...
    havenoideaa havenoideaa 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Every guy. Is going to fall for the same girl. The same girls are going to get told there pretty over and over again. Because they are. And then there are the best friends. The...
    Cozie Cozie 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I'm really low right now. I need some help. I want to kill myself so badly but I need help in doing it. I need some encouragement. I can't do this anymore. Please help me. Help me...
    madsgrammar madsgrammar 16-17, F a week ago

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    Thank you for giving me another day, another chance to become a better individual. Thank you for everything. ❤️
    hisangelicbaby hisangelicbaby 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Oh yes. I do. Every single day. Thanks to Zuzu, showing me how. It is such an imaginative thing to do, nfknfowhoghging. I enjoy it, and can't imagine life without it! omg wow...
    InternationalDarkness InternationalDarkness 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have not ate in 3 days. My stomach feels like it's eating eats self right now. Ugh!!!!!
    Puppieslover9 Puppieslover9 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    I have been living with serious pain since I was 16. I was in a car accident where I was rear-ended by a car that was speeding. Since that day I have had chronic neck and lower...
    i4it4t i4it4t 36-40, M Jun 30

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    don't really have a choice, I have to use catheters every time I pee (its only in when im in the toilet) due to disability and I have to drink loads and loads because of my kidney...
    wheels1972 wheels1972 41-45, M Jul 2

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    July 4th will be the second anniversary of the day I lost my wife. It happened in an instant, though I didn't realize at the time just how catastrophic it was. She lives on in my...
    niplover6969 niplover6969 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    i keep trying to be perfect, and i'm falling so short right now. i have no relationship with my husband, i don't really have any friends either. i have a few co-workers that i can...
    daskjl daskjl 26-30, F Jul 6

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      Starting today, I'm done waiting for a day to spark me. I'm tired, I'm overweight, I'm unhealthy, & no more waiting on dr to ok exercises because of my lupus & chipped...
    SIUnDIY SIUnDIY 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Just as you finally believe the depression has subsided it comes back. The numbness and the pain begins to resurface and there's nothing you can do to rid yourself of this toxicity...
    nottobevelealed nottobevelealed 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I think I fall in love...huhh I don't loke this feeling. I haven't liked someone for a long time and now I want to be like that again. I just meet him a few hours ago, he's my...
    Tikksunisa Tikksunisa 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    and da*m is it draining me
    Taylorr2 Taylorr2 13-15, F Jul 10

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    I went skateboarding yesterday and was at the park from 9:00am-6:00pm practicing only 5 tricks but I got them all down perfect and clean
    lifesowavey lifesowavey 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    My boyfriend likes fit girls with abs and nice firm butts. I'm skinny but problem is I don't have abs or a firm butt so I was wondering how or what I should do to achieve these...
    kat0228 kat0228 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    The Mind Body Code Dr Mario Martinez http://youtu.be/A2Duu9JO6vg The immune system is a biosymbolic confirmer of the consciousness that you create. If you have an empowered...
    jenga1 jenga1 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Yep. I do and I like it. So many people on here don't get enough. I just had to say.
    MGF69 MGF69 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I don't think I've eaten a proper meal In a week.... Maybe 2? Maybe I should eat dinner.
    adav218 adav218 13-15, M Jun 30

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    I love YouTube, I'm not good at my channel yet but I am getting there, wish me luck, visit my channel if you want. Danieltheloren
    iceacd iceacd 16-17, M Jun 30

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    I don't know why I even bother trying to look and feel good, the sparkle in my eyes are gone!
    brokenh8rt brokenh8rt 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    Feel like I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown I can't take it no more.
    saneelax saneelax 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    of my career pretty much. It's always been stressful. Oddly this fatalistic view has somehow worked for me and I was never fired or laid off in now 32 years in the work fore...
    experimed experimed 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    It's good to drink plenty of water when dieting. Works for me at least.
    dogpile86 dogpile86 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    But I will not let it define me. I have seen, learned, and experienced too much to give up now. The fight may wear me out but it will not wear me down. To those of you who are in a...
    NexChance NexChance 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    Trying to drink more water seems to clear my migraines at work a lot better then just takin aspirin guess it was dehydration causing my headaches :)
    sg1989 sg1989 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    My husband left me for another woman, but I am not that upset anymore. I am tired of men and looking to meet women that feel the same
    Jeniste65 Jeniste65 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    But they're really expensive. Especially with chocolates and a teddy. I bought my girlfriend flowers for the first time. I bought them online from a local florist near her because...
    ShaunSAP ShaunSAP 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    This is the only thing that channels me,balances me, the thing that I enjoy more than anything in the world. It is me, the major part of me and I have felt that way since about...
    severalanimals severalanimals 56-60, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I've been wearing the same pair of shoes for 2 years. They still look brand new and i only buy new shoes when i need to. Converse never go out of style :D
    Daaveed Daaveed 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    This moment in my life , can be pretty annoying to not know, but to make sure I can make the correct decisions that won't conflict my goals , but I just wish I wasn't doing it all...
    peaceembracer peaceembracer 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I think about killing myself every day. none of my "friends" or family care about me. I can't keep a job. I hate myself. I have nothing.