I Battle Self Injury

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 243 People

    In The Past

    Thankfully I have kicked the want and (psychological) need to self harm. Haven't done it in about 2 years :) Though When I was younger, around 15-18 years old, I used to do it a lot. So much so that sometimes It would be hard to walk. I always hid the injuries though, it was...
    mistakenstrangers mistakenstrangers
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Mar 9, 2011

    They Don't Get It

    how could they get it? they wouldn't understand, the relief that i get, from the knife held in my hand. but the relief is cut short, until it hurts to much, then it's back to the knife. when they ask me how i am, i always say i'm fine, i just hide my pain, behind these fake...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98
    18-21, F
    Aug 5, 2013

    I am so broken mentally

    and physically. I don't want to live like this I don't want to deal with this anymore. I have many scars from just trying to stay alive and feel something. The cuts are getting deeper and more frequent. I can't stop
    alanabean alanabean
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 26, 2014

    My self harm is getting really out of control.

    I've been cutting at least twice a day sometimes four or five times a day. I'm starting to scare myself as thoughts of suicide are more frequent too. I can't control it anymore.
    alanabean alanabean
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 2, 2014

    I'm 30 years old and have been a self injurer

    for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, I would hit myself in the head or punch and pinch myself. As an adolescent I discovered razor blades as my medium. It's been 6 years since I have cut, but I have reverted back to the hitting, pinching and punching. I feel trapped...
    jpottsie jpottsie
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

    I'm drowning in a pool of my own blood

    and tears. It seems that cutting is the only thing I have left that can make me feel anything at all. Nothing else works anymore, the only reason I'm still alive is because of cutting. But I can feel it slowly losing its magic. I'm becoming immune to it just like I have with...
    mmccarth mmccarth
    18-21, F
    Dec 14, 2013

    Hm...

    i started cutting in college.... i've battled depression pretty much all my life and i have anxiety issues which lead to why i've done it... i've been clean for about 4+ months now but it's a struggle : / i had a huge urge to cut today...fmlll
    secondstarontheleft secondstarontheleft
    22-25, F
    Oct 27, 2012

    Idk

    I have battled SI for years now on and off. I can't seem to stop for good. And to be honest I don't think I want to. I don't think I can cope with my life's circumstances without it. I don't think that people who haven't ever tried it can tell me not to do it, because honestly...
    bandgeek1022 bandgeek1022
    16-17, F
    Oct 13, 2009

    One of the biggest myths is

    that men don't self-mutalate, but they do. I have numerous scars on my arms and wrist from cutting myself and they are visible. I used to pick the scabs, so I can have scars because I, for some reason thought scars were cool. All these scars do is make people look and stare at...
    marques30s marques30s
    31-35, M
    Nov 3, 2014

    Anyone Else?

    Does anyone else harm themselves by swallowing inanimate objects? It is one of the many forms of self-injury I have adapted over the years. Right now I am just dwelling on it because I am super anxious and triggered,a nd I know if I swallow certain things they will put me under...
    Androgosane Androgosane
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2013

    Battling Self Injury For Years...

    I think I am an indigo person. I have always been extremely sensitive, one of my early consistent memories is that of sitting on my fathers lap, crying over what I have no clue now, and listening to my dad say "you are to sensitive". It made me feel  very defensive, because I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 14, 2011

    Every Day Is A Battle

    I battle self-injury every single day. The minute anything in my life is overwhelming, that is the first place I want to turn. I just found out I failed a class today and I'm in jeopardy of not getting into the nursing program at my school. Nursing is the only thing I want to...
    sarahmayy sarahmayy
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2010

    Idk

    I have battled SI for years now on and off. I can't seem to stop for good. And to be honest I don't think I want to. I don't think I can cope with my life's circumstances without it. I don't think that people who haven't ever tried it can tell me not to do it, because honestly...
    bandgeek1022 bandgeek1022
    16-17, F
    Oct 13, 2009

    When you bleed out so much

    before a psychiatrist appt that when he takes your blood pressure the pulses per minute increase by 25 just from sitting to standing.... Now my mum is sitting in on my showers so I don't die...fantastic
    georgia5656 georgia5656
    16-17, F
    Sep 6, 2015

    I Can'T Stop

    I've battled cutting since the end of August. I can't seem to stop. It's like I'm addicted to it. All my legs are cut up and some are beginning to heal and scar. It still hasn't clicked in my head how messed up my legs are going to look. I can't find a way to express my emotions...
    Lo24 Lo24
    26-30, F
    Sep 14, 2013

    Ever since I started dating my boyfriend I

    haven't cut. He keeps me grounded. :)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 14, 2013

    The Long Road

    I have been suffering from self injury for nearly eight years. I have gone a year at most with out doing it, It had been six months this last time and I really thought I was beating it. I slipped up three nights in a row and not in just a little way so now I am back at the cross...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2010

    Please Help Researchers Understand Self-harm

    Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)! Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in...
    PERL2009 PERL2009
    18-21
    Feb 4, 2010

    Stranger

    I lay in bed let the tears flow silently whispering at the urge to cut "please go" but the voice in my head says its better than the emotional pain and a small part of me asks what i have to gain but none of that matters once i give in and finally let that stupid...
    CrazyChicky123 CrazyChicky123
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2010

    I Like The Pain

    For as long as I can remember I have always used self harm to cope, especially when I'm stressed. Even when I was really little i'd scratch or hit myself. I could probably write a list a mile long of different ways to self harm- and those would just be the ways I have. There are...
    sparkles9513 sparkles9513
    16-17, F
    Mar 23, 2011

    I have this on going battle of self injury,

    every time I feel upset I immediately think of the blade. I have scars on my wrist and I want to stop yet I don't want to at the same time, any advice?
    ScaryTale ScaryTale
    18-21, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    I don't know how to stop myself I hardly don't

    eat anything...I cut..I punch and hit myself constantly...I pull my hair to the point where I almost rip my hair out..I scratch and bite myself I hit myself really hard with rocks...I don't know how to stop and my family think I have lost it and want to send me to go talk to...
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2014

    My Twisted, Broken Story.

    Okay, my life isn't easy. Never has been, but of recent late I've been on a downward spiral. I guess I'll start at the beginning. My father has been out of my life since I was 4, and that doesn't bother me. What bothered me was the way people treated me when they knew. It wasn't...
    KateSmurfy KateSmurfy
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2012

    I Take A Beating.

    I am 23 now and since i was about 10 i've been self-injuring myself. When i was little i remember getting angry or upset or bored and just smashing my head into the wall till it bled. I didn't think of it as injury then, it was just something that i assumed everyone did. I mostly...
    Underthenoise Underthenoise
    22-25, F
    Jul 23, 2012

    I am so tired of struggling every single day.

    I feel I'm at the point where I don't see the point in even trying anymore.
    tinkerbellisdead tinkerbellisdead
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 19

    Thats the reason i wear my mask.

    ..2 years ago I was in a car wreck, it was horrible like my face was all messed up so I thought i could wear a mask and of course why not a Guy Fawkes mask! But yea that explains me wearing mask...
    Decaydence Decaydence
    70+, T
    Aug 8, 2015

    I am here, I am her

    for you... If you need to talk I will listen all night. You want to run away and hide in your room, I will hide with you, you want some distance ill sit at the other end of the room. When you need to be held ill be right there beside you holding you tight. You need a drink ill...
    bolahaming bolahaming
    22-25, M
    Aug 23, 2014

    I have a problem with cutting

    and I really want it to stop! What should I do? Also how do I cover it up so my parents won't see?
    gagliardo32 gagliardo32
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2014

    Havent Done It Since 2009

    i used to self harm and people think its to get attention, its not, some people do it for attention and dont have any real problems but they are just ******* scum bags. I havent self harmed for a while because i realised it doesnt convert pain or make you feel better in any way...
    oligasdoi oligasdoi
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 6, 2013

    It has been 2 whole months

    since I did self harm. 😄 I can honestly say I haven't felt this good about myself in a long time! ❤️
    Eamsinkler97 Eamsinkler97
    18-21, F
    May 4, 2014

    The Pain That Heals The Pain.

    I have been battling self injury since I was 11 years old. I started off by cutting myself. I would tear apart razors just to get the sharpest blade. I am now 17 and haven't cut now for about 3 weeks. I don't only cut, I have burned myself and I have also purposely sprained or...
    ashnicqua ashnicqua
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 7, 2012

    Scars Completed

    When people see my scars they assume who I am and what I've been through. The truth is nobody will ever know me completely, not even you. The most important person in my life will never understand who bad it hurts when he looks at my arms and kisses my scars. I have almost no...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 25, 2012

    Poem - Bladed Injury

    Dear Bladed Injury, I miss you so. I miss your sharp edge, the almost euphoric rush, and the crimson dripping from the line on my body. You are my relief, -my soul mate! Being so far from you is mental torture, It is like my brain is on fire, and only your sharp, bladed edge can...
    carriewolf12 carriewolf12
    26-30, T
    Dec 28, 2012

    Stupid Old Woman

    When I was in my early teens, I was a cutter. At that time, there had been nothing talked about on that subject. Later I was startled to learn that I was not some freak of nature. I no longer cut but, instead, beat myself in the face. The relief I feel is....I don't know how...
    beevs beevs
    61-65, F
    Oct 3, 2012

    Recovering At The Moment.

    Ah, good ol' self injury..... It sucks. Big time.  I started when I was 15. I saw a TV show where one the the characters was doing it and I thought, "Hmm, maybe that'll help with what i'm feeling!"It did for a while, But it just made me feel worse. Never going swimming because I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 13, 2011

    At this point it feels like I can't

    even be around my parents anymore. I know they don't pay enough attention to me to see my scars but I feel like I must rush out of their presence so they won't see them.
    HalfVenti HalfVenti
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 19, 2014

    The Endorphins

    "She cuts herself, never too deep, never enough to die. But enough to feel the pain, Enough to feel the screams on the inside." It's a never ending vicious cycle. A constant thought in the back of your head. I love watching the blood run down my arms/legs/ wherever I decide to...
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness
    18-21, F
    Nov 21, 2013

    Cutting... its strange.

    Nonsensical really. From most cuts comes a dismal feeling of annoyance which often vexes the mind however... others can be so extraordinary.. Relieving... Exciting. A little less than a year ago I swore to never self-mutilate again, I've kept that oath. But sometimes... it feels...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 25

    Imagine. What If There Were A Way .....

    Imagine. What if there were a way? What if there were a way that you could get rid of all that emotional pain from your past? What if you could just pack it all up, put it in a bag and take it out to the curb and be done with it all? What if those painful memories weren't...
    newhopehealth newhopehealth
    46-50, M
    8 Responses Jun 11, 2010

    I've been cutting since I was about twelve.

    There have been so many people in my life who have tried to help but they give up on me. I feel bad that I can never go more than a couple weeks without cutting. It's been about 2 weeks since I've picked up a blade and I feel so tempted to right now.
    hxlxnb hxlxnb
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2014

    Im 15 years old. I won't say my real name

    but you can call me T. I'm in 10th grade and ever since I was 11 I've been hurting myself. I know it seems kinda young, but I didn't know I was doing it.. I still don't. I have social anxiety and it's kinda hard to make friends... So basically I'm socially retarded. Anyways as I...
    LifeBug LifeBug
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 2, 2014

    I seriously hate some people at my school like

    this one girl self harms and people have found out about it and made fun of her and called her Emo like first of all u r not Emo if u have self harmed and if you found out someone has self harm why would they make fun of her more?!?!?!?!???!? They should have never made fun of...
    thatgirl180 thatgirl180
    16-17
    Jul 28, 2015

    Almost A Year Now.

    I really miss cutting and burning. It's something that has been very difficult for me to walk away from. In a way, it was always some screwed up form of therapy for me, almost like a drug... a comfort. I used to take bobby pins, metal nail files, or razor blades and heat them...
    OblitusAuri OblitusAuri
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 26, 2012
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