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I Battle Myself Every Day

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    However cheesy or whatever this whole thing may

    sound, I feel like I need to talk about it. Being told you're skinny is maybe a compliment to some people but I absolutely hate it. Yes, I know I'm skinny and underweight, I look into the mirror every day and hate what I see. Most people my age feel the same way, whether you...
    timeofyourlifex timeofyourlifex 18-21, F 1 Response May 29, 2014

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    Everyday i look upon the world

    and fail to see my difference. I have been called everything from A-Z. I have been betrayed numerous times and still am. I see a lonely future and I believe that's what scares me the most. Everything I seem to do always backfires and I'm on the edge of letting go.
    Drifter15 Drifter15 18-21, M Jan 6, 2014

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    Insanity Defined

    weve all heard that insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results .. well it is .. and even though i have built up my life multiple times i continue to tear it down with a repeated cycle of drug use thing is im 44 now and i have burned most all...
    ritzi1966 ritzi1966 41-45 Jun 12, 2011

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    Wars Waged

    scene: epic battleground of your own personally epic choosing characters: me                    me                     chinchilla friend (because everyone needs a chinchilla friend and you know it) *fade in* Me faces me in the epic battle...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F Oct 5, 2011

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    Why is night time, my mind goes crazy

    and begins to make my anxiety go mental.. Making it harder for me to fight the depression I'm in. I haven't dreamt in months.. Just nightmares waking me up in cold sweats sometimes crying, or even in a panic attack. There's a lot of darkness around my heart and soul at the...
    seanv14 seanv14 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 8, 2014

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    I've fought with my depression

    since i was 5 years old, but never really understood it till i was 8 years old. since then I've been battling myself with multiple mental illnesses/disorders. growing up my father and mother were doing drugs, my dad being worse off, he would be so out of it that i don't think he...
    kelsey1426 kelsey1426 18-21, F Aug 30, 2015

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    takemeawaay takemeawaay 16-17, F 5 Responses May 29, 2014

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    The Fight I Can Never Ever Win...

    I battle myself everyday, from cutting to disordered eating. it's a battle I can never seem to win ever. and it's killing me slowly everyday and I know it...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F Jan 6, 2012

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    I'm Just So F*cking Deprssed I Dont Know How Why Or When I Ended In This Situtaion Im In

    Everyday is the same.Im young with no plans.What can be worst alot more can be.I mean no ambtion in my head I want succes and happiness who doesn't right??....Never had any real thought about what I want for my life.I graduated from highschool 2 years ago and I'm turnign 20...
    lonleystoner lonleystoner 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    I hate this… I wish I could just run away

    sometimes and just live by myself. The minute I start to care and open my heart up and try to be normal, I realize how hurtful and awful people are. Why is it when you're going through **** I'm supposed to care and talk you through it and hold your hand and make you feel better...
    SECgirl SECgirl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2014

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    I Battle Myself..

    Everyday I fight myself, not to cut, to eat, to not throw up, to not cut, to not hurt myself, to not kill myself. and I am f*cking tired of it. im so done when everyday is this MASSIVE challenge even when Im doing nothing all my effort is out into keeping me alive..
    WhenSheCries WhenSheCries 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    keri79 keri79 36-40, F May 27, 2014

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    Forgot to follow up on my original post so I'll continue from here. 1. I'm just about to enjoy a nice cuppa. 2. I am starting to be more true to myself. 3. It's not long until my...
    Romanadvoratrelundar Romanadvoratrelundar 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    It's getting to the point where I'm writing more stories than normal, but I just can't help it. There are so many crazy things going on in my life. I suppose I'll just describe the...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I think so - and parents should allow time and understand it is a natural need.
    MartinHill MartinHill 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't wait for my best friend to get home! I need to be suckled and I'm sure she will too! I love laying next to each other while we suckle each other's nips! And hopefully I'll...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 days ago

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    I do have a reason for why I am anxious though...but if I write it all down, it is sure going to be quite a long story. What I can tell you is that lately I had been trapped into a...
    LexiMory LexiMory 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It's 7am. I've been up all night reading. I am only here now because I am troubled. I want to state that everything I post on here is everything that is happening in my life. I...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I did the depression anxiety and stress test and I got 32/24/32 which is extremely severe (depression) extremely severe (anxiety) and only severe stress. Extremely mean it can't...
    SadlySafe SadlySafe 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I try not too...I try so hard...this might be the last time for me
    vamp1r3 vamp1r3 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    My anxiety has become so bad that basically I've become a prisoner in my own house. I hate to go out because people are really ignorant and every time I look at somebody, I get a...
    TheLastExile TheLastExile 41-45, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    https://crowdfunding.justgiving.com/charlie-skinner Hi guys! I'm fundraising only £350 so I can buy a 3D micrphone to make theraputic video's for all who suffer with anxiety...
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I don't even want to mention how yesterday went. It was another awful day. I can't think of many days where I've had series of ugly things happen to me over and over again. In fact...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    If only my daydreams can become reality I'll be happy
    RainbowCrayon666 RainbowCrayon666 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    Well, where to start. I went out to eat with some friends yesterday. Our one friend works at a Thai restaurant, so we went there. It was alright..... Just the people I went with...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    yes I do when I work I have 2 inside my underwear//Friday night get home I put 3 more in inside my underwear/with my 2 pr rubber pants set all week end too pee in em//love it when...
    leroy57 leroy57 56-60, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Day 3: 1. My kids 2. My bed 3. Coffee
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Yes I do too. everytime I pray.
    jtlittlebit jtlittlebit 13-15, F a week ago

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    Day 2 - 1. First day Lowering the dose on my ADHD meds worked out well. 2. I got paid today. 3. I'm in a fairly good mood
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response a week ago

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    Yes I Thank God everyday maybe 7 to 10 times a day. but anytime I talk to God i thank Him for everything He has done for me in my life. Our God is so amazing nothing can evan come...
    bdawn36502 bdawn36502 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    F, 28. Looking for a suicide partner.
    jg813 jg813 26-30, F Jan 29

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    Nice idea. 1) The weather is just perfect today. 2) Seems like I'm getting better and my flu is going away. 3) I really like my job.
    igorxavierw igorxavierw 18-21, M Jan 28

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    1. I think my crush is my friend 2. I didn't fight with my mom today 3. I'm trying to think more positive.....there. That wasn't too difficult.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 28

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    1.my cat is still healthy and seems to be more obedient to me lately 2.my hair is still all intact. 3. weather could be worse for winter
    Cocrispy Cocrispy 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    This seems like a nice idea so I'll give it a go. 1. I have my health. 2. I have a roof over my head. 3. I have people who care about me. Simple things yet they mean so much.
    Romanadvoratrelundar Romanadvoratrelundar 26-30, M Jan 28

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    I Will Not Post 3 Positives Every Day For The Next Seven Days
    TheAvenue TheAvenue 18-21, M Jan 28

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    It's nearly 5am, and I couldn't get to sleep. My sleeping pattern is so off. I tried staying up all last night to fix it only to pass out at 11am and wake up at 5pm. It's...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    My brother is alive. We do not have to shut off his machines like a doctor wanted. I get more time with him.
    geminigirl54 geminigirl54 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Today I was home from work because I am sick however the day wasn't a total waste. I burned over 300 calories in the treadmill, spent some time with my boyfriend's mom, and even...
    lizzie9787 lizzie9787 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I crossed two things of my to do list today. I danced to an old CD that I made in 2006. I am looking forward to my (39th) birthday tomorrow.
    Steffy128 Steffy128 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 27

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