I Battle Suicidle Tendencies

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    I have attempted suiside 3 times,

    the third time got me landed in Lawton Memorial Hospital in Lawton Oklahoma. all they did was pump me full of drugs to where I was like a zombie. well I just played Russian Roulette. I got up to 5 bullets in a revolver. damn fate for not letting me go. it took me days to build...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 23, 2015

    I almost did it today.

    been thinking about it for years. it would have been easy. not sure why I p*s*ied out. closer than I've ever been. I guess maybe I'm trying to prepare everyone. get them to understand. but its coming. maybe this week. or two weeks from now. I wish people could understand, that...
    ZombieBaitMaiden ZombieBaitMaiden
    31-35, F
    Jan 16
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2014
    BrokenLove49 BrokenLove49
    16-17, F
    Feb 25, 2014

    It's easier to say online

    than it is in person. I have told two people irl. Every time I get close enough to say something, I get the same reaction. People say it's "the easy way out". I get called selfish and am told to think about the people that "love" me. Well aren't the people that "love" me...
    thissworld thissworld
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 14, 2015

    I nearly crashed me car into a tree tonight.

    I know the one I would use .. I am just worried I won't die or something will go wrong. I need a gun.
    thissworld thissworld
    18-21, F
    Jul 10, 2015

    Whenever I think of the phrase "suicide attempt

    " it's like nails on a chalk board. It reminds me of how ashamed of myself I am. It also makes me feel like someone is laughing at me.
    RobinPancakes RobinPancakes
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 13, 2014

    Feeling Suicidal- My Life Story Part 10

    Guys… in Norco High school, I felt suicidal all the time. Like it’s not even funny how depressed I was. There was a time when the police came over to the house and asked if I wanted to get more help and go to a Hospital where I can finally get through this. So I agreed to go...
    cremecreme cremecreme
    18-21, F
    Aug 2, 2013

    The only reason I'm still alive is

    because I know what my death would do to those around me. It's the truth. The only reason that I'm able to write this now, is because I couldn't bear the thought of causing that much sadness within someone's life... Heh, and yet I always play the bad guy... I have...
    Stradinius Stradinius
    26-30, T
    Nov 6, 2015

    Lullaby

    Hush little baby, don't you cry Don't slit your wrists, don't say goodbye Put down that razor and look to the light I know it's hard. But you'll win this fight. <3
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx
    70+
    Nov 3, 2013

    I don't see a point in living.

    It's so easy but yet so hard to end it all.
    2p35jm 2p35jm
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2015
    Chesher Chesher
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2015

    I wanna cut still I haven't done it yet

    but one or two cuts Won't be bad will it... Won't hurt anyone Just help me
    Chesher Chesher
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    Imagine This

    Thinking about ending your life tonight? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx
    70+
    Nov 3, 2013

    I have been seriously considering it

    for the past few weeks. The main issue is method. I want it to be quick and I want there to be no chance of anything going wrong ..
    thissworld thissworld
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 9, 2015

    I feel absolutely worthless.

    ..every time some guy sends me a picture. every time they ask for one. it sickens me. i feel worthless. i feel like Im not worth anything more than that. i used to be okay with it...i know its not okay now. i have someone who loves me now and he's the only person i need. i...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2014
    maystribe maystribe
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Dec 9, 2013

    Somebody save me Let your warm hands break

    right through it Somebody save me I don't care how you do it, just stay, stay C'mon, I've been waiting for you
    Chesher Chesher
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 3, 2015

    My parents check to see

    if I Cut and said they are gonna bring me to a mental hospital so fml. I can't
    mixedchick45 mixedchick45
    18-21, F
    Mar 12
    Chesher Chesher
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 30, 2015

    I suffer from Bipolar disorder,

    and am nearly constantly contemplating just ending it. I've never gone through with anything for fear of hurting my loved ones, but on occasion I want to so bad that I almost wish I didn't have any family that way I wouldn't feel any remorse, which I know logically sounds...
    daughtersofanarchy daughtersofanarchy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2014

    Think am done now maybe I'll just go I try not

    to look at my arms but it's hard I want to cut so damn much It's been to long
    Chesher Chesher
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2015

    I want to die, then I don't cus of my son

    and niece. But I like hurting myself...
    kytabl30 kytabl30
    22-25, F
    Feb 25, 2014

    I am not sad right now

    or going through a rough patch. Infact, life is starting to look up. Career and Money wise I am going UP! like WAY UP! I will be making enough money to live on my own and without relying on roomates. I like my job, the people there are awsome and I have some really good friends...
    Krie Krie
    22-25
    2 Responses Jan 10, 2014

    So I gave in idk how long it's been

    but yeah I cut again it feels so good as well...
    Chesher Chesher
    18-21, M
    Nov 12, 2015

    Am getting very suicidal again

    and I hate it All I think about is cutting and every way to die again 😔
    Chesher Chesher
    18-21, M
    Oct 19, 2015
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