All my life I have battled depression and my depression is extremely bad for me...all I have to do is look at a knife or anything dangerous and all I want to do is hurt myself...
I self medicate myself because my doctor doesn't really give a crap about me.
And use comedy to help me.
Because meds made me worse.
And chris proved why.
The reason I can't sleep at night isn't because I can't actually sleep. It's because I won't let myself sleep. Because I'm terrified that I'll just stop breathing, I'll die, and I...
The anxiety is taking over, I feel as if I can barely breath, not organize a single thought or action, and I'm so, so tired.
Having an off day today. It's hard, the holiday season. My dead fathers side of the family is taking such good care of me and for the first time in years I'm being included in the...
I don't understand what's wrong with me.
I don't know what it is that I'm doing that pushes people away.
I know people who are shadier and bitchier than I am but for some reason...
Anyone got a gun to shoot me with?
The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein.
I heard it was about a tree and a boy.
The tree was generous. Very generous, in fact, it may have been too generous.
Am I not here
Sighted yet absent
Floating in space
Holograms, specters, silhouettes
Never asked me
You just let me
No one knows
"We are all mad here."
"But do you know I am mad?"
"You must be. Or else you never will have came here."
As I leave my flat at Webb house supported housing for people with mental health issues I walk down the road and I walk in mark & Spenser in middlesbrough
I stand before the mirror...
I've never hated myself before. But recently I'm struggling with is. less hating who am, but more hating who I was.
a weak needy person.
I know I'm not that person anymore but...
I don't know how to stop myself I hardly don't eat anything...I cut..I punch and hit myself constantly...I pull my hair to the point where I almost rip my hair out..I scratch and...