I Battle Self Hatred

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    The Monster Called Hate

    I wake up every morning dreading the day ahead. I work a job I hate to make money to fund the job i will hate for the next 60 years. I live with people i hate because i can't afford to leave this behind. Most of all I'm scared. Terrified that one day i'm going to be so alone i...
    AliveInTheLights AliveInTheLights
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2012

    Overcoming Self-hatred

    I have had feelings of self-hatred as long as I remember. I was an overweight, intelligent child with glasses, teacher's pet, etc. My family and peers judged me for my weight. I turned that judgment inward. I turned to food for comfort and gained more weight. The self-hatred has...
    kerowyn kerowyn
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2010

    Why Hate Thyself

    Hate is a powerful word. The dictionary defines "hate" as: [The emotion of intense dislike; a feeling of dislike so strong that it demands action]. In my experience I remember doing many thing throughout the past that I disapproved of. That is right I "disapproved" of my actions...
    wherewerewe wherewerewe
    46-50, M
    Dec 13, 2012

    I thought I was doing better.

    That was unitl I woke up this morning and just had everything crash back into me.
    Dacer13 Dacer13
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2014
    MikeOkBurns MikeOkBurns
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 7, 2014

    I thought I was getting over this .

    .. depression... but it isnt easy.. it's hard.. i have friends who help me and i help them... but I dont know what's going on with me.. something is wrong with me
    yeahohwell yeahohwell
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 18, 2014

    I hate myself soooo much.

    Like nobody understand how much I do. I hate every single inch of my body. Who would ever love me again? I'm covered in scars. Estimated scars: 480 And my stupid body thinks it good enough but I know in the back of my mind it's really not.
    MikeOkBurns MikeOkBurns
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 10, 2016

    looking in the mirror makes me cringe i hate

    myself to such a extent and it kills me. i feel like no one could ever like me which i believe no one does. 16 ive never been kissed or had a boyfriend, my hairs too short and im too fat for anyone to find me decent looking i cant stand myself most times i disgust myself i dont...
    mariie97 mariie97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 22, 2014

    My Self Hatred

    I hate myself, I want to bleed, I cry at night, longing to be freed. I think of death, there’s so much pain, I’m losing myself, I’m going insane. I cut myself, because I binged and purged, I do it every day, whenever I get the urge. I feel so ugly, and so fat, Life...
    gentlyyours gentlyyours
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 23, 2012

    There's nothing to like about myself,

    and I'm never good enough.
    wassup305 wassup305
    18-21, F
    Apr 26, 2015

    Why Can'T I Just Appreciate Life?

    So I guess that I just don't appreciate life right now, I mean right now things are good I've finished my exams and have a job for summer, but I still feel dark and empty inside, I just feel cold and I'm not really living life ... just passing through. I'm just feeling that no...
    TheDarkClaw TheDarkClaw
    22-25, F
    Jun 6, 2013


    I've always hated how I looked. I never thought I was thin enough, or that my stomach was flat enough. There was always someone else that was better. It only got worse after having a kid. I walk past a mirror, or any reflective surface, and grimace because what I see disgusts me...
    kellbell0629 kellbell0629
    May 17, 2013

    I Want To Help

    hey im aleks and i want to help anyone if you want it. just message me or add me. i will listen to what ever problem
    mindinthesky mindinthesky
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 12, 2013

    I think about killing myself every day.

    I hate being so ugly and worthless. I wish I would just to avoid any unnecessary guilt. It isn't like I chose to be alive anyway, but if I could have chosen I would have stayed as I was before ever being. The world owes me nothing, and nothingness will swallow me, I just wish I...
    sunkern sunkern
    22-25, M
    Aug 14, 2014

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Mar 31, 2016

    I Keep It All Inside...

    They tell me I'm pretty...They tell me I'm a good person...They tell me I'm an honest person...But do they really know I"m a liar...I'm ugly...I'm not lovable enough for you to except me....I want so much to tell them I'm a liar...because of those lies I feel hatred for myself...
    XxlostxsoulxX7 XxlostxsoulxX7
    2 Responses Feb 11, 2010

    I have no idea why I exist,

    you guys. I feel worthless and unlovable. Like, I just wish someone could give me the feeling of being needed, being here for a purpose, not just being some random person walking this earth. I wish I meant something to someone, someone who is willing to show it to me. And at the...
    yxfx yxfx
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 28, 2014

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016


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    Feb 7, 2013

    I Have Thrown My Life Away

    My self hatred has caused me to spiral down hill repeatedly because I don't care about myself at all.. It hurts the ppl I love when they heard say that but they know its true.. My actions show it to he a fact.. Now I have thrown my life away and key my hate take over
    EmilyLynn21 EmilyLynn21
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2013

    I Am Truly Disgusting

    I was a horny teenager and I wanted to lose my virginity. I wanted to throw it away. So I used the Internet, made friends with horny guys and sent them nude pictures. I'm a dirty good for nothing ****. They wanted me. They all wanted me and I thought it was so great but then when...
    ginger1776 ginger1776
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 21, 2012

    I'm just really hating myself tonight.

    I do live streams on twitch every now and then, and I just got started really. But I'm just no good with them. I feel like I'm too much of an introvert to be entertaining. Hell, I got at least 10 viewers tonight and most went to someone I was on a skype call with during the...
    Timster91 Timster91
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 30, 2014

    It's Not Fair To Cry In Your Sleep.

    I hate myself. I've been in and out of therapy since I was 17 and I'm now 23. I'm afraid it's never going to go away. I've never been in a relationship with a guy before and when one shows interest in me I become a *****. I'm rude to them to turn them off, but it's not them, it's...
    crystalrain87 crystalrain87
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 18, 2011

    I'm so mean to myself.

    If someone were to ask me one thing I like about myself, I wouldn't be able to come up with anything. When people compliment me, I usually say thank you, but I think about how wrong they are for a long time afterwards. I want to love myself, but people have abused me for so...
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x
    22-25, F
    May 14, 2014

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2016

    I feel a burning sensation inside me,

    it's a hatred for myself. I'm forgotten about. My behavior is abnormal. I hate my body, it makes me want to throw up. I have no ambition whatsoever. I just want everything I hate to erode me away. I wish I was dead, more than anything in the world. I've grown numb, want to die...
    blitzd blitzd
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

    Not being able to decide between overdosing on

    pills or puking your guts out until all that comes up is blood. Doing both, over and over again. That sick feeling never goes away, no matter how many times you take medicine or throw up. Can I just have a few moments to put make up on my scars? I don't want them to know what I...
    Franse Franse
    22-25, M
    Mar 27, 2015

    I Hate Me

    I'm a fat ******* pig I'm lazy and obnoxious and weak and unattractive and inhuman and dispationet I'm not sure why I'm posting this For attention maybe But I thought if try something befor cutting this time
    moccasandy moccasandy
    18-21, M
    Nov 22, 2013

    I Hate Myself So Much.

    Every day I look at myself and feel sick.My boyfriend always tells me i'm beautiful, i'm this - i'm that. And I keep having to tell him that it doesn't matter what he says or how often he says it I will never take it in or believe him.I've self harmed in many ways...
    Popkins Popkins
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2010

    Is it normal to feel everything

    but numb at the same time? My emotions and feelings are all over the place but then I know exactly what I want to do and where I want to be I just can't get there without having a panic attack just thinking about it
    ashleymac96 ashleymac96
    18-21, F
    Apr 23, 2015
    skyglad skyglad
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 20, 2016

    I'm A Candle.

    Sometimes I feel like a candle, on a path to self-destruction. In the desperate attempt to keep the flame of life going, I'm only just stripping myself away; I'm melting in my own tears of wax which I cry. Eventually, I'll fade out into the darkness in which I spawned from.
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2013

    Life As A Pumpkin......

    I was thinking one day while i was eating w/ my family, I am like a Pumpkin. A pumpkin has nothing inside but yet holds it's self up. You carve it to be what you want to see.... And that is what i did with myself. I carved PUMPKIN into my leg so i could see just how empty i was...
    blueyedgirl17 blueyedgirl17
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2013


    i used to like myself, when i was in high school maybe. i was over weight and happy with myself even tho i was. then i left to go to a treatment place for over a year and i developed an eating disorder that made me go from 250lbs to 130lbs. i don't like the way i look, probably...
    Spilled Spilled
    22-25, F
    Sep 27, 2013

    When tears stain your skin like blood,

    you wonder what's wrong with me. When you look around at happy faces and wonder why you can't feel such a simple emotion you think there must be something wrong with me. When you look in the mirror and can't find one good thing about yourself, you think, I can't be the only one...
    AwkwardTurtle46 AwkwardTurtle46
    18-21, F
    Mar 26, 2015
    musiclover1997 musiclover1997
    22-25, F
    Mar 12, 2014

    I Base My Self-esteem On Others Alot.

    People are very weird with me.  I get alot of attention and am told I am pretty, but lots of people don't seem to like me.  I feel like I don't really connect with others and I always feel like people don't want to include me in their conversations.   ...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 10, 2010
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    I am constantly ignored by people,

    I would have a short conversation with someone in real life or online then NOTHING. The person just stops talking to me/blocks me/ ignores me or disappears. Online is one thing but seriously am I that boring, weird, odd that nobody will have more than a few conversations with me...
    VirtualExistence VirtualExistence
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 11, 2014

    "I hate you." Those words no longer hurt me

    because I say the same thing to my mirror every single morning.
    muchcolour muchcolour
    18-21, F
    Apr 25, 2015
    TeddyOrTeddie TeddyOrTeddie
    16-17, M
    Jun 24, 2014
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