I Battle Myself Every Day

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 332 People

    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 29, 2014

    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn
    18-21, F
    Oct 5, 2011

    Why is night time, my mind goes crazy

    and begins to make my anxiety go mental.. Making it harder for me to fight the depression I'm in. I haven't dreamt in months.. Just nightmares waking me up in cold sweats sometimes crying, or even in a panic attack. There's a lot of darkness around my heart and soul at the...
    seanv14 seanv14
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 8, 2014

    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries
    18-21, F
    Jun 10, 2013

    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966
    41-45
    Jun 12, 2011

    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter
    18-21, F
    Jan 6, 2012
    takemeawaay takemeawaay
    16-17, F
    5 Responses May 29, 2014

    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2012
    keri79 keri79
    36-40, F
    May 27, 2014

    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15
    18-21, M
    Jan 6, 2014

    I've fought with my depression

    since i was 5 years old, but never really understood it till i was 8 years old. since then I've been battling myself with multiple mental illnesses/disorders. growing up my father and mother were doing drugs, my dad being worse off, he would be so out of it that i don't think he...
    kelsey1426 kelsey1426
    18-21, F
    Aug 30, 2015

    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl
    26-30, F
    Apr 2, 2014

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