I Battle Myself Everyday

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    For a person like myself,

    someone who has been crushed by his regrets and missed opportunities, my daily life at age 47 is nothing short of a nightmare! When my mother was alive I could go to her and ask her advice. Often time she'd see things I didn't. She died in 2009 because of me. Now 5 years later I...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife
    46-50, M
    8 Responses Mar 11, 2014

    I wake up and feel heavy.

    Like there is some emotional weight constantly dragging down on me. I am happy I tell myself. I have a home and I have shelter and food on the table. I am happy. But that is just the saddest lie. Why must I trick myself this way? I hate the way I look. I think about it everyday...
    500DaysOfWhat 500DaysOfWhat
    18-21, F
    May 12, 2014

    I'm battling with the thought of wanting to die.

    I don't want to relapse but I'm coming so close to cutting and burning again and I probably will relapse cause I'm not strong enough
    ashleymac96 ashleymac96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2014

    I am my own worst enemy.

    I can't keep friends because when people start to get close I am the person who backs out. In a way it hurts because I have don't really have anyone I can talk to. But then the pro to it is I'm very strong and independent and self sufficient. So I know I'll be ok, but it gets...
    SECgirl SECgirl
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Mar 11, 2014

    I told myself I was going to become a more

    positive person, and inside I really want to.... But then there's something inside me that seems to always ruin that....and thinks of the most negative aspects of a situation.
    csl87 csl87
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2014

    The Percs of Life Starts off fun everything

    is great, Couldn't feel any better because of the pill I just ate. Ya the one the doc gave me when I hurt my back, never thought it would turn my world completely black. They try to warn you and say take as prescribed, but when I took more I thought they must have lied You...
    stuckinNJ stuckinNJ
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 11, 2014

    I Cant Pick and Choose Either .

     unfortunately the downside  of having manic depression is  the down sides and sometimes the  manic phases are even bad ...  but i lose focus of my goals with one hint of doubt in myself .. but when im manic  I feel like i  can conquer the world...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    Jul 28, 2007

    Life As Battle

    What I mean by "battling myself": I think that life is like a battle. I've been diagnosed with various psychological afflictions, and I really want to become a happier person. So I live everyday and I try to fight it; the thing is, in the process, I'm actually fighting...
    stellarvore stellarvore
    18-21, M
    Oct 29, 2007

    i have two sides of me,

    a voice in my head that tries to get me to remove all my compassion i have for anything or anyone in this world. that 'other' person is the person i see when i look in the mirror. i feel myself giving in but at the same time i refuse to lose against myself. i want to be happy...
    5203am 5203am
    18-21, F
    Mar 11, 2014
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